Just Babbling

I'M BACK TO BLOGGING

2009-07-10T09:59:00.000-07:00

Hi guyz! Sorry for being away for quite a while. Had to do some stuff and got no time to update my blog.

So uhmmm, a little update about me (continue reading if you want to know)...

+ I already graduated last March 20! weeeee....

+ and currently adjusting with my new life as a professional (char!)

+ I'm currently working in Cebu. That means I'm far away from home. (*sobs*) I've been undergoing training for over four months already and still currently under the process. woah! By September, I'd be able to know if I'm qualified enough for regularization.

+ I'm a changed person. Well, not totally. But I can feel it. I've changed a lot for the better, I guess. I'm more independent and keen in budgeting my "sweldo" (salary in English).

+ I'm missing my family so much but I try to be strong enough for them.

+ I'm missing Davao. Both cities are of course different from each other. Well, Cebu is nice and is really more advanced than Davao but still, I prefer my hometown.

So, there. That's what happened to me, guyz for the past four months.

Godbless everyone! Keep on smiling...:D

My 1st Award....

2008-10-22T08:10:00.000-07:00

Thanks to Kuya Marvz for giving me this award. I love the butterfly...(",)

So, here's the rules:

Put the logo on your blog.
Add a link to the person who awarded it to you.
Link 10 other bloggers whom you wanted to share this award to.
Give a reason why you consider that person's blog cool.

And I pass this award to:

Ruki - for his excellent skill in drawing. The best!
Paul - for his deep thoughts...char! =)
Tetle - for her pinkish blog with "lotsa" nice stuff...hehe..
A Fil-Am Journey - for being a lovely couple, for their cute kiddo, and for their info-filled blog. Keep it up!
Asian Traveler - for giving me a tour to beautiful Asian places and giving me a snapshot of their culture...
A Blessed Life - for her cute baby and nice blog...
E-Book Helper - for being so helpful. thnx for the e-books. =)
Digital Polaroids - for sharing her skills in photography. Love your pics, really!
Film Asia - for updating me with latest Asian films. Thanks!
Magic Moment of Life - for her cute kids and cute page layout...(",)

weeee...I'm back!

2008-10-13T06:29:00.000-07:00

Yeah, after 48 years, I'm back to blogging.

Well, a quick update...

...We passed our thesis defense. Yey! So happy! Now, we're totally sure we can graduate on time! Woohoo! We just have to hard bind our thesis documents. Weeee...

...We are now preparing for the PhilNits Exam this Sunday. Hope we could all pass!

...I'm finishing my 60 hours of duty at school during SEM BREAK. It's supposed to be a break, right? Oh, well! I wasn't able to do my service during school days because of thesis, thesis, and thesis. So, I have to spend my break finishing it. I'll just bear with it. What's important we already finished our thesis. Yehey!

...We're working on our Logic project during SEM BREAK again. Hahaay! Long story.

You see I still don't have the luxury of time to blog. So sad! huhuhu. BUT, I'll do my best to update it from time to time. Weeeee. Glad to be back! =) God bless every1!

"I can feel the pressure right now.."

2008-08-22T10:02:00.000-07:00

Just like what Janina San Miguel had said in Bb. Pilipinas 2008 to explain what she felt that night, I also use that popular statement to explain what I feel regarding our thesis. huhu. We only got two weeks to go before the final judgment. I'm just so anxious about it that's why I decided to blurt out what I feel in my blog. I want to let go of the tension and worry. I want to get rid of the possibility of not passing and not being able to graduate because of it. waaaaa.. I guess I and my groupmates had not yet gotten half way of our thesis. And it really scares the hell out of me. huhu.

Despite the critical situation we are in, I'm still hopeful that we'll be able to make it. I believe in my groupmates and our teamwork. Janx and Nicoy had always been very optimistic and hard-working since I teamed up with them in S.A.D. And I should believe in myself. Lately, I'm starting to lose my confidence. I should really prevent it from slipping away out of my system if I want to survive, aight? Yes, definitely! We can do this! We should do this! May God guide us. May He enlighten me, Janx, and Nicoy.

Guys, wish us luck...

Okay back to work..Ciao!

I'm a year older!!!! (08.05.08)

2008-08-05T08:19:00.000-07:00

I just turned 19 today. weeeee...I'm not getting any younger though I literally look the opposite. nyahaha..Don't get me wrong. I'm not bragging. I'm just saying that I still don't dress up like other teens my age should or I still don't dress and act like a real woman. I still love wearing chucks (stilettos are killing my feet, I must admit). Now that I'm 19, I think I should think about changing my fashion style, to be more girly. hmmm...I guess for now, I'm settling with what makes me feel comfortable, simply the real me. Damn with what other people say! Aight?

Anyway, my birthday has been a great blast. Even if my parents didn't give me a big celebration or my friends didn't give me gifts, it is still special. Their greetings for me and the smile on their faces are more than enough to tell me how blessed I am to have them in my life. I'm also overwhelmed with my distant friends who remembered my birthday. It's really so sweet of them. Weeee..They really get me laughing all day. Am I getting mushy here? Kinda. But I'm not deceiving anyone. I'm sincere.

There's ten minutes left before my birthday expires. Hehe. So, I'd like to thank my family who's loving me each and every day of my existence in this world. I thank my aunts (Auntie Jeje and Auntie Jovy) for always being my bestfriends. I thank my friends for making me feel treasured and special. I thank God for them, for all the innumerable blessings he'd given me, for the gift of life, for everything.

My wish? Secret! Can somebody stop me? I'm getting cornier around here. haha. I'm just out of my mind today. Just felt like being silly...talking to myself...in my blog..hehehehe..

Enough okay. hehe. To all the people who greeted me, thanks a bunch! I'M SO SO SO HAPPY! I love you, guyz! God bless everyone... =)

Waiting for God's best...

2008-08-03T07:52:00.000-07:00

Last Friday night, I and Tetle attended R.O.C.K (Reaching Others for Christ's Kingdom) night. Actually, it was our second time since last month when Janx invited us to come. ROCK Night is held every first Friday of the month.

It's good to be back! Really! People were so nice and friendly just like before. Some of them remembered our faces and names. Really flattering. We also got to meet our newfound friends again. lingaw masyado. The thing I really missed and anticipated for is the music jamming. Not only because it is led by Janx, our good friend, but also because we can relate to the songs. I'm a fan of Hillsong to be exact. Well, I love listening to contemporary Christian music. =) And Janx's way of singing is so sincere (though at first, I didn't expect him to sing that well; it's just too surprising for me to hear his voice having the initial impression of him being different than he really is) and his bandmates play like Hillsong does that you can't help singing along and feeling you're indeed personally singing to God. I like praising Him that way, you know, musically.

Another thing we're looking forward to is the topic to be discussed which was all about "Waiting for God's best". The moment I heard of it, I had a feeling that it has something to do with finding your partner in life. Hmmm.. And my thoughts really coincide with the discussion.

The guest speakers that evening were Pastor Bob and his wife. Her wife spoke first. She narrated her past experience with Pastor Bob when she was still his girlfriend and when they were already married. When she was still his girlfriend, she waited patiently for Pastor Bob to arrive in their meeting place though it may took her hours to wait. But when she was now his wife, she admitted her patience to wait really deteriorated. What's the difference? If you are still his girlfriend, then you cannot afford to rebuke him too much because if you complain much, then he might get irritated and annoyed, pushing him to leave you. But when you are already tied to him in marriage, you just didn't want your husband to let you wait for hours.

She then said that it's not our partners in life we are waiting for. You know who? It's God we wait for because He already has a plan for us even before we are born. We should not overtook God's plans for us because if we do, things might get out of hand and out of control that it may tend to hurt and pain us too much making our life miserable. Say for example, I still don't have a boyfriend until now. My friends already have their boyfriends and I'm the only one left in our barkada who doesn't have one so they keep on pressuring me to just accept one among the boys courting me. I am so NBSB (no boyfriend since birth)!! I'm already graduating and I had no experience at all. What a pity! If I give in to their advice to accept anyone just to have experience, then I am not doing the right thing. Most probably, I may end up getting dumped or hurt by that random guy I have picked, unable to move on with my life. But if I wait, no matter if it takes how many years, then surely, I'll be happy because the one I've chosen to love is the one I've waited God to give me. Thus, the best one.

After his wife, Pastor Bob discussed the meaning of the acronym W.A.I.T. Here it is.
W - Know God's will for you. (That will is always for your best.)
A - Anticipate for God's will. (Hope for that will to happen.)
I - Intercede. (Unceasingly pray for it.)
T - Trust in Him completely. (Just believe in His promises.)

Other side dishes included in his talk are the two kinds of death people experience when they turn toward sin: physical death and spiritual death (means your soul will be burned in hell). With it comes admitting you are a sinner, remembering always that Jesus died for your sins, and believing in His promise that when you follow Him and see Him as the way, the truth, and the life, He will give you eternal life.

It was already quarter to 10 when he finished his discussion. We even didn't notice how fast time flew. It's just that we are so into listening to their enlightening and inspiring message. The night ended with another Christian music sessions led by Janx.

A Reflection

How sure I am that God will give me the best? Hundred and one percent sure! God is all-knowing, all-loving, all-kind, and all-powerful. He knows what's best for us like our mom but more "best" than she does. He loves us too much that He even gave His son, Jesus, to be crucified on the cross to save us from sins. Thus, He will never give us someone we don't deserve, someone who will bring us pain and make us suffer. He is so kind that He really makes a way for us to meet the best person in due time. He has the power to do everything that'll be best for all of us.

I just realized that maybe God still hasn't given me "my best man" yet because He knows I'm still not ready. I still have to prepare myself emotionally and spiritually before I'll finally meet Him. And when we are both prepared, God will make a way to make our lives cross and we'll find each other. Isn't it perfect? hehe..really looking forward to it.

All you out there who still don't have a boyfriend/girlfriend, don't be sad. The person you are waiting for God to give you will surely come. All it takes is patience and faith. Let us learn to W.A.I.T in God's grace and everything will turn out just fine.

Good night, amigos and amigas! God bless you all...

I'm addicted to Boyce Avenue!

2008-07-09T18:14:00.000-07:00

I found this group of musical geniuses in youtube. They are really good. I love their acoustic renditions of Leona Lewis' Bleeding Love, Jordin Sparks' No Air and Tattoo, Linkin Park's Shadow of the Day, Natasha Beddingfield's Pocketful of Sunshine, Neyo's Take You There and many others. The group is composed of three brothers - Daniel, Alejandro, and Fabian; and their friend, Stephen Hatker. Watch the video to see for yourself.

mere infatuation or love?

2008-07-08T02:52:00.001-07:00

when you keep thinking of that person..when you're totally in awe with his skills..when you always want to be beside him..when you smile unconsciously while thinking of him..when you're always longing to see him..when your breath is taken away by his smile..when you can't help staring at him..when you're always waiting for him..when you always want to help him with this and that.. when you can't help laughing at his jokes though some are corny..when you always talk about him when you're with others..when you can't eat and can't sleep..when you worry if he didn't go to class..when you wish that he will notice you..when you always want to amaze him..when you hear a particular music, you think of him..when you remember him in every thing you encounter..when you feel like floating on cloud nine whenever he's around..when you can't help blushing when he praises you..

are these symptoms of infatuation or love? just confused. hehe. BTW, i'm doing this for my friend who's asking me about these things and I can't answer 'coz I haven't been in love myself..hehe..kindly enlighten me, guyz! drop some comments. they will be highly appreciated. thanks! =)

cute BIG talents brought an amazing performance at Star King..

2008-07-08T02:31:00.000-07:00

Here is a video clip of Ye Eun, a 6-year old blind genius pianist and Connie Talbot, the cute singer contestant from Britain's Got Talent. Be amazed by their God-given talents. Be touched by angels. Have a box of tissue beside you. Enjoy!

On Steve Jobs' Commencement Speech

2008-07-08T01:59:00.000-07:00

This short clip was shown to us by our teacher in Technopreneurship. Really great speech...Enjoy!

Steve Jobs is really amazing! He's very smart! How I wish he can be our guest speaker in our graduation day. That will be truly great. But of course, impossible. I guess I’ll just have to settle with listening to him on youtube and imagining he is our great speaker on that day.

His speech was all about his life and the lessons and realizations he gained along the way. He talked about (1) connecting the dots; (2) love and loss; and (3) death. Connecting the dots tells the graduates and us that we have to believe in whatever we are doing or will be doing because someday, we will find out ourselves that our past has something to do with our future. Love and loss teach us to cope with downfalls and failures; that we should take them in a positive way. Failures should never be treated as an enemy. When we read between the lines, failures are even one of our truest friends because it is not afraid to confront us with what is wrong with us or where we did wrong though telling it can really hurt. As the saying goes, "you lose some, you win some", we should always bear in mind that with every failure comes something good that might be even better than the thing you desired of. Death conveys taking all opportunities coming your way because life is unpredictable. We’ll never know when we’ll die. For us not to regret, we should do what we want to do or what we should do. No fears as long as we know we're on the right track. Life should be lived the way we wanted to live it and not by the way others wanted us to live it. Our life is ours. We are the ones who have control over it and not other people.

It relates to my life and everybody else’s life by the simple fact that we all have dreams, we sometimes fail and that we are entitled to die someday. Basically, all he has experienced are also the same with us though fashioned in a different way. That’s why we feel what he also feels but we just have different various ways of handling tensions, grasping chancs, and living life. He is now one of my inspirations. Human as he is, he has flaws but he learned from them.

He views life as limited because we all have to die at the same time endless because it offers us unending opportunities and chances and it’s all upon us to grab them or not. Life, for him, has both ups and downs and with each level, a lesson is learned. And I definitely agree with him. Right now, in college, I am trying to find out what he said about courageously taking risks in search of the love of your life. From now on, I’ll try not to regret every decision I’ll be making. And someday, I’ll reach my dreams. That’s for sure!

after 48 yrs (part 3)

2008-07-07T17:40:00.000-07:00

Ei guyz! I'm here again. Back to blogging. Probably, some of you are annoyed already with my inconsistent appearance in the blog world..nyahaha..sorry!

Anyway, I have here two poems which I submitted to Banaag Diwa - Ateneo's somewhat yearly compilation of literary pieces. Please feel free to critique them..

AMBOT

Took over my mind

Logical reasons I could not find

Enveloped my body

Made me nobody

Overpowered my soul

I could not control

Drove my entire being

Overhauled my sense of feeling

Like a string pulling me

To the vastness of infinity

No action

No direction

Afraid to move, afraid to act

Always aware of the fact

That I am a coward

And changing it is real hard

WITHERED AND LOST

In my mind

is where I will find

Memories of you

and me too

Laughter and sadness

Love and madness

Here in my hypocampus

I can’t afford to lose

We enjoy each other’s company

Though we are surrounded by many

We are ‘lovers’, they say

But I keep on denying, come what may

‘Coz he is like my best friend

And that will never bend

Until out of the blue

You told me what is true

That you love me, you really do

And asked me if I feel the same way too

I answered, “Yes,

but only as a friend”.

You seemed hurt

But it is what I have to blurt

I added, “We can still be friends”.

And you said, “Yes”.

But it did not work in reality

It twisted your honesty

You seemed cold

Someone I can’t even hold

You made me feel ‘nothing’

Like our friendship was never ‘something’

You treated me like dirt,

you’re trying to remove from your shirt

I tried to talk to you

But you always say, “I’ve got many things to do”

Please stop your excuses

I am not clueless

I understand why

That it makes me cry

Was it my fault

it all came to a halt?

Tell me, I’m begging you

If you really despise me, if it’s true

So I’ll know where to stand

and if I can still hold your hand

Maybe I just can’t accept

Our friendship already reached its depth

Now, I have to admit this is the cost

of our friendship that is withered and lost

after 48 years (part 2)

2008-06-05T05:51:00.000-07:00

BACK TO SCHOOL...SOON...

Today is our enrolment, the schedule for seniors. This morning, when I wrote number 4 on the enrolment trial form, I said to myself, "Wow! 4th year na jud ko! Heavy!". I just realized time went by so rapidly and I've come this far already. Ala lang. Nalingaw lang jud ko. Pero in fairness ha, an even greater challenge is ahead of us. I'm quite anxious yet optimistic that I'd be able to surpass the difficulties. Kaya lagi ni. Tira tira! It only takes one year and after all has been done, I'd be able to wear my toga and make my parents proud.

LAAG2X WITH PAUL...

The division coordinator has not yet arrived after we finished filling up the white form for enrolment. So, to kill time, I accompanied Paul to Prudential Life to process his payment for the tuition fee. Unfortunately, the check will be given tomorrow and so, we just went to Jollibee to have lunch. Then, we strolled around the stores at San Pedro, one of the known places in Davao with the cheapest things people can buy with their pennies. Yes, they are cheap but most are of good quality. Though the place is packed with many people, I still like strolling there because I can purchase a lot of things. Really suits thrifty people! Hehe. We even tried some shades there. Then, we went to Mantex to buy some DVDs.

FLOOD IN DAVAO...

We went back to AdDU around 1 pm. We checked on our white forms. Yes, they had already been signed by the division coordinator. Then, I submitted mine to the admissions' office to get my scholarship contract before paying the fee. I got it around 2:30 pm. Right after, I photocopied the contract and send one copy to the assessment office. But I had to postpone the payment tomorrow because I don't have enough money. As I was about to go to Gaisano South to fetch my sister, the rain poured. I decided to stay a little longer since I didn't bring an umbrella. After 40 minutes, I realized the rain was pouring harder. I was stranded at school without any means of getting to my destination. So, I stayed at the food court, chatted with my friends, and texted my sis to wait for me at GS. It was already 4 pm when I left my friends and decided to go to GS - just in time with my sis having finished the movie she's watching with her friends.

But when I went out of the building, I was stunned. Flood was all over AdDU-Claveria. Again, I texted my sis to wait a little bit longer since I can't get through with the current situation. I waited for the rain to stop a bit. Around 5 pm, it already poured gently. But the traffic was quite heavy. I didn't have any choice so I decided to just walk to Ponciano to ride a jeepney going to GS. It was at Marco Polo hotel when I realized the water was getting deeper. It was already knee-level. The rain poured hard again. I had second thoughts whether to continue walking or not. Since it's already late and I'm a bit worried with my younger sister, I folded my pants up to my knees and decided to go into the water. I was really disgusted with the floodwater. Many unidentified dirty objects were floating on it. For sure, they came from the tumbled trash cans along the street. Still, I continued walking trying not to mind the "cleanliness" of the sea-like flood flowing all over the streets. Gibaktas jud nako ai. I was totally wet. My shoes were filled up with water. Rainwater was dripping over my head. People finding shelter under the stalls were looking at me. I didn't mind them na lang.

It took me 10 minutes to wait for the jeep. I spotted a lady near me and asked her if I could share with her umbrella. We chatted and I learned we had the same destination. Finally, we found a jeepney. We rode together and I thanked her for her kindness. It took the jeepney 40 minutes to arrive at Ilustre. Then, I walked again towards McDonald's, in front of GS. I found my sis waiting for me with Papa. Again, we waited for a ride home. Yet, no vacant seats were found in every jeepney that passed. So, we decided to just pakyaw a tricycle. Thanks God! We arrived safe and sound.

After that strange experience, I kept on wondering why that knee-level water flooded most of the streets in Davao. It was really weird! In fact, it was the first time Davao experienced that phenomenon. Davao used to be a flood-free city. But why was it severely flooded all of a sudden? Was it because of the climate change? Or the result of environmental abuses? The overflowing of Davao River? The decreasing number of trees? I really don't know. But I hope the local government and the people itself find a way to resolve this problem. It's disturbing, really! I hope it won't happen again. I fear that if it happens again, it will be worse than this.

i'm going to Malita!

2008-05-17T10:02:00.000-07:00

Summer classes just ended. If only you have seen how big my smile was after I finished my Psychology exam, then you could have tell how excited I really was for my break. And speaking of break, i'm going to Malita tomorrow. Isn't that great after how many months of hard work and programming(char!)? Though it's just for 3 days, I'm already contented. At least, I get to have a sense of "muni-muni" and time for "laag-laag", diba? hehe..The reason I'll be back right away is that I have to do my share of responsibilities for the upcoming CEGP convention and congress (this will be my next blog topic though). So, that's it. Bye, guyz!

a gift for a lovely couple...

2008-05-11T21:43:00.000-07:00

Happy Anniversary ate debbie and kuya danna!
Congratulations...
"Two hearts beating as one" can best describe your indescribable love for each other...I really admire you..."as in"...to the highest level...
Stay sweet to each other...Take care of each other...
Love each other more and more every single day 'till eternity...
Daniel is surely so blessed to have parents like you...*biggrin*
May God bless you and Daniel! mwaaahh...sending my love to your family...

I'm sick..

2008-05-11T20:38:00.000-07:00

I'm not feeling well. I got colds and cough. huhu. My asthma is being triggered by the unsteady weather condition and of course, stress. Good thing classes were cancelled due to the nationwide transportation strike. I can rest for a day.

So, guys, take good care of your health. Mahirap magkasakit. Eat healthy foods. Drink water. Don't stress yourself too much. Actually, I should tell myself these things..haha..

Okay, bye bye for now. I'm going to sleep na....till next time.

happy mother's day!

2008-05-11T06:35:00.000-07:00

Greetings to all moms especially to my everdearest mama. It's also her birthday today. So, happy mother's day and happy birthday, mama!

Here is a pic of me and my mama. My mama is so kind-hearted and just. She's so friendly. She even befriends my classmates and friends. She's so caring. When I get sick, she really stays by my side. I love it when she cooks. Her delicacies really taste inexplicably delicious. She's a real person. She doesn't wear a mask when she faces you. I love it when she laughs and cracks jokes. I love it when she cuddles me in her arms and kisses me and tells me I'm pretty though I tell her, "Biased man ka ma, ui! Mama man gud taka". hehe. Then, we'll laugh real hard. We are like bestfriends. I can tell her my secrets especially my crushes and "kilig moments". She's the best mom in the world. I am proud of her. I love you so dearly and I know you love me more. Thanks for everything, for all the sacrifices you've done for us. Sorry for the times I tend to be hard-headed and stubborn. I'll always be here for you no matter what. Thanks God for giving you to us. Words are never enough to express my deep appreciation for your being. Love you so much, Mama! Hugs and kisses to you...mwaaahuggzzz...

my new post after 48 years...hehe..2nd tag as well..

2008-04-30T08:05:00.000-07:00

Hello! My blog has been dead for quite some time and now, I'm trying to restore its life back. I feel I need to give you some sort of an explanation. hehe. Well, I have been very busy with school specifically with my major subject. Unfortunately, I'm not done with it yet though summer classes had already started. Well, it's not just me but it's the entire class that has still impending unsettled issues with it. huhu. So sad. Anyway, I've accepted my fate and I just have to deal with it. hehe.
Now, to cope up with the times I've lost, here's an arbitrary of things I'd like to share with you, guyz and galz...

a tag from nanai..

According to the instructions, I have to write 8 things about myself that people might find interesting. So here it goes:

1.) I really love playing basketball at the arcade. Though I'm petite (I think I was asleep when God showered His gifts of height to human beings..hehe), I'm able to play it superbly. Well, I'm quite proud of it. hehe. You should see me play once in a while. *winks*

2.) I love psychology. I'm taking Psych111 this summer. Before, I really wanted to take this course but my parents disapproved and I took ComSci instead which is really not my taste but I'm doing my best to like it. Now, I realized how intellectual and brilliant it is to study human mind and behaviors. I'm feeling regret honestly. Still, I can't change what's already been done. I'm planning to just take it after ComSci if time permits. Hope so.

3.) I like taking the long way home. Most of the time, I commute through jeepneys and I want a long travel. My friends find it weird really because I can always get a ride just in front of the university and that will take me home in just a nick of time. But I prefer the long way because I feel a sense of solemnity and peace whenever I do it. It's hard to explain but I'm really comfortable with it. Weird, huh? Just figure it out. hehe.

4.) I love music. Super! I like any genre as long as the thought and rhythm is great. I especially prefer the styles of David Cook, Boys like girls, Chris Brown, Chris Tomlin, Paramore, Flyleaf, The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus, and others. However, I don't know how to play any musical instrument. hehe. So pathetic. But I want to learn. Can someone teach me? Piano in particular. It's still not too late, right?

5.) I'm definitely not allergic to horror movies. I even love watching them. They're my favorites. I don't hide beneath blankets and get goose bumps all over my body while watching. I also don't have nightmares after viewing them.

6.) I want to be a good writer. I love writing. I am a writer in our university paper and I still want to train and improve my skill 'coz I really think I still have much to learn. The techniques and the likes. Would it sound corny if i say i want to write with my heart? hehe..

7.) I'm a person who wants a career that gives meaning to my life. As of the moment, I can't find it in CS. hope I'd be able to find it when I already have a job. and I really do hope I'd be able to study another field of science after I graduate. Something that I really like..=)

8.) I haven't got a boyfriend ever since. I'm really allergic to boys before but now, I'm starting to get over with the issues I have with them. But before, every time someone courts me, I always become a different person. sort of a monster most probably. No, just kidding! Maybe it's just thatI'm uncomfortable with those kind of scenarios. Now, maybe it changed. Not sure. Well, I just have to find out.

Okay, I'm through. BTW, thanks nanai for the tag. I'll have to end it up here, guyz..I'm feeling sleepy already..Good night everyone!

God is so amazing!!! Amen!

2008-04-12T10:07:00.000-07:00

A few minutes ago, my friend, Janx, sent me a link to a somewhat evangelical discourse by Louie Giglio during Chris Tomlin's "How Great is our God Tour". At first, I'm quite not drawn into it since I'm stuck in making our user manual for our SAD project plus the said video was divided into 15 parts which was obviously quite long. But then, he told me to really watch it because it's nice and it won't take much of my time. Convincing as he is, I followed the link.

Lo and behold, I found the most touching, and immense revelation of the truth about God. You know why? Because Mr. Giglio presented amazing scientific facts that really proved how great He really is. He mentioned some stars found in our galaxy that are million or trillion times more enormous but many more million lightyears away from our beloved Earth. Imagine if that's how big they are and the Earth is just like a golf ball (as how Mr. Giglio compared it with), then how little we really are. Plus God knows every single thing about us, starting from how we are formed through the sexual love-making of our parents up to now, as we are existing and breathing here in this very state. He knows what we are thinking and feeling. What's more amazing was 'laminin'. Laminin? Sounds alien, right? But Mr. Giglio made me understand what it is. It is a cell adhesion protein molecule that holds all our cells and membranes together. "It's like a glue", he says. When I googled the word right after hearing it, searched for its images, I said "Wow! Amazing!" You know what I've seen? The laminin was shaped much the same way as the cross of our Lord Jesus Christ.

Woah! Now, I'm a 101% believer that God really holds us. For sure, as long as I live, that image will forever stay in my mind. I continued watching and found out it's in the Bible at Colossians. There had been an unexplainable and incomparable enlightenment that had happened to me just few minutes ago. I was really so touched. It almost made me cry. I promised to myself I won't ever question God no matter how difficult life may get. We really are indeed miracles as what Mr. Giglio exclaimed. God is really great! Simply amazing! Highly powerful! Our king, Our majesty, isn' t he?

And for you to also feel what I've felt, click here to see for yourself. God bless us all!

...the result of the SAD defense

2008-03-22T05:04:00.000-07:00

Well, it took me quite a long time to recover from the result of our second defense for our major project in SAD (Systems Analysis and Design) which happened last March 12. What we do here is that we present the program output of the system analysis we made in a certain company. Our company is a hospital, the CHDCH (Community Health and Development Cooperative Hospital). The scope is quite big but we are able to comply with them.

--> before the defense
Our time schedule is 10:00 in the morning. So, we met around 8 am to wrap all things up. The day before the defense day, we conducted an error checking in the program plus we added more necessary functionalities to it. It took us until 11. I think it was near midnight already. Still, we haven't finished all the things we needed to edit. So, we assigned most of the job to Janx since he is the lead programmer. But unfortunately, Janx was not able to do all of them since he fell asleep. Well, that's no big deal. Sabutabol man siya. So, two hours before the event, we still made changes in our program. Yes, we were cramming. Ge lang! We do best when we are pressured ika nga.

--> defense time!
We waited for 30 minutes for the panelists to arrive. We were informed they were still on a photo shoot for the graduation picture. While waiting, we prayed. We were all nervous. Janx ran the program again to make sure no problems will be encountered along the program demo. Finally, they arrived. I was really shaking that time. We haven't practiced well the presentation. It's 'on-the-spot'. I took a long deep breath and started talking. It all went fine, I guess. After a few minutes of talking, we presented a demo of our program. Janx 'demoed' it. Nicoy and I prepared to back him up. Then, the panelists kept on butting in their questions. We clarified them one by one. And when we triggered the report for the SOA, shocks! There was a bug. We missed it out during the checking. Janx said that it was already fixed. Maybe there's a problem with transferring the codes to Nicoy's laptop. Supposed to be, the program should have been demoed using Janx's laptop but there's a technical failure so we use Nicoy's. Waaaaa...we just explained why it happened to the panelists. Sir Ed, the chair, and Sir John and Sir Bikoy seemed fine with it but i'm sure it was really big deduction from our points. Then, they threw many questions. We were able to explain some well but with other questions, we were trapped unfortunately. Then, they said we should have added statistics reports in our system since we are handling the entire hospital as what our title said "Hospital Information System". I told them "Sir, but those things are out of our scope". But they rebutted it is needed if we want to give good and quality services to the hospital. Then, i realized the problem is with the title. We told them we are only concentrating on patient records. They then said, "so, you should have named it patient/patient record information system". More questions and contradictions and defenses and explanations followed. Blah. Blah. Blah.

--> the verdict
We were asked to go out for a while for the panelists to have their caucus. Our friends, Tsang one of them, asked us how did it go. Then, we answered, "giprito mi, bai". But still, he kept on congratulating us. And I kept on saying, "ala pa gani, magdilang-anghel ka sana". Then, we were called. Sir Edwin started, "we decided not to really pass you, guyz, but instead give you a conditional acceptance". The moment I heard it, I felt like the whole world collapsed on my shoulder. Nicoy seemed like he's still in denial. Janx had a blank face. After the verdict, our adviser, Sir Oneil, met us. He ran down all the comments and necessary changes the panelists required us to do on our program. Janx kept drawing on a sheet of paper. Sir O noticed him and said, "si janx o murag dili na gusto maminaw". Janx said sorry. Sir O assured him that he understands what we are feeling. Nicoy kept saying "unfair man sir". I agreed. I knew we have met the scope and limitations for our program. I said there was just a misunderstanding. I asked Sir O to ask the panelists if we can just change the title and edit just the parts related to our scope. He said he'll try to convince them. I hope he can. On the other hand, we liked to meet the panelists once again to clear things up, to negotiate. Sir O had set a date but unfortunately, we were not able to meet them on the said date.

--> my feelings toward it
I'm really frustrated about it. After the defense, I went to the chapel and cried. I felt really down. We really worked hard on it especially Nicoy and Janx. We even started working on it earlier compared to others. I felt it was really unfair. It was unfair not because we are conditionally accepted but because we were asked to add those statistic reports and some financial processes that I think did not encompass the scope we had set for our program. I somehow blamed myself for what happened because I'm the one in-charge of the documentations and I decided on what title to give it. Murag ako nagbuot-buot sa title. Sakit jud ako heart ato ai! The day after that day, Janx and I chatted. He kept on saying his own opinions about what happened. Nagyawyaw jud siya. I also told him how i felt about it. I said that they don't deserve that verdict and i should take the blame. I added that I didn't exerted as much effort as they did. He told me that I shouldn't judge him like that because he never blamed me nor nicoy. It was all our fault. Kung baga daw, "it all takes two to tango". But i still can't help blaming myself. Stupid, noh? Call me stupid. You may never understand how i felt that time. He assured me that this was just God's test to see how far our faith in Him will take us and that I was just tempted by the devil. That's when I realized he's right. I shouldn't give up on this. I should never doubt God. That's what I'll do. Fight! Aja! We'll be able to do this by our team work and God's grace...Please pray for us na lng, guyz!

..the Holy Week...

2008-03-22T03:56:00.000-07:00

yesterday (March 21, 2008), we had the Station of the Cross at the Shrine of the Infant Jesus of Prague.

--> on the way to Shrine
gamay ra kaayo ang mga naga-biyahe na jeep ug taxi. may na lang nakasakay mi. we have even been jammed by the Station of the Cross procession. hapit na gani magsugat ang sa San Pedro church ug sa Assumption Church. so, while patiently waiting, the taxi driver chatted with my mama. a large number of people have joined the procession. so they exclaimed that Christians were really innumerable compared to other religions. i even admit to that silently. but what's more striking was that many Christians are still faithful to Jesus. great, isn't it? Manong
Driver said that in his ten years of driving, it is only this year's holy week that he didn't stay at home. he needs to work because of money. the reason? poverty. crisis. practicality. they then talked about Pres. GMA. because of what she did daw, corrupting the country's money, the poor became poorer while the rich became richer. yes, the government has its flaws. but we shouldn't blame the misery we are facing solely on them. even if Pres. GMA steps out of her position, will there be change? i really hope so. i still don't have a definite stand on this. so i leave this 'political' topic hanging. after few minutes, we finally arrived.

--> on foot from the 1st to the 14th station
while we were moving from one station to another, i observed there had been quite a number of beggars along the way. there were also many vendors selling various things like necklaces, toys, abaca knitted fans, cowboy hats, steel bracelets, and others. there were even those who tried to entice kids with toys and balloons. what shocking temptations they have been! but seeing those beggars, some are handicapped, really struck my heart. seeing their kids sitting beside them, hungrily eating their little, packed "baon" made me teary-eyed. we gave them pennies. for me, it should have been better if we gave them some food. i reflected. i was just so thankful i have a better life than them and because, i live more comfortably, i feel it's my responsibility to share what i have with them, even just a single penny. but i really hoped i could do more. maybe someday, when i have already settled my responsibilities to my family. i also hoped that those rich people out there will have a heart to reach out to them. they should share their wealth as Jesus had commanded.
hiking towards the last station had been really tiring. we really had a long walk. but i really thwarted from complaining. that little sacrifice was really not even half of the sacrifice Jesus has made for all of us. so i dare not grumble walking under the raging heat of the sun and meeting many people along the way.

--> arriving at the Shrine
when we finished the Station of the Cross, we stayed at the Shrine's chapel. many people were praying there. i wondered what they are praying. i remembered what our philo teacher said. that religion is the opium of the society. so i asked are these people coming here just because they find that coming to God is their only chance to solve their problems. that He becomes their last resort when there's no escape out. i hope not. but the truth is most of us really sees Him as such. even i, myself, is not exempted. but that was before. after the retreat we have last year, i learned to always offer everything up to Him - happiness and sadness, achievements and failures, satisfaction and frustration, everything. in every step i take, i always include Him. He's no longer my last resort but my first priority.

I hope you all had a blessed Holy Week...Happy Easter, guyz and galz! God bless you and your family!

i'm alive again....

2008-03-19T17:59:00.001-07:00

hi guyz! i'm alive again. i'm back to blogging after two weeks and a half. i have been quite busy with school and so stressed out with the two defenses we had. now, class has ended and our short summer vacation (4 days literally for me) has finally started. yipee! got to make the most out of it, right? ehehe..

partly happy for the result of the thesis defense..

2008-03-03T21:34:00.000-08:00

we had our thesis defense last night around 6:30 i guess. we are supposed to have it by 5:30 but the panelists took quite a long time in having a caucus for the previous team so we started an hour later.

while waiting, my team mates and I played hangaroo with Jedd and tita. we really made use of the pc in the defense room. haha. we had fun. in fairness, it eased away our anxiety temporarily.

then, the defense started. we really tried our best to defend our thesis which is about developing an ajax-based web site having VoIP capabilities. i noticed that the panelists seem exhausted and sleepy already. the chair of the panelists even closed his eyes for a while. i indeed pity them. imagine they were listening for thesis defenses since morning. who wouldn't be tired? well, it's life. it's their job. in the end, the thesis went well. we were advised to find a better title for our thesis, the one which is best suited for the content and a little revisions. it has been quite a relief indeed. nicoy, janx, and I really had big smiles on our faces after hearing the verdict. one last defense to go. yipee!

however, i am not fully happy yesterday because my friends got rejected and they have to find a new topic. what's worse they are only given a week to find another one and they are going to defend it next week monday. i just think the responsibility is too heavy for them. next week is also the defense week for another major subject, SAD and i really worry for them. the best i can do is to help them find a topic. wish i can do something more for them. that would be encouraging them, offering my shoulder for them to lean on, and of course, my prayers. Hope they won't lose hope. Hope they would be strong. God will not give us challenges and trials that we can't overcome. Anyone reading this, I hope you pray for us, CS3/IT3, for the upcoming SAD defense we are going to have. thank you! God bless everyone!

PS: can you give us some ideas for a thesis topic? we really need some opinions badly. uhmmm. anything interesting and feasible that is related to computer studies will do. your ideas will be highly appreciated. tnx! =)

i'm addicted to a 6 yr. old singer...

2008-03-03T05:51:00.000-08:00

i found this cute talented 6 yr. old kid in the youtube just recently while searching for american idol. she joined in Britain's Got Talent last year. she really has a sweet voice. according to some sources, she started singing at 12 months old and she had undergone no voice training. that's just so amazing! and to think she's so young yet "kering-keri" niya ang i will always love you ni whitney houston is really something. she even has her own album entitled "over the rainbow". i really love her especially when she smiles..so adorable and so pretty! can't wait for her to grow up..hope to have a daughter like her someday..ehehe..

PS: here's a link to her rendition of i will always love you...

A Teen Millionaire Who Is Quite An Inspiration....

2008-02-28T03:53:00.000-08:00

while blog hopping at "a fil-am journey", i discovered this 17 year-old lady named Ashley Qualls who have been tagged as a teen millionaire. "she bought a website for $8 and turned it into an empire". she is now the head of whateverlife.com, a cute web site containing layouts for myspace and others. her artistic talent brought her a long way from just living in a one-bedroom apartment with her mom and sis to a brand new four-bedroom house with the best security they could ever have.

she's quite an inspiration for all bloggers and website creators out there who have big dreams. she is someone who started little by little with what she had at the moment and in the long run, gained big. she's a model of patience and hard work indeed.

so, for all you people out there, hold on to your dreams and keep believing!

keep up the good work Ashley! you've become one of my inspirations..

PS: Click here to know more about Ashley...

...EMO LUV...

2008-02-23T00:24:00.000-08:00

i've found a cute emo vid in youtube..it's a slide show of emo pics that clearly define emo luv..just want to share it with you guyz..here it is..EMO ROCKZ!!!