Dolphin

noreply@blogger.com (Dolphin) — Sun, 17 Apr 2016 10:34:00 +0000

the heart is heavy

noreply@blogger.com (Dolphin) — Mon, 12 Nov 2007 18:47:00 +0000

Saw a hindi movie today - Jab We Met.

hmm...don't even remember the last hindi I really liked. I mean a movie u see and come out smiling just thinking about it.

Jab We Met has this effect :) . I guess it's fun to have a someone whoz a real pain + a chatterbox. What a life.... :D

Hey, now I remember "hazaaron khwaishein aisi"...thatz the last one I saw...

noreply@blogger.com (Dolphin) — Tue, 29 May 2007 20:58:00 +0000

rozaana jiye rozaana mare
teri yaadon mein hum
rozaana

rozaana jiye rozaana mare
teri yaadon mein hum
rozaana

ungali teri thame huye har lamha chalta hoon mein
tujhko liye ghar lautu, aur ghar se nikalta hoon mein
ek pal ko bhi jata nahi tere bin kahin

yun raat din
bas tujhmein hi
lipta rehta hoon mein
rozaana
rozaana jiye rozaana mare
teri yaadon mein hum
rozaana jale rozaana ghoole
teri yaadon mein hum
rozaana

har din teri ankhon se iss duniya ko takta hoon mein
tu jiss tarah rakhti thi ghar, vaise hi rakhta hoon mein
teri tarah sang sang chale yaadein teri
yun har ghadi baaaton mein bas, baaton mein teri
gumsa rehta hoon mein
rozaaana

kuchh gaao to yaad aaate ho...
gungunao to yaad aate ho...
kuchh phehnu to yaad aate ho...
kahin jaanu to yaad aate ho...
kuchh khone pe yaad aate ho...
kuchh paanu to yaaad aate ho...
rozaana chale yaadon mein teri, zindagi ka safar
tujhse hai roshan, tujse hai zinda, (yeh dil ka sheher)
rozaana

Been humming this song from the past couple of days...not idea why..

Btw....why is a flower called a "flower"? any ideas....

noreply@blogger.com (Dolphin) — Sun, 29 Apr 2007 19:28:00 +0000

Why is that people sometimes don’t understand that they are never meant to be together.

Let’s take two of my friends for example.

The guy and the girl study in the same school; pass out from the same degree college and keep in touch for 12 long years. Both of them have seen the ups and downs of their lives and they have even shared their secrets that no none in the world knows expect them. The guy thinks they are the best buddies in the world, while the girl has or had other ideas about the whole relationship.

btw she is married now, has a kid and a wonderful husband. This guy is proud of what she has made of her life.

Now comes the clincher. Out of the blue, one fine evening during a normal mobile convo she blurts out she was in love with him for past 12 years or so. The guy is furious. Heated words are exchanged and knifes are drawn and suddenly they’re “enigmas”

The guy furious that she would do something as stupid as telling him this after all these years and the guy has never even looked at her in any other sense than the word friend. The guy suddenly feels like someone just stabbed him in the back.

And here comes the best part. The guy has known all along that she really liked him and he always acted dumb because he never had the nerve to tell her that he doesn’t see them like that.

The guy has been through lot in his life, parents fighting all the time, an abusive father, a mother who was least bothered what he was up to, a love affair which nearly turned him suicidal some years back – and lots of emotional scars that have over the years has turned into hate, pure hate for everything including life. And the girl obviously knows, cos he told her everything.

Now I am sitting across this guy while he telling me all this and I am suddenly wondering, why are relationships so complicated, why is it so difficult to understand that you end up biting your nails the whole night just thinking about them.

Relationships are not complicated, we just make them so. As for the guy and girl I just didn’t know what to say. Obviously they took each other help during their tough times; they kinda looked after each other. So why did things turn so bad?

I thought the guy was a little selfish, but I wouldn't know. Just this was enough to muddle my thoughts for the next couple of days.

noreply@blogger.com (Dolphin) — Tue, 24 Apr 2007 21:57:00 +0000

3:30 am - Wedding Crashers:

And I am thinking....

People who love the most ...hate the most..

noreply@blogger.com (Dolphin) — Sun, 01 Apr 2007 19:13:00 +0000

Tonight we read the end of the story,
Let’s turn these yellow pages over
Let's find a new beginning
This story is already dead sweetheart
Let’s get rid of the stench and the carcass

Let me open these windows
And let some summer breeze in
Let me smile for a change
Let me put on those brown suede I bought
For that special occasion

Let me dance for a while under the stars
And find my singing voice again
This life is not over, yet.

Let me walk all the bridges in Paris, O’ hopeless romantic
Lets me stare at the Sistine chapel and owe
Let me have that first kiss again
And that tickling sensation at the back of neck

I am here, to fall in love again with life

noreply@blogger.com (Dolphin) — Fri, 23 Feb 2007 22:05:00 +0000

Sitting here in the silent night
And your picture, blurred though
Along all my gloomy solitude

Haven’t thought about you in a while
Life has decided
Not to have love anymore, it seems

I know,
I can't blame you, my heart
I can’t blame myself either
Somehow I’m lost like the withered leaf
That got blown away in the autumn breeze

How do you feel when a insurance rep comes up to you to sell a life insurance and he gives you an illustration and then says looking very seriously at you;

Sir, you will live for a minimum of 78 years.

And I am thinking, s@#* ….that long…. :)

noreply@blogger.com (Dolphin) — Tue, 16 Jan 2007 08:08:00 +0000

On this overgrown shadow of mine,
Lies hidden,
The pictures of my life,
The perfect jigsaw puzzle.
My happiness and my sorrow,
My lovers, my enemies and my friends
And some tears too,
And my soul is just too shy to share it anyone
Anyone special.

- Dolphin

Random thoughts:

I worry about my life, sometimes. I just can’t figure out why. I am quite carefree about it and I don’t know why. We are all born for a purpose, I have always believed that. And some people take a lifetime to realize their true purpose. I just hope I am never too late.

noreply@blogger.com (Dolphin) — Tue, 21 Nov 2006 20:41:00 +0000

Life is like a theatre,
Everything happens in black and white
And the audience will never know the difference
Even if your forget your lines

noreply@blogger.com (Dolphin) — Tue, 17 Oct 2006 20:41:00 +0000

We look into each other's eyes,
You look beyond me
And I look into you.

Just shy of the afternoon,
Sitting as far as the
Evening rays can touch

We sit, ruminate; dreams,
Play with our fingers,
And then we smile

- The Coffee Cup By Dolphin

noreply@blogger.com (Dolphin) — Wed, 11 Oct 2006 21:09:00 +0000

All I ever wanted was a place in your dreams
The ones you dreamed night and day
Then, all I got were your nightmares.
How many seasons more in the rain, my love,
Before you wash yourself off my pain.

The world sees a fool in me
But I am happy where I am
Not like you, the bloom
That doesn’t know its colour

Too many times have I wiped your tears,
Only to have my fingers burned by its lies
How many times have I looked at you, my love,
Only to be fooled by your autumn grace

So stop looking back at me
These seasons in the sun won't wait for us
And where you’re going, my love,
You wouldn’t need me there anymore

- ? By Dolphin

I am beginning to wonder whatz the point in writing a poem if I cannot come up with a title for it.Weird situation.

noreply@blogger.com (Dolphin) — Sat, 07 Oct 2006 14:25:00 +0000

Don’t know if it's true,
Whether I am lying or dying,
All these pictures on the walls broken,
With me in each one of them
Just tell me if I am alive or am I dying.

These paths don't seem to cross,
The light don't seem to kill the darkness.
But I am in with you here, forever lost,
The mirror only reflect a shadow of the one I knew
The one I don't miss anymore.
The life so broken is everywhere,
Can’t seem to untangle you anymore.
Just tell me if I am lying or am I dying.

I don't like the look of you anymore
That sly smile you beam
When I look at you in the mirror.
28 years of abuses and excuses
All that is left, the picture of my father
With 20 years more.
And I just don't know whom I writing this for anymore.
Just tell me if I am lying or am I dying.

- Mirror By Dolphin

Wrote this one when I was half asleep in my office :) Some afternoons can be really boring.

noreply@blogger.com (Dolphin) — Sun, 01 Oct 2006 22:19:00 +0000

To Myself:

All the gold in the kingdom
And all the king ever wanted,
Was a grain of sand,
His only possession.

noreply@blogger.com (Dolphin) — Thu, 21 Sep 2006 20:49:00 +0000

Sometimes you lose so much that you begin to wonder if there is anything else left to lose.

noreply@blogger.com (Dolphin) — Tue, 19 Sep 2006 07:20:00 +0000

The heart is deceitful above all things, and desperately wicked: who can know it?

Jeremiah 17:9

Lessons learnt so far :)

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Sometimes it is good to be bad, even if it hurts.
Silence is precious, preserve it.
Everything ends including life and like any good story, the ending is everything.
Don’t wait for anything or anyone.
There is no thing as destiny or fate, only Passion
You are always the weakest link to your dreams
Never give advice to people who are not ready for it.
Smile, it helps.
You are not as bad as you think you are.
Your expectation about yourself will and should always be greater.
Never be overconfident, it leads to depression.

noreply@blogger.com (Dolphin) — Mon, 21 Aug 2006 20:57:00 +0000

Fill these spaces up with days
In my room,
You can go you can stay
I can't sleep
I can't speak to you
Now these years locked in my drawer
I'll open to see just to be sure
I can't sleep
I can't speak to you
And so I’m reaching out for the one
And so I’ve learned the meaning of the sun
And all this like a message comes to shift my point of view
I'm watching through my own light
As it tints the shade of you
Hold my wine, hold it in
Nobody's lost but nobody wins
I can't sleep
I can't speak to you

-Azure Ray

noreply@blogger.com (Dolphin) — Thu, 17 Aug 2006 15:07:00 +0000

and then life caught up with me......so it's adiós for a while...

noreply@blogger.com (Dolphin) — Tue, 08 Aug 2006 13:37:00 +0000

I wanna forget how to read,
I wanna forget how to write,
I wanna forget how to smile,
I wanna forget how to live,

Forget Life?

But she won't leave me, my constant companion. We sit on the windswept garden chair, sometimes we cry, we dream. Some we cherish, some we don't.

My love, pain. She’s been there all through these years, keeping me warm in the December days and she'll probably be here after I am gone too...Each time I leave her on her own, I can't but smile at the thought she'll probably be here with her open arms waiting for me each time I decide to come back....Now isn't that a happy thought...

:) Damn! I feel alive.

P.S. I know what u guys are thinking....and no it's not about anyone....

noreply@blogger.com (Dolphin) — Sun, 30 Jul 2006 18:51:00 +0000

Lorem Ipsum

"Neque porro quisquam est qui dolorem ipsum quia dolor sit amet, consectetur, adipisci velit..."
"There is no one who loves pain itself, who seeks after it and wants to have it, simply because it is pain..."

Come, come, whoever you are.
Wanderer, idolater, worshipper of fire,
Come even though you have broken your vows a thousand times,
Come, and come yet again.
Ours is not a caravan of despair.

- Rumi

noreply@blogger.com (Dolphin) — Mon, 10 Jul 2006 19:45:00 +0000

Your eyes, a wonder,
I got lost forever
The lips, the bow,
Perfect,
Your smile

Your smile
Your nose twitch, shy
And the dimples,
Oh,
If only they could kill a man,

The happiness, your eyes
The way it twinkles my life

Can anyone be killed by a first glance? I don't think so, but practice will =)

2 years and 3 days
That's the numbers of times I have died thinking about u...
Hell, some people just don't know when to quit...

noreply@blogger.com (Dolphin) — Sat, 24 Jun 2006 11:44:00 +0000

My life closed twice before its close
It yet remains to see
If Immortality unveil
A third event to me

So huge, so hopeless to conceive
As these that twice befell.
Parting is all we know of heaven,
And all we need of hell.

- Emily Dickinson

Life is so magical. I sometimes feel like getting lost in its colours. People fascinate me.... I don't understand them, but I am drawn towards their infinite misgivings and imperfections.

noreply@blogger.com (Dolphin) — Mon, 19 Jun 2006 20:35:00 +0000

I,
Have a wish,
A deathwish,
Hmm....come to think of it....
Even a smile could kill me.

=)

noreply@blogger.com (Dolphin) — Mon, 12 Jun 2006 08:10:00 +0000

No death, no life
No pain, no heart
No tears, no eyes
No fate , no hands
and the soul wanders,
somewhere,
In-between these lines.

noreply@blogger.com (Dolphin) — Fri, 09 Jun 2006 08:00:00 +0000

Buried my dreams
On by one,
Until there were none left
to bury
The blue heart
is heavy
Miss the warmth of the
Tears
And the embrace of the
Vines of pain
The hands bleed
Tired
And they have only
dirt and blisters
The price for the wear and tear
of my conscience

noreply@blogger.com (Dolphin) — Tue, 06 Jun 2006 07:24:00 +0000

On the way to sadness,
I found happiness,
We smiled
We talked
Shared our dreams
Parted, Knowing
We could never be together.