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<?xml-stylesheet type="text/xsl" media="screen" href="/~d/styles/atom10full.xsl"?><?xml-stylesheet type="text/css" media="screen" href="http://feeds.feedburner.com/~d/styles/itemcontent.css"?><feed xmlns="http://www.w3.org/2005/Atom" xmlns:openSearch="http://a9.com/-/spec/opensearchrss/1.0/" xmlns:georss="http://www.georss.org/georss" xmlns:thr="http://purl.org/syndication/thread/1.0" xmlns:feedburner="http://rssnamespace.org/feedburner/ext/1.0"><id>tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7951799690283222296</id><updated>2010-10-28T06:11:52.953-07:00</updated><title type="text">Black and White In the World</title><subtitle type="html" /><link rel="http://schemas.google.com/g/2005#feed" type="application/atom+xml" href="http://mahasiswastempemdakaimana.blogspot.com/feeds/posts/default" /><link rel="alternate" type="text/html" href="http://mahasiswastempemdakaimana.blogspot.com/" /><author><name>didid irmawan sirfefa</name><email>dydbstboys@gmail.com</email></author><generator version="7.00" uri="http://www.blogger.com">Blogger</generator><openSearch:totalResults>10</openSearch:totalResults><openSearch:startIndex>1</openSearch:startIndex><openSearch:itemsPerPage>25</openSearch:itemsPerPage><atom10:link xmlns:atom10="http://www.w3.org/2005/Atom" rel="self" type="application/atom+xml" href="http://feeds.feedburner.com/blogspot/TrRq" /><feedburner:info uri="blogspot/trrq" /><atom10:link xmlns:atom10="http://www.w3.org/2005/Atom" rel="hub" href="http://pubsubhubbub.appspot.com/" /><feedburner:browserFriendly></feedburner:browserFriendly><entry><id>tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7951799690283222296.post-2158357968111604264</id><published>2010-10-28T06:11:00.001-07:00</published><updated>2010-10-28T06:11:52.961-07:00</updated><category scheme="http://www.blogger.com/atom/ns#" term="Obsessed with site speed" /><title type="text">Obsessed with site speed</title><content type="html">&lt;b style="color: blue;"&gt;Obsessed with site speed&lt;/b&gt;&lt;div style="color: blue;"&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;/div&gt;Recently i’ve been obsessed with site speed once again, and no, this is not because &lt;a href="http://www.reaper-x.com/2010/04/14/site-speed-is-a-factor-in-your-search-rankings/"&gt;Google site speed factor&lt;/a&gt;  that has been talked by various website recently, this is simply  because i just want this website to load as fast as possible for this  website visitors. Because i always believe that visitors will be pleased  if your website can be loaded quickly (and this is also apply to me  because i often close my browser tab whenever i visit a website and the  page seems to not load)&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;So what i’ve been  doing so far?&lt;br /&gt;Since  last week (or two weeks ago), i’ve testing and tweaking various part of  this site and also server side related stuff. But obviously if i have  to write all of them here it would be a very long post that is probably  not interesting to most of you. And don’t ask me on how many times i’ve  used &lt;a href="http://code.google.com/speed/page-speed/"&gt;Google Pagespeed&lt;/a&gt; and &lt;a href="http://developer.yahoo.com/yslow/"&gt;Yahoo YSLOW&lt;/a&gt; because i won’t be able to remember it&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;But  of course there’s always room for improvement for a small thing like  minimize dns lookup, and combining all the javascript and css used and  also switched to using css sprites to minimize HTTP requests, but  i’ll  save that for later until i know on how to use css sprites properly as  for minimize dns lookup, well i’ve been thinking on consolidating all  static files into a subdirectory but because i think it’d be a mess if i  have to put all of them in one place, i guess i’ll have to live with  additional dns lookup&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;And the result is … well i can’t say if i  were in your location, but if it’s for me (and my friend here), this  site loads really fast for me (and my friend too) despite i’m in a  location that is really far far away from the server location&lt;div class="blogger-post-footer"&gt;&lt;img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/7951799690283222296-2158357968111604264?l=mahasiswastempemdakaimana.blogspot.com' alt='' /&gt;&lt;/div&gt;&lt;img src="http://feeds.feedburner.com/~r/blogspot/TrRq/~4/pzHhnU6HuQc" height="1" width="1"/&gt;</content><link rel="replies" type="application/atom+xml" href="http://mahasiswastempemdakaimana.blogspot.com/feeds/2158357968111604264/comments/default" title="Post Comments" /><link rel="replies" type="text/html" href="http://mahasiswastempemdakaimana.blogspot.com/2010/10/obsessed-with-site-speed.html#comment-form" title="0 Comments" /><link rel="edit" type="application/atom+xml" href="http://www.blogger.com/feeds/7951799690283222296/posts/default/2158357968111604264" /><link rel="self" type="application/atom+xml" href="http://www.blogger.com/feeds/7951799690283222296/posts/default/2158357968111604264" /><link rel="alternate" type="text/html" href="http://feedproxy.google.com/~r/blogspot/TrRq/~3/pzHhnU6HuQc/obsessed-with-site-speed.html" title="Obsessed with site speed" /><author><name>didid irmawan sirfefa</name><email>dydbstboys@gmail.com</email><gd:extendedProperty xmlns:gd="http://schemas.google.com/g/2005" name="OpenSocialUserId" value="01026064395783507454" /></author><thr:total>0</thr:total><feedburner:origLink>http://mahasiswastempemdakaimana.blogspot.com/2010/10/obsessed-with-site-speed.html</feedburner:origLink></entry><entry><id>tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7951799690283222296.post-8817161443453250743</id><published>2010-10-28T06:09:00.000-07:00</published><updated>2010-10-28T06:09:33.104-07:00</updated><category scheme="http://www.blogger.com/atom/ns#" term="Just two" /><title type="text">Just when i thought that writing would be an easy task</title><content type="html">&lt;h1&gt;&lt;span style="font-size: large;"&gt;Just when i thought that writing would be an easy task&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/h1&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&amp;nbsp;Just when i thought that i could start posting again to this blog … i  had to moved to another city once again, and so there’s a delay until i  can get a new connection here. But now … when i got a new connection,  unfortunately&amp;nbsp;because it has been a loooong time since the last time i  wrote something, i just don’t have any ideas at all!&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;So what about  this post then? well basically it is just a rant from me because i’m  just so stressed because i don’t have any ideas to&amp;nbsp;write something  useful (or at least interesting to read) even after asking to Darkened  Linux, but it seems that he don’t have any ideas at all just like me :(&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;So  i guess for now i should just doing a little bit of reading here and  there on various websites or forums. Or perhaps if there’s&amp;nbsp;a kind  soul&amp;nbsp;reading this and got an idea (no matter what that is) on what the  next subject should be. Please leave a comment here :D&lt;br /&gt;Anway think  of this post as a writing practice for me again because i just started  writing again (and let’s just hope that i can get an idea by doing this)  :) but obviously if you got an idea just let me know ;)&lt;div class="blogger-post-footer"&gt;&lt;img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/7951799690283222296-8817161443453250743?l=mahasiswastempemdakaimana.blogspot.com' alt='' /&gt;&lt;/div&gt;&lt;img src="http://feeds.feedburner.com/~r/blogspot/TrRq/~4/0t6lP-aiYhg" height="1" width="1"/&gt;</content><link rel="replies" type="application/atom+xml" href="http://mahasiswastempemdakaimana.blogspot.com/feeds/8817161443453250743/comments/default" title="Post Comments" /><link rel="replies" type="text/html" href="http://mahasiswastempemdakaimana.blogspot.com/2010/10/just-when-i-thought-that-writing-would.html#comment-form" title="0 Comments" /><link rel="edit" type="application/atom+xml" href="http://www.blogger.com/feeds/7951799690283222296/posts/default/8817161443453250743" /><link rel="self" type="application/atom+xml" href="http://www.blogger.com/feeds/7951799690283222296/posts/default/8817161443453250743" /><link rel="alternate" type="text/html" href="http://feedproxy.google.com/~r/blogspot/TrRq/~3/0t6lP-aiYhg/just-when-i-thought-that-writing-would.html" title="Just when i thought that writing would be an easy task" /><author><name>didid irmawan sirfefa</name><email>dydbstboys@gmail.com</email><gd:extendedProperty xmlns:gd="http://schemas.google.com/g/2005" name="OpenSocialUserId" value="01026064395783507454" /></author><thr:total>0</thr:total><feedburner:origLink>http://mahasiswastempemdakaimana.blogspot.com/2010/10/just-when-i-thought-that-writing-would.html</feedburner:origLink></entry><entry><id>tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7951799690283222296.post-5780332035835825101</id><published>2010-10-28T06:07:00.001-07:00</published><updated>2010-10-28T06:07:57.668-07:00</updated><category scheme="http://www.blogger.com/atom/ns#" term="No more email delivered to your inbox from now on" /><title type="text">No more email delivered to your inbox from now on</title><content type="html">&lt;h1 style="color: #134f5c;"&gt;&lt;span style="font-size: large;"&gt;No more email delivered to your inbox from now on&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/h1&gt;&lt;br /&gt;As the title say, from now on … i’ll delete the entire email  subscriber that have subscribed to this blog. And the reason for that is  simple because from now on i’ll write post more often but … let’s say  that since most of them will probably be a random post that is not going  to be interesting to most of you (especially to those who are looking  for World of Warcraft related topic), i think the best way for me is  simply to turn off email subscription to all the previous subscribed  users to make sure that i’m not spamming any useless post to your inbox  (better be safe than sorry, right?) ;)&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;And so from now on, if you want to subscribe to receive blog updates, then you can do so by using various RSS Feed Readers like &lt;a href="http://www.newsgator.com/individuals/feeddemon/" rel="nofollow"&gt;FeedDemon&lt;/a&gt; if you prefer to use a desktop based program or you can also subscribe to this blog using &lt;a href="http://reader.google.com/" rel="nofollow"&gt;Google Reader&lt;/a&gt;, if you prefer to use web application and enter &lt;a href="http://www.reaper-x.com/feed" rel="nofollow"&gt;&lt;em&gt;http://www.reaper-x.com/feed&lt;/em&gt;&lt;/a&gt;  as the url for the rss feed. But of course you can always visit this  blog directly if you prefer to not using any programs to get updates  from this blog :D&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;And&amp;nbsp;if you still continue receiving updates from  this blog to your inbox after this post has been published (in case  there’s something wrong), please report it to me here on this post and  so i can fix it ASAP&lt;div class="blogger-post-footer"&gt;&lt;img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/7951799690283222296-5780332035835825101?l=mahasiswastempemdakaimana.blogspot.com' alt='' /&gt;&lt;/div&gt;&lt;img src="http://feeds.feedburner.com/~r/blogspot/TrRq/~4/EgRdPizmtdI" height="1" width="1"/&gt;</content><link rel="replies" type="application/atom+xml" href="http://mahasiswastempemdakaimana.blogspot.com/feeds/5780332035835825101/comments/default" title="Post Comments" /><link rel="replies" type="text/html" href="http://mahasiswastempemdakaimana.blogspot.com/2010/10/no-more-email-delivered-to-your-inbox.html#comment-form" title="0 Comments" /><link rel="edit" type="application/atom+xml" href="http://www.blogger.com/feeds/7951799690283222296/posts/default/5780332035835825101" /><link rel="self" type="application/atom+xml" href="http://www.blogger.com/feeds/7951799690283222296/posts/default/5780332035835825101" /><link rel="alternate" type="text/html" href="http://feedproxy.google.com/~r/blogspot/TrRq/~3/EgRdPizmtdI/no-more-email-delivered-to-your-inbox.html" title="No more email delivered to your inbox from now on" /><author><name>didid irmawan sirfefa</name><email>dydbstboys@gmail.com</email><gd:extendedProperty xmlns:gd="http://schemas.google.com/g/2005" name="OpenSocialUserId" value="01026064395783507454" /></author><thr:total>0</thr:total><feedburner:origLink>http://mahasiswastempemdakaimana.blogspot.com/2010/10/no-more-email-delivered-to-your-inbox.html</feedburner:origLink></entry><entry><id>tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7951799690283222296.post-3722779438451988488</id><published>2010-10-28T06:05:00.000-07:00</published><updated>2010-10-28T06:05:56.627-07:00</updated><category scheme="http://www.blogger.com/atom/ns#" term="Call of Duty Modern Warfare 2" /><title type="text">Call of Duty Modern Warfare 2 (COD MW2) Prestige Hack</title><content type="html">&lt;h1 style="color: blue;"&gt;&lt;span style="font-size: small;"&gt;Call of Duty Modern Warfare 2 (COD MW2) Prestige Hack&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/h1&gt;I have recently stumbled upon a rather incredible &lt;strong&gt;hack for the PS3 to allow Call of Duty: Modern Warfare 2 users to gain the 10th and final prestige&lt;/strong&gt; with a simple, risk free, ban free, easy to do, 5 minutes hack! Here is the guide.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;strong&gt;REQUIREMENTS:&lt;/strong&gt; &lt;em&gt;A  WORKING PS3, MODERN WARFARE 2, A FLASH DRIVE, INTERNET ACCESS AND A  COMPUTER! These may seem obvious but I have heard really stupid  questions before with THESE VERY obvious answers.&lt;/em&gt;&lt;br /&gt;1. Start out by downloading the hack at any of the following links:&lt;br /&gt;&lt;code&gt;&lt;a href="http://www.mediafire.com/?znme2muy4gd" rel="external nofollow"&gt;http://www.mediafire.com/?znme2muy4gd&lt;/a&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;a href="http://filebeam.com/158ec0a02aae386c8da88b405dcbcf81" rel="external nofollow"&gt;http://filebeam.com/158ec0a02aae386c8da88b405dcbcf81&lt;/a&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;a href="http://rapidshare.com/files/379010339/REAPER_MW2_PRESTIEGE_HACK_PS3.zip.html" rel="external nofollow"&gt;http://rapidshare.com/files/379010339/REAPER_MW2_PRESTIEGE_HACK_PS3.zip.html&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/code&gt;&lt;br /&gt;2. Once downloaded you will need to extract the files to any folder (I used my desktop).&lt;br /&gt;3.  Copy the entire PS3 folder onto your USB flash drive and run the Patch  Blocker file and press Start. (You will need to run as an Administrator  if on Windows 7 or Vista. If you still get any errors while running then  download Net Framework 1.1 at &lt;a href="http://www.microsoft.com/downloads/details.aspx?FamilyId=262D25E3-F589-4842-8157-034D1E7CF3A3&amp;amp;displaylang=en" rel="external nofollow"&gt;Microsoft Website&lt;/a&gt;&lt;br /&gt;4. Connect the USB Flash Drive into your PS3 and copy the two saves named REAPER_ERR and REAPER_PRST to your PS3.&lt;br /&gt;5.  Next you will need to go to your Game &amp;gt; Game Data Utility and delete  the Modern Warfare 2 data (No this does not delete saved game data only  patches and in the future map packs, but these can easily be  re-downloaded in a matter of minutes)&lt;br /&gt;6. Now you will need to go  to Settings &amp;gt; Network Settings &amp;gt; Internet Connection Settings and  select custom. Now leave all of your settings the same except for when  you get to the proxy settings. Select Use Proxy and enter the IP address  in the box in the Patch Blocker running on your computer and set the  port as 8080. (If you are running from behind a router than more than  likely your IP will start with 192.168.)&lt;br /&gt;7. Once done setting up your proxy hit ok &lt;strong&gt;BUT DO NOT TEST CONNECTION!&lt;/strong&gt;&lt;br /&gt;8.  Now go and sign in and start up Modern Warfare 2. Then select  Multiplayer and Play Online. Wait for all of your settings and online  stats to load up so you should be able to join a match&lt;br /&gt;9. Now go  to Split Screen and load up REAPER_ERR. You should get a black screen  with an error on it (This is good for once lol). Now go to LAN Party and  go to Barracks and Prestige (another error screen like last time is  good lol)!&lt;br /&gt;10. Now go back to Split Screen and load up REAPER_PRST (No error should appear) and go to online and prestige.&lt;br /&gt;11. You should now be on the 10th Prestige level 1.&lt;br /&gt;12.  Now you need to exit the game and go back to Settings &amp;gt; Network  Settings &amp;gt; Internet Connection Settings and pick custom. Then once  again leave everything the same except now change the Proxy settings to  DO NOT USE. Press ok and sign back in.&lt;br /&gt;13. Now all you have to do  is download a small 15MB update once you start Modern Warfare 2 back up  and you’ll be on your 10th Prestige! It is HIGHLY RECCOMENDED that you  sign back online ASAP and play at least one match so that you can be  saved to the leader boards and so there is no chance of you being  reverted back to your old prestige and level. Enjoy and we plan on  having more hacks soon!&lt;br /&gt;Post any comments or questions below! I will do my best to help you&lt;div class="blogger-post-footer"&gt;&lt;img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/7951799690283222296-3722779438451988488?l=mahasiswastempemdakaimana.blogspot.com' alt='' /&gt;&lt;/div&gt;&lt;img src="http://feeds.feedburner.com/~r/blogspot/TrRq/~4/GGocmp2244U" height="1" width="1"/&gt;</content><link rel="replies" type="application/atom+xml" href="http://mahasiswastempemdakaimana.blogspot.com/feeds/3722779438451988488/comments/default" title="Post Comments" /><link rel="replies" type="text/html" href="http://mahasiswastempemdakaimana.blogspot.com/2010/10/call-of-duty-modern-warfare-2-cod-mw2.html#comment-form" title="0 Comments" /><link rel="edit" type="application/atom+xml" href="http://www.blogger.com/feeds/7951799690283222296/posts/default/3722779438451988488" /><link rel="self" type="application/atom+xml" href="http://www.blogger.com/feeds/7951799690283222296/posts/default/3722779438451988488" /><link rel="alternate" type="text/html" href="http://feedproxy.google.com/~r/blogspot/TrRq/~3/GGocmp2244U/call-of-duty-modern-warfare-2-cod-mw2.html" title="Call of Duty Modern Warfare 2 (COD MW2) Prestige Hack" /><author><name>didid irmawan sirfefa</name><email>dydbstboys@gmail.com</email><gd:extendedProperty xmlns:gd="http://schemas.google.com/g/2005" name="OpenSocialUserId" value="01026064395783507454" /></author><thr:total>0</thr:total><feedburner:origLink>http://mahasiswastempemdakaimana.blogspot.com/2010/10/call-of-duty-modern-warfare-2-cod-mw2.html</feedburner:origLink></entry><entry><id>tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7951799690283222296.post-4444626974951573628</id><published>2010-10-28T06:04:00.000-07:00</published><updated>2010-10-28T06:04:09.984-07:00</updated><category scheme="http://www.blogger.com/atom/ns#" term="Website speed test" /><title type="text">List of Free Web Page Test (Website speed test)</title><content type="html">&lt;span style="color: blue;"&gt;List of Free Web Page Test (Website speed test)&lt;/span&gt; &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;As the title says, basically in this post i’ll be listing the free  web page test service that i often use to test this site for performance  (or other site performance). While some may argue that test like this   inaccurate compared to the real world situation, but well that’s depend  on your opinion of course, personally i find them useful to test site  performance. And obviously if i say free, that means it is free without  registration needed in order to use their service unless you want to go  with higher plan with some of the service listed here that will cost you  some money of course&lt;br /&gt;Anyway here’s the list of free web page test service&lt;br /&gt;&lt;h2&gt;&lt;strong&gt;Webpagetest&lt;/strong&gt; – &lt;a href="http://www.webpagetest.org/"&gt;http://www.webpagetest.org&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/h2&gt;Webpagetest  try to simulate on how fast your site loaded using Internet Explorer  7/8 from several location from US to China (although it’d be better in  my opinion if they also add support for other browser such as Firefox,  Safari or Google Chrome) and at the same time also capture on how your  site looks like to Internet Explorer users&lt;br /&gt;Other than that if you  prefer to see how fast your site loaded, you can also choose to record a  video of your site being loaded. So far this is the only service i know  that offer you to record a video of your site being loaded and also  give you a detailed checklist about every object found on your site from  Keep-Alive to ETag&lt;br /&gt;&lt;img alt="Webpagetest" height="173" src="http://images.reaper-x.com/blogs/2010/05/webpagetest.jpg" width="468" /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;h2&gt;&lt;strong&gt;Pingdom Tools&lt;/strong&gt; – &lt;a href="http://tools.pingdom.com/"&gt;http://tools.pingdom.com&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/h2&gt;Some  of you probably have heard about Pingdom before, because they’re well  known with their Website Monitoring Service. And fortunately other than  offering a free website monitoring service they also provide you with a  full page test to see how fast your site loaded using their simple Full  Page Test tool. Although the result is quite simple compared to the  service offered by webpagetest.org, but using Pingdom tools can get you  an idea on how your site loaded&lt;br /&gt;&lt;img alt="Pingdom" height="283" src="http://images.reaper-x.com/blogs/2010/05/pingdom.jpg" width="468" /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;h2&gt;&lt;strong&gt;Site-Perf&lt;/strong&gt; – &lt;a href="http://www.site-perf.com/"&gt;http://www.site-perf.com&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/h2&gt;Site-Perf  also offer the same service as Pingdom that allow you to see a  waterfall view of every object loaded on your page, with  options to  check from three different servers located in different region, and also  to adjust the bandwidth used to simulate different visitors connection  type and other option as well like Keep Alive, Gzip Compression and  referer plus  suggestions on how to improve your site performance&lt;br /&gt;&lt;img alt="Site-perf" height="170" src="http://images.reaper-x.com/blogs/2010/05/site-perf.jpg" width="468" /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;h2&gt;&lt;strong&gt;LoadImpact&lt;/strong&gt; – &lt;a href="http://www.loadimpact.com/"&gt;http://www.loadimpact.com&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/h2&gt;Unlike  other similar service, LoadImpact allow you to stress test your website  to see whether your site can handle the load if there are many visitors  connecting at the same time (free option only allow you to simulate up  to 50 users only). By using  LoadImpact you can get an idea on how your  server will perform if there are many visitors came to your site at the  same time, but of course if you just simply want to test your site  loading time, they also offer page analyzer with an option to change the  browser emulation to test your site speed&lt;br /&gt;&lt;img alt="Loadimpact - Page Analyzer" height="284" src="http://images.reaper-x.com/blogs/2010/05/loadimpact-pageanalyzer.jpg" width="468" /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;img alt="Loadimpact - Load Test" height="504" src="http://images.reaper-x.com/blogs/2010/05/loadtest.jpg" width="468" /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;h2&gt;&lt;strong&gt;GTMetrix&lt;/strong&gt; – &lt;a href="http://www.gtmetrix.com/"&gt;http://www.gtmetrix.com&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/h2&gt;GTMetrix  offer an interesting way for you to see your site score using score  given from the YSLOW and Google Pagespeed tool and obviously also list  which objects need optimization, so basically consider GTMetrix as  online YSLOW and Google Pagespeed test&lt;br /&gt;&lt;img alt="GTMetrix" height="186" src="http://images.reaper-x.com/blogs/2010/05/gtmetrix.jpg" width="468" /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;h2&gt;&lt;strong&gt;Webslug&lt;/strong&gt; – &lt;a href="http://www.webslug.info/"&gt;http://www.webslug.info&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/h2&gt;Webslug  probably offer the most interesting tool and fun tool because you can  engage your site in a battle against many other sites out there to see  which one is the fast&lt;br /&gt;&lt;img alt="Webslug" height="149" src="http://images.reaper-x.com/blogs/2010/05/webslug.jpg" width="468" /&gt;&lt;div class="blogger-post-footer"&gt;&lt;img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/7951799690283222296-4444626974951573628?l=mahasiswastempemdakaimana.blogspot.com' alt='' /&gt;&lt;/div&gt;&lt;img src="http://feeds.feedburner.com/~r/blogspot/TrRq/~4/LMJNX6vmpIw" height="1" width="1"/&gt;</content><link rel="replies" type="application/atom+xml" href="http://mahasiswastempemdakaimana.blogspot.com/feeds/4444626974951573628/comments/default" title="Post Comments" /><link rel="replies" type="text/html" href="http://mahasiswastempemdakaimana.blogspot.com/2010/10/list-of-free-web-page-test-website.html#comment-form" title="0 Comments" /><link rel="edit" type="application/atom+xml" href="http://www.blogger.com/feeds/7951799690283222296/posts/default/4444626974951573628" /><link rel="self" type="application/atom+xml" href="http://www.blogger.com/feeds/7951799690283222296/posts/default/4444626974951573628" /><link rel="alternate" type="text/html" href="http://feedproxy.google.com/~r/blogspot/TrRq/~3/LMJNX6vmpIw/list-of-free-web-page-test-website.html" title="List of Free Web Page Test (Website speed test)" /><author><name>didid irmawan sirfefa</name><email>dydbstboys@gmail.com</email><gd:extendedProperty xmlns:gd="http://schemas.google.com/g/2005" name="OpenSocialUserId" value="01026064395783507454" /></author><thr:total>0</thr:total><feedburner:origLink>http://mahasiswastempemdakaimana.blogspot.com/2010/10/list-of-free-web-page-test-website.html</feedburner:origLink></entry><entry><id>tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7951799690283222296.post-5446629652026047934</id><published>2010-10-28T06:01:00.000-07:00</published><updated>2010-10-28T06:01:25.869-07:00</updated><category scheme="http://www.blogger.com/atom/ns#" term="DNS" /><title type="text">DNS Made Easy Review</title><content type="html">&amp;nbsp;&lt;b style="color: blue;"&gt;DNS Made Easy Review&lt;/b&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;After reading great things about DNSMadeEasy on various forums,  finally I have decided that perhaps i should try using their service for  a few days to see on why many people recommend them for 3rd party DNS  Hosting, and thankfully they are offering 30 days trial to test their  service. And so for the past 5 days i’ve been using DNSMadeEasy services&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;As  you can expect from a paying DNS Hosting, you’ll get all the features  available right away even if you’re on trial account, from Vanity  Nameserver (create your own custom branded nameserver) to editing A  records, CNAME, MX, TXT, PTR, AAAA, SRV and also HTTP Redirection with  adjustable TTL for each record (up to 5 seconds as the lowest TTL) with  the only exception no DNS Failover unless you opt-in to use DNS Failover  or use their higher plan, and AXFR is also allowed if you choose to  allow AXFR request&lt;br /&gt;And just like other popular DNS Services your  monthly bill is based on how many queries your zone used, their lowest  option is $15 / year for 3 domains, with a total aggregate of 1 million  queries per month, and should you exceed their monthly queries limit,  you’ll have to pay additional 0.6 cent per 1000 queries although DNS  Made Easy beat other competitors in this area because they offer the  lowest pricing option&lt;br /&gt;What about their control panel you ask? Well  I have to say, their control panel is fine (not great but fine based  from it looks). But since I’m not sure whether they’d allow me to post a  screenshot here, I’d suggest you to create an account there and see it  for yourself (creating a new account will automatically give you trial  account with them)&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;In conclusion, during the past 5 days when I’m  still using DNSMadeEasy trial (with a total of 185,013 queries), i must  say that I am really impressed with their speed but obviously  performance would be great since they offer Anycast DNS, which is useful  for faster dns resolving but because this is just a simple blog, I  guess I’ll stick with free dns hosting for now. But of course if you  want faster dns lookup for your site, you should try using DNSMadeEasy  services because many people seems to forgot about the DNS Resolving  when it comes to speeding up their website (especially if your DNS is  hosted on bad network)&lt;div class="blogger-post-footer"&gt;&lt;img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/7951799690283222296-5446629652026047934?l=mahasiswastempemdakaimana.blogspot.com' alt='' /&gt;&lt;/div&gt;&lt;img src="http://feeds.feedburner.com/~r/blogspot/TrRq/~4/cWSvsxWcT-Y" height="1" width="1"/&gt;</content><link rel="replies" type="application/atom+xml" href="http://mahasiswastempemdakaimana.blogspot.com/feeds/5446629652026047934/comments/default" title="Post Comments" /><link rel="replies" type="text/html" href="http://mahasiswastempemdakaimana.blogspot.com/2010/10/dns-made-easy-review.html#comment-form" title="0 Comments" /><link rel="edit" type="application/atom+xml" href="http://www.blogger.com/feeds/7951799690283222296/posts/default/5446629652026047934" /><link rel="self" type="application/atom+xml" href="http://www.blogger.com/feeds/7951799690283222296/posts/default/5446629652026047934" /><link rel="alternate" type="text/html" href="http://feedproxy.google.com/~r/blogspot/TrRq/~3/cWSvsxWcT-Y/dns-made-easy-review.html" title="DNS Made Easy Review" /><author><name>didid irmawan sirfefa</name><email>dydbstboys@gmail.com</email><gd:extendedProperty xmlns:gd="http://schemas.google.com/g/2005" name="OpenSocialUserId" value="01026064395783507454" /></author><thr:total>0</thr:total><feedburner:origLink>http://mahasiswastempemdakaimana.blogspot.com/2010/10/dns-made-easy-review.html</feedburner:origLink></entry><entry><id>tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7951799690283222296.post-7081121384986000967</id><published>2010-10-28T05:59:00.000-07:00</published><updated>2010-10-28T05:59:52.231-07:00</updated><category scheme="http://www.blogger.com/atom/ns#" term="PCSX2" /><title type="text">How to use PCSX2 the Playstation 2 Emulator</title><content type="html">&lt;h1 style="color: blue; font-weight: normal;"&gt;&lt;span style="font-size: small;"&gt;How to use PCSX2 the Playstation 2 Emulator&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/h1&gt;Now im going to put some guide on how to configure PCSX2 to try out  the PS2 Emulator. And since few people are asking is their system can  play ps2, then the answer is no. You can’t actually play ps2 games on  your pc right now (dunno for a real high end system which is using Dual  Core Processor, SLI Graphics Card, etc, but to most users&amp;nbsp;just wait for  it), but if you want to help the PCSX2 team, you can do it by testing  out PCSX2 and reporting any bugs you found to them.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;span id="more-58"&gt;&lt;/span&gt;&lt;br /&gt;First  you must have PS2 Bios in order to try out the PCSX2 (you can find it  easily on the internet) ;) and dont forget to&amp;nbsp;put it into Bios  Directory&amp;nbsp;in your PCSX2 Directory&lt;br /&gt;and the next step would be  running the PCSX2 Executable and configure it like this (maybe&amp;nbsp;different  depending on your computer configuration, especially to those who are  using SSE2 Enabled Processor, such as Pentium 4, Athlon64, etc)&lt;br /&gt;1. Configuration Screen of PCSX2&lt;br /&gt;&lt;img alt="PCSX2 Configuration" src="http://images.reaper-x.com/blogs/scrpcxs2.jpg" /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;2. Graphic Plugin Configuration Screen&lt;br /&gt;&lt;img alt="PCSX2 Graphic Plugin" src="http://images.reaper-x.com/blogs/pcsx2-2.jpg" /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;3. Controller Configuration (since i dont own a joystick, im using Keyboard)&lt;br /&gt;&lt;img alt="PCSX2 Controller Plugin" src="http://images.reaper-x.com/blogs/pcsx2-3.jpg" /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;4. CDVD Plugin Configuration&lt;br /&gt;Note:  if you don’t have ASPI installed on your system use Win2k/XP IOCTL SCSI  Command and set it into your DVD Rom Drive (if you’re not using ISO  Image)&lt;br /&gt;&lt;img alt="PCSX2 CDVD Plugin" src="http://images.reaper-x.com/blogs/pcsx2-4.jpg" /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;5.  The next step would be putting your PS2 Games on your DVD ROM and  choose to Run CD from File Menu … and pray hope it’ll work :P and in my  case i was running Dragon Ball Z Budokai Tenkaichi PAL Version&lt;br /&gt;&lt;img alt="Dragon Ball Budokai Tenkaichi on PCSX2" src="http://images.reaper-x.com/blogs/tenkaichi-1.jpg" /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;img alt="Dragon Ball Budokai Tenkaichi Screenshot 2 on PCSX2" src="http://images.reaper-x.com/blogs/tenkaichi-2.jpg" /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;img alt="Dragon Ball Budokai Tenkaichi 2 PAL on PCSX2" src="http://images.reaper-x.com/blogs/db-tenkaichi2-1.jpg" /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;img alt="Final Fantasy 12 oin PCSX2" src="http://images.reaper-x.com/blogs/ff12pcsx2.jpg" /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;And that’s it … you’re finished ;)&lt;br /&gt;Note: If you got an error message saying &lt;em&gt;error opening gs plugin&lt;/em&gt;  or something like that, most likely you’re trying to use ZeroGS  Plugin&amp;nbsp;and your vga card is not a Pixel Shader 2.0 Capable Card (ZeroGS  require Pixel Shader 2.0 ++ Capable Card) .. and the only solution is  using GSDX Plugin as the graphic plugin or get a new graphic card&lt;div class="blogger-post-footer"&gt;&lt;img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/7951799690283222296-7081121384986000967?l=mahasiswastempemdakaimana.blogspot.com' alt='' /&gt;&lt;/div&gt;&lt;img src="http://feeds.feedburner.com/~r/blogspot/TrRq/~4/aMdWEufSjvo" height="1" width="1"/&gt;</content><link rel="replies" type="application/atom+xml" href="http://mahasiswastempemdakaimana.blogspot.com/feeds/7081121384986000967/comments/default" title="Post Comments" /><link rel="replies" type="text/html" href="http://mahasiswastempemdakaimana.blogspot.com/2010/10/how-to-use-pcsx2-playstation-2-emulator.html#comment-form" title="0 Comments" /><link rel="edit" type="application/atom+xml" href="http://www.blogger.com/feeds/7951799690283222296/posts/default/7081121384986000967" /><link rel="self" type="application/atom+xml" href="http://www.blogger.com/feeds/7951799690283222296/posts/default/7081121384986000967" /><link rel="alternate" type="text/html" href="http://feedproxy.google.com/~r/blogspot/TrRq/~3/aMdWEufSjvo/how-to-use-pcsx2-playstation-2-emulator.html" title="How to use PCSX2 the Playstation 2 Emulator" /><author><name>didid irmawan sirfefa</name><email>dydbstboys@gmail.com</email><gd:extendedProperty xmlns:gd="http://schemas.google.com/g/2005" name="OpenSocialUserId" value="01026064395783507454" /></author><thr:total>0</thr:total><feedburner:origLink>http://mahasiswastempemdakaimana.blogspot.com/2010/10/how-to-use-pcsx2-playstation-2-emulator.html</feedburner:origLink></entry><entry><id>tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7951799690283222296.post-2607437610617574849</id><published>2010-10-28T05:56:00.000-07:00</published><updated>2010-10-28T05:56:19.961-07:00</updated><category scheme="http://www.blogger.com/atom/ns#" term="PCSX2" /><title type="text">Benchmarking Multithreaded PCSX2</title><content type="html">&lt;span style="color: blue;"&gt;As most people probably know, PCSX2 is primarily a dual-thread application.  The two main threads are described as such:&lt;/span&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;ul&gt;&lt;li&gt;EE/Core thread emulates the PS2's EmotionEngine (including VIF, SIF, GIF, and VUs) and the IOP (including SPU2, CDVD, and PAD)&lt;/li&gt;&lt;li&gt;GS thread emulates the PS2's Graphic Synthesizer (includes texture swizzling, texture filtering, upscaling, and frame rendering)&lt;/li&gt;&lt;/ul&gt;Each thread relies on the other thread in some way -- the GS thread  cannot swizzle texture data until the EE thread has uploaded said data,  for example.  Meanwhile, the EE thread cannot upload texture data to the  GS thread if the GS thread is currently bogged down rendering last  week's frame to video.  During these periods, either thread will &lt;em&gt;sleep&lt;/em&gt;, only to be woken up once the other thread has caught up in its workload.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;In theory the act of sleeping the EE/GS threads should make benchmarking  the CPU load registered by each thread pretty easy: all modern  operating systems have built-in APIs for reading the busy/idle time of  any thread on the system -- this is the same API used by your tried and  true task/process manager, for example:&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;a href="http://forums.pcsx2.net/attachment.php?aid=25630" rel="lightbox"&gt;&lt;img alt="[Image: attachment.php?aid=25629]" src="http://forums.pcsx2.net/attachment.php?aid=25629" /&gt;&lt;/a&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;span style="font-size: 9pt;"&gt;&lt;em&gt;(Air shows off his personal favorite, &lt;a href="http://technet.microsoft.com/en-us/sysinternals/bb896653.aspx"&gt;ProcessExplorer&lt;/a&gt;, part of the &lt;a href="http://technet.microsoft.com/en-us/sysinternals/default.aspx"&gt;SysInternals Suite&lt;/a&gt;)&lt;/em&gt;&lt;/span&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;This readout is simple, efficient, and seemingly reliable.  It also  avoids a lot of the annoying pitfalls one runs into trying to use common  alternatives such as &lt;a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Time_Stamp_Counter"&gt;rdtsc&lt;/a&gt; and &lt;a href="http://msdn.microsoft.com/en-us/library/ms644904.aspx"&gt;QueryPerformanceCounter&lt;/a&gt;.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;... and this is precisely the method I decided to use for PCSX2  0.9.7.r3113 (and still in use as of r3878).  Simple theory really: if  the GS thread is sleeping a lot (low load) then the game is bottlenecked  by EE/Core thread activity.  If the EE thread is sleeping a lot and the  GS thread reports 90+%, then the GS thread is the bottleneck (a problem  often correctable through using lower internal resolutions, for  example).&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;But as I've recently found out, it doesn't work as expected.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;span style="font-size: 11pt;"&gt;&lt;strong&gt;It's filled with... threads!&lt;/strong&gt;&lt;/span&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;The immediate problem faced by this simple method of load detection is  that the latest wave of Windows Vista/7 GPU drivers themselves &lt;em&gt;&lt;strong&gt;are multithreaded&lt;/strong&gt;&lt;/em&gt;.   It should have come as little surprise that one of the primary goals  of the new DWM/Aero/DX11 systems implemented into Vista/7 is scalable  parallel processing that takes better advantage of modern multi-core  CPUs.  Why this causes the OS built-in thread load detection to fail  might be less obvious; I'll explain with an example:&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;When the GPU driver receives a directive to render the current scene  (aka 'Present' in DirectX lingo), it sends the job to a thread dedicated  to the task.  That thread has a &lt;em&gt;Present Queue&lt;/em&gt;, typically 1 or 2  frames deep, that automatically handles triple buffered vsync'd page  updates.  If the queue is full when the PCSX2 GS thread issues its next  Present request, the &lt;strong&gt;GPU driver will put the GS thread to sleep&lt;/strong&gt;  until a slot in the Present Queue becomes available.  End result: The  GS thread reports idle time to the operating system (and to PCSX2's GS  window), but the GPU is still quite overloaded and bottlenecked via work  supplied to it by a different thread altogether.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;In essence, it is nearly the same sort of inter-thread dependence that  the EE/Core and GS threads have between each other, only now the EE/Core  thread's dependency chain extends to include GS &lt;em&gt;and&lt;/em&gt; GPU driver threads (of which there could be one or many).&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;The solution to this problem is to use a more traditional method of  manual load checking: timing various sections of code executed in-thread  via either the aforementioned rdtsc (timestamp) or  QueryPerformanceCounter, read at key points in the GS thread's  execution/program flow.  This wasn't such a great idea a few years ago,  due to K8/Athlon and P4 generation CPUs lacking a stable internal clock  counter.  Fortunately, all modern CPUs have a consistent counter  suitable for benchmarking, so the pitfalls that have been long  associated with using Intel/AMD timestamps are finally obsolete enough  to not be a concern for us here.&lt;div class="blogger-post-footer"&gt;&lt;img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/7951799690283222296-2607437610617574849?l=mahasiswastempemdakaimana.blogspot.com' alt='' /&gt;&lt;/div&gt;&lt;img src="http://feeds.feedburner.com/~r/blogspot/TrRq/~4/WVwKPsvQ8Ko" height="1" width="1"/&gt;</content><link rel="replies" type="application/atom+xml" href="http://mahasiswastempemdakaimana.blogspot.com/feeds/2607437610617574849/comments/default" title="Post Comments" /><link rel="replies" type="text/html" href="http://mahasiswastempemdakaimana.blogspot.com/2010/10/benchmarking-multithreaded-pcsx2.html#comment-form" title="0 Comments" /><link rel="edit" type="application/atom+xml" href="http://www.blogger.com/feeds/7951799690283222296/posts/default/2607437610617574849" /><link rel="self" type="application/atom+xml" href="http://www.blogger.com/feeds/7951799690283222296/posts/default/2607437610617574849" /><link rel="alternate" type="text/html" href="http://feedproxy.google.com/~r/blogspot/TrRq/~3/WVwKPsvQ8Ko/benchmarking-multithreaded-pcsx2.html" title="Benchmarking Multithreaded PCSX2" /><author><name>didid irmawan sirfefa</name><email>dydbstboys@gmail.com</email><gd:extendedProperty xmlns:gd="http://schemas.google.com/g/2005" name="OpenSocialUserId" value="01026064395783507454" /></author><thr:total>0</thr:total><feedburner:origLink>http://mahasiswastempemdakaimana.blogspot.com/2010/10/benchmarking-multithreaded-pcsx2.html</feedburner:origLink></entry><entry><id>tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7951799690283222296.post-5788180073706485068</id><published>2010-10-28T05:52:00.000-07:00</published><updated>2010-10-28T05:52:04.730-07:00</updated><category scheme="http://www.blogger.com/atom/ns#" term="Walking in a winter wonderland" /><title type="text">Walking in a winter wonderland</title><content type="html">&lt;h3 class="post-title entry-title"&gt; &lt;/h3&gt;&lt;div class="post-header"&gt;  &lt;/div&gt;&lt;div class="post-body entry-content"&gt; &lt;/div&gt;&lt;div class="post-body entry-content"&gt;&lt;img alt="" border="0" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5282840510242412994" src="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_zbhZqvcfLQs/SVBrdFIK2cI/AAAAAAAAArg/RGXxOc9Tx3s/s400/winter+wonderland.jpg" style="cursor: pointer; display: block; height: 400px; margin: 0px auto 10px; text-align: center; width: 300px;" /&gt;&lt;/div&gt;&lt;div class="post-body entry-content"&gt;&lt;/div&gt;&lt;div class="post-body entry-content"&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Happy Winter all!&lt;br /&gt;It  seems as if most of the US has had a taste (like it or not) of winter  wonderland.  The fresh blanket of snow has really brought the Christmas  spirit to the Hudson Valley and I'm loving it!  Lots to celebrate this  season--finished student teaching ( have an interview for a long term  sub position coming up, keep your fingers crossed!), sold a few prints  on Etsy and have become a part of the awesome Amy team (a bunch of great  cheerleaders!!) and of course I have a wonderful husband who's been my  support system in so many ways and an affectionate cat that keeps me  warm and entertained!&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;a href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_zbhZqvcfLQs/SVBrcrdKowI/AAAAAAAAArQ/rWigRKIsTmE/s1600-h/rupert+hates+snow.jpg"&gt;&lt;img alt="" border="0" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5282840503351157506" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_zbhZqvcfLQs/SVBrcrdKowI/AAAAAAAAArQ/rWigRKIsTmE/s400/rupert+hates+snow.jpg" style="cursor: pointer; display: block; height: 400px; margin: 0px auto 10px; text-align: center; width: 300px;" /&gt;&lt;/a&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Speaking of the Amys in the Arts team, we've been fortunate to be chosen for a few treasuries up &lt;a href="http://www.etsy.com/treasury_list.php?room_id=27929"&gt;here&lt;/a&gt; and &lt;a href="http://www.etsy.com/treasury_list_west.php?room_id=36847"&gt;here&lt;/a&gt; if you can make it before they close!  I've also been the featured Amy of the week &lt;a href="http://sewartsyblog.blogspot.com/2008/12/new-featured-amy.html"&gt;here&lt;/a&gt; and &lt;a href="http://amys-in-the-arts.blogspot.com/2008/12/sewartsys-featured-amy_19.html"&gt;here&lt;/a&gt;.  Many thanks to SewArtsy for putting that together!!&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;a href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_zbhZqvcfLQs/SVBrc6Qo3TI/AAAAAAAAArY/XC3TXb8asuQ/s1600-h/winter+creek.jpg"&gt;&lt;img alt="" border="0" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5282840507325144370" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_zbhZqvcfLQs/SVBrc6Qo3TI/AAAAAAAAArY/XC3TXb8asuQ/s400/winter+creek.jpg" style="cursor: pointer; display: block; height: 400px; margin: 0px auto 10px; text-align: center; width: 300px;" /&gt;&lt;/a&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Here's to a happy holiday to all you readers, passerbys and such!  Thanks for stopping by!  Hope you'll be back in the new year!&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;a href="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_zbhZqvcfLQs/SVBrcefxs0I/AAAAAAAAArI/rBWVF6kARas/s1600-h/frost+window.jpg"&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/div&gt;&lt;div class="blogger-post-footer"&gt;&lt;img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/7951799690283222296-5788180073706485068?l=mahasiswastempemdakaimana.blogspot.com' alt='' /&gt;&lt;/div&gt;&lt;img src="http://feeds.feedburner.com/~r/blogspot/TrRq/~4/wWIjgQ1Ihvo" height="1" width="1"/&gt;</content><link rel="replies" type="application/atom+xml" href="http://mahasiswastempemdakaimana.blogspot.com/feeds/5788180073706485068/comments/default" title="Post Comments" /><link rel="replies" type="text/html" href="http://mahasiswastempemdakaimana.blogspot.com/2010/10/walking-in-winter-wonderland.html#comment-form" title="0 Comments" /><link rel="edit" type="application/atom+xml" href="http://www.blogger.com/feeds/7951799690283222296/posts/default/5788180073706485068" /><link rel="self" type="application/atom+xml" href="http://www.blogger.com/feeds/7951799690283222296/posts/default/5788180073706485068" /><link rel="alternate" type="text/html" href="http://feedproxy.google.com/~r/blogspot/TrRq/~3/wWIjgQ1Ihvo/walking-in-winter-wonderland.html" title="Walking in a winter wonderland" /><author><name>didid irmawan sirfefa</name><email>dydbstboys@gmail.com</email><gd:extendedProperty xmlns:gd="http://schemas.google.com/g/2005" name="OpenSocialUserId" value="01026064395783507454" /></author><media:thumbnail xmlns:media="http://search.yahoo.com/mrss/" url="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_zbhZqvcfLQs/SVBrdFIK2cI/AAAAAAAAArg/RGXxOc9Tx3s/s72-c/winter+wonderland.jpg" height="72" width="72" /><thr:total>0</thr:total><feedburner:origLink>http://mahasiswastempemdakaimana.blogspot.com/2010/10/walking-in-winter-wonderland.html</feedburner:origLink></entry><entry><id>tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7951799690283222296.post-7634673365955521289</id><published>2010-10-28T05:49:00.000-07:00</published><updated>2010-10-28T05:49:31.608-07:00</updated><category scheme="http://www.blogger.com/atom/ns#" term="Post partum catch up" /><title type="text">Post partum catch up</title><content type="html">&lt;h3 class="post-title entry-title"&gt; &lt;span style="color: #0c343d;"&gt;Post partum catch up&lt;/span&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;/h3&gt;&lt;div class="post-header"&gt;  &lt;/div&gt;So here we are again.  Facing another fall, another start of a school  year subbing.  The past few months (let's say 7 and a half, almost 8)  have been jam packed with enough drama, conflict and happiness to last,  well, the last few months.  I warn you now (as maybe I didn't say enough  before)--do NOT, under any circumstances have a baby and buy/move into a  house in need of a few repairs simultaneously.  That is unless you live  for that sort of thrill.  Seriously.  For. Real.  I'm only just  starting to come out on the other side and I think I left half my sanity  back there.  Part of me wants to go back to claim it but maybe it's  just better to be happy with the little bit I have now.  It works like  those lizards' tails that fall off and grow back, right?  Right?!&lt;div&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;/div&gt;&lt;div&gt;I  felt like this summer either crawled by or streaked past me.  I went  back to subbing the last month of school which was good to get out of  the house and not feel like a total financial suck.  But then, Elinor  turned into a baby, a real baby.  One that cooos and talks back and bats  her huge doe eyes and starts to learn to roll over and do things other  than sleep and eat and poop.  So I stayed home for the summer because  why miss this?!  Hubby seemed set in his day to day schedule of work and  working on the house on his days off and maybe climbing or going for a  motorcycle ride.  I mean, I could do everything else.  No problem.  I've  seen it done before.  &lt;/div&gt;&lt;div&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;/div&gt;&lt;div&gt;Boy o boy-flash forward  to my life as a twisted 1950's family sitcom except my pearl necklace  is stashed in the back of my underwear drawer and most of the time I  wore the same outfit the whole week.  The best accomplishments of the  day were getting a load of laundry done.  Maybe vaccuuming the rug my  child was learning to crawl on.  I've never hated myself and my husband  so much.  Truly we were at a major crux in our relationship and one you  couldn't easily walk away from.&lt;/div&gt;&lt;div&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;/div&gt;&lt;div&gt;I will say  this.  I am grateful for the "mommy meetings" I had once a week which  made me feel, if only temporarily, that I wasn't alone in this  situation, these feelings.  It makes me so much more protective of newer  mommies that I know, because I don't want them to feel those same  overwhelming feelings.  That one really needs a network of support not  just when the baby is born or a few weeks after but consistently, on a  day to day basis.  I felt so good the first few months of Elinor's life  because things seemed to be falling in place with the house and our new  family.  Elinor was a good portable baby and she basically fell into  step with me.  But this summer kicked my ass in being at home.  Elinor's  sleeping schedule changed.  She got heavier.  She learned how to move  more.  She fussed.  I've lost more weight because I couldn't get enough  to eat.  I'm exhausted and bored and unmotivated.  Mothering in this  society can be very isolating and I'm already bad at asking for help.&lt;/div&gt;&lt;div&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;/div&gt;&lt;div&gt;So  where are we now?  I've identified that I need help in the first place  and to not overload my expectations of myself.  Since I've gone back to  work, things seems easier.  I seem slightly happier.  There's more of a  finite schedule built in.  But I can't let this lull me into a false  sense of "everything's worked itself out".  I know the feelings will  come back.  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