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Discomfort

2018-11-22T18:02:00.000-08:00

It was 3 months ago since I was diagnosed with PID, after 1 year of suffering from chronic back pain. Praise The Lord, it didn't worsen, but I've seen better days. There were times when I woke up in the middle of the night because my back hurts, and it's hard to wake up in the morning as my body would get cramps.

ADL now became bearable, although long walks and drives are complete torture, thanks to my painkillers. I'm currently on Gabapentin and Celecoxib (which gave me intense dizziness and palpitations/ nervousness).

If you have time to kill, I would advice you to seek for treatment at your nearest government hospital. First you need to get a referral letter from a clinic, along with an X-Ray that is highly suggestive. Mine was degenerative changes at my L4 & L5.

Then, you'll need to visit the specialist clinic (orthopaedic/ bone) to GET AN APPOINTMENT which would take 2/3 months. The first visit would be free, and they'll refer you to physiotherapy sessions (also free for your first visit, the next visit would be RM5 for each session) and get you your prescriptions (free). Follow-up session (RM5 each) would be 3/4 months later, depending on your conditions.

My physiotherapy session focuses on relieving my muscle cramps, and also electric and heat therapy that reset them. But thats it, and when my therapist tried to palpate my spine, I can still feel pain shooting throughout my body.

I decided to get my MRI (advanced XRAY) at a private hospital. I haven't set up any appointment yet, but I'm sure gonna write about it.

And I'm glad I decided to write again.

Feelings...

2018-11-22T08:25:00.002-08:00

I want to write about it because I want to remember this feeling.

Funny how glances exchanged 6 years ago would turn into big laughter in the car, crying over the phone, fighting over the stupidest stuff you've ever heard of and the most important thing, the feeling when our eyes met, your smile and everything that comes with you.

One of the earliest memory I had of you was your back in the stadium where a rugby tournament was held, and that sidelong glance. And right now the latest was your smile, as we said our goodbyes, with smiles on our faces and flowers in our hearts, 4 hours prior to this post is written.

We've met and part ways before, but I guess this time, it was at the right time. I'm in the best version of myself, and you, deserves the best.

"It's your name that I called in my sleep, and if you can grant me comfort, so be it."

Everything about tonight is perfect. I rap to the rhythm of your beatbox, laugh to your silly jokes and acts, and most importantly, fall in love with you all over again.

We drove by places in my hometown, and then that long drive, and we talked about our future.

"All that I am, all that I ever was, is here in your perfect eyes. They're all I can see."

May Allah ease all our intentions, and kept our heart entwined.

إِنَّ اللَّهَ عَالِمُ غَيْبِ السَّمَاوَاتِ وَالْأَرْضِ ۚ إِنَّهُ عَلِيمٌ بِذَاتِ الصُّدُورِ - 35:38

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Discomfort

Feelings...

Indeed, Allah is Knower of the unseen [aspects] of the heavens and earth. Indeed, He is Knowing of that within the breasts.

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