House Arrest

2011-05-10T11:34:00.000-07:00

So i have spent my morning bettering myself on the outside...tryin to get myself in to shape and physically prepare  myself  for my trip t the underworld..lol..aka the pen..lol..ya know sometime i think its easier t wirk in the mental and emotion stuff then the phyicall stuff,lol .but it is only day one and i imagine i will be extreamly sore tomorrow but it will be all worth it ..i might as well start workin out now that way when i go in i wont be so lazy to get to the gym..lol...and if i start doing what i will be doing in the out here it may be a better transition. possibly i am hoping..

 its been a while and im just startung to co,e into my simgle hood after being with someone for four years it was a hard adjustment to be a single girl again...and now that i am officailly adjusted and more than comfortable beng single and not tacked on to some one and able to do what i want i have to re readjust when i get out again..arrg..what a four years i have ahead of me ..miserable i tell ya miserable...i dunno what imma do.,,ill get through it...my luck i die in jail and never be able to enjoy my single hood .

 not that i want to be single forever i just want some me time and i want to be with someone i am compatable with and can live with in trust...my ex definitally destroyed all immediate trust i use to have appon meeting someone ..and being single ive learn  that it becoming less and less than people are sdtayin faithfull to each other these days..which in turn make me even more cautious on who if i do start a realatioship with..so yea i guess its the waiting game i aint looking for anyting if shyt happens then it happens..but ill be on gaurd when it does and i may even pity the next guy that gets with me because of the extensive mind fuk my ex put me through..but what  ever it is what it is,,and alothough i can forgive the jerk face ..lool i cannot forget any of it..and it will forvere keep me on gaurd....

 ok so how did i end up on that subject..wowsers deep deep stuff right there eh..hahah

 anyway ..if ya havnt noticedi  think its about that u do cuz life aint gonna be all peach n keen when ur an adult and have been to rock bottom more than once ..some times i thuink i am ment to be at the bottom of the sea to catch all the bullshtt life has thrown out

..hahah sometime mabey im to hard on myself...sometimes mabey i deserve it,,all i know what ever u am suppse to be and what ever u am supposet o di in life it better be good and it better be worth all the shyt i have done and had happen to me...grrrrrr..lol

well that is all for today...good bye ppl

a time to get bossy

2011-05-07T15:32:00.000-07:00

decicions cant be made on a unjustifiable circumstace u must take life as it comes ..everything happens for a reason and no matterr what the outcome u have to hope for a light at the tend of the tuneeel..thats the way i have to look at my life if theres not then may god help me mot fall to pieces..
after its all said and odne and the drama is over i have to hope for a pice of me to be able to survive the hardness that is about to present itself to me!! the one place i swore i would never go bk to because i wanted my freedom and needed it so much..a place where noting matters and everything is phoney and unreal..dont get me wrong i met aot of great women in there...and alot i am freinds with to this day...
argg the stuation i get myself into
that all for now

FUK

2011-05-05T14:34:00.000-07:00

Ya know it really hit me today as to what i have to deal with ,four years of my life is going to be taken from me and its my own fault four years of my chikdrens life takin from me ..ive missed so much in there life as it is and just when thing start to look up i am torn down by my own stupidity and selfish easy quick fix....y did i have to take the easy road out..well subconsciously i think i thought i deserved it.i thought that loosing my daughter and my husban and my children in four and ahalf year i deserves an easy out a quick way to get on top of the world there was alot more than that but i dont have the time to sit here and bitch about my ex and our past cuz god knows that can take up a hole days worth of typing and thats not what this is about..this is about my reaization of the fuk up i actually created by tryin to take the easy way out..im not the only one effected i have a sick mother i have 3 boys that need me in there life i have family tha loves me and i have the greatest real friends in the world that have been here for me since i met them..real friends that didnt run when i needed them and didnt judge me in my time of tormanet.

the most inprortatnt thing in my life is my children everyonemay think it was the money that made me do what i did ..but in realization it was me finding out i was pregnet and not being able to hold a job down and looking for a quick fix to get on my feet..it was never done for the money it was done so i could be able to keeo the child i was carring..subsequently doing what i did made me loose him..thank the lord it was to my sister and i am still in his life the most i can .. ironic isnt it

ive never been able to make my own luck in life....i dont know if it is karma gettin bk at me for all the fuk up in my life that i have created under numerous cicumstances ..god what i have i done with my life and well it really get better after all this is said and done and in 4 year when im 30 and off parole will it all really be different,,,god i can only hope

u take so much for greanted in life and u dont even realize u are takin it for granted intill its takin from you.

what a thought process i got going on..this has been one of the first time i have been unsure about being able to accept..i dont wanna adapt to these surrounding i will be finding myself in as that mean i am adapting to a lifestyle that really isnt me,,,

i got lots to think about and i need lots of advice and i neeed lots of prayers..

i need to come to a realization with this shyt on way or the other ..cuz if not then i may age more than i should in the next four year,,,

i gotta find a way to cope

some random shyt!!

2011-04-27T15:06:00.000-07:00

Well it has been a week or two since i last posted..and might i add at the moment i got new nails on and i am having ahrd time typin so i am curious to see how many mistakes i will make...oh and i also have to remind krystle about doing her krystles corner....cough cough miss krystle we are getting sloppy..lol..

ive been doing alot of thinking ..mainly i think cuz i got so much alone time on my hand..im starting to think how amazing it actually is that i find myself in the situations that i find myself in.. such a hassle ..everything that i do i need to think about nowadays,..cuz i am going away for the next four years ..and i am going to be missing out on alot and i will have so much to make up for when i am finally free again...

at this exact moment it is the 27 of april at 6:49..and i am awaiting the hockey game to start at 8 ..montreal and boston game 7..nothing like keep in ya on ur feet geesh!!

so much going through my head ..cant think striagh some days tryin to wrap all this shyt around my head and keep it all on a reality basic..fukin hard to manage at some points..

i think i am a very REAL person i see things always in two..there are always two sides to a story..away two sides to every siutation..noone is gonna feel the exact same as another person..everyone experiences pain ..but noone experiences that same pain..there is more to individuality then just tryin to stand out in a crowd..ive learn growing up and going through early teenage hood, and being a teenager..god thise are truly shapin years of a person, and high school;and bullys and being a bully and tryin to figure out where to belong.become an adukt and strugglin on how thong really should be,.to having children and experiencing the change that ur body and emotions go through as a women..nothing is ever easy in life ..ive learn that if it was easy it wouldnt be worth it..kinda like child birth ..lol..i dont think a man could relate to that so mabey i should put it a hockey game if it doesnt keep u on your toes its not worth watchin in the end u feel disappointed !

well i will end this blogaroonie for the moment and leave it at this..

i am at peace with my consqences but that doesnt mean they dont suck

xoxo

Tiff

Melissa Ferrick - Drive - Music Video Clip

2011-04-17T15:21:00.000-07:00

The Ride-David allan Coe

2011-04-17T13:00:00.000-07:00

it is what it is..yet again

2011-04-14T18:33:00.000-07:00

OK thats it..i am sooo not inpressed with my situation..y do good thing only happen to me when i can do nothing about it...wahhhhhhhh//not inpressed not inpressed at all....ya know i did this all to myself ..so i think that is y i am soooooooo not over inpressed with the situations i find myself in..i mean i am happy...that dont..or hasnt i should say ..happen alot. and when i am happy i am starting to worry about the outcome of that cuz i wait for the fall bk down to reality...well not this time..i only have a short time out with my freedom to a point i mean i am on housed arrest but that doesnt mean i am alone all the time..and as of late i have been having a vert sweet man come and visit me..:P.. which by the way i might add i think is the reason i have been happier as of these last few days or more..just throwing that in there cuz i can..ahhhhhhh ..well i guess this is more of a diary like blogaroonie that a blog//lol..but it is what it is..again..lol..i am going to leave it short for tonight..but i gotta keeo yall updated till igo to the pen..booooooooooo@ going to the pen...but anyway..you all have a great night and a wonderfull day and i will be bloggaroonieing it up tomorrow!!..

xoxoxox

TiFfAnY

ffs

2011-04-12T17:25:00.000-07:00

Ya know i have been doing alot of thinking about wtf i have done with my life..fuk wasted so many day in jail and missed so much of my freedom and so much of my kids lives there is nothing in this world that makes me wanna be a better person more than my children. i just havnt figured out the person i am destined to be or if there really is a destiny or if i am suppose to make my own. know i have failed many times trying to do things they easy way. andi have come to a reality..there is no easy way ..if it was easy it wouldnt be worth it.it took awhile for me to realize that , y i dont have an answere to but i can say it took me awhile...

     I dont wanna be one of the 30 year old women in the next 4 years with nothing under me ,,i want a foundation and i want a free life, a life that includes my children  plus a life that i can provided for my children and be comfortable with how i live. stability is what i need and it is what i crave.

    I know i have the ability to do what needs to be done..eduaction ,mabey a few life skills studies, and a focus. there is nothing in life that is free , except mabey our minds and souls but if all we want in our lives is to take the easy road out ..then excpet the road to be  weak and rocky with lots of craders to fall into.

 You cant justify you actions by sayings ..but i thought i deserved it...believe me..i thought the same way and look where it got me. all i wanted was a break from life " the easy way out" and all i got was stuck in the rut of road i took. how ever ..even with the consequences ahead of me and realizing every day they are getting cloer and closer i have to come to a term and except the reality i am in and DEAL WITH IT..it is what it is and i have created it myself! booooooo at me.but i am hoping i can make it so i turn everything around and make my future a life that i have craved , with determination and skill. im far from a stupid person so i know it is possible! 

    For the others out there that can realted to me state of mind..i hope u find it with in ur self to get the strength that you need to be the person and have the life that u want!..i knwo ill be spending the next 5 years makin my life what i need it to be!

 xoxoxo

\TiFfAnY LyNn

Clumsy - Our Lady Peace

2011-04-09T12:06:00.000-07:00

HaPpY BiRtHdAy AyDeN

2011-04-09T07:24:00.000-07:00

WELL TODAY WOULD BE MY MIDDLE CHILDS BIRTHDAY..MR AYDEN ARTHUR JOSEPH ...GOD DO I EVER MISS MY BABY BOY..HARD TO BELIEVE HOW ALL IN ONE SWIPE U CAN HAVE UR WORLD TAKIN AWAY FROM YOU..MY BABY BOY IS 2 TODAY....I HAVNT SEEN HIM SINCE THE SUMMER I CAN IMAGINE HOW BIG HE IS GETTING ..I MISSED SO MUCH SO FAST. I WISH I COULD TAKE IT ALL BACK. BUT WE ALL KNOW LIFE DONE GIVE U MULIGANS .IM NOT GONNA SIT HERE AND FEEL SORRY FOR MYSELF, BUT I AM GONNA SIT HERE AND FEEL SORRY FOR MY BOY WHO BECUASE OF MY OWN ACTIONS HE CANT SEE ME. OOH AYDEN MOMMY LOVES YOU SO MUCH I HOPE ONE DAY I WILL KNOW. I LOVE YOU BABY,,XOXO WITH ALL MY HEART. U ARE SO SPECAIL TO ME,AS WELL AS U BROTHERS TO. I HOPE U HAVE A GREAT BIRTHDAY AYDEN...I LOVE YOU..HAPPY BIRTHDAY

grrrrrrrrrr

2011-04-08T07:23:00.000-07:00

OK ...What i need to know..is how in the blue bloody flying hell do you move forward with ur life when u have four years hanging over your head in tow months...man all i wanted when i left my ex husban cux he was a cheating lieing scandous assface i wanted to be able to have my life that i had lost for the last 4-5 years i waste thinking i had a family. i figured if i am gionna be single i am gonna make it goood and i am gonna have fun n take chances..now i cant seem to find how to exactly do that..i feel like i am in a world unknown to me and i only have a very short time to get use to it and figure it out. but once i do..it gonna get taken from me again;...grrrrrr...anywayyy i just had some food for thought cuz i a sooo not inpressed about a black n yellow situation..grrrrrrrrrrr.., i dunno what the hell im saying ..i feellike i am so new to the world again and i am gonna have what ever i have wiped out from underneath me..man..talk about pay for u actions in more ways than one..fuk me...anyhow..thats all for this morning have a great day yall.

xoxo tiff

gnight world

2011-04-07T23:24:00.000-07:00

well am officially going to bed agan i was brought a time hirtons coffee at 11 ish tonigt and it made me all awake n shyt boooooo but yeaaaaa cuz it was timmms coffee abd that rules..yes yes it does,,,well everyine god night and have a great day,,,i sure hope the weather is nice tomorrow..wel i giess i should say today cuz it is 3:23 in the morning and it is tomorrow.hahah..well again gnight world!!

Amherst daily news court news

2011-04-07T05:41:00.000-07:00

O'Brien pleads guilty to drug, gun charges

Tiffany Lynn O'Brien, 26, formerly of 1 Park St., Amherst, will return for sentencing in June after pleading or changing her plea to guilty to a number of drug and gun charges.

O'Brien entered guilty pleas to one count of possession of cocaine for the purpose of trafficking from Sept. 4, and one count each of possession of cocaine for the purpose of trafficking, possession of marijuana and possession of oxycodone from Oct. 24.

She changed her plea to guilty to one count of possession of cocaine for the purpose of trafficking, and entered guilty pleas to one count each of failing to trigger lock or store a shotgun in a securely locked container and failing to comply with an undertaking, all three of which occurred Dec. 9.

She also changed her plea to guilty to one count of possession of a .22 caliber Magnum rifle between Dec. 9 and 12 knowing it was obtained by the commission of an offence.

A pre-sentence report has been requested.

O'Brien will return for sentencing on June 20 at 1:30 p.m

A PERSONAL OPINON

2011-04-06T18:23:00.000-07:00

i have developed a personal annoyance i seem to have this urge to shove a over sized pineapple up someones ass. i am at the moment feeling a little ummmm repressed...unheard . and misunderstood. yup i did it ..i sold cocaine. Ive plead guilty to it so it must be true,now if people who dont know anything else about me but that simple fact, i would appreciate you possibly taking the time to message me and ask me the questions you dont know the answers to .other than making up your own personal senarios, seriously if ya knew me u would realize how ridiculous u actually sound. ..
i would also like to take a moment to mention my "favorite" male in the whole world mr paul vincent ..i would just like to say...take ur ego and shove it , ur a mutt and one of the worst cops i have ever seen. peice of shyt..all i can say....but like the title to this blurb...that my personal opinon
..
i hope yall have a great nigt...xoxox
sleep well world
......

AHHHHHHHH

2011-04-06T05:56:00.000-07:00

ok so i have wokeup and its the next day and i am trying to let all this sink in..Holy stressing out...i cant believe the best offer i could get was 4 years..and the fuking mutt cops PAUL VINCENT wanted me to have seven years. seriously what kinda of piece of shyt cos really wants to put a mother of three boys away that long..i mean i can deal with my consqeunces i am a big girl..i fuked up i no this .so four years sentence on june 20..and that only if the judge takes the joint recomendation...i am so stressed out over all this shyt. how do i find myself in these situations and how do i keep at them. i would say i am remorseful ..remorsful because of my children and the effect everything i do has on them . i love my childred so much!! they are my world and everything i did and do is for them. i cant be the mother i want to be or know i can be. im not a bad person im not a hard ass and i am not gona stand here any niore and let a fukin cop that has a grudge make me look like i am..i have not been in the penitentiary since 2006. my last conviction was in 2008 and i got 6 month house arrest. ive mde it through my parole ive made it througth my house arrest and ive made it through all my sentences before this one....so let me add..just incase paul vincent decided to take the time and read what i have to say i just want him to know hes wrong....he doesnt know me, and he can make all the presumptions that he wants. i am not goin away for ever i will be back and i will have my freedom again. but i wont give mr vncent the time of day to0 think that he will ever catch me "riding dirty" again. fuk him. he is a sloppy cop and out for the pay check..weather u are reallly innocent or not he does not care. once he thinks he is right there is no changing his mind..lol even if the evidence states it!..

but enough about him..i have the next month or two to think about and prepare myself for my sentence . i not looking forward to it at all! but i ahve the time to prepare myself in get in the right mind state .and that hat my plans are gonna be these next couple month..preparing my mind....

well that all for now

over n out

~~~TiFfAnY LyNn~~~

back from court

2011-04-05T12:29:00.000-07:00

SOOOO,,,,went to court today and as it turns out i had to take a deal i go back to court on the 20th of june for my sentencing,.boooooooooo going to jail for four years on that day how gay is that...im gonna leave it at that for now as i am upset about the while thing!!

AH COURT TODAY

2011-04-05T03:34:00.000-07:00

AHH so i have court today//boooooooooo court..ffs///i am so sick of seeing the ocurt room...miss krystle is on her way from springhill to bring me to court and i am not even half ready yet..kinda in slow motion this morning..go figure,,,lol im not even sure what time i have to be at the court house today wheather it is 9 or 1 soo im making it for 9 just to be on the safe side...soo i am really sick with this stupid ass cold i got booooooo colddddddd.. gaaaaaaaayyyyyyy..yuk..anyway hopfully the sun comes out and we get a nice shiney day and i dont go to jail then!! yeah!..see yall later world ..and if i dont then my krystle will be writting blog for me l via jail calls..nice eh..lol

2011-04-04T13:27:00.000-07:00

The eagle I been waiting to capture with my lens

GOTCHA...

woohooo

2011-04-04T12:29:00.000-07:00

So i have court tomorrow...great i am not even sure if i am going to be going to jail or not it is a possibility very big possibility,.haha..well i guess its not a haha situation....but i have decided to try to make the best out of every situation!!..:) even if it does completely :blow..speaking of blow...i love that movie!!..except for the ending..lets hope that never happens to me

yeahh

2011-04-04T07:40:00.000-07:00

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2011-04-04T06:07:00.000-07:00

Season one episode three
house arrest

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2011-04-04T05:26:00.000-07:00

~~ Tiffany ~~

Good morning
HEEEYY Everyone out there in web land!! how are things going today!! well it is 923 in the am here in the good old town the river hebert on a monday morning. so far today , my day has consisted of waking up and taking my puppy coco out to pee..ohh the excitement!

2011-04-03T19:30:00.000-07:00

~~TIFF~~

So getting ready to go to bed it is finally cooling off in here,yeah ,,i would so rather sleep in the chilliness than the cold..anyhow i am gonna take me dog out to pee and have a smokearoonie..take care all and i hope u all have pleasant dreams

2011-04-03T17:55:00.000-07:00

SEASON ONE EPISODE TWO

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2011-04-03T16:24:00.000-07:00

SEASON ONE EPISODE ONE

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