atikasikun ;

end.

2012-02-12T05:41:00.000-08:00

hari ini agak produktif kot. siapkan assignment semua , and then download movie semua . meow :3 *tetiba jadi kucing pehal ntah* -_-" AHAHAHA then kemaskan beg, esok kena pegi kolej awal. walaupun lately nie, Malasnya YA AMPUN -_-" nak pegi kelas tu malasnya -_-" penat buat keje orang lain weh -_-" tapi takpe , ikhlaskan diri lah kan :) lagi SIKIT je nak siap manual report untuk event. yeahhhh :D

wish me luck , people.

esok pagi nak jumpa en sani terus. harap-harap dia ada. then nak pegi settlekan hal-hal manual report untuk event. Final presentation untuk BEL. this week and next week ada tests and final quizzes. FUH ehehehe :p right now , dah siap pack barang-barang untuk esok. Nervous plak , takut kena reject kan :p kehkeh :p tapi insya-Allah , all will be just fine.

Doakan saya ye ? =)

semalam bukak blog nelly, dengar lagu baru Yuna . ah , I'm in loveeeeeeee ♥ apa lagi , terus download bagai kan? eheheh :D selamat bermonolog dalaman sejak dari tadi. aih , hidup ini susah dan kadang kala tidak menyenangkan , bukan?

aku rindukan family aku. serious rindu. :( nak balik , tapi masa tak mengizinkan . huhu. duit pulak asyik diperlukan. sorry mak , kakak tak tau nak buat macam mana. selalu susahkan mak and abah . :*

okay lah . cukup bermadah untuk malam ini. sayang tak sihat , therefore shall look after him. loves :)

Hijab and Fashion.

2012-02-12T04:49:00.000-08:00

Adibah , you said it well. My Allah bless you always :)

AMIN.

Sesuatu Yang Tertinggal

2012-02-11T20:53:00.000-08:00

Alhamdulillah , this week ended pretty well . walaupun next week akan sangat lah busy , tapi by the time I'm typing this , well , dah settle most of the works , so yeah :'D before I further this post , I shall feast you with my latest default photo on Facebook :>

muehehehe , takdek motif pun post gambar nie :P hehe , tapi i love this photo too much , i guess. Hopefully the man in this photo will be the man that I'll marry soon enough , insya-Allah. Photo was taken at Johnny's , during lunch hour few days back . Mr. Superman excited dapat makan favourite Thai dish dia :P hehe .

Dah start cuti since hari Jumaat , whole day edit report and master checklist of the committees. wargh -_-" migrain aku , seriously. -_-" tapi alhamdulillah , semuanya dah settle. :) :) then hari ini , pergi Pekan , tengok coursemates of 4B buat event diorang. and grats, their event was a job well done . bangga pulak tetiba. and best part is i got to interact with the Aborigines and their kids ^__^

oke , ini bukan orang asli.

Ini FATIN , one of the organizers :P

the kids doing medical check ups.

sesi Adik Bijak Belajar.

after that , the boyfriend and I went to Watercraft Gallery. :> It was amazing and very much splendid :D hee . Both of us had so much fun -_-" and we took a lot of photos. :p ahahaha , nanti lah upload gambar. kemalasan melanda :P

itu sahaja setakat ini. tadi ada sesi heart-to-heart talk dengan Justin. :)) I hope he's doing wokayyyyy there. :)

Assalamualaikum and goodnight peeps :)

My superman :D

OPERA

2012-02-11T19:29:00.000-08:00

sorry, makin lama makin berkarat blog ni. update pun macam seminggu sekali je kan? haih . terlampau banyak benda tak settle lagi. serabut aku -_- tapi alhamdulillah , preview teater OPERA berlangsung dua hari lepas dapat sambutan daripada semua orang. FULL HOUSE . bersyukur sangat-sangat. :) tapi agak stress , sebab tak dapat lagi feel sebagai inang T_T i don't want to disappoint my friends D: nonetheless , thank you to those who came and watched us performing OPERA. Now , nak tunjuk korang a lil bit of the photos taken by Encik Kas Mara of PictureHOUSE Studio :)

gambar photoshoot by Encik Kas Mara :)

tapi seriously , rindukan Tun Teja when I see her. I don't know why. Macam ada perasaan yang tak dapat di ungkapkan bila tengok gambar dia. :') Tun Teja , patik senantiasa rindukan kehadiran Tun Teja :') Alhamdulillah , show hari tu takdek masalah, insya-Allah akan buat preview di UiTM Shah Alam. :) SM OPERA , Kak Didie banyak drill aku untuk dapatkan that epic face expression :'D insya-Allah , post-mortem nanti , dah boleh buat kot. YA ALLAH , TOLONG LAH HAMBA MU INI :')

Ini Tun Teja ( Kak Aimi )

From the preview , ramai gila orang minat Tun Teja . very graceful and beautiful they say. Alhamdulillah , act:ing Kak Aimi menjadi. Grats :)

Ini Hang Tuah ( Shazwan ) :P

Ada kawan aku minat tengok dia. Ye lah , Hang Tuah kan macho :P AHAHAHA ,

comel je Shazwan ni -_-"

Ni , Inang Xian ( Kak Tini )

Inang kepada Puteri Hang Li Po :))

and lastly .....

MY OWN MANDARIN LECTURER !

Mr. Lee ! :DD

Serious dia comel bila berlakon. lain sangat bila mengajar. garang ehehehe -_-"

tu je lah kot. gambar Sultan and Hang Li Po takdek lagi, so yeah :) Hopefully this teater will be successful and will made Prosenium proud when we do the preview at Beijing in April. AMIN :) HEEE

seminggu

2012-02-06T03:14:00.000-08:00

dah tak update blog. rasa sedih , tarikh post tak berganjak dari 29 Januari ha AHAHA :B sorry readers :) been super busy these days . anyways , baru lepas event. Alhamdulillah , everything okay , i guess. Nervous untuk post-mortem nanti. hewhew .

btw , i've changed my blog layout . simple and more girlish. aha :P

#1 : seminggu ni macam-macam benda dah berlaku , tak larat rasanya nak cerita semua , tapi well, ada baik dan buruk perkara yang dah berlaku . aku pun tak tau macam mana nak tegur , sebab aku takdek lah rapat mana dengan diorang , and still , aku sentiasa doakan yang terbaik untuk diorang. =)

#2 : jumpa kawan-kawan , abang syafiq datang kolej. rasa nak melompat je tengok dia. ehehehe :> kitaorang sembang sekejap sebab abang syafiq ada kerja nak dibuat dengan miss dilla. :) then yang amek degree sume cuti sem , nak jumpa ! nak jumpa ! :'D

#3 : had an amazing time during the camp. photos will be uploaded soon. tunggu namie bagi semua gambar. excited :D alhamdulillah everything went well, walaupun ada yang kena comment semua , tapi everything oke oke je. heehee. :>

#4 : setelah beberapa minggu, dapat jugak beli toiletries and face wash. :)) alhamdulillah . lega sangat-sangat. beli face wash Safi and also dapat jugak beli compact powder Maybelline yang di idamkan muehehehe :B and also , my toothbrush yang dah kembang. :P

#5 : mak call few days back . thanks mak ! :) homesick actually :( cover suara tak nak nangis dengar suara abah and suara mak :P shhhh , suara yol pun dah lain , wth i feel so old :P HAHAHAHAHA kaknyah kata rumah ageng ( jiran ) terbakar . and honestly , i couldnt recall who on the earth is ageng -_-" hahaha

#6 : now I am available via twitter mobile. excited boleh? ehehehe :b yang penting , semua benda boleh buat now via twitter. tweet biasa-biasa je pun. hee hee :P siapkan assignments and cuci baju yang menimbun ni ha. btw, i met Faizal Hussin at R&R Temerloh semalam. HAPPY !! :) YE LAH , dah lama minat dia , so yeah :P

#7 : today i went to Paparich with akak. it was good :) the food was amazing tho i couldn't understand much what the waiter was talking about. HAHA ! :B had lots of malaysian delicacies . then went for groceries shopping with akak , and after that headed back home. Hari ini buat keje seharian sahaja. :> alhamdulillah , semua kerja dah siap. esok nak study je . common test is just around the corner . wish me luck :)

that's all for now. assalamualaikum :)

ahaks

2012-01-29T09:07:00.000-08:00

ada post aku tu , aku post kat facebook aku . nak dijadikan cerita , aku rasa someone sentap , tapi tak tau lah sape. huahuahua -.-

sorry , ~~unker~~ . status tu general, utk semua orang. tapi , biasa lah ;
siapa makan cili , dia terasa pedasnya :p

tapi anyways , mintak maap banyak-banyak kalo ada yang terasa
biasa lah , ego saya , facebook tu je lah
saya tak suka marah depan-depan, protes depan-depan
lain jadinya
serius -.-

last aku betul-betul marah tahap hardcore punya , masa darjah 5 or 6 -_-
aku TER-tumbuk adwin sebab main game yang sep-sep , sape kalah kena lempang
dia kalah , instead lempang , aku tumbuk dia huehuehue -.-
and adwin nangis
lepas tu cikgu violet panggil masuk office dia ,
cakap nak suruh aku letak jawatan jadi pengawas D:
aku cakap ' sorry , teacher . tak buat lagi' then say sorry to adwin

sampai sekarang , kalo teringat , aku gelak sorang-sorang

temper oh temper ,
memang dari dulu aku temper ,
naik form 2 , dapat jawatan , jawatan kecik je pun
tp bila aku dah naik suara , semua diam kehkehkeh :P
adik aku suka gelakkan aku bila aku mengamuk, sebab kat umah aku lain
kat luar aku lain

naik form 5 ,
temper aku makin teruk
tiap-tiap minggu suara aku naik masa MI , morning inspection
student takut dengan aku ( kot ? :P poyoness di situ :P )
tapi ye lah , temper aku jangan buat main

baik kata orang , 'sarang tabuan jangan dijolok'
aku tak suka naik hangin , so jgn lah buat aku naik hangin , mekaseh

tapi ye lah , sejak dua menjak
lepas masuk kolej nie,
temper aku dah kurang
first sebab budak-budak kolej tak sama umo dengan kita
ada rasa hormat di situ
and so on and so fourth
hewhew :3

still , i learn so much things
from being professional and stuffs
and not to be too judgemental :))

alhamdulillah sangat-sangat ,
and kepada manusia yang pernah TER-sakit hati dengan saya ,
maafkan lah ye . saya manusia biasa sahaja :)

okay lah , itu sahaja rententan penulisan aku malam ni
btw , hari ni celebrate sixth mo nthlyversary dengan sayang , dekat KFC near Taman Kerang
simple meal , tak habis bungkus , sayang bawak balik :p
#AJL trending kat twitter ,
tak minat , so tgk orang updates je lah kan HAHA

congrats , hafiz with his song, awan nano
hehe :B
alhamdulillah again , semua kerja done . tinggal nak updates dengan yang lain. :))
mintak-mintak lah semuanya berjalan dengan lancar.

AMIN .

hitting the sack now. assalamualaikum and goodnight :)

larger than words

2012-01-29T06:30:00.000-08:00

the sixth month. :)

if only i can scribbled everything i am feeling right now, then it would all be in pictures of ponies and unicorns :p . all the black and white memories eventually fluttered away and turned into rainbows. all i can say is thank you a millionth and more for being the one for me , and insya-Allah till jannah. :) Alhamdulillah, being with you have changed me a lot in so many ways . being the ultimate cry baby when you're around and stronger whenever you're not.

HAPPY SIXTH MONTHLYVERSARY, DARLIN' :)

and well, the truth is ,

I ... I .. I am just madly in love you , Muhammad Yusof Bin Fadhil :)

mental koyak

2012-01-28T03:30:00.000-08:00

MENTAL DAH KOYAK KENA JAHIT LAH LEPAS NIE. T_T

lagi 6 hari till my big event. sampai sekarang only 40 % done. aku pun tak tau lah nak buat macam mana. dah berusaha. hari isnin sampai rabu memang pack dengan final tasks. harap-harap benda nie jadi. nervous , hari-hari aku nangis. tak tahan pressure. yang lain mental dah memang koyak. aku tak nak give up. takkan nak cancel last minute kan? :3 YA ALLAH, PERMUDAHKANLAH URUSAN HAMBA MU INI. :( adakah ada apa-apa yang aku buat , tak diredhai ? D:

aku pun manusia biasa. maafkan lah aku. masa ni je aku minta. mintak-mintak sangat event ini berjaya , nak nazar , erm - taphe lah. hanya mampu berserah je sekarang. tolong lah, tolong lah. if dapat, bersyukur sangat-sangat. AMIIIIIIN :)

hari isnin, penentu segalanya. aku dah buat sehabis baik. insya-Allah semuanya akan membuahkan hasil jugak. YA ALLAH YA RAHMAN , TOLONG LAH . TOLONG LAH HAMBA MU INI.

hi , sexy

2012-01-24T06:56:00.000-08:00

Hello readers. EXTRA photos for today :>

I went to Johny's with Asha , after half a day rotting at home :> Internet dah okay, thanks to Nadia :DD so yeah. I had Johny's steamboat and it was SUPERB ! :DD makan sampai full tank and then headed to the hospital since my cough is getting worse. (T_T) Makan-makan dekat Johny's was indeed fun. chit chatting with asha about so many stuffs. HEWHEW , i iz contented (Y)

dekat hospital , had fun tgk asha edit assignment HTML dia . tak sabar nak amek OMT255 next sem . Hehe. :B doctor was really jovial and bubbly. :)) doktor comel tu cakap , aku ada batuk kering . batuk kering tu TIBI ke ? =.= serammmmmmm , tak nak kena TB! D: banyak doktor supplied ubat untuk ditelan setiap hari. ghasak ar ahahaha -.-

then after balik from hospital , asha dah lapar balik. so we went to Restoran Alif , next to Megamall . it was really nice. Maggi goreng mamak yang terbaik setakat ini di Kuantan. tapi sayang, kurang pedas.

Ye lah , aku kan orang Jawa , harus lah makan pedas kan :P

Saw Klinik Asmara for the first time. Hahaha , Mr. Lee asyik warning yg dia tak terima MC dari klinik Asmara. akhirnya termakbul jugak nak tengok Klinik Asmara real life :p Klinik Asmara jual MC kot -,- ceh, irresponsible people betul. HAIH

anyways , after the early dinner , we went back home to our respective houses. Thank you asha sebab sudi layan i yang sangat randon ini. :) at night , went teman Mel dinner kat Purple Zone. Ate my medicines and then edited my assignments. It was such GOOOOOOOOOOOOD feelin' Hehe :B

and well , what makes me happier is that quiz and test tunda next week . YEAY ! :B

now , nak risau pasal event pulak. mana nak cekau RM5220 weh (--")

oh , photos for today :)

asha :)

yours truly :)

lepas steamboat dah masak :DD

my portion of steamboat. HEHE :b

early lunch @ Restoran Alif

( maggi gorang mamak and three layers tea )

and my medicines :/

tadi posted up gambar early dinner on facebook . it seems that John and Nad are pretty jealous :P come back to Malaysia . I'll treat the two of you those :> HEHE

P/S : sorry if this post is kinda gibberish to be read hewhew

okay, hitting the sack now. goodnight y'all :)

(╥﹏╥)

2012-01-23T17:59:00.000-08:00

dah dua hari demam and selesema . adakah ini kesan from the ubat i ate? yikes :| maybe not kot. tapi yeah, tak tahan lah . tak boleh tido sebab time malam je , suhu badan naik :| nak kata deman , tak jugak sebenarnya. sbb rasa macam panas dalam je. tapi blergh , seksa noks :(

hari ini lepas dah siap-siap merehatkan diri di rumah Boolat and Leen , all of us went for lunch at Restoran Bayroute. sedap dan berpatutan :)) i have fish and veges for lunch (Y) then I went back home and rest since my headache is killing me ~_~ balik rumah kemas-kemas beg then headed for a nap. tidur pun , tidur-tidur ayam je.

At night, lepak dengan Ira sambil buat assignment HTML . 'Azim came to help later. overall , it was a productive discussion. I had nasi koboi for dinner. sedap jugak hewhew

I need rest , seriously.

after dinner, we headed to Tutti Frutti , along with Nelly. Kena marah dengan sayang sebab selesema, tapi makan tutti frutti gak. :P alaaaaa , jgn lah marah :( sorry. tapi, we had a very nice supper , chit chatting over our set of TF hee heee <3

semuanya around RM30 in total .

after the supper, the three of us headed home and I couldn't sleep early. haih. so yeah, took me quite some times to actually feel asleep . but then, still couldn't sleep well since my body are not really feeling well.

I.NEED.REST. HELP D:

I have died waiting for you

2012-01-22T17:55:00.000-08:00

.... and well, am actually talking about my WIFI modem =.=

dah dua hari modem internet buat hal. -.-" sakit hati masya-Allah, Allah saje yang tau -.-" susah betul nak bua keje . nak update committee members pasal event, nak update blog , nak check email and etc. cuti nie tak balik. semalam ada latihan teater then rasa malas pulak sebab nak kemas rumah and then buat keje sket. hewhew

hari nie seharian lepak dengan budak QS. dengan Yaya , Boolat , Leen, Usop and Nas. The boyfriend is out of town. Lusa baru balik kot. So yeah . :)

hari tu teater practice so far okay je. improve alot , i guess. nak dijadikan cerita, aku menangis -_- Kak Didie and Kak Rina dah takut sikit :p hehe . biasa lah , setiap teater , mesti nanges punye :B yang penting , sangat suka tengok mata TUAH ^__^ hehe :p anyways, poster dah siap. so semua, mari-mari , jangan malu, jangan segan :DD

datang lah tengok kami semua :DDD

thanks to theater ni jugak, I've improved my professionalism in working. :) Tapi maybe she's okay kot , or she is also, just being professional. Anyways, still , it's a win-win situation. and I don't really feel awkward anymore . Alhamdulillah :) voucher buku RM200 pun dah dpt . Hehe :B the first book that I grabbed was Chicken Soup For The Soul : Extraordinary Teens ♥ Best ! :B and Lawak Kampus compiled from 5 books . beli buku untuk Yol and Mak jugak. HEHE. and the books for my god brother and god sisters. :)

dari pagi , around two hours lepas tu, sibuk kemas rumah. Yaya kemas dapur while aku kemas bilik and tangga and also front porch. bersih lah jugak. hehe :B aku sempat tangkap gambar kat front porch je. :B nah :D

BEFORE

AFTER

hehe , kemas tak? :P

now tengah sibuk scan laptop sambil buat revision ECO120. :) Aku tidur rumah Leen and Boolat malam nie. Thanks korang :) tadi baru balik dari dinner and then lepak kat TC dengan senior-senior diorang gak. celebrate birthday Usop and Kak Ita :) first time , setelah sekian lama , lepak sampai pukul 2 pagi . pergh

-__- ni memang balas dendam nie . HAHA !

oh yeah , event aku tinggal dua minggu lagi. sumpah nervous. Brrr. :b Lagi 6K nak kena kumpul. harap-harap ada lah profit. harapkan sponsors je nie semata-mata. kehkehkeh.

AMIN. :) Allah sentiasa janjikan yang terbaik untuk hambaNYA , bukan?

Doakan kami ye? :)

and well, HAPPY CNY to all who are celebrating ! Missing ya Klang peoples ! xx

Assalamualaikum .

serabut

2012-01-19T06:06:00.000-08:00

haha , adehhh serabut lah , SERABUT . memikirkan hal event yang tak putus-putus datang macam tsunami. ARPA? aku penat. ayu penat. semua penat. yang betul-betul buat keje memang penat.

kawan-kawan, minta maaf . saya gagal utk jadi PM yang baik T_T

ada lagi dua minggu sebelum event. DUP DAP DUP DAP hati aku kenangkan pasal semua benda nie. and minta maaf ayu sebab dah torture you mentally sampai sakit-sakit semua , just because of this event. you've been really helpful. the rest of the class, thank you as well , sbb sanggup tolong. nampaknya cuti nie, aku settlekan hal-hal report lah kan. Hewhew

nak dijadikan cerita, risau pasal certain ppl yang tak dengar cerita dah lama . ohmai , takut apa-apa jadi. ATAU dia malas bila nampak nombor aku naik kat screen hp dia . ( MAYBE not ) overpositivity lah kan. Hehe. :> tapi risau jugak , sebab attendance sgt mengecewakan , and aku takut aku dah buat dia terasa.

sorry , fa D:

DOAKAN KEJAYAAN KAMI YEA? :)

neways , hari nie okay2 je. disebabkan takdek masa nak relaks , maybe aku akan buat everything masa cuti. akan busy dengan practice teater . ho yeah :D harap-harap ada masa untuk study . heehee :b hari nie lepak dengan tira and mia :) hee . okay lah. then almost a week lepak dengan budak QS . hehe , Miss(s) diorang friendly oh :DD

okay . nak kemas beg untuk full rehearsal esok. wish me luck :>

one direction

2012-01-16T08:39:00.000-08:00

lega lepas solat sebentar tadi. alhamdulillah , semua assignments so far dah pun siap. nak start revisions untuk final nanti. event particulars so far a-o-kayh. esok nak mula jual tiket. muka aku je lah yang kena approach orang untuk jual tiket. HAHA . tapi yeah, kena tolong budak kelas untuk raise fund . ho yeah :'D

hari ni decide nak balik kelas awal . badan tak berapa nak sihat. semalam pegi hospital pagi-pagi sebab kena semput. D: asma menyerang kembali? D: OH NO ! harap-harap tak lah kan . akan still sibuk sehingga 5 FEBRUARI 2012. event punya pasal . hewhew. taphe lah . all for charity. :')

tadi sembang dengan ayu sebelum reading test mandarin .

cakap pasal keikhlasan diri. sgt terharu dengar cerita dia , so akan definitely ambil ikhtibar.

mulai daripada hari ini, akan mengikhlaskan diri buat apa sahaja. lebih berkat dan mendapat keredhaan Allah :) Insya-Allah. sebenarnya tak larat nak pegi kelas. tapi setakat ni , tak boleh nak ponteng kelas sebab kena sentiasa update pasal event . fund raising event akan dibuat start dari esok. so yeah :D mungkin nak mintak tolong student QS untuk promote fund raising event aku . (Y)

baru lepas makan painkiller. sedap jugak. first time dapat makan ubat dalam bentuk solid . hehe :B sebab maybe saiz dia kecik kot ? kekeke :P dah dua hari baca blog nelly , terliur tengok dia makan tutti frutti tu ha, so tadi ajak sayang pegi TF lepas dinner. :DD seronok lah dia , semuanya dia yang pilih . haha -_-

perisa strawberry and vanilla ; masam -_-

then sayang teman buat assignment kat taman , sambil makan TF . thank you :') kena buat balik jadual MPP , mengikut spesifikasi yang ditetapkan . then buat checklist utk event. fuh. siap jugak kerja untuk hari ini. esok ada appointment dgn ketua jkr kuantan untuk assignment record. thanks Leya :)) dah withdraw duit sponsor from tok cho and puan hasiah :DD esok bagi ayuni. fuh. harap-harap event berjalan dengan lancar. AMIN.

doakan saya eh semua ? :)

penat oh

2012-01-16T08:12:00.000-08:00

ingat senang ke nak jaga hati orang ?
20 tahun aku DIAM je bila orang marah , maki aku
20 tahun aku lebih suka pendam perasaan marah
20 tahun aku lebih suka pendam rasa sakit hati

eh kalo nak marah boleh sgt , tapi apa rasionalnya kan?
20 tahun bila buat kerja dengan orang lain je , aku yang paling banyak makan hati
aku sedih , rasa macam perasaan aku tak penting
bukan apa , aku sekadar bertanya

penat oh penat

aku tak suka marah, lain jadinya
i want to build a good image of myself around everyone

but then , after all ,
I am just a normal human being
i have frustration , angst , agony , sadness buried at the darkest place in my soul
and I have no plan of letting it go

semua orang harapkan aku nak buat semua benda
sometimes,
semua orang pressure aku physically and mentally
korang mungkin tak tau
emosi aku parah di sebalik senyuman aku

aku cuba nak juggle everything yang datang macam ombak tsunami
aku penat , teramat penat
aku tak cerita benda nie kat sesiapa
tulis kat blog ni pun
apa yang aku rasa patut

sebab aku tak nak ada yang terasa
aku pun, manusia biasa
mak abah tak tau
aku tak pernah cukup rehat , cukup makan
semuanya aku korbankan untuk beli barang
savings

last week ,
lepas dua hari , baru aku makan
aku ikat perut , sebab dah banyak berhutang

aku sedih , terasa

semua orang sikit-sikit marah aku
semua orang naik suara
mungkin aku je yang tak betul?
aku tanya baik-baik , bukan marah pun
setiap pesanan ringkas tu , sebaik-baik ayat aku tulis
supaya takdek yang terasa hati

tapi at the end , aku yang makan hati

minggu lepas masa kelas en faez bincang pasal pantang ,
ada lagi satu pantang sebenarnya
aku ni darah Jawa , pantang orang naik suara kat aku

devious act ?
aku pernah tumbuk ketua kelas aku yang tiga kali ganda saiz badan aku
gigi dia patah dua
sebab dia naikkan suara kat aku , walhal aku cakap elok-elok kot

sekarang ni zaman teknologi ,
banyak yang dah berubah
mungkin karakter kau memang macam tu ,
atau cara kau cakap memang macam tu ,
tapi please take note ;
aku seorang perempuan , yang punya hati dan perasaan.

AHAHAHA , rasa loser sekejap

well,
aku selalu nangis bila sorang-sorang
takdek sape tahu
masalah aku , aku kongsi dengan diri aku je

" my best friend is actually myself "

susah aku nak cari orang yang betul-betul faham perasaan aku
yang betul-betul faham diri aku macam mana
aku selalu persetankan perasaan aku sendiri ,
semuanya sebab nak jaga hati orang lain.

ah , persetankan lah . mungkin, perasaan aku memang tak pernahnya penting.

in my world , I'm Madonna

2012-01-15T08:14:00.000-08:00

today's theater practice was a blast. I've develop my character. Need to find more , I guess. Hehe. :b Was told to practice more with my face expression -_- was getting on the cast-in-charge's nerve. Hehe , sorry , Abang Azmi :p Had fun during practice with Kak Aimi , Kak Tini and Kak Rina. or should I call them Tun Teja , Inang Xian and Puteri Li Po. hewhew

Then , also , redeemed my each a cup's voucher. YEAH :D had late lunch with sayang . thanks sayang chupchup :* Got ready with my tests tomorrow. Alhamdulillah , also had dinner with Qila just now. Ayu fetched me back home. Told me everything is on the track now . *square dance* also , I got the sponsors from Tok Cho and Puan Hasiah . mucho gracias me amor c:

Overall , alhamdulillah , it was a good day. finished up most of my assignments. Now off revising for my BMD151 test and also OMT200. wish me luck , wokay? :D done with my public speaking assignment . Cartoons in the 90's . nervous for the presentation. phew -_- neways, gonna do the video with sayang's help c: my Kasturi . kehkehkeh :b

Okbai. goodnight , lavv ;)

Assalamualaikum.

I love you

2012-01-15T07:55:00.000-08:00

Did I ever told you how much I love you?

As much as I breathe , as long as the steps I took everyday and as much as the prayers I preached for our happiness. Trust me , love . I just want to be with you , and only you. Insya-Allah. :) Everything is changing , taking its course the natural way, but my love for you is everlasting. :) If you are indeed my destiny , my forever source of happiness , then bring it . I am ready :) You might not be all good looking , but all that doesn't matter as long as you're going to be with me , through ups and downs . Smiling with me every time. Made me smile nonetheless , sulks at me all of sudden. :p EVERYTHING.

I'm sorry for the arguments we had yesterday. I love you :') I am going to be even more understanding from now onward. Put aside all the uneasiness , the doubts i had in you. You're different . very different. and that what makes me love you more everyday. You might not the handsome boy on Facebook , or the popular guy in the college , but you will forever be my favourite boy :)

Dear nerdy boy , I love you , sayang. forever and always. :)

Happy almost sixth monthlyversary ♥ :*

I need to be happy

2012-01-14T16:06:00.000-08:00

I had a small fight with him and I feel awful. Terribly awful. :c

Today has been a tiring day indeed. I had theater practice in the morning till afternoon. Finished up my assignments in the evening till late night . Had fun of discussion at intervals . Nevertheless , it was indeed productive. Alhamdulillah. Chilled with Mel during lunch and dinner . She helped me with my COM165 assignment. :) Had a chit chat with my roomies as well. :'D

Happy things have happening to me for the past few days. and I couldn't be more grateful :) Though I might be a little bit busy , but I'm okay with it. :) I hope this will last for more days to come. :) Insya-Allah. Next week gonna be really hectic , that's for sure. I have tests , appointments , photoshoot for the theater show,

well , gonna be BUSY BUSY BUSY c:

anyhow , since you're reading this , to those UCSA students , please do support my class movie screening at the auditorium on the 25th , 30th , and 31st of January :D you can read it here :) tickets are available at all OM4A students :) support okeh? Heeee c:

this is my current favourite people.

off to bed now. I need enough rest for my training tomorrow :))

Escapism.

2012-01-12T09:48:00.000-08:00

I no longer wrote melodramatically compared to last time. not that often tho. But then, it just occured to me of how afraid I am to be losing one amazing part of my life at the moment : my boyfriend. I am afraid that I will get hurt for another time , and then were left alone stranded with memories of them. Lately I've been getting flashbacks . A LOT OF IT. Some sort of beautiful yet painful memories. How I wish I can just ctrl + delete them all , but i just can't.

I've been hounded by painful rejections that people may not know. Because well, some things are better left untold and definitely unsaid. So I did. I suffered and I cried . and I came back stronger than ever. Unfortunately, those uneasy feeling kept coming back . The harder I tried to erase all of its memories , more of it eventually came. it's like dejavu , and I'm losing.

They once left me breathlessly , along with endless confusion of constant longing to be with someone. To be with someone who actually accept me for who I am . Now , they came back again. And guilty is charged. Somehow, I miss them all of sudden. and I feel terribly guilty. Cheating is not the exact phrase in my head right now , but I'm afraid it will leads to it , eventually.

and frankly speaking , I don't want it. and I never will.

Because of the pledge I made ; to be with Muhammad Yusof Bin Fadhil forever till jannah , Insya-Allah :) I need no guidance as I have Allah to guide me always. I am happy with the people around me as they are the ones who made my world brighter , colourful as ever. :)

also,

I hereby apologized since my ability to express myself here have been rather abstract , in a way some people might not understand and was misinterpreted. I may not impress anyone of you, but I guess I shall only impress myself for the time being. I really need to brush up on the lack of fineness , vocabulary and grammatical wise of my writings.

but then again, this is just me , at the moment . A proud self-expressive 20 years old Malaysian girl.

comprende ? :)

K

2012-01-12T09:16:00.000-08:00

dear boy ,

harap sangat kau terasa. ahahaha , tak marah , bagi nasihat je pun.

kau ada hak bersuara and etc, tapi aku pun ada hak yang sama jugak.

mana-mana je lah. kbai.

be bad, be good

2012-01-12T09:08:00.000-08:00

I am writing this with a smile spread wide across my face. Alhamdulillah , everything is going smoothly as planned. Tomorrow , the sponsorship bureaus will finally go out and . hunt for sponsors. YEAYY :D this entry was delayed long ago , tapi biar lah , banyak sebenarnya nak cite , al maklum macam biasa , long post lah jawabnya hikhikhik

kejap , ada highlight tak minggu neh?

oh aku rasa ada , which is today , finally settle hal pasal bayaran =) tak nak ada terasa hati ke apa kan , kata sepakat dah dicapai phew =.= sekarang risau pasal event , sangat lah risau pasal budget , insya-Allah next week akan settle *hopefully , super nervous* D: related to event pulak , masuk kelas BEL312 , sumpah best Madam Yan , sporting habis , sangat lah memahami keadaan kitaorang yang sangat serabai mentally kehkehkeh :P thank you madam , will present the best for your second assignment =)

sudahnya aku promote event kat fb aku , semua aku promote , lantak lah orang nak cakap ape , aku ikhlas nak cari sponsors , sebab aku nak gerak ke mana-mana pun, tak boleh kan , so yeah =.= semuanya pun di hujung jari sekarang hewhew , harap-harap berkesan hehe :'D

second nya pulak , kolej has been okayyy , i guess . ECO punye test hancur , dpt hint pun tak dapat score =.= pergh , seram boleh ? mau repeat sem depan , oh tidaks =.= MUST.NOT.PLAY.AFTER.THIS. =) kelas banyak takdek minggu nie , Kuantan asyik hujan , rasa macam London dah sekarang. kehkehkeh -.-

tapi orang selalu cakap , hujan tuh rahmat sebenarnya :) bersyukur je lah. heee.

lecturer pun okay okay je rasanya . alah , * feeling famous kejap* aku rasa semua orang kenal aku kot? HAHAHAHA kbai :P takdek lah , hari tu en lutfi and en mus pakat gelakkan aku sebab diaorang cakap aku kelam kabut sangat? lol, it's in my nature , i guess. :P esok ingat nak settlekan proposal sume. tunggu ayu balik dari pekan rasanya :) Harap-harap dapat lah kan ? AMIN :)

tadi masa lepak dengan juniors , teringat masa jaga diorang orientasi sem lepas. haha , ohmai , dah sem dua kot diorang sume . I feel so ... OLD =.= lol sejuk hati tengok junior-junior sekarang dah jadi student serba boleh . :D handsome boys and pretty girls :3

*bangga kejap* HEHE :b

esok kelas takdek. tapi practice role play for BEL312 ade. huargh , rasanya nak kemas rumah kot. rumah sepah sepah lagi :F nom nom , lapar pulak malam-malam buta nie . adoi D: next is about teater. alhamdulillah , dapat jugak aku pergi beijing ngehehehehe :F *square dance* this weekend ada practice , and pesanan pengarah paling utama is

" atika , please behave"

okeh madam. I'll behave. :'D maybe hyper sgt kadang-kadang sampai lupa diri ceittttt :P

tadi pulak dinner dengan aina , syok jugak lah sebab dulu lagi dah rapat dengan dia masa orientasi lagi :) then tadi gosip-gosip sketttt :p but overall it was a good dinner. jumpa boolat , and if you were to read this, thanks a bunch sebab tolong settlekan sewa umah =) contented rasanya , walaupun buah hati tak ketemu hari ini. rindu :| okeh , konklusinya , hari ni relaxing dan agak interesting from the three months i've been working my ass off. and also , A BIG FAT THANK YOU specially goes to Nur Qamarina Idayu Narawi Binti Abdullah for being such amazing part of the organizers . =)

I just love my 4A17 Production , enough said :)

guilty is charged.

2012-01-07T07:48:00.001-08:00

I need not to feel guilty right nao , but i can't D: I think the boyfriend is mad at me :( but then, when I gave him a call just now, he sounds rather normal. am i at fault ? aiyooooo D: sorry sayang :|

and well,

to be frank , i am actually too nervous for the event , am afraid that i couldn't get the sponsors ready by time. :( *sigh* positivity is not doing me any good at the moment :( damn it --" Insya-Allah, it will. There will budget reimbursement for the time being. Our food almost reach 10K o___o and to the participants, THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR ~~DELAYING~~ EVERYTHING . THANK YOU ALRIGHT? Yeap, sarcasm is like talking to me. Problem? Going to ask sponsors from the ADUN and also from various banks. Need money T_T anyone is nice enough to donate to me? D:

kehkehkeh harapan je lah orang nak bagi free macam tu je kan --"

taphe lah , usaha itu tangga kejayaan , when there's a will, there is ALWAYS a way . Wish me luck guys , I need it so much right now

Assalamualaikum :'D

♡

2012-01-06T23:49:00.001-08:00

bismillahhirrahmannirrahim ♡

so , another hectic week just ended. been busy settling the particulars for my event. alhamdulillah , everything went well , i guess :) surat sponsor untuk cash dah keluar :'D hari isnin settlekan lah. hewhew. result quiz ECO teruk T_T my fault tak study hard enough. D: takpe , harap-harap test ECO okay lah result dia :) AMIN.

so semalam , I had dinner at Satay Zul with the boyfriend. Thank you so much sayang :") Sedap oh ! heee :'D then two days back, pergi Teluk Cempedak dengan Athirah. for the first time dapat lepak dengan Athirah for this week sebab she has been busy since forever :) we had KFC and then we headed to the beach and talk about almost everything :") then we had AKI burger for dinner , with Mel. hehe :b then only we went back home :)

I just finished settling down all the particulars for the event . alhamdulillah , once again :) I am currently having my menses ( sorry, tmi , i know :p ) , tapi what i want to say is , i can now control my temper :'D yeay ! heeheee :b so , weekend ni nak siapkan semua kerja, BMD151 especially. Tugasan 2 is super crucial . HAHA ! kbye

Weekend nie agak busy nak study for real. cannot tahan failing a subject every semester -_-" so yeah. Hewhew. jam pun dah pukul 6:30 ha -_-" nak kemas beg and things to bring on monday. assignment COM165 dah siap .... cover sahaja. STILL mencari topic untuk buat COM165 nie D: maybe Steve Jobs ? maybe Khairul Fahmi ? Adakah??

tetiba monolog sendirian kan eh

Malam ni nak dinner with Zahir and Ika with the boyfriend as well. MUST NOT forget to bring my notebook , in case i got any ideas all of sudden later. HEHE :B today was blissful , i guess. Shikin gave me Kit Kat , Cadbury buttons and jelly beans all the way from Singapore :D

Then, had brunch tadi at Secret Recipe dengan Mel . :) was planning to eat at Wafi , but heh , ' nasi tak masak lagi' D: so , since we got some ka-chings , we went there. Service was okay and I had chicken lasagna !! :b it was so nice and filling hehe !

still reading Cik Epal's blog :D blog dia best. hopefully i can be like her one day. HEHE :B didn't continue doing my BMD151 assignment since I am so carried away going online -_-"

now dah siap everything , i wanna get ready before the boyfriend showed up ! tata ! :D

geram

2012-01-03T08:43:00.000-08:00

rasanya lah kan, internet kat rumah aku nie memang nak ken lempang laju-laju tahap maksimum .

kimeks , asyik problem je --'

aku nak download movie susah,

aku nak online susah,

aku nak update blog pun susah.

macam-macam hal kau nie ek,

nak kena lempang ke ?

problematice mengalahkan perempuan

grrr --'

karang ada jugak yang kena buang dalam laut ,

grrr , stress --'

** nak cari information pasal speech to inform now , ho yeah kthxbye

bila rindu

2012-01-03T08:38:00.000-08:00

hari ni cerita macam biasa
macam mana busynya aku hari-hari
event punya psl kan , so yeah
alhamdulillah , duit dah dibayar sikit sikit

:)

PM happy kot
thanks everyone sebab bagi full co-operation :D
tadi ada quiz ECO , open book lah kan ,
dapat buat semua ,
tiba-tiba takdek mood,
aku anta kertas jawapan lobang-lobang heehee :>
sorry Puan

and then nampak *ehem ehem*
ahkak rambut purple yewww ? :'>

okay, whatever

neways,
semua assignments dah siap , nak print and submit esok
then now nak buat agenda esok (Y)
nak type ke tak eh? malas oh :P
cakap je lah esok eheh :D

now nak kemaskan surat-surat semua , so yeah :D
*5 minutes later* Okay, done :D HEWHEW
tadi lepak + dinner dengan Mel , dapat pendants from Safuan
*happy* :'D
now nak start bergaya properly

hari nie mood everyone baik-baik belaka
aku pun mudah nak buat kerja ehehe :b
alhamdulillah sangat-sangat

:)

hari ni jugak sayang hantar pegi kolej
from today onwards , I have to practice not to need him too much
since he's going to start working soon :')
missing boo already , pity he has ulser again ==

get well soon , babycake :*

tapi despite all these happy thoughts,

dapat pulak berita sedih ,
alahai kak yuni , kenapa lah lelaki nie dayus sgt
kak yuni kot,
tak pernah aku jumpa perempuan sebaik , se-setia kak yuni tu oi
nak marah pun, bukannya ko dengar
rasa nak nangis dengar cerita kak yuni tadi

be strong kak yuni

we love you so much ♥ :')

picture perfect

2012-01-02T08:37:00.000-08:00

just got back from Burger King heehee :> latest branch in Kuantan, i guess :>
yang penting , not a fan of its delicacies ; burger . HOH, DAGING HANGUS @#$%^ !!
waited for almost 30 minutes for a burnt meat -_- grr , sabaq je lah cheq
nasib baik macam biasa , sang buah hati pengarang jantung , muka berseri-seri bila angguk setuju nak pegi burger king , ceh over :P

sampai di BK, mula-mula duduk luar, tapi makin lama makin kuat angin,
so pegi dalam balik :D
then only dapat revise sekejap ECO esok , chapter COST PRODUCTION
lekat jugak lah formula , AC = AFC + AVC or even TVC = AVC / Q kehkehkeh :P

*Ya Allah, terangkan lah hati hamba Mu ini untuk menjawab ujian esok, AMIN* :')

dah siap kemas barang untuk kelas esok, esok jumpa Ayuni waktu pagi , then jumpa Encik Sani untuk settlekan proposal and surat :) then 1230 masuk test, after test , masuk Mandarin , then off I go back home heee :D harap-harap esok dah boleh settle, tak larat dah nak settlekan hal surat HEWHEW

duit sewa rumah and streamyx dah settle . now nak settlekan hutang-hutang lain pulak
haih, boleh botak kepala aku pikir pasal duit ouh

anyways, dapat hadiah birthday daripada Nadia
this polka dots formal wear
simple AND nice :DDD

Thank you Nadia ! :D

nak cakap jugak , yang alhamdulillah , untuk tahun 2012 ini , solat bertambah khusyuk
harap-harap berterusan
shall treat everyone with good intention as well
insya-Allah :)

I shall end this post with hope that this week will be good to moi , no harm done to moi or anyone else
:)

Assalamuaikum :)