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Tadhana: Run4Love

noreply@blogger.com (kay) — Sat, 07 Jan 2012 04:07:00 +0000

Rio Dela Cruz' Proposal...

Oh ****!!! UDD+A Love Story = definitely a HIGH

we.no.serious

noreply@blogger.com (kay) — Thu, 05 Jan 2012 09:58:00 +0000

When happiness falls short, who you gonna call?

Me (with the glasses) with workmates during lunch breaks. We bum in Abreeza Ayala Mall after and hangout in the arcade for 1 hour. And what do we get out of it? On lucky days, a FREE Photo booth picture ^_^

la-di-da

noreply@blogger.com (kay) — Wed, 28 Dec 2011 00:52:00 +0000

Finally, I am reunited with my comfort shoes!!! What a high!!!

D♥ dragged me to the mall yesterday and told me that I should buy a pair of shoe for myself with one requirement: NOT SLIPPERY :)

We wandered for awhile but I am very sure at the back of my head that I want chucks!

And so I did! And now I am back on my old-school look: shirt+jeans+backpack+chucks

PS: checked off one item from my "MUSTs for 2012"

2012-MUST-DO

noreply@blogger.com (kay) — Fri, 23 Dec 2011 07:14:00 +0000

"Planning" has never been a friend of mine and so does "New Year's resolution list". But then I figured to make one anyway just to kill my time...kill boredom...

I have listed out 26-must-do for 2012. Why 26? Because I am 26 years old and I was thinking of what I should accomplish before I turn 27 by May. This means I got only 5 months...haha. I am not nice to myself ;) I am not even expecting to fulfill the list because somewhere in between 2012 I will forget about this list anyway. I am not making any sense am I? Ha-ha-ha. Okay, now I am starting to be boring so here's the list:

1. get a whole-body massage...A MUST...ASAP
2. new wayfarer rayban...broke the one i have :_(
3. pantograph...i'll go back on charcoal painting
4. buy converse shoes...my comfort shoes!!! i soooo missss youuuu...where have you been!
5. new camera...nikon J1 perhaps
6. buy a lomo cam
7. black & white paint for my room...a do-it-myself thing
8. 24" or 25" waistline...with the help of twist board (malayo-layong byahe to!!!)
9. trim down coffee and alcohol intake...limit it occasionally like yesterday, today and everyday. hahaha!
10. finish my scrapbook projects...scavenge-compile-cut-paste
11. bookbind all my written works...poetry, short stories, drawings, and rants
12. house renovation...install brick pavement in our outdoor flooring
13. start and invest on a business...these are the hard times so i need to double up my work
14. get a passport, driver's license, NSO birth certificate (i lost my original copy...crap!), college transcript of records (i'm so stubborn! i graduated 5 years ago and i didn't bother to get my records), CENOMAR (hahaha...kidding)
15. go back to school?...nah! study isn't my thing anymore so let's just see
16. set foot in Palawan or return to Boracay ^_^
17. get a new haircut (dream cut!!!)...i'm keeping my fingers crossed. I SUPER ENVY Raleene Cabrera's cut - she's an industrial designer and lead vocals of the Walkie Talkies
18. get my passport stamped...only on nearby countries
19. learn more recipes and try pastry making
20. read a book (this is unaccomplished from last year's bucket list)
21. new laptop bag
22. do something unforgettable and FUN...zipline? zorb? water rafting?
23. get to see more movies
24. get more sleep...get rid of these eye bags
25. buy an engagement ring and propose (this is the part where i don't know what else to list so dont take me seriously)...blah!
26. get a tattoo?!? (i must get very very drunk first so i wouldn't remember doing it and i can regret it the next day)

TOOmorrow

noreply@blogger.com (kay) — Mon, 12 Dec 2011 15:13:00 +0000

you care too much of the future that you take "today" very easy

you make big plans for the next two years...when all i wanted is for you to paint a rainbow in my skies right now

promises...what use will it make right now?

now that everything is cloudy and i can't even say those 3 words

secret track

noreply@blogger.com (kay) — Sun, 04 Dec 2011 13:41:00 +0000

Purse of Stories from Vanessa Augustin on Vimeo.

kill the boredom

noreply@blogger.com (kay) — Sat, 03 Dec 2011 14:18:00 +0000

my favorite playmate

my partner in crime and goofs

the man who tolerates my mood swings and tantrums

my safety net

the man who will watch girly-movies, ruin his schedule to accompany me, take long walks, wait for long hours with me, and bear with all my whims

my BROTHER

blue

noreply@blogger.com (kay) — Thu, 01 Dec 2011 13:03:00 +0000

I am tired.
I am tired of speech and of action.
If you should meet me upon the
street do not question me for
I can tell you only my name
and the name of the town I was
born in–but that is enough.
It does not matter whether tomorrow
arrives anymore.

If there is only this night and after it is morning

it will not matter now.
I am tired.

I am tired of speech and of action.

In the heart of me
you will find a tiny handful of dust.

Take it and blow it out upon the wind.

Let the wind have it

and it will find its way home.

BLUE SONG by Tennessee Williams

meron akong joke

noreply@blogger.com (kay) — Mon, 28 Nov 2011 05:06:00 +0000

Tanong: Ano ang pambansang ibon ng Pilipinas?

Sagot: Manok

Tanong: Hindi. Maliit ito.

Sagot: Chicken Cubes?

Tanong: Hindi. Nagsisimula sa letrang 'M' at nagtatapos sa letrang 'A'

Sagot: Manok na batA

FAIL FAIL FAIL. hehe

I try - Macy Gray

noreply@blogger.com (kay) — Wed, 23 Nov 2011 20:54:00 +0000

I remember high school days...and that lousy feeling called "young love"

Strong introductory lines from Macy Gray's concert before she performed "I Try"...

you know baby i try to love you the best way i can
but you're only human and you'll never get satisfied
it is never enough
if i say "i love you" a hundred times, you want me to say a hundred and one
if i say "baby, i'll do the laundry tonight", you say "baby, do the dishes too"
if i say, "baby, i'll pay the rent this month", you say "will you buy me a new car too"

The Vow - a must watch for 2012

noreply@blogger.com (kay) — Tue, 22 Nov 2011 15:01:00 +0000

The Notebook meets Dear John. Oh Dear Lord! Another movie to watch and remember. I know, I know...this will get me frustrated again and again but hey I'm a hopeless romantic and romantic movies are my therapy.

Anyway I just read today this line "Love is not just a feeling because if it is a feeling then it won't last. Love will become bitter and numb along the way, you just have to wait and take time for it to grow back". Hmmm...it got me thinking.

My fascination over tattoos

noreply@blogger.com (kay) — Mon, 21 Nov 2011 14:06:00 +0000

It will always be a long-time dream of mine to get a tattoo. I know it isn’t possible though. I don’t fear the needles...I’m sort of a masochist. It’s just that I am not allowed to get one (boohoo). There was this one time that I got a henna tattoo on my hand – a Chinese character, my father scolded me for doing so even if I reasoned out that it will be washed off in days.

Often times, people with tattoos get judged. Whether they are rebellious, addict, prostitute, gang member, criminal or anything alike. It’s a form of expression and art for me but it depends on the story behind each tattoo and how it is being done. I am very fascinated over people who are brave enough to ink their selves and flaunt the marks. A tattoo for me will never be meaningless. So I am listing down the tattoos I have a high regard for and of which I wish I can have (sighs).

On top my list would be Angelina Jolie’s tattoos. But before I enumerate them I’d like to share a quote from her, "I am still at heart—and always will be—just a punk kid with tattoos."

1. Pali Incantation tattoo. Hey, it’s a prayer so how could it be wrong? Here’s the English translation:

May your enemies run far away from you.
If you acquire riches, may they remain yours always.
Your beauty will be that of Apsara.
Wherever you may go, many will attend,
serve and protect you, surrounding you on all sides.

2. Geographical Coordinates tattoo that represents the birth locations of her kids and partner - Brad Pitt. It's such a cool concept!!! So if I'm going to get my very own geo-coordinates tattoo it would be:

N7° 8' 9" E125° 41' 13" à location of my home in Samal

3. Words from her favorite poet Tennessee Williams -- “A prayer for the wild at heart, kept in cages”

As per to Angelina the tattoo meant for her as: "I don't think I know one person who I think can be completely who they are, every second of the day, who feels completely free...So it's kind of a prayer for everybody to find their happiness, to break out...Anything that makes us comfortable, those things are cages around us."

I am such a fan of poetry. I think that somewhere inside me lies a poet who is thirsty for words to be filled out in the pages.

4. Angelina Jolie’s latin quote tattoo – “Quod me nutrit me destruit”

It means "What nourishes me, destroys me”. This simple verse kept me thinking and it actually made a perfect sense.

5. Window tattoo - refers to her once held view on life: "Wherever I am, I find myself looking out of the window, wishing I was somewhere else."

I completely sympathize with these thoughts. Many times have I wished to fly somewhere far. I often borrow the quote of Bob Dylan “I am not there” – the feeling of being physically stranded in a place while your thoughts wanders in a different place. I felt like I am stuck in the 80’s and 90’s but if given a choice I would chose to be born on the 60’s and 70’s.

6. The NEW tattoo she got in her leg – Whiskey Bravo

Rumor has it that it is dedicated to Brad Pitt and due to persistent research it has being decoded. Using military alphabet, Whiskey stood for letter “W” and Bravo stood for “B” which represents William Bradley, Brad Pitt’s real name.

I find it sweet because Angelina stated in early interviews, "I'll never be stupid enough to have a man's name tattooed on me again". This is when she lasered off the tattoo with the name of her ex-husband. And it’s ironic, because again she inked herself for the man she loves.

7. Aside from Angelina, Miley Cyrus’s tattoo in her left rib cage – “Just Breath” made it to my list.

It was dedicated to her grandfathers who both died of lung cancer. She said that “It reminds me not to take things for granted. I mean breathing – that was something none of them could do, the most basic thing. And I put it near my heart, because that is where they will always be.”

Since the tattoo is dedicated to her grandparents – I like it.

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So in case I’ll get myself a tattoo or tattoos, here are the possibilities:

One-winged sparrow (using white-ink)

This signifies my pain of losing my grandmother whom I call Ami – shortcut for Mommy. I grew up with her. When she left I am less of a person. I have lost my other wing. I will always feel that no matter how high I soar it wouldn’t feel as significant as it should be… just like a 1-winged bird who can never enjoy flying the majestic skies.

Connect the dots that would spell “ched”

This is my Ami’s nickname. She always marks her belongings with "ched". And since I am her child, I would love to be marked with a “ched”. This means I am hers.

“psalm xxiii”

The bible verse that I try to remind myself

(above image does not depict the actual bible verse)

Compass pointing to North

At some point we’ll get lost in our journey. I always tell myself to “Keep north” so I won’t be side tracked, I won’t lose myself and I won’t forget who I am. As long as I know the direction I am taking, I'll be fine.

Piano keys

I took piano classes when I was a kid. Ami let me take classes - one of her dreams for me is to become a pianist. Oh well, those are the things in life that changed. Since I stopped taking classes it will remain a dream for me.

Also, the ebony and ivory color of the piano keys symbolizes the 2 simple facts of life – black and white.

PS: I'd like to share an old poem I made for a friend who got himself inked - connect the dots

saling-pusa

noreply@blogger.com (kay) — Mon, 21 Nov 2011 02:57:00 +0000

Ako'y naimbitahan ng grupo ng mga guro na sumama sa kanilang trip to "Prayer Valley" sa Tamayong, Davao City. Ito ang Garden of Eden ni Apollo Quiboloy. At kahit kami ay hindi miyembro ng kanyang simbahan, kami naman ay tinanggap ng maayos.

Sa linis at ganda ng lugar, aakalain mong wala ka sa Pinas. UK-inspired yung mga building structures nila. At kahit ako'y saling-pusa sa grupo, nag enjoy naman ako. Sa uulitin!

GO-light

noreply@blogger.com (kay) — Mon, 21 Nov 2011 01:03:00 +0000

1. Removing friends from my FB friends list. Only those that I don't personally know.
2. Removing "carbonated drinks" in my system. So no more softdrinks for me.
3. Removing all these clouded thoughts by writing them down. These thoughts have been clogging in my head lately.
4. Removing my hesitation on confrontations. Will schedule that "talk" soon.
5. Removing unwanted expenses :(

Light-headed. Light-hearted.

singko anyos

noreply@blogger.com (kay) — Thu, 17 Nov 2011 13:11:00 +0000

October 16th of year 2011 is my 5-year stay in the company that I am currently working. Seems like a very long time eh?

This is where I have grown my roots. I've met beautiful people and I went through wonderful experiences in life. I love the work. I am happy here.

Salary? Nah... Money is never an issue for me so believe when I tell you that for 5 years of working I still don't have a 6-digit amount in my bank account.

So cheers for the years to come!

OH-ctober

noreply@blogger.com (kay) — Thu, 10 Nov 2011 13:44:00 +0000

October marks the end of this year's 3rd quarter and this means OUTING a.k.a. bonding and and team building for our department.

1st quarter: Maxima Aqua Water Fun (the best outing ever)
2nd quarter: Costa Marina Beach (laughtrip on name-game)

And for 3rd quarter we went to Little Boracay in Sta. Maria, Davao del Sur. It's a 4-hour drive from Davao city proper. It was a long but fun travel. The place was nice and quiet. The beach was great. It rained. We played cards. Food. Gin. Games. Pictures. We danced. It was fun ^_^

we are ninjas

push

we laugh together. ha-ha-ha

all-in!

beach

wake me up when september ends...

noreply@blogger.com (kay) — Wed, 09 Nov 2011 15:35:00 +0000

Today I got a chance to chat with Shynne, my former workmate. We used to talk a lot before, we exchange updates on our lives and if there's something interesting we wanted to share. We used to see each other once a month for a food trip...i miss those times. Our schedules have been busy.

She asked me today why have I stopped blogging. And then I realize that yeah its been a while. So here I am taking my shot on a blog entry :)

SEPTEMBER
 took all my time and energy. It was the month wherein our parish 
celebrated its 50th anniversary and I had a part to play in running the 
lined up activities. 

Member of the Documentation Team

Organized a frisbee clinic. That's me...the one that's about to catch the flying saucer :)

In action

Photo by kayibea

The Team

Feeding Program

Mangrove Planting

tum & belly

noreply@blogger.com (kay) — Mon, 29 Aug 2011 15:51:00 +0000

I MUST lose my tummy bulge!!! This isn't baby fats anymore...more of beer fats! (hahaha)
So I'm digging in for some articles online on some helpful tips (this isn't a hopeless case i wish!)

1. Eat more fruits & veggies - darn! im a meat-person so i think i couldn't manage this discipline
2. Cardio Exercise - hmmm...im a very busy person and im not good with schedules so i might skip or forget this step
3. Ab Twister - yeah baby! i gotta start saving up money for this

Wish me luck!

bells aren't ringing

noreply@blogger.com (kay) — Wed, 24 Aug 2011 15:13:00 +0000

why is "marriage" becoming a constant topic for me? (crap!) not that i am frustrated or what it's just annoying to hear people say, "hey, you should marry at your age!", "you're the only one left in your friends that is still single!", "when are we going to receive an invitation", and more blabber. i am 26, that i am very aware of. it will come (or it may not...knock on the wood) so please chill.

today, boyfie and me talked about this without awkwardness (good heavens! sign na ba to Lord? hehe). it was a fun conversation especially when he said he'd prefer to have 2 or 3 children and then i added "yes, 2 twins and 1 triplets". hahaha. but hold your horses, no bells are ringing yet. i will be flipping more pages of the calendar before that happens.

and then later tonight i attended a wake where boyfie's grandmother was also present. i tried to escape her attention but my cruel friends (pandamay!) put me on the spot when they said, "kay, your future lola". now, i am in panic mode because i didn't rehearsed for this scenario and all i was able to do was exchange smiles and gave a "mano" as a sign of respect. suddenly she whispered something to me that made me blush (blushing RED cheeks!!!)..."you two (referring to boyfie) should now marry, please".

waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.

shuffles

noreply@blogger.com (kay) — Sat, 20 Aug 2011 11:40:00 +0000

it's been one week of listening to Up Dharma Down's INDAK and i can't still get over the beauty of its poetry along with Armi's poignant voice. EPIC! EPIC! EPIC! i'd like spill out some curse words 'coz this song is so good!

Up Dharma Down - Indak

Tatakbo at gagalaw
Mag-iisip kung dapat bang bumitaw
Kulang na lang, atakihin
Ang pag-hinga’y nabibitin

Ang dahilan na alam mo na
Kahit ano pang sabihin nila
Tayong dalawa lamang ang makakaalam
Ngunit ako ngayo’y naguguluhan

Makikinig ba ako
Sa aking isip na dati pa namang magulo?
O iindak na lamang
Sa tibok ng puso mo

At aasahan ko na lamang na
Hindi mo aapakan ang aking mga paa
Pipikit na lamang at mag-sasayaw
Habang nanonood siya…

Paalis at pabalik
May baong yakap at suklian ng halik
Mag-papaalam at mag-sisisi
Habang papiglas ka ako sayo ay tatabi

Tayong dalawa lamang ang nakaka-alam
Ngunit hindi na matanto kung sino nga ba ang pag-bibigyan ko
Makikinig nga ba sa isipan na alam ang wasto

Ngunit pipigilan ang pag-ibig nya na totoo

Iindak na lamang ba sa tibok ng puso mo
At aasahan ko hindi nya lamang aapakan ang aking mga paa
Pipikit na lamang at mag-sasaya
Habang nalulungkot ka

Habang nalulungkot ka, isa nama’y natutuwa
Minsan naman ay lumuluha

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tb2uJtlZzbk

ads ads baby

noreply@blogger.com (kay) — Tue, 16 Aug 2011 14:00:00 +0000

Been squeezing editing promotional ads for our church's 50th year celebration.

fun run poster

singlet design for the fun run for a cause with tagline "RUN FOR GOLD"

pageant poster

Temporary Low

noreply@blogger.com (kay) — Sun, 19 Jun 2011 16:12:00 +0000

How much more can this heart handle?
How many goodbyes are there?
How many bonds to untie?
How many wrong turns to take?
How many falls to break?

Lord, I have stitched back all the pieces for a very long time
I was never been the same but I was able to hold all the pieces together...somehow
I rely on these breakable threads to hold all of what was left of me
I ask You Lord to keep these threads strong as I face all these waves
I wont dodge and I wont run...im keeping my faith

Streams

noreply@blogger.com (kay) — Fri, 08 Apr 2011 12:40:00 +0000

Crap! I am never good with goodbyes...never. For some sentimental reasons, I run. And the hard part is knowing that the person leaving is waiting for me to acknowledge her goodbye. I don't have the balls. So I tortured myself and swallowed the pain of punishing you...punishing you with my selfishness and punishing you by not giving the right gestures.

Some people stay, some people go...that's a fact in this life. We can't keep everyone we love boxed in the world we created. Everything changes. And believe me that it happens fast right before your eyes while wanting things to linger a little bit more...a day more, a minute more.

This explains why I settle in my hometown, in the house I grew up, with my same old friends, with the first job I got, wear the pants my sister bought no matter how rugged and how many patches it has, and more. This isn't about loyalty...oh no. This is about me sticking...staying...being the same...being still...and learning the lesson that everything is constantly moving and changing. And believe me when I say that I don't have problems with letting go. This world is small and we'll cross our roads sometime soon.

This is me saying goodbye. No exchanged words and no sentimental moments. I have witnessed plenty of goodbyes in the past and no matter how often this happens, it always bring new pain. So, no worries because I'd be in the same place when you look back. So what difference would it make if I told you that I'm going to miss you, that it will be hard without you, and that it will never be the same? Let's just not make it harder.

I won't defend the actions I have taken because I know that I was cold, cruel and rude. Sorry. But again, know in you heart that I wish you well and I'm still here. This is all I can afford.

[bucket_list] for 2011

noreply@blogger.com (kay) — Sat, 12 Feb 2011 11:46:00 +0000

[x] Open a personal bank account and another one for my brother.

[x] Go back on scrapbooking

[x] Buy something expensive for myself.

[x] Celebrate D's bday together. He loved the swordfish sashimi ^_^

[x] Write a letter for D.

[ ] Buy/Read a book
1. Thousand Years - Donald Miller
2. The Happiness Project - Gretchen Rubin
3. Vagabonding - Rolf Potts
[ ] House Renovation Phase II
[ ] Go somewhere in Luzon, Visayas and Mindanao
[ ] Invest on something
[ ] Get a complete physical exam
[ ] Buy glasses
[ ] Get a passport

This is it

noreply@blogger.com (kay) — Sun, 06 Feb 2011 05:04:00 +0000

I'd like to keep everything private, as much as I would like.

But it feels like it's bursting out of my chest. It shows. I even sound different ^_^
We have a great start this year. I love the movie dates, dinners, walk home, going home together after work, doing more stuffs together, the plans, and I could make a long list my dear but all I wanna say is just "iloveyou" - beyond whatever these words mean.

For all the days to come, I would still do. Because for all the people I get to meet and know for the past 26 years of my life...only you have touched me in a way that no one will ever do.

This is just a teaser of my birthday gift to you...more to come!