The Bisdak Experience

noreply@blogger.com (bisaja) — Tue, 05 Oct 2010 10:33:00 +0000

I know it has been a really long while since my last post. It's just that I don't have the energy to blog anymore -- not that I'm overly busy or anything, but I'm preoccupied with other things.

I went to school for a couple of months then I had to stop because mother dear is spending her afternoon in the gym, and I don't want to leave the little big boy with our house help. My class is in the afternoon and Sean's class is in the morning, and when I get home from my class I am too tired to do anything else. Plus the little big boy has long quizzes everyday. Did I mention that we study 7x a week? Not to mention 3 pages of assignments on weekends.

Although I have no regrets of sending him to a montessori school. It's what I always wanted. Albeit he won't be able to finish his school year in the PH since we're returning to SG soon, and he'll skip some K1 lessons and just proceed to K2. I don't know how he'll fare with his academics, but with little children, they adapt so easily. So we'll see.

Don't get me started with Mandarin, though. I know he needs tuition for it, and that's additional $50 a month expense on our budget, but it's part of the curriculum, and we're non-Chinese speaskers. Though I bought a Mandarin-Pinyin book with English text, but problem is, I am confused with pronunciations. However, it's very interesting to learn how to speak and understand Mandarin.

Enough about school, but more on foreign language. Heee!

I have been drowning myself with Taiwanese and Korean series eversince I got here. Although pirated DVDs suck, but it's the next best thing. But when I go back to SG, I'll watch the series again, and this time in very, very clear copy.

And as of September 1, I couldn't get enough of Playful Kiss. I hope that I can get hold of a DVD copy of it early next year in TS. The Korean version is better than the Taiwanese version, which is a very long 50-ish episodes.

Anyway, tomorrow is the little big boy's scheduled periodical exam. And what is he doing at this very moment? Watching Phineas and Ferb. O di ba, ang saya! I can't force him to review. So bahala na si Batman.

noreply@blogger.com (bisaja) — Mon, 14 Jun 2010 10:25:00 +0000

It's back to school for us tomorrow. Knowing school hours and traffic in CEB, we have no other choice but to wake up early and leave early. I just feel bad for the little big boy. But we'll have to get use to it though, since P1 in SG starts early as well. The only difference is, the schools are walking distances from residences. Talk about convenience, eh.

what happened in bohol

noreply@blogger.com (bisaja) — Sat, 29 May 2010 13:56:00 +0000

So I spent a week in Bohol with my folks. I really had no plans of coming with them, but the brownouts in Cebu is killing me. So I went with the little boy.

Going to Bohol was not in my priority, because a week-and-a-half before the family reunion, Bee and I spent a three day weekend getaway in Moalboal. When we came back to the city, I was tanned, and going to Bohol would make me a nognog no matter how many time I apply sunblock on my face, neck and arms.

But then my cousins are dying to see the little big boy, who when asked what his name is during the games, announced to the microphone that he is Pugak. And don't ask me why! He is crazy like that. Iba kung magtrip ang anak ko.

I couldn't remember everything that happened there. But what I do remember is that only Sun subscribers could get a signal from where we were staying, which suck big time. I remember my mom and I went to Calape just to call the house and check on our house help.

And the other thing I remember and will forever cherish is the fun times I spent with my cousins. And when I say fun times, it was the parlor games and the tampisaw sessions with the young ones. Ofcourse, who would forget that someone pooped on the beach?! Major, major EWWWW! LOL.

I didn't regret getting a bit nognog, because the most important thing was, Sean had a really, really, really good time with his aunts and uncles.

I'm nognog because.....

noreply@blogger.com (bisaja) — Sat, 29 May 2010 11:13:00 +0000

I went to Bohol with the rest of my family for a reunion churva. Although I didn't plan to go with them. However, I was disappointed that I wasn't able to go swimming in Moalboal while Bee was here earlier this month, I decided to come along. Libre naman, eh. So why not, chocnut! LOL.

I've never been to Bohol in such a long time. I don't miss it, because it isn't my hometown. Besides, ever since my grandparents died in the 80's, I feel there's nothing to come back to. And my parents share the same sentiment.

Alright. The only reason why I went to Bohol is to go to Carmen to see the chocolate hills, Sagbayan Peak in Sagbayan, and experience the Loboc river cruise in Loboc.

I wanted to go to Danao for some nature adventure, but it's not advisable to go there when I'm with damatans and a 4 year old pasaway. Maybe on my next visit with Bee. I just don't know when that'll be, since I promised myself not to visit any beach until next year. Papaputi muna ako.

I haven't been blogging because...

noreply@blogger.com (bisaja) — Wed, 12 May 2010 07:17:00 +0000

the internet connection sucks BIG time!
I'm pre-occupied with other things.
of the little big boy and homeschool. Well, sort of.
I'm busy gaming: online games, computer games, psp, ds lite, wii...those stuffs.
I'm always thinking of what to do next. Bizarre, but true. It's as if I'm always running out of time that I have to do all things together ASAP.
And lastly, bumming around, staring into space is a great down time.

I don't know when I'll be blogging again. I'm heading to Bohol very soon, then after that I'll be busy with the little boy's school and stuffs. So we'll see.

on domestic violence

noreply@blogger.com (bisaja) — Wed, 12 May 2010 05:43:00 +0000

"While you SCREAM at your woman, there's a man wishing he could talk softly in her ear..While you HUMILIATE, OFFEND and INSULT her, there's a man flirting with her and reminding her how wonderful she is... While you HURT your woman, there's a man wishing he could make love to her... While you make your woman CRY,there's a man... stealing smiles from her."

noreply@blogger.com (bisaja) — Mon, 22 Mar 2010 07:55:00 +0000

"The happiest of people don't necessarily have the best of everything they just make the most of everything that comes along their way."

the super snob

noreply@blogger.com (bisaja) — Sun, 21 Mar 2010 09:40:00 +0000

We had my dog groomed weeks back since it's been very, very warm, but I wasn't able to post a photo of him. So here my pom. He's not camera-shy. He's just a big snob.

Today's not a usual day

noreply@blogger.com (bisaja) — Tue, 16 Mar 2010 03:54:00 +0000

I am cooking lunch. Surprise! Just told myself that I'm not cooking anymore, but whaddaya know!

My mom had a road accident and I pray it is nothing serious. Hope the insurance company would work on whatever's needed to be done asap. But knowing car insurance companies....

Good thing mother dear is not driving. But I wonder who was at fault. I wonder, too, if her driver was 100% awake before the accident. That is why, ever since I learned that I was pregnant with Sean, I never touched the wheel ever again.

blogging on the road

noreply@blogger.com (bisaja) — Fri, 05 Mar 2010 03:13:00 +0000

Literally.

Okay, this is weird. I have not blogged from a phone before and this is kinda difficult especially with my giant thumbs and small keypads. This takes some getting used to, if you know what I mean. I just learned chatting from here the other month, thanks to Tambok.

Anyway I just discovered this, so atleast I have an alternative when the little one is using my lappie. I do not know if I can post photos or videos from here.

Well, toodles noodles. My pet is all groomed so it is time to go home.

Just relax

noreply@blogger.com (bisaja) — Fri, 19 Feb 2010 17:45:00 +0000

"On this day of your life, we believe God wants you to know ... that if you relax, it comes.

Don't seek, don't search, don't ask, don't knock, don't demand - relax. If you relax, it is there. If you relax, God shows you the way."

on books and time

noreply@blogger.com (bisaja) — Wed, 17 Feb 2010 16:53:00 +0000

I've been obsessing on novels about love and relationship. Is it another phase? I guess. After the Twilight Saga, I'm discovering Nicholas Sparks. Haha! I know. I know. But when I was working back then, reading wasn't on my To-Do-List. With just a day off per week, sleeping or being a couch potato was a treat.

Now, I have a number of books that I have yet to read. But my problem at the moment is time.

welcoming change

noreply@blogger.com (bisaja) — Wed, 17 Feb 2010 11:44:00 +0000

I'm missing hubby dear, but the little big boy feels otherwise.It's been two months since we last saw him.

You see, we've both decided that the little boy and I stay in the PH since the school year in SG has started first week of January and I needed to have a D&C, which was scheduled on that same week. And ofcourse, there are other personal reasons.

I miss SG. Why won't I miss it when I considered it my second home. To be honest, I feel safer there than in my own hometown. And there are many things that I miss about SG: no brownouts; efficient transportation service, although we don't have to commute here in CEB; accessibility of commercial establishments; late sunrises and sunsets; clean air; seeing students in white socks and white shoes; calling older people aunties and uncles; local dishes, and ofcourse singlish. Who wouldn't miss that? And oh, the little boy had about SIX favorite cartoon channels on cable. I miss those channels, too, while we're stuck here with just two since he doesn't like Cartoon Network. He's into those British cartoon channels back there.

I also miss preparing food, washing dishes and clothes, although with the latter, all I have to do is toss everthing in the washing machine and voila, clothes are almost dry. I miss my vacuum cleaner, too. I'm stuck here with silhig lanot and a dustpan, not because we don't own one here. We have a vacuum cleaner, it's just that it's heavy and bulky. You know those 80's Electrolux vacuum that salesmen used to sell door to door? Yeah those.

Although I'm welcoming this change/s, because afterall, Bee and I aren't planning on living in SG for the rest of our lives.

With the little one however, he's so psyche every waking morning and it leaves me wondering. I mean there's nothing extraordinary with where we live. Maybe, and I say maybe because I couldn't be sure, he's just happy to be seeing other faces aside from mine and he has other people who plays with him. I don't know. I guess he finds me a boring playmate since back in SG we did a lot of homeschooling. I'm assuming, too, that he's amazed with the hot elorde or star bread with Chiz Whiz every morning, or the hot Choco German at night after dinner; unlimited supply of Chuckie and TJ hotdogs; our really noisy dogs; the driver and the green car, which by the way he asked me one time in SG why we don't own a car; unexpected visitors; almost weekly get togethers with few relatives; and all the other little stuffs or experiences that he hadn't experienced in SG.

So whenever I ask him about going back to SG, he'd always tell me, "I don't wanna go back. I don't wanna see daddy." I hope he doesn't mean that. I know he loves his daddy so much and they're super close. But if he were to choose between his nana and daddy, for now he'd tell you he'll stay with his nana. Abay, mas pinipili nya nanay ko over me! Asa ka ana.

Don't even ask about where he sleeps at night. Because even if we've moved to a bigger room with a/c, which by the way the latter was his request, he still wants to sleep with his nana. And every night we always squabble because he's just got so many excuses just to sleep with his nana.

Though the photos below are from our new room. He forgot that the night before he was crying buckets just to be with nana.

And these photos were taken two days before V Day, where his nana gave him a complimentary white forest cake, his favorite of all cakes because everything about it is white except for the ganache and the toppings.

For Valentine's Day, he made a card especially for his nana for our homeschool V Day crafts.

But usually you'd see him goofing around or playing with MY, again MY, DS Lite. He thinks the DS Lite's his. LOL.

Though he tells me he's 6 years old.

Whaddaya think?

Monday Message

noreply@blogger.com (bisaja) — Mon, 08 Feb 2010 01:36:00 +0000

On this day of your life, we believe God wants you to know ... that today you have a cause for celebration.

"Today, you should celebrate what an unbelievable life you have had so far: the accomplishments, the many blessings, and, yes, even the hardships because they have served to make you stronger. Just as a gem cannot be polished without friction, nor can a life be perfected without trials. Take a time to acknowledge your life and to praise yourself."

noreply@blogger.com (bisaja) — Sat, 06 Feb 2010 04:13:00 +0000

On this day of your life, we believe God wants you to know ... that to burn out the pain, just find a place filled with joy.

"God created joy as a balm for pain. What are some places, who are some people filled with joy that you can rely on to ease your pain? "

Such a lovely and meaningful message indeed. Just got back from the basilica, so that answered the question/s.

Sinulog 2010

noreply@blogger.com (bisaja) — Fri, 05 Feb 2010 09:08:00 +0000

I couldn't remember when I was home for Sinulog. And I've always wanted to watch the street dancing but transportation is always the issue. Heeee. I don't wanna walk for kilometers. Kakapoy ra ah! So I watch it on the telly instead.

Anyway, this was the little boy's first Sinulog experience. He wasn't able to feel the air of festivities on the streets of Cebu, but he had a chance to get a glimpse on a few decors along Mango Ave. and Fuente O.

For me that day was booze day. It was the first time since 2000 that I drunk that much alcohol. Surprisingly, hindi ako nalasing. Waaah! I had a bottle of The Bar all to myself, while the rest had Red Horse and SMB.

If I'm going to drink again, that I would not know. But this year, I feel I'm on a rebellious stage. I don't know why. But it seems to me that someone inside me is trying to get out. Not the baby. He's with my grandmother. I know for sure, because she appeared in my dream and told me she's going to take care of the baby a couple of days before the doctor said that the baby's gone.

I would have been 15 weeks pregnant now if only.....

Anyway happy thoughts, happy thoughts. And no, I'm not in post D&C denial stage.

Today, God said:

noreply@blogger.com (bisaja) — Thu, 04 Feb 2010 13:43:00 +0000

You're chasing in the wrong field. What you are looking for is inside of you, not 'out there'. Take a few days off to become quiet and look within, and you will find it.

and so it came true

noreply@blogger.com (bisaja) — Thu, 04 Feb 2010 05:53:00 +0000

Bee and I have always wished for another baby. And then our wish came true. It was a very beautiful early Christmas present. We called it a miracle, because it truly was. We were told that my chances of getting pregnant are very slim. You just don't know how estatic and overwhelmed we were.

But then something went wrong with my pregnancy......

On December 28, my doctor advised me for a D&C as soon as possible. It was the most frustrating, saddest and devastating news that we heard. Bee and I didn't know what to feel. Neither one could describe the exact emotion each one felt. If there's a more greater word for devastation, then that's the best description.

So from the doctor's clinic we went to the travel agency and took chances in buying a ticket for the PH. SG's not the place for me to grieve or get over the loss. We've prayed so hard and long for that baby, and by some cosmic miracle it was given, but then it was taken away from us by some twisted wish of fate.

I'd like to think we've gotten over the pregnancy and the loss, but I'm always left to wonder about the what-if''s, the what-might-have-been's and the could-have-been's.

Although we're left with a hope that I could still conceive. That there's still a chance for me to get pregnant again. That the probability is still there. So now all we have to do is try again, and maybe a good fairy would grant our wish.

Therefore, we'll see. Next time.

Remember December

noreply@blogger.com (bisaja) — Thu, 04 Feb 2010 05:39:00 +0000

If I remember exactly I said that we're not putting up a tree for Christmas, but the little boy so wanted to have a tree at home. So I bought him his very own small Christmas tree where he had a blast decorating it.

And when the tree was done, we place it as a centerpiece for the coffeetable in the living room.

Bee and I were planning to have pictures around Orchard during the holidays. But we ended up getting just a couple of shots because I was on bedrest for the most days in December.

And for the little one's Christmas present, we went to watch a Thomas and Friends Live Show at the Indoor Stadium, which made Bee really pissed because it was on the same day as the Standard Chartered Marathon, wherein most roads were closed. So the 5 minute taxi ride became an hour or so, therefore we missed about 10 or 15 minutes of the program. But we weren't the only ones late. There were many of us.

When we got home, that was when I found out that my hunch was true. And that is for the next post.

Homeschool: Halloween Theme

noreply@blogger.com (bisaja) — Thu, 04 Feb 2010 05:32:00 +0000

last quarter of 2009

noreply@blogger.com (bisaja) — Wed, 27 Jan 2010 12:48:00 +0000

Just like what I said from my posts last year, we stopped sending Sean to school last week of November, but that didn't mean my homeschooling him would also stop. So while his friends and classmates were in classrooms, the little big boy spent his time in his bedroom and in the kitchen doing homeschool activities I've planned out for him while on vacation.

But when I felt my health slowly deteriorating, which I'll discuss next time, Sean had his swell of time watching cartoons, playing online games and doing free or spontaneous homeschool activities that he finds interesting.

These were the activities that we had during the last quarter of 2009.

thought of leaving

noreply@blogger.com (bisaja) — Mon, 25 Jan 2010 11:06:00 +0000

Honestly, I really thought of leaving this blog, of not posting entries anymore. But the truth is, I miss it. This blog has been my companion since I arrived in SG. And saying goodbye is kinda hard to do, when I've written most of my memories here.

And what has compelled me to think of leaving? Just.....

But after so many weeks of deliberation, I think of staying and continue to blog.

So here's my first post for 2010.

moving on

noreply@blogger.com (bisaja) — Tue, 29 Dec 2009 08:24:00 +0000

No matter how you plan out things or your life, there are just instances when He changes it with just one snap of a finger.

We'll get through this. It's disappointing and devastating, but I have to move on. It's painful, but there's nothing that Bee and I could do. We did our best, but He has other plans. So we will see what that will be. We don't hold our future anyway.

All we can do is plan, yes, but with life's (un)certainties, it's always 50-50. All the time. Like I said, we don't hold our future.

So I'm moving on from this. I have accepted it, but I know it'll always haunt me. Just never thought it's going to have come to this.

After 15 days, I'm back.

noreply@blogger.com (bisaja) — Sun, 27 Dec 2009 19:46:00 +0000

Wish everybody had a great Christmas. Ours was good, although the we had the noche buena early because I was hungry and really tired, and thought I'd never make it til midnight.

Anyways, I've gained 3 freaking pounds in a week. I think. I'm not worried about the 3 pound gain, although I have to watch what I'll be putting in my mouth in the coming months. I told myself that this weight gain has to be controlled, so I've gotta measure the calorie intake and all. But I don't know. We'll see. Most of my clothes still fit, so no fret.

Alright, maybe this pigging out is brought about by psychological stress, so I'm stuffing myself until I couldn't take it anymore. I know it's wrong, but I'm giving myself a break from all those diet chuvas I've been doing since August, and besides it's Christmas season. And Christmas season is lamon season for me. What can I do? It's the only time of the year where I pig out. Pathetic, but hey, that's just me.

I was thinking of buying new sets of clothes last month, but good thing I didn't give in to my it's-time-to-change-my-wardrobe-instinct. Otherwise, moolah spent will be put to waste. So this Christmas season, I didn't get anything for myself, not even a pair of shoes. I'll have to wait until everything's in it's proper order -- so to speak.

After all the pigging out and all, I'm feeling constipated and the little boy is having diarrhea. So the morning was spent at the clinic. Really, so uneventful.

So what's the plan for NYE? We're not having pasta and chicken, that's for sure! I'm craving for Korean BBQ, so we might have that if it's available by the time we buy it; donuts, fresh fruits, ribs and crispy pata. Waaah, pampa-highblood.

But really, life's uneventful for me. Haven't been to the city since Sean had his visit to the dentist. Though we went to see the second Chipmunks movie on Christmas Eve. But that's about it.

The holiday's been a blah for me.

still alive

noreply@blogger.com (bisaja) — Sun, 13 Dec 2009 14:49:00 +0000

I'm still here, though I haven't blogged since I don't know how long. Although I can't say I'll blog every day or every week, but we'll see.

The weekend will soon come to a close and my princess life is over (again). Hahaha! I'm adviced for bed rest until further advice. So say goodbye to weekend lakwatsas, or library dates with the little big boy.

On the other note, I'm on progesterone. And I'm telling you, it doesn't feel good. The effect is really bad on me. It reminded me the time I was lying on the operating bed in the hospital on a Sunday afternoon in September of 2005.

This whole hormonal thingy is making me crazy just thinking about it.

Anyhoot, went to see the little big boy's dentist last Saturday, despite the doctor's advice to stay in bed. Haha! Matigas talaga ang ulo, ano? Although I rested every 20 or 30 minutes of walking so I don't know if that's okay.

And oh, I had my first Dunkin Donuts in SG, but it's nothing compare to the Dunkin Donuts in the PH, Jakarta or the US where it's a bit greasy. Here it's kinda dry. Sort of bread-like. I don't know if it's just me, but it's really different; texture and taste wise. Oh well, I'll have to wait until I go to my parents' place next year.

Alrighty! Will blog next time when I feel better. My vision is killing me. And I tell you that I miss my pet on PS and Style Savvy.

I think the progesterone is working coz I'm feeling wonky now.

So toodles noodles!