Poetry

A Sudden Lack of Immortality

2012-02-01T00:32:00.001-08:00

I will not be here
In a 100 years, or so.
But it's also true
Neither will you
This time, the now, is all we've got
It's slipping away really fast
We can try to grope it
We can try to hang on
But what's the point
Time doesn't give a fuck
About you, or me, or anyone else
It goes on
And on and on
Alone
So spend some time at home
Take a break from this race
Drive slower
Chew longer
Love something
Have your heart broken
It will heal, in time
You'll fondly cherish the scar
We're all scarred after all ;)
And it won't matter
In a 100 years, or so.

Dark Hearts, Dark Deeds

2012-01-28T09:28:00.001-08:00

She said she'd do anything

He heard her and repeated it

Then the bell rang like hell

And words turned to shit

There is nothing worse than loss

Of what you hold so dear

There is nothing worse than a coin's toss

Between hope and fear

The alternating sides of coins

Just like different human faces

One for you and one for them

They take us different places

So trust not the words

And trust not the deeds

Trust not anything

That hungers, lusts, bleeds

When you see the words

Remember what they read

Dark hearts

Dark deeds

The Tree On The Mountain

2012-01-26T09:00:00.000-08:00

It's lonely at the top

Looking down at everything

So far away

So out of reach

Life is a beach

The tree would never visit

For the tree on the mountain

Is lonely as lonely can be

The birds visit at times

But they fly away too

The tree on the mountain

Is as lonely as you

So won't you visit the tree

Don't you want to see

How the tree on the mountain

Spends its days

Counting the ways

Sand would feel funny between its roots

For when the night falls dark

Dreams awaken in the tree's bark

The tree dreams it'd be free

And one day reach the sea

Breathe

2012-01-24T09:05:00.000-08:00

The universe is closing around me

Taking me in

This claustrophobic hug

Is funny

Because

I just forgot to breathe.

The Keys Flew Away

2012-01-23T01:05:00.001-08:00

It was a Monday in January

When the keys flew away

Slowly floating away from the keyboard

Maybe they too were bored

The wind took them through a window

In the side of the office

Where they took to the sky

To play with the clouds

The keys spun with the currents

Leaving contrails behind them

The words were imprinted on the skies

For all to see

Then there was me

Alone in the office

Watching a keyboard without keys

Waiting for inspiration

Remember The Words

2012-01-19T08:56:00.001-08:00

She is the chaos child

Her soul an animal, wild

Rushing through infinities

Electric extremities

When she whispers in your ear

You better pay attention

Even if the meaning is clear

The secrets need a mention

How deep would you dig in?

To find the root of her sin

In the pages of a book

You closed and locked far away

Feel the fear in the darkness

Feel the terror of being alone

Remember the words she said

Welcome to the shadow zone

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It Always Rains In This City

2012-01-18T08:29:00.000-08:00

It always rains in this city

Through the day, through the night

All the lights shine so pretty

All the darkness is so bright

There is sin in these streets

There is hunger, there is fear

Mistrust breeds deceit

Every shadow is so clear

People drown their sorrows

In the bottles filled with fire

They don't want a tomorrow

But they fall to desire

In these streets you walk

Memories fogged like a glass

From the breath of a lover

Who never takes off her mask

It always rains in this city

Where the lights are so pretty

In the puddles and the gutters

Where hope crawls off to die

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Cheers!

Forgotten

2012-01-16T11:37:00.000-08:00

I've forgotten

Than I can remember

Sure

This brain is old

Getting older

Getting colder

So cold

Fighting every day

Every night

Every waking hour

My thoughts devour

I am tasty

But I'll get stuck in the throat

Of whoever tried to eat me

I'll claw and dig my way out

Of every hole

Even when I've forgotten my way back

Even then I'll remember to attack

Everything

The Fog

2012-01-03T12:14:00.000-08:00

Life is a road
Full of fog of time
We can only see till a distance
And pray it will be fine

One step in front of another
Eyes on the prize
Even if you can't see
Keep it clear in your mind

So, walk on brother walk on
Walk my sister walk
We're all going home
Through this fog of life

We'll get there
Trust me on this
We'll get there
Sooner, or later

I waited

2011-12-28T11:53:00.000-08:00

The nights I waited
For your call
You were busy
Waiting for my call

A Dream In Smoke

2011-12-20T10:16:00.000-08:00

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You're just a dream

Drifting in my vision

A wraith made of smoke

Of the days I've worshiped you

I am watching you move

Transfixed

On every curve

On every shade of skin

I forgot to breathe

My heart just skipped a beat

Are you even real?

Or just a memory?

No one will ever know

No one can understand

Because you are my dream

Mine alone

Discarded Thoughts

2011-12-17T11:35:00.001-08:00

Strewn all over the place

Are my discarded thoughts

My would've been, could've been

My haves and have nots.

My dreams and nightmares

All wrapped in silver snares

Sympathy and jealous stares

Thrown over the chairs

There is dust of failure on the floor

A drop of blood stalls the door

No one knocks on it anymore

Maybe they do, I am not sure

These discarded thoughts make so much noise

I can choose, I always have a choice

Still, in my head there is a voice

Saying these thoughts are her toys

So, I heed to the need

When she commands, I bleed

Thoughts all over her floors

My bones on her doors

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One vord, vodka.

The Music

2011-12-05T11:02:00.001-08:00

There was a hole in her soul

From which the music leaked out

Like blood from an open wound

She sat in her silence

Staring outside into

Nothingness

Waiting

For something

To make her soul jump from her body

Scream

And declare

Independence

From her self inflicted prison

She wanted to be

Free

She wanted to dance

But the music had leaked out of her soul

Fuck The Truth

2011-11-10T13:04:00.000-08:00

Fuck the truth

Feed me beautiful lies

Fill me up with nonsense

Till it drips from my eyes

Be uncouth

There is no sense in civility

Grab what you want

There is no point in asking for it

Flip that switch

The revolution is coming home

The maiden in the tower waits

For you to slay the dragons

Eat your pain

There is space in life for that

Warrior creed never stops

To rest, but only to reload

And punch god in her motherfucking face

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Phew! That felt nice.

Slit Through This Soul

2011-11-09T13:28:00.000-08:00

If there is something left for you to take
Please take it
If there is something left for you to break
Please break it

I cannot stand this paranoia any more
But I'm not ready to give up
I cannot demand attention any more
But I'm not ready to give up

I will hold on to this little thread
This fragile thread of hope
I will hold on till I am dead
Till I slide off this slope

And when I fall in the darkness
I will remember your face
Your eyes will slit through this soul
And I'll rest in that space

So Alien

2011-10-28T11:52:00.000-07:00

This is so alien
How did we get here?
This is so much fun
Why do i feel this fear?

This is so insane
Are we going too fast?
It's all in my brain
Will my thoughts blast?

This is so twisted
Do you understand?
We'll get through this
Why are you holding my hand?

This is so sad
Are you happy?
I feel so, mad.
Why is your mood crappy?

There are dead monsters
Under my bed
But they still live on
All in my head

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I think the best poetry come from confusion, because there is a need of making sense through the words. I am trying to make sense, to myself more than anyone else.

This is so alien.

Dirt

2011-09-20T12:13:00.000-07:00

From dirt I arise

Back to dirt I will go

Not a day too soon

Not a day too late

When the time comes

To seal my fate

Stab it with a black knife

Seal that coffin shut

Set it on fire

Throw the ashes in the Nile

In the Ganges

Sprinkle on top of Mr. Everest

Then after a thousand years or so
As nature takes its course

I will be whole again

To arise from the dirt

Be me again

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Dirt. That's us.

The Final Race

2011-09-19T12:21:00.000-07:00

The wind rushes by me
The speed I can't ignore
Brushing shoulders with death
Keeps me from getting bored

Wind makes my eyes teary
The fear fuels my heart
It beats like a drum machine
That will tear me apart

I can only go faster
There will be no slowing down
In the face of disaster
There will be no throwing down

So if my death waits for me
I'll ask for a final race
I will win that one too
Leave exhaust fumes in death's face
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Heh. Don't know what made me write this. But if you like to drive, and drive fast, I think you'll connect with this.

Blur

2011-09-12T11:42:00.000-07:00

Days blur into each other

I passed this street yesterday

Change this life for another

But would I want it that way?

Stuck in this bubble

Dreaming kaleidoscopic

What's the trouble?

I'm slightly sick

But now I'm okay

That feeling went away

Like it does everyday

Today, yesterday

I'm fine now

Somehow

Though I used

To be confused

But I'm fine now

I'm really fine

Really

Potato.

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Just trying to capture the confused feeling.

Sewn

2011-09-11T12:17:00.000-07:00

There was a wound in my heart

Sewed up so it won't fall apart

Now the scar stares at me

But it doesn't mean much, you see

I will nail the scab till it hurts

Tear the skin, till blood spurts

Pick the pieces from my nails

Because pain never fails

There is only so much pain

That you can officially take

After that its peaceful state

Either you wake or break

So, have I woken or I've broken

I do not know till now

There is only a path to walk

Which will answer me somehow

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Ah ha, good old angst and bloody imagery.

A Dream

2011-09-04T02:01:00.001-07:00

There was a rainy day, once

It rained like it has never rained

I walked that day alone

Drenched to the bone.

I saw you there

Playing with raindrops

Like a mermaid

Stranded out of a dream

Did we share a look?

Did we share a thought?

Did we share some future?

From my mind to yours?

There is nothing more I can say

Or I could say, or should say

There is just you and me now

And there is us, that's enough

Enough for both of us.

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Ah, love.

The Wait

2011-09-02T15:09:00.000-07:00

Now listen
There is nothing more painful than an unsaid goodbye
It might be your turn next time
So do it. Do what you want to do.
Death will not give a warning
There will never be a second chance
To do what you were born to do
Find your calling
Pull it out
From your dreams
From your screams
Shut up
Stop complaining
Work these hands
Use your head
It's simple
When you know
That death is waiting for you
Only you.

December By The Lake

2011-08-05T11:01:00.000-07:00

A cold evening of December

Is a day I fondly remember
With friends and a bonfire
Star studded sky to admire
When drink loosed tongues
We began to talk
Stories pored from our lungs
Some took a walk
While others sat around
Poked the fire in the ground
Told truths and lies
That filled the night
We were full of cheers
Unaware of the fears
That were yet to come
We were blissfully dumb
What a good times those were
Now only memories stir
I will always remember
The lake that December

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It was an amazing night. The first time I drank Vodka :)

The Man In The Street

2011-08-04T10:42:00.001-07:00

A man walked up to me in the street

He said, Sir, would you care to listen for a beat?
I am a busy man, I said, get out of my way
But the old man stood his ground any way

He begged and pleaded me to listen
While the strand of my patience grew thin
I tried to push him away, but he wouldn't move
What the hell was he trying to prove?

Alright I will listen, but better speak fast
My patience with you will not forever last
Then he spoke the words that chilled my bones
He spoke them peppered with harsh tones

He finally moved away from my way
I had heard all he had to say
I bowed my head and started to pray
My bones still cold in the month of May

Die A Little

2011-08-03T09:51:00.000-07:00

I just want to die a little

Bite the bullet, taste the metal
Feel the warmth of fever dreams
Lose my mind in pleasing screams

I just want to feel a little
Joy so sweet, pain so bitter
Something to help me survive
Make me feel alive

I just want to love a little
Cherish loving something brittle
Knowing I'd lose it one day
But still, love it anyway

I just want to fight a little
A skirmish, war or maybe battle
Find me a name that is my own
Before I die a little, unknown