Turning Point 转折点

Can I slap you?

2012-01-12T16:12:00.005Z

Can I slap you on the face and tell you that because I am stressed?

Busy

2011-12-04T07:35:00.001Z

It's an understatement if I say I'm busy. I've been sleeping late for the past week, the earliest was around 1am+? My eyes look like China's famous animal now. Furthermore it's a busy weekend for me. 2 weddings, 1 birthday & 1 shopping trip. I'm soooo freaking tired.

Gonna stop blabbering, check out the cupcake I had in Damon's birthday party. Decorated by his dad, mom & grand mom. Talk about love...

Random post on a Public hol

2011-11-28T08:24:00.001Z

I'm in the car waitin 4 alpha boy 2 get his work done. I'm feelin so sleepy & tired, consequence of watching the late night match of Liv vs Man City. No regrets though, Liv did a fantastic job!

Woke up this morning with saliva all over my face >.< yes, I drool in sleep :| did some work, went out 4lunch & I'm somewhere in Sepang now. Not sure about the exact location though...

It's raining now...

Taiwan - JiuFen -> Yehliu Geopark -> Yang Ming Shan National Park (Part 4)

2011-11-19T08:15:00.001Z

Part 4 but not the last yet :| I did mention in Part 3 that I will try my best to fit the remaining in 1 last post but I failed! ~~It's not like I tried hard...hehehe~~ I suppose you would prefer to read a sincere post. *cough* #self-assuming

After spending a night in Hua Lien, we started our journey to JiuFen. JiuFen is a mountain area in the Ruifang District of New Taipei City near Keelung, Taiwan. It's an interesting place with cooling weather and shops though I find it a tad commercialize.

The view along Suhua highway.


Top: Our rented Nissan Teana. A short pause as Bin wanted to take pictures. Bottom: Su-ou Port, a multi-function seaport that also houses a naval base.

After a 90-minute drive, we finally arrived at JiuFen. Could have been faster...if not bcoz of..erm...erm...

Where we stay.............NOT. It was too expensive so we opted for a cheaper option. The owner of our guest house is a cute granny :).

Sounds familiar to you? (if only you know Chinese :D). One of my favorite signage. Check out the title of my blog, you will know what I mean.

The famous "yuyuan" - Yam & Sweet potato balls in a bowl.


Sun setting.

We saw this obese dog when we were having dinner. The owner has a few dogs and this is the fattest, the rest are growing towards the same direction #TimeForADiet


Taken from our balcony. Nice?

After dinner, we bought a few bottles of Taiwan beer and snacks and headed back to our guesthouse. The view above was what we see when we were drinking at the balcony, talking craps and playing silly games. It was so relaxing and I felt at ease with my travel buddies. I feel that I could do this forever as long as I travel with the right people :).

The next day at Yehliu. My 2nd time here, so I was feeling kinda bored and the weather was killing me. I got really bad sunburn here.

Perfunctory shot. Yehliu's rock landscape is one of the most famous wonders in the world.

NEXT - the Yangminshan National Park. This is the Milk Pond :D but non-drinkable. It's actually a sulfur spring.

Sea cockroach, direct translation from Chinese. Any idea what is this? It's all over the mud beach at Yehliu.

Part of the National Park.

There were many couples getting their wedding shots here. Apparently, it's a famous wedding photography spot. We saw more than 5 couples on the same day at the same time.

Finally done with part 4, I promise part 5 will definitely be the last! I need to do a wrap up for this trip ASAP before you I get bored of Taiwan :p.

Have a great Saturday night and excellent Sunday before Monday blues visit~ Ciao!

Some roads aren't meant to be traveled alone.

Rainy Night

2011-11-14T12:52:00.001Z

I want to write a proper entry but it's raining outside...lol. How do they relate? I just need an excuse not to blog a proper post tonight. It's just one of those nights where you feel like skipping your routine, empty your mind and act according to your heart instead of brain. Ok...ok... I know it's just me feeling that way :| ~~In fact, I am just too lazy to edit the photos and dig out old info.~~

I need the following desperately now:

DETERMINATION
PERSISTENCE
PASSION

& most importantly -> ACTION!

I need to get back to work now. Promise it's gonna be a proper post the next round :).

Many people think they want things, but they don't really have the strength, the discipline. They are weak. I believe that you get what you want if you want it badly enough. ~Sophia Loren

Laos - Vientiane

2011-11-12T06:47:00.001Z

You must be wondering "what about Taiwan?" when you see the title of this post. In order not to bore you, I've decided to blog about my Laos trip before I continue with my Taiwan posts. Yes, I know I am very considerate, you're welcome :p

The trip was done between 6th of January 2011 - 13th of January 2011. It was winter in Laos and also the best time to visit Laos. We started our Laos trip in Vientiane (capital of Laos), then flew to Luang Prabang the next day followed by a stopover at Vang Vieng and back to Vientiane again.

We bought our air ticket to Luang Prabang from Laos Airlines once we landed in Wattay International Airport on the first day. After that, we took a cab to the city, found our guest house and headed out for our day in Vientiane.

Lao tuk-tuk, similar to Thailand's tuk-tuk


Had a walk next to Mekong river, construction going on here.

Sunset at Mekong.

Had our dinner at the road side.

The typical clear soup noodle in Laos (most affordable :/) and the local Beerlao. A bowl of noodles cost around 8,000 - 12,000 kip (around RM 3-5 ringgit). It's not cheap, apparently they have the "tourist price". Later we found out that locals only pay half of the "tourist price" -.-


Lao sundry shop. We drank coconuts here.

The next day,we went to Avenue Lane Xang to pay Patuxay (Victory Gate) a visit. It is a local rendition of Paris's Arc de Triomphe. It looks impressive from afar. Though, the structure and quality of the building is incomparable to the one in France and lacking of maintenance. Before that, we had our breakfast at a local restaurant. We had clear soup noodles for the 2nd time (more to come! The so-called most affordable food for us, what to do >.<) and some snacks.

Snacks that we had with our noodles. Taste exactly like the ham chin peng and yau char kway in Malaysia.

We paid 3000 kip each to climb the monument.


View from the top of Patuxay, Vientiane Avenue.

We boarded a tuk-tuk later to visit Pha That Luang (a Buddhist Stupa), the most important religious monument in Laos.

5000 kip entrance fee for each.

Pha That Luang

It was a sunny day, I couldn't open my eyes! So I bought a pair of fake Lac*ste sunglasses at the roadside stall :D. Right after the visit, we got our stuff and headed to the airport to board our flight to Luang Prabang!

Leaving on a jet plane ~

The journey continues ...

I see my path, but I don't know where it leads. Not knowing where I'm going is what inspires me to travel it. ~ Rosalia de Castro

Tea time / Early dinner

2011-11-09T10:18:00.001Z

Had tea time / early dinner at mamak. They sell otak-otak here!

Red in color. I still prefer the ones from Muar.

I only had one. I used to eat around 5-6 pieces once and fell sick the next day -_- => otak-otak overdosed

No. I didn't have this coz of the lemak :S

I had this, RM 1.00. I will be back again :)

The only piece of otak-otak I had with Limau Ais.

A blissful evening, I guess it's time to head home. I wish you a great evening :)

What is the meaning of life? To be happy and useful. ~Tenzin Gyatso, 14th Dalai Lama

Taiwan - Kenting -> CingJing Farm -> Taroko Gorge -> Hua Lien (Part 3)

2011-11-08T14:58:00.001Z

Motorbike is the best vehicle to travel in Kenting especially in summer time. Riding along the seaside and feeling the sea breeze is one of the unforgettable experience I had in Kenting.

Us with the rented scooters (Laxe - the tree hugger -_-)

We were riding along the seaside

We went to the beach after a long ride under the scorching sun. It was great to be in the cooling water after sweating so much!

Dinner settled at Kenting night market

The next morning, we headed to Taichung, rented a car and drove all the way to Cingjing Farm in Nantou County. Cingjing farm is a place with cooling weather like Cameron or Genting but instead of Casino & plantation, it's famous for its farm.

CingJing Farm. The view from our hotel room. Lovely, ain't it :)?

After checking into the hotel, we rushed to CingJing Farm but we were too late -_-. So we took a detour to the Small Swiss Garden - the Taiwan's Little Switzerland. The garden was decorated in Summer theme hence the bright colors.

CingJing Farm is famous for its sheep.

Back to childhood :)

Cute and colorful decorations but Laxe said he couldn't understand why the garden is built in CingJing. But I guess the kids will definitely love it.

Ladybug

After spending a night in CingJing Farm, we continue our road trip to Taroko Gorge, not really my cup of tea. Mainly cause I was here 4 years ago. We had a walk, took some pictures and drove to the next destination. It was a winding road, thanks to Bin and Laxe for being the driver. I fell asleep in the car 90% of the time :p.

In fact, it was a long walk

On the way to Hua Lien

Hua Lien was where we headed next. Arrived in the evening.

I just collapsed on the bed once we stepped into the room. (Please ignore my dirty feet -.-)

Again, had dinner at the night market

One of the highlights in HuaLien and for this Taiwan trip - FIREWORKS! Didn't know what the seller said, we laughed happily or maybe the excitement of playing fireworks legally.

I have to admit I was feeling quite stressed playing fireworks. All because of this:

The right timing, synchronization, and countless tries. SO STRESSED LOR. Some more, this was only one of the words we did.

I told Laxe, I never felt so pressured in playing fireworks. One mistake, everyone has to do everything from scratch again -.-. BUT, it was an amazing experience! It was like back to school time, those crazy moments with friends :D

Okay la, got to sleep now. Stay tuned for the next post! Hopefully I can fit the remaining in one post :).

We must go beyond textbooks, go out into the bypaths and untrodden depths of the wilderness and travel and explore and tell the world the glories of our journey. ~ John Hope Franklin

A Mushroom Day

2011-11-07T13:52:00.000Z

I was loitering in alpha boy's garden and bumped into these cute looking plants (at least to me :D). Ended up spending 15 minutes taking pictures (got bitten N-times by mosquitoes).

Lone Shroom

Growing wildly in the garden

A cute one with a large cap

Twins

Two is better than one

Round cap

Can someone tell me if they are edible?

If they are, it would be a waste not to turn them into food :p

I love to eat mushrooms, especially fresh mushrooms like Portabello and button mushrooms. The problem is, I find the fresh mushrooms in supermarket expensive compare to those dried mushrooms and canned button mushrooms imported from China (side effect of getting cheaper mushrooms in OZ & UK -.-). So, wouldn't it be amazing if fresh and edible mushrooms are growing in your garden :O?

It has been bothering me since I discovered the mushrooms in alpha boy's garden. How can I find out if the mushrooms are edible? I've tried Google search but I just couldn't confirm. They look like something called "Death Cap" which is poisonous but according to wiki, "Death Cap" only grow in Europe. If you look at the round cap mushroom, don't you think it looks like the button mushrooms where you can purchase from the market?

PLEASE let me know if you happen to know the answer. Thank you *big wet eyes*.

There is no sincerer love than the love of food. ~ George Bernard Shaw

Maiu Japanese Buffet

2011-11-03T15:58:00.001Z

I am not gonna bombard you with my Taiwan post consecutively. Therefore, I will blog about something else (no need to thank me :p). On a random note, before I start showing you all the delicious food pictures to make you feel hungry, I wanna tell you -----------> I just clean my bathroom and toilet like 10 minutes ago...hohoho. It's sparkling clean now, just a random note XD. Oh oh, one more thing, I am boiling roselle tea. Hopefully, I get to have a cup before I sleep.

Let's begin the food journey ~ A couple of months ago, we (the crabbies) decided to meet up and gather at Maiu Japanese Restaurant for their lunch buffet. I rarely have a chance to meet up with them since I left the company. Hence, it's a mutual understanding among us that we will go for something nice whenever we eat together.

Maiu Japanese Restaurant is located at Sri Petaling and they have another outlet in Damansara Perdana. This is my 4th time here, so you can say that the food is not bad ;).

Maiu offers Daily Ala Carte Buffet. We, crabbies went for the Lunch 11:30 am - 2:30pm. We arrived on time coz we are kiasu like that.

Interior of the restaurant

We were given a menu, those like a form to make order. Let's say, Salmon sashimi, we just need to fill in the quantity and pass the form back to the waitress. Crabbies can EAT, check out the food:

Appetizer: Chuka Kurage (seasoned jellyfish), Itako Kyuli (seasoned baby octopus) and tomato salad (if I'm correct :p)

This is another must-try - Kaki Tofu Fried. It looks like normal fried tofu but there's oyster in it!

How can we miss out the sashimi! One of the reasons I like Maiu -> they offer butter fish (shiro maguro) sashimi which is also my favorite, salmon comes second. The sashimi are fresh and look at the thickness, ichiban!

We ordered more food - Saba Shioyaki and...others (aging, memory lost)

Edamame and Tempura Moriwase

We actually ordered a lot but I was too busy ~~fighting for food~~ eating. You can check out their menu at http://maiufusion.blogspot.com/2010/08/weekend-lunch-buffet.html. Other than the food shown above, I like the followings:

1. Soft Shell Crab Maki
2. Soft Shell Crab Age
3. Special Mushroom Soup (might be too sweet for some)

We ended our lunch with ice-creams - green tea, chocolate and wasabi flavor.

Final Bill for 7 adults and 2 children (under 140cm so FREE :))

Maiu might not be suitable for you if you are looking for varieties of food. However, Maiu is definitely a good option if you are looking for quality food especially sashimi. For me, I know I will definitely go for the sashimi, appetizers, soft shell crab, hand-rolls and kaki tofu fried. To me, it's worth the price - RM 42+ as I can eat lots of sashimi.

For more information, visit their website:
http://maiu2u.com/

Maiu Damansara Perdana G-3A, The Place, Jalan PJU 8/5D, Bdr D'sara Perdana. 47820 Petaling Jaya.

Maiu Seri Petaling No 30-1, Jalan Radin Anum 2, Bdr Baru Seri Petaling 57000 Kuala Lumpur

P.S. I am feeling extremely hungry now! Lesson learned - not to blog about food at night :| Goodnight peeps.

The belly rules the mind. ~Spanish Proverb

Taiwan - July 2010 (Part 2)

2011-11-02T11:49:00.002Z

Part 2 after 1 year plus, better than none right :p?

What I didn't mention in the previous post, this trip was a memorable one. I was invited by Bin to join his secondary school friends - Margaret & Laxe after he saw my status in Facebook looking for travel partner to Taiwan. Bin was the only person I know before the trip but I had no regrets joining the travel group. The adventure we had together, the things we did and the companions were SUPERB.

It was a 8 day 7 night trip from 3rd of July 2010 - 10th of July 2010 (wow, not bad huh, I can still remember this XD). Once we landed in Taipei, we rushed to the train station and headed to Kaohsiung.

The three musketeers

After settling down in the hotel, Bin's Taiwan friend brought us to the night market. Check out the food we had.

From top left to lower right: Papaya milk (heard that it's good for breast enhancement XD), grilled food (ordered grilled chicken ~~ass~~ & told Bin it's chicken meat...LOL. The look of his face eating it - PRICELESS), stinky tofu (so-so) and coffin board (Taiwanese style pottage served on toast with chicken & mushroom).

We went back to the hotel after a walk next to the river (Love River). Margaret woke up in the midnight watching Spain vs XXXXX (so this I failed to remember but I know it's Spain playing - World cup yo!).

The next day, we woke up early in the morning and boarded a van to Kenting. It was my first time to Kenting and since it's summer, it's the best time to enjoy the sea breeze.

View from our hotel room.

We rented this later.

Look at the color!! My favorite blue :D

We rented 2 motorbikes and went to Kenting National Park.

Interesting road name.

Nice weather to take photos but not for human...it was really hot.

An artistic one

The famous Erluanbi Kenting Lighthouse

After a long walk, we went to fill our stomach with the local delicacies.

Fresh Seaweed

Puffer fish - my 1st time trying. Texture too hard for my liking.

Sashimi!

Fried Pearl Oyster in soup - one of my favorite dishes.

Fish roes spring roll

Local vege, according to the boss, only available on rainy days.

That's part 2 for now. I am missing Taiwan a lot when I am writing this. It was a great trip as we traveled at our own pace. What I will always remember - the night we had beer at the balcony with sea view, the bike rides passing by the seaside, how we convinced the lady to rent us the motor bikes (ahem!)...etc etc.

More to come :)

It's surprising how much memory is built around things unnoticed at the time. ~Barbara Kingsolver, Animal Dreams

Taiwan - July 2010 (Part 1)

2010-12-13T12:02:00.001Z

More pics than words ... coz I am lazy as usual XD

Formosa Boulevard Station, Kaohsiung

Night Market, Kaohsiung

Street food, Kaohsiung

Love River, Kaohsiung

Bike rental, Kenting

Kenting National Park (love this the most!)

P.S. Photographer is mg. LOL.

We wander for distraction, but we travel for fulfillment. ~Hilaire Belloc

After 30 months...

2010-06-28T07:33:00.002+01:00

I am finally going for backpacking vacation again! This time to Taiwan for 8 days.

Praying hard for things to go smoothly.

More trips on the way and hopefully I will have enough pictures to revive this blog =).

~ Travel and change of place impart new vigor to the mind. - Seneca~

Layout changing in progress...

2009-06-10T18:29:00.005+01:00

Special thanks to Mr CCTV for helping me to upload the template.

If you are reading this, I am in the process of updating the layout. I have to do it step by step as I am too ~~lazy~~ busy.

Will be back to the blogging scene very very soon =).

Stay tuned!

The Recent Me ...

2009-04-25T14:48:00.000+01:00

It's time to change my blog title as well as the layout but I am just too lazy to do anything. Life has been ... the same. Work -> Home -> Work -> Home -> Work ... It's so bored that I wish the cycle doesn't have to be repeated.

I haven't been feeling too well for the past 2 weeks. It's hard for me to accept that I can't change the past because I am still feeling sad about certain things that have happened. The pain is just so extreme that, sometimes I wish I have never knew and met certain people in my life.

It's easier to forgive than forget. The scars are just incurable. I find it hard to trust people now.

I am just not me anymore.

I am turning into a workaholic o-0

2009-04-23T15:50:00.003+01:00

I've changed a bit recently. The current me thinks about work all the time. I have been reaching office earlier than usual for this whole week (though 930am is not consider early to many ppl =p but I used to start at 10am >.<).

I want to start working earlier so that I can do more. I work until 8+, sometimes even 10+ at night because I feel that I haven't done enough. When I am driving, I think about how I can improve the the product, the flow of the system and how to work better with the team.

When I am back from work, I will continue with what's leftover. It's a never-ending process. What's on my mind now is to improve, to be better, to know more, to show results and most importantly - to prove myself.

I have to say, I have been inspired. I have been inspired to the extend that, I know and believe I can give so much more than what I am contributing to my job. It's not about the money (okayla, it does matter) nor the position, it's about self-recognition and belief that I can be BETTER.

Sorry, if I bored you =) but I have so much energy inside me now and I need to release partial of it here =).

~I never had a policy; I have just tried to do my very best each and every day - Abraham Lincoln~

I have a crazy thought ...

2009-04-14T18:10:00.002+01:00

on mind now. It has been almost 6 months since I am back from London. That means I have stopped traveling for almost 6 months (Penang, Melaka and Tioman doesn't count =p).

While I was taking my shower half an hour ago, this thought suddenly came to my mind - I should not leave my backpack aside for too long. My heart is pounding quicker than usual when I thought of this because I know well that what comes next will be totally crazy!

I am not going to reveal anything yet but I have drafted out a very brief plan. It's crazy but definitely possible if I want it to happen.

This is definitely something I am looking forward to =)

To you ...

2009-01-16T14:51:00.000Z

I am not sure if you read my blog.

But, I want to write this out. I've been holding back my feelings and emotions because I don't want to put all the blames on you.

It has been 5 months plus since I knew about your existence. I will never forget how I find out about you on his birthday. How you've tried so hard to contact him although you know clearly that he's with me so far away from Malaysia. How shaky was I when I find out about his betrayal.

I put all the blames on him at the very beginning. He knows that he's a man with a gf but still he has chosen to betray me to be with you. It's his fault for not being honest and loyal enough. I was heartbroken, I know things will never be the same again.

Do you know when I started to have hatred towards you? When you kept calling and smsing him at night - Europe time. Knowing that I will definitely be next to him. Sending intimate sms to him begging for his return. I know you were sad because he's no longer next to you and he's with his gf. But shouldn't you have expected or be prepared for this since the day you have chosen to be with him?

I was so angry and sad why did you choose to hurt me - someone you have not known because of your own desire. Will the happiness last if it's being obtained through your selfishness? I had my worst ever 2 weeks in Europe. I was so scared to see him on his phone because I knew there will be miscalls and sms from you.

You knew he has a gf, you knew everything's gonna come to an end but you wouldn't accept it. You chose to fight for something that's not belong to you at all. You chose to hurt someone who's innocent. You chose to disobey the rules.

The thumbdrive that you left in his car. The content within it. The things that you have done just to win him back. All your actions disgusted me. Seriously, if the guy really wants and love you, you don't have to fight so hard. Even hurting someone who's has done no wrong to you.

Then, I was being told that you have been diagnosed with cancer. When I knew about this, I really feel that I was acting in a TVB drama, unwillingly. I had enough of all these craps. I chose to give up and you can take whatever you want.

I never thought of fighting with you. Never. If he choose to leave, I will let him go. I've never forced him to stay because I've learned from my lesson. There's no point for me to do so, if he's not meant to be with me.

Tell me, what did you get after all you have done? You mentioned in the special created diary for you and him that you will never forced him to leave his gf to be with you even though you know he might do it for you. But with all the things that you have done to hurt me, isn't that a big contradiction?

& I don't understand how can you accept your bf to love 2 persons at the same time? I can't. Love should be beautiful and everyone should be loyal to their loved ones. Sometimes I do suspect you want him because you don't like losing.

Perhaps, I should thank you. Thank you for showing me a clearer picture of how weak our relationship was.

Last but not least, I hope you are happy with your life now. Not sure if you have managed to win his love. I wish you all the best - I hope you can find someone who really loves you and belongs to you. Don't be a 3rd party again, you will never know how much it hurts to have your loved one betraying you.

Back to London ~

2008-10-11T02:50:00.002+01:00

Yes, after 1 week + of non-stop traveling - I am back to London. I miss London so much. At least I don't have any communication problems here -_- Summary of my trip:

Berlin - Lovely people and nice (cheap) local food. Oh, and the so famous Berlin Wall.
Prague - This is the most beautiful country out of the 4
Vienna - Gosh, people that I've met are rude, things are expensive and I even argued with an old man in the toilet (will elaborate about this when I have time)!!! Don't think I will go back again.
Budapest - Something different compare to other central Europe countries. Really old buildings, underground & etc etc. I enjoyed walking in the biggest market.

No time to write a longer entry, I will leave London again tomorrow morning. Sorry as I have no time to reply to comments & chat msgs. You can email me at slimmestleg@gmail.com . I will be damn free to reply your email @ the beginning of Nov....haha..sleeping time.

Hiya!!!!!!!!! Greetings from Prague =)

2008-10-05T10:04:00.003+01:00

How's everyone doing? I am using the hostel Internet now. Typing slowly coz I need to figure out the keys on the keyboard (Czech keyboard..-____-)

By the way, I got bitten again ..this time my left ear is swollen. WHY? I have asked myself that question so many times -___-.

I got to go now. We will be heading to the Prague Castle. Have a great Sunday everyone!

Very busy ...

2008-09-30T15:48:00.002+01:00

Today is my last working day in London!

Thursday I will be off to Berlin following by 2 weeks travelling.

Have shipped some of my stuffs back to Malaysia.

Now I am busy preparing my upcoming trips - have to do lots of research - tiring.

But from tomorrow onwards, I don't have to wake up early for work...something to look forward to =).

Sorry about the bits and pieces...I am just too busy...(yes, it's an excuse :p)

Bed Bugs are Back!

2008-09-22T21:53:00.003+01:00

Forgive me for not blogging properly. With the return of my "best friends", I have no ~~mood~~ time to blog. I CAN'T WAIT to ENTERTAIN them and make sure they go ~~to hell~~ home happily. Especially when they have brought me lovely gifts - 5 bites on my left hand, 2 bites on the right hand and 2 bites on my right leg. How can I not thank them in return!!!

So kind of them to visit me at the beginning of this chilly autumn. They must have been thinking by lingering on me in the midnight will warm me up. Pierces through my skin to injects its saliva and suck my blood to ensure that I won't oversleep. Leaving me with ~~red itchy lumps~~ love marks to represent its undying love. Love that has been following me since my arrival in London. Oh, how can I not be touched?!

I can't stop ~~cursing~~ missing them every time I ~~scratch~~ caress the ~~lumps~~ love marks. I can't wait to tell the whole world I ~~hope you will rot in hell~~ love you! I can't wait to squeeze you ~~to death to see my own blood, remember it's my blood and you have not ask my permission before you suck it~~ hard in my arms to feel your existence ~~no point hiding, it's just a matter of time for you to say bye bye to this world~~.

Just remember I love you ~~just fuck off!~~

Bitten by Bugs Again!

2008-09-18T22:57:00.003+01:00

Yes, this time is my left hand.

It's swelling now and I can't stop scratching it.

My hand is painful and stiff when I try to move it.

It seems like I am loved by the insects here.

I have done all I can do, cleaned the bed sheets, changed my pillowcase and vacuum my sleeping area. The bug is still around and I have no idea how does it look like. This is worse than my previous bed bugs case -_-.

Will be back when I feel like typing more. Tired. I have taken the antihistamine tablet that makes me feel drowsy and sleepy. Nitez all.

A Bad Week for Me

2008-09-11T11:15:00.006+01:00

Sometimes I do wonder how not-so-good-things (I don't want to say bad coz I know I am luckier than many ppl in this world!) can happen to me all at once.

1. Bitten by mysterious bugs - My right hand was swollen and I couldn't stop scratching my hand. It was so itchy that I scratched my hand subconsciously while I was sleeping. The red blotches started to spread the next day and I was forced to take medicine. It's better now but my left hand is still scratching my right hand (why does this sound so wrong -_-?).

I realised I am so prone to being bitten by bugs in London - beg bugs, spiders & all kind of weird bugs. I don't know why. The only explanation is - London hates me. Actually my cousins experienced the same thing as well but I am always the one with serious allergy.

2. Hostelworld Booking error - I was surfing Hostelworld for the past few days and realised their system has a very serious bug. If you open Hostelworld in multiple windows at the same time and search for different information, the data in the 2nd and the following windows will be overwritten by the first one. Don't geddit?

Let's say I search for Berlin and then start a new window to search for Prague, when I tick the availability/rates/whatever options for Prague - all the info (list of hostels in this case) dislayed will change to Berlin's "myraculously"! Because of this bug, I have booked the wrong date for my accommodation in Berlin and they have charged 6.90 Euros on my credit card -___- I have to emailed the hostel to inform them to change the dates and I am glad they did reply my email at the end T_T. Praying that I have a place to stay when I am in Berlin.

3. Oyster Card Fault - I secretly despise people when their Oyster Cards are not working and they block the ways of others. So I tell you now, believe in karma because this happened to me yesterday! I walked to the tube staff and told him my Oyster is not working. Normally, the staff will just use their Oyster pass to let me through but this ignorant man asked me "what number?". I was stunned coz I didn't know what the heck he's asking. He asked again rudely and took my Oyster pass. Finally, he let me through using his Oyster pass. I just don't understand why he didn't do that in the first place and has to show me his rude behaviour -_-. Hopeless.

4. Work - Made a few mistakes. Minor ones but undeniable I've created them! How can I be so careless? Communication has been a problem for me as well. I've tried and I am near to giving up as I will be leaving soon...how sad.

5. Takeaway job - My boss decided to close down his shop. He sold his business to someone else. So I've lost my part time job and maybe around £100+ for this month. I feel sad not because of the money (part of it maybe), it saddens me to think that I can no longer eat the food he cooks! haiz...but he said it's a relief to let it go, so I can just wish him all the best as a friend.

I know what are my problems:

- I care too much
- I worry too much
- I want to please everyone though I know it's impossible
- I want everyone to like me
- I am lacking of confidence
- I am anti-social sometimes
- I am too cool -_- or you can say shy
- I am pessimistic
- I have hot temper
- I am lazy
- I don't dare to take risk
- I always follow the rules and I am sick of it
- I hate my sensitive skin

and the list goes on.

Oh and one last thing, how can I expect others to like me when I don't even like myself sometimes?

P.S. I am feeling much better now. Let me rant okay. I still love my life and thank everyone who cares about me.

P.S. Forgive me if I am being ignorant sometimes. It might be that I am lazy or I am too shy to show that I care.

~It took me a long time not to judge myself through someone else's eyes. - Sally Field~

About Relationship~

2008-09-10T00:35:00.002+01:00

Haha, I just digged out one of my draft entries and decided to publish it since I have written more than 2 paragraphs..Don't waste ma...

I've been thinking a lot recently, about what's happening around me, about the world, about love, about life ... the list goes on. My body and mind are tired, I know it's time to go to bed but I really wana write something. The urge to voice out what's on my mind is too strong T_T. BUT please forgive me if you don't know/understand what I am writing next.

Few days ago, I was being told that one of my good friend just broke up with her bf. They were together for 4 years and now ended up walking different paths. I know some of you will tell me time will never be the main reason of a break up, there are many couples/husband & wife that go separate ways even after being together for more than 10 years.

I was just wondering what's the reason given by the person who initiates to part ways, "we are not meant to be", "you are not suitable for me", "I am not happy being with you?". Seriously, what do you mean by suitable or not suitable? From the very beginning, you should have known that things will change and you should change to adapt to it because you have decided to be with someone that comes from a different background and family. I just feel that if you really love him/her you will accept him/her for who he/she is.

Human beings are selfish. We always hope that others will change because we don't like the way they are. Have we ever thought of changing ourselves to adapt to others?

Love someone the way they are. If one day, you realized you can no longer tolerate ... maybe it's time to let go.