"in the LYFE of KIMIRHOCHELLE!"

UNCONDITIONAL LOVE FROM A MAN OR A FATHER?

2011-06-19T08:05:00.000-07:00

in the midnite hours ... i was working around the internet. i came across a posting that caught my eye and made me ponder..i sometimes hate when this happens because i wont get any sleep until i write about... so.. yes im tired... but will sleep sound after this posting...lol..

the posting was talking about a woman's love and respect for her father and his UNCONDITIONAL LOVE... thus prompting ponderous moments about MEN and their relationships with their FATHERS' UNCONDITIONAL LOVE..and how it effects relationships he has with a woman. Can a man give unconditional love to A WOMAN if he never received it FROM HIS FATHER?

the first thoughts are about UNCONDITIONAL LOVE FROM FATHERS...my thoughts about UNCONDITIONAL LOVE from a man to a woman... will come later...lol..

so i write this....
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UNCONDITIONAL LOVE FROM A MAN OR A FATHER?

i want to thank the fathers for their unconditional love..
of staying, of existing, of being present, of never leaving
for giving and cherishing and scorning and holding
for sacrifice for unselfishness for going without
for crying for being open for humbling moments and taking back seats
for filling the void in fatherless children's lives
for wiling to die for for us
for praying and guiding and reaching to God

yet i must think this sounds like what our HEAVENLY FATHER does
HE gives unconditional love
HE gives unconditional strength
HE gives unconditional forgiveness
HE gives when not received
HE protects and punishes and chastise
HE sees us who we are accepts us where we are
HE always has us in his thoughts

i have to wonder about men that are a man waiting to grow up
where is your unconditional love
any man can impregnate a woman
any man can have 4 four kids by 4 woman
any man can think he's a man but does not make it true

and while we say some woman are fathers...we women CAN NEVER be a father
no matter how much we love and give and sacrifice and raise those babies on our own..
WE CAN NEVER BE A FATHER...
like the void in our lives from that void-less man... a baby has an incomplete hole to be filled from their father
and I DONT WANT TO BE A FATHER.. im a woman let me grow there..
the best we can be are the MOTHERS WE ARE...to try to be a FATHER is like the father less man...

where are you father less man... your children need you
where are you father less man... your children are incomplete without you
where are you father less man.. your children are learning from your absence
....perhaps you to lacked A FATHERS UNCONDITIONAL LOVE!

i say to you father less man.. you may not know how to be fathers
you may not have had a father in your life
you may have been raised by a powerful woman
you may have took the wrong paths from wrong choices and wrong friends
but TODAY IS THE DAY you can turn that around..
LOOK TO THE HEAVENS FOR YOUR HEAVENLY FATHER
ask HIM what to do
ask HIM where to go
ask HIM to forgive you
ask HIM for help

to ALL THE FATHERS ...
we SALUTE YOU
we HONOR YOU
we RESPECT YOU
we THANK YOU

TO MY SON...CEDRIC FIELDS...raised with a father less man...
im honored you are my son
im honored you look to God
im honored you are a great FATHER
im honored at times you were the man of our home
im honored you have and continue to raise and protect your sisters
im honored you are raising my 2 grand sons
im honored you are a FATHER THAT FEARS THE LORD

i SALUTE YOU!

YEP...it's been a minute..

2011-05-20T04:49:00.000-07:00

It seems like EVERY THING IS COMING FULL CIRCLE! i have started projects or created blogs years ago and NOW...i feel like im being pushed to CONTINUE where I left off on some of them.

This blog is ONE OF THEM!

While some people think they know me.. especially if they came into my lyfe within the last 2-3 years... most don't!

You don't know the people i know, the experience i have, the things ive done... i really dont expose that UNLESS NECESSARY! So i let people think and do and talk about whatever.. and i keep what they say in my back pocket. I use to talk about and brag about stuff... but it really is just fluff... and since i dont like fluff... i just dont do it..

Since i have last wrote.. i have been in 2 relationships. One off and on and off and on and off and on...in fact.. the last... was SUPPOSEDLY NEVER ON.. but we were doing SOMETHING!!! lol.... in either case... i am TOTALLY SINGLE....AGAIN!..

No calling anyone, seeing anyone, sharing with anyone, giving with anyone, going places with anyone, loving anyone, sexing anyone, kissing anyone, hugging anyone, touching anyone...NOTHING!

Its funny because NOW DAYS.. WE HAVE TO SPECIFY each area.. since MEN seem to think THEY ARE NOT IN A RELATIONSHIP... look up the word RELATIONSHIP...
–noun

a connection, association, or involvement.

connection between persons by blood or marriage.

an emotional or other connection between people: the relationship between teachers and students.

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—Synonyms
1. dependence, alliance, kinship. 2. affinity, consanguinity. Relationship, kinship refer to connection with others by blood or by marriage. Relationship can be applied to connection either by birth or by marriage: relationship to a ruling family. Kinship generally denotes common descent and implies a more intimate connection than relationship: the ties and obligations of kinship.

— n
1.	the state of being connected or related
2.	association by blood or marriage; kinship
3.	the mutual dealings, connections, or feelings that exist between two parties, countries, people, etc: a business relationship
4.	an emotional or sexual affair or liaison
5.	logic, maths another name for relation

ITS A CONNECTION OF ANY TYPE...lol...lmbo...MEN!!!

Anywho... my point is that i WENT OFF TO THE LEFT for a couple of years... ACTUALLY since 2008! It has been UNTIL now that i see i am CONTINUING and PICKING UP exactly WHERE I FELL OFF!

Oh well...IM HAPPY i am....

It does not matter WHERE YOU HAVE FALLEN OFF THE TRACK...it will come back around...

SO...CONTINUE ON....like me.... YOU WILL GET THERE...just remember that ITS EASY TO GET SIDE SWACKED...DETERRED.. after several deterrents... it becomes EASIER... of course once you are back on track reflecting...lol...

ok... thats it... just thought i would share something today @ 4 in the morning...

kimirho... its just me!

ME AND MY MOUNTAIN

2010-07-05T11:16:00.000-07:00

This Sat. my friends and I had an introduction what I call My Mountain! At 7 am we went to climb what was not known to me at the time.. an elevated, sloped, extremely high mountain.

My first impression were ALL THE PARKED CARS AND PEOPLE AND FAMILIES that were RUNNING UP THIS HILL! Not knowing how long this walk nor how high this mountain was.. I started this journey..

I soon realized I was trapped on this mountain! I could not turn back since I really did not know how far I had walked. I could not have someone carry me. No one was there to pick me up in the car and take me to the end.. I just had to keep going.

When I knew I was almost at the endless path, one by one I would ask those RUNNING DOWN THE HILL PASS ME .. "I'm I at the halfway point?"... of course they ALL LAUGHED and just said.. "You have a long way to go before I reached the halfway mark!"

I was like.. "what did my FRIEND TRICK ME INTO!!!!!" ..

At times I could barely walk but I just continued!

I then realized I was getting to know this mountain.. my mountain. I had to learn my mountain. I began to feel the beat of my mountain. I allowed my mountain to slow my pace and to pick up my pace. It was me and my mountain.

I thought about how there were those running pass me up the mountain .. but I was not intimidated! It reminded me that in lyfe.. it does not matter when you get to finish line.. just continue, you will get there!

My Mountain did not allow me to cheat, or fake or make excuses! It was raw and very exposing. At times I hated My Mountain... did not know why I was on this mountain... THEN, as I reached the halfway mark.. I did not stop! I continued up the highest slope and began to jog/run down the other side. I did not fight My Mountain. I walked, jogged, ran the way My Mountain showed me.

I did finish this 5 miles. It seems like only 45 minutes since I was in a timeless mindset but it actually took me about 1 hr and 25-30 minutes.

I've learned from My Mountain ... this Lyfe we live has many journeys that take us all many mountains. At times we want to cheat the paths or we do... at times we want to get off the path and we do.. at times we want others to pick us up and we do... BUT OUR MOUNTAINS are about a relationship with ourselves and God... He does not have to save us at every steep point in our lives. We are strong enough to make it to the finish line by just continuing to keep the pace that is in front of us.

Yes, my body is tore up with stiff muscles.. Yes, I want to stop and not do it again.. BUT I'M NOT!

WHAT IS YOUR MOUNTAIN! HOW ARE YOU CLIMBING YOUR MOUNTAIN? HOW ARE YOU CHEATING YOUR MOUNTAIN!

When you cheat, you still have to do over UNTIL YOU DO IT YOURSELF THE RIGHT WAY!

There are not shortcuts.. NO FREEBIES...

Just stay your course on YOUR MOUNTAIN! YOU WILL MAKE IT TO THE END!
kimirho!

Just a moment with me, myself, I and YOU!

2010-05-22T08:31:00.000-07:00

Somehow, after a year, my blog is just showing up on some of my social network sites so I decided to start writing again.

"in the Lyfe of KIMIRHOCHELLE" is where I just write about my thoughts, what occurred at events, issues and obsticles I run into that must be solved like a humongous puzzle..

It is where you can ask me real questions about things you have heard and I give you the real deal...

When I write, it allows my mind to be free with all the thousands of thoughts that hit me daily so that new thoughts can be heard.

TODAY..I will be going to some of the barbershops that are hosting the Black Barbershop Men's Health Screening and then to the San Bernardino 200 yr celebration parade and park event.

I will be taking my youngest granddaughter and normally I would have a booth but today I'm just walking around, eating, meeting folks, passing out Black Inventors Playing Cards flyers and talking to companies that want to advertise in Urban Lyfestyles Magazine.

I am a little tired but I will just take an energy drink and keep it pushing!

I'm very excited because with all seasons.. there are 4..one to just sow, one to just harvest, one to just reap and one to just rest... IF WE DON'T UNDERSTAND THIS..then we will get frustrated when the doors of opportunity seems to always stay sealed... OR ...when the revenue slows or stops...we think we have done something wrong (sometimes that is correct or a little of both)..

WELL, my season of REAPING IS UPON ME!..it began this week... actually last week..my mind began a new thinking of what direction and action to take...I did...and this week, daily..people I needed to speak to called or I ran into...past associates apolygized and relationships were reborn, funds began to flow freely, contacts and opportunities were to the left, the right, the front and the back..client requests have poured in to where I have to decided the best ones to take on...

It's like the world is moving again and so am I in harmony...

I am aware that with the flow comes some of the same situations that I must make better decisions on...decisions that could be the best for foundation and the future OR could take me off my path of destiny which could led me to financial devastation...

So while I am exciting for evening recognizing the season I am in.. I am also cautious about those that enter my world and why..THERE'S AWAYS AN AGENDA!

later..

it's been a while!!!!

2009-10-17T15:40:00.000-07:00

i have to say since i have last wrote in my blog...SO MUCH HAS HAPPENED...! events have come and gone...partners have come and gone.. new relationships are here.. new visions and directions that only make me see that i had to severe many relationships due to the level of people and their mindset ... and really... they are for real.. making for real change the world and communities type decisions... and if you are acting it or playing it or faken it...THEY REALLY SEE IT...i feel like im on another side of something... some of my projects deal with solar farms, and diamond mines and africa villages and governor campaigns and touring with my own production and with the urban lyfestyles magazine... EVERYONE SAYS THAT THEY SEE BUT THEY DONT...so they look at you like "yea right" ...so here i am ..at home.. going through all my blogs and networks to crystalize the best way the utilize what i have created.. because my website could not be created like i wanted.. my 200,000+ network is spreaded between yahoo,google, facebook, 411n4blast, ning sites and more...the industry is now saturated with the SOCIAL NETWORK SO now i feel like i am behind instead of infront...SO... OF COURSE I HAVE TO RETHINK THIS...there is some new technology that one of my partners created..actually 2.. that will be explosive in the game.. GUESS WHAT.. IM SITTING AT THAT TABLE ABLE TO BE THE ONE THAT RELEASES IT...imagine that...very happy at least that i started the Lyfestyles Social Network site...within 6 months.. i think it will be smoother in my mind.. krp.. stay up and alert.. and eliminate the foxes...

UP LATE OR EARLY...just thinking..

2009-03-21T05:38:00.001-07:00

lots of work to do...really can't sleep! alot of political movement, positioning, alignment, etc., from folks going on..man you really have to stay on yours toes...

it seems like one cant sleep because someone is always plotting...THANK GOD i do my best to let HIM handle that job for me...

JUST WAKING UP FROM PAFF

2009-02-21T14:42:00.000-08:00

The Pan African Film Festival was more exhausting than i thought. Of course during the event from the 5th until the 16th, i just kept it pushing..but once i came home.. my body was sooo tired! i have to get an assistant and some pt workers ...this is going to be so trying for me because workers in the past lied, stole, all kinds of stuff..

however, on another note.. i like someone very much and really hope it works out. my other friend or boo DID NOT..we just could never find the time to see each other. now, i met someone i seen before but really did not see ...until now... he loves the Lord, prays for me and over me.. understands what i am saying..IS SINGLE..IS LOOKING FOR HIS SIGNIFICANT OTHER..im very scared...i like him a little toooo much...what if he's the one i've been asking God to send? what will i do? how will i manage? i don't know but i am sure going to try!!

...IT'S THURS..

2009-01-29T09:02:00.000-08:00

...it's thursday and im feeling pretty...for all the pressure that is surrounding me..i could not say that yesterday or the day before...

its really amazine how our minds can make the difference in how we feel, our attitudes, our body, our outlook...

somedays..the stress and pressure feels like its caving in on me and i just have to retreat from the world and lay down and relax...

THEN..the day passes on..im still alive..the pressure and stress is still surrounding me..BUT i just look at it and keep it moving.. ITS EXTERNAL..it is not affecting or effecting anything--mind, body, attitudes, thoughts.. ect..

sometimes i think the end of the world is here..then the day is over and i see hope, i see direction, i see purpose, i get back to work pushing this machine i have created that at times is like a monster while others its a blessing for so many!

well..i wonder if major players go through the emotional mind control that i go through..i know i will be able to ask them soon!!

IT'S JUST 2:30 IN THE MORNING...

2009-01-21T02:12:00.000-08:00

...and im contemplating...

THIS ENTIRE week was one that no one will ever forget...OBAMA IS THE PRESIDENT..yes we can.. yes we will.. NOW...YES WE DID!

look around you...WHO IS YOUR TEAM?

WHO IS GOING TO HELP YOU GET TO YOUR OBAMA ARRIVAL..

WHO ARE YOU GOING TO HELP TO GET YOU TO THEIR OBAMA ARRIVAL..

everyone is suspiscous...im looking at every single person in my lyfe...

2009-01-01T23:09:00.001-08:00

its a great NEW YEAR so gone with yesterday...ONWARD TOWARDS TOMORROW!

2009 ...

2008-12-31T23:27:00.000-08:00

30 MINUTES TO THE NEW YEAR..i just thank God to have another opportunity to see another year...im glad i stayed home..i wont be tired tomorrow..unless i stay up late working on the internet.....i have my granddaughter rochelle with me andall my childrenare out with their families and friends...

while at times i feel lonely...the silence is sooo golden.. im buying a building this year for all my companies..i will also be traveling out of the country and throughout the states...

MERRY CHRISTMAS

2008-12-24T15:09:00.001-08:00

I APPRECIATE YOU AND AM VERY HONORED TO BE ABLE TO NETWORK AND MOVE YOUR INFORMATION ACROSS THE WORLD! MERRY CHRISTMAS... kimirhochelle

DAYS LIKE THIS...

2008-11-23T15:27:00.000-08:00

days like this i see the end of the rainbow.. its within the reach of my fingertips...the clouds are fluffy white...the ocean spray of saltiness sprinkles my face...i can't wait for tomorrow what use to be dreaded...please God oh ALMIGHTY keep my days like this... not all perfect but more toward than backwards.. keep my eye on YOU keep my mind on YOU keep my walk toward YOU as i THANK YOU AND THANK YOU AND THANK YOU...for days like this...

I FOUND ANOTHER ME!

2008-11-17T19:02:00.000-08:00

i just met with a woman the will be my cover in the months to come...last year this time she was struggling, underpressure, moving locations, could not pay for advertisement, stressed..seeking pressing continuing ...

today, she was struggling, underpressure, looking for another location, had money for advertisement, stressed..seeking pressing continuing...THE DIFFERENCE...she has had soooo much features that she can not handle to demands of making enough pies..does not have enough ovens to cook...does not have enough money to pay for the increased eggs and flours etc.. needed to fulfill orders...IN FACT..she had to deny a major contract because she could not fill the order...

SHE IS THE FIRST PERSON I HAVE MET THAT IS AT THE SAME POINT I AM...even last year..we were going through the same things....this year..WE BOTH HAVE MOVED A KNOTCH OR TWO UP THE LEVEL but now have to deal with increase funds...higher prices of products...hiring more team members..

it was soooo nice to hear her and i never said a word about my businesses she just said...DON'T STOP..keep going... i am going to support you...i was like... "what God is talking to you or something?"

there are sooo many of "us" out here...true entrepreneurs that rely 100% on revenue from out businesses... it can be scarey, exciting, up, down, ...BUT THE ONE THREAD...keep our eye on God and what does He say to do...

STAY FOCUS ... KEEP GOING ... DONT STOP .... PRAY ..... DONT BAD MOUTH OTHERS .... BELIEVE ... KNOW .... you can do it! kimirho :)

HATEN THE HATERS--especially when they're your friends!

2008-11-16T10:15:00.000-08:00

i have been watching the "Real HouseWives" in Atlanta..i have not watched tv for months so it was great to see back to back shows about the lives of these women. plus.. atlanta is one of the states we are looking at to launch the magazine..we are even going to take a week trip to the area!!!!

anywho...what was interesting to me was how friends were really hating on each other and back stabbing each other and being so caty.. YOU COULD SEE HOW WE ALL ACT AT TIMES!!! i have heard that back east they dont do that but it is apparent that they do!

i say this because i am having someone create a "lyfestyles" body fragrance cleansing and moisturing set within their own line as a way to create funds for our new "Community Collective Ad Rate"... this is where anyone can collectively pay for an ad by giving $1-$5 or more! collectively, the funds will offset the low to no pay ads we give to some small businesses and nonprofits. well i made the announcements.. and it would have been great to see on camera all those faces and who said what negative mess to the company that was going to do it... in fact, we had just had a meeting over the phone about our plans and now she did a drastic 150% turn around!

no biggy for me..i just called another company and keep it moving but what is interesting is how the power of influence can move change... WITHOUT KNOWLEDGE ABOUT ANYTHING....

i pray that i at least tell people to get an unbias opinion about ALL THE INFORMATION..not a little piece..

HOW CAN YOU TELL SOMEONE SOMETHING IS GOOD OR NOT IF YOU DONT KNOW THE ENTIRE PICTURE?

how i should have responded was a just ok..NO i give an analysis of what happened..of course NO ONE WILL SAY WHO SAID WHAT AND WHY.. who cares.. R YU HATEN?

i have so fuck'n far to go! if i know the level of what i am dealing with..then that level would not understand the analysis ANYWAY...JUST KEEP IT MOVING!

ok... IM GEEKED!!!

2008-11-09T21:56:00.000-08:00

HUMMMMMmmmmmm.....WOW is all i can say.... i am presently working on 3 as in THREE as in 123,,, uno dos tres.... whatever REALITY PILOTS that will launch from each other....,,,,the radio show and getting ready for the first one, going to print on the next issue of the mag...finishing stage 1 of the website www.urbanlyfestyles.com , closing 5 major advertisers, hiring, 3 major meetings that include another radio station, 2 film festivals and our tv channel... i literally fall asleep with my laptop... oh..did i say 3 major concerts we are featuring..OK..I HAVE TO STOP TYPING and get back to my work...IS IT THE COFFEE???? hell know...im on cloud 9 just hanging on and pressing forward!!!!!

I MET SOMEBODY!!!

2008-11-06T16:44:00.000-08:00

i met someone... i was not even trying... i was not even interested in him... i never even seen him coming... he kept chasing me all in like 20-40 minutes... asking me questions..all in my face and grill...gave him my number just to leave and go home...he would not let me go.. i would walk away and then he would ask me something else... i would be like what... whatever.. he's the answer ..i really want to go...do you want to dance... what? ok whatever... denita can we go... as i look around him...

i stopped dancing and said ok i just have to leave... yea yea.. you have my number...just call me... i figure he would never call... i lost my pouch with alot of money in it so i headed to the cashier... of course.. here his ass is again..what do yu want... i said... i could not even tell you what he said... i was like..is he slow or something... well i left and brother man called me that next day, that next day night... and the following day... each time i said... which one was you... i called him back after several messages saying hi..what is your name? YEA YEA...this brother chased me... guess what..I LIKE HIM...SOMETHING HAPPENED...

i got a boo...my boo... not sure if he's my clyde... but ...HE LIKES ME..HE GETS ME... AND HE LIKES WHAT HE GETS...

2008-11-06T16:36:00.000-08:00

OBAMAOBAMAOBAMAOBAMAOBAMAOBAMAOBAMA....yep!
i remember when he beat hillary...i felt like i need to keep striving harder, further, wider, longer...NOW..i fell like the light is on all us black folks... i want every part of my lyfe to shine correctly in righteousness...whatever that may be..whomever it may be with...

i dont want anyone or thing around me that is not pursuing lyfe in a positive and empowering way around me..on my team... in my home...

i am starting over and revamping...cleaning out...eliminating... AND I DONT GIVE A DAMN ABOUT SOME OF THE THINGS THAT I USE TO...

i see clearly all those that smile in my face but are not my friends...all those that really arent on my side but try to say they are...I SEE..always have...

THE DIFFERENCE is that i just dont have the energy on it anymore!!!

MY OBAMA IS ON ITS WAY!!!!

2008-11-02T07:42:00.000-08:00

well...can't say if im ahead or behind...or just even! so many people are striving to hit their goal and while the drive is there...a clear understanding of how to get there is not..therefore..it causes set backs all around...

i have been through so many web masters or so called web masters yet i have to break my website down into 5 phases and work with various persons on each part...thats ridiculous!!!!

the amount of money i have loss i dont want to think about it...

i had someone make my obama tshirts...he could not do when i picked them up...had to redo them..just to not give me anything... i have to pay someone else to do them..

on and on and on and on...SO THAT WHEN I SIT DOWN AND THE FOG IS CLEARED... did i move forward, backwards...or not at all!

it seems like i am reinventing myself all the time..monthly, weekly, daily...

is there anybody that is at the same level as i am that could relate to the transitioning from small mom and pop to a major...

it is apparent that not only can you take people with you at the next level..you have to change all the vendors...eveyone!!!

guess what.. I AM!

A STAR-STUDDED WEEK!

2008-10-19T21:39:00.000-07:00

THIS WEEK..i have soooo much to do...meet with potential advertisers, get my hair, nails and toes purty, figure out what im going to ware for the red carpet event at Joe Torry's B-Day Bash, do a walk through for the Political Process event, attend the Biggest Network event, attend Lennells' and Cha Cha's B-day Party...i believe i have to fly up to Oakland to met a spy and also to Arizone for my girls re-marriage...of course, edit 3 magazines...., stay on top of the internet network...stop..ok...i dont want to know anymore for this week!

i am very excited though..so much is happening and people are aligning themselves up great..and OH MY GOD..MY 1ST STAGE OF OUR WEBSITE IS SUPPOSE TO BE COMPLETE!!!...its only been a year and a half....WE WILL HAVE SOME GREAT CONTESTS AND GIVEAWAYS...

anywho..darn..my daughter is ALL UP IN MY BUSINESS as usual...gotta go and create her blog...

LOST MY KEYS AND TRULY LOST!

2008-10-17T07:14:00.000-07:00

Somehow i lost my keys ... i believe they just fell out of my lap while getting out of someones car as we were going to eat at a restaurant. At the same time, i could not find my little pouch with cc, license, or money in it!

My world felt like it crashed...i could not move and did not know what to do for a minute...

Of course, this happened RIGHT BEFORE A BIG PROMOTION AT A CLUB.. so i felt like i did not want to do this because i had nothing on me...

While the event turned out great and the world did not end! i continued calling the restaurant to see if someone found my keys and i later found my pouch...BUT in the time span, i stayed home because i did not want to ride the bus (2-3 one way), i felt i could be more productive just working on the computer. i did not want to rent a car because there really was nothing vital or several things vital i needed to be at that i could not reschedule....so i just stayed home for the week...

What i realized, is that things i thought were really important or needed, i really didn't or they really weren't. i accomplished so much and really just started over on every level of my businesses to reinvent, replan, refocus, set new goals (i will be posting) ...more importantly..I GAVE ALL MY LEADS TO MY NEW ACCT. EXE/ASST AT EVENTS...that was scary! in fact...i did not know what to do ... i was truly lost!

No car, no cc, no money, no leads, no appts....80% of my world was stranded, stalled, gone, eliminated, whatever! i literally had to sit and make myself move on to other areas of my life and business and focus on those things...

Well, im still not 100% comfortable, BUT, i am allowing people to be in their lane and to work it...assist when they need but to do whatever i need to do for them to be successful...IF THEY ARE SUCCESSFUL...I WILL BE SUCCESSFUL!

While i still have to get someone to make new keys...i'm glad i lost them...IT WAS THE ONLY WAY I COULD FIND MYSELF! KR

I FEEL LIKE IM GETTING BACK TOGETHER!

2008-10-13T22:51:00.001-07:00

well i have a new account executive that i really want as my assistant because she's great at both...however..i will have her concentrate on the various events and specials we have goin on..

its really strange to give someone yours leads to work ...it took me several days to figure out what to do with my daily routine so i just started all over and began organizing...

everything is getting in order and we have identified various new projects we will produce...we know how many other reps we need...and next week we will have out total budget renewwd...

i was truly scared for a moment because i felt lost..it was so overwhelming and its strange because i used to be extremely organize...well the business is just to big for me now...i am forced to bring on more teammates....

we have several features to go to, a red carpet event and then the political process and universoul circus....i have to spit out 3 magazines a national magazine ... and i have someone on that website...IM TRULY GETTING IT BACK TOGETHER...thank you Jesus!

TODAY

2008-10-10T08:17:00.000-07:00

TODAY...if i look at all the obsticles surrounding me...i feel like i can't breathe. Fear comes within my stomach and i don't want to move! Therefore, i must change my thinking immediately!

so

TODAY...i am focused on hitting the goals of closing major deals. im focused on having a great Carnivoxo night at our first launching of our new advertiser CARNIVOXO. im focused on prayer to God and thanks for what He has already handled for me at 6:00 am this morning...letting me know that "I GOT YOU"! and really that's all that matters...

TOTALLY SWAMPED

2008-10-08T16:10:00.000-07:00

WELL!!! today i am totally swamped and overwhelmed to the point i don't know where to begin but to just begin!!!

One of my events was moved to the end of the month, the Political Process...i thought I had to get up for something but i have to make myself rest. i did not know how tired i was..i had not had a day off for months since the tour and when i looked around, my world was and is a mess!!!

so...i am reorganizing and throwing all those little papers with folks numbers on them way...

i started using my calendar again because my world has changed drastically! i use to be so organized but now my businesses have taken over and i am at a point where i will start going backwards or i will somehow bring folks on...

i have decided to move forward and bring folks on and if they are not here for the growth of the business, they will just be gone! i get invited to almost every event out in the ie and i have not been able to go..i am making it a point to go now and to be more visable...if someone is here just to meet celebrities or to party or because of the treatments we receive from people, they will not be here long..

so while i am fighting with my mind to let me bring folks on..i must began my 2009 schedule of events that is already packed...once a month we have a major event...a couple of red carpets to cover, a couple of "Carnivoxo Parties" to produce..plus tons to proposals to write, thousands of emails to go through...and i have not talked about putting 3 magazines together..the features, the graphics, the layouts, the sales of the ads...ok im tired...just the thought of everything!!

i have to make my schedule for the day and stick to it..only vip (very important paper---money!) situations will move my schedule... and no i cant just have a meeting with someone just to talk about something in general...

how is your world? how do you prioritize when its all important?

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Well i went to both events and i must admit i had a great time. Sometimes i wonder why go, im tired and want to rest and then i go to the event and understand...sssssoooooo many organizations need exposure and for the black businesses and organizations, or from a black perspective, its little to null!

The networking and business opportunities are priceless. At the one event, i interviewed Judge Mablean, took pictures and walked around tasting wines and various gourmet foods and cuisine.. In one stop i met over 6 wineries which i spoke to about some events Lyfestyles' will be producing so that alone started relationships with my magazines!

Let's not mention that it seemed against the law to be drinking so much great wines...i mean rows and rows of wine...this was my first wine tasting event of this type and i was through by the second row...hum...let's not get it confused.. did make it to EVERY VENDOR...i definately will be attending more of those!