gem.in.ME

airport hustle bustle

noreply@blogger.com (kay) — Thu, 12 Apr 2012 16:06:00 +0000

After a looooooong vacation, now I'm back at home...back to work. Since I am reserving the story of my vacation on a separate entry, let me just share my experience today at the Airport.

I have a 7:40AM flight to Davao. Around 6:00AM I am already at the NAIA as I am dropped off by my sister and her husband (thanks to the new Toyota Adventure). The first thing I noticed was the line in the entrance gates.

(zoom in images) Oh noooooo!!! I hate waiting in lines!!! But I can't magically transport myself inside and so I waited in line with no choice. (play clock ticking sound effects) Then for awhile I was inside the airport, I breath in and out then went to the next stop.

(play wheels screeching) Ugh!!! There's another long line to the airline gates where I need to check-in. This time the line is triple times longer. And this is the part where I say the F word. BLEEP!

My eyes are rolling around, observing my surrounding, finding a way that I could escape this dilemma.

(play sound effects of angels singing a-lle-lu-ia) There it is! A heaven sent electronic machine called "self-service check-in" ...if I remembered it correctly hehe. All I need to do is enter my ticket's confirmation number then boom boarding pass is printed out. Good thing I am a lite traveler because it can only be used by passengers without check-in baggage. In less than 5 minutes I am done. I'd like to jump and dance in happiness...put out my tongue to those who are still in line and say "so long suckers!!!" - but that would be rude right?! So I quickly went to the next stop in the terminal, grabbed a sandwich & coffee, then waited for boarding time.

(Airline crew announcing: Flight 5J 963 is now ready for boarding) I grabbed my things & coffee cup then lined up again. But this time it is bearable. When I handed my boarding pass to the airline crew I was in shocked when she asked me a question.

"Are you pregnant Maam?"

SERIOUSLY?!!! Could it be part of any protocol to ask all women passenger? I looked at my tummy bulge as I answered her with a No. Hahahaha. That was EPIC!

Poongsan (rare korean dog)

noreply@blogger.com (kay) — Mon, 09 Apr 2012 05:27:00 +0000

Why i love watching DONG YI

1. She acts childish and foolish. Her character gives me a warm feeling than those exaggerated-overkill characters in [some] Pinoy Teleseryes.

2. She's not afraid to take in all the consequences of her being curious and fearless.

3. She takes time...she waits...before she reveals her cards to the enemy. And they all stand in awe - defeated.

4. She collects proofs and the truth behind all her questions before she draws her sword in the fight. Then she patiently prepares a righteous scheme.

5. She accepts the pain of loosing friends and trusted people along her battles.

6. She doesn't hesitate in admitting and acknowledging her faults. 

7. She moves on with a light heart.

Bottom line:

Some bridges are NOT meant to be crossed and some bridges are meant to be burned. Do not falter on times of pain and defeat if you knew that you have a better judgment than those who put their words above their head because "Big mouths are only holes to the deaf" (Armi Millare, 2010)

[photo diary] One Fine Day

noreply@blogger.com (kay) — Tue, 03 Apr 2012 10:13:00 +0000

i like looking on patterns. do you see it?

I always wear comfortable shoes

Arby: Wala na hair!!! Huhuhuhu

sisters

TUMBeLING TUMBeLING...do it like a BOOZE

noreply@blogger.com (kay) — Thu, 29 Mar 2012 02:11:00 +0000

I am fascinated on how a person comes up with a unique theme or gimmick that would make them stand out from the rest. They leave a mark in my little childish mind.

One example is the Filipina who always bring along with her a "tabo" also known as dipper. "Tabo" is one of the symbols of being Pinoy. We, Filipinos, definitely knows and uses a "tabo" or even prefers using it over than a shower during bath. She's a traveler and she takes picture of her travels with her "tabo" signifying her Filipino race. I remember the pictures as unique and funny. Of course, I can't copy that all because I wouldn't dare to always bring a "tabo" with me. So I salute that Filipina for her humor and guts. 

Another character in my list is Bianca Gonzales who is famous for her perfect tumbling shots. She has a wide collection of her perfect tumbling in all her travels. Go check out her blog. Then I figured that her thing is doable for me. It may be a copy cat gimmick but there's the catch - I can never do a perfect tumbling! Hahaha. I actually look like a falling frog!!! So just for the fun of it I decided to do a collection of tumbling stunts - PALPAK EDITION ^_^

At Davao People's Park right after joining a 5K Fun Run 

During a tree planting activity

At Pearl Farm Beach Resort

Hahaha. I look like a dancing-drunken-woman that is about to hit the ground.

Frog Style

Found an ally

At Vanishing Island

SEALed with a Mission

noreply@blogger.com (kay) — Tue, 27 Mar 2012 08:57:00 +0000

S.E.A.L. stands for Strong and Empowered Army of the Lord

A weekend retreat of the CFC-Singles for Christ held last March 24-25 at Nabunturan, ComVal province.

Road trip to Nabunturan, ComVal 

 A pinch of vodka on the way - to electrify our spirit ^_^

Our sweet ride

 The web

 JM giving out instructions

 Me (with glasses) with Garen

 Planning and panicking

Biggest team mate ;) 

 there i go! someone from the boys commented, "she's so heavy!"

Lester preparing the giant maze

THE giant maze

Let ourselves be guided - by the RIGHT voice, RIGHT intentions, and RIGHT message 

Every drop counts. We cannot accomplish a goal alone - we need help from others.

Giant Wheel Challenge

During the processing of team building activities 

  in my UDD shirt with the Service Team

We are all called for a missionary life ^_^ 

BUT WAIT... a trip won't be complete without a goofy picture. I chose to pass on my traditional "palpak" tumbling shots.

Awkward! hahaha

when my mouth said NO but my head said YES

noreply@blogger.com (kay) — Tue, 27 Mar 2012 03:13:00 +0000

Recently, I received an invitation that I know that I must refuse. As much as I would want to say YES, I know that I should not. Jumping into opportunities right away may sometimes lead us to trouble. We need to be cautious of the signs, of the real message and the impact that it will bring to yourself and to the people around you.

At inakala nyo na naman na isa itong seryosong blog entry. BLEH! Enk! Hindi yata. Tungkol ito sa pag imbita sa akin na magbigay ng speech sa Recognition day ng High School Alma Mater ko. Hahaha! Loko ah! At ako talaga? Wala naman akong "PHD", "MD", "HON" o ano pang kadikit na letra sa pangalan ko ah. Malamang "MRS." lang ang madadagdag sa takdang panahon (hahaha). Kaya ang unang reaksyon ko ay - kalokohan ba to?! Alam kong hindi ako karapatdapat at alam ko sa sarili ko na may ibang tao na mas bagay na tumayo sa entablado at magbigay ng mensahe sa mga estudyante - at hindi ako yun.

Kasi naman ang isa sa mga guro sa naturang paaralan na yun ay kabarkada ko. Kaya hindi na rin ako nagtaka. Alam kong pakana nya. Gusto nya kasing ibahagi ko sa lahat kung gaano kami kasaya nung high school. Eh hindi naman iyon simpleng kwentuhan lang. Tsaka alam ko na mahihirapan syang maghanap ng papayag sa imbitasyon nya. Natural! Yung mga doctor, abogado, guro, at pulitiko ay busy sa career nila... magdadalawang isip ang mga iyon na dumalo sa isang simpleng okasyon. At alam ng kabarkada ko na "bakante" ako para sa mga ganun kung baga "easy-to-get" lang ako pag dating sa mga raket, community service at volunteer work. 

Nung ipinaalam ko sa tatay ko ang imbitasyon hindi nga ako nagkamali, tama nga ang inaasahan ko na sasabihin nya - "Sus! Ikaw lang ang niloloko ng mga iyan! Palibhasa ang dali mong papayagin! Bakit ikaw? Doktor ka ba? Pulitiko ka ba?! Bakit di nila kunin si Engr. Ewan o si Dra. Di-ko-sasabin o si Atty. Kapitbahay-Natin?". Hahaha! Etong tatay ko talaga...kahit kelan kulang ng bilib sa anak nya ^_^. At di lang yun ha, nakakuha pa ng kakampi ang tatay ko sa katauhan ni D - "Huwag kang pumayag Kay. Ikaw lang ang naisip nila na madaling imbitahin". Clap-clap! Pero may punto sila...alam ko yun.

Kamakailang beses akong tumanggi. At kamakailang beses din akong pinilit. Nagbabago na ang isip ko. Sa bawat tanggi ko...nakakapag-construct ako ng isang talata ng speech sa utak ko! Hahaha. Oo, may draft na ako ng speech. Naisip ko, ang saya sanang experience yun at ang saya din magkwento. Pero di bale na lang.

DRAFT SPEECH

Introduction joke about Tomas Hayahay - local radio personality
Quote my 4th year High School adviser, the late Maam Precy Bacay - "Character over-weighs Intelligence"
Quote Bo Sanchez - "All of us are blessed with core gifts. Do not stray away from your core gifts because it is where you will be blessed. Be the best waiter! Be the best teacher! Be the best sales agent! Be the best doctor! Be the best person you can be."
Konting personal sharing - "Hindi ko alam kung bakit ako ang naimbitan, malamang dahil wala akong Talent Fee (hahaha). ComSci graduate ako, walang PHD, MD, or kung ano mang career license. Pero malapit ko ng matapos ang ala-masteral ko sa paghihintay na maging MRS"
Quote a few lines from my graduation speech
Final words of challenge, quote from the movie "Young Adult" - LIFE HERE I COME!

the perks of having S.A.D.

noreply@blogger.com (kay) — Mon, 26 Mar 2012 16:25:00 +0000

S.A.D. or Separation Anxiety Disorder is a psychological condition in which an individual experiences excessive anxiety regarding separation from home or from people to whom the individual has a strong emotional attachment.

source: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Separation_anxiety_disorder

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I am my own shrink so my diagnosis for all these crappy-sentimental-baggage is S.A.D. I'd like to site some points of symptoms why ended up with this disorder.
Death of grandparents. Lola died when I was 10 and Lolo died when I was 12. I am now 27 and I still cry whenever I miss them, I light up when I talk about them, and I feel envious whenever I see a Lolo or Lola with their grandchild/ren. Even to the present time I talk to them, I write letters whenever I can, I always think of them and I still wish that they are with me. It's like a wound that will never heal - ever!
Summer vacation in the year 1997, Lolo and I went to Manila. We stayed in my uncle's home in Cavite. After almost a month, on the day of my birthday - May 23, I begged Lolo that we go home. All because I wanted to celebrate my birthday at home like I always have. My uncle was upset because he would have wanted to spend more time with Lolo. Of course Lolo granted my request and we went home right away. I don't like to change the setups where I am happy and comfortable. 
My older sister got married at age 24 (I was 22 at that time). Time was stolen from Ate and me. We never got the chance to have all those normal sisterly bonding. During college, she was renting a room at the city while I stayed at home with our parents. When she graduated, she moved to Manila while I stayed at home with our parents. I was more eager to spend time and invest bonds with friends as I was growing apart from my sister...physically, mentally and emotionally. When she tied the knot, that's the time I realized that we will never ever have all those sisterly bonding because her priority will be building her own family while I stay at home with our parents, still. Somehow I was mad at her because I felt like she escaped from all the responsibilities at home - responsibilities of the first child. I cried so bad at her wedding. But with some few good turns of God's magic wand we reconnected when she gave birth to my favorite one and only nephew, Arby. 
Graduating High School and entering college. I am bounded with the same set of friends since elementary days to High School. I have the same set of classmates for 10 years. In college, we all have separated since we went into different schools with different courses. I remember crying in the classroom because I don't know anyone. Not less than 2 months I shifted to a different course - Computer Science, which 8 of my high school friends took. And so happy days are back...I am surrounded with people I know. Although most of them didn't pursue the course, Padz and I stick out for more than 4 years as classmates.   
Resignation of workmates. [1] Ren, my mentor, decided to resign during my 2nd year at work and left me her responsibilities. I cried on her last day at work and was depressed for a few months. Now, I am the godmother of her 3rf child and we get to communicate and see each other once in every while. [2] Shynne, my seatmate for more than a year and one of the closest friend I have at work, surprised us with her resignation. I think above everyone I was the one who exaggerated her exit because I didn't talked to her during her final days. Good thing is I got over with my immaturity and now we are good. [3] Glaiza, also one of my closest friends at work, resigned to find a better opportunity for career growth. I was hurt so I didn't gave her a nice gesture of goodbye. But we were able to patch things up eventually. I always have a tendency of "going mute" and giving an "i don't see you" attitude whenever someone close to me is about to leave. I am coping on this even to the present time. 


Not only with people but I also do have a very strong attachment on material things with sentimental value. I am an excellent keeper. It may look as garbage but I see them as priceless treasures.
I can't let go of my childhood clothes, they are still perfectly starched and ironed in my old closet.
My favorite pants underwent countless overhaul and alterations just because I can't throw it away. If only the pants can speak it could have told me "would you please give up on me already?!"
My favorite shirts are still piled up in my closet even though the sizes doesn't fit me anymore. All because I like remembering the events that I got to wore those shirts.
Scribbles, random notes, and letters dated from 1997 are all kept safely in my memory box.
First rose I received is well-pressed and sealed.
Receipt of my first date with D.
My childhood pillow. 
Stones, shells, sand, leaf and anything I can grab from a memorable day.
Friendship ring that I am wearing since year 2006.
Pair of earings that Papa gave me as a gift I think more than 10 years ago. I never considered on exchanging it for a new pair. No way!

I am not good with goodbyes. I am not a fan of big changes. I stay and stick out. I settle. But you see, there were lessons I learned and one of it is "goodbyes" are inevitable in this life. We can't control some situations and there are people and things that we are suppose to let go.

What I am saying is somehow, I am trying to manage my reactions now. I'm not sure of how to cure this disorder...therapies won't work on me! Coping...this is the process I am in. 

But whenever I am sad or I miss the old days...I take comfort from the old stuffs I keep, old people in my life, and old memories I stored in my memory cache.

my name is kay and im not an alcoholic

noreply@blogger.com (kay) — Wed, 14 Mar 2012 15:44:00 +0000

"Never drink to feel better, only drink to feel even better"

I have said these lines countless times  - "I will never drink again!", "This is the last time I drink!", and "I will commit to a clean living lifestyle!".

What a bad liar! None of those were true - for a while yes but I find myself giving in to the temptation of an ice-cold-beer ^_^ Oh no! I am currently imagining myself diving in a pool of sparkling beer...swimming through its distinctive sweet taste as it leaves a very soothing sensation in my throat. Enough!!! Tsk!!! I am not an alcoholic...am I? Is this the first sign of addiction - denial stage?!? Whoa! But hey I've been sober for almost a month now.

Let's take a trip down to memory lane - on how I started drinking.

-o-

During my high school years I have mandated myself not to drink, not to smoke, and not to do drugs. Fulfilling those could have been very easy but I took the route of which most of my friends took. It was in the year 2004 when I first took a sip of beer - I didn't liked it all. It tasted bitter. So I thought my curiosity ends there. But after high school graduation, my friends and I experienced the infamous Gin-Po, a mixture of Gin and Pomelo juice. Heck! It knocked out my senses and gave me bad hangovers and excessive vomiting. From then on, the number of consumed alcohol bottles kept adding up.

Later on I explored the forbidden vice of drinking - I started drinking a lot. Beer, Gin, Rum, Tequila, Wine, Scotch, and some mix 'n match of juices and hard drinks - where my new set of friends. I find happiness when I drink and I don't know why. It brings out happy hormones! There's a point where I drink beer and rum almost everyday - coming to work sober. There were also bad times specially when I could hardly breath - I think its an allergic reaction to a certain gin, rashes all over my body, dehydrated for excessive vomiting, and hyper acidity. But it didn't pulled me away from alcohol at all - living life dangerously eh?!

I have a very long list of embarrassing moments when I got drunk and I could remember almost everything, sadly. o_O

1. Vomited on public places.

2. Almost tripping a table in a barbeque house.

3. Hanged my half-conscious self by the window of a taxi while vomiting

4. Waking up the next day with an empty wallet - zero cash! Realizing that I paid for everything the other night.

5. Climbed up on the stage where a band is performing and being dragged down by a local police officer.

6. Stood on top of a chair in the center of a partying crowd - splashing water (crap!).

7. Took off my shirt (I was wearing a sleeveless shirt beneath so no scandalous act).

8. Went back to the office...

   a. Greeted the guard in a Japanese manner - bowed plenty times

   b. Talked to the plants

   c. Acted like a boss on everyone by walking around with my hands on the waist while saying, "What's keeping you busy?!"

   d. Locked myself in the restroom with 2 other girls laughing out loud.

   e. Pointed a finger and gave a high-five to our visiting American boss.

9. Danced in front of a crowd.

10. Believe it or not but I sang.

11. Threw ice on someone (Ooopsy! Sorry)

12. Cried (sh*t)

13. Minor motorcycle accident 

14. Ransacked an embargoed house

15. And a lot more...

There were things I wish I didn't say or do when I was under the influence of alcohol but then I have learned to laugh it all off. Somehow I know my limit, the moment I notice that I am drunk I make my famous escape - I run home. As in I really run. Ha-ha-ha. If there's a runaway bride then I could be the runaway drunk version.

I treasure all the funny/comic memories and how I made a complete fool of myself. On October 31, 2006 - my first salary, I treated my friends in a party wherein we joined a beer-drinking contest. Luckily I won!!! That was one of my most cherished achievement ^_^

Now, I get to drink occasionally - yesterday, today, and tomorrow! Ha-ha-ha just kidding. My drinking buddies are hardly around since they have a family of their own or a very busy career. So, I'm just patiently waiting for occasions ^_^

 Which is which?

Tolerable Alcohol content

 Charice I challenge you!

Rockin' rollin!!!

200th

noreply@blogger.com (kay) — Tue, 13 Mar 2012 14:36:00 +0000

This marks my 200th blog entry. I feel like it is something special so I must write something special as well. But I've been staring in this blank page for quite some time and nothing comes into my mind.

Then poof! Someone opened the door in my room --- one of my favorite people in the universe!

Jan Clinton - my youngest brother. It sound so cheesy but I used to call him as "my miracle". I hope he won't be able to read this because he will think he's so special - hahaha. Though we have an 8-year age gap, I think the constant togetherness, similarities and even the differences made us very close to each other. We don't tell everything to each other really but I guess almost everything. I find so much joy and happiness when I spend time with my brother although I get annoyed on his pranks and he gets annoyed on my mood swings - we know how to stir each others characters. We argue a lot because we intentionally do it to piss out each other. Both of us are always cautious at home for pranks that we might have prepared for each other - hahaha - crazy! Like he would place a fake centipede in my cabinet while I would edit my name in his phonebook and give him a prank text or call.

I could say he is my bestfriend - I guess. I admit that I spoil him when it comes to his whims and wants - oh well it makes me happy. Maybe because I missed or I wasn't spoiled by my older sister. I have never bought myself a pair of shoes that would cost above P2,000 but I bought him a pair of shoes almost P5,000 without a wink. I don't overspend on perfumes, I settle for those 5 bottles for P99.00 but for my brother I gave him an Armani perfume costing almost P4,000. But it's not about the money...it's about sharing the happiness.

Movies, music, jokes, adventure trips, bullying, food, clothes, fun runs, Naruto, Koreanovela, Bollywood and a lot more --- we share the same likes and dislikes. We are both foolish and goofy.

One thing I am thankful for is he never (I think) complained whenever I drag him into thing I want to do. He is game! He accompanies me on watching girly movies, buying my clothes, doing grocery, watching the band I like, hiking for a dental-mission on a very far place, getting lost in Manila when we decided to just ride the MRT to its different routes, taking walks when I'm bored, doing the laundry together on weekends, talk about anything, and I have a long list of the rest of the things that I am grateful for in my brother.

He's all grown up now - his no longer that little boy I would embrace to catch all the hits when he gets spanked by our parents. Gone are the days that I would watch him perform in school activities and attend parents day in his school. But he still that sweet kid that likes to share the same room with me although we have separate rooms now, he often hangout in my room - annoying me. Now, there are so many girls in his life - friends and acquaintances. For some I'd like to raise my eyebrows but then I don't meddle with my brother's affairs. One thing that I am sure of is that he will favor his sister above the all

--- because we are partners.

happy hormones

noreply@blogger.com (kay) — Mon, 12 Mar 2012 14:20:00 +0000

glow like a glow worm ♥

i'm such a sick-o!

i take pictures of myself and when i get lucky on the shots i brag it to my seatmate for the entire day.

she gets so annoyed with it. hu-wa-ha-ha!!!

"look on how blooming i look!!!"

although i am gaining weight these past weeks - i think it suits me well.

see?! i got all the nerves to appreciate myself. hahaha

the.cranberries.live.in.manila

noreply@blogger.com (kay) — Sun, 11 Mar 2012 05:01:00 +0000

WHOA!!! For real The Cranberries will be having a concert in the Philippines!!!

And because I'm such a sucker on this long-awaited concert I joined an online raffle. Yes oh yes, they will be giving away 2 tickets of the concerts - FOR FREE!!! I have my fingers crossed - hope to win!

Yes, as for those who will be wondering on how will I be there in the concert in Manila when I am here in Davao. By some twist of fate, I have a scheduled vacation on April 9th to 11th in Manila. Just my luck eh?

Not yet, I must have those free tickets first and then I'll practice my puppy eyes so parents will permit me to go. If not, I'll practice my ninja moves to climb up on the gate for escape *wink*

PHL to US to Korea

noreply@blogger.com (kay) — Fri, 09 Mar 2012 13:33:00 +0000

So I've been sick lately. I don't usually get sick but since its one of the trending things at our workplace so I jumped in and boarded the boat of sick people.

Kapag tinatanong ako kung kumusta naman ang pakiramdam ko, sinasagot ko ng..."May ubo+sipon+sore throat+lagnat kaya equals burol!". Burol as in wake in english at lamay in bisaya. Pakyawan kasi ako kung magkasakit at since tinitipid ko ang mga leave of absences ko, pinili ko pa ring pumasok sa trabaho.

Wednesday this week, may project call ako with our US mirror. Patay! Garalgal masyado ang boses ko kaya di ako sure kung magkakaintindihan kami. Kaya before the call sinabihan ko na sya na I'm not feeling well and I might not be contributing much in the call - more of a listener na lang muna ako. At nang magsimula na ang skype call, he greeted with "Good Morning!". Eh hindi naman to kaparehas ng nanonood ka ng DVD na pwede kang magdisplay ng subtitle at hindi rin naman polite na wala akong isasagot. For awhile naging dead-air, alam ko na hinihintay nya akong magsalita at nakahanda na ang tawa nya. "Good evening Abhishek!", sabi ko. Yun na! Natawa na sya. Bakit? Kasi boses-lalaki ako nang dahil sa sore throat na yan! Hahaha.

Anyway highway skyway by-the-way okay! I'm so stubborn pa naman when it comes to taking care of myself and taking medicines. Medyo may bahid ako ng pagka-lukaret eh. No to hospitals and no medications as much as possible --- gastos lang!!! Kaya kung anu-anong gamot ang nainom ko this week. From bioflu to alvedon to decolgen. Na-confuse din yata ang sakit ko kaya naisipan nyang huwag na lang magtagal sa system ko. Hooray! I'm much better on the 2nd day kaya gora na!

Maisingit ko nga si boylet saglit. Naglambing ako nung Wednesday na gusto ko ng mainit na sabaw para sa lagnat. Actually gusto ko lang kumain!!! Mission accomplished kasi nilibre nga ako ng dinner at wish granted sa seafood sinigang. Yum yum yum. Kahapon naman, Thursday, pinakain ulit ako ng paborito kong California Maki. Sino naman ang hindi gagaling sa sakit kung ganito ang pag-aalaga?! Hahaha e-chos!

Napapagalitan din ako lately ni other-half because of my late night habits. Pinapatulog ako ng maaga since may sakit nga daw ako. Uulitin ko...I am stubborn. Sinasagot ko sya ng "Ayaw! I'm not yet sleepy at manonood pa ako ng TV". Guess what, nag super-sayan sya sa inis. Hahaha. Kasi naman I'm so hooked to this Koreanovela na DONG YI. Maganda yung kwento at natutuwa ako sa characters. Kaya hindi pwedeng ma-miss ko ang episode every night kahit pa 10:30PM-past 11:00PM ito pinapalabas. Sinusubaybayan talaga namin ng kapatid ko na si Clinton ang palabas na'to. Sa totoo lang, eto lang ang pinapanood ko sa TV on weekdays. Malamang gagawa ako ng blog entry about Dong Yi one of these days...let's see.

she·nan·i·gans

noreply@blogger.com (kay) — Thu, 08 Mar 2012 16:13:00 +0000

does something bothers me?

do i despise anyone?

will i ever do something about it?

NO.

from an updharmadown song, unspoken definites, it is mentioned that

"there are things that even the blind can see"

some people have very brilliant minds that they have a talent of assuming and concluding things on their four-cornered minds

they can twist the story and scheme a perfect storyline

applause applause to you

when all of this is over...i prefer to be the one with less words said

i am not blind and i am not dumb to notice

i just know

#409 is the number to beat

noreply@blogger.com (kay) — Mon, 05 Mar 2012 16:42:00 +0000

Ako'y nababagot sa de-susing pamumuhay

Naghahabol ng bawat segundo

Oras ay tumatakbo ayon sa listahan

At natatapos ang araw sa mga ekis at tsek

Ako'y nalalangin ng sorpresa sa bawat araw

Iyong mga bagay bagay na hindi ko pangkaraniwang nararanasan

O di kaya mga bagong kakilala o bagong aralin

At nang matapos ang araw ko ng may ngiti sa labi

-o-

Last Sunday, I joined a Night Run for the Clean Samal Campaign of our local government. I was captivated by the event because of the people that I am going to experience it with. By the way it's my 7th fun run by count.

The farthest distance I completed was a 5K marathon. Later on I realize that I should decrease the distance wherein my body is more comfortable with - of which I can truly consider as a fun run and not a pain run. So this time, we registered for a 3K run.

Before the run started. Posing with friends.

At the starting line. This was the funniest starting line ever! It was more of a pictorial - hilarious!

Notice the participants in this division, mostly are kids and senior citizens. Hahaha. We call this 20% Discount edition.

I'm the one with the backpack

After the 3K Run

Photo Booth Moments

post NOTs

noreply@blogger.com (kay) — Mon, 05 Mar 2012 04:17:00 +0000

While internet connection at work isn't stable, I was doing a clean-up of my laptop files. And then poof!!! I saw old pictures I took from the new year wishlist board of a nearby Mall from our office.

I find it hilarious! Seriously?! Posting those on a public place is such a gutsy move. There's no intention of being rude here, I am a QA by profession so checking for errors is a natural thing for me. So spot the NOTs yourself.

my baby has grown up

noreply@blogger.com (kay) — Sun, 04 Mar 2012 15:01:00 +0000

FARA - my baby! Mama Kay loves you sobra kahit pasaway ka at most times

Ikaw na ang pinaka-selosang aso -- nagagalit pag may iba akong kinakargang aso

Ginigising mo ako sa umaga para sa ating "milk-morning-habit"

At pagdating ko sa bahay - tanggal ang stress ko dahil sa'yo

back.to.the.dark.ages?

noreply@blogger.com (kay) — Sun, 04 Mar 2012 14:18:00 +0000

BLACKOUT.
Blackouts is not something new for us residents in the Island of Samal. We experience blackouts once in every while - its something we don't have control and we try to live by as a downside aspect of our life in a remote island in Davao Region.

Indeed no electricity is troublesome. More than five years ago, we experienced the longest blackout that lasted for almost a month. That was caused by a ship's anchor that hit the electric main line supply under water. But we somehow survived the dark days.

Can you imagine taking away all the comfort in your day to day life such as electricity? It's like going back to the cave man years dude! No lights, no television, no electric fans/air conditioner, empty cellphone batteries, and no water supply (faucet). Are all these sinking in to you now? Lately, the electricity supply hiccups are back. Boo-hoo! Last Friday around 7:00 o'clock PM darkness ruled over our house and the streets - Mr. Blackout has strike again!

As much as I would like to curse our local electric cooperation for being an a** on not informing the consumers ahead of time for the blackout --- I was somehow thankful. You see we enjoyed a candlelight dinner - Papa, Mama and Clinton, my brother. Right after dinner, we noticed that the moon was shining so bright so we cared to step out of the house, grab some seats outside, and shared a conversation. It seems that technology served as a hindrance for having a quiet time and quality conversation in our family. We were always glued to the TV screen every after dinner. And so I enjoyed that moment.

During the night to let some cool air come inside my room, Papa kept my door open with the windows in the sala opened as well. I think it was around 3:00 o'clock AM when a creepy feeling crawled over me that I decided to go to my parents' room and squeeze myself between them. I was such a scary baby - hahaha. It's been too long that I've shared the bed with Mama and Papa.

The next day was suppose to be laundry day but since the washing machine won't serve its purpose without electricity so we have to postpone that chore - YIPEE! Papa went to work for overtime, Mama hand washed her office uniforms, I cleaned the house and cooked lunch, and Clinton was all over the place - granting my commands and whims. I was able to take naps - note that I am not a "sleeper" so having nothing to do has forced me to rest. Clinton and I slept side by side listening to our kind of music (from his phone). On regular Saturdays, I would have watched DVDs and TV shows the entire afternoon or drown myself in the internet world. But it was different last week :)

Late in the afternoon rain poured. And because my brother and I are both childish nutheads - we decided to bathe under the rain. Soaking under the rain always makes me happy ^_^ So bottom line was I enjoyed my Saturday - I rekindled the feeling of being a daughter to my parents without my matured-naggy-sarcastic-ways.

2012 ilihan beach outing

noreply@blogger.com (kay) — Mon, 27 Feb 2012 05:34:00 +0000

February 18 & 19 - the very first team outing for the year 2012. Venue was at the Ilihan Beach Resort in Samal Island.

As always, everyone is excited.

But hold your horses. Before I give you details on the trip, I'd like to snick in what happened the night before - on February 17, 2012. Okay, it was the 60th birthday of the mother of my very-close friends slash neighbors slash adopted family. Of course I wouldn't miss to be there in the party. These people are older than me by age but we share the same childish humor. And so we partied and by this I mean we drank, if my Math is correct, 36 bottles (3 cases) of red horse stallion and 6 bottles (1 case) of red horse Litro. Note that our group are all girls and this made it even more fun - the jokes, the dance routines, the karaoke, and everything. Went home at 2 in the morning :)

The next day I had to wake up as early as 6AM to prepare for the team outing. And as much as I would not want to say this but I did have a bad hangover - no! it wasn't a hangover at all (in denial)... I suffered dehydration due to non-stop vomiting and hyper acidity. Anyways, I survived it and was able to attend to the outing in a normal state but I spent the entire day mostly asleep. Hahahaha.

Played UNO-STACKO but then it bored us right away.

In my hangover state.

Here's the exciting part. The boys brought drinks - as I have agreed weeks before the outing and I even promised to participate in the drinking. With my bad hangover I have to resist the temptation or else - I'll end up in a hospital bed. Thank Heavens that I was able to say NO - consistently. But I felt bad skipping the shots so I decided to knock myself out by sleeping and pretending to be asleep.

Hep-hep hooray game

Shots taken while we were grilling the BBQs

Oh no! I just pose for the champagne-cheers picture but I didn't took a single sip. Good girl!

Pinoy Henyo game. I can't still figure out what we were saying/shouting in this picture. Hahaha. "Pamatay na litrato"!!! LOL

sucking at chemistry

noreply@blogger.com (kay) — Thu, 23 Feb 2012 14:15:00 +0000

I think I mentioned somewhere in my blog that I loved chemistry back in high school. I was so fixated with the table of elements -- to the point that I memorized the order of elements along with their atomic numbers, the oxidation process, the octet rule, and etc. I drool over chemical formulas and their chemical computations. Geeky right?

Now, where is this blog entry leading? Nah...I'm not gonna bore you out with geeky stuffs. Relieved now?

I suppose I suck at chemistry at some point -- my physical chemistry with the one and only element in this universe that will complement with my atomic existence to its stable form. I don't know...can't help to get fidgety. I kept on nagging him on the things he falls short on but then when you turn the tables, I myself didn't make up the half of my share. Yes, I did write him letters, I cooked for him, did favors and cut myself some slack for him, and a whole bunch more. But then again I don't say "i love you" that much, I don't tell him that I would love to spend weekends with him, I don't tell him what I really want but rather make him go crazy on figuring it out for himself, I don't ask him about his future plans...all because of the fear of being rejected. I don't hold or touch him unless he does it first. I don't kiss him unless he does it first and I don't ask him for a kiss either. So many unsaid words trapped in my clouded mind. I tremble infront of him. It kills me seeing him quiet. I'd like to figure out his thoughts -- is he sad? is he having some manly periods? did i say or do something that offended him? Do you get what I mean? I can ask him directly and get a straight answer but I don't...I wait on the safe side. I can't grab a hold of myself and I don't even make any sense! And so I say he keep my insanity alive.

Last week, he said he has something for me. He dropped by the house and handed his Flash Drive (my gift years ago ^_^) and told me to check the 5 videos. And knowing me, my thoughts would go fast forward in its maximum speed with all negativity. I assumed that those were porn videos. Hahahahaha. Silly me! I said stupid things to him. When I checked the files -- 4 video episodes of Kushina and Minato's love story. For a brief background, I am a Naruto-addict and one of my favorite characters are Kushina and Minato, Naruto's parents. He downloaded the fresh episodes for me. And the 5th file was a music video of the classic song "Constantly" by Cliff Richards. In the end, I felt stupid myself. Here's the chorus of the song:

Just as sure as the stars keep burning
In the sky your love will stay a flame in me
A flame that burns so bright
Not only through the night
But constantly

Still last week, I was keeping track on the movie "The Vow". I told him earlier that I can't miss to watch it in cinema. So he said we would watch it together and in a sarcastic manner he said that it was in his watchlist. Who is he kidding?! Somehow we were able to watch it together. But inside the cinema I got pissed when I noticed him busy texting. So when the movie ended he asked series of questions about the movie. See!!! If he just ain't busy texting then he could have perfectly memorized every scene. And in a jumpy manner he said aloud that it was a great movie! Seriously?!?! It pissed me off.

And then I remember the other day I told him, "We don't even have a physical chemistry. We move apart from each other. What we have is more of a partnership...a good partnership though". He just laughed at me and said, "Maybe we should start a business then?". So I said in return, "What the!!! Bwisit!!!". This made him laugh even more. According to him he found me so cute saying those words that he lost some strength in him. Hahahaha. Oh shut up!

This week, it seem that we were having some name games. The other day I was his "honeybunch", yesterday I was his "Sweetie", today I call him my "Baby" and he call me "my dear". Hahahaha. Can you follow how extreme we are? For one minute I'm pissed and in the next minute I am calling him with a term of endearment.

Then yesterday, I informed him that I'll come home late so he needs to go home on his own. Suddenly he started interrogating me. He's not like this before...he just says "okay" to me. But yesterday was different, he was asking me "why", "where are you going", "whom are you with", ''what time will you finish", etc. It's kinda weird but I blushed and I got goosebumps for his interrogation. He really did waited for 4 hours and we went home together. I like it.

While we were waiting for a ferry yesterday, a friend of his asked on who I was. I pretended that I wasn't listening when he answered that I'm his girlfriend that he is planning to marry. I snatched a smile behind him.

Anyway, my intention is just to write something about us. About our wars. About our distinct setup. About our road to a life of togetherness. Yes, we are opposites in so many things and there are a lot of factors that would justify that we are not chemically compatible...but hey we know better.

i.boom.boom

noreply@blogger.com (kay) — Tue, 14 Feb 2012 08:53:00 +0000

I am not planning for a blog entry any time soon. I am consumed by anger lately so I better shut up. But then again...a surprise came my way. And I can't help but post this...it deserves a spot in my blog!!!

Girl in leftmost is my bestfriend Lovelle

Boy is D my boyfriend

Second girl is MEEEEEEEE

Music: Boom Shakala (if your childhood years s in the early nineties...you know this)

Hahahaha. It sure did made me laugh...like super laugh...like awhile ago to now to tomorrow. hahahaha

This is our presentation on our Recognition Day when we were Grade II.

rear view

noreply@blogger.com (kay) — Tue, 10 Jan 2012 10:14:00 +0000

can i write off my thoughts freely?
can i explode here in this blank page?
can i just be true without the fear of hurting you?

i am lost between sense and stupidity. i exactly know what’s the right thing to do but i am powerless to execute all these concrete thoughts. i have been hurt over the same things and now i have lost the sympathy for myself…i don’t even know the whole point of me staying. what do you want me to do? who do you want me to be? in what ways do you need me? tell me because i can’t figure it out…i can’t figure you out. i don’t want to over-think things but it is what it is…you and me isn’t such a wonderful thing anymore.
you don’t want me to be there with you when you’re sick. you were hospitalized for almost a week without telling me. i understand your reasons that you don’t want me to worry and you don’t want me to see you in a weak state. thank you for thinking that way. but you see, those are not the appropriate actions. you are depriving me to love you. you are pushing me away. and you are giving me all the reasons to leave.

and so what now? your lies are all piling up that i can’t keep up with them anymore. is it so hard for you to be simply happy? i am your girlfriend and yet i am OFF LIMITS to your life. what am i to you then? i have lost my worth you know… and then you shed those tears and beg me not to leave you?

crap! you don’t let me to love you! you don’t even acknowledge me for loving you in all ways i know! you seem to have a hard time in loving and yet i have hoped and believed that you will find your way in loving and when that time comes i want to be there with you. life is such a beauty! all the wonders of loving is such a sweet sweet experience! why hesitate in all these?

my dear, i have drawn the last straw of patience and hope a long time ago. i have prayed for you and for us with my most sincere intentions but your walls are so hard to break. sadly i have given up already on fairy tales. and you have emptied all the love in me… but then again i can neither imagine nor dare to look at you at my rear view mirror. so i am still here and only God knows why.

Tadhana: Run4Love

noreply@blogger.com (kay) — Sat, 07 Jan 2012 04:07:00 +0000

Rio Dela Cruz' Proposal...

Oh ****!!! UDD+A Love Story = definitely a HIGH

we.no.serious

noreply@blogger.com (kay) — Thu, 05 Jan 2012 09:58:00 +0000

When happiness falls short, who you gonna call?

Me (with the glasses) with workmates during lunch breaks. We bum in Abreeza Ayala Mall after and hangout in the arcade for 1 hour. And what do we get out of it? On lucky days, a FREE Photo booth picture ^_^

la-di-da

noreply@blogger.com (kay) — Wed, 28 Dec 2011 00:52:00 +0000

Finally, I am reunited with my comfort shoes!!! What a high!!!

D♥ dragged me to the mall yesterday and told me that I should buy a pair of shoe for myself with one requirement: NOT SLIPPERY :)

We wandered for awhile but I am very sure at the back of my head that I want chucks!

And so I did! And now I am back on my old-school look: shirt+jeans+backpack+chucks

PS: checked off one item from my "MUSTs for 2012"

2012-MUST-DO

noreply@blogger.com (kay) — Fri, 23 Dec 2011 07:14:00 +0000

"Planning" has never been a friend of mine and so does "New Year's resolution list". But then I figured to make one anyway just to kill my time...kill boredom...

I have listed out 26-must-do for 2012. Why 26? Because I am 26 years old and I was thinking of what I should accomplish before I turn 27 by May. This means I got only 5 months...haha. I am not nice to myself ;) I am not even expecting to fulfill the list because somewhere in between 2012 I will forget about this list anyway. I am not making any sense am I? Ha-ha-ha. Okay, now I am starting to be boring so here's the list:

1. get a whole-body massage...A MUST...ASAP
2. new wayfarer rayban...broke the one i have :_(
3. pantograph...i'll go back on charcoal painting
4. buy converse shoes...my comfort shoes!!! i soooo missss youuuu...where have you been!
5. new camera...nikon J1 perhaps
6. buy a lomo cam
7. black & white paint for my room...a do-it-myself thing
8. 24" or 25" waistline...with the help of twist board (malayo-layong byahe to!!!)
9. trim down coffee and alcohol intake...limit it occasionally like yesterday, today and everyday. hahaha!
10. finish my scrapbook projects...scavenge-compile-cut-paste
11. bookbind all my written works...poetry, short stories, drawings, and rants
12. house renovation...install brick pavement in our outdoor flooring
13. start and invest on a business...these are the hard times so i need to double up my work
14. get a passport, driver's license, NSO birth certificate (i lost my original copy...crap!), college transcript of records (i'm so stubborn! i graduated 5 years ago and i didn't bother to get my records), CENOMAR (hahaha...kidding)
15. go back to school?...nah! study isn't my thing anymore so let's just see
16. set foot in Palawan or return to Boracay ^_^
17. get a new haircut (dream cut!!!)...i'm keeping my fingers crossed. I SUPER ENVY Raleene Cabrera's cut - she's an industrial designer and lead vocals of the Walkie Talkies
18. get my passport stamped...only on nearby countries
19. learn more recipes and try pastry making
20. read a book (this is unaccomplished from last year's bucket list)
21. new laptop bag
22. do something unforgettable and FUN...zipline? zorb? water rafting?
23. get to see more movies
24. get more sleep...get rid of these eye bags
25. buy an engagement ring and propose (this is the part where i don't know what else to list so dont take me seriously)...blah!
26. get a tattoo?!? (i must get very very drunk first so i wouldn't remember doing it and i can regret it the next day)