Ad Infinitum

Why?!

2012-04-13T21:18:00.007+05:30

This one was written during a lecture. I am most productive during classes, somehow I get all sorts of ideas while a lecture is going on so what I do is I open the back of my register and scribble whatever crosses my mind.

Rushing reflections in the mirror,
A mirage in the barren land,
Droopy eyes searching for comfort
A hope fueling thirst to be quenched..

The clouds pass again,
The cracks seething out loud,
New buds about to char to oblivion,
Alive in the midst of a mirage.

A large screen on the lone wall,
Playing the same movie for the 100th time now,
The walls watch, remember, by-heart it and bow.
Its their history, in reverance they stand tall.

The same dream recurring quite often,
some question the relevance it has
To relive the bliss of the fairyland
Or to lock oneself in that time-warp

Events stringed by the human mind
A bait or a lever from the Master-Mind
Recurrences, Reiterations and Questions
And it all boils down to 'Why' ?!

Ocean In The Sky

2011-04-16T03:04:00.009+05:30

Scribbled recently during a journey..inspired by the beauty of the sky. Mostly I travel at night or in the morning, but this time it was at dusk. And god did I witness a beautiful site!

It was one of the best moments of my life, I was mesmerized by the beauty of the wondrous nature. Awestruck and Lost! Literally Lost.

It was as if the sky was playing with colors. The horizon was shining in a gleam. There were several shades of blue, different intensities of light, and the clouds - they were rushing everywhere and forming different shapes.

For sometime all that I could see was - Blue, all around, felt as if I was inside a sea. Then at times with a cloud cover below, we were sailing on the surface. And my insides wanted to jump out, into that, to swim across this beautiful ocean, to touch the horizon and come back. To see the sun setting into it, to glide over it.

Wish I had wings!

Well, This is how an airplane expresses its joy on swimming in this 'Ocean In The Sky'.

The smell of wind surrounds me,

My open arms move along,

Twisting and turning to catch a glimpse,

Of the approaching dusk that is beautiful.

All the heaven's colors,

White, Red,Violet and Blue,

Piled on top of each other,

Raining rainbows around with perfect hue.

I'm Sailing within this ocean,

Curving and bending with wind,

Swimming along the boundaries,

Making my way in again.

Can see the Earth's curvature,

Marked by a crimson horizon,

Drifting sea of clouds that underline it,

oooooh, Its mesmerizing!!

Universe, Cosmos and Life

2011-04-09T21:22:00.012+05:30

I had never thought about questions like 'How the first human came on Earth' or 'How the universe works in synchronicity' etc, Wasn't it Darwin's theory about evolution?..conditioned to think that modern day science was providing answers to all these questions, satisfied with the explanations , I never bothered.

Reminds me of a day when there was a debate on television between scientists and astrologers/psychics. The scientists were asking them to give proofs, while the latter were unable make their point. What caught my attention was an astrologer, saying,".. yeh high level baatein hai, science ko iski samajh nahin.." and I laughed very hard on that. Astrology, past life regression etc challenging science?! Was he kidding himself?...But Now, I take my words back. It IS true. Science as projected in the mainstream (I say that because only a little info is made available to people in the mainstream, scientists are definitely researching on every possibility but just a subset of the info, which is considered enough to shape public opinion, is released) is still a baby, learning things as and when it encounters.

So, Who ARE we? Where did we come from? Earth has completed over 5 billion years of existence and humanity (as known) 4-5000 years, What happened before that? Did we just evolve from ameoba and other micro-organisms over centuries, or did we migrate from another planet? Will the current state of earth remain this way in future, with humans (along with pollution and nuclear mess ) inhabiting the planet for several more centuries, or is there a chance of a wipe-out? Is there only one Universe (that we know of) or a possibility of Multiverses(parallel universes)? Are there Ghosts and Sprits, if so, why don't we see them? Do we take birth after we die, or is it just a concept used by Yogis? Why some people are born with psychic powers, or do they dupe people? 'Humans are spiritual beings', What does it imply, that we are supposed to pray and have faith in god, or is it much deeper than this?

I can mention 1000 more questions here but the answers will come only with time. In the meantime, one can expose oneself to the reliable though unconventional theories available. I might mention them and then forget about them completely (Ignorance is bliss :P), but for the 'consciousness' of my being to grow, I need to 'realize' the answers to these questions.

There is just sooo much that I don't know where to start from..

Lets start from Evolution. Everything in this world/universe is Energy, or Light. Everything (matter, force, light, life, visible/invisible) resonates at a particular frequency. There is an entity that is governing the functioning of the synchronicity in the universe (its not a random thing). It has been observed by various scientists that the spacing between the planets of the Solar Systems (notice the 's') bear a harmonic code, mathematicians go wild discovering the golden means and other ratios in the universe. In simple words, the planet spacings, their diameters, ratio to each other aren’t arbitrary, they bear special ratios. So its not like a random cloud of gas & dust came together to form planets and planetary systems. The central 'Star' (sun in our system) is like the gateway to these systems with the central Stars governing their own planetary systems. And yes, I am definitely hinting that earth is not the only planet to have life. Every Star System, for that matter has life in some form or the other. They might be Invisible to our eyes but there are several people like us in the universe. Yes, looking similar to us. (There is a reason why they are invisible to our eyes. I will get to all this in another post). There is a concept of Dimensions. We know about 2D and 3D(We are in this one). There are several more dimensions. As far as I’ve read, there are Eight dimensions(no documented proof of the number anywhere though), like a musical Octave, after which the Eighth dimension acts as the first dimension of the next Octave and so on..This is like an Evolutionary Path for everything that exists in this Universe. The density decreases as you move up the path.

Now, Earth has its own Evolutionary path. The beings on Earth have their own. And the two are NOT mutually exclusive. Earth is currently in the Third dimension (3D). This means that the frequency at which Earth vibrates is of third dimension and is lesser than that of 4th and above. This evolutionary shift is referred to as the 'Ascension' process. Remember Dinosaurs? Earth faced evolution around the time of their extinction. In 3D the cycle is of 75000 years and is about to end in near future. And, the transition has already begun many years ago.

What does that mean? The sun is sending out more energies, its magnetic field has increased multiple folds, the solar activity has also increased. This means that the planets in the solar system are receiving more energy. They are in turn increasing their own frequencies to tune in to these energies. Going through unrest and physical changes. Hence, the increase in natural calamities since the last 10 years or so. These changes are supposed to accelerate now. Some people say 2012 is the year, but It can't be that accurate. So I guess add 4-5 more years atleast. Evolution is not a one-off random thing, it is planned and fixed. There has to be an entity governing all this.

Wondering where the Human is in this? According to Quantum physics that talks about atoms, whatever happens at 'macro' level, happens also at 'micro' level. The changes that Earth is going through are being felt by people living on it. Changes are happening to us too. We all are going through an evolutionary phase at the end of which we would be in the 4th Dimension. This is where your spiritual journey kicks in. We will evolve spiritually into 4D beings. How this will happen etc is up to the Universe, that creates several species and helps them evolve at fixed times. The 3D world is a physical world. 4D world (and above) is more of a spiritual world. An Astral Plane (spiritual plane) gets added. You are more aware of yourself as a spiritual being, having a soul. There will be changes in your physical body, your thinking, your DNA. Some dormant DNA strands will be activated. You will be inclined to feelings such as Love, Light, helping others, Selflessness. Things that make you 'human', not money, fame, hatred, war – things of the physical plane (3D). Nobody knows how and when this would happen. The process has started and changes are being felt in the consciousness level of Earth by higher spiritual realms (spiritual beings).

In a way, our DNA which is of two strands right now, will change. More stands are going to be activated. Scientists call 95% of our DNA as the 'junk-DNA' because they don't know what it does, not being used by us at all. More of it will be activated and our consciousness will increase with that.

More and more people are becoming aware that a fact like this has been kept under covers for 1000s of years (not for our benefit). We are supposed to know who we are and what we are here to do. But, apart from the obvious reasons why certain people would prevent this, as I've mentioned in previous posts, such kind of a thing has been shunned by the 'society' of rationalists too .

There is still a lot to write. You might not believe all this, that is understandable. Keep an open mind.

Open yourself up.

PS: I've been through a life-changing sort of an experience over the last year. Whole of 2010. When I've introspected a lot about myself. I've thought about the big questions in life. Something I feel (it appears to myself) as a 'Zooming OUT' of the everyday life happened. And, I began to look at life in the broader perspective. Stringing events together to see a coherent picture of the life. This is the time that I have been very restless, very unstable and very touchy, emotional over the slightest of things.

A trigger for all this was a series of unfortunate happenings, all occurring at the same time in my life. I felt the lacking of something 'solid', felt that nothing at all was 'real'. That made me question the 'reality' as we perceive it to be. 'Its all in your mind ' is something I've always believed in and I was starting to think that probably your reality is only what your mind creates for you. You create your reality.

2010 was mentally torturous for me. Towards the starting of 2011, I was introduced to illuminati. I began researching on this and the positive effect it had on me was that my view of the world changed. It broadened and I became more open to possibilities. One thing lead me to another, and I stumbled upon Spirituality, Cosmos, Universe. All I can say is that I am getting the best answers and eye-openers here.

Illuminati II

2011-03-27T17:25:00.011+05:30

Well, here are some more updates on this. You might want to read Illuminati I.

Current scenario : No matter how hard the Illuminati are trying to accelerate the NWO , their powers are contained, success seems less likely since there are powers in this universe far greater and powerful than we can ever imagine, the Illuminati know this. They are making desperate efforts now to create fear, to brainwash and depopulate the world since the Earth's Ascension process has already started and changes in the human consciousness are being felt on a large scale by the lightworkers and other spiritual beings on the planet. More and more people are waking up to this. (Will elaborate on this topic in another post)

All these happenings are taking place at the 'Macro' level, so to say.

Only my friends read my blog, I know ;)... so I can guess that all of this is going above your heads. Patience!
Interested? Read below.
Else - Ignorance is bliss :P

Have you ever wondered why all the major world events can be traced directly/indirectly to the US? I obviously am not a US hating freak trying to settle scores by defaming the country in public, No! However, most of the world events have them involved in someway or the other. In India, if you take the 26/11 attacks, there is David Headley, who confessed to being trained alongside the Pak terrorists and 'was a DEA agent'. If you research a little you will find that all the unrest in the world is the result of US secret intelligence services (including Illuminati , which is not country specific). Its still a matter of debate as to whether Obama is directly operating under the Illuminati wing or merely being forced to carry out some of their orders (Though some ET channels have confirmed that he is on the good side, the debate still continues). These Money & Power seeking influential people are the root causes of the world's misery. They've chained people and kept them in the dark since ages and continue to do so even today.

Before the masses fully awaken to Ascension times, the Illuminati have only a few years to go to bring in their NWO, which requires containing mass awakening from happening , stopping DNA changes, depopulating (their most imp agenda) etc etc. As the consciousness is rising amongst the humans by every passing day, Illuminati are also pushing hard. Their deperate attempts are being noticed by the people who are keeping a tab on them. Be it the frequently seen Chemtrails, use of HAARP, mind control through microwaves, creation of fear and panic (its like if you keep people busy with something traumatic, they become less receptive to the light as their mind is occupied with their own problems) etc etc. The Illuminati have been planning a final fake 'alien invasion' since atleast half a century. Why? As part of their Project Blue Beam, which would have been the final nail in the coffin for proposing their NWO as a solution to humankind's survival against them. With the ETs destroying their high-tech machinery and some underground societies threatening the Illuminati, there seems to be very less hope of their success.

All in all, no matter how hard they try to bring it to fruition, there are forces who are keeping a check on their activities and trying to control(lessen) the damage they are likely to cause with these highly advance technologies. Each side's efforts are gradually coming to people's notice. 2011 and 2012 are gonna be important years for sure. I believe that we might get to see the Illuminati unveiling themselves or the First Contact(Disclosure) initiated by the end of this year or the next.

There is just sooo much. If you are interested then you could look up the mentioned terms above. A person only believes when he arrives at it by himself.

Something to Dig Into- I

2011-03-18T23:23:00.067+05:30

This post is with reference to Realization II

Ground Rule : Be Open!

The ‘Illuminati‘!! Ring a bell? Those who have read Dan Brown’s books would already be familiar with the name of this secret Occult-Society. Dan Brown’s novels (I am not paid for publicizing him) are mostly based on facts gathered after detailed research even though the story revolves around a fictitious adventure. Although, he focused more on the Anti-Christ (satanic) nature of this secret group in his books, I will be focusing on the controlling part of their agenda.

One day, when a friend was discussing about how the Illuminati was trying to influence the world, how we were presented with crap and were being herded like sheep, believing all the wrong information being fed by the media. I out rightly retorted how such a thing was possible. If possible, how such a cover-up was even being carried out on a large scale level? These are the questions that you all will be facing while reading this I am sure. So, keep an open mind. Its not a new topic, people have been observing and researching on it for several years. As with many conspiracy theories, the truth will only be known once the skeletons start falling out in the open.

Illuminati (As Simplified As Possible)

For those who have never heard of it, Illuminati is a secret Cult group, organized in a hierarchical manner with the ‘all-seeing-Eye’ at the top of the pyramid. This eye is a part of the group symbolism. Represents those at the top, who are actually governing it (the ‘Insanely’ rich people of the world, in India nobody is that rich and supposedly the Illuminati hasn’t penetrated much here. There is a certain satanic-ritual part involved with the elite people, who think of themselves as gods (as believed) but I don’t buy that theory as much as the controlling part). There is a belief that there are 13 bloodlines behind this, Rockefellers and Rothschilds being the main ones. Below them are the Freemasons, several smaller societies working for them, assassins etc. Communication is very discrete at all levels, so basically one level doesn’t know much about the higher level.

There are many people specifically researching on this. They say that the Illuminati look for prospective mass-influencers (Musicians (Eminem, snoop dog), Company-Heads (some say Bill Gates is involved too), Govt Officials, Media-Houses, Hollywood, every damn field you can think of ). They offer them Wealth and Fame in return for control over their doings (here again they say that mind-control and satanic rituals are involved such as making these people zombies for some time, hypnotizing). Its like Selling-Your-Soul for money and fame. They have their sources placed at every top level institution, working out the orders of the Top-Level. This also includes the Downing Street, the White House, the Vatican, the Federal Reserve Board.

Most of the things are predetermined, they just act out in public on a script. Media is in their control so apart from the script that is read, most of the leaks are subsided internally with threats or other means. When I talk about these things, I don’t mean little matters of little consequences and lesser known people, they include the most influential people at ‘world’ level, people who we know, all the inter and intra governmental matters, and matters of the whole world. Will mention some of the main ones later on.

Illuminati is not a country specific group but yeah most of the controllers belong to the UK, US, EU region. They don’t have the ‘Majority’ of the population under their control technically but are fooling everybody. Total control on the banking and finance industry through the 'Federal Reserve Board'. But other regions are getting influenced nevertheless financially, economically, politically.

Illuminati symbolism: People who study the science of Symbolism say that the Illuminati symbolism is everywhere. Again, a part of the satanic cult, something I don't believe completely, but yeah every group wants to leave a mark on their creations .The all seeing eye, devils horns (yes, although its a symbol used by metal rockers), 666-devils number, 9/11 [10 is God’s number in western civilizations, so you are skipping 10], and so many more symbols.

Controversies:

New World Order (NWO): We have all heard these words! In songs, somewhere or the other. Most of the things are predetermined and are happening on purpose for a greater goal .The NWO, in which they aim to control all the resources of the world. There will be no individual governments. It has been their long term aim. They are playing with the psyche of the masses to induce fear. To lead them into helplessness and ultimately propose their NWO as a solution to the world’s problems. So a lot of hype and restlessness is being created against respective Govts, against humanity (End-of-the-world), Terrorism, Global Warming, Recession, etc.. much more than the actual worth). Illuminati -New World Order

Hue-and-Cry about Terrorism (Out of proportions): A means of creating fear and helplessness amongst the masses. It believed that the Taliban were ready to surrender Osama, before the war, but Bush declined and went ahead with it [Oil]. Motto: Plunder-Take Resouces -Fit Your Person-Create Fear. Osama was a CIA agent. Osama and Bush knew each other even before the attacks on WTC. Osama's brother Salem and Bush had partnered a company(Arbusto Energy Oil Company)[Terrorism: Osama Bin Laden-George W Bush]. Moreover, its also believed that the 9/11 was staged. It was being planned since a long time. Many things are floating around the net. Dimitry Khalezov has his theory that the Freemasons planned the attack, with nukes setup in the buildings before hand for complete destruction.

One Important thing : A US programmer had made a game in 1995 which had 9/11 pictures in it. How is that possible? INWO GAME - 1995

Operation Blue Beam: The ultimate project that will make way for the enforcement of the NWO. Efforts are being made for NWO but it is not working out since calamities like Japan Earthquake etc are uniting people even more :)

Climatic Threats:What is HAARP?. Allegedly earthquakes in Haiti and Niigata were not natural.

Assassinations: Widely known, JF Kennedy, Martin Luther King. Since Nirvana was known for anti-illuminati lyrics and for open thrashing of Illuminati, some believe that Cobain’s death wasn’t a suicide and that he was killed by them for suppression. The Illuminati agenda of ‘Join-Us or Die’ for people who try to expose them. Jim Morrison, John Lennon, Frank Zappa are also said to be murdered. Former rapper, Tupac for trying to expose them in some of his works like 'Killuminati'

Satanic Verses in Lyrics: Some people even say that eagle’s Hotel California when reversed has satanic verses indicating the Band’s involvement with the Anti-Christs. (It sounds like ‘Yeah satan’, but only when u are looking for something fishy). A lot of the famous rock songs when reversed contain them. Obama’s ‘Yes We Can’ when reversed sounds like ‘Thankyou satan’ (I’ve tried recording it and then reversing, it does). Now, whether these were intentionally put or whether they were normal but only ‘sounding’ odd when reversed, only the recording engineers would know ;) I personally feel that any line, when reversed should not contain a sequence of clear English words that make sense. If such is the case, then certainly something has been added externally.

Depopulation: There are (as roughly estimated) around 10,000 Illuminati workers. And with a huge world population, the difficulty increases. So, they intend to reduce the total population by all means. The motto of - "Fewer but better citizens". Reports have appeared about the use of biological warfare (Race-Specific diseases for depopulation and threats).

Resistance Against Illuminati - China is a threat to them for harboring Anti-Illuminati activities. Russia, South-East Asia, Middle East region are supporting them.India is mostly Illuminati free.[Chinese Secret Society challenges Illuminati ].

Links:

Dimitri Khalezov - WTC Nuclear Demolition
Osama Bin Laden Was CIA Spy
CIA-Osama bin Laden controversy
Haarp: High-Frequency Vandalism in the Sky
Illuminati Symbolism - Everywhere!
Illuminati Symbolism in Hollywood

I think this much data is sufficient to keep your minds thinking :) I have just touched upon the issues here, it is a huge topic in itself.There is a lot of information available on the web. If you are interested in knowing more, then please feel free to dig more. And also, paste some relevant links here so I would also know :)

Spread this to more and more people because I really feel we all should come outside of our individual lives and know the world. And most importantly, know that what is being fed in the media, or what is being shown to the world, is not necessarily true. Be Open.

[Technology is reaching newer highs making everything possible. Changes in one country will affect others, it is a small world after all :)]

Realisation II

2011-03-14T04:20:00.002+05:30

This post is especially for my fellow 'rational' friends.

Its so natural, right? We try to explain things through Science.
That is the First thing we base our opinions on. The Natural-Phenomena, Gene-codes, Physiological and Psychological ailments, all have answers in Science. Everything!!
The Other is Practicality (Logic to be more precise).
You would say : True, and why not?! If it works and fits, its right.

I am a student of Science and I've been taught to be rational. Science and Practicality being my support systems. I accept only what i SEE, refuting the unseen/the inexplicable/the Unproven, focusing on the 'practicality' in life. All my life I've based my opinions mostly on facts and proven things. Never believed in religious myths and fairy-tales (though they were good fiction to read. Mystic is always a good ;)). Never believed in incarnation, rebirth, spiritual evolution, sadhu-mahatmas(frauds) etc etc.
For me, life was family, friends, school/college/office and an End to it was death. No Karma pending.
Simple: u are born, u learn to live, u make a life, one day u die.

Well, this could be a little confusing.
Recently, while researching on a secret society (a friend introduced me to it), I experienced difficulty accepting certain facts, because it all seemed 'illogical' and way too impossible to be possible at first. Reading further gave more weight to it though. Then, I came across 'something' (a federation of sorts, sorry i'll be putting a lot of 'something's in this post, as I am yet to decide whether/ how to put that it here...or maybe ill have to create a separate post for that) which was against the former, so naturally I decided that If an 'anti' exists, the first should be true.
Now, this 'something' opened its own array of theories. 90% of which were out of my scope of knowledge. In a domain that I shunned all my life as it was not 'scientific' (will remain unexplained for many years). [When a mix of Science, Spirituality, ET-ology, Astronomy, Mythology are combined, it becomes difficult to digest the result].
Answers were there, but to blindly believe them was hard. I became more open and receptive to the possibility later-on.

Now,
If I said that there were more humans in the universe, would u say yes? (likely, coz we all know Aliens exist. Earth isn't the only planet, out of the trillions of other planets in the universe, which has an environment conducive for living)
Ok, If I said that the 9/11 was staged or pre-determined, would u say yes?
If I said that Obama and Bush are related to each other, would u say yes?
If I said that we were all being manipulated by a few thousand insanely rich people in the world since the past several hundred years, would u say yes?
If I said that we are about to have a contact with Aliens soon, would u believe?
If I said that Centaurs(half human-half horse creatures in fiction) exist, would u believe?
If I said that a lot of our mythological beliefs could be true, would u believe?
If I said that moving at more than the speed of light was possible, would u say yes instantly?
If I said there were more dimensions apart from 2D and 3D (as in 4D, 5D etc), would u say yes?

There are affirmative answers for these, u have to have an open mind to accept/analyse them.
I am still weighing the possibilities. Now, I admit that Science can only explain what Already exists, only what is visible to the eye. Science builds on previous data / experiences.
What about things which we haven't even been Exposed to yet, but which exist?

To believe that what can't be seen(felt/observed), is non-existent is completely wrong.

Be Open!
Science and Logic cannot explain everything!

PS: More info to follow soon in other posts.

Life II

2011-01-07T01:51:00.009+05:30

And I move forth, Leaving parts of me as I go,
Reluctant to blow with the flow, but who am I to know.

The journey is Uncomfortable,
A tiresome voyage that is Unavoidable,
Sometimes you are fooled to believe you are Invincible,
Until you face the Unimaginable,

Although the finish line seems near,
You've lost the ones who are dear,
As you see it all in the rear,
The insides swell up with fear,
The finish line is cleared,
But you ended up as your worst fear..

Pendulum...

2011-01-07T01:31:00.003+05:30

Just when the dust gets settled,
Wind causes unrest again..
Just when the soul has rested,
Its set to search again..

Just when the love reaches the maxima,
It crumbles down again..
Just when the heart meets its equal,
The silent pain seeps in again..

Just when the destination looks near,
the track is lost again..
Just when confidence seems dear,
The ego agrees otherwise again..

And I swing like a pendulum....

Happy Friendships Day!

2010-08-01T00:07:00.006+05:30

Dedicated to all my friends:

FRIENDS -
People who know the song in your heart and sing it back when u've forgotten the words..
Give that Encouraging Pat when you are going down..
Offer their hand when you are hanging off the cliff..
Pick fights for you even when they are not involved..
Are always there to say 'Draame mat kar ab, its ok'..
Hold the keys to your secret door..
Are party to your crazy plans and even crazier ways..
Are forever excited to hear even the Stupidest news..
Can't wait to discuss the details about your/their crushes..
Reassuringly say 'chal na, move on' when you are off the hook..
Are your punch-bags without any complaints..
Have no issues with being Taken-For-Granted..
Jhelofy you no matter how lazy or stubborn you are..
Step forward for you when you want to step back..

Friends are Friends - no body can take their place!

Life would be tough without them...
Happy Friendships day to all :)

PS: Miss you Nishi, Benu ,Nilu, Mallu, Nikki, Angad, Mal, Nupur, Richa, Ronnie and the college gang...Thanks for being there :)

Life

2010-06-08T19:17:00.004+05:30

Again, another 'Travel-inspired-writing'. Illustrates the power of Music.

A string of mountains, shading passers-by..
Scorching sunshine tearing through the sky..
And two friends holding their pride..
Set on a journey undefined....

Ride on wheels full of music..
Shut the cruel world out..
Each day brings a promise..
Just feel the life around...

The road keeps winding into the mountains..
The signs are lost in the wild..
Infinite leaves that fell to the ground..
Make no sound they've dried..

Their journey is never-ending..
People see them riding high..
Two souls tied together..
Riding the tide called Life...

Ride on wheels full of music..
Shut the cruel world out..
Each day brings a promise..
Just feel the life around...

Inspiration : While passing through the driest and the roughest patches, I've noticed that as soon as you put your headphones ON the scenery changes into a beautiful colorful landscape : the dryness becomes Autumn... you feel breezy in the heat.... your backpack is no more a weight-add pack - its an adventure pack .

Same with Life :)

NeverLand

2010-04-22T23:45:00.030+05:30

Recently, I got an opportunity to travel for 2 continuous days, halting at several places in between. I find it very inspiring. These are some lines I scribbled during this period.

Not surprising that most of the songs, poems or stories are written while traveling.

There comes Joey, Hey Joey! Wherez your bass?
Says Joey: 'Its next to Fredie', he means Fredie's case.
We've packed our van with food and cans,
We're leaving for a tour to NeverLand!!
Oh NeverLand, Where IS that place?
I say its in our Hearts...
5 lunatics with musical-minds and a van full of gas.....
When we stopped by the Reverb-Inn, to play for our heart's Joy,
Charlie sang each note a pitch high and Joey didn't tune his bass...
Eddie thew his stick at the crowd and Fredie lost a few beats...

We play at our terms in NeverLand,
A sacred place it is..
No manager or crowd to please,
And thats the way it is..

Freddy shared a song he wrote,
I asked him, 'Hows this lead ?',
'Just play it with your heart man,
You're the best!' he said to me..
Soon others joined in the group and notes began 2 flow
More instruments and notes poured in as we began to grow

Our van stops only where we want,
Where we want to play our thing,
Where Charlie can sing the way he wants
And where Eddie can Just slam his toms,
Our amplifiers blare out 2 loud,
As we play to our hearts for long..

We play at our terms in NeverLand,
A sacred place it is..
No manager or crowd to please,
And thats the way it is..

If you are passionate about music, you will be able to understand the real essence of this.

May you arrive at your NeverLand :) (irony not intended)

Much-needed Return

2010-04-21T00:14:00.011+05:30

After Ages I return to my blog!
Feels Great! :)

Well, Life has undergone a complete 360 degree spin since then. After college, you come to the real-world, become more responsible for your actions, have several things to juggle, you think about what is to come but still cling to what has gone by and most importantly but sadly, you have to strive to stay in touch with people who bring happiness to you, making it even more difficult. Growing up is never easy...

Add a job to that, a job that is in a different city...where you have to adjust right from changing your food preferences to learning the local language...take care of some basic chores like cleaning up the whole apartment every weekend (that used to be fun :)), managing the 'Common Pool' (i was living with 2 friends and we maintained a central pool, used for general living related needs) and a few more things. This was a great experience in the journey of 'growing up', I crave for independence, to not rely on others and to do my things my way and I got exactly that... along with it: a whole new bunch of responsibilities.

In short: Life HAS taken a different shape, in terms of priorities, beliefs and goals (not good with mathematics) and I am trying my best to make a good life :) Shall keep posting...

PS: A note for people who have always been there... Nishi n Rahul-people i can trust my life with :), Positive influences like GS, Malvika, Ankit...and ofcourse void * for encouragement (dunno what its called these days lol), thanks :)

Virtual-Pyramid

2008-09-23T19:02:00.004+05:30

Purely an outcome of vella-ism..

PS: and not-so-great cam..

Musical August !

2008-09-09T23:39:00.006+05:30

Late post, Apologies!!
(no internet connection and a wrecked lappy are to be blamed)

Since the last post, i've been to delhi n back, having spent the last month in the most B'ful of fashionz. The Best August ever.

Started off wid a day at the delhi-haat in the Scorching Heat the city is famous for (well, after a month of rains in mumbai, the heat Does look pleasant, trust me! )with some wonderful people u've been eagerly wanting to meet, old memories being revived..

A guitaring event at Barista (KNags) where u meet some more wonderful people, people u've been dying to meet, get to hear some Awesome Vocals and Great Guitaring with melodies filling up the air & Chords echoing from the walls..

Friendship Day at a bookstore in CP, spending time sipping coffee n reading, chatting endlessly for hours with a dear friend.

Then the Most Awaited day, VoidStar performing at barista, special people, special songs, special day.. Cudn't help getting lost (in the music).

The joy of meeting ur twin-soul (ben) after years. Seeing one of the dearest of best(est) of friends, lol, that too unexpectedly when u were wishing lik crazy to meet.. wow!

The release of 'Rock on!', a movie you had waited for since june and actually getting to watch it Twice..

Many ....... evenings with some wonderful people, at a wonderful place making it a wonderful day ( yet to coin a word to describe them, hence the blank.. hehe)

Getting choked a couple of times, staying up at night (4am a few times) and getting up late (afternoon), no one to keep a check on the sleeping hours ;)
Smiling eyes, hurting cheeks and what not.

Ya, it was a 'Carnival' of sorts as a friend put it, but to me :

'A month of Smiles, Laughter n Melody'

So, music stringing some magical moments together, giving me d time of my Life... Life Is Musical! And some Musical Month it was!

Music can be pure magic
When u least expect it.
Can turn sunsets into symphonies.
Weave storms into pictures.
Add rythm to a breeze.
Can bring you old memories
Or help you make new ones.
And on a Perfect Day
The Perfect Note can fly you
Across oceans to Wonderful Places.

(nt an original, just a modification of the real one)

PS: its back to the rains for now.

Loved Ones

2008-06-24T23:27:00.009+05:30

A poem for near and dear ones...
My poems are never rhyming properly coz in my case concentrating on the rhyme distorts the emotions involved.

So Here it is:

When tears trickle down their face
They look for comfort and you are there
Not knowing what to say or do ,
Makes it hard and sad for you.

You try to put their smile back on
Wish their troubles would soon be gone
And when u see them crying still ,
You feel helpless,disappointed in urself

They hold you tight and just won't stop
You ask them why, what happened, whats wrong
And let them know you are there for them
But it makes them cry even harder still.

Howmuch u try to hold ur tears
Howmuch u try to show u r strong
You forget, the bond is just so strong,
And a small one rolls down ur own.

You hug each other
and exchange smiles.
Nothing feels more important.
Anything, for even a faint smile.

PS: Thought a LOT about Mal while writing this. :)

Chat Box

2008-06-17T17:51:00.004+05:30

This is to inform the spammers (Nishi n Ankit) that i have placed a Chat Box on the blog and they are welcome to carry on their conversations there... n leave the Commentosphere( as per CJ) untampered by their gracious presence ;) Lol

Honestly, a nice way to conference :) Try it out!!

A Musical Tag !!!!

2008-06-16T18:16:00.011+05:30

I wonder how during xams we manage to steal a few minutes to update our blogs amid all the pressure and during vacations, inspite of the 'vella-giri", we keep visiting other blogs hoping to find something new and completely forget our own blogs. How ironic is that???

For me, boredom ki hadein par ho rahi hain, can't go outside because of the rains, don't feel like staying inside the whole day so i just keep sitting by the window with my lappy.... haven't seen too many 'Blog updated!' msgs ,not even from D-Nishi ;) haven't written anything new myself .

I cud feel my blog begging for updation so i gave it a makeover sorta... ( some colors and a picture too, u happy nishi?)... came across an interesting tag, called the 'Musical Tag' n cudn't stop myself from doing it.

All you have to do is :

Put your MP3 player/Media player on shuffle.

For each question, press the next button to get your answer.

You must write the name of the song no matter what.

"I solemnly resolve to be extremely honest with this tag "

1. If someone says "Is This Okay?" you say?

Metallica- Fade to Black

// Amazing song, but no connection with the above.

2. What would best describe your personality?

Coldplay - See you soon

//umm...no (I dedicate this song to all of my friends)

3. What do u like in a guy/girl?

Silk Route - Boondein

// tear drops...i love to see them cry ;) lol

4. How do u feel today?

Eric Clapton - Cocaine

// wud feel GREAT!!! but After having that...

5. Whats your life's purpose?

Vanessa carlton - Hands on Me

//??

6. What is your motto?

Pink Floyd - House of the Rising sun

// then my motto shd be to spend my life in sin n misery in the house of the rising sun. (will surely go places with That motto)

7. What do your friends think of you?

Creed - One Last Breath

//Is it so???

8.What do u think of your parents?

Sona Mahapatra - Bolo na

// its the other way actually ,"bolo na kya hua...yeh tumko kya hua...hui aisi baat kya"... makes sense that way.

9. What is 2+2??

Seether n Amy Lee - Broken

// Dfntly went to the Wrong school in kindergarten .

10. What do u think of your best friend?

GnR - Knocking on Heaven's door

//" It wouldn't be luck if u got out of life alive"... lol

11. What do you think of the person you like?

Alanis Morsette - Head over Feet

//mayb.

12. What is your life story?

Outlandish - Aicha

//"so sweet so beautiful....shining like a star'' somewhat but nt exactly...

13. What do u want to be when you grow up?

Colbie Caillat - Bubbly

//Who wants to be bubbly when they grow up???//ridiculous!! not the song but the combination...songz awsm!!

14. What do ur parents think of you?

Aerosmith - Dream on

//they want me to dream big n yup, sing too...

15. What will you dance to at your wedding?

Niravana - Lake of Fire

//wedding pe dying wala song... quite scary... this correctly answers the next quesn tho...

16. What will they play at ur funeral?

Coldplay - Fix you

//this song talks of hope...so certainly d wrong 1.

17. What is your hobby/Interest?

Nirvana - Half the man I used to be

//the song has "makes me wanna steal"n "guess i like to steal" (i cud b a kleptomaniac..who knwz..;))

18. What is your biggest secret?

Mohit Chauhan - Guncha

// Ahhhhhh!... nw u All know i drink ;) lol

19. What do u think of ur friends?

Coldplay - Violet Hills

// no connection.

20. What do u think about very often?

Metallica - Turn the Page

// "later in the evening as u lie awake in bed, echos of the amplifiers ringin in ur head"...Nice one.

21. What do you think when you see the person you like?

Green Day - Wake me up when September ends

//yeah! rite...i go back to sleep n ask him to wake me up when sepember ends...like i hv nothing else to do.

22. What would u post this as?

Scorpians - Wind of Change

//this post Has brought a change today... lessened the boredom that is...

Had a lot of fun trying make some sense out of the Q&Ans... Try it out guys!!!

I Tag :: Nishi, siddhi, chiran, Gaurav sir, Brij n rabi (phirse banale ek blog! is baar delete mat kariyo).

PS: Visitor Count crosses 1000!!! Yay!!!

(Thanks to the spammers!!! lol, C, Not taking any credit ;) )

Me against Myself

2008-06-03T22:34:00.008+05:30

Recently i was going thru my stuff of school days n i found a crushd page & on it were scribbled sum lines...upon reading, something had hit me so hard that i still have no words to express...it was a poem that reminded me of the time wen i was fighting with myself...
Warning: only ppl with a strong heart read this....

It goes like this :

There is a face inside me
watching, mocking, laughing
I feel like im stripped down
ripped apart from my soul

It judges me, scares me
makes me feel im nothing
Its so hard to face it
look! its watching me again.

I try hard to be ,what it wants me to be
I know i can't , but i still try
but it just won't let go of me
I seem a stranger to myself

It reminds me of
chains i can't break out of
haunts me like a dark shadow
blocking the light & the world

Nothingness has crept into me
and it suffocates me to death
Im paranoid trying to please it
but it upsets me everyday

And it'll kill me,thats my worst fear
Coz i just seem a stranger to myself.

PS: thats wat dth mtl can do to ppl, i guess....lot of depression there...i hd started obsessing abt commiting a suicide...glad tht i finally gt out of it...:)

Anniversary !!!

2008-05-22T22:37:00.005+05:30

Yay!!! Today my blog completes a year...
n i take this opportunity to thank a lot of people :

I wud like to thank my mom, my dad , my pet , my laptop...and also the google team for providing me such a platform...

lol, but seriously, I thank all people who hv read the posts and
survived even still n also those people who visited (supposedly liked
it) & left no comments. That leaves me clueless abt such ppl untill someday in the middle of a converstaion sum1 wud just say 'u know, I read ur blog n likd it..' or something like 'u'v gt an interesting blog there'...or 'Im a regular visitor of ur blog, maine sari posts padhi hui hain'...i just hv to say, 'HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO KNOW THAT'....

And a BIG thank you to nishi, siddhi n rabi for being sooooo regular....;)

Thank you all 4 coming...

PS: don't hv enuf posts under my belt now but you guys wud see an improvement this year...hopefully..;)

Tagged

2008-05-02T05:21:00.009+05:30

What do u do wen you know u hv a paper in which you r sure nt to pass....language in the book just seems russian to you....and wen u look at prev. yearz quesn papers you spend time thinking and asking people which chapter the questions r from....(you don't need guesses for this one...guys, i AM talking about graphics)

So, I just thought of utilizing time n completing the tag which someone passed to me in November last year....quite late...i knw tht

1> Pick out a scar you have, and explain how you got it.

I have a scar on my forehead(on the right n its not lightning shaped, incase ur wonderin :))...got a few stitches there when i was in 3rd or 4th grade n i gt it from my bro when he slammed me against the wall( v used to fight a lot)

2> What is on the walls of your bedroom?

Rite now, a Kurt Cobain poster(nt that im a gr8 fan or anything but admire a few things in him) and a few cuttings of my fav. bands plus some lyrics that i like a lot....aise hi paste kara hua hai wall pe

3> What is your current desktop picture?

Desktop pic changes with my mood...rite nw i have a pic from barista as my wallpaper...whenevr i gt self-obssessed i put a pic of myself(though nt usually)....:)

4> Do you believe in gay marriage?

Its each-to-his-own thngy...won't recommend anyone...personally, a BIG no....

5> What do you want more than anything right now?

Someone who can teach me graphics n help me pass...honestly!

6> Are your parents still together?

Hell yeah!

7> Last person who made you cry?

I don't usually cry that often...only when the water gets way over-the-mark wud you see me crying(never in front of anyone else)...hard to recall when i cried the last but if you talk about 'khushi k ansu'...i guess i was in tears when i read the poem nishi wrote for me...

8> What is your favorite perfume/cologne?

Perfume : Hugo Boss n Deo: emotions, fa, mtv plugged.

9> What are you listening to?

rite nw 'guncha', before that 'turn the page'

10> Do you get scared of the dark?

yup, if im alone....to spell the truth, i believe in ghosts too n am very scared of the thought of being alone in dark...

11> Do you like pain killers?

what kind of a question is this?...will skip it

12> Are you too shy to ask someone out?

ummm....haven't done that actually but if i really like someone n know his side of the story 2 then maybe(shd be a now or never situation)...so, shy-no...apprehensive abt things-yes

13> If you could eat anything right now, what would it be?

chocolate truffle pastry with lots of vanila icecream

14> Who was the last person who made you mad?

not exactly 'mad' but felt a bit 'wierd'...someone to whom a msg got sent by mistake n that person interpreted it wrongly...:)...felt like kikin him...it actually bothered me...

15> Is someone in love with you?

you never know!!!

Done with it......time utilized.....n i tag anyone who wants to do this since everyone else has already been tagged.....adios!!!

PS: if things remain the same(no studies + no hope) then 'next post door nahin'

Things I want to do before i die

2008-04-19T23:41:00.003+05:30

Just 3 days left for exams but Im sick n tired of it so much already that I'd rather post something here than see the face of ' Elements of Theory Of Computation by Cohen '. So I penned a few things that I always wished....

Here are a some things that I really want to do before i die.....rather they r things that i wish i could do ( coz sm things seem impossible...)
It goes like this:

Take a tour of the world specially Rome and highlands n meadows of Ireland.
Learn French , trust me.... i tried doing that in the 1st sem...had 1st sem exams nt been there during that time, i could cut off one thing from my wishlist. As of now, I just remember 'bonjour' and a few other greetings...
Watch a cricket match from the pavillion.
Learn swimming, coz i've always had a fear of water.
Become more organised and an early-to-bed-early-to-rise person. This is one problem my dad has always had with me....
Become a pro in guitaring, n hopefully have a band of my own....This has been my dream since i don know when....... hv had endless discussions on this with Marilyn, Ben and Nilu.....if u guys are reading, just want you to know that i really miss those days....
Open an old age home , shreya n shruti.....do u guys remember our plans of going to old age homes on sundays...which unfortunately never came true ofcourse....
Go to Goa with friends......this is one wish that i think is really gettable......guys r u listening??......ab to plan bana lo yaar...........
This ones a bit hypothetical.....if i could find Hermione's time turner or could turn back time, I wish to relive 5-6 yrs again ....
Finally, the last onez out of frustration, actually......I wish to get into Imperial College by hook or by crook nw...coz i've already been rejected twice...once for bachelors n now for postgrad.....if anyone reading this has gt any sources placed there, plz, feel free to contact....i am dying to get in....

PS: Nishi i guess we can start our french classes again after exams.....that would give me another reason to stay in delhi.........lol......

The Realization

2008-02-01T22:43:00.001+05:30

After a long day I return to my room , feeling tired I walk towards the bed and on the way I pass a small mandir that we have kept in the room. I try to recall the day when I actually stood in front of it and prayed in the usual manner. I get no answer from myself, feeling ashamed I advance towards the bed with a lot of thoughts circling the mind.

Am I being true to my religion?…
Have I gotten so consumed in the cobwebs of life that I don’t have time for god?
And a lot more thoughts that I couldn’t answer.

The realization was a bit disturbing…But somewhere inside I knew what importance god has for me & thought of the endless times when I felt my problems dissolve without much toil…times when I had lost hope but still had faith…

I thought, even though I don’t pray on a regular basis or practice the rituals that my religion involves, I feel the presence of a supreme being, a positive force and a guiding light. There is someone I can turn to when things don’t go well….someone I can blame …someone I can rely on….one who fills me with positivity and the one I fear from if I am doing something wrong…this someone whom I can speak with when I m alone is what I call GOD.

Everyone of us has this god with him and it doesn’t matter whether we are Hindus, Muslims or Christians…we all feel his presence…so the manner in which we communicate with him doesn’t matter…

Religions seek god…they present a way to communicate.…ways are different for each one but god is the same so why not give space to each person to talk to god in his own manner…why all the fuss about religion…why wars…why crusades…

Thinking that , my thoughts came back to the room. No guilt…no shame…I thanked god for being there with me…and I followed it up with a slumber in peace…

Make the world better for women !!

2007-09-26T16:21:00.001+05:30

This post is about something that really matters to me..... it expresses my fury about something that bothers every girl or a women...something that exists but is always overlooked....something that has occupied a majority of my thoughts lately.....

For people who don't know the details or haven't followed news : About 40,00 men had assembled at police grounds last sunday to appear for a police examination. After the exam, they started eve-teasing and molesting the girls of North campus and IP college .No means of transport seemed safe that day...rickshaws,autos & even metro travellers were harassed in the worst possible manner,leaving the girls in a state of shock...it hurts when you come to know that a lot of people you know; were among them...its not that only girls travelling alone were teased but there have been cases where girls going with their mothers were dragged and molested in front of their parents leaving them in a state of helplessness....everything was happening out there in the open and no one cared to stop it. This just leaves nothing at all SAFE for girls.

The most ridiculous thing was that the molesters were our future policemen and if this is the way they will function , India has got a great future.

when the police was asked for help , they plainly said ' Itne saare ladke hain, hum kya kar sakte hain' and when they were asked to file an FIR , they simply refused to do it. At some places where they DID file an FIR , they started embarassing the girls by asking the minutest detail of what the accused did to them...the SHO of mukherjee nagar said, 'Yeh to Aam baat hai'...Aam Baat????? people responsible for maintaining law n order calling it an Aam baat...

So, girls have now taken to the streets, they are protesting for their rights and in doing so they have been beaten...there was a 'lathi charge' at the congress and nothing substantial has been gained uptill now.This is the way things have been and this is the way things will remain if eve-teasing is looked upon as a normal thing.

If the girls can't walk freely on the streets without men staring at them , if our voices are not heard and if we can't express ourselves freely then surely the conditon of women has degraded......Democracy, they say...

My sole aim in writing soooo much was to appeal to the guys reading this post to ' Treat women with Respect ' and make the world a bit better for them .

This is all we (girls) want .

Ad Infinitum........

2007-05-23T07:00:00.000+05:30

I dont know whats happening to me .... i JUST finished a post and i want to write another one...
goodness!!..
Now, i'd just like to tell why i chose " Ad Infinitum " as the name of my blog... well, this is a french word which means " till infinity...." . In the beginning i was quite apprehensive of the name i wanted to give to my blog , this was something that i had in mind but i wasnt sure whether i would be able write more than a post. But , now i kind of like this thing... and i think that i was right in choosing this as the blog's name... it is going to continue ad infinitum...i hope.

Here goes my first post...

2007-05-23T06:02:00.000+05:30

well, here i am .....writing my first post .
From quite sometime i've been noticing that , people have started moving blindly with the latest trends . Take anything .You take Reshamia , saas-bahu dramas or reality shows...name it and they'll give you LOADS of it...
Suddenly you see malls being built everywhere...not that im complaining...but what i want to say is that everything is being fed in huge doses untill you get sick and tired of it and the charm that thing had to you before, is left no more.

This is not how i actually wanted to start...well, ive actually strayed away from it...
So, i was talking about moving with the trends.... i just saw all of my friends rearing towards 'orkut' an online community.... i joined it too.... again, moving with the trends thingy...i found it quite interesting for a few months but then apart from keeping contact with my school frens it just appeared monotonous to me .

After say a year or so on orkut i saw another wave moving around and as usual all the people started heading towards it. Guess what that was.." blogging".... again following that moving with the trends thingy , i also followed them blindly and here i am having a blog and writing a post ...
I want to see what all things this moving with the trends thingy will show me...

lets see how this experience turns out to be...
I for sure am not gonna let go of this experience...and intend to write a lot of posts...you ppl will have to bear with me.