ReALitY ChEcK

REBOUND

2010-06-08T20:33:00.000-04:00

I know you still love her
I can see it in your eyes
As you speak about her to me
I think about all his lies.
I dont know if I still love him but
He's always on my mind
I know me and you are just friends and
Thats why Im so surprised.
We're both caught up with eachother and
With this friendship that weve found
Yet were still in love with others because
We're both on the REBOUND.

I havent built up the nerve yet
To tell you just how I truly feel
In fear of you not feeling the same so
I play the friend role cuz that was our deal.
Shes no good for you
But you wont let her go
Hes no good for me but
Ill never be with him again fasho.
But it doesnt stop you from
Making me laugh and smile
Every moment I spend with you
Is so worthwhile.
Neither of us wants to admit it
For fear of being let down
I know you feel the same way I do and
Ill never think of you as just a REBOUND.

Im not sure if I want you
Just to say I have a man.
Or if Im just longing for you to love me
In a way that he cant.
Im so confused right now but
I want to know if you feel the same
Or if were just trying to get over
Our pasts by playing this game.
No matter what it is
I still want you in my life
Forget about her all she did
Was cause you strife.
We should forget about both of them
Cuz they played us like clowns
Its easier said than done though cuz
We're still both on the REBOUND.

K@MEL@H

Randomly Ranting and Raving

2010-06-01T23:18:00.000-04:00

Like an unborn baby nestled in its mothers womb.
Like a corpse resting for eternity in his tomb.
Like a ticking time bomb waiting to explode.
Like a garbage truck when it drops off its last load.
Like no books on a shelf.
Like wandering aimlessly by yourself.
Like knowing all the questions, but not the answers.
Like the Dr. just told you you have Cancer.
Like a smile with no teeth.
Like a victory with no defeat.
Like loving with no heart.
Like getting to the finish line without a start.
Like parking your car overnite in a fire lane.
Like traveling around the world with no plane.
Like a storybook with no pictures.
Like reading the bible with no scriptures.
Like comprehension without a brain.
Like sitting in traffic with no passing lane.
Like rain on a spring day.
Like having a map, yet losing your way.
Like a class with no teacher.
Like a church with no preacher.
Like sunshine with no moon.
Like snow in the month of June.
Like lightening with no thunder.
Like the song of a one hit wonder.
Like writing with no inhibitions.
Like making a life or death decision.
Like a heart with no beat.
Like toes with no feet.
Like hair with no head.
Like pillows but no bed.
Like life without me.
Like an ocean with no sea.

I guess my point is this...
Your Life Would Mean Nothing Without The Other Half Of It.

K@MEL@H

Random Thought.....

2010-05-18T08:11:00.001-04:00

Your sarcasm doesnt move me and your lack of respect for the game better not choose me...You may not like anything about me but respect is what I demand... and youll give it to me even if you dont understand...that me doing me is always my plan... and you being important to me you cant command so dont sit there and complain just respect the game...K@MEL@H

MY WEDDING RING

2010-05-16T00:45:00.005-04:00

I gave my all and all to you,
With it you did what you wanted to.
What conspired with us from then to now,
Ended up wrong and I don't know how.
Love seemed so simple now just a thing,
So I'm taking off "MY WEDDING RING."

Love comes love goes thought ours would last,
Six long years now all in the past.
Endless arguing coupled with many turmoiltuos fights,
Wishing you were gone and crying through the night.
I no longer have a song to sing,
So I'm taking off "MY WEDDING RING."

Trying over and over again to save a love that's lost,
Willing to fight until the end no matter what the cost.
I tried to keep you home with me,
But home with me you didn't want to be.
While trying to hold on to you I have lost my being,
So I'm taking off "MY WEDDING RING."

A shiny diamond on my left hand,
Forever and always was the plan.
Walking down the isle to you,
All this time you were untrue.
Money can't to you love bring,
So I'm taking off "MY WEDDING RING."

K@MEL@H J.H.M.

A NEW CHAPTER

2010-05-16T00:45:00.002-04:00

Like a freshly cut wound that bleeds blood from within.
Like a book with no words or no ink in a pen.
Weeping loudly and shedding tears through the night.
Awakening from a nightmare with a heart filled with fright.
Every fairy tale doesn't end with happily ever after.
Time to finish this page and start A NEW CHAPTER.

Destined to fail but fate lasted through the years.
To look and to mock every single one of my tears.
Listlessly concious laying there to only awake.
To watch my dreams and accomplishments float away on the lake.
Frigid waves drifting never again to be captured.
Now this one is finished, time to start A NEW CHAPTER.

K@MEL@H

GOODBYE

2010-05-16T00:44:00.005-04:00

Trapped in a trecherous monotinous love affair,
Continuously trying to prove to you how much I care.
Pointlessly partaking in a physical romance,
Foolishly and flippantly giving you chance after chance.
Tirelessly and tragically falling for habitual lies,
Glaring and staring aimlessly into your mesmerizing eyes.
Fearlessly and furociously in search of true love,
Sadly and mistakably thinking you were from above.
When honestly I opened up my blinded empty eyes,
Seeing you clearly and happily saying my GOODBYE.
Peeling away the thick coating that covered the real you,
Finally at once I'm focused on exactly what to do...Say GOODBYE.

K@MEL@H

COMING BACK

2010-05-16T00:44:00.002-04:00

Strolling down a desolate path leading to the abiss,
Silence and serenity passing with a swift hint of bliss.
Turmoil trechery and entrapment,
Encompassed by everlasting resentment.
Inviting you to join me and gather up my slack,
After all you always said that you were COMING BACK.

Engulfed in the fire of your eyes,
Fillied with the element of surprise.
Your lack of commitment I dare to despise,
Enamoured in the web of your lies.
Encouraging you to be with me and pick up all my slack,
After all you promised me that you were COMING BACK.

Often times failing to please you yet trying diligently with dismay,
Amazed by all you do yet and still I walk away.
The caring and the comfort feel dismal,
The pain and the suffering feels miserable.
Begging you to be with me and gather up the rest of my slack,
After all you insisted that you were COMING BACK.

Laying there stiff and lifeless a frozen empty look on your face,
That feeling was priceless and took me to an empty place.
A place no man would dare to go but yet and still Im there.
Reflecting on what use to be and things that I held dear,
Crying for you to save me and help me with my slack.
Finally coming to the realization that your never COMING BACK.

K@MEL@H

MY PURPOSE

2010-05-16T00:43:00.002-04:00

I never knew MY PURPOSE I could never understand.
Why since the age of 10 I always had a pen in my hand.
I never knew MY PURPOSE but now I know the reason.
Why when trials and tribulations come they only last for a season.
I never knew MY PURPOSE I just felt the need to write.
The thoughts that popped into my head put on paper to see with my sight.
I never knew MY PURPOSE but I see now what I am meant to do.
Write down my thoughts when they come to me to help someone like you.

K@MEL@H

THAT MAN

2010-05-16T00:42:00.002-04:00

You always have
THAT one MAN
That you just cant shake.
You put up with his mess so much
You wonder how much more you can take.
You think of him in bed
While you lay awake.

THAT MAN damn THAT MAN
Makes you weak in the knees.
To the point where you'll do
Anything he needs.
Your sick over THAT MAN
Just like a disease.

THAT one MAN makes you tingle
From the tip of your toes
To the top of your head.
You love this dude so much
That you wish he was dead.
You try to move on but
Just can't seem to get ahead
Because of THAT MAN.

Man your like a drug and
I'm a junkie for your love.
Inject me with your passion
Then I'll pass out
Your just so tragic.

THAT MAN is always full of drama
He makes you wanna slap his mama
For ever giving life to such
A heartless man.

You know the silly games he plays
You still believe him inspite
Of his childish ways.
Boy I know I should just walk away
But instead I stay.

I'm so badly in need of an intervention
Cause THAT MAN constantly keeps
Putting me in detention.
I gotta shake this addicting habit
Or pass it on to the next she can have it.

I'm going to rehab so
Everything we had is over.
Until the next time you come to me
When I'm weak-minded and full of defeat.
No matter how hard I try to win
THAT one MAN always has me beat.

Who will win in the end?
Eventually I'll overdose on your love and
Stab you to death on this page with my pen
Then I'll begin again with my new boyfriend.
I can't stand THAT MAN.

K@MEL@H

HATERS ARE MY INSPIRATION

2010-05-16T00:41:00.003-04:00

I won't give up no never that.
I won't fall down even with you on my back.
I'll always strive to be the best.
I'll always study and past the test.
No matter what you try to do.
I will succeed inspite of you.
Building walls to block my path.
I'll get everything I'm suppose to have.
It doesn't matter do what you do.
Cause hating on me is what gets you threw.
So I'm writing to you congratulations.
All you HATERS ARE MY INSPIRATION.

K@MEL@H

My Promise

2010-05-12T10:24:00.002-04:00

I promise to be me. I promise to take care of my children the best way I know how. I promise to love me no matter what. I promise to love both of my sons no matter what. I promise to trust me. I promise to be what you expect me to be; MYSELF. I promise to do what's best for me and my kids. I promise to never put myself down. I promise to love me no matter what. I promise I will succeed in everything I want to do. I promise not to compromise my integrity. I promise to write down how I feel. I promise to be the woman I am. I promise to be optimistic about my life. I promise to live my life to the fullest. I promise to take the good with the bad. I promise to try and improve upon myself on a regular basis. I promise never to think I am to old to learn something new.

I promise to always be,
K@MEL@H

A Way With Words

2010-05-11T22:30:00.003-04:00

As a child I use to rummage through my granny's book collection. I was amazed as I leafed through the many pages. All of the words put together so perfectly in a book for the world to see. A book has so much travel life. You don't even have to leave your house and you can go anywhere in the world just by opening a book. My granny always had a pen or a book in her hands. Now as an adult, I'm the same as my granny. It's in my blood or my DNA I guess. I don't know exactly how I acquired this this talent, but it seeps from my soul and oozes out of my skin. I can't sleep because I want to write. I can't concentrate on everyday tasks at times because I want to write. My heart is surrounded by words. My brain is full of phrases. My tongue spits rhymes. I don't know why, but I'm grateful for words. Big words, little words, short words. Words, sentences, phrases, stanzas, paragraphs. Where would I be without writing? Probably in a mental institution or a psych ward. Thank you Lord for words. I write to eat, sleep, breathe, cry, laugh, smile. Every emotion has a word. Every action has a reaction that can be put into words. My whole world is encompassed by words. Am I obsessed? Yes, with writing. Am I overzealous? Yes, about words. Am I committed? Yes, to many phrases. I am passionate and in love with words. Words are my first mind and I love them. If I could marry a dictionary I would. I'm in love with writing and writing is in love with me.

K@MEL@H

I NEVER KNEW

2010-05-10T23:18:00.002-04:00

Just a random thought. I never knew life would be this way. When I was a child this is not what I imagined adulthood as. I dont know what I was expecting and I dont know what my life is lacking but I never would imagine. I never would imagine that after 7yrs of marriage I would be getting divorced. I never would have imagined that after having a 12yr old I would have another baby at the age of 30 exactly 12yrs later. He was born prematurely at 34 weeks just like my son 12yrs before him. Who would have imagined that? I really didnt expect any of this yet this is my life. I would never imagine living in Cincinnati, OH or that my immediate family would be spread out from Cleveland to Florida to Texas. I never would have imagined being in the medical field for 10yrs and giving it all up to pursue my hobby writing. Imagine that? Quitting a career for a hobby. I never would have imagined that. I never knew what my life would be but that doesnt stop me from living. Where did you think you would be right now? Has your life been everything you expected? Are you content with where you are right now? Is your life everything you imagined? I know mine isnt.

K@MEL@H

IF I COULD

2010-05-10T19:11:00.002-04:00

I am suppose to be taking a nap right now but this keeps running through my brain and it was inspired by my 1st follower....

If I could take the part of you,
That's feeling helpless and so blue.
I'd take it away and turn it into a colorful hue.
That would always be there to comfort you.
It's not about the what or why it's the who,
Who can touch you the way that I do?
Not a physical touch but a mental cue.
You understand all of my points of view.
Our two worlds are aligned yet you have no clue,
Of what our forces combined could do.
So to my inspiration I want to say Thank You.