Ramblings of a Semi-Literate Mind

Juggling Act

Cloudbug57@gmail.com (Jossie Posie) — Wed, 09 Dec 2009 16:32:00 +0000

It seems that starting school mid season was a seriously idiotic decision on my part. I've had to redo my study plan over and over again due to lack of time. Am I still glad I did it? Yes. But I am simultaneously cursing my very existence.

I think I have pretty much come to the conclusion that there is NO way I am sitting for my exam in May. They allow you to choose the year in which you take it and I am going to need a bit more time with the material based on how slow the progress has been so far. It really is daunting tackling this external program.

But it won't always be like this. I've made a really seriously huge decision about my life, one that I am not quite ready to talk about, but when it happens things will be different. In the meantime I have to juggle work, school, the Pirate, friends, family, etc. I'm not doing such a great job of it right now, but with time I'm sure it'll improve, right?

How does the rest of the world manage such hectic schedules?

And I'm back

Cloudbug57@gmail.com (Jossie Posie) — Fri, 04 Dec 2009 14:36:00 +0000

It's been a while. I know. I've just had too much on my mind to really sit down and write it out. Between work (slowly killing me), school and my personal life, things have been a bit crazy. I have been shirking social outings in lieu of studying lately so truth be told I'm not sure I have such exciting stuff to report.

I did spend Thanksgiving in New York with the Pirate and it was great. We had our first turkey day together and our 12lber came out great.
It was maple glazed and delightful. We spent a lot of much needed face time together, went to a couple museums, hung out with some friends, he played the violin for me.

Overall it was great. My favorite part (aside from the obvious) was going to the Tim Burton exhibit at MOMA. The crowds there not so much but we I head back to NY in February with Marisol and go again hopefully they will have died down.

But now for the real reason why I am blogging today.

Today is my sisters birthday.

She is officially 29 years old and a huge pain in my ass but in the grand scheme of things I love her despite it all and to be honest I'm not sure I know anyone else who would put up with my bullshit. Happy Birthday Beeker!!!!!

Year of the Zombie

Cloudbug57@gmail.com (Jossie Posie) — Mon, 02 Nov 2009 16:29:00 +0000

Halloween this year was interesting. We spent the evening partying it up at Zoey and Lissettes little house of horrors, which was as usual completely amazing, but before we could even arrive (2 hours late by the way) my sister and I were subjected to 3 hours of makeup.

That's right 3 hours. Both of our costumes were make up heavy. She was a Dia de Los Muertos girl and looked absolutely amazing and me in my Bride of Frankenstein getup. At one point I was standing there while my mom sponged on grease paint for a solid 40 minutes. Kill me please!
Did it look great? Yes it sure did, will I ever be that committed to a costume again, no. I had to shower for 45 minutes when I got home at 3 am to scrub the makeup and prosthetic glue off. I came out with my chest swollen from all the scrubbing. Seriously. Ouch.

Not to mention that the time changed mid evening so by the time we left at 3 am, I wanted to collapse from exhaustion. We slept over mom and dads and for some reason my mom decided only to make one side of my futon comfy and guess where I slept on the wrong side. So I woke up at 8 am with the worst back pain in history, slightly hungover with makeup still on parts that I couldn't possibly scrub anymore the night before. Regardless of that it was awesome and a fun night was had by all, as you can see from the photos ;-)

Waves

Cloudbug57@gmail.com (Jossie Posie) — Wed, 28 Oct 2009 20:19:00 +0000

Hi!
I'm still alive
getting everything in order
studying my life away

partying it up on the weekends
and snausaging the Pirate via Skype.

I'll be back soon enough
need a bit more break if thats okay with you.

P.S.
I miss you all.

Am I completely off my rocker?

Cloudbug57@gmail.com (Jossie Posie) — Tue, 20 Oct 2009 21:02:00 +0000

So I'm sorting it all out, do I want more tattoos or not. I know the answer, I do. I know which ones I want, but is it crazy of me to get so many, how will it affect everything career wise for the long term, should I even care.

The more I think about it, the more I think I will end up with a half sleeve. Is that completely bat shit crazy of me. I see women who have half sleeves or full sleeves and still look absolutely beautiful, classy, etc. Would I have to cover it up for work. Yes absolutely, but do I always plan to work in this staunch office environment no. If I have my way this will only be for 1 1/2 more and then I'd be able to do what I love.

So what are your thoughts?

Confuseled Imagination

Cloudbug57@gmail.com (Jossie Posie) — Wed, 07 Oct 2009 16:32:00 +0000

My sister and I used to watch a lot of fantasy shows and movies as a child. We were definitely not the outdoorsy kind of kids, we grew up in front of the TV watching Rainbow Brite, Sesame Street, Popples, Cabbage Patch Kids, Care Bears etc. Our parents didn't mind because we were intelligent kids with varied interests.

As I got older and my memory got worse I forgot so much of what I used to dedicate my afternoons watching. Of course there were the ones that stood out so much that could never be forgotten, The Labyrinth, The Dark Crystal, The Princess Bride, The Neverending Story, Legend, Flash Gordon, Goonies, The Secret of Nimh (still makes me cry to this day) but those are the fantasy classics. Or at least for my generation.

I have always had an extremely vivid imagination. As a child I would go to sleep and dream that a dog was barking in my face, when I would wake up I would see the dog in front of me still barking. Obviously the dream dog did not materialize in front of me, I just carried the image over once I had woken up. That still happens to me from time to time. I think this phenomenon is directly related to the amount of TV I watched and what we chose to watch.

Growing up I would have extremely vivid dreams of fantastical worlds. I always thought I had made them up...and then randomly I would stumble upon something and realize that this was what my dreams were about. They weren't new ideas my unconscious mind had concocted. They were carryovers from my childhood fantasy binges.

I wonder if I'm the only one that this happened to or if tv and movies inspired your dreams and nightmares as well?

Rally for Kids with Cancer

Cloudbug57@gmail.com (Jossie Posie) — Mon, 05 Oct 2009 18:10:00 +0000

My next big event is an amazing celebrity rally for kids with cancer. Every penny raised goes towards cancer treatment for children at the Holtz Children's Hospital in Miami and the International Kids Fund which treats children from Latin American without means.

I know my fellow bloggers are quite the charitable bunch. Please help by contributing. Your donation, no matter how much, provides hope to children battling cancer.

Rally for Kids with Cancer

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Charity, Luncheons and Carolina oh my

Cloudbug57@gmail.com (Jossie Posie) — Fri, 02 Oct 2009 18:54:00 +0000

I have 25 events a year, yesterday was our fashion show and luncheon. With Carolina Herrera. Yes, the actual Carolina Herrera was in attendance and it was fabulous. I mobile uploaded a ton of photos to facebook but for those that aren't my friends on there:

A) what the hell are you waiting for

B) I'll do you a solid and just post them here but seriously get on friend requesting me

Set Up on Wednesday Night

Marisol being silly once the delirium had set in at 11 pm

Thursday Morning Runthrough and Final Setup

Fashion Show

Wish Fufilled

Cloudbug57@gmail.com (Jossie Posie) — Tue, 29 Sep 2009 23:47:00 +0000

Don't laugh. No, seriously don't.

I am super de-duper excited because I got tickets to see Bryan Adams live.

I LOVE HIM!

He is one of the people that I have ALWAYS wanted to see live...and now I am going and taking either my sister or Teresa, and I can't effing wait.

Yes, I know I'm a loser.

Pardon the interruption

Cloudbug57@gmail.com (Jossie Posie) — Mon, 28 Sep 2009 14:08:00 +0000

I've been distracted lately...there are too many thing going on, too many things I need to worry and think about and I don't really want to talk about them. Odd, or at least for me it is. I'm sure at some point they will come pouring out of me overflowing onto the keys. But for the time being, I don't want to share.

I may take a blog break, I may not. We'll see how I feel tomorrow.

How to survive

Cloudbug57@gmail.com (Jossie Posie) — Mon, 21 Sep 2009 15:39:00 +0000

Problem: The week from hell
Solution: Go out, for Mary's birthday, get drunk, dance my ass off and forget my woes with AMAZING friends.

Mission Accomplished!

Zombified it is

Cloudbug57@gmail.com (Jossie Posie) — Thu, 17 Sep 2009 14:14:00 +0000

The votes are in and I must say Wonder Woman and the Bride of Frankenstein demolished the Mermaid option but as I said before my choice was already made...

I'm going as The Bride of Frankenstein...and I'm going to rock it hard.

It's Coming, It's Coming!!

Cloudbug57@gmail.com (Jossie Posie) — Mon, 14 Sep 2009 18:07:00 +0000

As I think you are aware, I love Halloween. I tend to start planning my costumes way in advance, spare no expense and just go for it. Just like last year we will be partying it up at Zoey and Lissette's little haunted house. Last year was quite memorable and I was soooo happy with my Princess Leia costume that it will be pretty hard to top.

I started to think about what I wanted to be but couldn't come up with much and then my sister came up with a few options that she thought would work really well for me and my figure/looks. This year, just like most people money's tight, so I am making a serious effort to cut back. So I'm looking for a less expensive costume that I can be happy with.

I have already made my choice, but I am kind of curious to know which one you guys prefer. I'll give the voting a couple of days and then let you all know which one I chose:

The choices are:

Option 1 - Wonder Woman

Option 2 - Mermaid ( Not THE little mermaid, just a mermaid)

Option 3 - Bride of Frankenstein

Lets celebrate, blog style

Cloudbug57@gmail.com (Jossie Posie) — Sat, 12 Sep 2009 04:01:00 +0000

Best blogoversary cupcake ever
(please feel free to send some)

My life was so different this time last year.

Its hard to fathom how much a life can change in a measly 365 days. Not only has it changed but I documented it every step of the way. When things were rough and I needed an outlet I blogged several times a day, when life got hectic I pulled back. But I was always honest. No matter how good or bad the stories I had to tell.

I find myself remembering where I was at emotionally when I started this. A big teary mess, doesn't even do it justice. I was struggling with my new relationship with the ex, in that fuzzy place where you break up but still love each other so you try your best to remain friends.

It didn't work for us. I found myself crying at the mere mention of him, and the first month of my blog every time I wrote about him it was through a fog of tears. It got better as those things often do, but not without leaving a permanent mark first. A very deep, dark scar that I still struggle with to this day.

Now, one year later my life is practically unrecognizable. I'm in the same job, live in the same apartment and on the surface you would think nothings changed. But I have changed. Made so many decisions for myself not for the people in my life. I remember my ex-husbands biggest complaint about me was that I was selfish. No one ever understood why it was he said that because, while I had selfish moments, its not really a part of my personality. This last year though, I learned to be selfish. And that is the best thing I did.

What I never could have guessed is how large a part of my life would be consumed by blogging. In honor of my first year I am going to share a piece of my inner workings with you. So with that in mind I want to show you my top 5 blog posts and my top 10 bloggers.

My Top 5 Blog Posts

Tidbits of Pure Awesomeness Volume 1 - Why? Well cause it started a tradition (one that I suck at, but still it was my first re-occurring topic)

My friend Claude - quite possibly the silliest post I have ever done, but it still makes me smile.

A History - I love rereading this post it give me the warm fuzzies and makes me realize how lucky I am to have such cool parents

And the Spiritualist Said What - Quite possibly the craziest thing I did all year

Letting it all go, finally - My reason for needing an outlet wasn't a reason anymore but at this point, I fell in love with ya'll

My Top 10 fave bloggers

Lilu @ LivitLuvit - Her Shiz my Boyfriend says series, may be my favorite thing ever

[F]oxymoron - You never know what to expect. One day its donuts the next its nipples.

Katelin @ gorgeous footsteps in the sand - I love her Hollywood posts and her obsession with all thinsg Twilight. Especially cause she's not even remotely ashamed about it. Thats my kind of girl.

Pacing the Panic Room - I absolutely love peeking in on his family via his amazing photos

Seb - Does one really need to give an explanation as to why he made the list?

Sassy B - Oh my lovely Sassy B. Words fail me.

Kyla @ KylaRoma - She has the most adorable life...and haircut

RS @Your Beard is Good - I don't think I have ever gotten more joy from someone striking out so consistently

Bethis - Oh how I miss her and her shenanigans.

Whoorl - Cutest son ever and his latest dancing video to Sex on Fire is beyond words

My Fall TV Fantasy Team

Cloudbug57@gmail.com (Jossie Posie) — Fri, 11 Sep 2009 05:44:00 +0000

I know nothing about fantasy teams, but I like the way it sounds so I'm using it.

I tend to fluctuate between wanting to watch TV and resenting it with every ounce of my being...this year we are on the upswing so I want to marry it and make tiny HD babies with it.

I have considered and re-considered which shows I am going to watch and after much back and forth have finally settled on a few gems (read: way too much TV for any normal person to watch)

Please note none of these shows with a few exceptions will be viewed when they air. DVR, what did I ever do before you came and remade my world into something magnificent?

Monday

How I Met Your Mother
Accidentally on Purpose
John and Kate Plus 8

Castle

Tuesday

So You Think You Can Dance

Wednesday

So You Think You Can Dance

Glee

Eastwick

Thursday

Vampire Diaries

Bones

The Office

Community

Friday

Smallville

Dollhouse

Saturday

Robin Hood

Being Human (in repeats)

Sunday

Bored to Death

Three Rivers

Mid Season

American Idol

Big Love

Caprica

Reliving it

Cloudbug57@gmail.com (Jossie Posie) — Thu, 10 Sep 2009 17:15:00 +0000

On my 17th birthday with the high school bf

I had a really weird dream with my high school boyfriend 2 nights ago...something that I thought was very random and kind of disconcerting. I woke up feeling a bit off about the whole thing but spent the rest of the day trying to brush it off. Then someone mentioned that tomorrow marks the 8 year anniversary of 9/11. My high school boyfriend and I broke up 3 days before 9/11.

Isn't it odd that I would dream about him, vividly on the night marking the 8 year anniversary of our break up? I haven't seen him since that night. Not once. Is my subconscious mind trying to remind me about that horrible night?

My weekend in a nutshell

Cloudbug57@gmail.com (Jossie Posie) — Tue, 08 Sep 2009 13:57:00 +0000

Friday

Worked all day Friday, or until 4:30. Still felt like it was all day.

Got a tattoo on Friday afternoon with Bear. Super secret mission accomplished.

Got wasted and sang the shit out of some Journey on Friday night

Saturday

Woke up SUPER hungover on Saturday

Shopped until I wanted to puke on Saturday

The birthday girl, a tad on the cranky (and drunk) side

Partied it up for Vicki's birthday on Saturday Night. Got wax ALL over my face...don't even ask.

SUNDAY

Woke up SUPER hungover on Sunday

Spent the entire day in bed recovering

Suddenly Seymour from Jossie Posie on Vimeo.

Part of Your World from Jossie Posie on Vimeo.

Went to Zoey and Lissette's for quite possibly the BEST night ever. PJ party + musicals + wine = AWESOME

MONDAY

Woke up on Monday not even remotely hung over and listened to Breaking Dawn all day while visiting mom and pop.

SUMMARY

All of this put together = the best long weekend ever

My best friend commented that I drank way too much this weekend. Angie my darling, I concur!

So I need your help...

Cloudbug57@gmail.com (Jossie Posie) — Fri, 04 Sep 2009 13:41:00 +0000

I have been talking circles around cutting my hair for months...I haven't touched it since I cut it back in November (when I cut bangs) and now almost a year later I realize that its kind oh blah. It has no style to speak of and thats just unacceptable.

The sexy legless pirate is not fond of my choices so I need a second (or 50th) opinion. I am planning on cutting and dying it so let me know your thoughts on both. Keep in mind that I prefer to keep it longish if possible.

So with that said here are the options...

Cut #1
Cut #2

Cut #3

(but not teased in the back)

Cute #4 & Dye #1

Brown on top, black on bottom

Dye #2

Black on bottom with white(blonde) chunks on top

Dye #3

Seriously red

Dye #4

Black with red chunks throughout

Thoughts??

Cloudbug

Cloudbug57@gmail.com (Jossie Posie) — Thu, 03 Sep 2009 15:15:00 +0000

I don't understand why as adults its so much harder to see figures in the clouds

by: vampire-zombie

Rekindling my WoWmance

Cloudbug57@gmail.com (Jossie Posie) — Wed, 26 Aug 2009 14:34:00 +0000

So last night I played World of Warcraft. Until 3:00 am. And I fell in love all over again.

I was this () close to canceling my account. I had even stopped the recurring payment. And then yesterday I logged on and saw the trailer for the new expansion. And can I just say one word...WEREWOLVES.

Even though I am going to be beyond swamped with life, school and work. I am going to have to make some time for WoWing it up.

P.S. Did I mention there is going to be an underwater city. That you can actually play in, alah The Little Mermaid...hell the eff yes!!

Dinner with vampires

Cloudbug57@gmail.com (Jossie Posie) — Mon, 24 Aug 2009 15:11:00 +0000

Ladies and Gentlemen, I have been remiss and forgotten to inform you of one of the highlights of my weekend. Every weekend actually.

True Blood Dinners.

What is True Blood Dinners you say, well its when me and about 10-15 of my closest friends (the usual suspects) get together on Sunday nights at one of our homes cook super delish dinner and dessert for the group and watch Big Brother (don't even judge) and True Blood.

We like to think of Big Brother as our trashy appetizer before the main course. The whole night is really centered around True Blood and the anticipation in the room is palpable.

These festivities began when Zoey, Lissette, Teresa, Vickie and I decided to watch one of the first episodes together and it has since blown up. Its a set date, everyone knows its going down. The evenings chef and location rotates and the coordinates and menu are sent out via Facebook.

Sunday at 7pm people start trickling in and not only do we have True Blood to look forward to but also an amazing night with friends. We've enjoyed everything from Turkey Chili, to chicken fajitas, Make your own pizza night to the latest meatloaf and mashed potatos with red velvet cupcakes for dessert. AMAZING.

The sad part is we only have 2 weeks left but for the finale we'll be gouing out with a bang! We will be purchasing True Blood for the group and having some super yumm accompaniments including monkey bread and ice cream made by yours truly.

We are coming up with a plan to continue Sunday night dinners through the year because its really the one night a week we all get together and catch up. I highly recommend that if you have a show that all your friends love you consider putting something like this together. Not only do you get friends, good food and great tv but you also get a Sunday night buzz going from all the wine. Whats not to love about that?

The new digs

Cloudbug57@gmail.com (Jossie Posie) — Fri, 21 Aug 2009 14:24:00 +0000

The lovely Aurora from Confessions of a Cocktail Napkin, posted photos of her classroom and the redecorating that went down. While reading it this morning I realized that since I moved my office I haven't posted about it. As a matter of fact I am not even sure I told you all it went down.

In May when I lost Nick and my assistant due to budget cuts the powers that be decided that Marisol and I should centralize our department by moving in together. About 2 years earlier they had spent a chunk of money making a custom events office for my staff so it was only fair that I agreed. I gave up my cushy office and crammed all my junk into a smaller desk. Smaller desk but MUCH larger office. After all it is two of us.

The downside is that when I have meetings, which I do often, Marisol has to listen to my blabbering. But thats pretty much the only downside. I get to spend my day with Marisol and our office is very homey. So without further ado here it is.

All the photos can be clicked to enlarge them

My binders, this is only 1/3 of them, as I have a bookshelf full and 3 drawers in a filing cabinet that is housed in a different office. We keep a binder for EVERY event. So with 25 events a year it gets rather cumbersome. I've tried to convince them that binders are a waste, no luck thus far.

My side of the office. Its just as colorful as before. Its a much smaller desk space and I am kind of a messy marvin but that will never change. Yes that is a container of Triple Cheese Easy Mac in the cabinet, its emergency lunch. I still get crap for having too many toys and doodles but my work life would be depressing without them so I refuse to give them up.

This is our shared space. Its a miracle we don't burn up with all the technology we have in our office. Between the two of us we have 3 computers (4 monitors) and 2 printers. The entire facing wall is made up of windows, which we never open because we work in the ghetto, but its nice to be able to look out and find out if its raining.

Marisol's work station, she is anti-clutter (which I totally don't get). Her binder shelves go all the way to the ceiling in our office. About 4 shelves high.

Its hard to see in the photos but our office is actually really open and spacious, all the clutter is contained to the walls and the shelves chock full of binders. The one major issue with our office is that we have pretty much already grown out of it and we've only shared it for 5 months...I'm not sure what its going to be like a year down the line. I have a feeling we'll be like the princess and the pea, except instead of sleeping on mattresses we'll be sitting on binders.

RIP Smeldon 2007-2009

Cloudbug57@gmail.com (Jossie Posie) — Thu, 20 Aug 2009 14:13:00 +0000

Thursday, August 20, 2009

Smeldon, a hard working Beta died last night after he committed suicide and jumped out of his tank. He was dedicated to his job and his hobbies including filing, creating bubble nests and unfurling his fins. He is survived by his adopted mothers Jossie and Marisol and his birth mother Nicole. "It is a tragic loss, he was with us for two years. The office will never be the same without him." said Marisol.

This photo taken yesterday afternoon will be placed as a memorial to Smeldon next to his empty tank. Smeldon, in all his beautiful beta glory.

What 20sb means to me: my Vlog

Cloudbug57@gmail.com (Jossie Posie) — Mon, 17 Aug 2009 15:24:00 +0000

20sb Vlog: What 20sb means to me... from Jossie Posie on Vimeo.

A definite curve ball

Cloudbug57@gmail.com (Jossie Posie) — Tue, 11 Aug 2009 16:02:00 +0000

Ever since I applied for admission to the University of London I started to think about the possibility of moving over there. Its one of those things that always seemed like a nice little dream but that was it. A dream.

I had a conversation with a friend yesterday who basically verbally bitch slapped me into rethinking why I am staying here to get my degree when I have the chance of moving over there and living in the only place that has ever felt like home to me.

So, its on the table. It won't happen for a while, a long while. But its being considered. Discussed. Worked on. We'll see.

Ramblings of a Semi-Literate Mind

Juggling Act

And I'm back

Year of the Zombie

*Waves*

Am I completely off my rocker?

Confuseled Imagination

Rally for Kids with Cancer

Charity, Luncheons and Carolina oh my

Wish Fufilled

Pardon the interruption

How to survive

Zombified it is

It's Coming, It's Coming!!

Lets celebrate, blog style

My Fall TV Fantasy Team

Reliving it

My weekend in a nutshell

So I need your help...

Cloudbug

Rekindling my WoWmance

Dinner with vampires

The new digs

RIP Smeldon 2007-2009

What 20sb means to me: my Vlog

A definite curve ball

Waves