Rumblings of my mind

The Call

2011-07-25T08:26:00.000-07:00

It sent a chill down my spine

Was I hesitating? Was I fine?

Questions exploded in my mind

Answers , nah , I could never find

A gust of wind brushed away my doubts

The soft grass called ; to end the drought!!!

My head screamed , I just had to give in

Hesitated again , my conscience was fighting

This battle wore me down , it was the final push

I peered over the edge , felt the adrenaline rush

To answer the call , one step is what I had to take

To kiss goodbye...one step is what I did take

STUCK!!!! In Your Love....

2011-04-09T11:15:00.000-07:00

It was the morning sun of the spring season,

Avoiding it, I chanced upon you, my world had forzen!

Crossing the street, you had my heart racing,

Jumping to my feet, I ran after you, chasing.

The sun now shone directly above my head,

I saw you in a shop, having coffee and bread.

I gathered up courage and said Hi,

Gal! Talking with you I didn't notice time fly.

Admiring you in the evening breeze,

You looked pristine with the falling leaves.

I just couldn't help falling in love with you

I shuddered to dream a life without you!

Devoid of light, except from the ethereal moon,

In the distance I heard lovebirds croon

On my knees, I asked you to be with me forever,

I didn't want you to leave......never ever!!!!

Felt you fade away with the approaching dawn,

Atleast this time....desperately, I tried to hold on.

Failed again...was it yes or no..perhaps I'll know never

Coz I'm stuck....in this day, in your love....forever!!

It was the morning sun of the spring season,

Avoiding it, I chanced upon you, my world had....FROZEN!!!!

Remember Me

2011-03-20T11:32:00.000-07:00

I broke the promises I made

Leaving you stranded, I went ahead

Believe me, it was not a choice I made

Coz, it pains me, just to see you sad

The fiery sun fades away at night

The blissful moon gives way to the blinding light

It is the circle that nature has to complete

And I'm not God to change my fate

Brick by brick, we built our world together

Castles, we imagined, would house happiness forever

Alas, there came a knock on the door, loud & clear

I never looked back & i'm sorry for that, my dear

It pains me to see your world from skies far above

Alone, you keep waiting, for that long lost love

Loving beyond life is what you stood for

I beg you, move on, is what I ask for

The time had come for me to fade away

Doesn't mean you have to throw your life away

Build castles, seek happiness, again; forget the world you built with me

But in a corner of your mind, just a corner.......remember me..

The Ship that never returned

2011-02-09T04:35:00.000-08:00

Leaving the shores so well known
   I set sail to find the elusive land
Brushing away the learning of yore
   I set my sights on the faraway shore

I journeyed, my mind filled with apprehension
   Interspersed by windless nights, I sought divine intervention
A black storm answered my heavenly call
   Undeterred, steeled by the ethereal moon, I refused to stall

Doubts creeped into my mind, from the onset
   Growing stronger and stronger after each sunset
Still, I weathered on, harbouring a faint belief
   Hoping, reaching the shore would bring relief

The silent waters stirred up an unnerving noise in my head
   Playing tricks with my heart, my mind conjured images after images
Like a guiding star, my burning desire kept me on course
   Alas! Desire engulfed me and madness ran its course

Delirium set in, I let myself slip into it
   Rueing my fate, I wondered, is this it???
Peering through the mist in my head I could see the shore again
   Smiling, I closed my eyes, tired of making the same mistake......again & again & again

When I'm blue

2010-07-30T00:23:00.000-07:00

When the lines started to rhyme,

I knew I was no longer fine!

Words came into my mind & stuck like glue,

And I knew I was damn blue

I switched on the tv

to give my mind a reprieve

Discovery showed beautiful moths,

But all I could think of was penning goths!

I got fed up and surfed for movies

Damn! They all are showing love stories!

Cursing I switched to death metal.

Oh boy! It made my mind settle

And then there came a pause,

Sending my tranquility for a toss

Desperate for peace of mind,

I head to the beach to unwind

The sound of the waves crashing down the shore

Created a hypnotic allure

Alas! Instead of an unwind, my mind did a rewind

Loneliness again held me in its bind

I head back home, tired and defeated

to find solace with my pillow and bed

I switched off the light,

Wishing myself......goodnight.

The Game of Life

2010-06-15T01:36:00.000-07:00

I rolled the dice,
   In the game called life

With every twist and turn,
   A thousand thoughts began to churn

Words came back to haunt my head,
   Which were left unsaid

My heart felt burdened,
   By the opportunities I spurned

My heart yearned,
   To be the man none yet discerned

With me praying for a fix,
   The dice rolled to a six

I felt my heart cease to pain
   'Coz the board read - "Start Again"

Love - Does it hurt?

2010-04-03T12:29:00.001-07:00

Love works in mysterious ways,

Bringing rain even on sunny days!

It puts a spell on you,

Making everything look beautiful around you!

Every time you close your eyes,

All you can see is her mesmerizing eyes!

And when your heart misses a beat,

You'd know she is walking away with it!

You see that beautiful smile on her face,

Wishing that you could make it last for ages!

You'd do anything for her....

Anything, even when she's never gonna be yours!

Still this love lifts your spirit,

So how can this love really hurt?

The Bench

2010-01-28T00:36:00.000-08:00

The park sported a different look today,

inviting me to look at life with a different outlook.

Hesitatingly I took the cue,

to start my life anew.

I started walking past benches, clean and inviting

in search of the bench that I was missing.

I came across it,

covered with leaves due to unuse.

With a sigh, I dusted the bench

And when I sat on it, I realized what I missed.

The view was the most beautiful,

healing my mind and heart.

It filled my heart with joy,

rekindling the subdued feelings.

I began to wonder why I ever left this place,

a place that made me whole...

Immersed in thoughts, I felt the wind die down.

With trepidation, I lifted my eyes

only to see the view obstructed by leaves.

Now I realized why I avoided this place..

I realized this joy was momentary, a mirage.

I realized I had grown tired of waiting for the wind...

I got up from the bench once again

only to see a leaf drop on the place I sat.....

The Flight

2010-01-21T10:09:00.000-08:00

I was born an ugly creature

Was weak by nature

Every moment of my life was a struggle

Surviving was a battle

Yet I never lost my will to live

Nor cursed God for this life

For, at the end of every struggle

Lies the sweetness of victory

I enjoyed each moment of my freedom

Never worrying about the impending doom

For, worrying about my future

Would only spoil my present

I'm the butterfly

And I urge humans to accept my way of life

I urge them to take flight...

The Rebel Inside Us

2010-01-21T09:59:00.000-08:00

Trrnngg goes the alarm again

Breaking my tranquil dream

I think that five more minutes would do no harm

But my mind says - "No"

And I listen to it.

The rain is lashing down the earth,

I see kids enjoying its coolness

My heart yearns to join them and become a kid again,

But my mind says - "No"

And I listen to it.

I see my love again,

Making my body go numb again.

My heart yearns to tell those three words

But my mind says - "No"

And I listen to it.

I see people thronging cinema halls and parks,

Having the time of their life..

I want to be just like them,

Having no worries...

I take the first step towards it

But, then, my mind says "No"

And I listen to it...

Safe inside my mind I hide,

Waiting for a new dawn to come,

And break the shackles holding me.

Safe inside my mind I hide,

To come out when I'm new again...

Conscience....dead or dying????

2010-01-21T09:46:00.000-08:00

The car came to a halt,

From the mirror, I look at the people around me,

They are all living a lie..

All I see in their eyes is a dream

A dream that they die for to fulfill

A dream that has made them materialistic

A dream that has made them blind to the sufferings of others,

All they care about is their family and themselves

Perhaps its time they realized their responsibility towards people less fortunate..

Understand the true reason of their existence

Realize that life is about sharing,

Sharing not sorrows but joys

Suddenly I notice a hand on the mirror,

Trying to close it

I notice that its me....

Thoughts along the road less travelled....

2010-01-21T09:32:00.000-08:00

I see nothing but the road ahead of me

Perhaps the thirst for success has made me oblivious to the people around me

I look at the sky

Only to notice the sun shining so bright

It is doing funny things to me

I notice my life pass before my eyes

Ahh...it pains to remember those days

Filled with all that laughter and joy

With our heart so young and careless

We used to do things none could imagine

All that has changed now

Its no more 'we' but only 'me'

I glance down and look at my shadow, and think

My friend only you and I remain, lets complete this journey together.

Love Hurts

2009-08-08T09:38:00.000-07:00

Life is so unfair,
Why doesn't God realize that we two would make a beautiful pair!!
Whenever i see you,
My heart jumps to reach the sky so blue.
Ohhh...when you pass me by,
I feel like watching you till the earth goes dry.
Every morning when I wake up with a tear on my cheek,
I realize its another dream gone waste on you.
Perhaps its time to face the truth,
That I would never be with you
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O my beautiful Yamaha R15,
Its time to say goodbye:)