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Kepada awak,,,

2013-09-10T09:57:00.003-07:00

Saya nak kenal awak, tapi sy x nak couple, x semestinya berkawan baik tak bole taaruf.
Saya nak kenal awak sbb sy ada niat nak kawin dengan awak, sy x main-main.
Saya tahu awak perlu kan masa selepas apa yg berlaku kat awak.
Saya kadang-kadang sedih tgk awak sedih, sbb saya nak awak gembira.
Saya kadang-kadang sedih, sebab awak macam x pedulikan saya.
Saya faham awak perlukan masa.
Saya tahu saya x secantik dan secomel si dia.
Tapi saya boleh beri awak cinta dan setia.
Dengan izin ALLAH yang maha Esa.
Mungkin awak tak perasan sy beri perhatian kat awak.
Saya x suka panggil awak dengan panggilan yang kasar.
Saya sudi dengar cerita awak.
Saya cuba untuk memahami minat awak.
Saya cuba tolerate dgn awak walaupun ada masa saya terasa dengan awak.
Saya cuba terima kekurangan awak.
Saya cuba dan sudi dengar kritikan awak.
Saya ambil tahu apa yg awak minat,
Paling penting saya cuba buat awak happy.
Tapi semua perkara ni tiada guna kalau awak tak perasan dan awak x cuba utk kenal saya.
Saya tak paksa awak,
Tapi saya akan terus mencuba,
Kerana cinta itu perlu dicari sampailah kepada waktunya...

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Another facet of life.

2013-09-03T09:42:00.002-07:00

As salam,,,

I saw many pics from Orientation's week in UNIMAS. Wahh,,,it remind me a year ago of being a freshie. Didn't expect anything and Alhamdulillah never had homesick or missing home too much. I am surprised by it. Quite weird because I didn't feel I like to be at home unless for a period of time that u needed to go back home, to visit your parents, brother and sister. But still not for a long time.

Seeing akak-akak and abg-abg yg jadi LO, membuat saya jeles woo~. I know become a LO is a tiring one but if it fill with happiness, nothing is tiring. Become part of facilitator in Youth of Borneo (YOB), gave me hope to be a LO but luck is not on my side and I believe there is a better, awesome reason for it. God is good!

3 months living with family is something that I would appreciate and spend time with them as much as I can. Do good and help parents. Take time for personal quality time. Learn how to cook (kene blajar tok, penting tuk masa hadapan ne). Play games. Surf internet as much as I can (because after going back to UNIMAS, I dont think I will in an active mode for internet. The only time that I can get to internet was after afternoon lecture, dalam pukul 3 lebih camtu and go to lab FSS or if rajin malam turun dekat Cafe BRC). Meet friends. Off to towns. Think when your are alone in your room or be a loner (not forever alone). Cry as much as you can. Laugh like a crazy. Sing songs out loud. Sleep a lot. And most important is the time where you can spend time alone with ALLAH and says whatever you wanted, be it a small problem to big problem. Prepare your heart and mind. Be ready. It is like charging your battery phone. Take a rest for some time and when you're ready, let move on! Preparation for another 4 months is truly needed. When time come, you need to go. Go find yourself in another places.

Being a second year student, I don't expect anything but feel like it will be a lot more thing going to be happen. Joining a persatuan fakulti is a big amanah and I want and will try my best. Problems will come because life are meant to be tested. I pray to ALLAH to have a strong heart and stay in a right path. Life is not easy. We are only human, that why we have God. To surrender to him. A pain come from a heart is for HIM and from HIM. A happiness come from a heart is for HIM and from HIM. Redha.

Here I am again. Facing another facet of life. I really hope I can face the reality and be a good human. ^__^

p/s: Yee haa! beg tak kemas lagi! =D

For you, from her.

2013-09-02T12:40:00.000-07:00

As salam,
Long time never post anything. A quick post for today. A short poem. Not really a poem. More to inspirational words I guess. Anyone can be the role but yes,I do have a solid reason what make me wrote this piece.

Terimalah,,, acece =P

You are indeed a subtle person.
Look cool outside. Inside is different.
I want to tell you, how much proud I am of you.
You did have a potential to become somebody.
You do what you think is right.
You have your own ideas.
Even if I didn't say anything about it, does not mean I'm not agree.
You become just who you are.
I can spend time to hear your thoughts.
I am delightful to do so.
If there is something we don't agree, we can always talk.
Give and take.
In silence, far from sight, I supported you.
Don't give up ya.

p/s: Esok,lusa,tulat,tubin,bertemu. ^^

I lied.

2013-07-20T13:36:00.001-07:00

I laughed with my friends,
I smiled to the everyone,
But how can I be happy if there is a wound in my heart?

I lied.

I lied to everyone, how happy am I, how eager am I, but the truth is,,,

Painful.

I did what I think I should do,
No, I am not leaving everything behind like it was nothing,
I kept walking ahead with my memories,
for at least I didn't lied to myself.

Time healed me,
I laughed with my friends,
I smiled to everyone,

I've stopped lied.

Until then,
Came another trial.

p/s: Life indeed a though challenge. There were time of ups and downs. But that doesn't mean you have to stop trying. There were trial and errors. Embrace the life as it is.

"The best way out is always through"

- Robert Frost

I am a rose with thorns.

2013-07-01T22:57:00.000-07:00

As salam,,,

Hi everyone!

Long time no update with my blog and it is because my bb a.k.a broadband has been stop due to i lost it last year. I don't know where i place it and i had been scolded by my brother and my father. Well, peoples do sometimes misplace something and forget it. Humans are no perfect and that why pencils have erasers! Talking about perfection, I have this one song that I like and would like to show u. I find it beautiful because the words are meaningful. Plus, the rhythm is nice. It is a song by Lee Hi, and the title is Rose. I post the English lyric down below.

My love is like a red rose

It may be beautiful now
But my sharp thorns will hurt you
My love is like a red rose
Yes, I may be fragrant
But the closer you get, the more I’ll hurt you

Don’t look at me with that light glance
Don’t speak of love easily
If you want my heart, you need to take my pain too
Because you will be pricked by my thorns someday

Don’t trust me too much
You don’t know me that well yet
So just run away run away
I said ooh ooh ooh
Don’t love me
You don’t know me that well yet
I said run away just run away
Don’t come to me

My love is like a red rose
It may be beautiful now
But my sharp thorns will hurt you
My love is like a red rose
Yes, I may be fragrant
But the closer you get, the more I’ll hurt you

Seeing your confidence makes me feel so bad for you
Your confident footsteps toward me looks so pitiful today
Emotions? That’s an extravagance to me
Love? That’s Obsession’s best friend
So run away just run away
Cuz you and I must come to an end

Every rose has its thorn
Every rose has its thorn
Every rose has its thorn

Don’t trust me too much
You don’t know me that well yet
So just run away run away
I said ooh ooh ooh
Don’t love me

You don’t know me that well yet
I said run away just run away
Don’t come to me

My love is like a red rose
It may be beautiful now
But my sharp thorns will hurt you
My love is like a red rose
Yes, I may be fragrant
But the closer you get, the more I’ll hurt you.

The large font is the part where I would like to highlight. Basically, it is about when you find someone that you like and yes, you fall-in-like with the person. At first, you may see that person perfect, beautiful, handsome, and yeah, everything excellent. But, not until one day, when you know the truth about that person. You started to feel uneasy and disbelieve. Perhaps. It is normal. I think this is the line that separate the difference between love and like. When you like, it is because of something that person may have and make you entertained and happy when you see it. Only the good part of that person that you like but not as a whole. Love is when you love that person because of who he or she is. You unlikely to disappoint when he or she makes mistakes. Less of high expectations. It may not an ideal person that you dream of but, you just seems to be perfect together. Apa orang kate, saling melengkapi, haa mcm tu la. Bila ada yg kurang, yg lagi sorang akan tlg cover dan sebaliknya. Menerima dengan seadanya. Acece~ =P

This song remind a guy or girl about imperfection. Before you fall in love to someone, you have to realized something important. Let us put in this way, I think it will be easy to understand. Btw, this is just a story^^

There is a girl name Wafa, and she fall in love with this boy name, %^&8!. And that boy seems like her too. She wanted to tell the boy about how she feels. So she wrote a letter.

Dear %#$&!,

I do like you and you're soo nice. But before we going to any further relationship, I would like to tell you something. You may see i smiles all the times, laughing, and happy-go-lucky. But, there was a time when i feel down and i rarely show it to others. I do have flaws that only my family knew and few of my friends. I cry because i knew i was abnormal. You may feel weird of what i'm talking about. My smiles doesn't show who am I. Because of the flaws, i will hurt you. Because of the flaws, you may feel uncomfortable. Honestly speaking, if you want to go away from me or make less contact to me, please do so. I don't want to hurt you in future. I don't want you to regret later. You don't know me well yet and because of that, you might think I am perfect for you. You may say nice words to me, beautiful words. Don't be confident. Peoples do changes. You may like me at first but later who knows, you don't anymore. Maybe because at that time you already knew my flaws, and you run away from me. So, I give you a chance to do so. But if you think you're confident enough that you can confront me, and accept me as the way i am regardless of my flaws or any imperfections of mine, i am happy to know you too.

Your sincerely,

Wafa

I am sorry if the letter i wrote dalam cerita ni tak ikut format ke hape ke, well this is not EPP btw. heheXD~

When I read back, I think, agak strong ayat nya. Yeahh. This is honest. Berkata lah benar walaupun pahit pada hakikatnya. Mesti bapak terkejut that guy bila dia baca. Muehehehe~ apekah? kenapakah? mengapakah? Girls memang complicated. Sorry to say lah kan. But guys out there, you have to understand. I think I found out about guy that they don't like ayat putar belit. Perempuan bila dia nak bercerita, they will berkias sampai lah penamatnya. Punya lah berkias dia tu sampai guys penat nak berfikir. Apakah yang cuba nak disampaikan oleh perempuan tu?. HahaXD Sebab tu lelaki tak suka berkias bagai ni, for them is the best to just tell the truth. Just honest with them. Baru mereka boleh digest apekah? mengapakah? kenapakah? I hope this letter tak kuat sgtlah kan berkiasnya. =P

Anyway, the favorite sentence of mine in this song is "every rose has its thorn". That the main point. Some of us may interpret differently of the sentence meaning and I think it depends on a person's observation or experiences. I had do the Yahoo-ing and I find this one perfect meaning.

"...Even the rose, beautiful and enticing, is not without its flaws; the prickly thorns of the rose can poke and pierce the flesh. In fact, there is a type of plant in the Rose family, Hawthorn, whose thorns are toxic to the eye, and scratching of the cornea with it often leads to loss of vision. Even something as beautiful as a rose has its flaws..."

There are multiples adages about rose and all of them have a very nice meaning such as "He who want a rose must respect the thorn" and "From a thorn comes a rose, and from a rose comes a thorn".

"..."He who wants a rose must respect the thorn". Here too the idea of imperfection is expressed, teaching that one can only have a loving relationship with another after respecting that individual's differences and flaws..."

"..."From a thorn comes a rose, and from a rose comes a thorn" teaches that something that begins as an imperfection or flaw can grow to be as beautiful as a rose. So too something as stunning as a rose is also not perfect, for within, there are also flaws..."

I just merely copy and paste from this website of all the meaning because I think this is the best explanation.

-----------------> http://www.gardenbetter.com/rose/Every_Rose_Has_Its_Thorn.asp

p/s : I love this one quote from Kak Fatima Syarha,,,“Cinta boleh lenyap bersama lenyapnya sebab. Kuingin mencintainya kerana Allah. Lantaran aku yakin, hanya Allah tidak akan lenyap.”

Btw, Ramadhan is on the way! =)

Planning time!

2013-02-14T21:21:00.000-08:00

As salam,,,

Howdy peeps?!

There will be another few hours before i'm going back to Sarawak. Sementara ada mase ni, na cerita la kan. Based on my plan, I will not coming home until January next year which is January 2014. So, cuti after this semester, I want to take antarasesi. Although kebiasaannya antarasesi ni lebih mengutamakan senior yg na graduate because this is the time where they want to finish all the subjects mane yg x sempat na abis tu kan. Anyway, I still gonna do it, xpela, senior pun senior lah kan. Harap mereka baik-baik dgn sy =) Dalam antarasesi ni, I want to take elective courses like Languages ka, or generics ka. I really do want to learn Arabic, Iban and Chinese. I take this three language as my priority. and of course i do have my own reasons why. I will take Arabic class first. Then Iban and Chinese but as for Iban and Chinese, I do have something else the plan for both of the languages. I might not take the class formally but informal. I have few friends that can teach me Chinese and Iban. So maybe I can ask their guidance kan to teach me. I really hope so.

On my second sem mid term break, I want to travel to Sabah and stay at my friend's house. Insy-ALLAH, biiznillah. I hope this will be happen. Ramai org kate yg Sabah tempat dye cantik,pantai yg cantik, budaya yg cantik and so on la. Really excited when I heard that! And lot and lot of pictures yg nak diambil! XD I also plan to go to Bintulu, to see my bro and my friend. I plan to go on weekend because that is the only time yg ada since cuti mid sem dah occupy dgn g ke Sabah.

One problem yg paling I risau ialah,,,,,MONEYYY~ hahaXD

Igt duit PTPTN tu utk berjalan sane sini ke? hehe,,,thu punnn,,, well I try to follow what my parents said la kan. JIMAT! haha,,,memang kene TRY. Duduk U one thing yg kene blajar is mengurus kewangan. Laen la if your family is rich. Nang ku sik kesah. Jenjalan sia sitok pun sik risau la. =P

Sepanjang cuti ni, sy na mengucapkan terima kasih bnyk2 kpd kwn2 yg sudi menemani sy kuar jenjalan. Mungkin x sume, ad yg x dpt, xpe2,,, ad hikmah disebalik tu. Senyum selalu! Minta maaf jgak if ada wat salah terutama percakapan ke, message ke, chat ke. Love you guys so much!

p/s : Walau apa2 pun plan, yg tentukan adalah dgn ketentuan Illahi. Harap dpt tingkatkan prestasi belajar pasni,,,aamiin =)

Layan Matlufti jap sempena konvo eaa~~^^ Congrats.!

Friend Forever

2013-02-12T04:23:00.000-08:00

As salam,,,

How can I not Love you my friend?
You came to me and say good words.
We spend time together and have a conversation.
You allowed me to speak what from my heart.
You give me your time to hear what i said.
You corrected me when i was wrong.
We laughed, We smiled, We say loved when we know we are meant to be friend forever,,,

"How to" post : Fried Ice Cream (Karipap version)

2013-02-08T00:59:00.000-08:00

As salam,,,

Evening everyone!

So long i never updated about baking or cooking, (mcm la ak ni pandai masak sgt,,ehehe =P). Today, ak na post pasal aiskrim goreng! atau lebih tepat lagi macam mane na buat nyer. I think this recipe, yg i will show today is the simplest one. Depend pada kreativiti masing2. Na buat bentuk apa2 pun bole, bentuk love ke, bentuk buku ke, bentuk ikan ke. Fun ya know! (Y) or maybe add a little colour to it by using colourful icing ke. Meriah la skit. Huhu~

This is my second post about baking sume2 ni, my first attempt is cupcake. You can find it on the list on your right. If you want la kan. Tanpa membuang masa lg, juh, jom, aram, let get started!

Bahan- bahan:

1. Roti

2. Ice cream

3. Tepung Gandum

Cara- cara :

1. Gelekkan roti. Brape banyak pun x kesah. Jangan leper sgt sbb nnt ice cream tu terkeluar.

2. For my version, i used shape of a curry puff. Since my mom had this tiny curry puff punyer acuan. But before that, you can shaped the roti to round shape by using scissor or knife. Anything as long as you comfortable use it.

3. Put a little amount of ice cream into it then close it by using the acuan. (actually i dont know what "acuan" word in english, sebab malas na bukak dictionary so that y i just use the word acuan, pardon me,, lolXD)

4. Don't forget to glue the curry puff using the tepung gandum. Yes, that tepung gandum is use to secure the curry puff and avoid the ice cream from spill out. Campurkan sedikit air into the tepung gandum and there it is, a glue! Instead of using it, you can also use the yellow egg as a glue.

5. After done doing the curry puff, letakkan di satu tempat and buat lagi sampai yg korang nak.

6. Then goreng time!

7. Jgn masak terlalu lame, just agak2 dalam satu setengah minit ke. Kalo minyak tu panas, sekejap je masak tu.

8. Ta-Da! Da siap masak bolehlah hidangkannya. Sory presentation tak cantik! =P

p/s : Hope enjoy it!

Kit Kat Take a Break!

2013-01-31T03:10:00.000-08:00

As salam,,,

Greetings!

Yesterday, me an my friends hang out together after a long time never seen each others. Alhamdulillah, we finally meet and happy to see them.

Hari ni ak na bercerita pasal market research, pe kebende market research tu? Basically market research ni bertujuan untuk mengetahui pendapat atau komen2 pengguna seperti kite sume mengenai iklan2 di TV. Tak kisah la iklan pasal makanan ke, pencuci baju ke, minyak wangi ke. The reason why I wrote about this stuff because yesterday me and my friends had been caught up by this person and I actually didn't realize like where did she come from?. Tibe2 muncul depan mate.^^ Datang2 je trus explain kat kiteorg. She introduced to us about what she been doing and barulah kiteorg faham rupe2nyer dye sedang membuat satu research yg dipanggil market research.

She explained to us yg mereka ni sedang mencari 10 lagi org untuk mengisi borang research mereka tu. Masa tu, automatically I remembered the day when I did a research about Women and Labour in Sarawak for the Statistic subject. Masa tu ingat lagi time na cari respondents memang susah. Kiteorg buat dekat Muzium Sarawak. Waktu tu cuaca panas and mencari orang sampai terkejar2. After kiteorg finish, we actually macam berjanji pada diri sendiri yg kiteorg akan tolong org2 yg sedang buat research macam yg kiteorg buat. Time tu tersedar la kan, bukan nyer senang na cari org utk isi borang reasearch. When you have the experienced, then you know how difficult it was and you'll start to appreciate it. It was a wonderful thing doing a good deed to others. Maybe some other time, who know other peoples will help you back. ^_^

So, we agreed to help them with their research and go to their office. We then answered some questions and watched a commercial break and gave a comment about it. They planning a new commercial break for Kit Kat. First time tengok, rase pelik sebab iklan cartoon. Pastu dalam otak fikir, maybe Kit Kat nak buat pembaharuan ke instead of using real peoples why not try cartoon. Selepas tgk tu, baru la thu, iklan tu dalam pembikinan lagi and shooting pun x start lagi. That y la using cartoon. Before they aired the iklan, they want to gather feedback from the consumers. If ramai yg suke with that iklan, then they proceed with that and if not maybe they have to produce another idea to attract more peoples to eat the Kit Kat.

We spend quite a long time to fill the form sampai terlewat masuk cinema nak tengok cerite Hansel & Gretel. Tengok2 jam da pukul brape dah time tu. Itu la jugak first time lambat masuk pawagam tp nasib baik faham jalan cerita nya.huhu~ Sebenarnyer, they pay for us after we done. Macam x caye la pulak kan, senang2 je dapat duit but itu antara cara mereka untuk menghargai bantuan kite. Tengok syarikat, kalo syarikat tu besar, maka banyak la duit yg boleh dpt and kalo bernasib baik lagi, dapat rase makanan tu. Best ke x best tuuuhhh? XD

After all, yg paling penting, bantu la orang lain selagi anda mampu dengan cara yg baik. Yg memberi itu lagi baik drpd yg menerima dan hadiah yg paling manis sekali adalah sebuah kegembiraan yg tiada nilai. Senyum tiga! =3

Be Happy

2013-01-24T18:20:00.001-08:00

As salam,,,

Hello everyone!

It has been a wonderful day to me. Alhamdulillah, alhamdulillah, alhamdulillah =') One of the best gift from HIM. The day before yesterday, result came out and i am happy for it. I longing such result for so long. I knew i will get it one day. But i know, ALLAH hears what i want and HE gives it because HE knows what best for me and what i need. Not to forget my parents who constantly gives Dua for me. Dua of parents especially from mothers are an absolute Dua. I thanked to them and i believe part of my result is coming from their Dua.

Congratulations to all of my friends. I know they already did the best! Whatever result you get, it was the best and don't fret. We still have another 5 semesters =)

The situation is normal when some of your friends get higher achievement then you do and you start feel envy or jealous. I do fall into such situation. I start to comparing myself with them. I start to questioning my ability. Where did i wrong? Why i can't get the same result like them? I had try my best but why? I have been into a school where most of the students are excellent students. They got 3.5 each of the semester. No kidding. Some of them get 100% for Add math while i fail for it! How can i not be jealous???

One day, i opened the Quran and i found this verse,,,

And do not wish for that by which Allah has made some of you exceed others. For men is a share of what they have earned, and for women is a share of what they have earned. And ask Allah of his bounty. Indeed Allah is ever, of all things, Knowing.

(Al-Nisa : 32)

Dan janganlah kamu iri hati limpah kurnia yang Allah telah berikan kepada sebahagian dari kamu (untuk menjadikan mereka) melebihi sebahagian yang lain (tentang harta benda, ilmu pengetahuan atau pangkat kebesaran). (Kerana telah tetap) orang-orang lelaki ada bahagian dari apa yang mereka usahakan, dan orang-orang perempuan pula ada bahagian dari apa yang mereka usahakan; (maka berusahalah kamu) dan pohonkanlah kepada Allah akan limpah kurnianya. Sesungguhnya Allah sentiasa Mengetahui akan tiap-tiap sesuatu.

( 4 : 32 )

Then i pondered, do i have to get jealous with their result? No, i don't have to because in that verse teach me that everyone will get what they have worked out. Effort what is important. Outcomes reflect your effort. In fact i should be happy because they are my friends and seeing them happy makes me happy. Well said Wafa, lolXD But there is an exception, if you are jealous make it as an inspiration to boost your spirit to achieve an excellent result for the next exam. Yeahhh!! =D

"Ilmu yang bermanfaat adalah ilmu yang diamalkan dalam kehidupan kita"

- Imam Al-Ghazali -

p/s : Believe in HIM, remember HIM everyday, thanks to HIM, tell HIM, ask HIM, and smile.

Pelancongan Domestik

2013-01-18T18:47:00.001-08:00

As salam,,,

Hi yalls!

Alhamdulillah, finally, the day has come. My parents coming today! Along with my bro and my aunty! Yeayeayeayeayeayeay!! Beselah,,,anak blajar kat Sarawak, alang2 tuh pergi la makan hangin sekali =P I tak kisah pun kalau my parents nak tiap2 minggu ke bulan ke datang makan angin kat Sarawak, (kalau ekao banyak duit xpo lah yo) because my parents, dyorang suke berjalan sebenarnyer. In fact when my sis and bro were little, my parents suke sgt bawak dyorang ni pergi jenjalan. But, when it comes to my childhood, hilang sudah suma bende itu. HahaXD I don’t mind. When you get old, mood2 nak jenjalan ni dah hilang. Mana nak larat pergi jauh2. Mengharapkan si anak yang membawa mereka pergi berjalan2. Kiranya, my parents dtg sini, I bawak pergi jenjalan la. Puas hati dapat tgk dyorang travel even though percutian domestik saja but what is worth is the happiness that they gain. I am glad, I am here at Sarawak so I can bring them to explore the Sarawak. I wish to bring them to rumah panjang ke, meet the peoples there, to see how beautiful Sarawak is. Maybe one day ke. =D

My mom always told me, “Nanti adik dah kerje jadi Felo ke nanti, bawaklah mak pergi jenjalan kat Sarawak,,,mana tahu adik dpt kerja kat Sabah ke, bawak mak pergi jenjalan kat sana pulak”. Mak sy suke sgt kalo sy jadi Felo, I don’t know why but I told my mom yg I nak jadi tutor. Last2 my mom kata, “Ha,takpelah,,,dah Rina minat yg tu.” Love you mom <3 nbsp="nbsp" p="p">

I dreams to bring my parent pergi China yg tempat2 China muslim tu. I know that they will love it. And I want to go to Forbidden City. To see the Ancient China. To see tempat tinggal Raja2 zaman Dinasti like Ching , Ming. To see the place where the Concubines live before. The beautiful lakes and amazing architecture. To see the pintu gerbang that they use for the bride to came in into the Forbidden City. And bnyk la lagi. I like China’s History. Last but not least, the food! lolXD

But before travel overseas, I wanted to travel around Malaysia first. Baru layak kan pergi luar Negara. Hehe~ Actually, doesn’t matter pun if you tak travel negeri2 yg ada kat Malaysia ni. But for me, see the Malaysia first. Then baru ada rase, wahhh,,,cantik nyer Negaraku ini. Yes! Memang cantik. The meaning of cantik for me maybe tak sama dengan orang lain kan. It depends. Lengkapkanlah dulu destinasi percutian domestik sebelum melengkapkan percutian ke luar Negara. Chehhh,,,what a description! lolXD

Now, when i am here at Sarawak, baru rase, bnyk lagi kat Malaysia ni yg ak tak explore. Serious. The negeri2 yg I dah lawat, Pahang, Kelantan, Terengganu, Melaka, Penang, Negeri Sembilan of course lahh kan XP and Sarawak. Sabah, Perlis, Perak, Kedah, Johor , I tak pernah lagi. Kesian kan,,,johor pun tak pernah. Bukan Johor I tak pernah tapi pernah sekali, beli langsir kat Tangkak masa umur 10 tahun tak silap la. Perak pun pernah, sebab rumah makcik I ada kat Tanjung Malim. Sabah, Insy-ALLAH, kalo diizinkan oleh ALLAH,,,mmg nak pergi since kawan pun ramai dari sana. My mom da approve kan dah utk I pergi bercuti kat Sabah.hehe=) Asalkan ada kawan2 yg pergi sekali.

P/S : I love Malaysia<3 nbsp="nbsp" p="p">

An answer that i need to find in my life.

2013-01-13T19:57:00.001-08:00

As salam,,,

Here i am! Sitting on my favorite place in CAIS and all alone. Kesian nyer bunyi ae~ Yela, CAIS pun x ramai orang, brape kerat je yg dtg mentelaah buku. Reason why i came to CAIS bcoz nak internet laju je. Bole tgk youtube and tgk movies. Download some songs ka and read books. Since all my friend da sampai kat rumah, I still terpacak kat UNIMAS lagi. Never mind, I love being here anyway. But na jenjalan,,,hmm,,,oh ya, recently i just thought that i want keluarga angkat kat Sarawak ni. Senang skit, kalo pe2 hal jadi ke,,,at least ad org yg tgkkan. And one more thing, i hope to see how peoples here punye life in a family kan. I dont mind if i get a non-muslim nyer family. Lagi suke =) But nak cari nyer I don't know how. Hope somebody willing to help me. Mesti wonder kan why i like non muslim family angkat? Even though susah sbb you have to take care you nyer aurat and eating la and perform a prayer. Pastu rase bersalah pun ada la because of the differences. Tak try x thu kan? Well, i like to experience something different. I want to feel the differences.

Am i afraid? Yes. Am i excited? Yes.

I am afraid because i might getting away from what i supposed to do. Ok, senang citer tkut jauh dr ALLAH. Because u have been a place where there is no one yg muslim and there is no one yg mengingatkan u about ALLAH. Lagipun, the way they live is far from a muslim family la kan. Takut terpengaruh. Yup. That yg I tkut. Same like I want to be an participant observer one day- Insy-ALLAH- where you have to live in a stranger place. A place that is differences from your way of life. To have to observe tu ok la kan but becoming the participant in their everyday life. That I risau. If some of their everyday life tu contradict to your religion mcm na? Takkan you na ikut? If you tak ikut, how you want to become a REAL participant observer then? you're not fully participate. I didn't find any of the answer yg dpt legakan hati I lagi. I don't want to think it susah because bile dah set kan mind susah, the consequences will be susah. It same when you want to judge people, once you da set kan mind you that people is tak baik la,jahat la. Benda baik dalam diri org tu or perkara baik yg org tu da buat you tak nampak dah.Sama jugak la kan, bila you kate diri you je yg betul, takde yg salah, mmg tak la nak nampak kesalahan sendiri dan susah nak terima teguran orang lain.

Tapi one thing yang I rase, na cari ALLAH tu, tak kisah pun kat mana you berada. Sebab ALLAH tu ada kat mana2 je. Sesetengah orang laen cara dia cari ALLAH tu, or islam tu sendiri. Tak boleh na kate jalan nak cari ALLAH tu fixed. Islam is flexible. Paling penting kene percaya dan yakin ALLAH tu and pray a lots. Ada orang jumpe islam tu kat tempat yg bukan muslim majority nyer. I pun pelik. Acamano tu? Hidayah ALLAH tu sgt luas. Kene cari. Kene usaha. I believe in that.

Kadang2 bile blajar antropologi and sosiologi ni sgt mencabar dan takut. Tak thu la kalo I sorang je yg rase. Because u might encounter something yang opposite dgn religion. Waktu tu la, otak I fikir punye fikir punye fikir. Kadang2 kecewa sebab agak sukar nak cari jawapan tapi I tahu, cannot give up because finally I dah jumpe course yg betul2 buat I enjoyed study. So, why should I stop? I believe sume masalah ada jalan penyelesaian and I should find it till I puas hati. Bukan senang nak cari satu subject yg you betul2 minat dan enjoyed. That what i feel la kan.

I just reached 20 years old. Still a lot of time for me to find the answer. Alhamdulillah, ALLAH bg bernafas lagi. I have to find as many experience as i can. Experience is the MOST VALUABLE thing yg boleh dapat free saje. Easy kan? =)

Marriage

2013-01-09T17:05:00.001-08:00

As salam,,,

Howdy peeps!

Just this lately, i’ve been thinking about meaning of marriage. Yes, we are talking about marriage. Suke kan? Hehe~ This question came out while i’m reading the social sciences slide and been wondering about it for quite sometimes. Definition of marriage is:

“The union of a man & a woman, or various combinations thereof, living together in a sexual relationship with the expectation of producing offspring”

I will say that this definition is almost correct. When we come into the definition of something, it is difficult to produce a total correct definition of it. Trust me, in one of the lecture of Communication and Society, we have to define a chair and after we define it, but there must be lack of something. Thus, it is not totally wrong but almost correct. The same when we want to define Religion. According to Durkheim, one of the famous figures in ansos, stated that it is really hard to give a specific meaning to the word religion because we have to consider the cultural diversity.

For me marriage means to foster sense of safety, security and belonging. Well, of course we do have God who watches us 24 hours and totally safe, Insy-ALLAH but because of HIS love, He gives us someone that can take care of us in this dunya. He knows what we want and He actually fulfil it. When He will give it? We don’t know so be patient la kan. I pun tgh be patient ni ^^V Dont worry be happy. I know sometimes we tend to follow our desired and hard to control. We’re just human that why we have god to help us. Ask for his guidance and make duas everyday,everytime,anywhere in any languages ,English,BM,Sarawak ke,sabah ke,korea ke,jepun ke,,,He definitely will understand because He was perfect. Whatever that is exist in this world, He knows :D

My ustazah has told to us once, if you want to pray, no need to be formal, just talk like we talk to our parent ka,sibling ka...cam bese. Example, “Hari ni kan Ya ALLAH, ak rase hepy sgt sebabnyer ak dpt jawab exam dgn baik, Terima kasih ya ALLAH’’ ataupun yg ni, “Hari ni kan Ya ALLAH,,ak nampak dye senyum,,,suke2! Tp kan Ya ALLAH, ak tahu ak mesti jage hati ak ni,,Ya ALLAH maaf kalau ak melampaui batas, lindungilah hati ak ni ya ALLAH drpd perkara2 yg x baik.” Simple kan? J

We always read peoples’ post on FB saying that better you telling your feeling to ALLAH than the FB. It’s true but still no wrong in posting about your feeling or opinion onto something in FB but be control. Ustaz Don had mentioned about this issue, I know that most of us want to be a excellent muslim and mukmin but the capacity of each of us in doing something is different. When you want to say that you must only tell your feeling to ALLAH, looked at the subject or the people that you projected to. Is he or she someone who really pious? Or just orang bese? If he or she was a totally pious person, then go ahead with the statement. But if they were the latter, better telling them “it is ok to luahkan perasaan kat FB but must be choose and control.”

Actually i wanted to talked about marriage but tersasar jauh pulak.huu.Never mind, we can always continue. The most important thing that should have in a marriage is faith. Some of the married couples have to be far apart because of the work mostly. Away to do some research la kan,,,i think will become one of it...anyway, the role of faith played the important part here. I believe, as long as you believe in you partner, jauh mane pun terpisah, lama mane pun terpisah, sikda padam bara cinta dalam hati ya.

Marriage terbina atas dasar the understanding and the feeling of believe, secure you had for someone before marry with them. Understanding here mean you accept the way your partner is. Some peoples think that the more sameness you get with your partner such as hobby, food, drink ka, the more understanding you are or compatible. For me, it is ok if it was not the same because the different between you and the partner what make you more understand and compatible. Saling melengkapi dan memerlukan orang kate kan. Kalo dah dua2 asyik same je dari setiap sudut, bosan kot,,,dull, x interesting. But xde lah sume x same,mesti ada chemistry gak,,,mathematic ke,fizik ke,,,hahaXD And that chemistry is something that will come when it is the time.

So,,,this is my opinion and principal. Different peoples, different principal, ways, opinion. Itulah ciri manusia kan, unik. Apa2 or mane2 pendapat sy raikan. Seronok dgr pendapat org boleh menambah ilmu J

p/s : 2 papers lagi,,,pastu abis exam!... Final sem 1 drpd 6 sem,,,hahaXD

Wordless Thursday

2012-12-19T21:54:00.000-08:00

As salam,,,

I hate good ending. I want that good be forever with me. If it was end, remembering it was painful to me. I will be missing it. So damn hurtful. Asking question like why do we have ending merely solve nothing. Live on reality not fantasy. When peoples want to escape from something, they will create a world where they build there own dreams with no obstacles. If it was in reality, that was impossible. Life were meant to be difficult and lot of obstacles. Hate it, like it or not....the only option is to accept it.

Well, there is a reason why i wrote this thing....next week will be study week and that mean ending of first semester will be coming soon. Time flies so fast. I do realize. Others were excited to go home but me,,,don't know how to describe. Terasa macam na pergi sabah pulak,,,ehehe ^^ Pelik kan,,,kalo org tnyer, takkan x na balik rumah kot? Eh,,skati ak la~ lalala~ Kat rumah,ak akn jadi statik. Ak ni bukan org statik. Tahu x org statik tu ap? iaitu duduk suatu tempat x wat ape2. Owhhh,,,sgt bukan diriku. Mesti na kuar,jenjalan,,,i do enjoy walking around and if it a work, i do enjoy "busy" work. Ak penah bgthu kwn matrik ak,,,masa tu ak jadi bendahari and ak mmg busy time tu. Bukan stakat bendahari je ak jadi, AJK hadiah pun ak yg handle. Ak x gila kuasa. Dah ad org offer amik la kan. Peluang utk belajar bende baru terutama skali bab2 pengurusan organisasi ni. Ak bgthu dye, ak seronok sgt buat kerje ni, walaupun busy, ak seronok, busy yang bermakna. Penat yg berbaloi. Berkerjasama dgn org2 yg hebat.

Itu maknanya, kepuasaan dari segi hati sgt bernilai dan sgt x rugi. Gembira + penat + seronok + dpt pengalaman baru + dpt kwn baru + enjoy = Kepuasaan hati yg mantap ^_^ Ada org sgt menekan kepuasaan dr segi material dan wang. Ak x menafikan bende tu penting but we have to balance. That thing can be gone anytime. Can be dull and boring. Takkan na hidup mcm tu. Bile hidup kat U ni, otak ak kadang2 teringat kat kat movie 3 Idiots. Point cerita tu ialah, belajar sambil enjoy. Belajar tu harus tp dgn cara yg enjoy. Mgkin x sume org mcm tu tp for me, i prefer that.

Actually, i've no idea na tulis apa,,,tibe2 je idea sume ni kluar. Tanpa membuang masa, terus menukilkannya di blog yg da lama x dih"update" ni. Berhabuk sudah. Anyway, all the best for final exam and i wish to score the best.

p/s : Da la cuti ni balik 22 jan, abis exam 11 jan,,mmg ak x thu na wat pe,,, hmm,,can someone bring me jenjalan in sarawak?

Malaysia itu Indah sebenarnya...

2012-12-13T11:02:00.001-08:00

As salam and Greeting~

Hi y'oll,,,ap punya bahasa tah kan,,,merosakkan~ jgn tiru k,,,iboh tiru k,,,

Anyway,it such a long time and i hardly wrote anything. Sbb seronok duk kat sini smpai x tersempat nak tulis,hehe~ Many of my friends asking me,"apa yg bestnyer kat sana (sarawak)?". My answered, "dtg la sini klo na thu". Jawapan malas sebenarnyer tu, kalo na diikutkan best kat sini. Totally different from peninsular. One thing la kan why i like sarawak,,is because of their faces. Their faces were beautiful and very native-looked...ya,native. It was like,here is the other part of Malaysia which is unique and beautiful and amazing and i wish i could know it earlier and now i know how BEAUTIFUL Malaysia is,,,i know that Malaysia is not that dull,,,kalo kat semenanjung tu, 3 kaum tu je la yg main dalam kepala otak. Tak ke bosan? tak thu la kan, ke ak sorang je yg rase.dont know la kan...kmk sik tauk klo kmk sorang jak rse. (Since i learn the ansos, i was being carefully with the term of races and ethnicity^^ because we had been taught of the meaning, it was amazing and now i know what is the "real" race and ethnicity,,,)

Thank God that i had been chosen to take anthropology and sociology a.k.a ansos in UNIMAS. Right now, what i can say is, the course matched with my personality. I can expressed my feeling through it. It is about human which is what i wanted to know the most in my life because humans is unique and when i say unique, each of them is different. Not all the same. Because of that,,,humans are diverse and problems will arises. I want to seek the way to solve it because i hate to see riot, i hate to see people arguing on each other in an aggressive way by saying bad words, i hate chaos....i want peace,,,,even in a family,,i cried when i see my parents arguing, i cried when i see what happening in Malaysia right now.I did. My question is, why?? Don't we have brain given by god to think?, don't we have tongue given by god to spread nice words to the others? why don't we use that properly? Think is to find a solution to all of these problems. Indeed it will be though, even the social scientist such as Durkheim, Marx, Weber take a long time to observe and came up with an idea and solution to this problems.

I wish i could came up with some kind of theory that can be use as a solution. But, my mind still on the reality. Even though there are thousands solutions, it can never be totally solved. It can but not all. At least there are some solutions to make an aid to the society. Sometimes i think, i dream big but can i ever make it? who knows right,,,only God knows it. But don't hope to much,,, just go with the flow.

p/s : sem satu mahu abis sudah,,,may this coming second sem will be more better...God willing,,,aamiin =)

Sarawak,,, i am coming again!

2012-10-29T04:28:00.000-07:00

As salam,,,

Lama gilak kamek sik tulis dalam blog ni. Rindu,,rindu=D haha,my first attempt wrote in bhs melayu Sarawak in this blog. First time ak dgr bhs sarawak ni mase kecik2 dulu time iklan Maybank yg sorang perempuan ni dari Sarawak blajar kat overseas call parent dye and speak bhs Sarawak with her mom. The first word that i learned from her in bhs Sarawak is "engak irau". The commercial break show her father had a harimau tatoo if i not mistaken at his betis and her mom told that do not worry,her father is strong~^^

At that moment,i started to think that how is the Sarawak peoples? How is the Sarawak places look like? it was very attracted to me,, ni lah yg bermain dlm fikiran ak. 8 years ago,i had been to Sarawak with my family. One of the reasons of courselah wanted to have a nice vacation and the sweet part is my father want to give me chance to naik belon~ awwww,,,touching sy =') we go Sri Aman and lived at my father's friend house.

The best moment is when my father's friend brought us to rumah panjang. Masa tu kan ak kecik lagi,so dalam otak ak pun berlegar2 ayat2 sume."owh,,rumah panjang,,ada belajar kat sekolah ni,dye panggil rumah panjang sebab rumah dye memang panjang pastu tinggi,,,". Inilah pemikiran kanak2 aku.

Sesampai ak di rumah panjang tu, i saw many pokok lada. Again bermain2 dlm otak ak utk membina ayt,,,"aah,,yela,,,kan ada belajar kat sekolah yg kat sarawak ada banyk pokok lada,,mcm na rse skit pulak,," Masuk2 je rumah panjang tu,the spaces inside the house is wide and there are many doors leads to the family room.I guess.I heard there were someone watching the TV inside the room and they have astro. Hebat kan mereka?? =)

Then,they served us with biskut and air teh =) all of them gathered around us and only my father's friend je yg speak with them because only him can understand what they are talking about. There was one of these peoples talking to my brother and my brother just anguk2,,,then i think,"abg ni faham ke ap orang tu ckp?" then my father's friend mencelah,,,yg ni ak fhm ap yg my father's friend try to speak,,,dye ckp kat org tu yg abg ak ni x reti ckp bhs dyorang pun,,,just abg aku ni je buat2 faham.Ak time tu na tersenyum ada,tergelak ada,,,malu my bro,,hahaXD

One thing la kan,after we finished minum,,,they will tuang air teh tu. For the first time is ok la kan,,then for the many times,,after we finished je minum air teh tu,they again will tuang and tuang air teh inside our cup. Then i monolog,"kalo mcm ni bile na habis ni,,,kang x abis minum kang rasa bersalah pulak,,,tapi bila habis minum kang,mesti org tu tuang lagi,,,mcmne niiii~~" My father's friend pun ckp la kat my family,,,dyorang memang suke tuang air after the guest abis minum.,,,Owhhhhh,they treated us very nice la =D

Actually mase ak dtg umah panjang tu,they having a problem. How did i know,from my father's friend la. I didnt quite remember what was the problem but the idea is that dyorang ada masalah dalam menentukan ketua rumah panjang tersebut. A long story. I think masa dulu,they should be this guy yg jadi ketua but then time tu he is still a young boy,so x ley jd ketua because muda lagi kot.Someone else yg gantikan but now he is no longer a young boy anymore and he should become the leader. The problem is maybe he didn't want to become the ketua kot,,,something like that la the story. Tu je la yg ak ley ingat~

While we were gathered,there is a one girl,,,i like her because she is sooo beautiful. Putih melepak,have a long black hair and cantik laa. Jeles ak time tu. Masa tu la a fikir yg orang Sarawak ni cantik2 and the guy pulak hensem2. Serious. They are soo handsome and beautiful. Time tu jugak ak berangan...haha,adoiXD

Anyway,this is my story when im in Sarawak 8 years ago and i never thought that i will be here again. I am happy and you know what,,,im falling in love with Sarawak <3 p="p">

Gambar yg di google kan~~

Atas langit ada langit,bawah bumi ada bumi

2012-08-29T11:15:00.000-07:00

As salam,,,

Maybe this is last entry before i'm going to Sarawak.Yes,i'm sad.I'm sad because i will leave my family for a long time and my lovely friends.I will not going update this blog for months i guess since i don't buy a notebook yet and i will miss my blog so much :'(

Everything would change after this and i am going to be a woman and not a "kiddy" girl anymore.I really hope so.There were a lot of thing that i wanted to change myself and i really hope it really happen.Insy-ALLAH,aamiin =)

As for this entry,i actually wanted to dedicate this post for someone whom i admire and respect.I dont know whether that person will ever read this post,but deep in my heart,i wish that person read it.I am not gonna mention the name of the person here.It confidential,,,hehe ^_^

23 March 2009

That was the day when i was admitted to MRSM Bentong,Pahang.I don't think too much about it and i kind of blur "what going on" on that day.I quite excited about it because what i want at that moment was to find friends and study! yup! that's all.I've wrote about my feeling on the first day at MRSM in previous entry.So i will not gonna wrote it again.This day was the first day that i met eye to eye with that person.To be honest,i didn't really care about that moment.I just wanted to walk around,to see how the new school enviroment is,my hostel,whose my roomates and all about the school.But one thing,i do remember what had been said by that person,but not the full sentence,something like this,,,"Kat sini cuaca dia panas,kene banyak minum air putih.Depan banggunan akedemik banyak pokok hijau,so nak belajar tenang bile tgk pokok2 hijau tu..." that's all i remember.=) (ok,,,senyum sorang2 depan komputer,,,hahaXD)

To be honest,that person taught me a lot on being a mature person and a woman^_^ (yes,it is a matter to become a "woman",,,big different between a girl and a woman=)) Critics that had been given to me by that person,sometimes make me down,,,and i felt worthless.I felt bad,and i started to assume things that i should not.Sometimes i think other person are far more better than me from that person's view and i am just ,,,nothing.It stress me out and i do have some complication with "identity" at that time.I argue with myself for not being a good one and being such an unappropriated person.Deep in my heart,i know that i make that person felt,,,guilty.It may also felt annoyed by my action and hurt i guess.Only ALLAH know how do i feel at that moment.But now,,,4 years had past by and when i think about it again,,,it actually critics that taught me to be a strong person and who really am i =)

Learn from experiences.One thing i learnt from that person.It teach me on how to be more appreciative.What past do to you is a mark for you to start a new journey for the future.Take it as a lesson,put all the hard things aside and move on.A cliche sentence,"let bygone be bygone" =3 It easy to say but hard to make it into action.Well,i think we must have the courage to ACCEPTED the past.To accepted what wrongs we have done and don't be ashamed for the past mistakes.Make a change~ =D

Try to be a strong person.Since i was 16 at that time,i was a "fragile" girl.Make a decision all based on heart and mind was bit ridiculous.So,when i want to cry,i just cry without thinking more further.I just said what i wanted to say.What my heart say and what i'm thinking,i just follow it.To easy and weak.But still that person giving advice and sometimes i felt i am just a burden.

There are things that had been promised.I still keep it in my mind.It was sad when it was mention on our last gathering.I could not believe that i have gone through all of the obstacles.Alhamdulillah,i made it =) because,mine,for this 2 years,were not so good years in my life.But it's ok since i met some wonderful person which give me spirit to hang on for this 2 years.I am happy for it.I am very thankful and i wish one day i could show that how strong am i and being a success person.Insy-ALLAH =)

One of my favorite quote from that person,,,

"Atas langit ada langit,bawah bumi ada bumi"

"Walau hebat mana pun diri anda,ada org lagi hebat dari anda,dan sebaliknya"

p/s : I wish i could know that person more better,,,i don't want to see only from one side because i don't want to simply judge good all the time because i realize that human are not perfect,so i didn't want to get so much hope on what do i see now.I afraid my heart will get hurt.I really hope ALLAH will give chance for us to know each other...insy-ALLAH,,,aamiin~ (doa tp perlukan usaha,,,betul tak? ^_^'')

Kawan dan Kekasih

2012-08-26T00:43:00.002-07:00

As salam,,,

"Berkawan biar beribu,

Berkasih biar satu"

Haa,tu dia,,,mesti penah dengar kan pepatah melayu ni =) kat dalam iklan radio dulu ada x silap ak.Masa first time dengar,excited,betul jugak tu.Berkawan takpe kalau ramai,lagi bagus sebenarnya,TAPI ada juga tak bagus sebenarnyer,,,.Berkasih memang kene satu je,,,baru la setia namanya.Walau apa2 pun,intepretasi setiap manusia itu berbeza.Ada yang kata,"Berkawan dan berkasih tu biar seribu!" Tak tahu la kan,makna itu boleh dipelbagaikan.Macam na bagi hujah dalam bab2 agama ni,cannot stick to one "kitab" only.We have to considered the others "kitab" too.Kene jugak tgk pandangan orang lain.Baru la adil dan memudahkan bagi sesetengah perkara =)

Aku pun ada pandangan ak tersendiri.Bagi ak,berkawan itu "perlu" ramai sebab pertama2 skali untuk mencari pengalaman.Pengalaman hidup ke,pengalaman kerja ke,pengalaman bercinta ke,pengalaman belajar ke.Kita boleh tahu macam mana orang lain menghadapi saat2 tertentu dengan bercerita kat kita.Daripada situ kita boleh ambil iktibar dan gunakan dalam kehidupan kita akan datang.Tetapi,haa,ada satu lagi pepatah nak disebutkan lagi,,,

"Buang yang jernih,

ambil yang keruh"

Jangan la melulu je kalo na ambil iktibar tu.Kene tengok keadaan sekeliling.Sesuai ke tidak? Boleh ke tidak? Perlu ke tidak? Consider every aspects.Yang kedua ni more to personal reason la,sbb boleh g jenjalan sana sini ye dak? hehe~ Mean ada setiap negeri tu ada la kawan kan,senang skit kalo na mintak tolong in case kalo na vacation kat sane ke~ huhu :) Lepas tu boleh belajar cakap dialek dyorang.Tambah ilmu lagi ye dak?

senyum tiga! =3 Boleh tahu budaya kat sana macam mana? makanan apa yang femes? Kan seronokkkkk tu,,,,yeayyy =D Kalo ada kawan overseas lagi la best,bnyk bnde boleh thu,,,bnyk bahasa boleh thu^^

Yang ketiga,dpt berlatih skill communication.Insy-ALLAH,kalo kite ramai kawan,kita akan tahu mcmne nak "berbicara".Boleh jadi peramah kalau yg sebelum ni kurang peramah ke or kalo sebelum ni pemalu ke.Bila kita da kenal ramai orang ni,actually kalo kite pandai tackle sikit,kita boleh tahu personaliti orang tu macamna.Walaupun takdela 100% accurate tapi at least we can adjust setting keadaan tu.Kalau orang yang macam ni,lain caranya kalau na borak2 ni.Kalau orang yang macam ni pulak,lain caranya.It may sound like "selfish" when doing all of this sort of things.But,not all "selfish" things are bad.In living,you will need skills to survive.

Tapi ada syaratnyer jugak dalam mencari kawan yg "beribu" ni.Paling penting kene la cari kawan yang BAIK.Baik mcm mano pulak la tu kan? Baik dari segi akhlak,percakapan,perbuatan,,,,insy-ALLAH,,,kita pun jadi baik.

Di dalam kitab Hidayatul Salikin, Imam Ghazali ada menyatakan : ” Hendaklah kita memilih sahabat dengan 5 syarat.”

Syarat-syaratnya ialah :

1. Orang yang berakal : Berkawan dengan orang yang jahil akan menimbulkan persengketaan.

2. Baik dari segi peribadi dan akhlaknya: Elakkan bersahabat dengan orang yang jahat dan buruk perangainya kerana ianya akan mempengaruhi kita.

3. Orang yang soleh : Jangan berkawan dengan orang yang fasik kerana ianya akan sentiasa mengekalkan dosa yang besar dan kecil.

4. Jangan berkawan dengan orang yang sangat kasih pada dunia : Kasih pada dunia di sini bermaksud sesuatu perkara yang bertentangan dengan suruhan Allah. Jika berkawan dengan orang yang sebegini, dia akan terikut-ikut dengan tabiat rakannya.

5. Orang yang benar perkataannya : Janganlah suka berkawan dengan orang yang suka berdusta. Orang yang suka berdusta itu tidak dapat dipercayai agama dan dunianya. Demikian itu akan membawa kepada kebinasaan dunia.

Ada tetapi lagi,,,ni adalah garis2 panduan dalam mencari kawan.Jangan la pulak bile kita nampak orang yg x selari dengan panduan ni,kutuk situ,kutuk sane,mentang-mentang la dye "kurang baik",kite pun hentam dia habis2 tanpa memberi peluang.Mungkin kita boleh ajak dia buat aktiviti2 yang berfaedah,memberi nasihat,,,atau senang citer,mengajak kepada kebaikan.Kan indah bersahabat itu =) Maka tak terhenti la dakwah kite,masih berterusan dengan wadah yang berlainan tetapi efektif.Insy-ALLAH^_^

Yang seterusnya~ mudah2an kalau kite memperluaskan skop jaringan sosial kita,mungkin kita boleh jumpa jodoh kita.Insy-ALLAH,,,dengan izin ALLAH =) Ini merupakan salah satu usaha selain memperbaiki diri.Orang kata jodoh akan datang sendiri,ye,setuju tapi bukan lah dengan duduk tak buat apa2.Memang tak datang la.Mcm duit.Kita nak duit,tapi x kerja.Mcm mane tu?? Usaha takde.Hasil pun tiada.

"Bagi tiap-tiap seorang ada malaikat penjaganya silih berganti dari hadapannya dan dari belakangnya, yang mengawas dan menjaganya (dari sesuatu bahaya) dengan perintah Allah. Sesungguhnya Allah tidak mengubah apa yang ada pada sesuatu kaum sehingga mereka mengubah apa yang ada pada diri mereka sendiri. Dan apabila Allah menghendaki untuk menimpakan kepada sesuatu kaum bala bencana (disebabkan kesalahan mereka sendiri), maka tiada sesiapapun yang dapat menolak atau menahan apa yang ditetapkan-Nya itu, dan tidak ada sesiapapun yang dapat menolong dan melindungi mereka selain daripada-Nya."

(Ar-Rad:11)

Lain pulak kalau nak berkasih ni.Sebenarnyer,berkasih ni luas maknanya.Boleh jadi kekasih,boleh jadi perasaan kasih sayang.Untuk kekasih,biarlah satu =) Tetapi untuk berkasih-sayang ni yakni perasaan perlulah disebarkan kan~~ Terutama skali pada ahli keluarga kite,itu penting.Second,comes friends.Third,masyarakat sekeliling.Dan cara nak sebarkan kasih sayang tu bukan dengan hanya BERCAKAP sahaja.There are many ways to express love~ Maybe by giving things,maybe by helping others,maybe by treat something for them,maybe by body languages.Depends on the situation=)

Tapi kalau kekasih yang satu ni,special sikit,,,huhu~ kekasih di sini bermaksud yang halal ye.Iaitu husband or wife=) Sebabkan xde pengalaman kawen lagi,so x thu sgt la kan.Cuma nak beritahu,terutama sekali perempuan,termasuk la saya,bila kita na cari suami,kene cari yang betul2 fhm akan tanggungjawab seorang suami,baru pandai jaga isteri.Perempuan,once dah kawin,itulah kekasih sehidup semati dia.Kene layan dengan penuh kasih sayang,kene lemah-lembut,baru sayangggg~ Lelaki,kalo da jalan sekali,ada lagi tiga kosong.TETAPI diingatkan kpd kaum Adam,itupun kalau anda yakin yg anda dpt berlaku adil.ITU PENTING! Jgn ingat na seronok je~(Amaran yg keras! tetapi lembut~^_^)

Dan ingatlah,kekasih yang paling utama skali adalah ALLAH.Kerana-NYA,kite diberi rasa cinta,kerana-NYA,kite diberi rasa kasih syg.Kerana-NYA,kite dikurniakan someone yg akan bersama kita sampai akhir hayat kite=)Walau apa2pun yg kite lakukan,ingatlah ALLAH sebanyak2 yang mungkin.Insy-ALLAH,,,"meletup" cinta tu<3 div="div" nbsp="nbsp">

P/S: Another 5 days before going to Sarawak =)

Antara Puasa & Raya

2012-08-16T03:13:00.001-07:00

As salam,,,,

Ramadan hampir berlalu pergi,sedih,,,bagaikan anak yang ingin menyambungkan pelajaran di luar negara,terpaksa meniggalkan tanah air dan keluarga tercinta untuk suatu tempoh yang panjang.Sepanjang tempoh itu si anak berusaha menuntut ilmu dalam menggapai sebuah kejayaan.Untuknya ketemu keluarga tercinta itu belum pasti kerana ketentuan Illahi itu sangat kuat,tiada siapa boleh menduga apa yang bakal terjadi pada masa yang akan datang.

Itulah antara analogi yg boleh saya ketengahkan.Adakah masih boleh bersua lagi untuk si anak berjumpa dgn keluarganya.Sayu bukan jika memikirkan hal itu.Sepanjang ramadan ini saya percaya,kebanyakkan daripada kita telah berusaha sedaya upaya untuk mencari pahala dengan berbuat sebanyak amalan yang mungkin.Mana tidak,bulan ramadan adalah bulan dimana pahala sunatnya diberi ganjaran seperti pahala fardu.Masy-ALLAH.Hebat bukan? Tapi apabila tamat tempoh itu,adakah kita masih lagi boleh bersua untuk ramadan yag akan datang? Waallahualam.Jadi dengan baki-baki hari ramadan yang ada ini,marilah kita memanfaatkannya.Tiada istilah lambat dalam mengejar pahala yakni "mengejar" ALLAH.

"Dari Jabir RA, Rasulullah SAW bersabda, “Di malam terakhir Ramadhan, menangislah tujuh petala langit dan tujuh petala bumi dan para malaikat, karena akan berlalunya Ramadhan, dan juga keistimewaannya. Ini merupakan musibah bagi umatku.”

Kemudian ada seorang sahabat bertanya, “Apakah musibah itu, ya Rasulullah?”

“Dalam bulan itu segala doa mustajab, sedekah makbul, segala kebajikan digandakan pahalanya, dan siksaan kubur terkecuali, maka apakah musibah yang terlebih besar apabila semuanya itu sudah berlalu?”

Ketika mereka memasuki detik-detik akhir penghujung Ramadhan, air mata mereka menetes. Hati mereka sedih."

Tetapi jangan ingat bulan ramadan ini sahaja kita bersungguh-sungguh.Bulan lain sekadar biasa-biasa.Contohnya,bukan bulan ramadan sahaja pembacaan al-quran itu dilansungkan malah ia perlu dilakukan setiap hari tidak kiralah bulan apa sekali pun,pembacaan al-quran itu tetap perlu diteruskan mengikut kemampuan masing-masing.Selain itu kita juga perlulah bertadabbur ayat-ayat suci Al-quran.Hal ini supaya kita dapat mengingatkan diri kita tentang siapa itu ALLAH,kisah-kisah umat terdahulu dan pengajarannya dan sebagainya.Insy-ALLAH.

Haa~ itulah prolog pendek yang ak wat sempena akhir ramadan ni.Tapi ramai je yg kurang sedih da,ala maklumlah raye na dekat...tak salah pun na bergembira,tp biarlah berpada-pada =)

Dalam hadis daripada isteri Rasulullah s.a.w Ummul Mukminin ‘Aishah r.aha:

“Bahawa pada hari raya Fitri atau Adha, Abu Bakr masuk ke rumahnya (rumah ‘Aishah) dan Nabi s.a.w berada di sisinya. Ketika itu ada dua penyanyi wanita sedang menyanyi mengenai kebanggaan Ansar pada Hari Bu‘ath (peperangan antara Aus dan Khazraj). Abu Bakr berkata: “Suara syaitan” (sebanyak dua kali). Nabi s.a.w bersabda: “Biarkan mereka wahai Abu Bakr! Setiap kaum ada hari raya dan sesungguh hari ini adalah hari raya kita” (Riwayat al-Bukhari dan Muslim).

Raya-raya gak,tp jgn sampai lupa pada tuhan.Tiada salah untuk berhibur dalam islam selagi mana tidak berlebihan.Macam mane pulak dgn ak? Hmm,,,raya thn ni bg ak agak berbeza,sbbnyer ni first time ak beraya di rumah baru,so x banyak la jenjalan ke sana sini sbb dekat dgn kampung.Satu lagi sbb lepas je raya,persediaan nak masuk U pulak~ senyum tiga! =3

Moga ramadan kali ini menjadi sesuatu yang bermakna buat kita sume.Kalo rase mcm x berkesan ramadan kali ni,,,insy-ALLAH,berdoalah untuk berjumpa ramadan yg seterusnya.Berterima kasihlah kepada ALLAH selalu kerana mengurniakan nikmat yang tak terhingga.Nikmat bernafas,nikmat perasaan gembira,nikmat makan,,,ya,nikmat tu =D Bila kita sentiasa bersyukur dgn nikmat yg ALLAH beri,maka insy-ALLAH setiap apa yg kita buat dalam kehidupan kita,sentiasa ALLAH itu di minda kita.Terasa cinta mula berputik~ aiwahhhh!

P/S: Jgn lupa untuk memohon keampunan kepada ALLAH juga,,,ALLAH suka bila mana hamba2-NYA sentiasa meminta2 kepadanya.

What will you get,is always the best,,,

2012-07-24T01:43:00.000-07:00

As salam,,,

Alhamdulillah,ak dpt UNIMAS,kos antropologi dan sosiologi,kos ni kos baru lg,harap dpt buat yg the best la~ =) Jauh tuuu kat Kota Semarahan,Sarawak,,huhu~ Xpe,jauh perjalanan,luas permandangan.Pepatah kliche.Walaupun jauh,ilmu tetap perlu di cari,dikejar demi masa hadapan.Tak kisah la blajar kat mana pun=)

Sebenarnyer ak dah pun ad beberapa impian bila ak na masuk u nnt.Dah ada time ak kat matrik lg.Ni sebenarnyer "kes tertunggak" ak kat matrik.Apa bende la pulak yg tertunggak ni kan? hahaXD maksud ak,apa2 aktiviti atau jawatan yg ak berniat na join semasa di matrik dulu tp disebabkan perkara2 tertentu ak x dpt na laksanakan makanya insy-ALLAH akn ak cuba capai di U nnt =D Antaranya?? Ak dulu na berniat na join jd AJK Surau tp keyakinan ak membuat ak ragu2.Same la jugak niat ak na jd JPP,ada dah kwn ak suh amik borang jd JPP tp sama jugak sebabnya,ak x berapa yakin dgn diri ak and ak ragu2.

Sebenarnyer sume ni alasan yg remeh,sbb kan alasan mcm ni,kite tkut utk tonjolkan diri.Hakikatnya ramai remaja yg sebegini termasuk ak.Tp ada jugak yg berani,bagus,,,suke tgk org yg cmni.Kalo x, xde sape lah yg na pegang jawatan tu sume.Habis biar camtu je.Mmg x la kann~ senyum tiga! =3.Honestly speaking,my intention was still there but not quite enough to reach at the top of it.Still need some motivations.We really need to try,to be off a little bit from the safe area that we use to be.

"How far is far; how high is high? We''ll never know until we try"

For me,as an muslim,we have to believe that when there is no effort to change your condition,you life will not be change.It had been told in Quran,obviously,,,

"Indeed, Allah will not change the condition of a people until they change what is in themselves."

"Sesungguhnya Allah tidak mengubah apa yang ada pada sesuatu kaum sehingga mereka mengubah apa yang ada pada diri mereka sendiri."

(Ar rad:11)

I really hope so that i can be someone that can help many people as much as i can.That what my aim in my life.There were two different situation that are,you're rich in term of money but not happiness and you're indeed a rich person but not in term of money.It was in term of happiness.Which one will you choose of?

=D Yang menjadi keutamaan itu adalah kekayaan dr segi hati.Insy-ALLAH hidup jadi senang dan aman dgn izin ALLAH.

"Abu Hurairah r.a telah berkata ia bahawa Rasulullah S.A.W bersabda yg bermaksud : Yang dikatakan kaya itu bukanlah kerana banyaknya harta tetapi sebenar-benar kaya adalah Kaya Jiwa"

Tapi bukanlah x boleh jadi kaya harta cuma kat sini diberi pengajaran bahawa supaya manusia tu x jadi tamak,sombong dan sebagainya drpd sifat2 yg x baik.Kalo dah kaya harta pun,ada bagusnya juga.Jadikan itu suatu wadah di mana kita boleh derma dekat rumah2 anak2 yatim atau kpd fakir2 miskin atau rumah2 kebajikan.Spend it in the name of ALLAH.

Ak sbenrnyer still miss zaman matrik,and macam2 perkara ak nak buat tp tak dpt.Macam2 perkara ak na capai tp x dpt.Masa yg diberi bagi ak sekejap sj sepanjang di matrik.Ada kawan2 yg masih lg ak x brapa na knal.Mungkin ada yg sudi,mungkin ad yg tak.Waallahualam.Husnozon =) Tp ak sgt bersyukur dpt berkawan dgn sume,mgkin ALLAH mmg nak kite berjumpe satu sama lain.Aku anggap sume kwn2 ak sbgai "hadiah" ALLAH kpd ak,mereka buatkan ak gembira,ceria,sentiasa senyum,ada jugak membuatkan ak sedih,sayu,x de mood and others.Hakikatnya,itu adalah lumrah kehidupan dan persahabatan.Kalo tak rapat pun @ tak pernah kenal ke,insy-ALLAH satu hari nnt ALLAH akn bg peluang.

“Dan mereka merancang(tipu daya),Allah juga merancang(membalas tipu daya),Dan ALLAH sebaik-baik Perancang(membalas tipu daya)”

(Al imran:54)

Ayat ni mengisahkan tentang Nabi isa a.s di mana kaumnya merancang untuk membunuh Nabi isa a.s.Walaupun bagaimanapun,rancangan mereka dimusnahkan oleh ALLAH dan kat sini boleh kita lihat bahawa rancangan ALLAH itu jauh lebih hebat.Dan tidak boleh dipertikaikan sama sekali! Walaupun ayat ini utk peristiwa Nabi isa a.s,tak bermakna kita x boleh applied kan dalam kehidupan seharian kita di mana kita hanya mampu merancang tetapi ALLAH lah yg menentukannya dan ALLAH lah sebaik2 perancang.

P/S : Masih tak terlambat lagi utk ak memberikan ucapan tahniah buat semua kwn2 ak yg dpt U dan dpt mana2 tawaran oversea.Congratulations.Semoga ALLAH permudahkan urusan kita di dunia dan akhirat.Semoga kita sentiasa dalam lindungan ALLAH dan Salam ramadhan.Senyum tiga! =3

Tinta kepada hati,,,

2012-07-22T05:51:00.000-07:00

Mengeluh,,,
Menangis,,,
Merenung,,,
Membisu,,,
Memikir,,,
Mengadu,,,
Wahai sang hati,
Apa lagi yang kau mahu?
Tidak cukupkah selama ini,
Kau memberikan secebis hatimu,
pada yang bukan tempatnya?
Apa lagi yang kau mahu?
Luka mana lagi yang kau mahu tanggung?
Kau di tipu,kau diperdaya,,,
apakah kau sedar semua itu?
Kau tahu betapa peritnya,
Tapi mengapa kau masih lagi mengharap?
mengharap pada yang bukan tempatnya,,,
Sedarlah wahai hati,,,
Tuhan Yang Maha Esa itu sedang melihatmu,
Tuhan Yang Maha Esa itu sedang menilaimu,
Sejauh manakah nilai cintamu terhadap-NYA,
Kembali lah,,,
Kembali lah,,,
Menuju ke jalan-NYA,,,
Kejar lah tuhanmu itu,
Selagi mana yang kau mampu.

p/s : aku juga manusia biasa,yang mempunyai hati dan perasaan.Aku tuju kan puisi in khas buat diriku dan kpd sesiapa saja yg membaca.Pesanan buat diriku dan juga teman2 ku.Jgn terlalu percaya pada cinta manusia.Jgn terlalu mengharap pada yang bukan tempatnya.Jgn terlalu percaya pada janji2 manis manusia.Di kala hati resah,sayu,kembali lah kpd-NYA.Pada-NYA janji itu pasti.Setia dan cinta-NYA kpdmu tiada berbelah bagi.Waallhualam.

Ilmu dan Dakwah,,,sama-sama penting =)

2012-07-11T08:12:00.000-07:00

As salam,,,

Alhamdulillah.Dpt lg ak menulis entry yg seterusnya.Hari ini ak x thu na tulis apa.Bukan apa sbb bnyk sgt idea na tulis tjuk apa.That's why otak ni jd kabut skit.Tp seboleh2nya of course na tulis something yg dpt memberi manfaat kpd yg laen and to myself.Mungkin tjuk yg ak na tulis hari ini double maknanya ad dua tajuk dalam satu post.Harap sume dpt membaca dgn penuh kesabaran ye,senyum tiga! =3 Ak teringat lagi meeting pertama x salah ak,utk "KARIM",Ustaz Hazrin ada mengingatkan yg "manusia yg baik adalah manusia yg dpt memberi manfaat kpd yg lain".I am touched with those sentence and from that moment i remember that verse very much.Thank you to Ustaz =)

Apa yg ak na tulis hari ni berkaitan dgn apa yg ak baca baru2 ni.Bila ak bace berulang2 kali,ak mesti fikir ,adakah ak seorang yg mcm tu? Ap yg perlu kita buat utk menangani masalah sebegini? Takut pun ad gak but at the same time,it was a truth that we have to realize in fact it was happening nowdays.It enough to terrified me actually.Ayat dia berbunyi begini...

"Terkadang kita hanya membahaskan perkara yang berbentuk teori sehinggakan melupakan praktikal.Maka jadilah kita orang yang hanya pandai beretorik tanpa menghiraukan masalah membarah di hadapan mata yg menyanggah ilmu kita.Tujuan kita mempelajari ilmu aqidah adalah untuk mengenali serta membenarkan segala apa yg dtg dari ALLAH SWT seterusnya menyeru umat sedunia agar berpegang dgn keyakinan tersebut.Namun kini apa yg berlaku kebanyakan ahli agama terlalu asyik berbahas,lupa di hadpan mata terdapat golongan yg menyanggah matlamat mendaulatkan ketuanan islam."

"Sibuk berbahas,malah ada yg sanggup bergaduh mengenai cabang aqidah.Pada masa yang sama lupa akan tugas yg perlu dibuat demi menterjemahkan aqidah tersebut."

"Buat masa kini kita hanya cemerlang di dalam perbahasan berkenaan istilah,mahir dalam kajian ilmiah.Tetapi kita keciciran satu aspek penting iaitu praktikal yang dijadikan matlamat utama dalam perbahasan aqidah."

Imam Al-Ghazali mengatakan :

"Ketahuilah bahawa perdebatan yg bertujuan untuk menang,membesar diri,menonjolkan diri,menzahirkan kelebihan,menampakkan kemuliaan serta perhatian org lain dgn hanya ingin menconteng arang di muka pihak yang lain pada masa yg sama berhasrat menzahirkan kelebihan serta kebaikan diri sendiri di mata manusia merupakan punca segala keburukan akhlak di sisi ALLAH SWT.Penyakit ini sgt disukai Iblis."

Imam Abi Muhammad Ibnu Qutaibah telah menegaskan :

"Sesungguhnya penuntut ilmu pada waktu dahulu mendengar untuk belajar,belajar untuk beramal,mendalami agama ALLAH SWT untuk dimanfaatkan dan dimanfaatkan.Namun apa yg berlaku sekarang,penuntut ilmu mendengar hanya untuk mengumpul ilmu.Ilmu tersebut semata-mata digunakan untuk perbahasan.Dengan itu mereka inginkan kemenangan dalam perbahasan malah berbangga dengan "kejayaan" itu."

Pertama-tama sekali,mari kita berdoa agar kita dijauhkan daripada penyakit sebegini dan moga ALLAH SWT guide kita pada jalan kebenaran.

"Guide us to the straight path"

"Tunjukilah kami jalan yang lurus"

(1:6)

Daripada ayat2 yg berada kat atas tu,ilmu tu adalah satu perkara yg "suci".Jangan mencemarkannya dgn melakukan perkara2 yg tak baik terhadap ilmu tersebut.Daripada "putih" jadi "hitam".Daripada "cantik" jadi "buruk".Daripada "wangi" jadi "busuk".Mengumpul ilmu itu adalah sangat penting.Tak kisah la ilmu ap pun asalkan bermanfaat dan yg paling penting ilmu agama.Pernah tak korang rase kecewa ataupun rasa down sebab tak ada sape like status anda yg bercirikan islamik atau bercirikan lawak ataupun bercirikan kata2 hikmah? Haaa,,,ATAUPUN pernah tak anda rse happy sgt dan bangga bila ramai org yg like status anda x kisah la status anda bercirikan apa2 pun? Haaa,,,Jaga2 dgn hati anda,syaitan sedang cuba menggoda anda.Dengan cara ap? Dengan cara berasa riak bila ada lebih dari sepuluh org like status anda?

Ada juga pernah ak tgk org berdebat kat FB.Emm,,,fenomena ni da bnyk kali ak nmpak dan baca.Ada yg baik dan ad yg juga x baiknyer.Seolah2 na menunjukkan ilmu yg ada di otak masing2.Ada jugak yg mengalah or cari kata sepakat.Alhamdulillah.Dan juga sebaliknya.Ada juga yg susah betul na berhenti meng"komen".Tak thu la bila nak benti.Dua2 ego.Ada sorang sokong yg satu pihak ni,ada org sokong yg satu pihak yg lain pulak.Ada juga yg amik perkara kebaikan di antara dua pihak ni.Pastu timbul pulak kes menyalah-nyalahkan pihak2 ni.And then komen jadi panjang lebar pastu tgk brape ramai yg like comment tu.Itulah antara "drama" dalam FB.Dah surut naik balik.Hal ini sahaja mengambarkan bahawa manusia itu pelbagai.Seperti pepatah melayu,"Rambut sama hitam tapi hati lain-lain".

Imam Syafi'i pernah berkata :

"Apabila aku berbincang dengan seseorang,tiada apa yg aku suka melainkan berusaha untuk bersepakat,menutup punca perselisihan dan membenarkannya.Keadaan ini menjadikan perbincangan tersebut sentiasa dalam pemeliharaan dan naungan ALLAH SWT.Dan aku tidak kisah sedikit pun ALLAH SWT menjadikan yg benar itu dari lidahku,mahupun dari lidahnya."

Sebenarnya,apa yg berlaku seperti perbezaan pandangan itu telah pun ditentukan.Ini merupakan salah satu fitrah yg tercipta untuk manusia.Tidak mungkin untuk menghapuskan sifat manusia yang ini kecuali dua2 pihak mengambil kata sepakat.

"And if your lord had willed,He could made mankind one community,but they will not cease to differ"

"Jikalau tuhanmu mengehendaki,tentu Dia menjadikan manusia umat yg satu,tetapi mereka sentiasa berselisih pandangan."

(11:118)

Ak da lama na menyuarakan pandangan ak tp ak ni bukan jenis yg berani sgt dan ak sgt terlalu memegang konsep,"Cermin diri dahulu sebelum "memberi cermin kpd org lain" (ak thu ayt ni mcm tak berapa nak betul tp maksud dye simple and the idea just one).Maksud dye kat sini ialah sebelum na tegur org lain,silalah tgk diri dulu.Perbetulkan diri dulu sebelum memperbetul diri org lain.Yup,ak sgt setuju pada konsep ini.Tapi kalo difikirkan balik,konsep ni seharusnya digunakan dgn cara yg bersederhana.Bukan sampai membuatkan diri kita berdiam selama yg mungkin dalam menegakkan hal kebenaran.Inilah salah satu punca org takut nak berdakwah,menegur org lain yg buat salah sbb tkut ditegur balik.Banyak kali dah org terjebak dalam situasi macam ni kan? Bila kite na tgur org yg buat salah,ada kemungkinan besar utk org tu jwb besar mcm ni,"ko igt ko tu bgus sgt ke nak nasihatkan org ni? Ape ko igt ko ustaz? Ustazah? Alim ulama? Diri sendiri pun terkontang kanting." ATAUPUN "Ko jgn ingat ko pkai tudung labuh,ko bgus sgt na bg tazkirah kat org ni" (yg ni mmg HOT betul!) ATAUPUN "Buat ap nak dgr nasihat ko sedangkan diri ko tu yg masih x menutup aurat? Ingat ko da bgus sgt la??".

Wahai hamba2 ALLAH yg sy sayangi sekalian,sy betul2 sygkan anda.Dalam berdakwah ataupun dalam ayat yg lain iaitu mengajak org berbuat kebaikan tak pernah pula sy mendengar bahawa syarat nak mengajak org berbuat kebaikan ni ialah org tersebut mestilah perfect in every aspect.

Imam Nawawi dalam Syarah Sahih Muslim menjelaskan : "Para ulama menyatakan bahawa tidak disyaratkan pada org yg mengajak kebaikan atau org yg mencegah pada kemungkaran untuk mencapai kesempurnaa dalam segala hal."

Menutup aurat dgn sempurna atau tidak sempurna itu satu hal yg lain.Sama juga dgn akhlak2 yg lain.Itu merupakan satu hal yg lain yg masih perlu diperbaiki pada masa yg sama.Islam tetap ISLAM.Dakwah tetap DAKWAH walaupun diri anda masih lagi tidak sempurna.Tokoh ulama kontemporari,Habib Umar bin Hafiz berkata,"Yang wajib atas kita semua adalah menjadi daie dan bukan diwajibkan kita menjadi kadi dan mufti.".Tetapi apabila ingin menyampaikan kebaikan,tetapkan niat dan ingatlah dua perkara ni iaitu,mengajak dirinya sendiri dan mengajak org lain.Insy-ALLAH.

Imam Ahmad pernah ditanya,"Apakah seseorang hamba tetap begitu sahaja (pasif dan beku) sehinggalah dirinya berasa benar2 sempurna,kemudian dia mahu berdakwah di jalan ALLAH?" Jawab beliau:"Wah,siapakah org (di dunia ini) sempurna?"

Hakikatnya,tiada siapa yg sempurna dalam dunia ini.Hanya ALLAH saja yg perfect.Kalo semua org nak tunggu perfect,maka dalam dunia ni semua org sibuk dgn aktiviti masing2 yg mana ingin memantapkan diri sendiri supaya jadi sempurna dan kerja2 untuk mengajak pada kebaikan diabaikan.Nak ke macam tu? Setiap insan mempunyai baik dan buruk.Mungkin kita nampak org tu indah belaka,macam senang je hidup dye.Tetapi kita x pernah thu ap yg pernah dye alami? Yg kita nmpak itu hanyalah luaran semata-mata.Kita tak ada kuasa na baca2 hati org ni.Itu kuasa ALLAH.Itu kerja ALLAH.

"O you who have believed,why do you say what you do not do!"

"Wahai orang-orang yg beriman! Mengapa kamu memperkatakan apa yang kamu tidak melakukan!

(61:2)

"Great is hatred in the sight of ALLAH that you say what you do not do"

"Amat besar kebencian di sisi ALLAH,kamu memperkatakan sesuatu perkara yg tidak kamu melakukan"

(61:3)

Ramai yg pernah dgr ayt suci Al-quran di atas ni di mana ALLAH sgt benci jika org yg menyuruh berbuat kebaikan itu sendiri x buat ap yg dia suruh org lain buat.ALLAH benci,sape x tkut? ALLAH murka lagi la tkut.Ingatlah,ayt ni suruh kita muhasabah diri.Bukan untuk menghindarkan diri kita terus untuk tidak mengajak org lain berbuat kebaikan walaupun diri kita masih x melaksanakan lagi.That's why masa kita nak tegur sesiapa sahaja,tetapkan niat."Ak na berdakwah ni adalah untuk diri sendiri ak jugak,dan ak akn cuba memperbaiki diri selepas ini dan cuba ikut ap yg ak sendiri ckp dan utk org lain juga,jauhkan ak dari ak bersifat riak dan takbur dan ujub,insy-ALLAH,aamiin."

Dari Anas r.a berkata,kami bertanya : "Ya Rasulullah kami tidak akan menyuruh orang untuk berbuat baik sebelum kami sendiri mengamalkan semua kebaikan dan kami tidak akan mencengah kemungkaran sebelum kami meninggalkan semua kemungkaran."

Maka nabi s.a.w bersabda,"Tidak bahkan serulah kepada kebaikan meskipun kalian belum mengamalkan semuanya, dan cegahlah dari kemungkaran meskipun kalian belum meninggalkan semuanya."

(HR.Thabrani).

Imam Hasan Al-basri:

"Sesungguhnya aku sedang menasihatimu,bukanlah bereti akulah yg terbaik dalam kalangan kamu.Bukan juga yg paling soleh dalam kalangan kamu,kerana ak juga pernah melampaui batas untuk diri sendiri.Seandainya seseorang itu hanya dapat melakukan dakwah apabila dia sempurna,nescaya tidak akan ada pendakwah.Maka akan jadi sikitlah org yg memberi peringatan."

P/S : Maafkan sy klo ada terkasar bahasa atau tersalah dalam penulisan ini.Dialu-alukan bg sesiapa yg mahu menegur dgn penulisan sy yg x seberapa ni.Jazakumullah khairan katsiran =)

I am not a monster,,,

2012-07-05T11:35:00.000-07:00

As salam,,,

Actually,all this time,i have been hesitated to make an entry about something that i like.Specifically,my
favourite band.I guess i should not because i didn't want to locked up what is in my heart.This is only something that i like and i would like to share to the rest of my readers and anyone who read my blog.Just lately,i caught up with this hip hop band from korea and i really amazed with their new album.It is call ALIVE =) senyum tiga! =3 So,fans of k-pop out there especially the V.I.P,you know what i mean.It was BIGBANG!

Maybe my post for today is not,how do i want to say this,is not like my post before.I just want to chill myself a little bit and jumped out from the circle i used to be and show my true colour,,,heheXD I want to say something about this group from my perspective.I've known them since i was 16 i guess and the first song that i heard from this group is "HARU HARU".It was indeed a japanese's song but a korean group sing it.I find the song was an enjoyable song and basically the type of song that i like.The second song also a japanese's song,"Koe ki kikasete" where it was delightful and fun.Third was a solo song from one of the group member,the leader,G-Dragon called heartbraker.The song make me feel like i want to dance and futuristic i guess.It suite me well actually.So that is how i "meet" with BIGBANG.At first,i didn't care about them but i wished i could hear another great songs from their group and guess whattt~~ i found it at last on their latest album.For me it was an amazing.The tune of the songs is great and i really go with it! =D

I think this album show their sincerity about their past and they want to start a new life again since they had a rough time last year especially with GD's and Daesung's problem.No wonder their album called ALIVE.Really get along with their songs in the album."Monster" which make up my title for today post is one of the songs in the album really portrayed what they feel in their heart.Well the MV,i'm not into it too much.Maybe because it was too strong,,,I don't know.Also with "Bad boy" and "Blue".Both of this songs i guess contain a soft side of BB and i can feel their calmness.While "Ego" show their understanding."Fantastic baby" what makes this album a WOW!! It was a dance's songs,electro style and techno i guess.Very energetic's song.As for the MV,again i am not into it and i just don't like somehow.In "Still alive" song,there was a part that i like,the GD's part and the melody is something "new" to my ears.I don't know how to tell but yeah,i like that part.They are another few songs but i did not finish hearing it yet but my fave one is "Monster".

Overall,this album reflect on their maturity.It was like giving them the second chance to make a whole new life again and go as a one team again after working out years on their solo debut.They want to show who they are and are happy to be back again.After watching some of their latest interview,i felt that they are being honest to their feeling and trying not to hide anything except for their private's life to their fans a.k.a V.I.P.They trying to make happiness in their fans heart and enjoy of their songs.They are now on world's tour for 16 countries and 35 cities and Malaysia is one on the list.That was a huge concert and i guess it was a big succession for them.Fighting!

P/S : Btw,puasa dah na dekat ni,,,Bulan Ramadhan dtg lg=)

Being in overseas is my dream!

2012-07-01T10:04:00.003-07:00

As salam,,,

Setiap orang mesti ada impian kan,,,setiap daripada kita mesti ada something yang nak dikecapi,including me=) Impian ak ialah pergi ke overseas! hebat kann~~ lolXD I always imagine that i can travel around the world,meets a lot of people and gain a whole new experience.That would be an amazing thing ever if it happened in my life.I really hope so this dream can be a dream comes true.Tetapi,baru2 ni ak teringin na pergi korea.HA HA,,,nmpak sgt slalu tgk cerite korea~~ senyum tiga!=3 Tapi knape korea? bukan korea je sbenarnyer tp byk lagi negara yg ak na pergi and the most country that i want (if i get the chance) to continue my study in UK.That was my dream since i was in primary school,to be exactly when i was 9 years old.

Oxford Centre for Islamic Studies,,,my dream =)

Sebenarnyer,impian ak na pergi overseas ni membuak2 sejak ak form 4.Masa tu first time ak masuk asrama and thu2 la kan bile first time ni,HOMESICK~~ je memanjang.Malu ke x malu tu umur 16 pun asyik merengek na balik umah.Seminggu ak menangis teringat rumah! Sedihhhh woooo~~ ='( Cubemates ak la yg tolong mententeramkan hati aku yang layu mase tu.Begitu juga dgn classmates ak and my lovely homeroom teacher =) Bile teringat kan dyorang rase rindu pulak.hehe~~ Parents ak slalu kate and also with my friends yg tinggal kat asrama ni sekejap je,,,dua tahun JE~ emmm,JE la sgt kann.Ada jugak kawan2 ak cakap,"Nanti ko bole sambung blajar overseas bile da abis spm".Masa tu otak ak fikir na sambung study overseas je abis spm.UK.Tapi utk sambung study luar negara ni bukannya senang.Masa aku spm dulu, sume scholarships like JPA,MARA mmg sgt kompetitif.Student semakin lame semakin hebat and excellent in acedemic.

Unfortunately,i am not the one.I was only an ordinary student back then.Kaunseler selalu hebah scholarships latest kat students sume.Siap tampal lagi kat board untuk sume student pilih course mane yg nak dipilih.Seriously masa tu ak seronok sgt.Gembira.Tapi apakan daya,ak hanya mampu melihat setiap kali ak lalu depan board tu dan acting seolah2 yang ak layak utk pilih course yg ak nak.Result ak x menetapi syarat dan akhirnyer ak rasa impian ak semakin jauh dgn ak.Even though ak tak layak tp disebabkan ak terlalu fikir na sambung study overseas akhirnyer homesick ak hilang dan alhamdulillah ak dapat menempuhi kehidupan dua tahun aku di asrama.Sampai sekarang ak masih hold lagi impian ak utk pergi ke luar negara,sambung belajar or at least having a vacation.Insy-ALLAH,aamiin.

Ak tak thu la nape ak terlalu sgt na pergi overseas sbbnyer ak tgk kwn2 ak sume rilex jer.Kadang2 ak pun pelik tgk diri ak ni.Ada yg tak berminat langsung na g study overseas.(O_O").Setiap org ada pendapat masing2 dalam hal ni dan ak respect setiap opinions.But obviously,not me.Mungkin bukan sekarang tapi nnt ke? Who knows? Only ALLAH knows,,,and that has calmed me a lots=)

"Sesiapa yang hendak kepada dunia,maka hendaklah dia mencari ilmu dan siapa berkehendak kepada akhirat,juga hendaklah dia mencari ilmu."

-Imam Syafie-

P/S: Nak pergi Korea then nak jumpe T.O.P-sshi=)

My first doodle =3

2012-06-25T23:57:00.002-07:00

As salam,,,

P/S : I had use Paint SAI to make this doodle=)