Before I forget

Visit

2026-09-23T00:40:23.236+08:00

It has been long.

That I wonder,

how did I do this

in the past?

It's awkward.

It's strange.

Strange that it

feels like I'm

finally meeting

an old friend

that I have been

missing.

Turns out,

it's the old me

that I'm missing.

It's nice to meet you

again after so long.

The broken but hopeful.

The lonely but warm.

The fearful but brave.

Pay me a visit

once in a while.

Gosh, aaaa

2020-12-31T00:34:00.002+08:00

Do I like you

because I have

no one else

to like?

Or is it

because

I like you

that I can't find

anyone else

to like?

hope you had a

good year.

bye 2020

Life goals

2020-12-31T00:32:00.002+08:00

Do you have one?

I used to.

My only life goal

was to become a mom.

But over time,

I realise that your goals

should be ones

that you can afford

to achieve alone.

Your goals shouldn't be

in reliance of someone else.

I wish someone would have

told me this.

Am I that easy to you?

2020-12-31T00:30:00.006+08:00

How come you appear

to be so understanding

of everyone

but not me?

What about me?

Don't I deserve to

be understood too?

Insignificant

2020-12-31T00:26:00.003+08:00

I did not realise that you were just

a dust passing by.

Something that will either

go away when the wind blows

or something that I eventually

will need to wipe off.

Happen Ending

2020-12-31T00:24:00.002+08:00

Do you remember a movie or a drama

by its ending?

Or do you appreciate the whole story more?

I used to think that the ending is

the most important.

Cause they'd live happily ever after,

don't they?

But most of the times,

I cannot recall the endings of the movies

or dramas that I have watched.

Maybe, the ending isn't as important

as we make it seems.

Dda Na

2020-12-31T00:23:00.002+08:00

They are still in me.

Hidden? Probably.

Gone? Never.

They are both me.

So why are you

ignoring the other?

Who are you, again?

2020-12-31T00:19:00.002+08:00

I honestly

don't care about

what you think

of me.

But I do care

what I think of me.

And most of the times,

I feel like I'm worthless.

And I think that's a problem

Attractive

2020-12-30T23:52:00.003+08:00

Am I attracted to

you cause

you're unreadable?

Or do you become

unreadable cause

I'm attracted to you?

그냥나한테와

It's all in your head

2020-12-30T23:41:00.002+08:00

Just because I know

that I should not

think like that

doesn't stop me

from thinking

like that.

Waiting

2020-12-30T23:38:00.002+08:00

Over the years,

I have come to

realise that I'm not

good at waiting.

I am an expert

at giving up instead.

So let me do just that.

What can be worse?

2019-07-14T23:06:00.000+08:00

The worst thing about giving up

is to pretend that you have made

the right decision.

By leaving what you defined

as 'toxic'.

But I mean well

2019-07-14T23:01:00.004+08:00

Some people assume that just because

they mean well, they can never hurt anyone.

That is selfish.

If you really care, what they feel is more important

than what you think.

But truth is, you don't care about them but only yourself.

You don't wanna their feelings in your conscience,

So, you say "but, I mean well"

lol, fuck off

Anyone there?

2019-07-10T23:27:00.003+08:00

I know I'm not alone.

I know there are those who care.

They'd want to be there when I'm in pain.

They'd want to catch me when I fall.

They'd listen to me if I open up.

But, is it my fault that I just feel really lonely now?

Addiction

2019-07-10T23:20:00.001+08:00

It's scary how addictive can giving up be,

Once you gave up on something,

You'll keep on doing it.

You keep on telling yourself to stop.

Don't go further.

It's hurting you.

So you should stop.

It's not going to work.

Just stop.

At first, it takes courage.

But now, it's taking you away.

You're addicted to it.

Stop

Fake it till you make it.

2019-07-10T22:33:00.000+08:00

I was never honest with my feelings.

I was never taught to be.

They told me, I shouldn't cry.

Cry is for the weak and I should be strong.

They told me not to smile that much,

they'll think you're nice and

they'll take advantage of you.

They told me to never embrace my emotions

and decide everything using my head, rationally.

But now they say I'm heartless, cold and expressionless.

Who's fault is that?

Why is it mine?

Make what, really?

Why we give up?

2018-12-06T15:59:00.001+08:00

I came to realise that

people don't simply give up

because it's hard.

But they do

simply because

it is not worth it.

And worth is subjective.

When something is subjective,

there is no right or wrong.

But there is a reason.

Thank you for

inspiring me

Sofa

2018-12-06T14:56:00.002+08:00

I momentarily thought

That you belong in my comfort zone

The sofa I'm sitting on

Cause you have been sitting on it

for quite long.

Looking belonged.

But you don't belong here.

You were never supposed to sit here.

That's why you eventually

stood up and leave.

Gladly now, after a long time,

I get to stretch my legs

on this sofa of mine.

A thick blanket

2018-12-06T11:42:00.001+08:00

When it's cold
I'll let you wrap my body
As you provide your warmth
That I need

When it's hot
I'll push you way
And you will be unneeded.

But when the weather is just normal,
There's an awkward feeling between us
Cause it will be hot with you
But I'll be cold without you.

More than being awkward,
it's inconvenient.

Path

2018-12-06T11:40:00.001+08:00

I know that one day
You will understand what I am thinking
You will feel what I am feeling
You will fear what I fear
And you will regret just like I do

I know for a certain
As you are walking at the same path as I am
The difference is, you're a few steps behind

And even if I slow down my pace
I know you will never catch up
As it is never meant to be

But the fact that I know you will someday
understand me,
comforts me.

You're a star

2018-02-19T19:18:00.001+08:00

You told the tale

that you're a star

And you gushed over a hope that
one day you will find

your moon

to accompany you

throughout those lonely nights.

You told the tale

how both of you

despite everything,

will choose to shine in the darkness,

together.

You indeed are a star.

You will indeed shine

in darkness.

But unlike you,

I don't need darkness

to shine.

And I don't need anyone

to accompany me either.

Because, I'm the sun.
And I don't fade.

Rock Bottom

2018-02-19T19:10:00.002+08:00

When you hit rock bottom,

the only option you have

is to go back up,

they say.

That is true.

But an option is not an assurance.

You have to struggle to climb back up.

And for all you know,

you might fall over and over again

in the course of climbing.

And that makes you want to

just stay at the rock bottom.

It sure is easy to say.

2017-11-03T20:28:00.004+08:00

"You can't keep living in the past. Move on, will you?"

But what can I do?

The present doesn't keep me alive.

But those memories do.

And I want to be nothing,

but alive

at this very moment.

So, just let me dwell in it.

Let me just do

whatever I want this time.

You've said enough.

You've concerned enough.

And they are only

The introvert me

2017-10-18T01:27:00.000+08:00

It was Spring

2017-10-11T00:01:00.000+08:00

I left.

Because I didn't

want to wait.

The irony is,

the only thing

I can do

after leaving

is waiting.