BALANCE

Breaking the Mediocre Mold

2012-06-19T11:56:00.001-04:00

"We often work so hard on trying to overcome our weaknesses that we never develop our strengths...We can turn something into a HUGE problem when, in reality, it would be a minor nuisance if only we viewed it in perspective with our strengths." -- Joyce Meyer

I've always been a STRONG advocate of goal-setting and moving a great idea from conception to fruition. Looking back over the years, my greatest achievements have been related to things that I am adept in or extremely passionate about. I guess this makes sense...which is why purposefully setting a large goal that challenges me to my core also petrifies me.

But, I'm learning that easier is not always better.

Sometimes, we have to reach WELL beyond our comfort zone to find and achieve those challenges that scare us. Moving from scared to successful means that we move with purpose, intent, and understanding of our Higher calling.

When I first read Joyce's thoughts on mediocrity, I couldn't help but to think about swimming. I know it sounds stupid, but, Ironman's 2.4 MILES freaks me out. It's one thing to do endless laps in a 50-yd pool, but a whole different situation to swim 4,224 yds in open-water, with a looming cut-off time of 2hrs and 20mins.

Falling into the trap of focusing on the "what-ifs" sometimes seems to be easier than focusing on the "I can's". Thanks to the patience and humor of several very dedicated coaches, EVERY TIME I finish a workout, I have accomplished so much more than I thought I could.

Perspective means consideration of strengths and how they relate to things we want to improve. Swimming is only one part of this incredible journey. And, I know I will get there because:

(Seriously??? This did make me laugh though...)
Borrowed from IMFLA's FB Page.

Strength #1 - I'M COMMITTED...

Strength #2 - I WON'T GIVE UP ...

Strength #3 - I CAN DO IT...

Strength #4 - I WILL DO IT...

Strength #5 - THE RIGHT WAY...
Strength #6 - WITH GOD AS MY GUIDE

Every day, I ask God to help me know my strengths and handle my weaknesses in a way that does not distract me from His purpose. Because, bottom line, that's the most important part of any goal.

Know What You Believe

2012-06-14T17:19:00.003-04:00

"Opinions are interesting because we all have different ones...Although we should be wise about how freely we give our opinion, we should resist letting popular opinion become ours just because it is popular. Know what YOU believe and WHY you believe it!" -- Joyce Meyer.

I came across this quote in my morning devotional. An hour later, as I was reading CNN's article on Lance Armstrong, this nugget of wisdom made complete sense. CNN'S headline screamed:

Lance Armstrong banned from world Ironman events over doping probe

With a new investigation open, the World Triathlon Corporation suspended Armstrong because WTC rules state that an 
athlete is ineligible to compete during an open investigation.  But, USA Triathlon said he can still compete in its events.  

Hmmmm...

On his web site, Lance, fervently rebutted these current allegations and said: "I have never doped, and...passed more than 500 drug tests and never failed one..."

This whole controversy made me stop and pause, considering my own opinions on this matter and WHY I believe what I believe. It would be SOOO easy to simply get on the bandwagon and follow the opinion of the day (or the opinion that is trending on Twitter) because that is the popular thing to do. But, my point is, popular and easy are not always what is responsible, right or just.

I could write a book on how popular opinion is formed and how mainstream and social media are HUGE influencers. But, alas, that's not my focus for today.

(Image borrowed from Poems on Google+)

I'm a simple gal, motivated by simple things. I strive to be better today than I was yesterday. I try to bring love and light into everything I do, and I make it a point to gather as much info as I can on an issue before forming an opinion. Because, there are ALWAYS at least two sides to every story.

My personal opinion on this controversy is really inconsequential because, as Joyce said, it's more important to know what I believe and WHY I believe it.

There is a lot of info out there and lots of influencers to help us form, build and disseminate our opinions. We have to be conscientious and responsible in how we process and use these resources.

Today, I hope to pause long enough to consider why I believe what I believe BEFORE moving forward with sharing this freely.

The Only Way I Would Fail is if I Didn't Come Out and TRI

2012-06-12T19:34:00.004-04:00

21 Weeks before Ironman Florida.

Training has started and this morning I was up before the sun to swim. Yet, it still was HOT and HUMID. Ummm....85 degrees at 4:30 a.m.??? REALLY?

I'm learning to embrace my three-times-a-week swims. It's not that I mind having to go more than average. But, I do often wonder if I am ever going to get as fast as those guys two lanes over who TORE IT UP during practice. Little did I know, Coach was about to give me the learning opportunity of a lifetime. (Retrospectively, I should have been tipped off when he said, "Hey Sue - we are gonna have some fun this morning...")

I had already gone 1100 yds - closing in on a mile - when Coach stopped practice and had us all line up on the wall. "Ok," he said, "we are going to sprint. TWELVE 50 yd sprints, all out, as fast as you can go. We are going to do these on the minute-and-a-half mark, so the faster you swim, the longer you will have to recover before the next one."

All I heard was TWELVE 50 yd sprints. Quick math told me that equated to 600 yds - roughly the same distance as that for a a shorter triathlon.

"Ok Sue, you can do this." I thought. "It's only a quick 600. Just dig in and get it done." Oh, there is so much to be said about mind over matter.

The whistle blew and we were off. Water was streaming over my head. My legs were pumping and I was breathing only long enough to gulp enough air in to sustain me through three more counts.

Breathe...head back down...stroke...stroke...stroke...breathe.

COME ON SUE...YOU CAN DO THIS!!! That voice inside my head was screaming. YOU CAN DO ANYTHING FOR A MINUTE! PUSH PUSH PUSH!!!

And I did. For the first 200 yds, I gave it everything I had. Yet, I was consistently the last person to the wall. Every time. UUUGH.

Why is swimming so difficult for me? I KNOW I will get stronger, and I KNOW it will get easier. (It already has.) It's just a matter of time, practice and PATIENCE. But, PATIENCE has never been a virtue for me - and that's the part God has been working on for a long time.

Dean Karnazes said: "Struggling and suffering are the ESSENCE of a life worth living. If you're not pushing yourself beyond the comfort zone, if you're not demanding more from yourself - expanding and learning as you go - you're choosing a numb existence. You're denying yourself an extraordinary trip."

He's right.

The funny thing is, those sprints did get easier. Coach gave me a set of fins to use for the last 400 yds. He wanted me to feel speed and power. And, it worked! Suddenly, I felt like I could FLY. I was swift, turning my 50 yd 1:15 split into a mere 42 seconds, wall-to-wall.

42 SECONDS! WOW!!! I felt UNSTOPPABLE!

So, my simple lesson for today is this - it's a matter of PATIENCE and PERSPECTIVE. Like I posted on FB last week - "The things that challenge us the most are often the things that inspire and motivate us to achieve beyond our wildest dreams..."

Blogging and Biking

2009-08-28T06:52:00.009-04:00

It's been months since I've posted here - essentially ignoring rule #1 of Web 2.0 interaction:

Post and Post Often...

Have been busy standing-up the new Coast Guard District Eight Blog - which is significant in that it focuses on highlighting the personal and professional accomplishments of Coast Guard Guardians throughout the Eighth District. I am excited about this new venture

because it gives a forum for seeing the tapestry of unique individuals who, collectively, work to complete Coast Guard's five primary missions.

In addition to work, I've also been busy training for the Louisiana MS 150.

As part of team South Coast Guardians, we are working to riding and raising donations in the hopes of helping people who have MS get the health care they need thereby affording them better, more robust lifestyles.

Part of the team is headed to Wichita Falls, TX today to ride the Hotter than Hell 100 tomorrow. Have yet to do 100 miles in a day. Furthest

has been 63 miles last Saturday. Praying my strength, endurance, and sheer determination will guide me through to the Finish Line! Updates to follow...

For the Love of Goldens

2009-03-29T22:30:00.004-04:00

Several years ago I decided to adopt Lucy Lou.

I had had a Golden Retriever (Penny) for many years until she peacefully made her transition. After grieving for two years, I decided it was time. So, I went to Golden Bond Rescue in Oregon and submitted an application.

After several interviews, including an in-home and one with the foster mom, Lucy came home. She has been an important part of my family ever since.

Those that have met her would agree that there is not much that riles her. She is sweet, loving, and completely addicted to tennis balls. With a HUGE heart and an expressive personality, Lucy has been a source of endless love, lots of laughs, and constant companionship.

She, along with every other Golden I have ever met, is an adoring, gentle being. That is why it breaks my heart to once again hear about the atrocities of puppy mills. In this particular case, several Goldens were rescued from a mill in Burns, Oregon and are in the process of being reacclimated to loving environments.

While Golden Bond is in desperate need of donations (they expect vet bills to exceed $10,000), many, many dogs country-wide are in desperate need of homes.

I am not blogging because I have alterior motives. No one from Golden Bond asked me to write about this. But, I am so moved, so DISAPPOINTED by people who make a living through the suffering of loving, furry animals.

I know, I know. There are many atrocities throughout the world. People do awful things to each other. People do awful things to animals and our planet. So, where so we begin to right the wrongs?

There is only so much each individual can do. But, collectively, these small efforts amount to great change. Figure out what moves you. What small step you want to take. I will admit - I offered a donation to Golden Bond. And, quite honestly, if I were in Oregon, I would be at the shelter lending a hand. So, my call to action is to find a shelter here in New Orleans and do the same.

If you feel moved to donate, I'm sure Golden Bond would be grateful. If not, just consider a small step - a donation of time, energy, love, into anything that would help right a wrong and continue to shape our world into the loving, positive place it is meant to be.

Finding Purpose (in Manolos?)

2009-03-02T18:56:00.008-05:00

Snow Day today! Gosh I love snow days. Like I said last month, they make me feel like I am back in elementary school and have woke up to the GREATEST DAY EVER!

Of course, every day should be the greatest day ever. And, today came pretty close, in a simple kind of way.

I went and saw a movie, which is a rare treat for a Monday afternoon. Confessions of a Shopaholic - which I undoubtedly related to more than I really wish to admit. Nevertheless, the main character's real identity, which eventually surfaces, is what I aspire to be - funny, edgy, fresh, inspired.

So, how do I get there? My "magic cards" are not the answer, and I am finding there are better ways to spend money than using these cards on Prada bags and Gucci boots. (Ok, I will admit that it would be amazing to actually own these or, my ultimate indulgence, a pair of Manolos.)

But, I just don't think I'll ever be able to justify the average $600 price tag when my conscious continues to remind me how far that money could go for better causes. Of course, from a purely feminine perspective, some of Manolo's designs are SO gorgeous!

It's funny how sometimes we are taken by surprise. And, how sometimes life takes us by surprise. Never would I have thought that I would blog about fashion or post a video about shoes. Come on. This is the woman who finds enjoyment hiking through nature, thanking the trees for their continued support to our environment and oxygen supply.

But, there really is more to it. This post is not about shoes, or bags, or shopping. Instead, it's about being the people God meant us to be. It's about living an inspired, full, complete life. Materialism cannot get us there because it is the connection to purpose which grounds us and makes life worth the uncertainty.

Just as in the movie, where Becky found truth and purpose in writing about complex financial concepts by relating them to fashion, so must we all strive to find purpose by exploring the things we are conversant in. We all have the gift to simplify the complex - and this can come in a variety of forms.

Today's Daily Word begs the question:

Am I feeling there is so much more I can do in life or desire to do with my life? That feeling may be an inner prompting that reminds me I have a great work to do, great gifts to give, and a great life to live.

I live by the belief that we all have specific gifts that we are born with. Our purpose lies in unearthing these gifts and then using them to the betterment of humanity and Mother Earth. So, while I know I will probably never own those Manolos, I also know that I feel inspired and complete when I connect with purpose and live a life of love and full expression.

The American Recovery and Reconstruction Plan

2009-02-21T23:13:00.003-05:00

Everyone is talking about it...Congress has accepted it...and now it's law. Obama's new $787 billion stimulus package has finally been signed, sealed and delivered.

But, it's creating quite a stir from both sides of the House, which really got me to thinking...is this about money or, bottom line, is it really about accountability? Washington Post had a great article today about this very issue. (Check it out.) I'm no economist, but it seems to me that a plan which encourages people to buy new cars and first homes, offering tax credits and deductions as incentives, is a sure-fire way to get people spending...if they have the money. But, what about those who continue to struggle in this fledgling economy? What about folks who have lost their jobs, or even worse their homes? Mortgage help is now available and this new recovery plan has specific measures meant for those who are really struggling. The package allows for unemployment checks to be extended out 20-33 extra weeks, gives specific income groups an extra $25 per week, and more than 3 million jobs are supposed to be emerge.

While this plan sounds great, I am still struggling with accountability. I don't think we, as a nation, can point fingers and blame the entire crisis on past or present administrations. What we need to do is take a hard look at OURSELVES, as INDIVIDUAL consumers. As a nation, we are consumers. We overeat, overwork, oversleep, and OVERSPEND. Money has become virtual - almost an intangible object that is borrowed, traded, and spent using plastic and the Internet. We rarely see it and, as a result, live with the "out of sight, out of mind" mentality. It just seems that when dealing with money as an intangible object, it's a lot easier to get carried away and lose focus of the bigger picture (actually PAYING the credit card bill each month).
I admit, I rarely use cash. And, like most Americans, I could stand to scale back on my spending and beef-up my savings. But, one thing my dad taught me at a very young age was to LIVE WITHIN MY MEANS. This means spend only what I can afford to pay-off. While I do this, I also CONSUME much more than I need to. Maybe we need to revisit bygone eras when recycling was not a fad - it was a necessity. We need to start at the deck-plate level and consider what we, as individuals, can do to lessen the recession, reduce, reuse and recycle. This mantra applies to so much more than garbage. For all of us, this idea of sharing and caring needs to become our way of life.

Rescue Efforts on Lake Erie

2009-02-07T22:36:00.008-05:00

I spent the better part of my afternoon cruising through downtown Baltimore and enjoying the sunshine. I was surprised to see how many dogs were out for a stroll, doing exactly the same thing and taking in the joy of simply being outside!

What a vast difference from Locust Point Ohio, where the Coast Guard and other agencies spent their time rescuing hundreds of fishermen stranded on an ice floe which had broken loose on Western Lake Erie.

An AMAZING rescue operation - HUNDREDS of lives saved. My heart and prayers go out to the family and friends of the one man who died.

"You discover your role in life through your relationships with others" (Purpose Driven Life).

Bravo Zulu to the rescuers who have found their roles to be those which better the lives of others.

Day 15 - Alternatives

2009-02-04T19:11:00.008-05:00

Again, back to the wondering...

How can I assure that relationships take top priority...priority over projects or other menial tasks on my "TO DO" list? How can I put people before things and use life as a way to LOVE?

This all got me to thinking about time. We think we have all the time in the world to fulfill our dreams, live our destiny, really make a difference.

But, what if we don't? What if today is ALL we have? There are no guarantees except that God-inspired choices are right for me and for all times.

It's funny...every time I ask for a sign, I tend to get hit over the head with more guidance than I can usually process. My friend and I were discussing this very issue and, after wrapping up our phone call, I came in and read today's Daily Word:

Situations in life are often not as they first appear to be. I may consider a new circumstance or a change to be so drastic that I think I have no choice in the matter...When I turn from concern to inner guidance, I realize that I do have a choice in all that matters to me. I can choose how I respond to life's situations and to those around me--in what I do or do not do.

This went full-circle, directly back to our conversation. WE ALL HAVE A CHOICE! We can choose to prioritize our actions according to work, family, tasks, money, things, relationships. But, in the long run, what is MOST important? When it comes right down to it, it's not the wealth, or the objects, or the things that matter. Character is the only thing that springs eternal. And, character is built from love. "How you treated other people, not your wealth or accomplishments, is the most enduring impact you can leave on earth" (Purpose Driven Life). Can it really be this simple?

Honestly, I don't know. But, what I do know is that when I have a rough day (much like today), the thought of taking Lucy for a walk, or interacting with the kids, makes me smile. My heart is lifted, and all seems right with the world. Simple actions. Simply love.

So, while I continue to grapple with the big picture, I can rest assured that putting GOD first, LOVE in relationships / family second, and CAREER third is the foundation of the balance I seek.

Now, it's just finding time for it all. I think "Sue Time" deserves its own post...because those who know me know that I really do think there are AT LEAST 50 hours in a day!

Groundhog Day

2009-02-02T22:21:00.003-05:00

Almost through Week 2 of the Purpose Driven Life. One of the most poignant questions came on Day 9 - "Since God knows what is best, in what areas of my life do I need to trust Him most?"

I have struggled of late with my own purpose, considering the bigger picture, and with placing full trust and confidence in the Universe for guidance and Divine Wisdom. Too often I question myself, wondering if I am doing the right thing, if I am building the foundation God needs me to build to truly fulfill my broad purpose in life.

And, as I struggle, I continue to receive guidance. In reading today's DAILY WORD, I again affirm that we all are exactly where we are meant to be, doing exactly what we are meant to be doing - especially regarding employment:

I have fulfilling work to do that is an absolutely perfect fit for me. It may be my present job or a new one, a paid position or one in which I serve as a volunteer.
Whatever I do, I am appreciated and valued for my time and talents...I give thanks for the great variety of jobs in the world and the people who perform them. There is a purpose for it all, and I know that my purpose is always being revealed.
"My purpose shall stand, and I will fulfill my intention."--Isaiah 46:10

This applies even to groundhogs - like Punxsutawney Phil . He was just doing his job and, in doing so, saw his shadow. Six more weeks of winter...which is eerie in that it is forecast to start snowing here in Maryland within the hour.

Phil's official forecast as read this morning at sunrise at Gobbler's Knob:
"Hear Ye Hear Ye
On Gobbler's Knob this glorious Groundhog Day, February 2nd, 2009
Punxsutawney Phil, Seer of Seers, Prognosticator of all Prognosticators
Awoke to the call of President Bill Cooper
And greeted his handlers, Ben Hughes and John Griffiths
After casting a joyful eye towards thousands of his faithful followers,
Phil proclaimed that his beloved Pittsburgh Steelers were World Champions one more time
And a bright sky above me
Showed my shadow beside me.
So 6 more weeks of winter it will be. "

Unlike Phil, I cannot make predictions. I often get hints, clues, help from the Universe to give me direction and tell me how to best proceed. I guess I am not as good as Phil is at interpreting the signs. Maybe my ego gets in the way. (I prefer to call it fear, or safety, or whatever other term best describes that which holds me back.) Maybe I am just not ready to KNOW what lies ahead because if I do, I have no choice but to move forward towards it. What if there is more hardship to face before the blooms start to blossom? Perhaps knowing of the burdens to bear would be harder than staying in the safety of my hole, and not even bothering to look and see if my shadow is present.

Eventually though we have to peek out. Is it better to do it when we are guaranteed that the Earth is warm, the sun is shining, and winter has passed? Or, is it better to stare down hardship and exclaim, "I'm not afraid of you! I welcome the challenge because I KNOW God will be with me every step of the way!!"

It's a personal choice. But, maybe we all need to be a little more like Phil. He is not given the choice to stay buried in his burrow. So, he welcomes the opportunity each February. With great excitement, he celebrates it. It is Phil's chance to make a statement and, by doing so, make the commitment to live in the precious present moment and take each day - winter or spring - as a new opportunity to give back and shine with enthusiasm.

Day 8 - Thinking About Purpose

2009-01-27T20:50:00.005-05:00

Today was an amazing day. It snowed!!! As I left work this afternoon, the sun was slowly setting, casting a gentleness across the fresh, white snow pack. The streets were quiet and the earth around me felt settled. There was a stillness in the air - the peace that I often feel early in the morning when I take Lucy for a walk and fully connect with Spirit.
The feeling of utter peace, tranquility, and gratitude brought me back to childhood memories...Growing up in Colorado, snow days were such fun. Waking up in the morning, grudgingly pulling on my clothes, waiting for the news to report school closures. There were at least 2 every year. Two days of sheer freedom. Two days to dig snow tunnels, make snow angels, sip hot cocoa, and feel fully connected with Nature.

Those feelings never go away! Even with all of the self-imposed work and deadlines adulthood seems to bring, the simplicity of life is all around us. It's taking the time to hone in, appreciate, and find the purpose in the small things that helps bring importance to the bigger ones.

Day 7: The Reason for Everything

2009-01-26T21:23:00.004-05:00

Today's message really struck a chord with me because it brought up an issue I have been grappling with for quite awhile: "When anything in creation fills its purpose, it brings glory to God."

I have been thinking about purpose for quite some time. Am I fulfilling mine? Am I being true to the gifts which God has provided? Should I be pursuing other options? Am I giving back enough? These are questions that have been ruminating for quite awhile, with the underlying question..."Where in my daily routine can I become more aware of God's glory?"

This all became a bit clearer Saturday afternoon. A friend and I participated in the 13th Annual Maryland State Police Polar Bear Plunge (better known as Plungapolooza), raising money for Special Olympics. All of the small contributions added up, and 11,000 plungers were able to raise $2.5 million for Maryland's athletes!! Talk about God's glory in a simple event!

Yes, it was FREEZING! And, yes, we did spend the next three hours warming up and recovering from our fully submerged dips in the Chesapeake Bay. But, the experience, the camaraderie, and the Special Olympians benefiting from our spontaneity made the event truly worth the slight hardship we endured. And, really, it was more FUN than any true hardship!

God's glory is everywhere. As I told my best friend tonight, even if we can't figure out why things are happening in our lives, things are EXACTLY as they are meant to be for right now because, in this moment, we are all EXACTLY where we are meant to be, doing EXACTLY the things we are meant to be doing. This includes spreading hope and compassion and sharing thoughts of gratitude. It means giving back in whatever small (or sometimes large) way feels appropriate. And, it means finding the higher good in all people, in all events, and in all circumstances.

Day 5 - Seeing Life From God's View

2009-01-24T17:03:00.003-05:00

"Every second is a growth opportunity to deepen your character, to demonstrate love, or to depend on God."

Today's lesson has two major components - thinking of life as a test as well as a trust. Life is a way to deepen our character, to love, and to solidify our faith.

Often we are tested, feeling that when it rains it pours. This entire last year was like that. I felt that just as I was making headway, getting out of a deep hole, I would lose footing and take three steps backwards. Often we experience "major changes, delayed promises, impossible problems, unanswered prayers, undeserved criticism and even senseless tragedies," and it feels as if the silver lining will never appear. Yet, somehow it does, and for me, it's been because of faith and perseverance.

Life is also a trust. We are stewards of whatever God gives us - including money, relationships, and the air we breathe. God has entrusted the earth, and all of its magnificence, to us to watch over and take care of.

So, what is my part in all of this?

The chapter begins with life metaphors. It states that our view on life will dictate what we value. I have always seen life as a JOURNEY. So, I suppose that means I value nature, openness, adventure, and new experiences. Hmmm...why then do I yearn so much for roots and a place to permanently hang my boots?

It also asks what has happened to me recently that I realize was a test from God? The entire year-and-a-half I spent in Georgia, right after my divorce, was one test after another. And, I see that my current position in life is yet again another one. I am gearing up for a new job, in a new city, as an independent woman. Can I do it? Sure. Will I thrive? You bet!

Lastly, what are the greatest matters God has entrusted to me? I am realizing more and more that these lie in my talents and gifts. I am a communicator, an educator, a caregiver, a guardian. I need to cultivate all of these so I can better use them to give back to the world and become a greater participant in my own journey.

Purpose Driven Life - Days 1-4

2009-01-23T21:18:00.004-05:00

Two of my girlfriends suggested we collectively take a spiritual journey and go through Rick Warren's A Purpose Driven Life. Oddly enough, I tried to take on this endeavor a few years back, and failed miserably after the first couple of days. I guess I was just not ready. It took the inauguration, a new-found sense of hope, and seeing Warren again to remind me that it's now time to embark on this part of my journey.

I started the book 4 days ago and have already faced some pretty tough questions (you would think I would be used to tough questions, being a PR person...)

Here they are, as quoted from the book:

Day 1: How can I remind myself that life is really about living for God, not myself?
Day 2: What areas of my personality, background, and physical appearance am I struggling to accept?
Day 3: What would my family and friends say is the driving force in my life? What do I want it to be?
Day 4: Since I was made to last forever, what is the one thing I should STOP doing and the one thing I should START doing today?

I have thought extensively about each of these points and realize that the next 40 days will be an intense time of self-discovery and reflection. My intention is to blog each day on insights gained and answers to the hard daily questions. Sometimes putting the answers in writing solidifies the point and makes it even more tangible.

So, to start with, here are my answers to #s 1-4:

Day 1: I take a deep breath and think about gratitude. I look at the sun, the sky, the people I encounter in my job and on the streets. Each thing, each person, is an image of God and that, in my mind, is so much bigger and greater than I can ever be. It's all about gratitude.
Day 2: It's hard to grasp the idea that we are all exactly as God wants us to be, Each created unique, each according to His perfect design. To me, my body is too mushy, my confidence waning in areas. As I continue to go through 8 weeks of job-specific training in MD, I am finding that the professional personas that people put out there are sometimes quite different from who they inherently are. I face this struggle daily. We all have weaknesses and things we would like to improve...we all are strong and amazing in so many ways. But, sometimes, I have a hard time incorporating the "real" me into the professional picture. I am learning that life is about balancing that and finding the happy medium that God intends.
Day 3: I am goal and task oriented. A high achiever, a self-proclaimed perfectionist (although, this is getting better...I am learning to let go). When I discuss my concerns, anxiety or worry, my family's canned answer is, "Sue, it'll be ok. You'll figure it out and make it work. You always do." But, I am ready to refocus my drive, my goals and my life's motivation. I want to be a mom and I want to know that the work I do and the effort I put forth is having a POSITIVE impact on humanity.
Day 4: I need to STOP thinking negatively and START feeling FULL confidence in my faith and God. Everything is as it should be. I am where I should be, and everything will work out according to Divine timing, Divine order and God's plan. It's OK. I need to work on letting go of the things I cannot (and should not expect to) control.

A Time of Hope, A Time of Change

2009-01-20T22:32:00.005-05:00

It's official. President Obama took the oath and stood before the American people, and the world, committing to change and the dawn of a new-found purpose.

I'm completing some CG training in Maryland - 30 miles from D.C. - and the energy generated from the festivities could be felt even here. In the air, on the streets, on the faces of strangers - a unification of purpose and hope. It was electric...a true day of AWAKENING...permeating the very core of my being, allowing me to fully connect with the promise of change through compassion, courage and wisdom.

The collective consciousness is shifting. As Admiral Allen, Commandant of the Coast Guard, stated in his blog, there was "emotional heat generated by the uniqueness of the day and the importance that this transition has for all Americans and the World." This was evidenced in people's actions and attitudes both today and in days leading up to this historic event.

It has been many years since I have been moved enough to offer an opinion on politics. America, we are in a blessed place. We are moving forward with the promise of peace and renewal. BUT, we cannot rely on one individual to carry the burden. We MUST unify and work together, as one collective consciousness, to raise the bar, to heal each other, and to be - as Ghandi said - the change WE want to see in the world.

2008-12-07T08:53:00.007-05:00

It's been a long time, but I've been kinda busy. Life, love, graduating, moving...all too much to handle in a few short months!

I successfully defended and submitted my thesis. So, it's official. I will get my Master's on December 19th. What a long, uncertain journey this has been. And, it seems it is only just beginning!

I received Orders to New Orleans. A brand new place for a brand new adventure. Which, in a lot of ways, got me to thinking about where I am and where I choose to go. Choice. What a powerful word. Some believe that our thoughts dictate those things which we choose to bring into our lives. This sounds like a great ideal on the surface, but I struggle with Human Nature and the power of negative thinking. We all do it, it is just the degree that varies. Does that mean that we all attract things into our lives which we truly do not want?

I never thought I "wanted" to go to New Orleans. In fact, I was all geared up to head out to Hawaii and spend three fabulous years on the beach. But, alas, the Coast Guard had something else in mind. Although, I really believe that God has something else in mind. Which is fine, except sometimes I feel like I am the last one to be let in on the secret. In this case, I have NO IDEA what this new adventure holds in store. Yet, I know it is the right thing because my faith allows me no other option.

I think choice is really pretty simple: either try to maintain a false sense of control over ALL aspects of life OR do what you can to make things work out the way you think you want them to and then LET GO of the rest, give it to God, and let FAITH take over. Ok, easier said than done. But, what I've discovered during this part of my journey is that the latter (while difficult) is so much EASIER in the long run. Because, really, the best way to make God laugh is to tell him (or her) that you have a plan.

Our plans are just that - plans. They are not concrete. They are not what define us. Yes, plans and goals are important because they give us tangible markers, a way to move forward and grow. BUT, we have to remain flexible and have FAITH that the Universe provides and all will work out as it should.

So, with that, I am off to continue packing and move on to the next great adventure. See you in New Orleans!

New Experiences

2008-05-23T21:26:00.005-04:00

Had a wonderful time in Key West...breaking through my fear barriers, with both feet, no holds barred. It's hard to believe that this is already Memorial Day Weekend. It has particular significance for me, as it was this weekend in 2002 when I got married. So, 2008 will be the first Memorial Day in 6 years without a husband. How quickly times can change!

Key West was an experience. We lived on a sailboat for a week, getting underway on occasion and spending the rest of the time in complete leisure and relaxation mode. I had such fears before going. How could I possibly be capable enough to captain our sailboat? I had two friends with me. Would I really be competent enough to take us out to open water and remain safe? Granted, I drove a 210' ship for two years, but this task seemed so much more daunting!

Then there was the SCUBA diving. First time diving without my steady SCUBA buddy - again, the ex-husband. Would I be able to get over my anxiety and get in the water, knowing I could fully rely on my own capabilities?

The profound and life-changing realizations I came to during this week in the Keys is difficult to put into words. I am always talking about following passions, but I seem to neglect acknowledging the fear that is accompanied with the process of change.

I conquered several of my fears. Put a lot of my anxiety to rest. What I discovered was nothing more than what I had inherently known, in my core, all along. I am capable. I am courageous. I am completely ABLE to do ALL of the things I thought I had to rely on my ex-spouse to do for me.

As I continue on this journey, I am constantly reminded that everyday brings more opportunities to conquer fear, grow as a woman and feel completely connected to purpose and spirit.

Tomorrow I leave for a 3-day backpacking, backcountry adventure on the Appalachian Trail. I'll take lots of photos as I contemplate the next steps to take in this life journey. (Nothing like being with Nature to fully connect to Spirit and discuss things with God.) May you have your moments to reflect with God and RELISH in the experience we call life. Happy Memorial Day.

Finding Your Passion

2008-04-24T23:02:00.005-04:00

Finding motivation is sometimes a difficult thing. I was reading Frederic Premji's blog post: 7 Questions to Finding Your True Passion. It got me to thinking, once again, about following my own journey and keying in on my own passions.

I speak often of this topic with my friends. Somehow one would think by the time your reach your mid-thirties you would have everything all figured out. But, surprisingly, many of my friends admit that they have not yet connected with their true passions and continue to get swept up in the fast pace of everyday life.

From a close friend, here's a podcast that discusses her struggles in this area:

Finding Your Passion Podcast

Through the Eyes of an 8-Year-Old

2008-04-20T10:07:00.016-04:00

UGA Alumni Association opened up Six Flags Friday night for students, faculty, alumni and guests. Although Atlanta's traffic precluded us from getting there until 2 hrs. after the park opened, my three guests and I spent four hours racing from roller coaster to roller coaster, seeking the next big adrenaline rush.

One of my guests was 8. It's funny because as we grow up, we tend to forget how 8-year-olds view the world. While we saw excitement and adventure in each of the thrill rides, he viewed them as scary obstacles that he was not quite ready to face. I have to give him credit though. He waited in the long lines with us, all the while contemplating his choice and giving a tremendous amount of thought to whether he would be able to at last face his fears and ride the upside-down loopty loops.

He decided to that the big roller coasters were just too much, so the smaller, tamer wooden ones would be a better springboard. After standing in line for 2 hours to ride the Goliath, we raced over to The Great American Scream Machine in the hopes of getting him his first roller coaster experience. Unfortunately, the person working the ride had notions other than letting us on the last car of the day.

So, long story short, this amazing young kid didn't have the opportunity to ride his first coaster because the attendant was having a bad day. The attendant wanted to go home and was adamant that the ride was CLOSED. Granted, it was 2 or 3 minutes after the chain was put across the entrance to the ride. We did get there just after the cut-off. But, other people were waiting and there was one more car set to make the final run.

The 8-year-old waited. Again, patiently. Finally ready to face his fears and see this roller coaster head-on. But, the attendant would have none of it. He was not moved by our pleas or the boy's tear-streaked face. How do you, as an adult, explain to an 8-year-old that he can't do what took him all night to get up the courage to do because one person wants to maintain a full-on power trip? How do you, as an adult, explain to an 8-year-old the complexity of power struggles and unkind deeds when all he sees is the world through untainted eyes?

We tried. And, in some ways, I think he understood. Even though the attendant was rude and the expletives muttered under his breath unacceptable (especially in front of the kids), I fully believe in karma and KNOW that it is a circular chain of events. What goes around comes around - or so the saying goes.

In that moment, one of those life lessons occurred that both parties learned from. Sometimes, when rules are concerned, it is better to consider the OVERALL PICTURE and make a decision based on the impact a POSITIVE ACTION will have. This is how we explained the situation to him. And, in his 8-year-old wisdom, he just nodded and realized that the attendant had made a poor judgement call.

We were able to get on one more ride - Monster Plantation - before leaving the park. And, interestingly enough, the two women working that ride, whom had also been there the entire day, greeted us with pleasantries and smiles. "Those women," the 8-year-old commented, "were really nice. That's how you should treat people!"

The lesson I think we all need to be reminded of is simple. It's so much easier to be positive, to be kind, and to live a life of love and compassion than one of negativity and unkind deeds. As far as the roller coaster scenario, it would have taken half the energy for the attendant to let the young boy ride on the last car of the day than expel the negativity and arguments. After all, the car went. In the whole scheme of things, what harm would it have done to let one 8-year-old ride and conquer his fear?

We can all learn a lot from our kids. Take the time to view the world through their eyes. Simplicity. Compassion. Forgiveness. All seem to come easy for them. They should come easy to us as well.

Volunteering at Classic City Brewfest: A Firkin of Fun

2008-04-10T23:03:00.031-04:00

Who knew volunteering could be so much FUN? Combining two of my favorite activities (giving back and tasting beer), I spent the day working with Clipper City Brewing Company , in an effort to support this fundraising activity for Project Safe.

Serving Clipper City's Loose Cannon Hop3 Ale from a firkin was a highlight of my day. Granted, before Sunday morning, I am ashamed to admit I had never even heard of a firkin - or knew that the beer contained within was still in the fermentation process.Taking its unusual name from several British units of capacity (usually about equal to 1/4 of a barrel or 9 gallons), a firkin was historically known as a small wooden barrel or covered vessel. This firkin, however, was much bigger than a 2.25 gallon barrel. In fact, it was big enough to provide hundreds of 2oz pours through the 5 hours I tended bar.

I worked in conjunction with Tom, Clipper City's territory manager for the southern region. Knowledgeable, and passionate about his craft, Tom quickly introduced me to the fine art of serving from the "beer engine."

Immediately after tapping the firkin, the heavenly aroma of 3 pounds of American hops (which they use in every barrel) came wafting through the air. I was also serving the Belgian Saison Red Sky at Night as well as the Small Craft Warning Über pils. Of course, these two beers, from their Heavy Seas collection, came in the bottled variety. Not quite as much fun as the firkin, but just as delicious.

Kristin was pouring for Thomas Creek Brewery (their Vanilla Creek Ale is one of my new favorites)and Connie volunteered to pour for Left Hand Brewing Company, a brewery hailing from my home town of Denver. Copper Creek, a local establishment, was nestled between us, which was great because not only do they have good beer, they have great nachos!

Although I could not sample anything but my bottle of water during festival hours, the organizers more than made up for it after the crowds left. We were quick to clean-up and get down to the real business of socializing and conducting our own beer tasting. With a global variety, and pizza to boot, we could not have asked for a better way to meet new friends and relax after an energetic day.

The beauty of volunteering is that there is ALWAYS something new to be gleaned from the experience! In this case, the afternoon truly brought out my Inner Pyrate. Thanks Clipper City, Classic City Brewfest and, of course Tom, for an amazing beer education and an opportunity to give back in such a unique and FUN way!

(Also, more thanks to Tom, who gets credit for the opening photo.) If you want to see more picts from Brewfest, check out Tom's Flickr page.

Nuggets of Wisdom from the Work Place

2008-03-30T22:45:00.019-04:00

(Thanks Dr. Russell for the photo.)

Twelve years is a long time to be out of the academic arena. Coming back in, after working in two separate, and very diverse career fields, has been difficult. However, after listening and engaging in several discussions about graduation jitters and future uncertainties with several bright, educated, enthusiastic Seniors, I began to realize that perhaps my transition was not as difficult as I thought.

While my own undergraduate graduation seems murky and long-gone, the thought of things I wish I'd known still lingers. So, with that sentiment, I do have some words of advice I would like to share. Here they are, for whatever they are worth:

1. Hand-holding stopped in kindergarten. It's up to YOU to be assertive. Don't be afraid to ask questions or admit you don't know something. BUT, be willing to take initiative to find the answers you are seeking.

2. No one expects you to come into a job knowing everything. What is expected is enthusiasm. You need to take the lead (even if you are relatively clueless) and, at the same time, exude a humbleness in acknowledging that you still have a lot to learn.

3. Remember that all of your bosses, leaders and members of the upper echelon started somewhere. Most likely, they were just as nervous jumping, feet first, into the professional realm. Just realize, they continue to put their pants on one leg at a time - just like everyone else. Don't idolize them. Learn from them and respect how far they've come.

4. Everything is as you choose to make it. That means your ATTITUDE is key. Do you choose to be positive and welcome challenges as growth opportunities or negative and view them as another painful process you have to go through? What you put out is what you will get back.

5. No one, no thing and the World in general owes you nothing. Conversely, I have come to believe that we owe of ourselves and can do best by giving the World our gifts. Take some time to hone in on your passions, your gifts and your strengths. Then use these to the betterment of humanity and the world at large.

6. DON'T BE AFRAID to listen to your intuition and follow your dreams. While it sounds cliche, we are given intuition for a reason - to fulfill your life's purpose. If you follow your gut, you will follow your passion and, in doing so, will create happiness.

7. Don't get wrapped up in the rumor mill and office politics. It's not worth your time or energy. The negativity that is inevitably associated with these things is an energy sap and you could spend your talents and time in much more creative, worthwhile endeavors.

8. Hard work pays off. Truthfulness pays off. Being true to yourself and who you inherently are pays off. Don't try to be someone or something you are not. You are a unique INDIVIDUAL for a reason. Capitalize on your own uniqueness and quit trying to be like everyone else. How boring would this world be if we were all alike?

9. In the long run, material gain is NOT important. Your compassion, light and willingness to take the time to help others (yes, even your neophyte coworkers) is what counts. Leadership is often a lesson learned by example. BE that example. Don't be afraid...your intuition will guide you.

10. Probably the toughest lesson yet - BALANCE. Work is important (it pays the bills) but family and self is important too. Don't forget about yourself - as this is the easiest element to let go of. When EVERYTHING else takes priority in your life, remember, YOU are just as important as the job, the career, the kids' soccer game, the grocery shopping. Don't be selfish but don't let your DREAMS and SELF disappear as you move forward.

So, that's it - my nuggets of wisdom. I realize there are a lot of DON'Ts in this post. (Ironically, negatives words are often ones I tend to shy away from.) However, after a 12 year learning process, it seems easier to point out the negatives (which I struggled through) in this post because I think these are the things which will benefit those the most.

To the graduating Seniors...good luck and stay positive. Be aware and positive in your actions and the rest will take care of itself.

Lessons Learned - A Continuing Education

2008-03-28T22:05:00.023-04:00

I was thinking about a myriad of lessons I think I've learned (or at least acknowledged) over the past eight months of singledom and personal renewal. Some came rushing back today, through a series of strange, wonderful and trying events. Others have been percolating for awhile. I guess some seem redundant. Nevertheless, these are my philosophies, my guidelines, the things I try to incorporate in my everyday practice of living a balanced, fulfilling, healthy, harmonious life.

1. (This lesson was reiterated this morning - a hard one at best.) It's not for me to look for or force relationships...it's for God to place them in my life when the time is right. So I remind myself when they don't work out as planned, let go and be at Peace.

2. You can't keep yourself behind barriers (hiding behind walls) and synonymously live a truly compassionate lifestyle.

3. We are all human, we are all imperfect, we all have faults. But, you still have to find a BALANCE in personal, professional, spiritual and family circles. Do what is right for you and be conscious of others as you do.

4. Life is so precious...it is such a gift. Because it is short, it's important to let go of the things that aren't working or aren't right. Make room and time for those things that are right (as you feel in your gut) as they are the things that are meant to be in your life.

5. You are ALWAYS where you are supposed to be - even if you think you should be somewhere else. (If you feel a strong pull to be somewhere else, perhaps it's time to move to the new emotional, spiritual or physical place where you are NOW meant to be.)

6. Breaking out of relationships is never an easy task. Every time someone goes, a piece of the soul goes with him or her.

7. Whatever is going to happen is going to happen. So mote it be. BUT, you are still responsible for your actions, thoughts, words and energy that you put forth into the universe.

8. Live fully. We are blessed with this precious gift of life and MEANT to do wonderful, amazing, compassionate, kind things. Live every day with that philosophy at the forefront of your thoughts, actions and words.

9. You never know when your smile or kind word will change another's attitude, brighten her outlook, or turn negativity into a positive (and healing) force. Smile often and laugh out loud.

10. Trust yourself to know and act upon what is best for YOU. After all, who could know you better? Hone in on your talents and USE THEM. They are gifts that are meant to MAKE A DIFFERENCE during your time on Earth.

11. You ALWAYS have a choice. Do you choose to be happy and positive or unhappy and negative? Remember, what you put out there is what you will attract.

National Election - Putting the American People First

2008-03-26T11:43:00.022-04:00

Earlier today I came across an interesting blog which really got me to thinking about November's election. I don't usually like to discuss politics - everyone has an opinion and sometimes these opinions are MUCH too volatile. However, the ideas presented in this blog were really quite intriguing and got me to thinking about the actual candidates and our (America's) expectations of the Oval Office.

Sometimes I think we don't expect enough from our leaders and, in doing so, put up with too much crap. But, then, I wonder if expectations we hold of them are in fact realistic. Often we tend to view our nation's leaders, and potential leaders, as infallible, forgetting that they are indeed human beings. With that comes the obvious - like most of us, they are not perfect.

However, imperfection should not excuse basic moral fibre. I am struggling with reconciling what seems to be issues that can't be overlooked and simply chalked up to imperfection. In particular I'm referencing the media blast over the past several weeks regarding Reverend Wright's comments and Obama's response to the perceived racial divide, as well as Hillary's misrepresentation of her 1996 trip to Bosnia. While I don't view these instances in the same regard, I grapple with what the implications mean when considering our potential future president.

Did Hillary lie on purpose, or did she simply misspeak, meaning there was sniper fire in the nearby Bosnian hills? Should we associate Barack with his minister (the same one who preformed his marriage) or overlook that very important aspect of Obama's upbringing?

The problem is our political structure has become too polarized. We are moving into a world where things are no longer black and white. There is a lot of gray area - especially with the emergence of WEB 2.0. Yet, our voting system still only offers two primary run-offs (Democrat and Republican), forcing voters to initially vote as registered in order to have their voices heard in the primaries. So, what happens if I want to vote for the opposing party but, because of my registered political affiliation, the candidate I truly want to run for office is voted out before I even get the chance to have my say in the formalized November election?

Our country has evolved, technology has evolved, and our political system needs to follow suite. No, the candidates will never fully meet our high expectations. There will always be fault, which we need to remember is part of their human appeal.

Nevertheless, they still have an obligation to address and work at solving the real issues. (Have things like education, medical care, the fledgling economy, rising gas prices, non-rising minimum wage, increased cost-of-living and the national debt truly been addressed?) Again, I struggle with all of the candidates because, at this point in the game, they can say whatever they chose to in order to get elected. But, what happens post-election? How do we, as tax-paying citizens, KNOW that these important issues (unlike sniper-fire in Bosnia or Wright's remarks) will be addressed come January 2009? Maybe the candidates should have to sign a contractual obligation, addressed to the American people, promising to fulfill ALL of the promises made during pre-election speeches. If their salary was performance-based, and hinged on completing promised tasks, I guarantee they would re-think their speeches and perhaps put the American people at the forefront of their intentions.

Growing our Gardens

2008-03-24T20:01:00.027-04:00

Karen Dancing Doe, a member of Unity Athens presented a very special Easter message yesterday. She wrote:

As the seasons change it offers us the opportunity
to ask ourselves some questions. Spring is a time of
renewed growth, a time of sprouting out.

Ask yourself what seeds you want to plant in your garden
of life...

What are the seeds you want to nurture?
What aspects of your life are you pleased with?
Cultivate gratitude toward them and fertilize them frequently to
ensure their growth.

What areas of your life feel like they are lacking or need
improvement?
Set your intention to plant these seeds, to nurture their growth
and cultivate their development.

As you enjoy the season of Spring remember to tend your
seedlings and honor their growth in your life's garden. Allow
nature to be an example for you this spring and all year long. Don't
forget to weed out whatever does not serve your highest good.

After considering these thoughts while admiring spring's blooms throughout the neighborhood, I decided to spend this morning weeding out my own garden. It's been awhile, and I realized there are quite a few seedlings I need to make room for - quite a few I would like to plant this year.

In particular, I want to cultivate Compassion, Friendship and Fun. I spent the first cup of coffee reorganizing my wish board, and revamping my Universal desires. I honestly believe what you put "out there" is what comes your way. So, I thought carefully about how to ask for the things I want.

Number one is MORE GOD. Really, I just want to have a deep sense of gratitude and awareness for the multitude of gifts in my life.

This hit home tonight when I stopped by St. Mary's hospital to drop off flowers. Looking at the BEAUTIFUL creations Todd (another Unity member) put together for church yesterday, I thought the arrangements could serve a higher purpose. Sure, they added a festive touch to the service, but I felt like the love, time and dedication Todd put into these creative pieces deserved so much more.

So, I worked with the ICU nurses to find 3 people who didn't have much in the way of family or visitors. The first woman I met was completely bedridden, unable to talk or sit up. Yet, her spirit was POWERFUL. She took my hand and gave it a gentle squeeze, just enough for me to feel her energy, her life, her complete refusal to give up.

I walked (on my own two feet) away from that experience with a new found sense of gratitude and compassion. I am aware of my blessings - my health, my family, my friends, an abundance of opportunities.

With this I plant in my garden compassion and renewal. I am working on staying mindful of these gifts and finding unique gifts in others.

Cis

2008-03-22T08:36:00.006-04:00

This week has been tough. Losing someone who is still breathing is hard, but losing someone because they stop breathing is excruciating.

I got the call early Thursday morning. While the news did not come as a shock (unlike my father's passing 4 years ago), it was nevertheless hard to swallow. In this life Cis was a wonderful, caring, compassionate woman. I met her several years ago in Ft. Worth, and was immediately struck by her kind spirit and generous nature. Affable and easy-going, Cis was a care taker and a nurturer. In many ways, that it was I needed at that point in my life, and we immediately clicked.

Over the course of the past several years, we grew close, and established a sister-like relationship that is not often found with in-laws. Really, it was hard not to. Cis and her family are WONDERFUL people, and I was blessed to spend time with her and become part of the extended family.

Holy Week is a sacred time, and it is fitting that this year the first day of Spring falls within it. As a time for renewal and rebirth, it seems appropriate that her transition happened within this special period. Even though it is difficult for us to understand the whys and hows of God's plan sometimes, and even though death is a hard lesson to grapple with, I am so grateful that Cis has found peace and comfort and was able to do so during this week of Spiritual Renewal.

As Lao Tsu stated in the TAO TE CHING:
Returning is the motion of the Tao
Yielding is the way of the Tao
The ten thousand things are born of being
Being is born of not being.

Blessings to her family and friends as they move through this period of grieving.