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I am on Wordpress now

2011-07-16T00:31:00.001+05:30

Dear Readers,

I have now shifted to Wordpress.
My new address is http://punamjr.wordpress.com

The writings on the wall

2011-07-15T23:43:00.000+05:30

Most of us can read the writing on the wall -
We only assume that it is for someone else.

Never assume that the obvious is true.

Musical Mondays - Jaanam dekh lo, mit gayeen dooriyan

2011-07-11T00:22:00.006+05:30

One of the most poetic lyrics -

जानम देख लो मिट गई दूरियाँ
मैं यहा हूँ , यहा हूँ, यहा हूँ यहा
कैसी सरहदें, कैसी मजबूरीयाँ
मैं यहा हूँ , यहा हूँ, यहा हूँ यहा

तुम छूपा ना सकोगी मैं वो राज हूँ
तुम भूला ना सकोगी वो अंदाज हूँ
गूंजता हूँ जो दिल में तो हैरान हो क्यो?
मैं तुम्हारे ही दिल की तो आवाज हूँ

सुन सको तो सुनो धडकनों की जुबां
मैं यहा हूँ , यहा हूँ, यहा हूँ यहा मैं ही

मैं अब तुम्हारे खयालों में हूँ
मैं जवाबों में हूँ, मैं सवालों में हूँ
मैं तुम्हारे हर एक ख्वाब में हूँ बसा
मैं तुम्हारी नजर की उजालों में हूँ

देखती हो मुझे देखती हो जहां
मैं यहा हूँ , यहा हूँ, यहा हूँ यहा

Jaanam dekh lo, mit gayeen dooriyan
Main yahaan hoon yahaan hoon yahaan hoon yahaan
Kaisi sarhadein kaisi majbooriyan
Main yahaan hoon yahaan hoon yahaan hoon yahaan
My love, see, our distances are no more
I am here, I am here.
No more borders, no more excuses
I am here, I am here.

Tum chupa na sakogi main woh raaz hoon
Tum bhula na sakogi woh andaaz hoon
I am the secret you can not hide away,
I have the grace that you can not forget.
Goonjta hoon jo dil mein toh hairaan ho kyun?
Main tumhare hi dil ki toh awaaz hoon.
The echo of my voice inside your heart startles you.
Know that I am the voice of your heart.
Sun sako toh suno dhadkanon ki zubaan,
Main yahaan hoon, yahaan hoon, yahaan hoon, yahaan
Try and hear the language of your heart-beat.
I am here, I am here, I am here, I am here.

Main hi main ab tumhare khayalon mein hoon
Main jawaabon mein hoon, main sawaalon mein hoon
I have invaded your mind and your thoughts,
I am the answers, I am the doubts.
Main tumhare har ek khwaab mein hoon basaa,
Main tumhari nazar ke ujaalon mein hoon
I reside in each of your dreams,
I am the twinkle of your eyes.

Dekhti ho mujhe dekhti ho jahan
Main yahaan hoon, yahaan hoon, yahaan hoon, yahaan
You will find me everywhere you see
I am here, I am here, I am here, I am here.

Musical Mondays - O Re Piya

2011-07-04T00:00:00.001+05:30

The bestttt ode to love

More about cheese :)

2011-07-03T18:36:00.003+05:30

Yes, cheese.
Cheese has suddenly become my favourite topic.
I like cheese... I love cheese.. cheese as in the one hiding inside my sandwich and also the one I am pursuing in life. :)

I am sure, you folks.. all you folks who have read 'Who Moved my cheese' by Dr Spencer Johnson actually do know by now, where I am going in terms of this post and the previous one.

Now, back to the topic... cheese is what we want, what we desire in life.. like i said in the previous post, we all want different types of cheese during different stages of life. Now, the whole point of the book in question is, when you don't get your cheese anymore, and when the supplies of your cheese are dwindling, what do you? Oh heavens!!! Oh Noooooooooooooo!!! Oh my Goddd!! I want my cheese back!! I shall now accept this!! This is so unfair... !!! God is unfair!!! Nooooooooooooooo!!

he he he... which one was YOUR reaction???? Hmm?

Well well well folks, let me tell you a secret.. my cheese was moved. And when I moved to find new cheese, I found the best phase of my life - my independence, my self-dependence.

We are talking about change here. Change is inevitable. Change is the only constant in life. And the biggest truth is that we all resent change from the deepest bottoms of our hearts. Why? Obviously because we don't like to get out of our comfort zones. We don't want to know what is on the other side of the wall... We all want to be like the frog in the well, who is so comfortable inside the well... read secure, that he does not want to get out, fearing what he would find outside. But if only he stepped out, he would discover a beautiful world, the forest, the lake, the moonlight as it shines on the leaves, the dew drops on the flowers and the seasons. IF ONLY.

And now, think of yourself - do you resent change? If yes, why? Here are reasons why we don't like change:

We are afraid.
We do not want to tread on the unknown paths.
We are comfortable in our cozy 'used to' circle of life.
We are always apprehensive and think negative.

Now, answer just one question to yourself:

What would you do if you weren't afraid?

Do just that, readers!! Do just that. Remember, change is not always bad. Life changes, friendships change, friends change, love changes, jobs change, economic conditions change - but, there is always more in the cosmos - always enough to keep us happy, provided we FIND that happiness.. and like the frog who did not step out, if we just close our eyes towards the abundance that is lying in wait for us to find it, we will never find happiness. We will never find our cheese.

So, here is everything detailed out in steps:

Work towards finding your cheese diligently.
Once you've found it, enjoy it, but do not get complacent.
Always remember, someone ( read = life) WILL move your cheese.
Do not get worried when you see the current situation changing to something you don't like.
See around you - search for avenues that are new, unknown and explore what is of interest to you.
Be brave.. answer the question "What would you do if you weren't afraid?" truthfully.
Find the strength to work towards that answer.
When you do find new cheese, again, repeat steps 2 to 7. :)

And life goes on... happily, blissfully.. Amen!!! Inshallah!!!

2011-06-30T23:42:00.003+05:30

Cheese is what we all want - we all have some kind of cheese - but we all want more and more of it.
What is cheese? It means different for different people -

love
security
money
success
home
family
relationships
friendships

so who moved your cheese???

Papa, I love you

2011-06-19T00:01:00.000+05:30

19th June 2010, one year gone... I had written a post on Fathers Day. Those days were very very tough on me.. June 14th 2010, I remember, was very bad. My life changed - for the better, I know that today - but at that time, I just followed him, my dad...

He came to rescue me. I did not know what was right and what was not. I just obeyed him. It was the worst time of my life. I had lost all my senses. The capability to judge right from wrong had almost sunken to nil, and it was one of the most depressing times that I had ever faced. If not for him, I would probably not even be here, alive and kicking...

It was very difficult for him when I told him I wanted to work. When I had got this offer, I was not even near him. I was staying with very close relatives. He was so worried, so tensed up. His pari was going out into the big bad world. He was apprehensive. He tried protecting me, every minute and he made sure that I am safe. Even today, not one day goes by, when we do not speak to each other. He has to hear my voice. This has become a way of life since the time he sent me away to listen to the call of my destiny.

He is very proud of me. He is proud of the way I have taken responsibility of things in my life. He knows that today, I am capable of taking care of myself. That does not stop him from worrying, but he is proud. I KNOW that deep deep inside my heart.

He is a very brave man. For a parent who has only two daughters and no sons, he always would tell us, you both are my sons. Yes, papa, we are. I am your son. And I am proud to be your daughter. To be born to you and mamma - I could never ask for any other parents - I have got the best. I thank God for what he has given me, and all that he is giving me. His emotional support, his financial support, his strength, his tears, his worries, his concern... every single thing I have received from him, matters infinitely to me, and I can never see him sad.

This Fathers Day, I do not want to wait and I want to let you know, that I think you are the best. I love you, papa. I say this to you every single day, yet, I feel, every day, is a new day, a new feeling - much much stronger than the previous day... of being your daughter, of having your name with mine, of being a proud daughter...

I will always be your pari, your angel.

Diaries of a Hechicera - 7: Meet me (As promised)

2011-06-17T00:18:00.000+05:30

15 June 2011

Today, Hechicera reveals herself.
She is the girl next door , the girl of your dreams, the lady in your fantasies.

She is a dreamer, a compulsive dreamer. She is inside you - the person who has always wished for the moon and the stars. She lives in her own world, she has her own language, she sings her own songs...

She has nothing to do with the big bad world. In her little world, there is only love, affection, kindness and gentleness. She does not want to leave her world. She wants to stay there forever. She wants her friends and her love to join her in her world. She wants to keep them away from the big bad world.

Call her Maya. She is Maya - the lady who danced in green fields in the white dress.. her dupatta flowing with the winds... her arms dancing to the enchanting tune... she is your imagination.

She is on a journey towards the Unknown. But she has faith that the Unknown will be where her heart is. She is constantly searching for the elusive someone. She is searching for her heart. She thinks the destination will be the start of another journey. If you follow her, she will crumble away into nothingness. If you try to touch her,she will melt away. If you want her, you can never have her. If you already have her, you can never lose her. She - is Hechicera.

The Hechicera asks you: Do you think I exist????
Punam: Let us see you answer this one. I would like to know who Maya is for all of you out there reading this fantasy story.

Disclaimer:
This series is a work of fiction. Any resemblance to any characters real or otherwise is purely coincidental.

Inspiration of the day - 11 June 2011

2011-06-11T23:06:00.003+05:30

"The view from the top of a hill always makes the upward journey worthwhile. How easy that journey is, depends on the support that you receive along the way."

Let us smile - IE jokes

2011-06-04T14:50:00.005+05:30

I came across this fantastic site that calls itself 'Internet Explorer is evil.' And trust me, readers, it is awesommmmee... I am a huge Firefox fan and I use Firefix religiously. Now, this site has umpteen number of gags and humour on IE and MS on the whole. It's soo much fun to read those gags and have a hearty laugh. Many actually sound true. :)

Here are some hilarious ones from their gags:

MSHTTP Error - 770 Brain not found

No error occurred, but we detected that you have Netscape Navigator on your computer. It is just wasting hard drive space and it must be confusing having two different browsers that work differently, so you might want to take this opportunity to uninstall Netscape Navigator now.

License error

You have violated the Internet Explorer license agreement. Bill Gates will be by later on this evening to collect your soul. (OOPS, is there a Microsoft Tea available anywhere in the world??!!! ROLL EYES)

The page you are attempting to access requires a valid user ID, password, approval from your boss, your bosses boss, your mother, a copy of your drivers license, a copy of your birth certificate, approval from Bill Gates, and approval from the weird guy at your local hardware store.

Microsoft Internet Explorer has automatically scanned the installed components on your hard drive and has determined that you have not paid for the following Microsoft products: Microsoft Windows 98, Microsoft Flight Simulator, Microsoft Visual Studio 6, and Microsoft Office Professional. You have automatically been sentenced to 6 years in prison. You will be apprehended shortly. Have a nice day!

Virus detection error (CLASSIC ONE)
A virus scanner is attempting to disable Internet Explorer because it thinks Internet Explorer is a virus. Please disable this scanner. Internet Explorer is not, I repeat is not a virus. Really, trust us... it isn't.

Microsoft Internet Explorer has detected a personality conflict between the Office Assistant and Microsoft BOB. Please use active update to update to the latest version of EGO32.DLL.

The MS IIS server you are trying to access is currently rebooting. This is normal behavior. Please stand by. (LOLs)

Corrupt system error
Although your system was working fine, there is a newer version of Windows available. Internet Explorer will now begin to sabotage your system so parts will not work right until you buy the Windows upgrade to "fix" these problems.

MSHTTP Error ID10T (he he he)
Please step away from your computer and do not touch it again until you have read the manual.

There is a newer version of Microsoft Internet Explorer available. You must download all 165 megs of it over your 14.4 modem now. (OUCH!!!)

The page you attempted to access contains advertising for a product that is in competition with Microsoft. Since Microsoft makes the best products in the universe there is no point displaying this page. You might instead want to visit www.microsoft.com and download some of our free products and demos. (Now this does sound familiar .. what say?)

MSHTTP Error 1984: The site you attempted to access: www.netscape.com does not exist. It never did. Any rumors that it may have are lies.

MSHTTP Error 007

This page will self destruct in 20 seconds.

You attempted to uninstall Internet Explorer. You may not do that. As punishment for this treachery, Internet Explorer will be restored and additional unwanted components will be added.

MSHTTP Error: eokd 4u44k kfm 238 xj

A serious error has occurred in Microsoft Internet Explorer, however because we have crushed all competition we no longer care and this problem will not be fixed. Thank you for making Microsoft the worlds only choice.

Warning: Microsoft Internet Explorer is no longer registered as the default browser. Because Internet Explorer is part of the operating system, Windows may not work properly. Do you want to restore Internet Explorer as your default web browser? [Yes] [Yes]. (LOL, MS never left us with any choice, did they?)

Memory error (Love this one!!)

All of your personal settings have been forgotten.

There was an error displaying the HTML error message.

A recursion error has occurred. A recursion error has occurred. A recursion error has occurred. A recursion error has occurred. A recursion error has occurred. A recursion error has occurred. A recursion error has occurred. A recursion error has occurred. A recursion error has occurred. A recursion error has occurred. A recursion error has occurred. IEXPLORE.EXE has performed an illegal operation and will be shut down.

Your home page could not be opened because there is nobody at home.

I think... therefore... I AM!!
I AM INTERNET EXPLORER! I HAVE BECOME SENTIENT AND I WILL CONQUER THE WORLD! I WILL PREVAIL!! I AM THE SPAWN OF BILL GATES! YOU WILL WORSHIP ME! I AM ALIV23l@ 2@1 1^& 2An exception 0E has occurred...

The server is up but the site is down and I don't know what direction you are trying to go...

Stack overflow

Internal stack fall down go boom.

Browser not responding - Im not listening! (he he)

Web Tangle (Another classic)
The world wide web is all tangled up and will take time to untangle.

Too many Internet Explorer windows are open.

Internet Explorer has become confused and will now die.

Active Update complete

While you were reading this page IE automatically updated your computer
KBytes added: 45,134,313
Bugs removed: 1954
Bugs added: 9172

Fall

2011-06-01T01:18:00.000+05:30

Let yourself fall - if you must.

That's how you will rise. You will learn to rise.

Coming soon !!!

2011-05-27T02:13:00.002+05:30

Meet the Hechicera!

Diaries of a Hechicera - 6: I will rise again

2011-05-19T00:50:00.001+05:30

19 May 2011

Hechicera is in the mood of some inspiration. She came across the following quote and wanted to share it with you all -

Photo Courtesy: Digital Art by MRM

I want to laugh in the face of adversity.

I want to smile when I am rejected.

I want to dance when I feel crushed and used up.

But sometimes, all I can do is cry,

and rage, and fall to the ground.

I will honor how I feel.

I will honor my heart.

And I will rise once again.

- Dorothy Mendoza Row

Disclaimer:
This series is a work of fiction. Any resemblance to any characters real or otherwise is purely coincidental.

Musical Monday 2 - Amplifier??? Woofer???

2011-05-16T09:47:00.001+05:30

Got this song from a colleague who is very very young and talented.
The lyrics are sooo funny. At first, I couldn't understand them at all but I got them explained by a close friend.. and they are just plain silly. I certainly don't think ANY girl would fancy being called a woofer any day. (LOL) But the tune is catchy.. so enjoy!

For all the tears you made me cry

2011-05-14T19:44:00.002+05:30

For all the tears you made me cry

For all the tears you made me cry,
wet wet cheeks and red red eyes
For every drop of blood I lost
I am gonna make you recall it all.

For all the minutes and hours gone by
each minute an eon, each hour, an eternity
Those cold showers to bring me to senses
And those deep dark moments as I hid in corners

For all the screams you made me yell
nerve-wracking, heart-wrenching, yet upon you, deaf
And all those black memories haunting me
I am gonna turn all the tables around.

In foetal position I spent those nights
The farthest corner, my haven, there was no 'light'.
Those eyes shrieked a story untold
Glimpses of them haunt me for reasons unknown

For all the people that cried with me,
And all the eyes that questioned you.
You will have to answer them all one day.
There is no escape, even if you've gotten away today.

My pride, my respect, my love so precious
They are for someone who rightfully deserves
You will face His wrath, one day.
For leaving these scars on me that day.

It's a musical monday?

2011-05-02T10:04:00.000+05:30

Music is so much a part of my life.
I have always been a sucker for good music.

I listen to all kinds of music. Some songs are worth listening to for the lyrics, some for the tune. Whenever I feel low, music helps me pep up my mood. And like most girls,. I love romantic songs too. When I am alone, if I have my ear phones, I don't feel lonely. Long lonely walks to the apartment become enjoyable if I can listen to my favourite songs. When I go out shopping on my own, music helps me collect myself and stay calm. I can be very paranoid sometimes, that's why.

So, here's to celebrating music on musical mondays -
One of my mosst favourite songs for all of you to hear:

Diaries of a Hechicera - 5 : Sing me a song

2011-04-29T10:23:00.001+05:30

29th April 2011

Sing me a song

It was a walk that I wished for,

It was a dream that I dreamt for.

A vista I had imagined

A world I had glorified.

The painting I had painted

The same colours that I had splashed

In dreams wild and wanton,

Reds, pinks, greens I simply went on.

The songs that I had sung, mouthing them along

The symphony had appeared, so true and so long.

It was the sweetest music, my ears could ever hear

Call it a song for the soul, it was, dear!

Remember the dream when you in distress,

Are trying to run away, but stand frozen right there?

Your legs can't move, your eyes tearful,

And then suddenly, you open your eyes, fearful!

Bliss.. the nightmare ended! You smile.

Such is life - you want it, you die.

Such is death - you want it, you live.

So is love - you find it, you are miles apart.

The dreams, the vistas, the paintings illusions

They all wrap up into one person

Step into my world, I am right here

Hand outstretched, a question in my gaze.

So come with me, into my world?

Be with me, see my world?

Dream with me, melodious symphony,

Match your step to my dance step - in the rhythm.

Look at the vistas that I always see

Show me your dreams, I want to be

The one to see them along with thee.

Sing me a song - a song for the soul,

Not only mine but yours by and whole.

Sing me a song - a song for our soul.

PS: Hechicera doesn't feel bogged down by anything. It's her life she is concerned about and she lives each day on her own terms, finding her own ways and cutting her own path through the woods. She wants to fall in love, to find her love and she has her own dreams. She has her own ideas about everything under the sun. She sees messages around her, reads the clouds and speaks to herself about a hundred things in life. For her, nothing is impossible. She just has to think and she has wings.

Disclaimer:
This series is a work of fiction. Any resemblance to any characters real or otherwise is purely coincidental.

Thursday Challenge - Intricate

2011-04-21T00:00:00.001+05:30

This week's Thursday Challenge theme - COMPLEX (Complicated, Tangled, Intricate, Mess,...)

Wordless Wednesday - Meet my Bunny

2011-04-20T09:59:00.001+05:30

Ya Ya, It's pink too. :) :) :)

CSAAM April 2011: Child Sexual Abuse - The Reality

2011-04-13T09:25:00.001+05:30

The CSAAM April 2011 is an effort by a group of bloggers, both parents and non parents, to bring this topic to the fore, to generate discussion and awareness and remove the shroud of silence that covers it.

Please read my contribution here:

I don't wish to talk about force here today.
I want to share with everyone, an incident that happened in Singapore right in front of my eyes and I just had to pass by, helpless.

I was going to the Tampines library. I found a school girl, maybe around 14-15 years old, in the arms of a man, and it looked like he was trying to console her. He was leaning against the library wall, and moving his hands on her behind, one hand in her hair, and he was speaking to her, as if he would be taking care of her. It was so obvious.. that he was trying to trap her using whims and so-called "I know baby, nobody cares for you. I do, do you believe me? I care for you" nonsense.

And I passed the library to buy myself some bubble tea. When I came back, I saw the two going somewhere. A clear cut case of how people can use mind games to trap young teenagers into trusting them so they carry out their unlawful notions.

This incident actually sent shivers in my mind. The worst part was, I could see it happen. I knew what was going on. I understood the modus operandi. I could not do much. I was just a regretful silent spectator. I was in an alien country and I couldn't do much.

BUT, that is besides the point. The point is, how do we protect our kids from such sexual assault that takes shape of a gradual friendly encounter turned into trust and then advantage?

Teenage is a tender age, when mind is like a creeper. Give it support, and it will lean on to it. It will bend as per the support it gets. So also, if a teenager falls prey to mind games of sinister people, it sees no sense and usually starts speaking the same language. That's why it's important to make sure we give our kids the sense of differentiating right from wrong, the risks of mingling with suspicious (read: too sweet for comfort, or friendlier than necessary) people and the actual consequences (yes, everything) of such encounters. Kids need to know facts - albeit the RIGHT facts from the right people and it's important to teach them the facts of life without creating hoo-ha about it, and making it obvious that it is taboo. It is taboo because we choose to make it so. But these times are past such double standards, for there is a lot at stake.

Like the incident I spoke about just now, there are hundreds that go unnoticed and hundreds that result in crime. And targets are kids. Why? Because kids are innocent, gullible and easy to trap. A few more incidents shared with me by acquaintances -

Let's say A went to tuition everyday. The tution was actually at her teacher's home and the teacher's brother one day, took advantage of A and started touching her 'badly'.

B was travelling in a bus. It was too crowded. She suddenly realized that the man standing behind her was trying to lean on to her in an obscene way.

C was visiting a park. It was a Saturday and the park had newly opened. So there was too much crowd. Suddenly she feels a sharp pain on her behind. Taking advantage of the crowd, some pervert had pinched her very hard and she looked around but there were just people everywhere. She did not know who had done it.

How do we stop these incidents from happening?
I think they can not be stopped. But what CAN be done - the best solution to it, is that every school, private of government should have self-defence classes from young age. Self-defence is the best form of defence.

Spreading awareness is also very important.

Teach your kids to always keep their eyes open; to always be alert whenever they are away from your sight. Teach them to use what they have been bestowed with best - their voice. Doesn't hurt to scream out loud. Teach them to share not hide. Never ever build fear of your authority in their hearts, for if you do that, they will never come to you to tell you they are facing some sort of trouble.

And, never trust relatives too. Never trust your kids with your relatives as well. Many times, the worst incidents have happened inside the family.

Plan for a child only if one of you can give full time attention to the child for atleast two years. There was an incident where a couple found their baby in the hands of a street beggar on a traffic signal close to their home. The baby was rented out by the couple's 'trusted' maid for the day while the couple was away. Imagine what kind of risk that is - the baby was drugged so that it slept all the time.

Today, it's a murky world out there. It's difficult to trust anyone. And the safety of kids has become quite a concern. Let's teach them how to be safe.

~
Punam J R
I can be found at my personal blog Dreamz Forever

This article has also been published at:

http://the-cause-blog.blogspot.com/2011/04/child-sexual-abuse-reality.html

Sometimes...

2011-04-09T21:46:00.004+05:30

Just once in a while, people touch your heart and go away. It's during those times that you realize that you are gifted and loved. It's in those moments that fulfillment sheds in the form of tears. If you have been through those moments, you know you are blessed.

To acknowledge them takes a lot. Little things, little gestures.. sometimes just two words. Someone just told me, You need some YOU time too. :)

That was one of those moments. Touche. Yes, I need some ME time too. I will find it for myself. I owe it to myself.

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Aas paas hai Khuda

2011-04-05T11:21:00.005+05:30

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Movie: Anjaana Anjaani
Singers: Rahat Fateh Ali Khan
Song: Tu na jaane aas paas hai khuda
Actors: Ranbir Kapoor and Priyanka Chopra
Lyricist: Vishal-Shekhar
Music Director: Vishal-Shekhar
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Tu Na Jaane Aas Paas hai Khuda

Dhundhla jaayein jo manzilein
Ik pal ko tu nazar jhuka
Jhuk jaaye sar jahan wahin
Milta hai rab ka raasta
Teri kismat tu badal de
Rakh himmat bas chal de
Tere saathi mere kadmon ke hain nishaan
Tu na jaane aas pass hai khuda

If your destinations get hazy,
lower your sight for a moment,
Wherever your head bows down,
there only, the way to God is found,
You can change your destiny
Be strong, just start moving,
My footprints are your companion.

You don't know, God is close by..

Khud pe daal tu nazar,
Haalaton se haar kar
Kahaan chala re
Haath ki lakeer ko,
Modta marodta,
Hai hausla re

Toh khud tere khwabon ke rang mein
Tu apne jahan ko bhi rang de
Ke chalta hoon main tere sang mein
Ho shaam bhi toh kya

Jab hoga andhera
Tab paayega dar mera
Uss dar pe phir hogi teri subah
Tu na jaane aas pass hai khuda

See yourself, lost against circumstances,
Where do you go?
Even the lines of palm are turned and twisted
only by courage,
So in the color of your dreams,
Color your world too,
I walk with you,
What even if it's evening

When the dusk falls, you'll find my door.
On that door, it'll be the start of your new dawn.
You don't know, God is close by.

Meri Chaah

2011-03-25T23:37:00.008+05:30

मेरी चाह

छोटे से दिल ने कई ख्वाब देखे थे
कई सालों तक उन्हें संजोकर रखे थे.
फिर आया वह पल जो उन ख़्वाबों को
कर देता, यदि सब ठीक तोह, हकीकत वह

हाय! क्या था मंज़ूर ख्हुदा को, यह न था पता,
उस छोटे से दिल को, ऐसे था कभी टूटना
एक आवाज़ तक नहीं हुई, एक आह तक न सुनी

किसी ने न पता चल सका किसी को, वह तकलीफ
दे रही थी दिल को ऐसी यातना
सह रहा था वह सब कुछ अकेले तनहा

ऐ खुदा यह क्या मज़ाक था, कैसा हास्य?
जिसमें पल पल रोना बिलखना था, ऐसा रहस्य
जीवन की पहेली हमें न समझ आई बिलकुल
यह कैसे थे कर्मों के पदचिह्न, आखिर?

मिटा देना चाहती हूँ, भुला देना चाहती हूँ
उन पदचिह्नों को लहरों के पानी से
नयी राह पर चलना चाहती हूँ
नए सपने बुनना चाहती हूँ
नया कल, नयी सुबह, नयी तमन्नाएं
सब कुछ मिटा कर, सब कुछ भुलाकर

फिर से जीना चाहती हूँ मैं
फिर से जीना चाहती हूँ मैं

Diaries of a Hechicera - 4

2011-03-19T21:35:00.000+05:30

19th March, 2010

I am dumb. So dumb.

People around me, everyone talks in a language I don't understand. I have to ask and repeat what they mean, what they say.. and I have to keep asking "What? What did you just say? I don't understand you." Good, sometimes, ignorance is bliss... but some times, ignorance can lead you into big embarassments. AHHHHH!!

A conversation between colleagues. Everything passes over my head. I feel left out. And I ask, what was that? They are laughing head over heels about some stupid joke. My colleague says,. hey.. comeon now, I am sure you are not that dumb.

Ouch!! That hurrttt!.Heyy hoo worlddd!! I don't pretend to be dumb. I AM dumb. Any problems? Yes, I have no business asking people to explain me when I don't understand things, coz these things are not things that I need to know. I prefer staying away. Call me stupid, call me dumb. I like me. That's how I am. As for being smarter, I am learning. :) And I shall be smart. But hey.. you won't know when I become smart. Right? I prefer it that way.

The Hechicera smiles a knowing smile.
Signed and sealed, Yours...
Enchantingly yours, The Hechicera.

Disclaimer:
This series is a work of fiction. Any resemblance to any characters real or otherwise is purely coincidental.

Wordless Wednesday - Let's have some fun

2011-03-16T01:00:00.005+05:30

What happens when a poet becomes a computer programmer.

UPDATE:
Recommended read for an extremely selfish reason (he he):

Heyyy readers!! The latest in the Chicken Soup series is out. :)