Reezen TOT

Overseas Workers

2015-10-11T07:25:00.002-07:00

I am not sure if you guys have recently read the news about a domestic helper's right hand being cut/sawed off by her employer. In my opinion it really makes me think of the countries I want to travel (if the people are hostile to certain race etc.).

The incident happened when Kashturi told off the police about her working conditions (there is a periodical check of the police with regards to the welfare of Domestic helpers). When the female employer was given a warning by the police; madness, wait it is not madness but HORROR ERUPTED FROM THE DEPTHS OF HELL. The female employer was so enraged that she CHOPPED the Kashturi's right hand. (To read more about the article click here KickerDaily)

I was so enraged after reading the article. It was sick, an abomination! How could this so called educated woman boss do that to her helper? For certain OFWs or OWs this is nothing new, some are lucky to have nice employers who would treat them nicely while others go to the DEMONS. These catastrophic events do not just happen in the Middle East area but also in other countries. It is not just the harm that they do; there was also an instance where in a male OFW was gang raped by 4 Saudi Men (click this Link and it would redirect you to a short clip about the story back in 2010.).

This literally pisses me off; what right does that DEMONIC woman have? She treated Kashturi worst than an animal. I suggest that woman get her taste of her own medicine and have her right hand chopped off as well (eye for an eye a tooth for a tooth). Do you think that justice will prevail in this travesty? Yet money TALKS (aka Blood wit/Blood Money). I am beyond upset about these folks; it is not just about the working conditions of OFWs but I also think about the other OWs. Nobody deserves to be treated that way.

JUSTICE FOR KASHTURI!

xoxo

DOOM 4

2015-09-28T12:27:00.001-07:00

Hello there my dear blog.. Anyways I was busy for the past couple of days so now I am a bit free and ready to create a new post here. Two weeks ago I was watching a trailer for the game DOOM.. It has been stuck in my mind to create a blog about it.

As you know now that I am fond of streaming YouTube and ofcourse I watch a lot of channels there to watch for walk through/play through of games I am highly interested in. While checking out trailers for new games in MkIceAndFire's channel, I was able to watch the trailer and I was stoked because the graphics for the game is AMAZEBALLS.

According to Wikipedia; the game will be out around the first or the second quarter of 2016 which is exciting. The platforms for the said DOOM 4 is for PC, Playstation 4 and the XBOX One (publisher Bethesda Softworks).

the GamePlay:

"Doom is a first-person shooter which has "badass demons, big effing guns, and moving really fast" as key principles, according to id Software executive producer Marty Stratton. The game features a large arsenal of weapons, which can be collected and freely switched by players throughout the game. Many classic weapons, including the super shotgun and BFG 9000, make a return. In addition, melee weapons such as the chainsaw, which can cut enemies in half, are also featured. Many enemies from the original games like the Revenant, Mancubus, and Cyberdemon return as well, some of them redesigned. As the combat system of the game puts emphasis on momentum and speed, the game allows players to perform movements like sprinting and double-jumping. A combat system known as "push forward combat" is featured, which discourages players from taking cover behind obstacles or resting to regain health. As a result, the game will not feature any cover mechanics or a health-regeneration system. Players can collect health and armour pick-ups scattered throughout levels, or kill enemies to regain health. A new mechanic introduced in Doom is the melee execution system. It allows players to perform a melee-takedown when players deal enough damages to enemies. Enemies available for melee-takedown will be highlighted.

The multiplayer is being developed in conjunction with Certain Affinity. Multiple multiplayer modes, such as traditional four-player deathmatch, domination, freeze tag, and clan arena, are included in the game. Power-ups and teleports are also to be featured in the game. Certain game modes feature asymmetrical structures, in which players can pick-up a pentagram in the map that allows them to transform into and fight as one of the monsters featured in the game. The game will also include a built-in tool titled "Doom SnapMap" which allows players to construct custom maps, create new game modes and share them with the online community. (credits to Wikipedia for the information)"

the PLOT:

For the PLOT of the story, you can try to watch the movie DOOM which was released back in 2005 (mind you the actors there are HAWT lol. You can click on the link to be redirected to the IMBD site to know more about the movie)

Can't wait for the gameplay for this. I am excited and beyond. :-)

To order the game or check out different games Bethesda Softwork has to offer for different platforms kindly click the link and you would be redirected to their Website. You can also visit the main website for DOOM by clicking the link as well,.

So in the mean time you can check out this trailer and let me know what you think!

xoxo,

Mad Max.. THE GAME

2015-09-13T05:07:00.000-07:00

I had a play/walk through binge a few days ago; and if you know me personally or have read some of the posts that I have made in this blog.. I ENJOY YOUTUBE a lot.

Lately I went on a binge for the game MAD MAX from MKIceandFire's youtube channel and I was definitely hooked. So for the folks here who would like to know about:

the Game Play:

"Mad Max is a third-person action-adventure vehicular combat video game set in an open world environment and based on the Mad Max film series. It is developed by Avalanche Studios and published by Warner Bros. Interactive Entertainment.." (Credits to Wikipedia)

the PLOT:

"Max's journey to the Plains of Silence takes an unexpected turn when a group of War Boys (run by warlord Scabrous Scrotus, psychotic son of Immortan Joe) run him off the road and steal his clothes, his supplies, his weapons, and his car before leaving him to rot in the desert sun. Traversing the wasteland in search of his prized Interceptor, Max meets a hunchbacked mechanic named Chumbucket, an overzealous individual that's hell bent on crafting the perfect vehicle, the Magnum Opus. After giving Max hope of exacting vengeance on Scrotus, the two form an unlikely partnership and set out in the base of the Opus in search of food, water, allies, upgrades, and redemption in a world devoid of sanity (Credits to Wikipedia)"

how the GAME goes:

"Mad Max is a post-apocalyptic action-adventure game, with a heavy emphasis on vehicular combat, in which the player takes on the role of eponymous character Mad Max (Bren Foster)...Weapons, such as flamethrowers and a mounted cannon, and a grappling hook can also be added to the Magnum Opus. The harpoon can be used in-vehicle with Chum, Max's mechanic, riding along. Max's Magnum Opus can be combined with a V8 engine and a powerful ramming ability to destroy enemies' vehicles and weaponry. Nitro boosts are also featured for acceleration. When simultaneously driving and aiming, the game enters slow-motion and allows the player to toggle between targets. Despite the game having a third-person perspective, players can switch to first-person view when the player is engaging in combat with enemies while driving the Magnum Opus. Chumbucket will also repair the car for the player once the player exits the car.(Credits to Wikipedia)"

Anyways although he story was a bit boring for me (I find it boring sorry guys) what really made me amused with this game is because of the graphics and the GORE. Specially the first scene was totally insane!

The pro's about the game other than being in an apocalyptic time is more on the customization of Max's car (hello! Nitro?? A friggin HARPOON to pull down those fire tower considered threats..) and the brutally fights (Fury KILL!!). The best ones as well was when the game goes in slow motion when you need to kick somebody's arse.

The con well I just find the story boring (it lacks story for me, it typically revolves about Revenge and shiz and that's it).

So if you would like to watch MK's playthrough just click on the link below and you would be redirected to his youtube page and please follow him you aint gonna regret it.

MKIceandFire's Walkthrough

If you want to order the game and check out some of the snaps from the game just click this "Mad Max" which will redirect you to the game's official Website.

xoxo,

Limitless Living Coach Jon H.

2015-09-07T07:05:00.000-07:00

Limitless Living Coaching from Jon H.

Just in case you know Jon H is one of Manila's finest DJs when it came to the Hiphop scene and entrepreneur (GreyOne Social , Styles Entertainment , Club Owner Raven Manila).

On the other side of things he is now also known as a Life Coach, it is someone who helps people identify and achieve personal goals. I feel very elated to have met this person. There were things that I have noticed about him is that he knows what he's doing, he knows how to treat his fans (insert fan girl eyes here) and the positivity he is able to exert.

I have been following his IG account since IG started and he posts the most motivational quotations as well as how men should treat their women (Patti Grandidge is the QUEEN!) and Truffles.

Now let's segue back to his limitless coaching; I listened to some of his posts about how to get started on how to reach your goals. This made me think with what my REAL PASSION was. I have to admit that I am very happy that I resigned from job back in July; I have never been happier. Now I have all the time to ponder, I am always getting lost (and falling a sleep LITERALLY) with what I want to do right now with my life.

"People take their lives too seriously ... Take it too seriously you tend to not manifest things anymore" - Jon H

There were a lot of things that I wanted to do right now, I want to concentrate more with taking care of my nephew. Yes there is less to zilch time for going out as of the moment but when my nephew creates a new milestone the joy he brings me is the best. I've been thinking of going back to school again, contemplating if I want to pursue Physical Therapy or what. Currently starting to do research about it.

What really motivated me right now to find my real Passion was when he said:

"I don't think about the money but money came... I was more attracting the things I love to do and I gave so much Value to the people.." - Jon H.

Thank you very much Jon H. for posting your thoughts in IG and Youtube. I appreciate it. Kindly Check out his IG and Youtube to know more about his Limitless Living Coaching.

xoxo

When the music stops..

2015-09-06T10:05:00.002-07:00

When the music STOPS.. What happens?

I remember back in high school, a friend of mine wrote me a letter about what's going to happen when the clubs close down and the high isn't enough...

Until recently I have never gave some serious thought about it; just now I am still in this little world of mine to mind such of the trivial things she has said. I was known back then to be a party girl and all that shebangs but right now I am snickering when this image of me pops back into my head.

I don't mind being known as a party girl when they definitely do not know how my Friggin mind works. As far as I know I am anti-social and I enjoy my ALONE time.

I still don't give a shit when people connect the definition of a party girl to a more negative stuff (the problem with people is that they LOVE TO JUDGE.. Don't WE?). But hell once you meet one I think you would understand the true WOMAN behind that party girl.

It has been a month that I haven't been out clubbing or partying not because I don't want to go out it is just that I have some main priorities right now that has to come first (and my budget is nearing zilch for the mean time LOL)..

When the music STOPS it does not mean that it will STOP indefinitely but just for the mean time; I still know how to be that wild child and chill for a while but when you are nearing your thirties and see the other kids partying with you I sometimes feel annoyed (maybe that was what some other people thought about me back then ROTFL).

The MUSIC will continue on playing and the booze will still flow (enjoying a cold glass of red wine right now.).. Ever heard the acronym YOLO? Well so far I think I have been YOLOin for quite some time.

Talk to you soon..

xoxo

Cartoons and thoughts

2015-08-31T09:47:00.001-07:00

I really have to admit that I am a kid at heart; certainly a grown ass woman like me should think more like an adult (which I certainly do). But to escape the reality I am right now, I indulge myself with watching cartoons.

As a 90's kid I grew up watching The Simpsons, Yuyu Hakusho, Daria, Batman animated series to name some. Back then I never understood what the show was about until I reached my teens (the unyielding shenanigans of some of the characters.) on how the topics are typically more for the adults. Many years passed and certain genres have arrived in the world of animation (Japanese anime etc) and the story lines are getting more PG or something.

I enjoy some of the cartoons but there are certain cartoons I don't like as it exhibits that the show is for a specific gender group. I grew up with my brother and I can proudly say that the things that we watched are pretty balanced as I would watch Xmen with him while he watches Sailor Moon with me. There were times I felt bothered that there were toys (ie Toy Guns) that I am not allowed as my parents quoted that it was for boys.

As we speak I am doing a marathon of the Simpsons and such nostalgia is coming back to me, I might be a grown ass woman but I can still relate to the youngins since i get to watch the shows that some of them watch.

xoxo,

Until Dawn

2015-08-27T00:44:00.000-07:00

I don't have a gaming console although I do enjoy playing games when given a chance. To quench my thirst for games, I peruse Youtube and Twitch to watch play/walk through of games that I am interested about.

Lately I am engrossed with the adventure, horror, survival game called "Until Dawn".

imaged grabbed from Playstation's Website.

To give you a gist about the game here's the description from Playstation's Website

Eight friends trapped together on a remote mountain retreat, and they aren’t alone. Gripped by dread, with tensions running high, they must fight through their fear if they all hope to make through the night in one piece.

Play as each of the eight characters and experience fear like you never have before. Every decision you make in your terrifying search for answers could mean the difference between life and death, but for whom? Your actions alone will decide who survives Until Dawn.

The Key features of the Game:

Gripping Story - What's a game without a story? Let me tell you that upon watching the previews for this game got me hook and not to mention story was written by Larry Fessenden (the movie "I Sell the Dead")& Graham Reznick (the movie "The House of the Devil")

Next-Gen Horror - You will be using a more evolved "Killzone™ Shadow Fall engine". I dare say that you should be prepared for a lot of jump scares (Mummy! i need my blanket!).

Choice and Consequences - No brainer for the explanation but what's really cool about this is whenever you start over the game, there would be new choices to choose and the items that you need to finish your objectives will be located in a different area (Amazeballs!).

Butterfly Effect - Think about the "Chaos Theory", it is the sensitive dependence on initial conditions in which a small change can trigger large differences in the last state (ie like when you touch the water in the pool, then the ripple happens; think of the game called "Life is Strange").

And not to mention that the characters are very familiar such as Hayden Panattieri, Peter Stomare (aka John Abruzzi from Prison Break) and Meaghan Martin (movie Camp Rock) to name a few.

here's a teaser from the Playstation Website and Youtube.

For the walkthroughs/playthroughs go check out these folks' Youtube Channels:

MKIceAndFire - He does the live streaming of the game via Twitch and he also has the no commentary walkthroughs.
Pewdiepie - You're going to laugh so hard when he gets scared asf, just check out the face he makes.
GhostRobo - It's like watching your younger brother playing the game and the advice of having a warm hot cocoa is really cool.
GameRiot - He's got this Brit accent and when he get's surprised he'd be like calm

Let me know what you guys think of the game. Til the next Post!

xoxo,

When I started to like the beach..

2015-08-26T02:32:00.002-07:00

When I started to like the beach was when I went to Coron, Palawan.

This adventure took trip last month and I had mix feeling about it, thinking about the sun and how dark I was going to be. I was unable to sleep at night due to the excitement and the adventure that was waiting for me ahead.

Took off around 4:30AM to avoid the traffic and we spent around 2 hours or so at the airport. I couldn't contain my excitement and the energy was invigorating.

We had to ride this small BUS to ride the small airplane; it was the same shiz for me but I was blown away when I saw the view on my window. After passing the horrendous (Yes the view above Metro Manila is some what horrible because you see the traffic from there...) view of the metropolis, excitement took place when I saw the sea..

En route to Coron, I get to see these islands and the changing colours of the water from sapphire to turquoise. I felt like a kid again as I saw the beauty of those small islands and the waters.

Best part of the trip was when we were island hopping from one place to the other; climbing up a mountain to go to the lagoons, snorkeling with the fishes and counting how many jellyfishes we had passed by.

In every trip there is always a down side to things, but not all the time. We stayed at Casa Fidelis. It was clean; the staff are very accommodating and nice; the variety of FOOD was AMAZEBALLS! But we had some issues with the room I stayed in with my atchi.

First day at the hostel the screen of the window fell on my head, accidents happen but I was smackledorked that I was no longer in the city. I found it eerie that I started to hear all types of insects and lizards and amphibians that got me anxious. I did not mind it much at first since we were outside so I had to suck it up.

I don't place the hostel responsible for the blackouts happening but it was uncomfortable sleeping at night (for goodness sake it is the monsoon season but what the heck).

But what I hated most was that our room was like part of the natural habitat surrounding the area.... There were tuckoos mutting out "Tuuu-Ckooo" at night and I found one under the mat (literally under the mat); a lizard that died under my atchi's bed (it was alive before it succumbed to suffocation); a toad in the wash room; and a bat in the ceiling.

I was BEYOND mortified at night but the things that made me overcome these events was I was with family.

Would I be visiting Coron, Palawan? - Hell YES!

Would I go back to Casa Fidelis? - Ofcourse! So far they are really hospitable and accommodating that I would surely go back there.

For now looking forward to another beach trip in a few months or so; gearing up with more glutathione arsenal and higher SPF.

xoxo

Coffee and Free time

2015-08-25T17:49:00.001-07:00

After months and months of hibernation; I now have the time to blog (yes!!!).
So far I am currently thinking of what I need to blog about so give me a few hours to whip off some catastrophe.

for the past months I was working as a Quality Analyst for a BPO company and life work balance was taking it toll. I needed to set some personal priorities straight and come the month of July 2015 I decided to pass my resignation letter.

Anyways just writing a few things for now and will be posting some crazy shenanigans soon,

xoxo

My love of body bling

2013-10-14T17:55:00.001-07:00

Currently i've been engrossed on getting things done. It was not just the shopping, i was falling in love with the skin blings.

Yes there it is, one of my favorite tattoos as of the moment 3 needle art work (am i right? Idgaf but my artist kicks ass) lion by Myke Sambajon of P and P Tattoo.

The preparation of getting inked is an exciting process for me. The anticipation of making sure that the "skin bling" would be placed perfectly on the canvas. The way the needle machine roars as it dips on the ink, ready to embed the master piece on your skin is pure orgasm (oh my... Oooorrrrrrgaaaaaaassssmmmmm).

What i crave most when getting ink is my addiction to the pain (masochist? Ummmm not sure) and the art afterwards.

Regarding the purring kitty on my left shoulder. My artist and i have received good commendations on how it was life like and the details being astounding and magnificent. Just by reading and hearing those words make me melt.

My life is full of weirdness, craziness and macabre. What's yours?

Xoxo

Reezen TOT

more than a year of not blogging

2013-10-13T20:25:00.001-07:00

OMFG... I have been literally unable to blog for quite some time (uhmmmmm 1 year and some months?).

If it has been that long, it just means that I've been working my ass to the pulp.. Yes, i have this kick ass job that loves to kick ass..

Anyways nothing much has changed except for more tattoos that i have been getting courtesy of P&P Tattoo.

I don't know what to ramble as of now.. but if I'm ready to spit venom i will let you guys know...

If you do have some suggestions for topics let me know..

xoxo

Baguio Love 2012

2012-06-05T20:55:00.001-07:00

Last summer I went to Baguio City to wash off the stingy smell if the humid and über effed up stench of the metropolis... Yes it was a good summer for me..

xoxo

I miss this crazy little world

2012-06-05T20:39:00.001-07:00

It's been a year since I opened my humble blog site.. The stench of malice, laughter, idiocy, twisted, and craziness is all over my page.

So far I haven't been updated w/the happenings here in the blogosphere that I feel like an alien all over again (lol) so what's up with me? Well let me show you...

Yes I've become obsessed with tats and no it's not to a point that I want to be covered all over.. Will blog soon after the ramblings in my head subsides as I gather my thoughts..

My inks courtesy of Myke Sambajon of P and P tattoo. For more information follow them in twitter @pandptattoo

xoxo

Humor? It's still Humor!

2010-08-01T09:49:00.000-07:00

Humor.. What comes into your mind when you hear about certain jokes? Are you disgusted or laughing your fat ass off on the ground until you pee and crap your pants?

Humor

That quality which appeals to a sense of the ludicrous or absurdly incongruous

The mental faculty of discovering, expressing or appreciating the ludicrous or absurdly incongruous

Something that is designed to be comical or amusing

DEFINITION

See, branding (errr) HUMOR into a specific category might be more appropriate, however humor according to it's definition is something designed to be FUNNY, APPEALING (pheromones?) & finding ways to cherish a situation that is deemed DUMB or whatever floats your boat. I think, when someone delivers their HUMOR, it is how the speaker delivers it & it is up to his listeners to do the *THINKING, THE ANALYZING* etc.

I love people with a good sense of humor (*wink wink*). Yet if your boundaries has been breached or if you feel uncomfortable, you got to let the person know that you are (erupting in HOT EMBERS of RAGE) because they are not mind readers (would criminal profiling help? lmfao).

Yes I am definitely a bored professional BUM.. My day was eventless as usual, cook breakfast, clean the pots & pans, exercise, get crunk, baby sit, tweetdecking (since it was a Sunday, no theKCshow bummer because that's where I get my humor)..

xoxo

**P.S. if you can't stand the heat just leave the room and STOP MOPING & fretting**

Some thoughts to ponder on..

2010-07-25T09:52:00.000-07:00

"They always say that it is wrong but while doing it, it seems RIGHT"

Was there are time that you have thought that what you are doing is wrong/right but it is really right/wrong? For me this happens all the time... It is not because I am hard headed or high strung, I just want to do the things I really wanted to do... Knowing whether it is bad or wrong, I would still do those things... A time would come that I will hit my face on the pavement and smell the aroma of CONSEQUENCES... Actions will always come with consequences (you throw me a sissy fit, i will give a bitch fit). Consequences that we might regret or be grateful of. With everything that has recently happened to me these past 7 months, I have no regrets whatsoever because I know that I have given the best to make things work. The decisions that I made, was worth all the pain. With my current status right now, I am happy with the things going on.

Have you encountered an incident when you have practiced the nth time what you want to say to a person but you were not able to do so because you chickened out? I know that there are reasons why we do these things.. I guess we all fear REJECTION (*thunder*), HEART ACHES (*POW*) and not hearing what we want to HEAR (*What's that deary?*). Let's all admit it, we would only say things that the other person wants to hear (not unless you are a tactless person go ahead)to shut them up. I think that we should voice out things that the other person wants to know. People lie because they don't want to hurt their friend's feelings, to cover up the shit they have created etc. But creating white lies would eventually come out & shit, shit will happen and everything gets down and DIRTY.

I tap into my instinct but I guess I am too LOST to get SWOOPED up.

Naaahhh I am not emotional right now, I am just over analyzing things.. rotfl

xoxo

The KC show

2010-07-22T00:31:00.000-07:00

From my previous blog, I told you all that I'm a bit addicted to twitter right now.. Anyways, I just got back home from an interview / hot rendezvous with B.. I was updating my tweets when I saw KC Montero's tweet that he's doing an interview for assistants lol...

I wanted to spread my GV's so I decided to call, it actually took me a few times. At first I chickened out, the second time, the line was busy & when the opportuniy came.... tudunn tudunn!!! BOOM BAM! I was live on air (OMG beyond that I sounded maarte & i hated it because i am known for being down, rowdy, bosabos.. but wth right?!!??? It's friggin KC Mon. )..

He asked me questions like if I still work (Nope... Im a bum), If my hands were soft (I answered "I think so",should have said something way more ____ lol), playing game consoles etc, what i like to do & eat etc... Then I threw a bomb "Im sorry, Im interested with women" (Now don't get me wrong,KC Montero is a hot/attractive dude but currently im into women & i have my B.. Although I am mor inclined to Cassandra Monteroid). I finally know now that my vioce is like a lil' girl's voice on live radio hahaha..

I guess I started the lesbian topic... & Called mor than I should... I thought that I would start stuttering & have a lock jaw.... It was damn fun, I want to do it again...

It was an experience... Whether the vibes are good or bad... It was a wicked experience...

gotta listen to him, i love his show.. And follow him on twitter as well @KCMontero in twitter

more info click the KC show

or http://www.thekcshow.net/

xoxo

Another Boring day..

2010-07-19T10:40:00.000-07:00

Twitter Twitter....

I've been getting so addicted to twitter lately & it is nice to know how people are doing by the hour, by the minute or by the second of each day (nah stalking is a different thing rotfl)... Aside from looking for a new job in order to supply my undying, costly & affection for cosmetics and shoes, to my own dismay it is still unfruitful (BLAH! I need to party heavy)

The more I think about my sinful, materialistic demands in life, I feel thatI really need to step up another notch again.. I guess, I should listen to what my cousin said..

"Don't work just to please them, You need to learn how to grow up."

She is so right and whether the 'rents like it or not, I'm going to get a job because I want too. I just don't know why they keep on pushing me to work in Singapore or the US of A... Goodness, nothing beats PI! :)

Gotta run gonna do the yogi & some fat girl run rotfl

Feelings swirled, movies are so ME...

2010-07-15T07:13:00.000-07:00

There are somethings that I really cannot explain to myself. Just thinking about those things mkes me go bonkers and major head ache is brewing up. I think that I am being way too hard on myself, reality sets in & it feels that what I had done were not enough.

I love watching movies or series whether it's a comedy, horror, action, true story, romance etc (even if it is Korean, American, German, French, Filipino, Japanese etc as long as it gets my attention I will definitely watch it). There are certain type of movies that would definitely show "THIS IS YOU!". The side effects of realising that some scenes has already happened to you feels like de ja vu. We either laugh at it or contemplate on it. As far as I can remember, I am not a fan of watching movies that will give me raccoon eyes, there was this korean movie that I watched (up to now) called Windstruck & the Japanese Movie 1 Liter of Tears that brought me to a MAJOR CRYINGfest.

What's with the sad mood?

These movies that I watched taught me something, it takes time to heal wounds and it even takes longer to move on. As easy as it sounds, moving on & healing is such a draining process and the time used up can either be fruitful or another time wasted lamenting. Nobody knows the efforts of someone acting up happy and acting normal when deep inside you are already burning & crashing down not unless they look into the eyes of that person. You would be amazed on what is running inside a person's head during this type of situation. More on asking themselves "Why did it happen to me?", "I should have stayed/ I should have stopped him or her", "It should have been me"... I guess the reasons and the answers to these questions would only be answered by them/ us.

The reason why I blogged something like this is because this entry is dedicated to my gf who died last June 22, 2010. We've been together (okay an on & off relationship) for almost a year and 6 months. I was not a good girlfriend that I was supposed to be (the other women & the infamous MR. BIG errrrrr) but her persistence, patience & understanding made her the ONE. She accepted me with open arms, the excess baggage, sudden outbursts & inclination to B (current beau). No strings attached. What even makes it harder to move on is the letter she sent to B. (I dont want to post the screen shot of the email because it still hurts to remember, I'll just give you the gist)

"I am giving you ReezenTOT back because I can see it in her eyes on how much she loves you. It is her time to be happy for a change. Doing this hurts but please take care of her & dont make a fool out of her "

When B sent me the forwarded email, I was in a state of shock & sadness again. I was amazed that she was willing to let go just to make me happy. Anna is one of the strongest woman that I know. I stood by her side until her last breathe, it was all that I can do. No matter how much or hard I cried, she will never come back. Maybe by blogging about her would help me move on...

xoxo

sex education, and ELLA... WTFH

2010-06-13T09:36:00.001-07:00

Here in the Philippines, some NGOs and lawmakers (religion can either divide the people or bring them together as one) are freaking out about teaching sex education in schools. Being frank and a bit way over my looney cranky head, SEX EDUCATION should be taught to children or atleast the tweens. Come on, when they hit the puberty stage there would be some questions that they may not be able to ask their parents upfront. With the aide of the sex education classes they would be more aware of their bodies and the different stages it goes through. Why they get aroused, why their nipples harden, semen, vagina etc.

The thing that some lawmakers and some NGOs are getting iffy about is that their religious and moral MATTERS might get affected (wth? even the smartest, the quite ones, the religious ones get KNOCKED UP once in a while rotfl...). The only time that these children's minds would get corrupted is if the parents or guardians are not PAYING GOOD attention to them (you decide what type of attention they need).

Thinking more about it, those people who despise the subject of SEX EDUCATION, are they thinking straight (come on... they wouldn't be around here if their parents did not have sex with each other!)? It depends on how this subject would be taught to them. Learning about SEX education would no lead to premarital sex not unless both parties have their consent (doh, them kids are getting SMARTER) Learning about sex is not bad, using CONTRACEPTIVES is not BAD, being aware of SAFE SEX IS A MUST, and definitely MASTURBATION IS NOT BAD.

NEW TOPIC..... CONTRACEPTIVES...

There is this new contraceptive that is awaiting the FDA's approval (ofcourse this would be available in the US once approved) called ELLA, a selective progesterone receptor modulator which is developed specifically as an emergency contraceptive. It will prevent pregnancy up to 5 days after unprotected sex or when a contraceptive fails (i.e. when the condom rips during sex, the girl is unsure if she took the pill etc.). The current contraceptive that is available at the moment is called Plan B which is good for 72 hrs.

Some pro-life activists believe that it contains a chemical similar to the RU-486 which is als found in abortion pills...

http://www.emaxhealth.com/1024/fda-advisory-committee-recommends-approval-ella (for more information)

So far this is what i can blab for now....

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Anybody Home???

2010-06-13T09:27:00.000-07:00

Yeah yeah I know that it has been a while since I typed here in my "awesome" blog (with a hint of sarcasm)....

First I became some what busy with my job then I decided to leave the job because it felt that I was not going anywhere... Love life is intact, still full of spontaniety and tenaciousness that there are times that I breakdown (in a positive way ofcourse).

My life is FULL of adventures right now and I don't know when a meaningful blog would happen anytime soon (Doh, there are just some people who just love to hug this equipment that I can only use it during the wee hours of the morning tee hee..)

Til the next time...

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The Blah

2010-02-21T07:27:00.000-08:00

The Blah... Nothing really exciting happened (duh as if) this pass few months (now i am taking bollocks here). Well, I gotta be thankful because I was bestowed a job to be an associate for ____. Due to this new job, I was able to meet a lot of versatile, unique, funny, crazy people that makes the job worth while (I so love using the gym at work, it rocks!).

Never the less, you would also come across some crazy blokes, wenches and gits (rotfl). But finally I have met some one so special that he takes my breath away (FOR REAL! HE REALLY DOES TAKE MY BREATH AWAY). Possession has done small things that MR.BIG was not able to freaking do at all (well, i gotta give him props though for seeing my family and all that but wth..), small things that made me feel I am important to him and I deserve the things that I really deserve (something like that.).

Yup, the new dude in my life is Possession (possession because he is mine.... lol). It really took some time for me to get knocked off my senses to say yes to him (took a very very long time) I guess the wait was worth it. Possession has this way of looking at me that makes me go NUTS, (literally I go GAGA NUTS!) whenever he smiles at me I break into a million of pieces. Simple I love you and I miss you cracks me up to a "LOVE FRENZY". And the way he says my name, damn it, my knickers falls down on my toes (Hahahaha).

With the past blokes that I was with, whenever they look at me, they think of money, ummm money and "GAMING". Yet, Possession is very very very DIFFERENT from them. I feel spoiled whenever I am with him,it feels awkward yet at the same time it feels kinda good. He makes me feel better like no one has ever done before.

"I always get what I want, when I want it, How I want it and WHO I WANT. Now THAT I HAVE YOU, ALL THE CRAZINESS IS BEARABLE... Love You POSSESSION"

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IS BIG LOVE (the series) A THREAT TO FILIPINO SOCIETY?

2009-12-13T07:13:00.000-08:00

Okay MTRCB (Movie and Television Review and Classification Board) a been banning shows hat thy have deemed to be immoral for FILIPINO viewers. To name some of the shows (the ones aired in VELVET) The L WORD (I love this show) and now they want to stop BIG LOVE from being aired.

Currently, the Family Media Advocacy Foundation, an NGO, filed charges to the Regional Trial Court regarding his issue..

According to them, it is immoral, , indecent and contrary to law and does not meet any of the expectations of FILIPINO CULTURE/TRADITIONS.

Here's my take...

First of all I don't find The L Word a bit immoral (What' wrong with showing "Affections" towards the same sex? People are all equal whether they like it or not. ). It just tries to show (safe to say gay love? BTW the girl's in that show are really HOT) about gay love, what people go through with this type of relationship and such. The show is aired in the wee hours of the morning for crying out loud! What even really sucks here is that people make such a big fuss about this certain types of incidents (As if they haven't made out with a person although it would be with the same gender). Reality check, ya'll can't oppress the gay community anymore.

BIG LOVE, is a show that revolves around the family's struggles to live their polygamous lifestyle while keeping it a secret from the outside world. FAMAF thinks that this series should be stopped from being aired (I think they already did.. BUt THANK YOU HBO!!!) and I think that it should not. In my case in order for me to understand a certain information or whatever the hell it is, would love to watch a show or a movie about that certain incident etc. For this show, it made m understand what POLYGAMY is about, the religion and the perspectives of what an individual feels in a polygamous relationship (if you watch the show, you would be able to notice that there are certain characters who are opposed to their situation.).

I am not promoting that being a polygamist is something to be idolized. Rather watching these shows that I have mentioned above gave me insights about the "THINGS" that are some what new to me (errr... on the contrary not that new. I just love how the story FLOWS).

Yes it would be nice to keep the FILIPINO CULTURE and TRADITIONS alive and well intact however what harm would it do to show these series that can really depict about REALITY. Makes me ask what is REALITY to FICTION NOW when there are things that we can assume to come into reality? IS it so DEMORALIZING to watch (duh, there were people opposed as well with Harry Potter cause it talks about NECROMANCY as well as the da vinci code.. YET THEY STILL KICK A**)?

They have the right to say whatever the think is deem right for them however, they should try to watch the whole season to get the picture..No harm doing that (SO WHAT DOES THE PARENTS DO? HELLO PARENTAL GUIDANCE ???)

here's some info about the said shows
THE L WORD

BIG LOVE ON WIKI
BIG LOVE ON HBO
THE ISSUE about this

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Definition of A sick Bastard

2009-11-27T22:20:00.000-08:00

Can you ever define what a SICK BASTARD is?

According to Merriam-Webster's Open Dictionary:

SICK
spiritually or morally unsound or corrupt...
mentally or emotionally unsound or disordered...

According to WIKIPEDIA:

BASTARD
A derogatory term for an unpleasant person...

Almost everyday in one's life one most come across a SICK BASTARD. These type of people are a pestilence to society. More over they are demented gits who are freakishly cursed to roam around the earth to defame, aggravate, stalk, scam, and create libelous antics towards people who do not agree with their ideas.

Anyways sick bastards are also fueled by their passionate desire to destroy someone's else identity, spamming them with such irrelevant remarks that is seriously morbid. Thinking about these type of people with such lowly lives is really despicable. All they do is just oogle their eyes on their computers, laptops etc to stalk on their easy prey..

SICK BASTARD + CYBER BULLY + STALKER + DEMENTIA = _______________

You get the Picture...

Maguindanao Massacre

2009-11-25T20:09:00.000-08:00

When things could not get any worse than it is supposed to be, I think that we are all wrong...
First incident was the intensity of the brutal road rage that killed a son of a Malacanang official. Currently the suspect named "Jason Ivler" remains at large (was also convicted of another incident a few years back.. WTF the suspect is HOT, but wrong is WRONG *sigh*).

Yet last Monday, Noember 23, 2009, everyone was surprised with the brutal massacre that happened in Maguindanao.. Yes it was appaling as the body count started to raise (as of now the total body count is around 46) in numbers that startled everybody sane..

There are a lot of speculatons that the mastermind of such horrific incidents was from the Ampatuan clan (here in the Philippines, political dynasties are such a big THING. Rumor has it that the clan has a private army, who knows?) and his other kins. What is even more mind boggling was that what those bastards did to the women (to name one Mrs. Jenalyn Mangudadatu, upon examination f the corpse, a breast was shot, other than that, her vagina was sliced-off and shot as well, eyes were punctured). People who think straight would not do such animalistic tendencies to these people (the convoy believed that having the media with them would be enough security for them but they are DEAD wrong.).

What fueled this massacre? One of the possible and only POSSIBLE cause is POLITICALLY MOTIVATED(Greed, crab mentality). Is this how people think that a democratic government should be governed by one family? If this is what they think of as a DEMOCRATIC GOVERNMENT then I"LL BE DAMNED (the higher you are the harder you WOULD FALL)! Now the Philippines is under the watchful eye of scrutiny.

HOW WOULD THE GOVERNMENT TACKLE THIS ISSUE IF THE INVESTIGATORS COULD NOT EVEN DO AN INVESTIGATION WITH THE RUMORED SUSPECTS?

IS THIS WHAT THE FUTURE THE JOURNALISTS WOULD BE FACING DURING THE 2010 ELECTIONS?

MRS MANGADADATU ASKED FOR A POLICE OR ARMY ESCORT BECAUSE SHE WOULD BE FILING A CERTIFICATE FOR CANDIDACY. WHY WAS THE REQUEST IGNORED?

IS THERE JUSTICE?

(FOR MORE INFO CLICK THIS )

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Sanitation..

2009-11-10T22:53:00.001-08:00

I have this thing for eating takoyaki so much but with the experience that I had with one takoyaki stall within the premises of a supermarket (ummm ever.. ikr, kinda dull, but we went over to shopwise and s&r.. errr november 10, 2009 4pm).

The thing about me is that whenever I buy food from a stall is that I make sure that the things that they would be using would be sanitary.. Yet there were somethings that horrified me.

* she was not using any disposable gloves when she was turning the food(if she does not want to use sanitary gloves, she should have a hand sanitizer near or her or a sink to wash her hands because she was also handling money).

* When she received my payment, she just tossed it inside this money box, (btw which is near the disposable plates) where in the money fell on the disposable plates.

Upon seeing what happened to the supposed plate, I kindly asked her if she could change the late that she would be using for the food. She just looked at me and asked why? (Mother Effff, is it just me or is that person already used to eating on dirty plates/containers?) I simply said that I saw what happened earlier when she tossed my payment to the box then it plummeted to the disposable plate instead..

i swear by that instant I wanted to pluck her eyes out... Bad customer service ???? hell yes it was... Never had done something like that to a customer when we were selling food during tiangges..

Mortifying... Rants rants...

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