The Black Box Anomaly

Amor fati

2015-06-23T19:24:00.000+05:30

"Learning to love the choices you've already made, daring or not."

I recently read this article on The Guardian, follow the link. And what a beautifully written piece! I couldn't have agreed more. The author expresses the need for us to accept certain things (well, the reality) so convincingly.

And this comes to me at a time, where having a nervous breakdown is just around the corner. The amount of things that I should have almost finished, or the things which I should have ended by now. I perpetually created a situation for myself, with all the procrastination, all the wrong choices, and all other things (I can't even say where the list ends).

So here I am. Stuck in a rut!

And instead of running away from reality, coming to terms with what I can do from this point forward is the toughest decision that I need to choose for myself.

We end up regretting so many thing in life. But what comes after the regret, and how we deal with it, decides the fate.

With this, hoping that I can finish what I started is THE only thing I need to focus on. Obviously, I am worried about the outcome. But once you've jumped in the water, you shall learn to swim as well. Or let's just say, you may drown forever.

The Digital Footprint

2015-05-02T19:35:00.000+05:30

You are not real, if I can't cyberstalk you!

In the 21st century, this is what we've succumbed to.

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(And the story is under construction.)

Watch out for this space! But obviously, after a while. I do have other things to do, you see.

The Damsel and The Prince (In The Making)

2015-04-30T18:35:00.000+05:30

Dating in school, or dating in college? No. Then dating someone you might meet at work, or through friends, or through some random source? No! Still?

Well. In some cases, even parents help you out with this process. The entire family, close relatives, relatives whom you've never met, neighbours or neighbour's friends, work colleagues, friends, their friends, everyone you know, or maybe you've just met them. They're all in action!

LET US FIND THE GROOM FOR YOU! The arranged-marriage (or dating) fiasco, and sometimes, a triumph!

Thanks to technology, what we need is one click and let's all fall in love. In a virtual space. And of course, eventually, you may one day meet them in person too.

Although, it's no longer considered "desperate" to look online for love (or lust). Somehow, somewhere deep down the line, it still doesn't convince me. Dating websites, matrimonial websites, and all such similar apps. You name your objective, and they have exactly THE website custom-made for you. And turns out, there are so many like you out there, searching for sex, love, life-partners, and sometimes, even friends. It's the era of intelligent-match making algorithms! A big Sheldon fan that I am, I would say it's hokum. But that's the thing. It might just work. YOU NEVER KNOW.

Nonetheless, the old-school thought process of finding someone in a more traditional sort of way seems so much more convenient and well, it kind of feels okay. Something that may seem normal? But hey! Who is to say what's normal? What might be normal for you, could be chaos for others. But where do you meet people? Whether it's your career that's taking a toll on your life, or your work schedule. Priorities have changed, desires have changed, and so have the expectations. For EVERY individual, irrespective of the sex.

We have tagged people into friend zones, dating-zones, marriage-material zones, and who knows, what else is out there. I'm not saying that's not the right way of doing anything, perhaps that is the only way of finding someone, or maybe not.

A lot depends on the kind of person we are. The dreams that we have. The support that you have from your loved ones. And the courage to fulfill each aspiration that you've always longed for.

I, since the day I can recall, wanted to find love. Some could even say, I eat, sleep, breathe romance! Crazy, consuming, can't-live-without-each other, it's a 'happy place' romance. After a certain point, you don't want to date anymore, you want to find THE one for you. And live a happily ever after!

Each calculation that you have have in your mind, or the choices that you make, or wondering about the consequences that might happen, if you take one step. That one big step in your life of choosing someone. Sometimes, it feels stressful, since you have to tread so carefully just to make it seem like work!

"Work at it! Things will not fall into one place."

"You need to take initiatives. Stop being who you are."

"Just mellow down a bit, a tad bit."

You see your friends in love. No, you rather see friends happy in love! It seems like, this is so easy. But why do I find it so hard? Has not-being-in-love for so long made me this cynical? Or has my motto become, to avoid love at all costs?

We are who we are, with our life experiences. Is the experience not enough? That now being alone makes it so much more easier. And simpler.

I feel I have reached a stage that I never enjoy anything. I'm always waiting for whatever is next. What I want, what they want, what others wants! Why does it feel that the perfect combination of what everyone wants just doesn't exist? In the search for my prince charming, I have considered all permutations and combinations that can possibly exist. Yet, the package hasn't arrived!

In the whole struggle of finding love, no one would want to lose control over their life that they've have build so far. It's a sign of weakness, of settling down for something less than what you deserve. And still, there are times when you just cannot control anything. Love, friendship, marriage and happiness. The whole world stops, and you realize that no one can save you. No matter how hard we fight it, we will fall. And it's so scary as hell. The only upside to this sort of free-falling, it's the chance that you take. To fall in love. What if it doesn't work, and what if it does?

Nobody wants to be the damsel in distress. We want the prince charming. But we're not trapped in a tower high up in the sky! Everyone knows fairytale romance doesn't exist anymore. Yet, we keep looking love. We wait to fall in love. For some, it's the physical dependency. For some, it's the emotional dependency. For some, it's the intellectual dependency. And sometimes, there are different combinations of all of them.

I don't wish to get married because all my friends are married or getting married. I don't wish to get married because it feels lonely. I don't wish to get married because I need company. I don't wish to get married because there's the right age to have kids (and quite frankly, I don't like kids). I wish to get married when I am in love. Or the idea of being in love. The McDreamy (in this case, mine) who would want to marry me and want a lifetime with me.

What I seek today is probably somewhere in the future, I hope. And even if it's not there, let's just hope, there are other happy endings and beginnings to the stories that are waiting to be written in the diary of destiny!

Source: http://weddingphotosutra.com/

Unashamed and Unafraid

2015-04-28T00:12:00.000+05:30

Vulnerable, was she? Perhaps, she was.

Source: Facebook (berlin-artparasites)

She did not know anything, other than being intense. She could never learn the art of not feeling too much or not thinking too much. She never experienced anything which didn't move her heart. She didn't know how to stay still and quite her mind. She wandered gloriously searching for sunshine. She kept searching and questioning. Some would say, she was looking for answers. The need to understand meaning of each existence. In everything. And in every person, she ever met.

She was passionate. Often, she burned in rebellion. Her greatest strength became her weakness. Her weakness morphed her vulnerability.

Time and again, she was misunderstood. She wanted to speak so much more, but she buried her thoughts in the darkest corner of her soul.

In the midst of her strange beauty, she kept searching for joy within. The whirlpool of emotions and the fury of her own self, she longed to be found. Only to realize, she was alone. She was scared so much that she couldn't breathe. She was worried. She was vulnerable. Yet, she kept breathing. She kept walking. Through the different paths that she saw, she wanted to reach her destiny. The trail of footsteps stretching till the horizon, she didn't know who's to follow. She chose her own fate, she created her own path. To be heard, to be seen, and to be able to breathe free again.

They said, she was weak. And she believed what they said. Never did she realize, beneath all her emotions, there was a strong woman. And perhaps, there still is.

She told herself, "Stop being so weak. Grow up and get over it." And then, she never felt anything again.

She was fierce, she was beautiful, and she was a mystery. Although she said, she was happy alone. She knew she didn't mean that. She knew it was just easier being alone.

It was a pity, she blamed them. And they blamed her.

Within all that chaos, she never could accept and embrace who she really was. She kept searching for answers, only to realize, she knew the answers all along.

P.S. This was inspired by a post on Facebook. That page really makes you think. And I started blogging again! :)

The Wandering Soul

2015-04-16T12:09:00.003+05:30

Words come by and words leave you alone. But some words tend to carve out a place in your soul forever.

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António Nogueira Pessoa and his words.

I don't know how many souls I have.

I've changed at every moment.

I always feel like a stranger.

I've never seen or found myself.

From being so much, I have only soul.

A man who has soul has no calm.

A man who sees is just what he sees.

A man who feels is not who he is.

Attentive to what I am and see, I become them and stop being I.

Each of my dreams and each desire belongs to whoever had it, not me.

I am my own landscape, I watch myself journey - Various, mobile, and alone.

Here where I am I can't feel myself.

That's why I read, as a stranger, my being as if it were pages.

Not knowing what will come and forgetting what has passed, I note in the margin of my reading.

What I thought I felt. Rereading, I wonder: "Was that me?" God knows, because he wrote it.

Oh, such beautifully written words.

Let It Go

2015-03-27T09:35:00.003+05:30

Let it hurt. Let it bleed. Let it heal. And let it go.

Sometimes it is the smallest decisions that can change your life forever. Or maybe it is the biggest decision changing your life forever.

They say change is good. Change is constant. Everything happens for a reason. But are we not consoling the heart, mind and soul to accept brutality of the present?

Are we really prepared for changes? Or do we embrace them just because there is no other choice left?

I'd say change isn't always the best thing you could have wished for. The trouble is not being able to avoid it, at all. We all hope for a better tomorrow. Hence, the willingness to accept change becomes a necessity. I too, hope for a brighter future. For all. And selfishly, for myself too. Change is inevitable. And so, I'll move on along with this change. I will accept what life throws back at me, with more hope, and also, dreams to follow.

This ain't the end. This will be a newer (brighter, perhaps) start. The start to a brand new chapter. The start for new challenges. The uncertain clear blue sky, and wings for the bird who now wishes to fly high.

At the end of the day, we're on our own. The power to silence the unnecessary questions, and the courage to move forward.

We all have a purpose, or maybe we don't. On this note. And as of today. This. This is what I shall follow. Learn to trust the journey, even when you do not understand it.

Happy blogging start!

P.S. There are no literary skills in the posts to follow. These are just musings, trying to be portrayed in the best possible common language!

Hi there!

2015-03-26T23:55:00.003+05:30

Hi!

This site would undergo changes in the near future (since a definite timeline would be stressful). Nonetheless, tune in to this space for more stuff coming in soon (after four years, things would finally be back in action).

Peace out.

Happy Update - Part 3 (Last Part)

2011-06-10T12:45:00.003+05:30

No, this ain't my last happy post. Lol! Hopefully.

It's just that after a series of 'Happy. Satisfied with Life.' kinda posts, there is this sudden urge to experiment something new.

Yeah, I know it's just an experiment, but I so wanna do it, soon. Lol!

Hence, ending this series of 'Happy Updates'.

(Dammit! Why is the Enter button not working!)

Anyway!

So.Yeah.

About my happy posts, I did pretty well with my result. Yeah, you got it right. University result. Not the great set of marks, but considering the fact the way I studied this semester, I am more than satisfied the way it turned out to be. That is, I passed. Yayy!

And if you've noticed, I mean if you happen to follow my blog regularly, which I am sure you don't! So just informing, that I changed things around a bit.

The background, the arrangement, the order, etc, etc.

But yeah, my favourite font, still happens to be Arial.

(But with Microsoft Office Word, I somehow like 'Calibri' more than 'Arial' and 'Times New Roman'. Lol!)

Ok. Now I am bored. I'll be back soon.

Till then, stay happy!

Happy Koel.

(And if you're wondering who's Koel? Go figure! Haha!)

Happy Update - Part 2

2011-06-08T10:34:00.004+05:30

It's June, and here am I, sitting in the library, just reached workplace.

(Oh! Library is my workplace!)

Funny it is! This is the only library till date where I have actually done the reading part and I even enjoyed it. No. Seriously, I did.

Yeah, we don't have novels out here, but rest all what I need, yes, for studies, it is there.

May be it's the AC, or may be just the way it looks. Or may be, I don't know. I somehow like it, whatever I end up doing here, most of the times, it's kinda productive. Be it an assignment, presentation, project! Or even a blog post!

(Hmmmm. You know, whenever I write a post, it's always, I want something more creative, having more sophisticated words, something having much more to it. But at the end, I just end up rattling out my thoughts, in random way, it's more like whatever comes in mind, at that very moment itself. I do wish may be I could write a poem, or you know, just something more better and creative!)

*sigh*

May be that's just not me!

Anyway, so where was I?

Yeah! This library. Lol!

It feels good over here.

By the way, I had a good start today. Woke up early, something which I use to hate, I still do, and I'll probably do that forever. But, what made it good today, was the Yoga Class I had.

Haha!

Yeahhh!

I had my first Yoga Class today. And I hope I do that sincerely, and regularly. :)

Heyy! Heyy!

Shhhhh!

The fat professor just entered the library. No, I don't mind her being fat, so am I!

It's just that she is weird. Really weird. And silly! Lol!

(You should listen to her ringtone. Hilarious! Haha!)

The batch-mates here are good. The ones I meet these days and I work with them. Nice people! Getting to learn a lot of things. Good things, must say.

Lol! I just read it again. I sound like a nerd, happily sitting in the 'Library' and writing a blog post!

But. No. I am nowhere close to that term!

If I had, I am sure my grades and scores would have been way better, and I would have been among the toppers, which clearly, I am not.

And that reminds me, results shall be out. Today!

Though the day started off well, I'm just dreading the fact that it might go downhill.

Yeah. I am scared because of the result.

*fingers crossed*

I hope, even if it has to be bad, it doesn't turn out to be too bad! :(

Just hate the suspense period. Huff!

I guess that is just it. I'm done for now. I should get back to doing something more constructive!

(I'm doing an Minor Project, by the way! Internship you could say.)

Oh! And just in case you might wanna know, I have been watching a LOT of movies. It's like I'm on a movie watching spree. Yayy! :D

Also, I have been exercising a lot these days, alongside Yoga! Not to forget, the evening walks as well. Haha!

And the credit goes to someone really HOT! And if that person happens to read this, "Thank you!"

And if at all I go kinda off track, well, you know what you gotta do. Lol!

So with this, I shall now get back to those articles!

(Gosh! Damn you! I HAVE TO LOOSE WEIGHT Schedule! The entire body is in pain!)

Happy Update - Part 1

2011-05-24T23:12:00.000+05:30

Things might not be at their best, but certainly better than the disaster I had expected to happen. Anyway! So from tomorrow, back to work. Things seem pretty fine as of now. And hopefully, it will remain so.

*fingers crossed*

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2011-04-25T11:37:00.000+05:30

Somebody will get killed soon. It's been months. And I still don't have one bloody thing in hand. This is insane. I mean, this is what you get to see in India perhaps.

You have a contact?

*bingo*

You got through!

Yayy!

You don't?

Aww. Sad. You could wait in the line though.

And those HRs. All they can do is at least type a mail, and if they want to reject you, they might as well do that, but No! Select and Delete. That's it!

I have been trying like hell from past few months. And of all the replies I got,

"We are sorry, but can try again next time."

Fine! Good, at least they replied.

But the other dozens of mail that I've ever send to people. Not one single reply.

Strangely, you mail the Company Boss, or even to people across the globe if it's an International Organization. They reply, while the country HRs, of the very same organization, they don't!

Pheww.

It makes me feel as if I will never make it big. Yeah! I might. Only if I have contacts.

This is the last week, the very last week I will try. After that, well.

This remains.

And perhaps, it will remain so.

P.S. - This was just out of frustration. Don't get me wrong! Happy updates need to wait for sometime till things don't fall in place.

Norah Jones Johhny Cash Tribute

2011-03-30T11:03:00.001+05:30

Invictus

2011-02-26T17:25:00.003+05:30

Out of the night that covers me,
Black as the pit from pole to pole,
I thank whatever gods may be
For my unconquerable soul.

In the fell clutch of circumstance
I have not winced nor cried aloud.
Under the bludgeonings of chance
My head is bloody, but unbowed.

Beyond this place of wrath and tears
Looms but the Horror of the shade,
And yet the menace of the years
Finds, and shall find, me unafraid.

It matters not how strait the gate,
How charged with punishments the scroll,
I am the master of my fate.
I am the captain of my soul.

~ William Ernest Henley

Monologue

2011-01-22T14:49:00.007+05:30

Okay. I am in a perfectly confused mood, tired and now, I guess feeling sleepy as well. Thanks to the afternoon lunch.
*yawn*

It's been 4 hours, since I started drafting it. And here I am, still thinking, what else to write, is it good enough?
And to add to the effect, I want to write something NOW and wrap it up. But taking breaks is always advisary. And within seconds.
Ctrl+T
New Tab Opened.
Facebook. Orkut. Twitter. Period.

And then I logged in to my blogger dashboard. YES! My concentration, suddenly shifted to my blog, which I had abandonned for quite a while.

Umm. I'm thinking of posting something. I should. But what should I? Expressing my thoughts frankly, is all what I can possibly think of right now.
I think I need a laptop. Or a new fish.
Yes, I want a pet. Naomi also turned 1 today. Yes, a pet might cheer me up. :)

Or completing my Curriculum Vitae? Yes, I was drafting my CV. (I guess did mention drafting something in the beginning.)

Oh crap! I'v lost it.
Hmmmmm. Music cures everything. Music with a video would be nice.
But what should I listen, Fleet Foxes? Oooohh! Yeah! :)

I have started thinking about something, a lot since yesterday. I also had detailed coversations about it from past 1 week. Even people at college noticed. (They noticed? Good sign.)
'Anusheema seems tensed.'
'She's become a lot more sincere.'

But to be honest, I hardly have. Infact, I might never be the sincere student I always hallucinate of. Maybe I should just give up on that!
Maybe I should just leave everything, and go on a permanent holiday! Maybe I should...... Damn it!
And it's always a MAYBE!

It has always been difficult for me to figure out what I want. What interests me more! Sometimes, I go like, 'Woahh! Eureka! I KNOW IT!'
And then, after sometime, I go back to saying.
'Umm. Nahhh. Maybe something else.'

And thus life always revolves around that stupid, maybe.
And know what? I have now started being indifferent towards it. It's something, yes, I know. That has to stay. And most probably. It will.
Strange. I realize that I STILL can't recognize the voice of my own self. Yes, that's funny because I have a record of talking to myself endlessly all the damn time.
A friend of mine had once said, 'You'll have multiple careers.'
(Oh yes! I love palmistry.)
Infact, any possible 'istry' or 'logy' that can tell me what I will do next!

Gosh! I sound like I am on drugs. But No. I am not.
I am just. Thinking.

And while taking breaks, I just found one of our professors on facebook!'
A great FB stalker I am. :P

Alright, I am jobless, I admit. But soon, I will not be.

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And it's DONE. My CV is ready to hit the tables. It definitely feels comforting this one time.
Sometime soon, I will be doing some constructive project. Hopefully!

No. No. No. Even the very thought of not getting through those places hurts. :|
I don't want to think about it!
Yes, things will certainly fall into place, the moment I stop being online, and study something.
YES! That's exactly what I need.
After hours of just drafting a CV. Now, I will study. Economics!

I wonder how these Commerce students study this Subject. Of all I could gather is that, it is made of assumptions. And for us Science students, it is so difficult to conclude on things, based JUST on assumptions.
Damn the Subject!
Like it or not. I just have to. I better get going.

Maybe I might just end up liking the subject. Maybe. Or chuck it!
Whatever!

Voices of Change

2011-01-03T16:43:00.011+05:30

Environmental change coupled with resource degradation and poverty is creating situations of extreme adversity in several parts of India.
As the impacts of climate change become unequivocal, nature and ecosystems, natural resources and the people who depend on them will become more vulnerable during this century. This will imply less or uncertain availability of food and water, increased variability in the frequency and intensity of natural disasters, loss or migration of species, significant changes in ecosystems and tremendous risk to human populations and their livelihoods. Impacts of climate change are likely to be felt more in developing countries such as India, given the greater reliance of its people on natural resources and ecosystems. In the fragile high altitude Himalayas, these changes cannot escape the notice of the people who have lived there for decades.

Warmer seasons and erratic precipitation have influenced their daily lives in terms of agricultural patterns and produce, clothing, lifestyles, food, livestock and livelihoods. Moreover, incidences of pest attacks and weeds have increased to a great extent. In coastal ecosystems, such as the Sundarbans, direct impacts of human induced climate change can be felt with rising sea levels and increasing salt water incursion on agricultural land and water bodies, threatening life, property, livelihoods, and leaving local communities more vulnerable than ever, as climate refugees. People over generations and even at present, continue to adapt to these environmental changes and develop their own resilience and coping mechanisms. However, due to the rapid and uncertain nature of the changes, old ways of coping are often proving inadequate.

This is a must read report prepared by WWF-India.
Voices of individuals who have witnessed change and are living these changes, of those who are finding ways to survive and move on in the hope of a better future by adapting to climate vulnerabilities and alternative livelihood options. It is to these intrepid individuals who have told their tales and the thousands who are still unheard, that this report is dedicated to. Also to those who are at risk, but are finding new ways and alternatives to tackle change. The capacity for resilience and undaunted hope in the face of adversity shines through all these stories, worthy of being heard and read.
Their lives remind us of how precarious our existence is.

Available at -
http://assests.wwfindia.org/downloads/voices_of_change.pdf

Happy New Year! 2011, you better be a happy one. :D

2011-01-01T09:50:00.002+05:30

Happy New Year people! Have a VERYYYYY happy 2011!!
:D

2011. Come! Come Come! :D

2010-12-17T13:54:00.006+05:30

So, we're back. Yeahh! Late update. Lol!! My new year's resolution is to be regular with the blog! Hopefully! :P

Yeah, so where was I? Yeah! NEW YEAR!!!!
And for the first time in life, there will be new elements attached to it! :D
New semester, new subjects, new books! And ohh yeahh! I'll be free for the first time this year! And partyingggg!! Wooohoooo!
^_^

And as usual, I have a lot resolutions ready this year again! :D
But actually, you know what, it really doesn’t matter what the new year’s resolutions are, to lose weight, make changes, find love, learn something new, stop procrastinating, build confidence, complete a project, overcome fears, be a better person, or save money, get the education, support, motivation, and encouragement to reach your goals. It's all about making it better! Wayyy better!
Making 2011 something different!!!! And it all starts NOW! (well.. just few more days.. :D)
Yayayyyy!! :D

I'm alive and I'm back. Yayy!

2010-11-03T21:03:00.011+05:30

'Your blog is dead.'
'Do you realize you have a blog?'
'Write something new!'

Yes, I was coaxed so much, to log in and write something new. Yes, the creater of this blog does exist, but the writing part.
Umm, no.

I'm not a great writer. I write only when I feel like. Yes, I'm moody. And choosy as well.
But yeah, the past 2 months, I was kind of busy. Busy with a new place, new people. And new goal towards life.
Yes, you guessed it right, I joined a new college for post grads. Ok, not that I am very studious, but yeah, I ain't creative, so, yeah, books for me.

This whole new phase, the past few days, few months, rather past 1 year. The most important phase of my life. As of now, I do feel so. A whole new set of realization, beliefs and faith.

Yes, I do like changes, changes make me grow. I do like new things, new things keep me going. Else, life would have been so monotonous.

2009, had been a great year, 2010 it has been good so far. I met a lot of new people last year.
And there it started. The realization, of what is important to me, of what I want from life, and what is life offering me as a gift.
Yeah, the fact that now I feel special, has grown a lot in me, and also the fact that I have started loving myself more.

Now, there is something in my mind, and I want to pen it down soon, but I need a better view of it.

So, yeah, this was just the introduction, or the preface part, I'll be back soon.
With a new post, a new thought and the newer side of life.

Till then, enjoy and have fun! Oh yess, and Happy Diwali.
(And the Environmental part in me says, 'Have a Green Diwali.')
Take care.

Adios.

Perfect Timing Doesn’t Exist. Stop Waiting For It.

2010-09-01T23:34:00.008+05:30

It bothers me when I hear people describe a personal set of conditions that need to be met before they can make the next move in their life.

Most often, they’re just making excuses — creating obstacles that aren’t actually there, placing the blame on some outside force they can’t control, and choosing to let day after day of inaction turn into many years of waiting for their cosmos to align.

In other words, they stay where they’re comfortable until it’s the perfect time to move on.

“Once I find a better job, then I’ll leave this one.”

“Once I save enough money, then I’ll stop living at my parents’ place.”

“Once I’m out of this stressful period of my life, then I’ll quit smoking.”

What’s even worse are the people who connect their obstacles in a way that makes their current situation circular, like a trap they will never escape:

“I can’t pursue my dream career unless I leave my job, but I can’t pay the bills unless I stay at my job.”

Then there’s also the people who have a thousand complaints about their life. They typically don’t even explain any connections between their obstacles, they just rant about anything that’s causing them stress, but do nothing to correct any of it. They’re so overwhelmed they don’t even know where to begin, and their easiest option is to give up.

If any of this sounds familiar, then my advice to you is this:

Stop waiting for that “perfect time” to make your next move. Perfect timing doesn’t exist. It’s fictional. You’ll wait forever for it.

There will never be a perfect time to leave your job, move out of state, and start from scratch. Similarly, there will never be a perfect time to get married, have a baby, or have another baby. That’s because no matter when you make these choices, they will involve risk — and it’s the risk involved that makes choices like these easier to put off until another day.

What you often fail to realize is you’re not just waiting, you’re stagnating. You stop growing, hinder your advancement, and basically become dull as a result of your choice to keep life on pause.

If your current job is holding you back, then you should quit.

Seriously. You can quit your dead-end job today. Just walk straight up to your boss and say “I quit.” Leave and don’t come back. The place won’t crumble without you. They’ll find a replacement and be just fine.

Then hop in your car and drive across the country just to see that you can. Just for fun. Just to help you remember that you have a choice.

No car? Hitchhike.

Not your thing? Walk.

I’m sure you see my point: You have more freedom than you realize.

So if you want to create change in your life, then stop waiting. Let go of perfection and act. Once you have, you’ll only regret you didn’t start doing it sooner.

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Read this on a website. Not my original article.

*Copyright*

By - Shaun Boyd.

The Lost Sense of Wonder

2010-08-30T12:49:00.010+05:30

Ok. We were having this detailed discussion. And then this whole thing about our sense of wonder, and the fact that we've all grown up came into picture! I had read an article like months back, and then thought of writing something on those lines. But, yeah, the amount of distraction in life, well. Apologies for the delay! Here it is.

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Is it? Is it true? The sad part, yes, it is. It's just not the same anymore. The world, we human beings have lost the sense of wonder. We, we've all have grown up. We're grown up adults, with dreams, aspirations, not that our ancesters didn't have dreams, not that they never thought of big things in life. Even they did. The only difference. Each and every of thought back then, had 'life' attached to it.

We no longer catch our breath at the sight of a rainbow or the scent of a flower, as we once did. We have grown bigger and everything else is now smaller, less impressive. We've grown out of things, yes, we have.
We no longer run our fingers through water, no longer shout at the starts or make faces at the moon. Water is now 2 atoms of Hydrogen and 1 atom of Oxygen, the stars have been classified, the entire world has changed its meaning, or have we changed the way we used to think?

We get so preoccupied with ourselves, the words we speak, the plans and projects we deal, that now it's like we've become immune to the glory of creation. We barely notice the cloud passing over the moon or the dewdrops clinging to the rose petals.
I say, I do notice some of it, but when? When it comes down to photography, or if some one just packs my bag, and off I go. To a place, in solitude. But do I see any of it when during any of my regular time tables? I doubt I do.
It's sad. It's when there is more of bricks all around, and less of green space. And when you have a detailed discussion on such things, you tend tend to get reminded of all what you had when we were kids, and all what we lost while growing up into adults.

At 21, I do miss a lot of things which earlier were a part of my life.

I don't know how to really sum it up, and if at all this article is going anywhere!

All I wish that, perhaps, had I not lost the sense of wonder, life today, in the 21st centuary, would have been much, much different. And more beautiful perhaps!

My Blog

2010-07-16T22:24:00.008+05:30

I was half asleep, but a part of me was still trying my best to come up with something extraordinary for my blog. After a while, I started hearing voices, one after another. I rubbed my eyes to gain more sense. The voices now sounded closer.

And I heard one of them say, “You moron, you’re still stuck.”

The voice was more clear, more angry, “Loser, reality check, you just can’t write.”

I got pissed off, and I screamed, “Would you please be quiet? I'm trying to write something for my blog!”
The sound stopped, a shadow with horns came up to me, peeking over my shoulder, “Oh my god, look at you, you’re baffled. How pathetic!”
I turned to see his smirking face, “Would you shut up? Man, sometimes you are really annoying.”
Shadow raised his hand as if he was going to hit me, but I shrugged. Iguana came on my other side, “Could I help?”

“No, I don't think so.”
“Okay, as you wish.” Iguana turned and climbed up the wall, clawing it, once again. “Iguana!”
“Sorry!”
I sighed, “Where’s Orangutan?”
Shadow smirked.

“Oh, come on! What did you do to her?”
Orangutan was jumping around in the basement, and shrieked, “You jerk!”
Shadow smiled, “I guess you didn't like it?”

“Yeah, right!” “To hell with it, if you weren't in another story I’d totally kill you a thousand times over!"
Moth ran to my side, pushing Shadow aside.

“They're fighting again.”
I sighed, “Again?”

“Yeah.”
I got off my chair, following Moth outside. I found Lion arguing with Leopard.

“Your kind is silly, the mane makes me look so hot, and I always have more females to mate with.”

“You, insignificant, worthless, piece of undead! I'm so much better! Even my walk is faster than your run!”

I sighed, “Both are wonderful, now please stop arguing. It’s getting really annoying.”

“He said Lion was better!”
“Really, is it that big a deal?”

Iguana sighed, and then laughed, “No, we were just joking.”

“What the hell!” I growled then looked back at the computer.

And beep, one message received.

Reality shook me.

1. I was dreaming.

2. I was indeed a Zoology student.

3. I still hadn’t finished the piece for my blog.

Who's more Green? Google or Microsoft?

2010-07-16T19:19:00.004+05:30

http://www.greenpeace.org/international/en/news/Blogs/Cool-IT/competitor-comparison-how-google-out-lobbies-/blog/12946

The Splendid Silence

2010-07-14T22:26:00.001+05:30

In Sync With Nature

2010-07-14T22:16:00.004+05:30

To Begin With, Me.

2010-07-14T20:13:00.007+05:30

Carry me out to the ocean, where my drifting thoughts can flow free.
Guide them to a far distant land, which only the heart can see.
And there I shall paint a great portrait, of how things should be.
A place without futile violence, human insanity.