Musings of the Lame

My Most Treasured Photo of Adoption

fixadoption@gmail.com (FauxClaud) — Thu, 29 Oct 2009 17:04:31 PDT

I'm late to the Adoption Carnival Party today, but I'm still going to play:This month's Grown in my Heart Adoption Carnival is:Carnival III: Photos of Adoption. What is your most treasured adoption photo (or two)? Block out faces if you have to, find a scanner, or simply tell us about it if you can't post it. We do understand that. For me, my most tresured Adoption Photos is a no brainer:See,

Honoring the Loss of My Friend, Moises

fixadoption@gmail.com (FauxClaud) — Fri, 16 Oct 2009 20:00:18 PDT

There are times when it seems that all things in the universe come together in the most magical ways. I can count those moments like that that I have had the joy of experiencing on my two hands; they are so fleeting and rare, yet impossible to miss.This Tuesday night, in the void of great loss and sorrow; I had the honor of taking part in one of these precious moments and I will never forget the

Where My Wild Things Are

fixadoption@gmail.com (FauxClaud) — Fri, 02 Oct 2009 21:31:11 PDT

I knew I would have to write about Where the Wild Things Are. How could I not? From the earliest hummings of a this Spike Jonze's Where the Wild Thing Are movie coming to fruition, every ounce of my soul has rejected the reality that I now face.I haven't wanted to hear about this movie. I haven't wanted to think about it. I haven't wanted to face it. I don't want it to exist. I don't care that it

A Best Buy Customer Service Story

fixadoption@gmail.com (FauxClaud) — Wed, 30 Sep 2009 10:28:44 PDT

Tweeting and Freaking Out about Best Buy After almost 6 years of hard work, my HP laptop was old, outdated and becoming increasingly more useless, so after the holidays, with my husband’s prodding, we bit the bullet and took advantage of the post holiday sales and purchased a new CPU for myself. We stayed with HP as they have been “our brand” for years and we have that loyalty thing going on and

Hair Flashback or Never Safe from Adoption

fixadoption@gmail.com (FauxClaud) — Mon, 21 Sep 2009 19:25:37 PDT

Recently, I added some Really Bright Red Highlights to my HairNow if you have ever been a phony red head like me, then you might be able to relate to what I am about to say, if not, then you'll have to take my word on it:Being a Red Head is like having Anorexia of the Hair.Now, I don't mean that in a way to mock people who really suffer from such an issue, but I have found that I have a similar

Fitting Adoption into my Weekend

fixadoption@gmail.com (FauxClaud) — Sat, 19 Sep 2009 08:49:00 PDT

It's going to be a challenge this weekend, but I have to do it. I just can't believe these "days off" are so jam packed...We have a wedding today/tonight, which I had thought was on Sunday! Thankfully, it worked out and the kids went to Grandma's, but I think we will have to miss the actual wedding part and only hit the reception. Unfortunately, Rye MUST answer phones all day that the real estate

READ THIS: Things I Wish I'd Known Before I Was Adopted

fixadoption@gmail.com (FauxClaud) — Fri, 18 Sep 2009 20:35:58 PDT

Friday night, the kids are all gone.. Rye is toturing me with rap music and I am making my way through the GIMH Adoption Blog Carnival..As a birthmother, I do not, will not, speak for adoptess, but I do not have to. This list must be shared:73adoptee - adoption search, reunion and reform: Things I Wish I'd Known Before I Was Adopted

29 Things I Wish I Knew Before Adoption Entered my Life

fixadoption@gmail.com (FauxClaud) — Thu, 17 Sep 2009 20:57:32 PDT

This Grown in My Heart Adoption Carnival Topic was supposed to be "10 Things I Wish I Knew Before I Was Touched By Adoption", but I can't use the feel good wording of "touched". I was not touched by adoption, it's more like torched, trampled, traumatized, terrorized, tortured and torn apart by adoption.Overall, I feel like I allowed the destructive force of adoption into my life.Adoption was

Broke Arm Recovery

fixadoption@gmail.com (FauxClaud) — Thu, 17 Sep 2009 21:15:04 PDT

This is the week that I have decided that I should be ready to get all caught up on my personal ( re: adoption) stuff, so here I am!This whole recovery from surgery thing took a bit more out of me than I expected.Is it any surprise that it makes me feel lame?To be completely truthful, it was not as bad as I had expected, but that is because, I believe, I firmly expected to suck royally. I made it

Broken Humerus Update: Surgical Repaired

fixadoption@gmail.com (FauxClaud) — Mon, 17 Aug 2009 19:00:01 PDT

So it is time.. and I am out for the count.I'm making Rye Tweet while I'm inthe hospital.. so updates will be availaible. Taking Social Media to the next level with Real Time Medical Updates

Broken Humerous: It will be Allright.

fixadoption@gmail.com (FauxClaud) — Thu, 06 Aug 2009 18:31:35 PDT

Alas, it seems I am worthy of medical care.Armed with the shiny plastic insurance card, I am treated like someone worth fixing and so...My surgery to fix my broken arm has been set for August 18th.I'm trying to remain calm and matter of fact about it, but I can tell you that I am not looking forward to it one bit. The surgeon, while very nice, made a point of telling me all the things that could

Peter Carucci Director of NYS Adoption Registry

fixadoption@gmail.com (FauxClaud) — Wed, 05 Aug 2009 18:13:20 PDT

Peter M. CarucciBureau of Production Systems ManagementVital Records SectionNew York State Department of HealthP.O. Box 2602Albany, NY 12220-2602(518) 474-5245FAX(518) 474-9168E-mail: pmc02@health.state.ny.us Mr. Carucci,As you probably have realized you have made many an American and New York born adoptees angry today. I’m not an adoptee, but mother to one, so you can count me in, too.As

Birth Certificate Access? Roy Blunt is Unaware

fixadoption@gmail.com (FauxClaud) — Sun, 02 Aug 2009 11:40:57 PDT

I think my letter to Roy Blunt pretty much says it all:Dear Mr. Blunt,I have read recently that you have been getting allot of flack for your desire for President Obama to produce his birth certificate. One of your quotes in particular has caught my attention.You are quoted as saying:“What I don’t know is why the president can’t produce a birth certificate. Idon’t know anybody else that can’t

How Has Adoption Really Changed?

fixadoption@gmail.com (FauxClaud) — Sun, 02 Aug 2009 10:39:56 PDT

Hitting the Road

fixadoption@gmail.com (FauxClaud) — Mon, 27 Jul 2009 20:17:09 PDT

Hi...This is a test post.. Checking out the new iPhone app that let's me blog from my phone.How cool is that! Ieven texted .. Or at least I think i did to the teen today!I'm giddy and Rye is jealous. Now I can blog in bed.Mobile Musings - Adoption on the Go!

Adoptee Rights Protest 2010

fixadoption@gmail.com (FauxClaud) — Sun, 26 Jul 2009 11:05:23 PDT

An offical request from the Adoptee Rights Coalition:Listen up! We need EVERYONE'S help to spread the word about the Adoptee Rights Demonstration, and maybe even help the protest win $200 to go towards expenses for next year's rally!There's a slide show up on Youtube with pictures from the protests in New Orleans and Philadelphia.We need EVERYONE to do these three things at the link above:1.)

The Adoptee Rights Demonstration 2009

fixadoption@gmail.com (FauxClaud) — Fri, 24 Jul 2009 18:13:44 PDT

It’s almost been a full 24 hours since I returned from the Adoptee Rights Protest in Philly. My head is still reeling, my heart is still soaring, and my blood is still racing. Oh, I love a good protest and a good protest it was!I traveled down from my home in NY to Philadelphia on Monday. We had put my little car in the shop earlier last week so I was prepared for the road trip. Less than 200

An Adoption Agency Gives Me Hope

fixadoption@gmail.com (FauxClaud) — Fri, 17 Jul 2009 20:09:19 PDT

Yeah, you read that right. I actually am having trouble believing it myself, but it's true.On the eve of the final mass preparations for the Adoptee Rights Protest in Philly, I read this comment in my email box from an agency regarding my post about birth mother grief:This is a stunning, painfully true description of the birthparent experience and we thank you for your candor and courage in

I Placed My Baby for Adoption: Now PAY Me!

fixadoption@gmail.com (FauxClaud) — Mon, 06 Jul 2009 18:54:00 PDT

Honestly, really.I think I should get paid off for relinquishing Max to adoption.The happy fuzzy feelings from relinquishment and my adoption counseling has worn off. It’s been gone for years now. Instead, I think maybe getting at least some cash for the years of pain and suffering won’t do any good in getting back what I lost, but nothing ever will. At least, I could get some new shoes or a new

Life with a Fractured Humerus: Why the US Healthcare System is Broken

fixadoption@gmail.com (FauxClaud) — Mon, 29 Jun 2009 19:36:22 PDT

After many months of waiting, and waiting, sometimes not so patiently, waiting;On June 1st I received the much coveted plastic card that says I was deemed insurable and worthy of healthcare.It took a long time to get here mind you. I have been trying to be deemed insured in some form or fashion without completely committing perjury of falsifying records since I first broke my arm in October of

Learning to Ride the Waves: Birthmother Grief

fixadoption@gmail.com (FauxClaud) — Thu, 25 Jun 2009 21:29:23 PDT

Back to “normal” life, but nothing would ever be the same normal again.That was always the bit of irony about adoption. You went through this experience, this incredible perceived “sacrifice” and certainly a heartache for the ultimate plan to not have your life changed, but no one tells you how unavoidable that is.You can’t have a baby and place it for adoption with the experience changing your

Fear in Runion: the devil in passing time

fixadoption@gmail.com (FauxClaud) — Wed, 24 Jun 2009 21:01:12 PDT

This is hard. I hate it, but I’m coming clean. I hate that I am feel seen as some kind of super strong birthmother because I am suppose to be immune to this sort of thing in my head. Guess what..I’m human. I’m not perfect. In fact, I am probably just as messed up as everyone of us. I just hide it well.Periodically, people ask me how my reunion with Max is going. In case you haven’t noticed, I

After You Give Your Baby up for Adoption

fixadoption@gmail.com (FauxClaud) — Sun, 07 Jun 2009 18:30:53 PDT

This story begins here:" How to Begin a BirthMother: Chapter 1"As an unmet, joyful and excited couple marveled and cooed over my precious baby, now theirs.. I was then packing all my meager belongings, waiting for my mother, sad goodbyes, uncomfortable silence, more feelings of shame. As they fussed over the first diapers changed, and made happy phone calls, I was on the cold drive back..5 hours

Adoptee Rights tester

fixadoption@gmail.com (FauxClaud) — Mon, 01 Jun 2009 20:42:58 PDT

Open letter to President Obama

fixadoption@gmail.com (FauxClaud) — Wed, 27 May 2009 20:55:19 PDT

My Dear President,First, I must thank you. For the first time in long 8 years, I can admit that I do again have a president. I like that I can feel proud to be an American again. We have been waiting for you.Now I know you have too many things on your plate right now and in the scheme of things, what I ask from you probably will have to wait until more pressing matters are at hand, but I have to