Shutting it down

dwaynereaves1@gmail.com (Dwayne) — Sun, 08 Nov 2009 16:57:00 +0000

Well this is something that I have thought about for a while. After the next 24 hours is up. I am shutting down this blog. I created this blog hoping to find an answer to a lot of questions that I have had. What I ended up getting was just more questions and a lot of confusion.

Although sitting here I am in away from reality, it is that point and that point alone that I am moving on. I can talk about the world, my life, and anything else under the sun and although it makes me feel good to do it, when it is all said and done, reality checks in.

Life is not about doing the right thing. It is not about standing up for what you believe in. It is simply about what you have or who you know. If you cannot do anything to benefit others, there is no need in being around. I made a mistake on this blog a long time ago. I use to have quite a bit of traffic and a lot of friends. Then I started being honest. Told you all about my hearing loss, the struggles that I have gone through over the past three years. The aggravation of trying to find a job and by the time you find one, you don't make enough money to pay for the gas to get there.
I told you that because that is the story of my life.

A friend of mine told me the other night that miracles don't happen. That is the same as telling me that Dreams do not come true. After everything that I have been through the past three years. That seems believable. I don't know why those words stuck with me, but they have been on my mind for days now. I would love to prove this person wrong.

I have had one dream that I have focused on, and that is the only dream that matters to me. Being closer to my daughter, and getting out of this town that is haunting my life. Get away from the memories of a 23 year relationship that ended because of another person's vision of what my life is about.

I never wish anything bad upon anyone. And I know there are a lot of people out there that are completely deaf and blind. But I wish for just one day that the people that put words in my mouth or judged me would have to go and not be able to understand what someone is saying when they are talking to you. That includes my brothers, sisters, mom, dad, ex and anyone else that fits into that category. It has not been easy.

Anyway, I often wondered what I would say if I ever had to make a last blog post. Well I guess I just found out. And yes, most of it is written out of anger, but I am not mad at you. I am mad at Dwayne.

When we all reach that other shore that we long to see. I want all of you to say hello Dwayne. Say if very softly. Because then, I will not have to worry about whether I understand you or not. I will not have to worry about me getting the words wrong or mixed up. Until then, I love you guys and thanks for reading. I am outta here.

This just made my day!

dwaynereaves1@gmail.com (Dwayne) — Sun, 08 Nov 2009 02:11:00 +0000

This says it all for how I feel right now

dwaynereaves1@gmail.com (Dwayne) — Fri, 06 Nov 2009 03:56:00 +0000

Dwayne Reaves.Com

Shutting it down

This just made my day!

This says it all for how I feel right now