Poem's From Experiences

Union

2025-01-07T12:59:00.001+08:00

I need you, a word I wanna to say

When I'm missing you when days are gray

A place which is a person

You call it home around the horizon

Spaces between us has grown

So much that it starts, so alone

Voids and black holes that we need to fill
Since we should pause and refill

The sun will seize to shine

When love is not yours and mine

Aching hurting to be beside you

Like a supernova we always do

Stars are nothing without the moon

Gazing at it across and soon

Our eclipse would mix

The us will be connected in a bliss

The Universe has conspired

As to this passion we are inspired

We seek each other through space and time

Still the pride on one side cannot hide

Ascend

2024-12-31T17:54:00.006+08:00

You are mine, my hearts says out loud

Looking at you with grace and proud

Rise and meet me at my level
Because you know you should not settle

I'm waiting for you
I will always do
Hoping you haven't forgoten my promise to you dear

That even if the world ends, I will always be here

Forever forever your still the one

Nights of solace has begun

I can still see your smiling face

Before I sleep and waking up to my amaze

I hear your voice and it hunts my soul
Singing the songs of making me whole

Remembering all the passions we shared

So hot and alluring while we stayed in bed

Waking up beside you was a dream

The scent of your hair I always gleam
How I wish for you to finally see

That you and I are meant to be

Transmute

2024-12-25T16:26:00.006+08:00

Now as I step into a new phase

Life of solitude to run this race

I know exactly what I have to do
Work on this challenge to shake the blue

Shifting the time line once again

Forward and onward, again and again

Building once more what was put on hold

For creating lost and gain is geting too old

I lived a couple of lifetimes to be wise

Each chapter I knew, the ending and the price

I was so naive and tried to control it

Hoping to redo the outcome for it to fit

Alas I knew that it was not going well

I tried to see if it would come out of the shell

But force was not the case of usage
And it was only then, to let it be was the message

How I was cringing to make it work
Effort and time for what it deserve

Still this is another ending to accept

A season of change that I need to adept

Timeless Love

2024-12-20T16:24:00.006+08:00

Surviving each single day without you

Is so heartbreaking, a painful view

If I was the one that could make it work

Our love would be endless, I would smirk

Bring me back into your life

My wishful thinking as I strive

I keep seeing your face everywhere

Your voice your touch, I need you here

I feel that we have loved each other before

Like I've known you for so long to the core

Lifetimes after lifetimes I believe we've met

And share a lot, that it caught up to the present

This kind of love feels like a mission

I cannot find myself loosing this connection

Each single day your always on my mind

I try to look for you everywhere, I cannot find

Reminiscing on our memories together

The photos of us showing the best in all weathers

But then our hearts got hurt and bleed
My forever forever is hanging on a thread

Grief & Sorrow

2024-12-18T11:42:00.008+08:00

A silent weep a lingering moment

Mere thoughts of you and atonement

Words express not, my feelings right now

Resentment and hate, but how?

My soul is screaming hurting in pain

Cries that falls down together with the rain

I scream out loud only in my brain
Suffering so much I cannot explain

For maybe I've lost a part of me

A vital piece which I gave so freely

The imporantance of it she did not see

Time and Loyalty is too expensive to thee

I regret that I've loved so much

It ate me alive and got crushed

The days spent and memories together

Was washed and thrown away like it didnt matter

And now waiting as it hunts my soul
Physically and mentally it took its toll

Death has claimed me and now I fall

Burying my oldself and will never recall

Disintegration

2024-12-12T16:18:00.012+08:00

Tears rush down each time I feel an ache

As to the person that I knew was nothing but a fake

I often find my self breaking down

Loosing emotional control is bound

My soul is screaming of the pain that you brought

A loud cry so silent, could only be heard in your thoughts

Like an butcher knife that can cut your flesh and bones

So agonizing and excruciating that you need to own

I prayed to God to take this pain away

As to its killing me inside out in both ways

The mental struggles that I need to endure

Forgeting it all, because my love was pure

The broken promises and inconsistency

Left me hanging and floating on this tears of sea

Crying my heart out to release it all

Bringing my self back each time I fall

Shaking, shivering, wondering and consoling oneself

Alone in my room trembling is all I felt

Consumed by fears resentment and anxiety
Guess this is all for me to take to see clarity

Breach of Faith

2024-12-05T11:01:00.004+08:00

The day you showed me your betrayal

Is the time that strayed me away from you, a portrayal

The agony which I was not able to process

The hate that accumulated, all feelings into ashes

I was still trying and hoping going sober

But alas you showed me your true color

The innocences in your face that deceived me

The thought of you not doing things that was previously done onto me

The torture and un explainable pain I endured

The view of it burns my eyes wishing I was blind

I was so dumb founded by your smile

That it never crossed my mind that you would be that kind

I was losing my patience, and holding it in

The inner strength that I took from the beginning

To keep myself at bay was so straining

I cannot keep up with this pace of shaming

All I wanted was to explode in anger

And go outrage to everything, be the danger

Wasting all that hinders that has no say

Crashing everything that stands in my way

I was so consumed by this element

It was not so me as I intended

The peace in my head was washed out

The calm and collected goes out loud

As this path where it leads me through

A place that I must pursue

A distant location to reflect

The nirvana to make the life back in effect

Lost of Lost

2024-12-03T12:29:00.003+08:00

A version of me which I try to hide

Was triggered and put out in sight

The beast that I was holding in

Was freed by the person I trusted with it.

The tolerance and chances that I gave

The goodness in every thing I save

The hope of change that I always crave

The you I dreamed to be so brave

I can now only see the damage done

The devistation of my self as one

I lost my peace with in me

I was at war with my self litterally

I never thought that it would be like this

Emotionaly draining and so de evaluating

The nonsense and drama

The accusation and karma

I thought I found the love that I sought

I thought it was true that I fought

But alas this was not real

But my feelings was so profound in this deal

I hate what I've become

As to anger and hate I succumed

I lost my way in the light

I wondered into the darkeness and take flight

Pain in Silence

2024-11-26T10:55:00.014+08:00

When the day I started to move on

There was doubt, a feeling of hesitation;

I thought I would never break free

But then, I was able to see

As the days passes by

feeling that it will be fine;

But as I thought of it getting better

The situation gets worser

Remembering the joy and the pain

Recalling the best and the worst gains;

The more I realize the mistakes

Which time was wasted for a love that was fake

Before I was blinded by love

That I thought it was too much have;

But little did I know

Gaslighting and manipulation did show

I did see all the red flags

But I was so naive to keep it un tagged;

It was my fault to fail in this situation

Was blindsided in this invitation

I crashed and burn which I cannot help

Realization is the day I found my self;

So as I wake up from this nigthmare of a dream

Scattered pieces of me, flowing like a stream

Beautiful Torment

2024-10-31T14:04:00.015+08:00

As my day starts to unravel

I can feel the ache carve in my heart in this travel;

Another day of anguish and pain

Another day of lost and gain

You broke me into a million pieces more.

Like grains of sands that is scattered on the floor;

Sulking, crying, scared, broken and deficit

I'm trying to put together what is left of it

I'm suspended in the eternity of longing and heart ache

Trapped in the future we build in this break;

It was brutal for me letting all of that go

It kills me inside, just taking each blow

Lately I just realize how badly you treated me

I asked, begged and pleaded for mercy;

Yet you were cruel, unjust in my eyes of faith

All the pain build up and started to became hate

The trauma of the experience of what you gave

The PAIN was so intense, it almost took me to the grave

I never thought you would hurt me so bad

That it feels like a thousand knives stabs to my heart

All I did was love you with all of my heart

Took care of you and gave what you need from the start

If this is how you love me in return

I have taken it whole heartedly until i burn

Mesmerized

2024-10-12T14:21:00.002+08:00

As I wake up and see your beautiful face

A gentle breeze in a warm place

I held you close right into my arms

An embrace so tight saving you from harm;

Feeling your breath around thee

Whispering saying stay with me

Kissing your fore head and cheeks

Like a butterfly saying I love you as it leaps;

Watching you sleep into the night

A subtle peace that is quite alright

Seeing your vulnerable state

Yet clinging, holding me not to wake;

I dream't that we were flying

soring high and both smiling

So I lay here beside you is a must

While the moon shine its rays on us;

I smiled and thank my lucky stars

That my love is here and not afar

So as this moment keeps us together

Our love and bond will always be forever;

The Perfect Match

2024-08-30T04:16:00.002+08:00

When love came in front of me

I saw an image of you that we we meant to be

The glow that shines in you eyes

Which took me aloft and start to fly

For the love I thought would never come

Because I lost all hope when I fall in frown

I cannot believe that all of this is happening

That the new life I have with you is no my begining

I knew that when you came around

This world of mine would stop and had a clear sound

This was so perfect with the right timing

That each move I take was a good feeling

Days was so fine as we spent

Moments Together, Memories we would never forget

The feeling of joy which we found

The smile you put on my facee that was so profound

To show my gratitude which I always give

A point to where I show my thanks to you for I live

My life is now a whole because of thee

An event to which I didn't foresee

Love was so good as it came from you

A piece of me that was complete by you

I cannot imagine my days with you

For the gift you gave was my life from you

My Shell

2024-07-18T11:17:00.020+08:00

Once I found someone I was not expecting

I picked her up and move as it starts to cling

An icon of a lowest of low

A piece of a whole that cannot grow

A soul that was needing uplifting

A spirit that was crushed by life’s beating

I found her in the deepest steams

A hopeless situation as what it may seem

The load was too much on her toll

The weight was un bearable and she crawls

A path where the light was shunned by darkness

A place where everything in the mind that has no rest

I took her by heart when I found her

Nurtured and help her grow to be fair

I gave her light and love

The basic things that everyone must have

Where I found her was very nostalgic

As to I was once in that area of tragic

But I was strong enough to break loose

That is why I help her and gaved her a push

Aking Princessa

2024-06-23T16:00:00.002+08:00

I was amazed that you are a Princess

In another world and also priceless

I cannot offer a life of luxury and gold

I'm just a simple man trying to be bold.

Yet I fallen for you with your beautiful smile

Your long black brown red hair which I love your style

The soothing voice of calmness and peace

The funny jokes which you can only release.

I was bewitch with your simplicity and charm

Cannot forget details about your warmth

A princess worthy of a prince

But I'm just me how can I convince?

As I try to picture you in my mind

A lot of flash backs I find

You have always flooded my thoughts

Day and night that is why I given you the cross.

Still I love you with all my heart

It may not be enough and could keep us apart

Kakayanin ko to, para sayu I will keep on trying

Proving to you that you are worth waiting.

This Woman

2024-05-14T15:36:00.004+08:00

Each time I see her along my way

Time stops before I can say hey!

I wanted to know your beautiful name

So I can call you like my flame

But time passes, still courage is missing

As the day goes dull like not living

A moment in time where all stands still

Seconds of regret becoming a bill

Love was just around the corner waiting to be true

Getting delayed without any pursue

Time was likely not yet on our side

Spaces that in the mind that keeps you bind

At last time gave us the chance

We meet and greet with our first glance

The sparkle in her eyes I cannot forget

Like the stars in the sky before the sun set

This time not a second too late

For this the future that we must create

Because if you let this slip away

Then forever forever will never stay

Falling in Love

2023-11-27T15:40:00.000+08:00

Our yesterday has gotten so far away

But it always comes back to me again

Because of your light now it stays with me

Like precious time that can’t return

Days with long loneliness

Softly, your breath blew over

Your destiny took a step closer to me

Brought me words I could never say

Always stay by my side like yesterday’s warm dream

You are my love

Roads that were filled with emptiness

Because you’re with me, now I’m happy

You are my love now I can’t hide my heart

This love has filled me

And now I’ll give it to you, destiny took a step closer to me

My only love, I love you

I close my eyes but I still see you

Always stay by my side

You’re like my dream-like yesterday, today

And my everything I can’t erase you

A Sad Goodbye

2023-05-31T08:26:00.001+08:00

When I close my eyes it becomes clearer

Because it can’t be explained with words

I’m walking alone on ice

Just in case I accidentally hurt you I’m right here Don’t you recognize me?

I miss you so much I’ve been waiting for a long time

I can’t reach you I’m just standing there blanked out

Goodbye, goodbye, goodbye, Goodbye.

It’s like a dream

The same things that kept happening

It makes me break down a little bit

Even for a little while, the moments that you remember me

It all felt like a miracle.

The Princess that I miss

2022-06-03T08:04:00.022+08:00

Alone again as I sit in this empty room

Dreaming of the day to see you again
I would vow and be under you care
Serving you with all my heart

I'm thinking about you
Words that I always wanted to tell you

The thin straw that became a strong rope

Is now what binds me in this hope

Wish that I could be with you forever
And promise to leave you never

Broken thoughts that still leads to your grace

My longings that I embrace

Days without you seems so empty

As life has lost its meaning

How I missed you so much

A hurting feeling that can be cure by you

Thinking of the times that we were having fun

Remembering the days of life in the sun

As time ticks away, everyday we should learn

Love is patient and kind it expects nothing in return

I wanted to be by your side always

For as long as I live out all of my days

Set my life to you because your hard to find
The Princess in my mind

Silent Pain

2022-05-28T21:53:00.010+08:00

Again as I try to sleep at night

I cried because the feeling is not right

I have lost the love I sought

Its killing me inside which I cannot fought

I love her so much that my heart screams of her name

But I cannot be with her that is her game

The agony of each day trying to hold back

Emotions and feelings that has been kept intact

Sometimes I want to die due to the ache in my heart

But she gives me time and attention and I'm not that smart

And everywhere I look, I see her smiling face

I think I'm crazy then my heart starts to race

I keep on asking my self, are you OK?

Are you sure? are you OK?

What is happening, are you still OK?

Is this OK? and I replied to my self that I'm ok...

I'm dying inside, so helpless

The love that I search so restless
This chest of mine is about to explode

Still trying to keep it in for the final reload

All I can do is pray for her

Let God keep her safe and be kind to her
Watch her every day skin to skin

And please do not allow her to experience the pain I'm in

Hope

2022-05-23T22:26:00.004+08:00

As I wait for the day to end

Watching the clouds move and try to pretend

The time slowly passes which I cannot blame

I waited for you but you never came

I think I know now what she means

The signs that I was not able to glean

That I'm just a mere friend nothing more

Someone you can call but not adored

You suddenly changed and I don't know why

The day became so long and I started to cry

Was it the things I have not done?

Or my feelings has not reach you? or are you trying to run?

I know that your hurting too

Do you think that I would do the same thing to you?

I love you so much and still I know not why?

I fallen for you and that's the reason I always try

I want to heal and mend your broken heart

So that you can love and be loved

So you can become the same person you once were

And even if I'm not the one, you can start again

Falling and Falling

2022-05-08T01:00:00.014+08:00

I don’t know what really happened

Every time I'm with this friend

All of a sudden, I was not feeling grey

It wasn’t really any ordinary day

Every time we’ve ever talked and chatted

Time really flies and begged it not to stopped

All I know is that in my heart, it can’t be the same

I always think of her, I think I'm going insane

Love might be the reason behind my infatuation

But this sensation is what I love in this situation

I hope that my feelings would reach her

To show my sincerity if she prefer

But now, just looking at her photo makes my heart pound

I cannot stop the happiness and kilig, what I found

All the sudden having to look in your eyes makes me start to lose control of my heart

Keeping the symptoms hidden inside and trying to be smart

When you look into my eyes, I start to blush every time, I don’t understand

I'm not so sure on how to react when you reach out for my hand

I wish to make the moment stop with all my might

All I can do is dream about you every night

Royalty and Me

2022-05-03T11:03:00.012+08:00

I was a fool to love a Princess

Not in my league and also priceless

I cannot offer a life of luxury and gold

I'm just a simple man trying to be bold

Yet I fallen for her with her beautiful smile

Her long black hair which I love her style

The soothing voice of calmness and peace

The funny jokes which she can only release

I was bewitch with her simplicity and charm

Cannot forget details about her warmth

A princess worthy of a prince

But I'm just me how can I convince?

I can see how far we are apart

She is rich and I only have my heart

I was so naïve that I didn't realize

I have nothing to offer and was not thinking too wise

A nobody that has nothing

A meaning less existence and not a king

Like the sun and the moon and stars

That can never become one so far

Still I love her with all my heart

It may not be enough and could keep us apart

I guess I'll die trying

Proving her she is worth waiting

More than a Friend

2022-05-01T20:58:00.007+08:00

At last I have confessed

My feelings for her and all of the rest

The emotions kept for so long

Exploded in a day so very strong

I was not gonna tell her

I was supposed to be just a chauffeur

I was fine just being like that

But it changed when I saw another tomcat

I cannot explain what I felt that day

All I can do is just watch in dismay

The though of losing her comes into play

I never thought to feel that way

Jealousy anguish and despair

trying to keep my cool and just be happy for her

I was so lost for words on that moment

Realization hit me in the face and its content

I never thought that it was already love

Until I felt the ache and all of the above

The inklings I thought I have conquered

But no, I already fallen for her

April Rose

2022-04-18T16:37:00.003+08:00

The day I thought that wouldn’t never come

Was when you came along that’s all I could sum

I found joy and happiness

You were the love that I sought endless

I was just minding my way

And then I saw you, tulala ako sayu from that day

My life became wonderful and swirled

That’s because of you my darling my world

I wish that I could have met you before

That we could have loved so much more

Spend the days that could have been fun

Because love is here and we cannot run

I surrender to the feeling a new

As it gives me hope, something to look forward to

Love was just around the corner

I didn’t saw it at first because I was bitter

But then again, I love you with all of my heart

The words that you would always hear in this part

Where I show you how much you mean to me

Because it was you that would make my destiny

Unsonged

2022-04-06T13:53:00.014+08:00

Each day as I watch your beautiful smile

A very warmth and comfortable feeling, worthwhile

Just a glimpse of it, even from a far

How I wish you were mine, coz to me you’re a star

The way you talk with your brown eyes

Your funniest jokes that made my lungs cry

The sensations and emotions that you give off

Made it easily for me to fall, set sail to you and cast off

Your gentle voice that speaks in my thoughts and I doze

I think I'm going crazy, but trying to be composed

Then my heart or brain keeps calling out your name

Tinamaan talaga ako! this I can proclaim

I'm happy to have met you

I'm happy to have found someone like you

In this world of mine which is very tragic

I just hide all of it, with my wits and smiles, magic!

I want to say all the words to make you see me

But I have nothing... and not even in your league.

The only thing that I could offer, is my loyalty and my time

So for now I'll just be here, only loving you in my mind.