Vortex

Meet with inner being

noreply@blogger.com (Unknown) — Thu, 03 Nov 2011 17:04:00 +0000

I was doing sitting meditation, it's been a while since I last sit, even so I find it easier to sit nowadays all because of a simple understanding I learn from practicing Abraham's being aware of my emotion, nothing is more important than that I feel good. So I tend to my feelings first, feel good than sit.

I had this experience the second time. some quiet clear like space knowing. Seems that I can get any answer I want from it, and I feel blissful just being with it, so quiet, peaceful feeling without any thinking. Just sit there with my bare knowing. I can't wait to tell my wife of my progress. So useful, this state, and it even relate to some scripture we'd learnt. But lucky for me, my old understanding of some principal didn't fade away yet, so with my habit to reflect any situation and any experience I may have, I reflected on this experience as well. A simple flaw I find with this experience, what I can see is duality, so it cannot be me or cannot be my inner being that I am searching for. It may very well be useful state, but it is still a state created by my mind.

Many teaching teach ways to realize the truth, to find your true self. One simple way to examine the genuineness of the experience is to ask a simple question; is this experience that I have depend on any situation for it to sustain, or does it need a certain state for it to occur? If so, it is not the ultimate realization, because whatever arises soon ceases.

Focus wheel and letting go

noreply@blogger.com (atushi) — Wed, 19 Oct 2011 06:09:00 +0000

I used to stressed the important of tackling the bull by the horn. My wife used to tell me that Lester said that one way of letting your inner being help you is to let go of your thought. I cannot agree with her, because Abraham said that when you are in that bad feeling vibration, and if you don’t do anything about it it will get bigger. Even though I can agree that keeping a don’t know mind can help, because Abraham used to encourage that if you feel bad, try to meditate and keeping a no thinking mind and your cock will bob right back up. So I say that distraction can help, but if you keep don’t know mind and still feel bad than you’ve got to do something about it. I guess that words don’t teach, as Abraham stated before.

Recently I have an issue. I did some mistake many years back and recently have to confront with the mistake I’ve made. This I can say is the most difficult time of my life. The problem and the person involved keep chasing me like a mad dog, barking unceasingly. Come to think about it now, even though the problem haven’t been solve yet, only I am now able to escape the negative emotion, actually it was my mind mostly are barking at me, the person bark, oh she holler at me few times a month, but I cannot say “unceasingly” though.

Any way, I know I cannot not directing my thought and keep feeling bad, I have too many proof that Law Of Attraction really works and I have no intention to fool around with it. So I keep doing focus wheel, but that thinking keep coming at me to the point that I have no choice but to keep doing many many focus wheel, I feel the relief and than back again, feel some relief and than back again, the good thing is that it manage to give me a sense of control over the situation, and on the other hand my wife’s manage to keep herself in the Vortex most of the time, and her vibration do help me a lot, I can’t explain, just being with her sooth me a little. So I keep going at it until a kind of saturated feeling or maybe thinking fill me up, and it starts to make sense to me that just let go of the thought and I can feel good, just let go, at the moment of stopping that very same though about the problem I get a sense of relief, so at this moment I also do some translation on a video about Abraham talking about the Stream, and at the end of the talk she stress that to just let go of the beating drum of thinking of the bad feeling thought and the stream will take you, and once it turn your canoe you will feel a sense of relief. I am so happy now that my experience help me to grasp this massage. Thank you my lovely wife, thank you Abraham.

Wake up middle of night feeling empty

noreply@blogger.com (Unknown) — Sun, 11 Sep 2011 08:43:00 +0000

I had an in law, married for 20 years, with two children, one boy one girl. They have a three stories bungalow, husband sometime work out station, never heard of any misbehavior. No heavy debts that they need to repay, she also has a car, can travel anytime she wants, also has a motor bike, a cub. She wrote to my wife saying that she is not happy, she felt her husband don't love like he used to, when in fact her husband will came home and cook for her and the family meals that he tasted while he is away, he will always ask for recipe anytime he tasted anything good so that when he come home he can cook for his family to try. Many people will gladly exchange place with her, and here she was saying she is miserable and wanted to leave her husband, saying that love is gone.

When I ponder about her life, I don't know how to react, guess this is what they say anytime one can feel the emptiness in ones heart, wake up in the middle of the night, feeling lonely and lost and big hollow emptiness within one's heart. Think many will agree that they felt that too, and I used to believe that nobody can truly be satisfied with life, that the core of life is suffering, just like the Buddha say in his preaching of the first noble truth that life is suffering. I even go deeper study that the root of suffering is clinging or attachment. Many people become Buddhist monk because of that empty hollow feeling in the heart in the middle of the night. Now I know that it is not that complicated. Those who become monk after some years may find that the reason for them to become monk, actually is not a problem at all, insight they might say, oh! shoot! it's no problem after all, of course they might not announce it publicly, only think quietly to themselves.

Actually whatever one feels is only a feeling, the problem is we treat it as real and separated problem. Another reason is that we ignore the massage of the feeling, most of us try to be macho and leave our feeling as it is, we thought it might go away, and when it doesn't we thought that it is real. So when one ignore one's feeling, one would not analyse it, so one doesn't know the true nature of it. feeling is nothing but an indicator of the true essence of the thinking one hold, or are thinking at the time. yes thinking is important, much like the gauge of our fuel tank, it will point out to you whether your tank is full or empty, so it is unwise to ignore your indicator of your fuel gauge, like wise it is unwise to ignore your feeling. check your feeling, and once you find the reason behind those feeling, you will know that it is thinking in a certain way that cause you to feel that way, and now the solution is obvious, change whatever you are thinking right away towards a favorable direction for you, than you will find that the feeling change. Fill up your fuel tank and you will find your fuel gauge point to a different direction, and now everything is fine, there is nothing more to do on this and you can go about your daily happy life without changing much of anything physically, only until later that you'll find the physical surrounding has change for you. change to a better position that is.

Questions for the angels

noreply@blogger.com (atushi) — Wed, 27 Jul 2011 10:18:00 +0000

Questions for the angels
Who believes in angels?
Fools do
Fools and pilgrims all over the world

Fools believes in angels? In the teachings of the lord Buddha, there’s a phrase that even some of his disciples todays don’t believe, he says:”all are made from mind alone.” So if anyone truly believes in angles, there surely will be angles for him, and if he believes that angles will help him, he will get help.

I believe in this notion of mind alone made everything, and

I see it from the simplest sense, that is; who thinks your thought? your mind, that is, and so mind thinks thought and thoughts made world. I wasn’t arrive at this understanding purely thru Buddhism, but thru some other master, or teachings. One of it is The Teachings of Abraham. She says that thinking has power, and whatever your mind can think about the universe can deliver. Another similar saying comes from Napoleon Hill, he says whatever the minds can conceived and believe it can achieved. Zen master Bon Soeng says mind made everything, if we don’t get underneath that, it’s just playing with the branches and the leaves…

Mind made everything

Once about ten years ago, I attended a 7 days retreat seminar. It was kind of an advance Buddhist course in north of Malaysia, the title of the seminar says so: ”advance Buddhist course and retreat class.”. I was a newbie to Buddhism at the time, but they accepted me and my friends in, maybe it was out of their compassion that they did so. So as I was there I got a chance to meet the invited speaker from Taiwan, he is a somewhat famous monk in Chinese speaking Buddhist communities in Malaysia and Taiwan. When I am with him alone I ask him a question that all newbie will (of course in Chinese speaking Buddhist communities newbie that is.). I ask: “ is there really exist a western pure land? ” Quietly he stare at me for a moment, like he can read my mind or something, but I was sincere and without any fearful emotion I waited for the answer..He ask: “What do you think, is this world that you are living real or not?”. I answer: “Yes, I think it is real.” . “So the western pure land is real than.” He says. I think to myself at that time, wow! this is truly a great teacher, he really knows the teaching and the answer is base on the scripture.

Looking back on it now, I laugh at myself, actually he don’t know anything, he himself were doubtful about the western pure land. So he is a smart teacher, who gave smart answer. These kind of teacher gives deep theories about the Buddha’s teachings, so deep that it’ll take years for you to grasp any. The problem is sometime they also forgot that mind is the main cause, they’ll starts to explain to you about the physical phenomena of cause and effect, about impermanent, about emptiness, about egoless and so on and so forth….and about practise also, you do this you do that and you can attain this and that, but one who listen to their advice must ask a basic question, if I practise accordingly will I truly attain what he says I would, since he himself been doing it for so long without any result. I asked that question some years ago and I think to myself, if I really practice that way I can never attain anything myself, so I start looking for some meaningful way within myself. In a way, this kind of teaching also help me find my own way, and I am thankful for that.

This is what Abraham has to say about thinking, I made this video to share his view. I own nothing of the content used in this video, all come from searches from the wonder of internet…

Abraham on thinking.

Music is the "feel" in the vortex

noreply@blogger.com (Unknown) — Wed, 06 Jul 2011 16:51:00 +0000

We build our value system around physical manifestation, so we tend to put off doing some things that we like to do. All because it seems unproductive with doing what we like to do. Actually it might as well be the most correct thing to do at the time, and it wasn't sway out of the center of our life, it is the center of our life. It secure us of the good feeling that all we wanted rest upon.

Music is some thing I like doing long time ago. I said long time ago because I haven't been doing for long time. Of course by doing music I mean listening to music I like, playing musical instrument I enjoyed. I put it off, because it feels wrong to do when there's many important task that I haven't accomplish. Now after I was down emotionally for a while, without any idea of getting back in line, finally I turn back to music, and it gave me back my center, or rather sooth me back to my center.

It alleviate my vision when Abraham said that it is the only important center to stay with the feeling of what music bring.

It is not the physical value that it can produce in the sense of earthly cause and effect. It is the vibrational value that music brings. To guide us back to the vortex, to keep us on the right side of the shore of what we aspire and give us the feeling we long to have, with or without the physical tangible evidence in our hand.

Taking full responsibility

noreply@blogger.com (atushi) — Mon, 06 Jun 2011 13:26:00 +0000

Taking full responsibility of our lives is like a chant that I keep in my mind for a long time. I thought I was taking responsibility of my life, I believed in it. I learnt this theory since I started joining a Buddhist association. It was like nearly twenty years ago. I said that because that was when the idea was given to me in a properly laid out form, I should have

had this idea long before that, so for me to accept the idea was not difficult at all. In Buddhism there is a saying that one who eat are the one who satisfied her hunger, one who practise the Dhamma are the one who solved the suffering of rebirth. Kind of plain and simple theory, so I took it without given it a second thought.

Than I go to some Zen retreat, it was Korean style Zen. Zen master always said, the sutra is only Buddha’s idea not yours, it can not help you, you must find your own answer. My agreement in that notion take a step further and I can agree that any teaching is only finger pointing to the real answer. Also in Kalama Sutra said, don’t simply believe what other said trust your own experience, whether it lessen your sufferings or added more to it. Not your master not even the Buddha you should trust but your own soul, not even when the teaching sounds logical. I can accept that, but only do not understand what is the meaning of not trusting logic. As far as I know I accept the Buddha Dhamma because of logic, and with that sound logic I lay the foundation of my believe in this religion. So as usual I just leave it till the day I can fully comprehend.

Than I came to learn the teachings of Abraham, she says that your mind or your thinking made your reality, you have no other way but only to take full responsibility of your own life, sounds great, resonance with my thought. so accepting is yet another easy task. Even the Buddha himself said that only the mind that created all things.

Until today I overheard a lady ask Abraham about her son pointing out that she is not in a good situation and that is her attraction, she argue that she is not the only one that vibrate (thinking and feeling that is) but the whole group does so she is not to blame for that situation, and Abraham point out that no matter what happen in our life we are to take full responsibility because whatever experience we had is our vibration and attraction. Now I starts to feel deeply about this and realised the extent of it, to take full responsibility of my own life is to not have any bits of blameful thought towards others, totally accept, yes! I am the one responsible for what happened.

Anything new is good

noreply@blogger.com (atushi) — Sun, 01 May 2011 09:30:00 +0000

Anything new is good, we got excited over it, exhilarating, promise good promises, and resort to do it (there is this word again, "do it!") big. Many years later, suddenly discover that we did not follow through with it. We'll most probably feel guilty and regret. That is the common scenario. Don't agree with me? As I search through Blogger, trying to find a suitable name for this blog, I came across many left unattended forgotten blogsss. Of course, here the first day of this blog, I am going to have such resolution to "do it" or rather enjoy it for long long time and "make it" or rather think it into a gooood blog to come, or rather it is in the "vortex" now,right at this moment already existed.

I sincerely do wish me good fortune to come. Welcome to planet earth "Vortex" or am I wrong to say it this way? Fault premises? As what have been said or rather preach by the Guru, our inner being.

Our inner being is the other part of our existence, or should say that we are the extension of our inner being or our non physical self, should't say self should say non physical pert of us. In Zen Buddhism, as I understand it, says that we come from the same source call Buddha Nature, everything has Buddha nature, we are made from the same substance, so do our material counter part of existence in this world. If I remember correctly, the Buddha says: "everything came from the mind alone." Direct translate from the Chinese scripture, every thing are made with mind only.

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noreply@blogger.com (atushi) — Thu, 07 Jun 2001 05:35:00 +0000

Atushi: I started with Buddhism, learn the teaching, and practicing non attachment, meaning when facing life circumstances, keep an attitude of no wanting and no rejecting, than you won't suffer. Than I learn Korean Zen, get pass some 'kong an', and try to keep a don't know mind, started to feel that the the certain idea or method in Buddhism are not attainable. Now I am learning The Teachings of Abraham, I find that the law of attraction is working and have some rather solid example in my life experiences that proof the theory.

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