Another Day

Still trucking!

2011-01-27T10:12:00.000-06:00

I weighed in on Monday for "my" weigh in. Down to 243.8 on my work scale. This makes a total of 11+ pounds for January. Something has finally stuck with me. I am not sure what is different this time, but it is. I'm not complaing, just thankful!! I even got up one morning this week and used the new elliptical before I got ready for work. If anyone knows how much I hate getting up in the morning, this is BIG news. I need to get into the habit of it more often!

2011-01-17T13:20:00.001-06:00

Still going strong!!

2011-01-17T09:41:00.000-06:00

I am still on the right track!! Saturday, my Dad and brother went and picked up the elliptical I bought from Sears and put it together while I was working. It is HUGE, but will be a main decoration in my living room until I buy a tv for the extra bedroom that it will end up in. I used it Saturday and Sunday already. My goal is to get on it every day, if only for 10 minutes. I need to move more and eat less! I have no excuse to be lazy when it is blocking my tv view from the recliner!!

I just finished my Phase 1 of the South Beach diet. The only bread I had all week was last night at Red Lobster, where I had one Garlic Biscuit. I couldn't resist the little sucker. But, I made healthy options. We got the shrimp cocktail for our appetizer, a salad, wood grilled salmon, and brocolli. In a different time, we would have gotten the stuffed mushrooms, I would have eaten 3-4 biscuits, and I would have had some sort of fried platter. I was just as happy and satisfied with my meal last night as I ever have been, so that should tell me something!

I just finished The girl with the Dragon Tattoo yesterday. I made sure that I read while on the elliptical. I think that's going to be one of my motivators. I can only read something if I am on there. I am a huge reader, so that should be pretty good motivation!!

2 weeks down, a lifetime to go!! I'm giong to the office on lunch to weigh in for the week, for sparkpeople. I will be weighing in on Friday's at home or at my sisters for my biggest loser challenge with my Brother-in-law. That is fun, but my real challenge is to once and for all get healthy!!

A New Year

2011-01-14T22:33:00.000-06:00

I CAN'T believe that I'm saying this, but I'm starting over again. When I started this blog I wanted it to be the chronicle of my last lifestyle change. Unfortunately, that wasn't meant to be, so I'm here again. I have a few things going for me.

1. I have bought an elliptical machine that will be delivered tomorrow. My biggest problem with exercising is that I will not leave and go back to the gym once I'm home. I'm sitting this sucker in the middle of the living room floor so that I have no choice but to use it.

2. My brother-in-law and I have started a biggest loser contest starting today. 13 weeks. Wager is $100 to the winner from the other player. If I have to hand over $100 I'm going to be so mad!! It's just the motivation I need to keep on track!!

3. When we weighed in for biggest loser tonight, I only weighed 6 pounds less than my brother-in-law. He's at least 3 or 4 inches taller than me. And I see him as "bigger" than me. I guess not, huh? I've lost at least 7 pounds in the last 2 weeks, prior to this starting, so I was heavier than him. That is like a slap in the face to me. I need to wake up and take control!!

Here we go!!!

Starting weight 1/14/11 @ 7 pm 252.6

Back again!

2010-07-13T11:29:00.000-05:00

I'm back and ready to go. I can't tell you why I've been slacking for the past 2 months or so, but I know I'm ready. I am tired of being this fat girl. I want to be happy with myself. It's been way too long. I finally hit the gym again yesterday and stayed within my calorie goals. Here we go!!!

I'm BACK!

2010-05-10T19:53:00.000-05:00

I can't believe it's been over a month since I posted. I did have a brief period of lapse, but I'm back and better than ever!! I will not be winning the biggest loser competition, but I've realized that that isn't what matters to me. A healthy body mind, body, and spirit is all that matters. I'm working on it! So today is a new day. I have rocked on the food, and exercise. Here we go!

Slacking!!

2010-04-04T21:04:00.000-05:00

It is so hard to get back in the "rhythm" of weight loss activities once you have a bad week. I lost .4 pounds at our weigh in Saturday. I made it to the gym twice last week. Not great, but much better than the week before. I'm still here. I'm still working on it. This WILL be a week back on track!!

Hanging in there

2010-03-29T21:59:00.000-05:00

The lack of posts last week is a bad sign. When I'm not doing well I don't have much to say. I struggled last week with my health, and my emotions. The scale showed it. I was up 1 pound from the prior week. I still haven't been back to the gym, but at least I was back on my diet today. I don't know what my funk was from, but thankfully I'm back to myself. Thanks for checking on me!! I'm back in the game!! Hopefully I will be back in the gym tomorrow too!!

Now I need to go and catch up on everyone's blogs! I've missed everyone!

Weigh In

2010-03-20T10:33:00.002-05:00

Well, I lost a pound. That really really really stinks though, because this was the week I busted my butt in the gym. Just goes to show you that you have to be doing well eating, and exercising to post good numbers! You can't do REALLY crappy in one and great in the other!

It's another week. No birthday parties this week. It's on!

A setback

2010-03-18T17:17:00.000-05:00

After going to the gym last night instead of hitting the bar, and eating my usual breakfast this morning, instead of the fresh donuts in the office kitchen, I had a setback. I had a turkey sandwich in the fridge ready for lunch, but couldn't turn down a trip to the local pizza buffet when asked.

Usually I am even very on plan at the restaurant. They have a wonderful salad bar, and I load up on veggies, egg whites, etc. But today, I wanted none of it. I wanted PIZZA. I didn't have as much as I could have, but I left after eating 2 slices of "Cheese stick" type pizza, a piece of cheeseburger pizza, and a small piece of a thin crust olive pizza. Oh and a piece of dessert pizza. I don't know what is wrong with me. Why can't I have it all working at the same time? I am doing well in the gym but probably consumed well over 1000 calories at lunch today.

I'm so tired of doing this to myself. I wonder if there are any chances of losing weight this week? I sure hope so.

Happy Saint Patrick's Day!!

2010-03-17T16:54:00.000-05:00

Instead of doing the usual tonight (Drinking Green Beer) and having junk food, I will be heading to the gym after work. I can't believe I just said that. It doesn't sound like something I would say! HAHA. Have a great one guys!

A great day

2010-03-16T21:03:00.000-05:00

There is no other way to describe it. I have had an awesome day. Even though I'm working long hours right now, they aren't as long as they were a couple of weeks ago. I accomplished a lot at work today. I ate healthy all day, and even worked through my morning snack without thinking about it. Then I headed to the gym after work.

As I have said before, I've been very guilty of not working out as hard as I should be, even when I go to the gym several days per week. Well tonight, I think I finally broke my bad streak! I was on the elliptical machine for the first 15 minutes I was there, and burned 170 calories doing that. Then we moved to the treadmill. My friend stopped after 30 minutes, but Biggest Loser was on, and I didn't want to miss anything. I decided I was going to make it to 500 calories. This is the amount of calories that my doctor actually told me to burn when I was working out, I've just never done it! I did it!!! Over 1 hour of cardio, and burned 500 calories!! Woo hoo!!!

I am feeling GREAT! Ate a healthy supper, and finished watching Biggest Loser. I'm just hoping I can get out of bed tomorrow!!

Until then...

Recovering

2010-03-14T10:51:00.000-05:00

Well I survived my birthday. My husband and friends actually threw me a surprise party last night. I overindulged in a lot of ways! But the crazy thing is, I'm not "hungover" today in the practical sense. I'm feeling the worst because of the crap I ate yesterday. It's crazy that a month ago, yesterday would have been a regular day of eating, but after giving my body better foods for a month, a night of crap going in to my body just isn't what it wants. That's a big realization for me to make.

One of my favorite gifts of the night last night was a really cute insulated cup. I will have that sucker with me at all times from now on with ice water. I can do this.

Week 4

2010-03-13T08:32:00.000-06:00

Well I'm enjoying myself at work right now while everyone else is off having fun, or better yet, sleeping! HAHA. But there are a couple of great things about today. #1, I just weighed in and have lost another 2 pounds! Yep, that makes 11 total in 4 weeks. #2, Today is my birthday! Because of this, I'm not tracking today. My office has a tradition that you bring birthday treats to share with everyone on your birthday, so I brought turtle bars. I had 2 for breakfast. I'm going to eat what I want today, and not feel guilty. I might even have a few glasses of wine tonight. I will be 100% back on track tomorrow though.

Does anyone else need days like that? If I try to be 100% all the time, I will burn out and give up. If I allow myself some wiggle days, I do much better I think. Hopefully the scale next week won't reflect my birthday choices! HAHA.

Things I've done well this week:

1. Went to the gym 4 times(and actually pushed myself pretty hard
2. Tracked every bite of food that has gone into my mouth on Sparkpeople.com
3. Upped my protein intake, and decreased my carbs.

Things to improve on

1. Getting my water in every day. I struggled with this a few days this week.
2. Eating more natural foods. I need to incorporate more fruits and vegetables in my diet.
3. Start some light weight training at the gym. I'm only doing cardio right now.

11 pounds... I'm SOOOO excited!

The future

2010-03-09T10:30:00.000-06:00

I went to the gym again last night. This was a huge accomplishment for me, because my gym partner was sick and backed out on me. Any other time I've been attempting the "workout thing," I would have used this as a great opportunity to go home and curl up with my puppies on the couch to watch tv. But I didn't do that. I made my husband bring me my gym bag that I had forgotten and headed to the gym after work. I might have only done a 30 minute cardio workout, but that was 30 minutes that I wasn't sedentary!

I am actually starting to feel good. I attempted a little bit of jogging last night. I am attempting to get going on the Couch to 5K program, slowly but surely. I ran 3 intervals of 60 seconds last night. I quit the intervals when my shins were absolutely killing me, but I kept power walking. I expected to wake up extremely sore, but I feel great today.

I'm so ready to do this. I'm ready to be the new me. The thin me. The former fat girl. It's a foreign, but completely inspiring and exciting thought. I really can't "picture" myself at my goal weight, but I can picture myself as a healthy, happy woman. My husband and I are dying to have kids, and my weight I have no doubt is directly affecting my fertility. Is it possible that if I get this weight off I will get pregnant? Without fertility treatments? That is a question I intend to answer. And soon! We aren't getting any younger.

Wow. I didn't intend for this post to be this deep. I'm just so inspired today for some reason. Here's to tomorrow. :)

Survived the weekend

2010-03-08T08:59:00.001-06:00

Well I made it through the weekend. It's a good thing I work as much as I do, or I think the scale would suffer. I seem to have far less will power at home than I do at work! I guess it's boredom.

After my good weigh in on Saturday I got off work and picked up the ingredients for a healthy black bean soup for dinner, and headed home to enjoy the sunshine a little bit. I put the soup in the crockpot for supper, and headed outside. I cleaned out my nasty car, and just enjoyed the fresh air. I really should have taken a walk, but didn't. I ate the soup with my hubby before he headed for work, then headed to a friends to see their new house.

Yesterday i was home all day. I did manage to make it to town for a 45 minute cardio workout, and to the grocery store. Unfortunately, I got an unhealthy meal to make. But it was yummy and my husband loved it! We had french dips and fries. I guess when you consider used to would go back for seconds on everything on my plate, it wasn't too bad! I also took out about 50% of the inside of my bread before I made a sandwich. That had to help, right?

I also had dessert last night. When I was a teenager, my mom did some kind of weight loss program through church, and one of the recipes that she always made on that program was called "Chocolate Eclair Dessert." I always loved it! I found it by accident the other day online, so I made some. It's not THAT bad calorie wise, but I still didn't need it. It sure was yummy though! And my picky hubby even liked it! That's saying something. He hears low calorie or lite and he turns up his nose.

Today is my monthly check in at the doctor. My regular doctor has a weight loss clinic that you can see a nutrionist, weigh in monthly, etc. I've been doing this for a while now, but the past 2 times I've gone, I had gained. The nurse practioner told me that if I hadn't lost significantly this appointment (Today's) that she was going to recommend I postpone the program until i found my motivation. There was one week between the last time I went and when I started biggest loser. I'm terrified that I gained enough that week that my 9 pounds I have lost in the last 3 weeks aren't enough to make her happy.

I don't really even know why I'm that concerned to stay in the program. When we started, they gave me Phentermine and Metformin. The Metformin I take anyway because of my PCOS. The Phentermine was a great appetite suppressant at first, but literally does nothing for me now. I hardly ever take it. If I wasn't in this program, I could just start going back to my OBGYN and get back on a Metformin treatment. Maybe I should just check into that regardless of what happens with today's appointment. I just like it that they are setting the calories I need to eat a day, and the exercise calories burned. I feel like it takes the pressure off of me!

Cross your fingers for me. I don't want to be "the person" that gets kicked out of the fat doctor!!

Update: Just got back from the doctor. From one month ago today, I have lost 8 pounds. I will probably agree with that. I "fattened up" knowing I was starting the biggest loser! Yippee!!!

Weigh in Day

2010-03-06T09:01:00.000-06:00

Well I love weigh-in day this week! I'm down another 2.4 pounds. That means that in the 3 weeks we've been doing this, I've lost 9 pounds! I'll take it! I'm still not winning the challenge though. I really need to get serious about my gym trips. The great thing is that another girl from work is going to join the gym next week. That way I'll be meeting my friend on Mondays and Thursdays, and I will go with the girl from work on Tuesdays and Wednesdays!! That should get things moving!

Pre-Weigh In Thoughts

2010-03-05T16:42:00.000-06:00

Well, I finally worked out last night. I did 30 minutes on the elliptical. Not as much as I had planned, but definitely had a great sweat by the end of the workout. I am either going to go back to town when my husband goes to work tonight, or do a Biggest Loser Wii workout. I need to do a "Last Chance Workout" before tomorrow's weigh in! I am really curious to see what the scale will say tomorrow. I always kind of look forward to Saturday's, but dread them at the same time. I usually feel better once we weigh though.

Wish me luck! Hopefully i won't need it though.

Need some motivation

2010-03-03T09:54:00.001-06:00

I wish someone would just come and drag me off of my couch at night and get me moving. I work long hours this time a year (55 hours a week) and when I get home I'm ready to do nothing. The days I go work out with a friend I do that immediately after work, so that works out. But on the days when I am rushing home to see my husband for the 30 minutes I see him a night when we are both working, I have a hard time going back to the gym or turning on the Wii Fit. Last night I did absolutely nothing. I ate supper and picked up the kitchen with plans to watch Lost and then turn on Wii fit afterwards. What did I do? I started messing with the computer. I should have all of the motivation in the world, with the gut I have going on. But as much as I want to lose weight, it’s never enough.

At least I am eating well this week. I am not sucking at both aspects of my weight loss journey. My next weigh in is Saturday. My goal before then is to exercise daily. I am going to do Wii fit for 30 minutes tonight. (Biggest loser game) I am going to the gym tomorrow with my gym buddy (45 minutes of cardio) and 30 minutes of the biggest loser Wii game on Friday night. I will also be 100% on my diet plan until then. I want to see a big loss this week on the scale. I've fallen to second place in the % of weight loss for our competition, and I'm behind a girl that started at 160 pounds. That is ridiculous. I CAN DO THIS!

Monday Recap

2010-03-02T07:57:00.000-06:00

To be a Monday yesterday, the day wasn't really to bad! I ate within my calorie ranges all day, and went to the gym. Unfortunately, I didn't stay too long. The girl that I meet on Mondays and Thursdays had been there a while when i got there and was leaving about 15 minutes after I arrived. We worked on the ellipticals for 15 minutes (The absolute max that I can do on that torture device right now) and then when she left I was going to walk on the treadmill for 30 minutes. Unforunately at 6:30 on Monday nights our gym is VERY busy. Every one of their treadmills was full and there were people waiting to get on them. So I decided I was just going to go home.

I hate this attitude that I have had lately. I want to lose weight. I am putting in the work with my diet (for the most part), but I just can't get it together with exercise. I read a post yesterday at Off the Couch where Kristina was talking about pushing past the point where you start sweating or when it starts to hurt a little. Even though I read that and completely agreed, it still wasn't something I could start doing last night. How do I get past this point?

Sunday...that's my fun day

2010-03-01T10:37:00.000-06:00

I have an extreme love/hate relationship with weekends. I work 6 days a week right now, so I really get one full day off a week. This week we spent the day with my in-laws who took us to a neighboring town for lunch. To my FAVORITE Mexican restaurant. I haven't been there since I was in college, so I indulged and got my favorite meal there. Sweet Tea and all. It was delicious, but I was so full. I don't know why I can't stop when I'm full and not make it a painful experience. I really really need to work on that. I did much better for the rest of my meals, but certainly didn't get enough water in. I think I'm going to start documenting my meals here, just so I can see them easier.

2 scrambled eggs with 1 piece fat free cheese
Pechuga Frita (Grilled chicken breast with onions, mushrooms, and cheese Sauce)
Refried Beans
Mexican Rice
Chips & Salsa
Sweet tea (At least 2.5 glasses)
Grilled Chicken Breast sandwich for supper with fat free cheese and fat free mayo
small baked potato with spray butter and a tsp of low fat sour cream
banana

Not the best day by any means, but at least the other two meals weren't horrible. Today is another day!

Weigh-In Day

2010-02-27T07:27:00.000-06:00

Well, not nearly as encouraging as last week, but a loss none the less. I am down another 1.6 pounds. I really want to lose at least 2 pounds per week, so i'm going to have to get with it this week. I know when I'm not doing well, but I always think I can get it off before Saturday. I need to think of every day as weigh in day.

My goals for this week...

Track every bite of food that hits my mouth in sparkpeople
Eat Quality calories for my caloric intake
Drink 8 glasses of water per day
Go the gym at LEAST 4 times
Bring my lunches to work so I'm not tempted to grab something in town.

Maybe by accomplishing these mini-goals I'll accomplish my ultimate goal!

BAD WEEK

2010-02-26T08:16:00.000-06:00

I've had a rough week this week. Stress has gotten the better of me. I know I am a stress eater, but continue to do it anyway. I have to learn to control the emotional urgency to eat something comforting. There have to be better ways to deal with it.

I don't know what tomorrow will bring on the scale. I've exercised 3 times since the last weigh in, and stayed in my calorie range on sparkpeople all but 3 days. And those days I didn't exceed 2000 calories. I'm just hoping that my sabotage days didn't completely sabotage the week.

Tonight I have a baby shower that I have to go to. That kind of situation is always hard for me. I feel like if I turn down cake, or punch I am being rude. But it is at work, and they know we are doing this Biggest Loser contest. I'm sure they will understand when I stick to my water.

My goals for the next week are to control my emotional eating, go to the gym 4 times, do wii fit at least once, and stay within my calorie range everyday on sparkpeople. By accomplishing these short term goals, I will be that much closer to my ultimate goal. A Healthy Body and Lifestyle.

Still trucking...

2010-02-23T09:04:00.000-06:00

I haven't been posting daily like I planned, but at least I've been on track every day. I'm getting in 8 glasses of water daily, and sticking pretty closely to the 1200 calorie diet I'm working on. I went to the gym again last night, this time with my gym buddy, and burned another 400 calories. When I went to see a weight loss doctor, they told me to eat 1200 calories and burn 500, so I feel like I'm pretty close to that. I hope that the scale shows all of this hard work.

I'm reading an awesome book right now that really makes me want to start running. I've tried several times over the years to become a runner and I just can't make that transition. My shin splints start hurting and my lungs feel like they are going to explode!! I don't know whether I need to drop quite a bit of weight before I start this endeavor again, or if I just need to build up to running very far.

One day at a time!

First Weigh In

2010-02-20T10:31:00.000-06:00

I'm a few days behind already. Probably not a good sign, huh? I'll try to do better.

Today we had our first weigh in (I guess technically 2nd) to see what we've lost during the first week. I'm down 5 pounds from last Saturday! I'm so excited. I weighed at home before I left the house, and didn't think that I had lost anything. I was very pleasantly suprised when I weighed at work!

I also started working out last night. I didn't do as much as I have in the past, but my shins were killing me after about 20 minutes on the treadmill. I guess that is something I will have to work up to. I will take it though...any movement is better than none!

5 pounds down---95 to go.