Poems of life

The Chi Within Me

2013-01-12T13:33:00.000-08:00

I'm zero

I'm one.

I'm within myself.

The only one.

I feel truth

I feel balance

There is a peace in me that takes on the challenge.

There is so much to give.

There is so much to have.

It's like I'm in a candy store where all I have to do is grab!

The sweetness of the taste.

The calmness of the bass.

The awesomeness of the great,

and the goodness of his grace

all combine together to form the base of my soul.

That feeling, oh that feeling.

Don't go away'

Never, ever stray.

Is there time

2012-08-26T21:51:00.000-07:00

Is there time

to cause such stifling ways?

ways that would make people go into a haze.

In one generation or two

is all it takes to become blue.

Leave a legacy to your children.

Let them see how you have become successful in your literation

Teach them all that you know to be true.

Make it how you would like to be too!

This is our world and be honored

to have this existence harbored

to your soul.

Let your experiences teach them all.

But most of all show them how to be.

Be that person that you've dreamed to see.

One at a time. Take very small steps.

Do what you can to include all of your texts.

Include them with honor and pride.

Create the soul that you have inside!

Pay your dues, but not if it's broken.

Stand up to those who say all or nothin.

Make your stand and climb the ladder

of resistance and turmoil until your fatter.

Full of wisdom and grace.

just wait until you see your face.

It will be tough. There's no doubt about that.

Just do what you can with the scraps like a rat.

Build your legacy on this earth

and know that YOU are of great worth!

A night out on the town

2012-05-13T14:04:00.004-07:00

A night out on the town

is a time for us to crown

this day is to cherish

something to embellish.

Give yourself a treat,

and have something to eat.

Have fun and walk around

be yourself on this night out on the town!

Bring your favorite people with you.

Do all the things you wished you could do,

and always be yourself on this night out on the town!

Get some things to remember the moment.

Take a photo to keep the token

of time spent on this night out on the town.

What a perfect day

2012-05-11T10:12:00.007-07:00

What a perfect day,

It seams like it was planned that way.

Throughout the eternities I have had these feelings,

but only just now have I begun to reel in.

There are some people that just make you whole!

People that give you a hug when you need it.

People that love you when you don't deserve it.

These people are what makes the world go around!

And the closer they are the better they get!

I will never forget

the things that she has done for me!

These things, like communication,

happen with her and I in any situation.

There is a bliss that I've found.

I am a little scared to see if she'll still like me when I'm my whole self,

but it seams that every day we've spent together we've stayed on our best.

I hope it's not fleeting, but I'm not letting go of this one!

She is a keeper, that's for sure. Just gotta be myself and forget the ton

on top of me

and my responsibility.

It's time for peace forever

and with that I will say, "We will go on together!" :-)

Something about this day

2012-04-26T23:00:00.004-07:00

There is something about this day.

It has turned out to be okay!

The day has gone by,

and the troubles have kinda flied.

I have my friends who connect with me,

and I have those who care to comfort me.

I am very grateful for the people in my life!

They take away the many days of strife.

I wish them all the very best of times!

I hope that everything will be fine.

I interact with them daily

and see there trials are heavy,

but I know that with eachother

we can carry one another.

There are those times when we are sad

and there are those times when we think bad,

but they don't hold a candle to the times when we are glad!

The things that we have done in this life for the positive

are way more than those of the negative.

There is no question about it,

when we are brought to know what our best in life was

there are very few who will be shunned.

There are blessings that we have passed on.

There are people who we have blessed along.

Along the way to help others

and the way we carry each other!

We all love one another!

Carry on and be a blessing to everyone we see!

Like you and me!

Flying Angels

2012-01-15T13:23:00.001-08:00

Flying angels have energy to use. The goblin doesn’t. He captures these angels to light his hallways so that he can live on the ground. There are peculiar ways that he captures them. You see, angels are really curious and don’t like disturbing anybody’s living situations. So, mister goblin makes dirt hallways all over the face of the earth in a labyrinth. There are curtains that these angels feel the need to walk through to see what’s on the other side. By the time they turn around to see where they’ve been, the other side of the curtain that they just passed through looks different. Therefore, these angels get lost and confused. By that time the goblin is waiting to pounce. He waits until these angels are at there last bit of hope, so that when they get caught they don’t fight back. He takes them by the hand and tells them that he has a way out. He sends them to a chamber and tells them to wait. Angels have all been taught about the evil of goblins, but there is no one else to trust. He turns on the energy extractor of the chamber and lets them stay in there for eternity while their energy is wasted on lighting up the hallways (of which captures angels).

A sad story really, but being able to fly has its fallbacks.

Yourself

2011-10-28T16:06:00.002-07:00

When someone looks at themselves

They find that the things they do are sometimes questionable,

but when they look at all the good that person does all day

and compares it to the times when something wrong is done,

it turns out that it isn't the wrongs in life that shape the way life turns out.

It is the culmination of everything that we have done good in life.

The turns that we make are generally for the better. Yeah we might have a wrong turn here and there,

but in the end it is the general good that we have done that defines us.

It reminds me of a movie I once saw starring Robin Williams. He took implants from peoples minds that recorded their memories of their entire lives and cut them into a general, good overview of their lives. He did this for the families and friends of the person who had recently passed away. He was called a "cutter."In life there are people who we affect, and there are people who look up to us. There are people in our lives that despise us, but everyone wants to be known for the things they did. What that person did could be vindictive, or good-willed, but we all want our voice to be heard. We want our children, family and friends to see us in a certain way. Most of the time we want them to see us in a good light.

Looking back at my life, and comparing it to others lives, I can see that the many things that I do well, as well as the many things that others do well, come into a finalization of good efforts that tells us who we are. We are good people. There are workers at Dunkin' Donuts, there are drug addicted criminals, but both of these types of people have a need to feel appreciated and loved. The efforts of a drug addicted criminal to turn his/her goals to something of a better nature takes so much effort and support! I would say that it is more difficult than a john doe, or a sally someone, has ever come across, or ever will come across. That is why, as in the parable of the prodigal son, they killed the fatted calf and had a feast. It is much harder for a man/woman who has gone off the path to come back, than it is for a steady forth-worth person to stay on the path. That is why going off the path of conscience-ness against your own will is highly looked down upon. But once you are there, don't complain, just bring yourself back to the path that you know is best for you. I am not claiming to know which path is best for you, but I only know that there is one. One for each person in life, one for each soul. Like a testimony of what you believe in, whatever that belief is, just believe in it! Believe in it full heartedly! That is your path that you must take! If it involves harming others, or yourself, I would question your own motives to make sure that those motives were not given to you by the world around you.

In any case, take care of the life that has been given to you by your mothers.

And when you look at yourself, look at yourself in a better light. In a light that would make your fathers and mothers proud!

Living in one place

2011-07-20T21:27:00.000-07:00

When living in one place

things become very close in space.

The things that seemed very far,

in essence: the people in my neighborhood

seemed easier to talk to as it should.

The things that make up a community

become the people who tend to it; essentially.

Some may argue that it is the landscape,

or the civil engineers that make up the cape

of land that people flock to dependent on their income.

But, then again why do we as a people come

to live together in neighborhoods.

Can't we live at work, where we could

find the time to get up and do our daily tasks

and walk home like it was nothing as if drinking out of a flask.

The way our civilizations are made

is far too dependent on our transportation, but that will fade.

There is something called walkability in civility.

It is the way our neighborhoods easily, or not, allow people to live without cars, or its ability.

We really need to design cities after that concept.

There isn't much need to design a city after a dying technology accept,

if the engineers think that transportation devices will always move as fast, or be as dependable.

Then they for sure can say that there is a reason for me to live 45 minutes away from work of which is commendable.

But What if one day I need to ride a bike to work, or even walk?

Then those engineers would need to bring back their drawing chalk

and create a new civilization

with much less need for transportation in their implementation.

What will we think of next?

A way to go without written text?

We need to go back to our roots

by doing what we should by making our cities absolutes.

Absolutes in how long they'll survive,

and in the way they strive.

That's how we need to make towns, cities, and countries.

We need to make them with the thought in mind of more guarantees

and less, "would you please?"

You see...

We ask our cars to take us where we need to be.

We ask our hard drives to write our sentences for our addressee.

We don't work for the things we need

in a sense of plowing the field for our grain indeed.

We spend our time encircling our money with our ways of doing things.

There is a lost sense of connection to our land.

Our land supplies us with all that we need to survive like a helping hand.

There is so much cement and tar over our cities

that we can't even plant the things that we need with our pleas.

We would all need to plant the things we need as a family to supply our own need

and then we will become truly freed.

We will be freed from our society in all senses of the word

there would be no need for a few of us doing the things we could

but we will take a small portion of our day tending to our food.

The rest of the day we could either play or do things that would interest our brood.

Why not make all of our food? And make ourselves apart from the creed.

Poem this morning!

2011-04-08T06:16:00.000-07:00

I live in this life.
It is way too nice.
One that won't be like the day before.
I think not because my mind is like a store.
A store of mental filings;
One that has the light of informational tryings.
There are things that I won't do.
And there are things that I can't do.
What I won't do is stay still,
and what I can't do is walk on my own without the seal.
The seal of the floor beneath me.
The seal of the sky above me.
To run on with all my might and will.
To breathe in with all my strength and still,
I question why I'm here.
I think of my eventual place up there.
But isn't it just how it will be
and not how only I see.
I think a thought
but until it is realized and acted out it isn't wrought.
Or even brought
to the place of a thought in this life.
Have a great morning!
And finish your tasks forelorning :)

Peaces of People

2011-03-15T14:18:00.000-07:00

There are pieces of people.

They are in their own steeple.

The people I speak of are everywhere.
And, yes, I see dead people when I stare.

This steeple is in their own hearts.

They love life the way it's meant to be - All the crazy little parts.

There are so many parts of the heart; that small amounts won't do.

The heart to consume isn't like the Mayans did. No this isn't true.

The heart to consume is our own,

but that is impossible without a metaphor to make it shown.

Show our love

to everyone in blood.

Did you know that we are all 99.9 percent the same.

Every human in life is this way, and tame.

The peaceful people on this planet are winning.

The power that be is beginning.

It is beginning to win.

We are in the information age of kin,

but we can only win if we put our minds together

while gaining our lives forever.

We are our brothers keepers.

There is no disputing that fore seekers.

To them of whom I speak.

To them of whom are listening very week.

There is hope for all.

The end is the beginning of the fall.

The fall to a new and better place.

Where we have a great and grander face.

There is no question now.

We are all saved from the atrocities of the question, "How?"

There is an end to our suffering,

but that suffering will endure till the end of loving.

There is no end to loving,

but can we see the day when we are all the same in heart?

Can we all see the day when we are contemplating on the start

of it all; where there are many many songs

that keep on playing in the thrones?

That is my dream. That is my wish.

To make us eat of our metaphorical hearts in a metaphorical dish.

And we will be whole

like the far away land of Istanbul.

Love

2011-01-31T01:41:00.000-08:00

It is somewhat pleasurable fifty percent of the time.

The other fifty is somewhat disliked.

The part of the dis is of growth like a mushroom in the grape vines.

Pleasure is pure, like unto a child.

Full of pleasure it might be, but full of growth it is at times.

The action called love is everywhere you see.

It is of the trees and the bees.

There are no spaces that do not contain this love.

We are made from it. There are no ends to it above!

The stars doth climb up and up into the vineyard.

The Moon doth shine like a billiard.

The Sun is light unto thine feet.

We have everything to eat!!! =)

When we are without for a time, the spirit is fed.

And on into eternity, we go to bed.

There is no end to life you see.

For the circle of life is strong within thee and within me.

We long for the Christmas-time peppermint tea.

Of which is mild like unto thee.

There will be peace in everything that is.

We have his gift in our sisters.

of whom are loved.

Loved above all of those that are doved.

There is no end to poetry.

It will be in the minds of everyone you see.

these are a thing of songs!!!!!!!

I love the sound that cometh forth

unto the things that doth concourse.

The angels in heaven doth sing a praise

unto the things which are of the Lord!

The things which need to be shored.

The end of this song will never be.

It is a thing of sanctity.

The songs of life are very near.

Unto our heart so cleverly cheered =)

There is no end to life you see.

It will continue into eternity.

Equations of Grandeur

2011-01-28T20:28:00.000-08:00

This is a fun site to see faces of cartoonish characters that have come to life:

http://unrealitymag.com/

This is how the universe works. It works like the magnetic field of the earth. As a whole, everything in existence works on electro-magnetism (as quoted by you, in the black hole scenarios): p.s. think aurora Borealis in the universe of thought patterns. In a universe of unlimited space there must be unlimited possibilities. Everything that can happen does happen in an instant at the far reaches of the edge of our known universe ("known" being a verb meaning what we know of as of now, and/or what we have ever known in the history of our little tine molecules of unconscience beings).

http://www.moddedmustangs.com/forums/clubhouse/582-end-world-earths-magnetic-field-our-core.html

Below is the link to the discussion written in this e-mail directly below the link.

http://www.physicsforums.com/archive/index.php/t-142093.html

Now after reading this I realized that Popular Science explained of a group of individuals whom created a magnet with multiple poles. With those multiple poles one could surmise that there are multiple universes of which are unseen. However, there is probably too much information for this e-mail so I will not speak of it until we meet again. The equation is as follows of which I did create: To every exponential action there is an exponentially equal, or an exponentially opposite reaction. Now one could simply replace the words "exponential," or "exponentially" with any given verb or noun and the equation would be the same for everything that happens in and out of life. The equation could be:...... to every hamburgers action there is an exponentially equal hamburger, or exponentially opposite reactional hamburger. Now if a hamburger is a hamburger, than there will be an equal, or oppositionally exponential hamburger. It stays with the law of thirds which states in Visual Communicational terms that every image must be placed to the right, left, or center of the paper. If there are three images then the image must depict a Three Dimensional plane. If the image never depicts a 3-D plane then the image is considered completely abstract.

Below is a link to the popular science article of which states the possible and potential applications of a magnet that has more than two poles (N.,S.,E. and W. would be perfect).

Because the law of thirds is flawed (it only depicts areas in a 3D universe) there needs to be revision. The law of fourths needs to be obtained which states in my terms that there are the 3 dimensions plus a fourth dimension called the dimension of unpredictability (or a 50% and 50% chance). with these four laws in place there will never be miscalculations in math ever again.

Forward my poems please???

2011-01-28T16:14:00.000-08:00

Any of you who are on my e-mail list (there are ten people on my e-mailing list) I would very much appreciate your help in spreading the word of my blog. It is Blog-alicious!!! and good tasting as well!! Please help me with spreading the news! There is a great need for good poets in life. There is usually a shortage of deep and widely discussed thoughts in a general and open sense. That however is becoming a thing of the past with the advent of the internet.

In the end, If you believe my blog to be of worth (at all. And, of course you do :) I would appreciate it very much if you sent it along the airways, cable connections, and fiber-optical connections within the inter-net as well as it's way into the old fashioned methods of the WoM (Word of Mouth). ty (thank you). =)

The Place I'd like to be...

2011-01-19T12:50:00.000-08:00

The Place is where I'm at

Where I'd like to be is where I'm phat!

Please don't disgrace this place.

This place is where I lay my head.

This place is where I have my face.

My face is not important,

not until it begins to disgrace the supportants.

These supportants are mine as well,

but they come and go at will.

They come here, and they go there.

The're very easy to obtain, but sometimes queer.

Not in that they're gay, but in that they're strange.

They need to be that way, they are very blamed.

Blamed for what was not theirs.

Blamed for all of they're tears.

They're tears were not theirs alone.

their tears were His in clone.

Of course you know who His is.

As always I will speak his name.

As always He chose to be the same.

He is Jesus the Christ.

His name says it all. It was my vice.

Please be my key.

Please come along with me.

I'd like to have you here,

here in my heart so, so very still.

I would adore this forever!!!

I would adore you so, so clever.

It was my choice. I know.

I wanted this in the end, but how will I go.

I need to move.

I need to be one in the groove.

I am single now,

I like it a little too much HOLY COW!!!

That phrase is a term found in the east as well as the islands.

It is a phrase that means WOW!!!

This is the end of my ranting today

I believe I need to wait for my place to stay.

It will come very soon.

I just wish I could make it work with a broom.

a broom to clean.

Clean myself and others.

It is not my own place to say.

And I know it will be that way.

I comprehend,

and I say amen.

Why is the question

2011-01-08T10:05:00.000-08:00

Why am I still being fed?

Why am I still being bled?

Why do I survive?

Why am I contrived?

For Once More

2011-01-08T02:24:00.000-08:00

For once more in my life I believed that pain would stop me,

But for more than "once more" in my life, pain will not stop me.

It won't not stop me because I follow prophets of old and new.

I follow prophets of old and new, because I know for myself and for others that they are true!

I know for a fact that everything is.

It is how it is, but that isn't always true.

It sometimes is false to be blue.

Blue is a term I use to make myself sad.

You see sad is a way to get what I want,

but getting what I want is not always bad.

What is bad will never end,

unless I stop it from happening in my own life.

Through the pain and the suffering and the strife!

I will fall again and again,

but will not know it in the end.

Suffering is good,

and once more it should.

It should be the way it is. which is GOOD!

Good is a way of God!

God is a way of Good.

They are the same in one.

There is no difference my son! :)

2011-01-07T06:38:00.000-08:00

What I want.

What I want is a piece of property.

My property of which is my own,

but wait I have it.

It is my body.

My own willing, capable self!

I love the Lord my God,

and I love the way I'm shod.

I Love others as myself;

as much as I can get over myself.

I Love the prophets the same.

And no-one is to blame.

But then who is that "no one?"

It is you and I.

As a "one" up in the sky!

We have points up there.

In the sky so very clear!

Love is what the Lord,

loves.

Love is what is shored.

Shored up upon the edges of salvation!

Shored up upon the creations.

The creations of Matter and material things.

The material things of life, that is, that make us human beings!

We are all after the creation of God.

Whether it be metaphorical or not is not our plod.

What can we do?

Is, ... what we can do.

That is all we can do.

Nothing more, and nothing less.

We must all confess;

our sins to our God!

everything is evenly shod.

Blogs

2011-01-05T08:44:00.000-08:00

Blogs are meant for blogging.

Why should I blog?

I blog because I like it.

Blogging is fun!

So going on.

Why do I love?

I love because I don't know why. I just do.

Doing is a good thing.

Doing, I would say is what we are.

That's what I think.

Not just what I say.

I say a lot.

I don't always mean what I say.

But I try.

I am sorry for the harm I've caused.

I love you as a friend.

Please let me in.

I mean no drama.

I mean no harm.

I like you.

I like me.

We are cool.

Just me and you ...

and others too! :) ...

(are cool).

LOVE & HATE

2011-01-05T04:44:00.000-08:00

ONE LEARNS THROUGH CONTRAST OF LOVE AND HATE.

NOT LOVE ALONE.

NOT HATE ALONE.

BUT BOTH!!!

WITH MUCH LOVE!!!

Poem 9-24-2010

2010-09-29T09:58:00.000-07:00

Whatever bounds they put me in I will live that way.
Oh yes, it is according to them. And they don't know the real me.
The confident self assured me.
The me who will do what is best, despite what they say.
The me who will go my own way and simply be okay.
The me who won't be swayed by the way of the world.
The me who will no allow myself to be unpleasantly twirled.
Twirled this way and that
like a caged and sad bat
all tattered and torn
waiting for the others to forlorn;
forlorn the way he was
and why it was that way just because;
just because there was something missing his life
and it wasn't just his beautiful wife.
It is something more.
Maybe a light that seemed to be as no more.
A flickering light in the distance
It could come back in an instance,
but it is scared to do so,
only because it has been shunned by what it has been thro.
It has been told to stay away
by me and what I have done that way.
However, it will come back
no matter what, I will keep it relaxed.
Why can't I see the area within?
It is so dim.
My soul is hard to see.
Am I in the wrong place within me?
I see people around, but why can't I be with them?
They seem so bright and shiny,
however, their smile is so briny.
There isn't any joy in them.
You see they are in a castle that will fall in the end.
Why don't they see that they are not so good.
The path to their joy is in doing what they should.
but, they don't you see. There are many that take the better path.
The path of righteousness talked about at last!
It seems so difficult along the way,
but it's the only trek that will help you stay,
help you stay joyful all your life.
And in it despite,
despite all of Gods opposition
whose opposition gives away your position
of thought that is
So that he (Satan) can infiltrate what isn't his
and twist your thoughts the way he wills.
It even kills.
It kills the good people on this earth
who've been going through trials since birth
through the ways of Satan's pain
so that he can seem to gain;
to gain power on this earth;
power on this earth over people, because that's all He's worth.
He's worth the souls that he makes miserable;
miserable like Him, but he is unattainable.
No one can be as sad as Satan
So sad that He is known only known by one name
The "Father of all lies."
He is not known by anything else, not even "the one who spies."
Just a single solitary phrase
that means, what a mad, mad man with a lunatic-like craze.
He is so guilty that he is stuck in an infinite maze;
an infinite maze of downtrodden sickness.
There will never be an invictus!
Not for Him you see,
because his hands are too bloody!
There is, however, hope for us!
You see we all made it to the earth despite his mistrust.
We are more blessed than Him.
At least we have a body to move at our own whim.
NOT LIKE HIM!!!
So glad to be that way
so we can all sail into the bay
and be our right way.
In the end
when all will begin again!

To Dock at the Bay

2010-09-18T06:52:00.001-07:00

I don't know what to think.
I don't know what to say.
I guess things are going that way.
I woke up very early
and had some turkey.
No really. I did.
What else can I say
then things are going as the day.
They will go in and they will go out.
The lines will blur about.
I think that I had inspiration.
It started with a feeling.
Then went through my thoughts without meaning.
It said "Apply yourself."
And so I did. I started on myself.
Then it went to my brain
until I said begin again.
There was a thought about artificial life.
That begins to gain conscience throughout a lot of strife.
The higher the strife the faster it learns.
But then it all depends on who it yearns.
So in the end it must take many years
to learn the things that we have begun to steer
in our life that has a language of understanding from pain.
You see without pain there would be no gain.
None at all.
Not even when we beckon the call.
One more thing, that even the greatest of all
comprehended our pain so that he would grow.
So that he would know
every last thing
that this planet brings.

So in the end we learn from pain.
Not from success or joy,
however we do love to feel that way because of the contrast it brings
into our lives compared to the pain that we have seen.
I believe that the more pain we endure
the more joy we can procure.
Imagine how much joy Christ has.
There isn't a poem that can contain
the things that he went through and his pain.
But look at the contrast.
With much pain comes a great and vast
world of happiness.
One that can't compare to our entrapness.
So how much pain are you willing to take on?
Don't bring it on.
Just allow it to
carry you through the day
and, yes again, on into the bay.
When death is at the door.
and all you see is the floor.
Then know in your heart of hearts
that you have given your best through all of your parts.
And through the door called "death"
know that the joy of a lifetime is in your rest!
But don't give up now.
You have not tried to figure out how
to make things work out that way.
You must sail the seas before you dock at the bay.

I never let you in

2010-09-04T14:51:00.000-07:00

I think that I never let you in to my life
enough to see that you really loved me despite
all of the hurt that I caused you
and all of the pain that went through us both too.
I wish everyone could see the abuse I went through as a child
then maybe they would understand that I am very wild
for a reason in my life.
of course that is why I don't have a wife.
But excuses are like mouths. Everyone has one.
Despite that fact things are the way they are for a reason.
If there wasn't a past, no one would have a future.
and all I want in life is a future.
and be done with the world and all of it gives.
I am not giving myself a pity party I hope you understand
She completely forgave me for doing what I did in the end.
Most of your friends as well as you see me as a jerk.
that is there prerogative. I don't blame them cuz I am a jerk.
They don't see the here and now.
What I am trying to do to bleed my wrongs out.
Michelle is my love in my heart.
If it only stays in my heart I wouldn't mind.
I wouldn't go out of my mind,
but she knows I would have her back with one of those beats.
however, I know we couldn't do that in the least.
I want her to have a better life.
one that does not pertain to any strife.
If that is with me, let it be,
but not most likely.
It probably won't.
I want her back yes it's true.
I want you to see it through my example. No more views.
The only way I can change is to know the truth.
Of why I was the way I was and how I can improve.
I am doing my best in what I know.
that is not enough because I only know what I know.
I need to draw from others experience and follow the lead.
Of anyone who has been through what I've been through indeed.
I'm not going to rely on only one person throughout lifes trials.
I, of course, am trying my hardest to get over what my life brought me.
It takes more than a great fiance, wife, or girlfriend to cure the things that hurt a tree.
No one can see things my way.
they can relate and help me turn my eyes towards another way to stay.
Michelle, I have never had a relationship this long
there is a reason for that, because I am always wrong.
Like you told me, "I need to work on myself."
thank you for your help.
You have been the sweetest woman in my life Shell.
I need to go through more strife
to get myself fixed and change my ways.
thank you for the outlook that could help me change.
I will do it. Just watch don't wait.
the things that I have gone through besides you have been deranged.
I needed a person in my life to help me see how I have been crazed.

I haven't lived like I wanted to of course
but who really does on their journey of this source.
I let you go first, I know I did.
by being so wrong and being like a kid.
I'm done with my sad song; you can read it on my face.
I just want you to know that things will go on despite this disgrace.

Thinking Thoughts

2010-07-30T17:20:00.000-07:00

If a child learns by failing over and over again until he/she gets it right. Then wouldn't it stand to be the truth that failing is the best way to learn in a general sense? I would propose a theoretical teaching method that would be applied to the student that would allow them to learn the way they were born to learn. The method would simply, but strictly, enforce learning by throwing them out there. There would be no teaching, in a traditional sense, from the beginning of there childhood. They would only learn the way that they first taught themselves how to learn (through testing the waters first and asking questions). I have learned a ton more about life, and other such criteria, through this method. Something that I've learned through this method was, about the only thing that I wasn't taught to learn, social etiquette and social experimentation (in small and large scenarios). I, at first, was a very awkward child. I had few friends because I was always experimenting with my group of peers. That led, however, to a quick realization of what not to do. It taught me that, in each individual scenario, to never underestimate a person, or animal. I of course challenged my own thinking at times to try to push people or animals, verbally, to where I wanted them to go mentally. You could say that in my own mind I was meticulous at deciphering the code of feelings/thoughts, reactions, and actions. I could at times predict what was going to happen next in a persons life. I have caught myself, many times, wishing that I would have said something that would show my genius off to
the world of my peers. It (the predictability) is however connected to my sense of pride. With pride being a factor of losing my ability, I was restrained, in my own mind, to not say too much during particular instances. Later in my life I was called a "mind reader" from more than a few individuals, but I would say that I am just very good at deciphering the language of thought. I would observe their actions, and reactions towards others, and put my mind in their mind (metaphorically) and I would predict the next outcome. I have become a genius at social understanding pending education on it. I would not say that I am a learn-ed expert of social understanding, however I would say that, according to my own thoughts of life experiences. I have been honed and highly sharpened in the comprehension of thoughts according to those who have said so; like Doctors and other such authority figures.

Side note: in the scriptures (Holy Bible: King James Version) it states to become as a little child, meek, humble, full of patience and long suffering. I would say that this suggestion goes deeper than I once thought. It suggests not only to be innocent (as a child is), but to be patient, meek, humble, and full of long suffering with all of our trials. My “trials” as a child were sometimes too difficult to handle. I was sad and angry at home, but passive and thoughtful in the real world. I know that someone has a categorization for what that action is, and how it affected me. I have triumphed over my childhood, and am now more intelligent and more aware of how life is thrown at me. If there is something that bothers me I talk about it to my leaders in life or the ones whom I am frustrated at, and those who have a true sense to help me. I also talk about my troubles to my girl friend, who would then give me feedback. She would respond to me as life lessons she learned in her life about the topic. She is a great help and I don't think I could live without her advise, or companionship. I would at least go insane, and not be able to function in every day life; if I were not to have verbal and straight forward advice from everyone including my girlfriend. I don't just think, and I don't only do. I do both at the same time. That is more difficult, but worth it if you have lived a lifetime of conscientiously working out your thoughts into actions. That sounds too simple. I will rephrase. It is more difficult to do this, however through analytical thoughts concerning the trouble, or experiment you are dealing with, you can succeed with it after about 20 years or less, depending on if you take to it well, but become increasingly accurate at doing and changing the way you think and react to things.

The mind can be related to a perpetual motion machine. Once you start it in motion, it will never cease from going that speed. It will go deeper and deeper into whatever goal you gave it - forever. If you continue to apply force, to any particular thought of intelligence, it will continually compound it's efforts to succeed. It makes no difference whether it is a good or wrong (bad) thought of intelligence. However you can get behind the thought and push it backwards, and according to the mass of your intelligence, or object (again metaphorically), you can slow it down and return it to the baseline of all your intelligences. The baseline of all your thoughts are kept on a metaphorical sphere. And until they are launched, they will just sit there. Your, and my, baseline is like the earth. It takes a whole lot of time and fuel to enable it to escape its gravitational pull that the earth gives it. I emphasize that the ground has a single gravity measurement, like the earth does. Obviously these are only theoretical contemplations about how our mind perceives thoughts. I also reiterate the fact that it takes time and fuel with a fraction of a percentage higher than that of one gravity measurement to reach space. Our thoughts do not have a lot of weight attached to them. However it seems that the gravitational pull on our thoughts, at ground level, is much greater apposed to when we move them away from the earth. It is like a gravitational bell curve. The higher you get, the less weight you have.

Imagine how fast and how much thought power (propulsion) a child has. Previously it has been thought that young children did not have many capabilities to think, reason or comprehend on their own. But now, according to the scientists who have placed their findings in the magazine Scientific American, have found that very young children have more abilities than they have thought before. Now imagine taking that beautiful speed of thinking throughout their entire lives. Young people soak up new technologies very easily. They do so without thinking (it seems). But they are thinking at a level that an adult would only dream of. The way we are training our children is opposite to the way they're wired to think. They're wired to think by trial and error of self experimentation through things in their own world. Yes it is important to simply tell them, when they ask a direct question, what the answer is in a very verbose manner. It will obviously depend on if and when the child has his, or her, light turned on inside & has an epiphany. There are too many circumstance to list, however there are general rules to each situation. Some of the rules would be to stop when they get the epiphany (if and when they get it). If they never get it then go do your own thing while they find time to think and experiment on their own. They will have their epiphany sooner or later, just be patient. They are patient too and they are the ones waiting to launch their intelligences from their earth inside their minds. If you really think of the brain like the earth you will begin to understand how pressure causes your students/children to explode, and how gentle kindness causes them to find peace and an easier way to learn.

As in the King James Bible, the whole world of people is like a humongous vineyard. Each fruit is the peoples work (either good or bad), and each branch is a part of it's nation. Each tree is a representation of a grouping of people that the Lord is dealing with, and every grouping of people equals the whole vineyard. The vineyard only represents the worlds history (from beginning to end). Each fruit that has ripened gets picked off and brought to be used by the servant of the vineyard (Christ). He stores it up against the season and saves it for the winter or failed seasons; bad crops and trialing times. The seven heavens are, from lowest to highest, 1: Life as Intelligences (with no spirit bodies & no physical form), 2: Innocence as spirit children in Gods' Kingdom, 3: The distribution of Authority & Power through God, 4: Complete and Total Free Will, given to us by God, 5: A physical body and the arrival on Earth including loss of memory towards our previous existence, 6: Starts with mortal death and is the first time we find ourselves without a physical body (again, that is after we had lost our memory, but gained it back. Thus it is the second time that we have lost our bodies in whole). 7: Begins with judgment and eventually we are assigned a place to reside for the entirety of eternities.

If you put that much complication into a species (humans), Whom are already very complicated. I would surmise that this representation is the simplest of all the representations concerning humans as a species. If you can rap your mind around a tree growing, and what it needs for food (metaphorically relating it to a human beings surroundings), then you will have a perfect understanding of how and why humans operate the way they do.

Below is a verse from the book of Psalms. I feel that it describes the lord in the best manner - as our shepherd, herder, and lord of the vineyard. He is the one, and only one, who picks the fruit (brings people to heaven), prunes, dungs, digs about, and burns the vineyard or flock when needed. He pleads to God The Eternal Father for our good and He (The Lord of Heaven above, who lives in the heavens) does the work that God asks him to do.

"1The Lord is my ^ashepherd; I shall not ^bwant.
2He maketh me to lie down in green pastures: he ^aleadeth me beside the still waters.
3He restoreth my soul: he leadeth me in the paths of^arighteousness for his ^bname’s sake.
4Yea, though I ^awalk through the ^bvalley of the ^cshadow of ^ddeath, I will fear no ^eevil: for thou art with me; thy rod and thy staff they^fcomfort me.
5Thou preparest a table before me in the presence of mine enemies: thou ^aanointest my head with oil; my cup runneth over.

6Surely ^agoodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life: and I will dwell in the house of the Lord for ever.
"

Blessings in Disguise

2010-06-20T14:48:00.000-07:00

You must deal with your troubles. You can not shove them.

You must begin to break down the walls that hold them?

Can you survive the pain that you must go through?

To organize the thoughts that have stewed within you.

A precise surgery to remove your hate,

to replace it with a state

of mind called love & understanding

like God above and intertwining

with those who've loved you

and others too.

To know that in your heart you don't have to hate.

To know that in your heart you don't have to investigate.

To know that in the end it's God that does the judging.

To know that in the end it is a new beginning.

And that in the end it's all broken down to

who did what to who.

And nothing else matters in the grand scheme of things.

Just wait for what all the good you've done brings.

The consequences will be great; both good and bad.

The consequences will determine if you will be happy or sad.

For eternity ever more.

And there will be no going back. For death is the door.

That you can not come back from

or try to vault from,

your place where you have been put.

And that is the end of it caput.

However there will be improvement

and things of commitment.

That you must abide by.

Or your life will be a sad cry.

From the things that are true.

And the things that are good for you.

And everything will be bliss

through Christs' forgiving kiss.

LIERO

2010-06-14T13:02:00.000-07:00

This is the funnest game in the world! It is called "Liero." I downloaded it and have played it many a time. It is like the game "Worms," but it is on a 2-D plain. Think of an ant farm with explosives and missiles to tear up the dirt! You also have the option to add dirt to protect yourself for a time. This was my favorite game that I played as a teenager. So Download the file from the link above, called "LIERO," that I sent and have fun! It is freeware too, so no worries :)