Soso

2012-01-27T05:38:00.000+01:00

It's 5 in the morning, my throat is killing me, the fever is keeping me cold and my hedache isn't leaving me. Ahh I'm getting nervous seriously, I didn't feel it before maybe because it didn't feel real until now :S. I'll give details later on but for now I have to be discreet or else a giddo will hit me with a baloon. Makes no sence right? Well just consider it the fever talking and wish me luck!

And Jass my great shrimp from pinguin land you're short movie will rock!!! Had a great time shooting, it would've been more fun with minush there but Panda made it so all is good! If Jass alows it I'll post her piece of art as soon as she's done with it. Minushi it feels so wrong with out you in Sweden even if it's only 3 days it's weird! Okaay this short text took me more than half an hour to write... I'm going to try to resleep goodnight or morning...

South Korea and China

2012-01-24T21:41:00.001+01:00

Here we comeee!!!!!

Guesss WhaaT??!!! Guess WhaaaTTTT??!!! If you were thinking oh no it can't be they booked the tickets for Korea and China then your Deaddddly RIGHT!!!!! Omoo Omooo Omooo it happened!!!! For all of you who thought or said anything about this trip only being a dream IN YOUR FACEssss!!!

Okay I'm sorry too mean but I'm simply too haPPyyy ^^

...soon

2012-01-23T18:07:00.002+01:00

I finally made my decision and even if you keep bugging me, I will follow what I chose! As for you who has no life, get one!!! Atleast you made me laugh i'll give you credit for that. I had a really good day, felt bad about missing lunch with minaya,shrimp and Jin hyung, but I had to take care of some arrands and got a clear picture of what I should do for my own sake.

I've been hearing people calling me too nice for my own sake, I know you think Iam but believe me I'm not. It's not that I'm trying to be humble but seriously I can be a snake (very mean). So if you haven't seen that from me it's because you haven't stepped on my tail and if you have then you know there's a reason for it! I wanto say that it's always bad if you hurt someone because it is, but I choose not to controll myself when you enter the forbidden border, and it's not to make you feel bad but it's to give you a clear picture of what you do!

The year of Dragon!

2012-01-23T00:31:00.000+01:00

May this year be filled with happiness, health and fortune...

I celebrated my first Chinese new year today with great people, some that I today met for the first time. To be honest I kind of felt bad about going there at first, I don't want to give out why, but I'm so happy I did. Me going there was never about the food, but to tell you the truth the food made my day! I was really chocked when Panda explained that they had bought halal slaughtered meat, I really didn't expect that. It's not about me being able to eat the meat but about that action. Really hard explaining but seriously....

My favorite moment was when we were making dumplings and bonding, hahahahaha like seriously some moments where too funny. But my All time favorite moment was gathering at last around the table with everyone whith a view of REAL Chinese fooD! IT was really really really greaT!! One dish that caught my attention more than any other was Pandas fish, he was explaining that there has to be a fish and that they keep the tail and head because they represent the beginning and the end...

RainBow!!!

2012-01-20T13:47:00.001+01:00

Today has been overwhelming with good news so right now I see myself in a very colorful, sweet place :P Lhamdella, Lhamdella, Lhamdella Thank you God for not only smoothing my way but also for knocking sense into my head!

Something I haven't written about is that I'm invited to a Chinese New Year dinner this sunday, I'm really excited about it and not only because of the new experience I'm looking forward to but because of the people I'm going to celebrate it with. And wow you actually thought about me in the process, just the thought of someone really caring is just like... Pfft I'm not touched at all :P well I'm off to watch pocahontas now, so long readers...

Pikkabuu!

2012-01-17T20:58:00.002+01:00

I love when I start something new, it feels as if a blank page is waiting for me to fill it. I always try to ignore when people tell me that I can't do it or that it's to hard or even if I feel that somethings is to complicated. There's this theory that says people believe when other tell them that it's impossible and alot of people actually decide based on that. but I'm not going to be one of them I'm not going to give up because someone tells me that it's impossible, I'll look for answers and if it doesn't suit me than I'll decide wether it's worth it or not. People always remember that you alone decide what you can do, don't listen to impossible listen to is it worth it? and just do your thing!

I had a great day even though my salad cost me 55kr, my reaction was 55kr? The one selling the sallad replays Yes 55kr with a huge smile as if it was normal, dude I could've gotten a whole meal for that amount or 4 meals in Korea :/ . I could only say mmmm... giving her the money. HAHAHA Emine was as chocked as I was and both were thinking crap the korea money, the korea money... Well atleast i got plenty of cherry tomatoes right soulmate ? :P I also signed my first paycheck receit or whatever I should call it. I had a great day being a lost soul, with my soulmate keh keh keh...

Crossing over

2012-01-14T19:36:00.003+01:00

...
I had to make that phone-call otherwise I would never have come this far and even though I don't trust your answer I still feel good about making that call because I realized something I should have done along time ago. Thank you for showing your true colors, now I can rest at ease, now I can live on with no regrets, now I can start living... from now on you're just a stranger who has no place in my memories or heart... I made it alive crossing over that fire and now I'm going to start living... Lhamdella, Lhamdella, lhamdella

Back to dramas

2012-01-13T23:50:00.002+01:00

Haven't watched a Korean Drama all week so here I come ... Good night fellows ^^

too much for one day

2012-01-12T21:38:00.001+01:00

And then it got better... Lhamdella

I can't even count the bad news today and even if I did I wouldn't be able to talk about it. But even though half of my issues has no solution and the rest has a solution that won't satisfy me. But hearing that OMG like seriously made things better... That's what people can do even if it's only a though it does make a difference! Lhamdella, Lhamdella, lhamdella

Ahhh just one thing left...

2012-01-11T22:27:00.002+01:00

Time for me to go to sleep and tomorrow hopefully It'll all be over, I have my last exam and then I get to breathe! Maybe I'll have some time over to paint? It has been a while since I did that and it feels so bad not giving that side of me enough time. Speaking of time I need to get my vaccination and start working on my Korean. :P

Emine and Jass Aja Aja fighting I know your being more stressed out than me but you guys are amazing and you'll make it alive <3 Mona you seriously made my day, not because of "that" but because you just proved to yourself before anyone that you can look outside of that box and you can do more even if others think otherwise and because you found that strength you always had and your using it... It feels good knowing that we're in this together it gives me more strength <3 Charesso Tshingoya !!! ^^

Bästiiiis missing you happy to finally seeing you breathe <3

2012-01-11T04:33:00.000+01:00

I keep waking up... Stupid fever slash you Who made me This miserable... Pfft I Should try to resleep good night or more like good morning.

If you decide

2012-01-10T19:39:00.002+01:00

You'll have it...

Just came back home, today has been really busy Jass and I picked up 8. exchange students today. I said that today would be better and it was, lhamdella (thank God). I was really upset yesterday because of an issue at university that made me stay up til 5.30 in the morning not to mention that it also made me wake up 7.30 in the morning. Yes I was blessed with to hours of sleep a fiever and bad news. Well I'm happy I have good friends to complain to.

Okay let's shake of all negative energi and let's goo all positive! I hade a really nice time meeting people from different nationalities. One of them was actually Korean, It was nice to finally meet a real Korean, as a person not as a character. I really enjoyed meeting people from different countries and it was nice just doing something fun and actually getting paid :P Mona u where also there I carried you whith me ;) I made my day a better one just as I promised and so can you just decide to have a good one and you'll do.

anhenbokke

2012-01-09T23:35:00.000+01:00

Not a good daY... But tomorrow I'll make it my day :) nshallah
4lhamdella lhamdella lhamdella

When u think you lost...

2012-01-07T23:43:00.001+01:00

you come back home with a nice dress :P

Today was supposed to be all about studying so I woke up early like 10 am, it's early considering that I fell asleep at 4 am or something. I prepared myself and facebooked while getting the names of the books I needed to borrow, having a nasty hedache. I looked into the mirror to make sure That I looked okay before leaving the house and headed to my university.

I walked and enjoyed the rain hitting me lightly to get there and realize that HELL NO THE LIBRARY IS CLOSED TODAY!!!! And yess I wanted to kill myself because first of all it's supposed to be open until 2pm and tomorrow it's closed and I have to freaking finnish my assignment till Monday because I have a freaking SEMINAAAR... Well thank God I always carry a plan B and even though plan b isn't as effective as plan A it still helps Lhamdella and finding that dress for that price haha helped me with the situation and my day was really good especially when Jass came to my place and colored my life with her earings :P I just love her taste!! We spend a great time together and have been for the past couple of days and hopefully for the rest of our lives... Drum drum drum dramaaaa. Emineee damn your stupid exaam I wish you could spare some time but well we're waiting for it so we can goo craazy togethaaa <3

It has been a really good way thinking about it I even heard Monas voice ahhh Lhamdella, Lhamdella, Lhamdella!

Something you might or might not know

2012-01-05T23:23:00.008+01:00

10 things about me...
Jass and I decided to write about ten mini secrets, let's hope that I bring up something interesting :P

1- I was only 4 when I decided to become independent ( the day my sister was born)
2- I still watch cartoons and believe in happy endings
3- I started my year by crying myself to sleep
4- My addiction to Dramas isn't because I love them but because I need them
5- The first place I visit when I go to Lebanon is the grave-yard
6- Every night a story begins in my head to help me fall asleep
7- It's not that I'm not scared it's just that you don't know it
8- I do care and I feel pain it's just that I believe that everything has its meaning
9- I pray every day asking God to reunite us
10- I used to make myself throw up after eating because I felt fat

If you want really interesting "confessions you should also check shrimps blog www.pinkadellystrawberry.blogspot.com and Warui Belmont blog http://waruibelmont.blogspot.com/ !!!

See you soon hopefully...

2012-01-05T18:34:00.002+01:00

So Mona left yesterday, she's back in Lebanon going to be empty without that crazy soulmate, lets hope I'll get a chance to see you soon tshingo and hope you had a nice stay here ^^

So accomodation in China, Beijing and Shanghai is booked ahhh finallyy we're getting places :P Still really hard finding apartments in Seoul South Korea but we will make it nshallah!!!! I've talked about my dream of opening a café before, that I'm going to open one after I graduate right? well today I bought my first Items for it, I know I know it's not much but I'm getting there slowly and I'm going to do it! These 3 things represents the beginning, wish me luck ^_^!

Happily ever after?

2012-01-04T00:59:00.002+01:00

The truth with a sweet twist...
Snow white, Sleeping beauty, beauty and the beast, Cinderella, all these stories has a happy ending and all these stories made me believe that I'll get mine to. I was watching sleeping beauty today and started thinking of how they tricked me when I was a kid and to be honest how I'm still tricked, because I still somehow believe in them...

Like seriously though what's up with Cinderella, like stand up for yourself, what if the prince never came? What if he never existed? And even if he does exsist will he really save you from misery to give you a happily ever after? What if that prince saw you and fell for you and still did nothing because you simply weren't a princess? I really hate myself for still believing in these stories even after knowing that Mulan never got her happy ending in reality, even after knowing that I didn't get my happy ending....

Lhamdella, Lhamdella, Lhamdella

New Year's Eve

2011-12-31T16:24:00.001+01:00

Some people feel that walking into a new year is walking into a fresh start and that's good because somehow it motivates you to make the most of the new year. I don't see it like that though, it's more like cleaning my wardrobe and throwing away what shouldn't be there. I pick my most important things I need and want, to be able to come closer to my new goals for this Year!

Today is also the day when our beloved Imam al Hassan was poisoned by his wife, may God curse those who where the reason behind his death and those who knew about it and did nothing to prevent it! We're not celebrating New Years Eve at home but we're going to have a family dinner in your honor... Allah yel3an man Zalam Ahlul-Bayt...

No What if's

2011-12-29T20:29:00.000+01:00

It can happen if you want it to happen...
If something is important to you than you'll find a way and if not you'll find an exuse. This sentence speaks so loud it's hurting my ears and pobably my heart if I had one to say :P No but seriously this God it's so true wether it's about religion, studies, hobbies, love and etc. If one doesn't find a way to make it happen then it's because it's not important to that person there's always a way!

Ouriii Soulmates!

2011-12-29T01:39:00.000+01:00

Lhamdella, lhamdella, lhamdella...

I can't get enough of this word because nomatter how I try to describe what I feel, that word comesto mind. I was really upset yesterday thinking about those who forgot, so upset that I wrote in Swedish. I almost forgot about those who remembers which alot of people does and hopefully I'm one of them.

Today has been great like seriously, I woke up with swollen eyes still upset about yesterday just searching for something, just anything to prove me wrong. I found alot of people who loves Ahlul-bayt and works hard showing it, so I'm really happy, because the thought of forgetting them takes away all hope I have in life. I know what your thinking, I'm too much but you know what Ahlul-bayt is that huge and for you who know them you'll also understand why I'm that attached to them.

I spend a great day with my soulmates today, It felt so good to finally be gathered lhamdella, lhamdella, lhamdella for letting me meet these people, like seriously amazing people who really cares! We had our usual hindi bindi thing going on at Emines place and ofcourse Julmust and Ramen! The movie was special haha like whaat? and the food well it's Ramen so of course it's great and Julmust mmm.... Just can't get over it! But nomatter what we watch or what we eat it's always great aslong as your with the right people and you guys are too good to be true Sarangheee!!! Like Emine only the thought of you actually bringing that up gave me warmth and Jassmin I didn't eat your cousins... It was mona :P

Lhamdella, lhamdella, lhamdella..

It was while tricking you to deep sleep that I realised how much I've missed you, I might not have said this before but I'm really really happy you're here...Lhamdella, lhamdella, lhamdella

Ahlul-bayt!

2011-12-28T01:32:00.001+01:00

Abad wallah lan ansa Hussayna... Förlåt förlåt och förlåt om jag i mina handlingar har kränkt dig eller den frihet du givit mig. Du offrade dig villigt för att visa hur viktigt det är att handla rätt och att aldrig ge upp sin rätt. Varje gång jag tänker på din syster och det hon fick uppleva efter dig för att nå ut till dina följare fylls jag med vrede gentemot de som följer och vet men ändå ignorerar ahlul-bayts missöde genom att handla fel och säga att de bara e så att de väljer denna värld framför dem och Gud . Den dag jag glömmer och handlar utifrån vad människor omkring mig vill att jag ska handla ell om jag bara utgår från de världsliga behoven, istället för att göra det jag tror är rätt är den dag jag förlorar mig själv och kontakten jag har med er. Det som hände er kan ingen förneka, för vissa är det kanske ett kapitel i historia boken som får en att gråta men mina tårar är inte det som visar min kärlek, respekt och tilltro. Detta kapitel har inte skrivits klart och våra handlingar efter deras önskningar och Guds vägledning är det som kan avsluta kapitlet.

Shopping / eating!

2011-12-27T00:12:00.000+01:00

It has been 3 days now and lhamdella we've had lots of quality time. Today our theme was shopping!!! Sales started today and of course the whole city with their families were there fighting for their stuff. Mounas sister and her friends found good stuff I didn't really click with anything until, until it started calling for me... My feet just followed the sound of my heart and united me with my new bag!!! I was so tired and fell asleep at Umzahra's couch waiting for Princess to come to start baking.Well can't complain cause waking up to the smell of new baked bullar was heavenly!!! Just came back home and I feel exhausted but I just can't fall asleep. I don't know if it's because I was tired but Umzahraa's couch is the most comfortable thing I slept on I haven't felt this comfortable in a long time!!!

Pikkabuuu!!

2011-12-25T22:35:00.002+01:00

Ahhh today has been really busy in a good way though... Even

when I fell asleep in the laundryroom while Princess was doing the Laundry. Tomorrow finally the day I have been waiting for SALESSS DAAAY!!!! here are some pictures of my day With Emine and Mona only little shrimp missing!!!

Another daY

2011-12-25T00:08:00.000+01:00

I feel exhausted, I'm really tired just tired like tired to death, tired. Today is a special day though, Mona landed on this country we call Sweden and this week will be filled with her blessings :). Welcome home crazy and hopefully you'll enjoy your stay! Had a nice day with Umzahraa, Ali rida and Hajdar not to bring up seeing Mona of course :)

A nice day...

2011-12-24T01:31:00.004+01:00

TodaY has been a busy day... I was so bored at first thinking hmmm something must be done and Jass at that moment wrote on facebook that she also was bored so sim salabim and magic happened! Jass, Emine and I had a really nice time drinking bitter tea with lussekatter in a Korean way. An early Christmas celebration to say :P We also walked around in the cold before treating ourselves with hot tea, but the best part of it was us three going crazy about everything possible I just love our gatherings haha we're really special the only one missing was Mona which hopefully will be here today. She's coming to visit from Lebanon.

But the rest of the evening wasn't any less of fun when Princess, Umzahraa and Ola gathered to enjoy the rest of the evening Even thought that Kalaha game depressed me. Just came back home and my mom (Haram= poor her) was worried to death because I didn't call about being late and well I just got home ( 1 am). I feel so bad making her worry but I didn't expect that, I guess I'm used to noone caring Aah Mulla( I dnt know). Like even before me moving out I used to always be late so I didn't expect a reaction seriously I feel so bad about her, I think she started crying seeing her swollen eyes :S And I even make it impossible for her to blame me I don't even give her a chance to yell because Iam the way Iam or as she calls me Hasan Sabe (tom boy).

I just love this picture just like wayne asked, what camera is she looking into? And hahaaha both of you girls like were there other cameras around?!

This game just gives me a depressing feeling :S

And Umzahra me gonna steal this some day so keep your eyes... Closed :P