confused cranium

I am water

2016-03-26T08:27:00.001-07:00

I was conceived somewhere in the short breaths between ice and Air,
I whispered to the oceans that I have vibed with,
I have Tides inside my soul,
boulevards that sway to the coming wind,
each day I Rise before I fall back into myself,
into the dark depths of my soul, the frozen lake in my head,
lightly I attempt to tiptoe across but the constant sound of cracking below reminds me of the monsoons and jungle ahead,
and the Native Sun howls through the thorns and Vines,
a reminder of my weaknesses,
A reminder of my power.

2014-07-08T15:07:00.001-07:00

Rain drops,

Cleansing each petal of clover,

Turning over the dust,

Which has subtly turned to sod,

And I remember each day,

Is started the same,

A rebirth in to which,

Our names are written.

2013-09-18T20:35:00.002-07:00

Twilight and children opening their eyes to the moonlight with old sunlight in their hair cooling slow. On blue fleshy petals they dance naked, skyclad and barefoot in the morning dew. The soft dead cries violently born anew. The young praise the stars of the night sky; they laugh and wane like darkness and flow wherever dreams go.
Daylight and men closing their eyes to the sunlight with old moonlight in their blood burning slow. On the spines of the poor they dance crooked, white-collared in wing-tipped shoes. The living dies, silently setting again. The old salute the stars of a striped flag; they ache and shrivel in the earth and fade, as the sunlight wilts and withers tonight

Rollin' Stone

2013-09-05T17:40:00.002-07:00

I think about it,
Girl I know you do too,
we think about it,
How the fuck did we get here?

In a relationship with out a home,
I don't care about no one,
we been on this shit too long,
on this, rollin' stone,

Got me jackin' needles in my arms,
smokin' weed, fuck that never hurt no one,
we are a rollin' stone,
But, baby, I got you,
When my mystery fades away,
and all the love leaves,

Just love me baby,
Before I love me, baby,
Until you won't love me baby,
Becausae I cant love me,
I love you,

I'll be different,
I think I'll be different,
And I hope you still listen baby,
Cause, Baby GOD DAMN!
I got you Baby,
I fuckin' got you,
I still got you.

High for this

2013-09-05T17:27:00.000-07:00

You don't know what's in store,
but I promise you that you already know,
what you're here for,
close your eyes and lay yourself beside me,
hold tight, for this ride,
we won't need no protection,
we'll both cum alone we don't need no protection,

Hold my hand,
now open your hand,
take a drink,
my baby don't be scared,
I'm right here and,
even tho' you don't roll,
trust me girl,
you want to be high for this,

Take it all,
you'll want it all,
I know what you feelin',
cause I'm feelin' it too,
Let's let it be,
you and me,

Baby please,
I sware I'm right here,
we'll be good, I promise,
it'll be so damn good,
don't be scared,
lean close,
you don't have to worry no more.

2013-08-31T20:05:00.000-07:00

into new times once again,
I dream,
of desires I swam to depths,
so deep,
pictures I've tucked away,
and themes I have riddled,
words I have defined,
to describe,
the meaning of this life,
and those who fill (feel) it.

Poem by: Pastfuture- check him out to pastfuturemusic.com

2013-08-31T13:33:00.003-07:00

Thoughts will always form....
Truth thrives inside 
But functions like the perfect storm...
I stand and watch its life...
But The wind seems to rustle leaves
As visions turn trees 
Into acts of life. .
Alone upon an open field...
As they clutter 
And mutter
before the night.. 
My flesh is see through 
I traveled this far to see you
Its funny!!!
because I knew you would remember me 
Dont mind my still face 
But this journey 
Took some energy
You been gone for to long...
Sadness became my friend 
As pleasure came through
Good songs 
I just wish you would come back 
And play pretend with me... 
You always been my sweet serenity 
I have kept you a secret for to long. .
I engraved my darkest feelings
On this arm
I just wish you would stay with me

I took pills after talking to God 
Hoping youll show up
And stand with me .
I'm almost there 
So when I wake up 
I'm never scared 
I know this is fate
There's no need to talk 
For now I can wait 
I love you no matter how hard I cry
How much I hurt 
And even how hard I try
I will be back my friend
Sweet Serenity
Will create freedom again. 

behind

2013-08-17T08:43:00.005-07:00

I look behind myself,

searching for those who have gone,

sometimes feel thier shadows,

shading me from this storm,

God knows I squint when I look in front,

the mirror's smeared,

with ugly,

blood is my chaulk,

imagine smiling faces,

teeth beautiful, wet lips,

foolishly I've believed,

and comically they have wept',

I look into their eyes,

truely to detect,

motives that "Lie" beneath,

lips and blood stained teeth,

Am I asleep? or must

I wake, fainting memories,

times we've had,

so fucking fake,

Damaged goods,

that's how I feel,

second chances,

do not appeal,

my heart and mind are cold and numb,

dope and hate, the things,

I've done,

don't want to be mean no mo'!

don't want to feel dumb,

who's left to come?

aching crevices;

like brain on drugs,

creates deep thoughts,

watch here I come,

let the plunger work to fill my veins,

chemicals are evil but they melt 'way the pain,

no longer do I care or contemplate why,

why did God create me,

no more feeling sorry,

My mind to me,

so dark and evil,

lately finding brewing demons,

fucking, fightiNG, PUNCHING SCREAMIN'!

HOPING for a re-birth, cleansing and a temple,

maybe it is you who may be reading,

so this is my promise,

my rhyme,

and my reason,

I'll keep it one-hundred,

and always be 'bout it,

for most've my life,

simply fake and a fucking coward,

brutal truth and honest eyes,

kiss your lips, now kiss mine,

neither of which will ever lie,

want your pain to swallow down,

take my hand,

into your's,

so alive,

let us live,

before we die,

aceblade @2013, August 17

2013-08-04T19:38:00.003-07:00

baby-girls,

do you know i love,

every fiber and strand,

my heart is your's,

in both of your hands,

so squeeze and know,

my blood flows free,

and on my knees,

head bowed,

eyes wide-open,

neck unprotected,

one-swing of a sword,

will leave me cold and naked,

so remember daddy's here,

don't feel neglected,

my love is your's,

my heart still beating,

lungs still breathing,

ready with arms wide open,

for your return(s).

2013-07-14T11:11:00.001-07:00

oh i really wish it rain,
maybe it would wash away,
my sorrows would be long gone,
before the sunrise's in the morning,

all these heartaches and sorrows just give,
me a reason to fight,
try to imagine night is day,
day is night,

praying for my soul,
people dying,
children crying,
with no where to go,

in this life i have know where to go,
and its ashamed,
i just wish I would be in the valley of the son,
I've seen, I've heard a mother cry,

it brings so much pain,
so i wish it would rain,
to wash away,
this bloodshed everywhere I go,

but all these tears of sorrow,
are the only bet that it will be better,
tomorrow,
I pray that my sorrows will be gone,

BEFORE THE SUN RISES IN THE MORN'.

AMBER SKY

2013-07-14T10:30:00.001-07:00

There is another sky,

Ever calm and not always fair,

And there is another sun that doesnt shine,

Though it be full of life there;

Never mind faded memories, BRAD,

Never mind silent fields -

Here is a vast forest,

Whose leaf is amber yellow;

Here is a brighter garden,

tho darkness is all we see,

Where frost cannot be,

In its unfading amber mums,

I hear the killa bee hum,

come, my brother,

Into MY garden come!

2013-07-14T08:31:00.001-07:00

gone

2013-07-12T20:14:00.000-07:00

so this is it I say goodbye,
to this ever changing chapter of my life,
in these mistakes the path was long,
and I'm sure I'll answer when I'm gone,

So when the day comes when the sun won't touch my face,
tell the ones that loved me that I've finally left from this place,
it's been so cold,
look at my face,
,
all the stories I can't erase,

the road is long,
one more poem,
something to remind you when I'm gone,

the road to hell,
along the way,
is paved with good intentions so they say,
and some believe,
that no good deed

goes unpunished so it seems,
so when the day comes and the sun won't touch my face
tell the ones that cared enough,
it's been so cold,

a little something to remind you when I'm gone,
I SAY GOODBYE,
TO THIS EVER CHANGING CHAPTER OF MY LIFE,
IN THESE MISTAKES THE PATH WAS LONG,
AND I'M SURE I'LL ANSWER FOR THEM WHEN I'M GONE.

forever

2013-07-12T19:55:00.000-07:00

I hope I've seen my last hotel room,

another place to go,

another destination with no where to call home,

another time,

to say I love you,

another time to say goodbye,

because no one wants to fight,

cause I can see it in your eyes,

the sparkle is gone forever,

don't say its forever,

and when we touch,

is the fire gone forever,

please God don't say forever,

another month I'll miss her birthday,

I've missed so much,

of what I thought,

and what I might say,

I can see it in your eyes,

is that sparkle gone forever,

don't say it forever,

and when we touch,

is the fire gone forever,

don't fuckin say forever,

those times we had,

our ups,

our downs,

we just have to pull together,

like a storm,

another time split, not together

somewhere in this place,

takes me from home,

but I'm coming home,

cause I can see it that the sparkle is there forever,

'and i can feel when we touch,

the fire burns forever,

cause this is forever.

fake

2013-07-12T19:22:00.000-07:00

a broken girl,

a crack polished diamond girl,

that just cracks and burns,

and it weirds me out,

if I could just turn and run,

if i could be who she wanted,

all the time,

cause she seemed like the real thing,

she lived with a broken man!

who just crumbled and burned,

I used to be the real thing,

I used to do,i used to!

but,

gravity always wins,

and it wears me out,

she looked like the real thing,

my plastic love,

but I can't help but feel it,

I could blow thru the ceiling,

it wears me out. if i could just be fake....welll it wears me out.

lotus

2013-07-12T19:05:00.000-07:00

i was slipping till you found me in your pocket,
i was groving till you figured me out,
there's an empty space inside my heart,
till you find me there,
till you find me there,
I'll never be free,
like a bird in it's nest,
fall from a tree,
will you let me fall,
I cant kick a habit,
just for your fast balloning head,
listen to your heart.

Broken

2013-07-12T18:56:00.001-07:00

these fucking valleys are too steep,

to climb alone,

i try to pay attention,

but my direction just disappears,

to most I speak in riddles,

maybe it's just my words that get in my way,

I'll dig myself a little hole,

to shelter the demons that have entered my head,

no place to call home and no one to call my own,

I'll wonder this world,

kindred soul,

broken,

torn,

re-kindling the strength I know I have,

warming fire light,

cool breeze blowing,

eyes closed,

no matter where I am,

I know I've done some good,

my three angels,

if you knew,

understood?

2013-07-12T18:43:00.001-07:00

pepperoni cheese bread,

feathered hair brushed on my head,

pictures drawn with fingertips,

so long ago,

seemingly mythical,

johnny cash,

de-gum-de-gum,

last two lines to most may sound dumb,

but you know,

one thing will never change,

and that's the love, the link,

that we share,

and no matter what has come between,

us,

there is no way you'll know what you mean,

to me.

my sister, my heart, I love you.

aceblade's confused cranium.

2013-07-08T19:10:00.001-07:00

Good-bye

twilight was the first time
I remember seeing a glimpse,
of you,
who would've thought,
or knew,
47 weeks later we were bonded,
glue,
new orleans nights,
Harrah's casino lights,
sweet memories already fading tho,
as I write into this night,
no doubt things got twisted,
from Ruth's Chris,
to biscuits,
but what my body told me,
well,
you'd probably never understand,
see,
I've kept it real,
fifty-one fifty,
not you ma,
nah,
more like 21-50,
just know you and I are thru,
you have turned everything good,
into something I can't undo,
I've heard that in order to move on,
you have to lean on,
your heart but I'm thru,
with a kiss and a smile,
I'm throwing up my dueces.
one!

Yours

2013-06-03T04:07:00.001-07:00

I carry your love inside my heart,
And your heart inside my own,
Memories will never fade or shy,
Your love I will call my own,
Your lips that I have tasted sweet,
Green eyes I've gazed till late,
As each of their lids have shut,
I've watched you fall to sleep,
And your hair I would softly brush,
Stealing your kisses so very sweet,
Your heart and love forever inside my own,
I'll keep them forever as mine,
And pray and hope you've kept mine as yours,
Until the end of time.

Atonement of things that haunt my soul

2013-06-03T03:49:00.001-07:00

Fresh start rotted and withered,

As a pecked plum from its vine,

Dreams came crashing down,

Like a tidal wave of depression and lost time,

Prayers and hope develop good faith,

And in turn blessings will come,

Bookmarked in their minds and burned,

Much work and change is to be done,

And if persevered a new era will arise,

And troubled waters will be behind the stern,

And as each turn in the river is passed,

These bad days will be atoned,

Now they've been,

with a light heart I rise today,

thinking back to times we shot,

yellow books with tech nines,

From point blank range inside my post,

the bullet would pierce about 1-1-1/2,

at most,

and me, Easy, and Ho-dog, oh and Banning,

Dug out those slugs and made us a necklace,

233 Main St. is where we kicked it back then,

and it's the same damn place that it came to an end,

I hope by now people understand what happened,

and I hope they try,

to realize we only have moments left,

in this short, crazy but beautiful life.

K. Gates live

2013-05-06T17:51:00.001-07:00

Watch "Kevin Gates - SXSW 2013" on YouTube

Kevin Gates - Satellites

2013-05-06T17:47:00.001-07:00

Watch "Kevin Gates - Satellites (Official Music Video)" on YouTube

Gates

2013-04-13T17:18:00.000-07:00

inspired,
the thoughts that nostalgically,
nose their way up to the surface,
interrupted by nothing,
born again and again,
to the fiery pits of not being good enough,
but realizing that you are,
so once again,
I must grab the boot straps,
that I've gripped in the past,
and make my way,
to the gates that we are supposed to enter.

misunderstood

2013-04-06T01:02:00.003-07:00

in this crazy life,
misunderstood,
ups and downs,
some bad some good,
little feet pitter patter,
and not long after,
nostalgic imagination,
takes the place,
world turned upside down,
but does any of it,
really matter,
YES,
starting over is hard to do,
opening my heart,
not knowing who I am,
wish I had a clue,
dizzy head,
windshield break,
saw loved ones briefly,
for goodness sake,
minutes to hours,
days to nights,
try to stay warm,
on this cool crisp,
chest feels tight,
hic-cup,
misunderstood,
again tonight.