Its My Life

An Ode

2011-12-03T02:26:00.001+05:30

Here I am after a long undecided break from my blog, I come back with a poem, written for someone very special to me. Every word that I say has a definite meaning. Read on.. :)

ITS YOU…

I wished for a beautiful friend,

And you swept me off my feet.

I wished for an angle,

And you walked into my life,

I looked in the night sky,

Wishing to find a star, as beautiful as you are,

The moon looked at me and said,

The star you are wishing for is in your heart.

I close my eyes,

The moment you cross my mind.

I skip a heartbeat,

And feel you are mine.

I take a deep breath,

You fill my senses with fragrance of ecstasy.

You make me drench in those beautiful eyes,

I would skip a heartbeat to be lost in them.

I want to feel you closer,

The most miraculous feeling ever,

When it would be you and me,

And nothing around us would make sense.

I wish I could hold you in my arms,

And watch the evening sun.

We would talk till the dawn,

And then fall asleep in each other’s arms.

I wanna laugh all my life,

On every funny thing that you say.

I wanna cry with you,

For everything that hurts you.

I wanna smile,

Just to see you for a while.

I wanna give everything that I have,

Just to see you the way you are.

You are,

The tune I love to sing.

The fragrance of flower I wish to be.

The smile that I wish to see.

How Good A Loser Are We??

2011-09-17T01:17:00.000+05:30

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We all want to live a happy life. A life that is full of success. Success plays such an important role in our life that we often take so many things for granted. In horde for success we lose at one major point “LOSING”, we are so much obsessed with achieving success that even a small set back makes us feel lost and frustrated.

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In life we face so many instances where we feel like things are really turned worse and we have no way out. We never have a thought that are the things that are bothering us and creating heck of frustration are really worth the attention that they are given. If you are a student losing out on your result, do you think sitting back and crying for what has happened will solve your problem. Do you think this would really make you feel better? Are you just frustrated because you feel in love with the wrong person and now have no way out of it! is this stress killing you? How big is your problem!!!

If you ask me, I would say your problem is as big as you make it. If you have failed. You have two ways to go. First, you can either think how God and other people had been unfair to you. This will create more hate in you for the people who really love and care for you. Secondly, you can accept that it was your mistake and realize it. This will let you see whole world with a new perspective.

Many of us really think that failures and hard time only come to us. We feel like God has always been unfair to us and leave’s us with more problems. Indeed we sometimes feel that we worked so hard and dedicatedly yet it we didn’t get expected result. For all of us who feel this way read the following paragraph.

The world around us is not a balanced one. Not everything in equilibrium. Newton’s law “Every action has equal and opposite reaction”, does not hold true for human emotions and interactions. You are not gonna get the equal results for all the hard work and dedication that you are giving. Sometimes you may be paid back with less rewards and sometimes you may be paid back bounty. So know that its all a cycle, everything that you have put in will someday reap rewards. God has never been unfair to anyone. You just need to know that someday you too will be the one who will reap rewards for all the efforts you have put in, and for that you should never lose FAITH.

Faith in yourself, Faith in GOD, Faith in everyone around you.. J

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The Truth I Never Spoke..

2011-09-09T01:08:00.000+05:30

It’s my story,

And it’s pretty sad one.

I wish I could say it positive way,

But I lost it today.

So with all the grief in my heart,

I give upon my fears.

I confess that I too am insecure,

I don’t fear the world, I fight with myself.

I pretend to be strong,

For this is how I can help the weak.

I pretend to be understanding,

With hope that I really understand myself.

Hard to go by insecure,

Hard to know that tomorrow will be just another day.

May be tomorrow will be the day when,

The person you trust the most turns away.

Every time I look at the person I love,

One thought crosses my mind,

Did she ever love me?

I turn away.

No I m not the one you loved,

I was the one friend you always wanted,

You always trusted,

You always had faith in.

I know I can’t be yours,

Who cares?

You are already mine,

You are the world to me.

I too had a heart break,

Sadly I never cried over it,

I said it was just a part of my life,

But I saw my life go into grave.

What difference does it make?

I am and always be.

My smile is my weapon,

And you my life.

I would do all what it takes,

To make you smile,

To make you happy.

To be with you now and forever.

Education- "Is this keyword of your Career?"

2011-04-29T00:46:00.003+05:30

Probably no word in the last few decades has got as much importance as the word “Education” has got. Ever since the technology has become part of our day today life education has got fitting appreciation. I don’t really mean to say before that education didn’t have importance, it was cup of tea of only a few distinguished people who did nothing but study about the stuff that interested them. Taking into account Einstein, he loved to explore theories related to space and time, so we got theory of relativity. Newton, The motion stuff interested him the most so we got Newton’s law of motion. Charles Darwin, he was interested in exploring various species of animals, we got Darwin’s Theory. Name any of the great people, you will find two things in common.

1. 1. They did what they loved to.

2. 2. They were never taught, they learnt it.

The first point in specific interests me a lot. We often find ourselves doing things we are asked to do and not because we love to do it. How productive and satisfying such a work can be? Not more than something which we really love to do. I am talking about education, so how many of us take up our career that interests us? I did ask this question to many people and surprisingly 90% of the people say they wanted to take up the career they are actually in. So we have 9 out of 10 people who are actually in love with their career, in other words their work, their life. Isn’t that a feel good factor? Then when we go down a little deeper and ask a person if he is really satisfied with things going in his life? 45% of people say NO! so the feel good factor comes down to 5 out of 10 from 9 out of 10!! Why is that, after all your career, profession, work has a major influence on your life.

Let me be practical. How many of us really think what education we get must be a foundation to our career. We hardly relate our education and career. Indeed we treat it as two different entities in most of the cases. I have even had my parents telling me what you learn in college is not what you are going to face in life thereafter. If your education doesn’t support your career what is really use of wasting 22 years of life? If that time was put in actually facing practical things in life you could have been lot wiser.

Some where I feel that what education we are given is below par the actual need. There is really no scope for training a student to face different circumstances and face challenges. What we are actually thought is how something is to be done. There is no explanation for why it needs to be done or what are the other ways it can be done. More over there isn’t real time to stand up and ask these questions. The people who top the class are too busy in digging notes from text and people who are relatively dumb cant really ask fearing the back fire from teachers. Amidst all of them are a few who really discover the art of relating education with career. Those who do that are one who deserve applaud. They do not care for what actually is happening around them, marks and ranks are no real bother for them. They feed their mind with the stuff that counts.

Being an engineer student, the bridging gap between the education thought in colleges and the post college life is increasing. Technically speaking, what we are taught today is already outdated a decade ago. Yet the fact is that there are some basics that really need to be learnt. I might be critical but its unbiased point of view of what I have felt. I will illustrate the “bridging gap” that leads to more mechanical living in my future blogs. Will also cover “they were never thought, they learnt it.”

So to conclude we aren’t so big to change the whole education system of the country. What we need to do is to realize our potential and interest from within, know what actually would go into career we are into and adopt all the necessary habits. If we learn to admire learning what we love to we will one day truly change our life.

The Art of Giving

2011-03-28T02:49:00.000+05:30

Ever wondered why some people are happier than others? Though some people are very rich, they are not content with their life! Having a so many friends around them still hovering alone? These all are aliments of being self centered person.

My life has been a good experience. I learnt "the art of giving" as I grew up from being a self centered person. I realized that my life was never my own and I owed a lot to my friends, family and everyone around. It was a hard to digest truth when I came to know that I was doing nothing for the people who had so much faith in me. I had to change if not for myself, at least for those who needed me.

It was October 2007, a friend of mine reveled a truth to me. The truth, hidden behind her ever charming face. She broke down in front of me saying “I am fed up with my life; I just want to give up”. I was breath less for a moment. How did I fail to realize what my friend was through? It was then I realized I had to be there for my friend no matter if she needs me or not. I decided to help her out and bring her back to life.

That marked the beginning of “The art of giving”. She never expressed that she needed someone to understand her, yet I sent out a dozens of motivating letters to her, shared all of my experience with her. She hardly replied to it. I had faith in myself and in my friend that someday I will bring her all the joys that she has failed to notice. Four years into it, I still go out to tell her all that I can to keep her happy. I don’t know how much difference I have been able to make in her life but I am happy that she appreciates that I have been one of her very good friends.

Ever since then I go out to help people who need me, though they don’t express they need me. Sometime I get to the wrong people who indeed criticize me for playing a spoilsport, but it is all part of game. You need to look at the positives rather than worrying about ignorable drawbacks.

I still remember my teacher who walked up to me and said “You have the potential to do something remarkable, you need to realize it”. I don’t know what exactly made him say that to me, we knew each other for just a week yet he made such a statement to me. Ever since then my attitude towards my life changed. I didn’t know that only one statement by a teacher would make such an impact on my life. To be frank if he had never said that to me, you wouldn’t have been reading this blog this very moment. He had “the art of giving”, he put up all his experience, observation, and skills into a single statement that had been a driving spirit of my life.

So next time you are with your friend take “the art of giving” with you. Realize what your friends needs from you. Some things are to be understood and never spoken. There are so many people who are making you happy yet you don’t know, so why not be one to spread happiness without expecting to be noticed.

We have very little time to live. What you earn will be with you till you die but what difference you make in others life will keep you alive in their heart.

Imagine the feeling you get when a friend of yours tweets you saying “hey dude m proud to be ur friend, you made a difference in my life, thank u”, the feeling that you get that very moment. I have had such an instance when I had written to my friend on her father’s death, she had been long telling me about her father and I had been convincing her with it. She was totally broken at her father’s death yet she promptly sent a reply to me. I am afraid I cannot share what she wrote in that letter, but after reading it I was surprised to know that I had made such an impact on her life. Though we are hardly in touch with her I adore her a lot.

I hope am able to keep up with “the art of giving” through this blog of mine. I want you all to be a person who makes a difference in others life. The more you give the more will come back to you. Trust me what comes back is two folds of what you have given. I wish I have been successful in bringing out that caring nature of yours through this blog.

If you have anything to share or ask please feel free to mail me, my email id gautamsawala@gmail.com, I look forward to to get prompt feedbacks both positive and negative. If you do like me to follow in future do subscribe me on this very page or keep checking in every week.

Thanks for your attention and patient reading.

A Day in My Life

2011-02-23T21:23:00.004+05:30

I am a very straight forward person, both with my attitude and words. This frank nature of mine has always got me into trouble, needless to say a bigger trouble every time. Yet I was never able to leave behind this habit of mine for sake of saving my image, for me the bitter truth is more important that a sweet lie.
It was technical fest at our college and I was among the organizers. The fest was on and everything was going well and good. I really enjoyed the variety events. I was not a active organizer so had a good chance to see how the fest was organized. I went around few places to see different events being held. One of them interested me and I hanged up to it till it got over at 7 in the evening. While I was going back, meanwhile there were some chairs lying there that were to be taken to other hall.
A senior called me and asked “You first semester?”
I said “No!”
He asked again “Fourth semester?”
I said “Ya!!”
His response then was “Send some 1st semester students to take these chairs downstairs.”
For a moment I felt like hitting his head on to the wall. There were two physically able guys, me and him there were just a few chairs I would have taken some he could have taken some, why on earth did he want some juniors to come over there and lift the chairs. Were they working for his family function!!
I got fumed and said “Look I am not gonna call any junior, if you want lets both of us take chairs and then call some juniors to pick the remaining. You cant stand this way and order!!”
He got angry with me and said “You shut up! And call the juniors”
I again quarreled with him and made him take chairs along with me. But as they say dog tail never gets straight, he dropped those chairs as soon as he saw a junior. Now this is a kind of leaders we have, one who make others to work and when its time to take credit, they take it all.
The second incident was even more frustrating.
We were to take the projector to the gallery hall which is at some distance from our dept. we had to carry the projector screen, speakers and projector. So I asked one of the seniors girls to take the speakers along with her as I was taking projector screen along with me. Her reply to it was annoying, she said
“Why should I take it? Call some junior from gallery hall to take it.”
Now I had to call a junior from gallery hall, and that guy would come all the way from there to take speakers and this madam will walk in fame of being senior and wave hands along the way. This was disgusting. There is limit for being stupid.
These incidents had made me feel sick. Soon I will be a senior and if I do the same to my juniors probably they would never speak about it but being in there place now I could know what it feels like!
So I did decide to go up this time and speak what for me was the truth. I spoke something very rude at feedback speech of our tech-fest and that didn’t go well with some of my seniors. I was very much frustrated, yet happy that I was not among those cowards who sit behind and blame the system and the people.
I was obstructed and asked to quit before I could complete.
Very soon after that speech of mine I got a message from my friend saying--
“What did you do Mr. Sawala?”
I replied—“I told what everyone had to tell but no one had dare to tell”
With this reply my cell beeped again—“You want people to know you, whether for good or bad!!”
For a moment I thought was it really for sake of letting people know who I am? They already know enough about me, moreover if I really had to make myself popular I would have praised them with honey coated words, telling that they were the best organizers in the entire universe. It would have never made a difference to me, rather would have helped my image in the department.
I had something else on my mind but not to get offensive I replied “I don’t know why I told it, but I really wanted to tell.”
What was on my mind then?—“I never wanted people to know me, I wanted them to know the truth. The truth which others did not want to speak up just to save their image. The truth which has gone un-noticed in the past and which has made the present worse. Everyone knows it but nobody wants to change it. The same problem is faced by our nation too, I am too small to think about it but I do what is within my reach.”
I went off that night with a feeling of being true to myself and to others too. No small work on the earth will make you small. There is always a sense of happiness in working together. I keep up my words.
I remember the time in our school when we were asked to clean the campus. No-one was interested, all of the teachers got together and initiated the cleaning. Looking at them ever student around started to pick up the litter. Within no time there was a competition of who would collect more scrap. Everybody was so much involved in the work that teachers finally had to drag them back to the classes. This is how a leader should be.
Hope someday all of them will understand that, its not all about taking responsibility its about owing yourself to the work.

Leading Life- "Your Way"

2011-01-18T15:13:00.000+05:30

A small question was hovering in my mind, why on earth have I feel that I am worth nothing. Whenever I looked at someone very famous and rich, I thought I have nothing in common with them. After reading a few of biographies and life stories of those famous people I understood one thing, “They were not born great, their attitude and determination made them so.”
We often come across people saying “Hard work is key to success.” When you look through the perspective of achieving your goals it is not the hard work alone that counts, going a step ahead I do say, hard work has little to do with you being successful. I make a stand on it and from the little experience I have I say there is something much more important than hard work, its “Smart Work”, its pity that many of us know how to work hard but very few of us who know how to work smart.
One thing that I found was very common among famous people like Bill Gates, Steve Jobs, Sergy Brin, etc was that they had an “Arrogant Attitude.” They never thought what others were doing or what others were thinking about them. This “I don’t care” term is very much useful in life if you want to achieve something in your life. This world is never short of critics and they try hard to push you away from your goals, just because they think it is not possible for them they make you feel its not possible for you. The don’t care attitude helps you to keep focus on what you want to achieve. As said “Noting is Impossible” , the joy of chasing the impossible is worth an experience.
One more thing that keeps us barred from our dream is our own thoughts. With a little trouble we end up losing hope, we break down and the confidence becomes null. It is not so, when you are to achieve something big, often there are small hiccups. They are not to make you “Give Up” they are meant to make you strong to face the future problems more boldly. Life always teaches us lesson in its own way.
So now that you know what you want out of your life. Set out and leave no stone unturned to achieve what you want. Give no thought to those who say you aren’t worth a pie. Because you are that one unique person whose abilities are limited to his own thoughts and nothing else. It’s your life, live it your way.

A true Friend

2011-01-13T20:04:00.000+05:30

One night when my friend got upset with me and said that she never wants me in her life again. I was broken; it felt like the whole world has turned down on me taking revenge from me for all the sins that i have committed. The world seemed so small that I felt there was no one I could go to now and share all the stupid little feeling that I used to share with my friend.
The word “friend” was never this painful before. Things that looked so simple, the small talks that we shared, the gestures that we exchanged, the little time we spent together, suddenly left an empty space in my life. Though nothing changed in life the absence of one person, made all the difference.
I decide to give it a break and let myself think about what exactly went wrong. In the beginning it was hard to recognize the mistake. The emptiness was growing deeper, killing my sense of understanding. The world around became so lifeless, it felt as if there was nothing that life had for me, except the sorrow and pain.
The misery was taking toll on me and it was just disgusting. I finally decided to take a step forward, look at the brighter side. Trust me, within a grasp of a second I found the solution to all the problems of my life. I realized, if I sit back and wait for things to set right, they gonna go worse. So I made up my mind to apologize for all the mistakes I have done and also the mistakes I haven’t done.
Its always hard to accept the mistake you have done and even harder to accept it. I set myself up and apologized for all the mistakes that I had done. I promised never to let my ego get over our friendship; I would never take things for granted. In a nick of a second all the anger that had been a reason for the sorrows in our life melted away. It was hard truth to accept.
That day I learnt a big lesson. I understood why we all fail to understand one fundamental of a good relationship. Its to admit your mistake, forgive others mistake and move on. There are many more things very important in a relationship than to hold on to someone’s mistake, and curse each other. Two people can never think alike, yet there is no gain in quarreling over difference of opinion. Instead we must understand the other person, learn and accept what is correct.
A true friendship is the one which is free from fight and quarrels, it’s the one in which the person is more important that those fights and quarrels.