cynosure

A 13 yr old buggy's story!

2011-11-16T05:14:00.000-08:00

"Accept me for what I am
Love me as long as you can
Then you will finally see
How strong my love can be..."

Love is not an easy thing; it is not just an emotional urge; but an attempt to move over and sit in the other person’s place and see how his problems look to him.Or,to LOVE someone or to be LOVED by someone is pretty easier when compared to the two-way LOVE. -some experienced persons say like this.Today,I understand how true are these words.According to my perspective, love is actually a maze.With lotta crappy and twisted paths.Ofcourse, you have to suffer and sacrifice to reach its far end.Like everyone,I too got a chance to experience.unlike other love relations,the unique thing in this relation were the persons themselves.Truly speaking ,only I have a bloody beating heart.The other too have one..yea! a beating one.but you know..eh..its kinda mechanical.Don't confuse yourself...huh..its nothing but simply a MARUTI 800's engine.:D.

I just fell in love with my13 yr old maruti 800 last week.during my trip to EKM.CARs are good.They are very to sit,enjoy,travel,...and bla bla.But when my dad asks me to drive it,I will get blued,Every time I feel like a new student.It always puts me in confusion.clutch,break,accelerator,gear,steering,..huh! oh god! what not inside that red metal box?? crap! After that, I have great respect for the one who knows driving.That was the first time when I thanked GOD for creating me as a female.And one more condition up in my wishlist-DRIVING.i thought.." dad studied driving at the age of 4o.aunt studied this at the age of 35. And all of them drives pretty well.so why can't I?".After a week's thought,I made my mind for that.The time came.I had applied for CAT exam and the center was at kochi.So dad and me decided to go there by our car.after covering one-third of the journey,he asked me to drive.My heart was beating at a faster rate.neways,I din show it in my face.For some 15 mnts it was rather tough.But after that i started enjoying it.yeah! i was seriously falling in love with my 800.I touched 80 on the way from cherthala to vytilla.I was overwhelmed with my driving.I kissed the steering and it happily accepted my proposal by blinking its whitish eyes!

Brew

2011-11-05T19:42:00.000-07:00

At least,some o'my college-mates 'll notice this heading.Because,our 2008 college magazine also had a similar name.And hats off to you megha chechi for preparing such a wonderful magazine.:)
Hey guys,no and no! i'm not gonna deal with any magazine articles as for now.

This word "BREW" seems quite interesting for me.A rainy day, a girl sitting near the window with a cup off coffee,reading the news paper will be a perfect image for this.You 'll see a lot more,if you peep into this word.A cup o'coffee will be perfect for reminiscing as well as future planning.:D.And the thing is you are free to choose where your mind should wander,with out going along with the wind.A cup of coffee and some particular places always tend my soul to wander in a particular direction.And that will decide how your day 'll end.I seriously enjoy a sip of coffee along which retrospecting, reminiscing and future planning.i might say,planning is the only spark which drives me.More than a verve,i get personal satisfaction through this.all most all o'you 'll be coffee lovers.i don't understand why the tea can't create such a magical bound! You will be having at least one story about the coffee-day.no? yea,it describes affection,trust,happiness,sorrow and everything.And guys,do think why the tea is not able to create such a zest? Think,think and think!

yet,she was confused about the cull she made...

2011-10-31T05:36:00.000-07:00

So,through out the yesteryear i was making you get bored with my own emotional stories and the staggered paths through which my mind traveled.Here is a new post which i think is totally a different one from the rest.

here goes the story...

It was a rainy night.she curled up in her cozy bed with some romantic memories.The day for which she eagerly waited was nearing.After one year's relationship and 2 year's break up,they were gonna meet the very next day.She was really good looking and a sort of chummy girl.And the boy was a presentable one who had lots of love in his heart for her.The very next day,they met, went for a drive.She didn't have any intention of falling into love with him again and deep in the mind she formulated her decisions that it will be their last meeting.But things changed during the drive.They kissed and hugged each other.The friendly drive turned into a romantic one.May be because of their true love or getting convinced by his words,she made up her mind to fall back into the relationship again.Both of them wished if they could spend some more time with each other...the drive ended!She came back to her home.There she saw her parents waiting for her only.She wasn't able to look into their eyes.The guilty consciousness messed up her mind.Some how she convinced them saying like she went to meet one of her friends only.They didn't say anything.she strolled away.Her mind was totally messed up.she didn't know what to choose between.She was only sure about her father's love and intimacy.She slept for a while.Saw many terrible nightmares and woke up suddenly.The very next moment,she dialed his number in her mobile.She said to him "I wish to stop it here".For a moment no one broke the silence.neither he nor she.She very well knew that he loved him more than anything.But the love for her father or because of the reason that she knew very well that how its gonna end,made her to stick on to the decision.After a minutes silence he said in his trembling voice "hm..okay...we'll stop it here....only coz..i love u that much.".Tears rolled down from her eyes..but she hide it from him...and pressed the red button.

Are u a theist?an atheist?or agnostic? wateva,just go through this...

2010-12-04T05:42:00.000-08:00

Being obsessed with something or the other in this rainy week makes me feel sick.This "rain sickness" makes me pretty much lazier and i find my bed a cozier than any thing in the rest of the world..I have been trying some interesting new hobbies during last week.Day dreaming! thinking of anything in this world by simply sitting on my bed near the window while its raining outside makes me feel that I'm on cloud nine.:D.And this offers you an unlimited range.with out any boundaries,you can let your mind,soul or whatever to wander here and there.just enjoy to the fullest.you can dream about any trifles to superficial things.believe me,it's not an inception effect.simply, your mind can wander here and there as the soul wanders after death.(even though I don't believe in this after death concept.

: Do soul exist?

when you find the B tech life is utter boring with a lots of toughest papers especially EC papers(it doesn't seems easy even if u pronounce it as "easy") with some funny abbreviations put by ourselves.I wish if we had some interesting papers like meta-physics to study.so that,we can make our own views and incorporate our own theories,concepts and !deas in that paper.(and make it a "highly inflammable" one.:P).
I always liked subjects such as meta physics.Every one can add points to it.And it depends on people because each have their own perspective about GOD,eternal things,existence of soul after death and blah!
But I heard it from some horse's mouth,that is from some reliable source that we can mathematically prove that god exists and do the soul.In a lay man's point of view lemme explain it in this way,I suppose all of you guys know what is Fourier transform,an impulse response or at least you should know what is a sine wave is.I will say sine wave is the fundamental thing present in this earth.And an impulse is something which happens at a moment.that is it has value only at the instant at which it happens and Fourier transform is a tool by which we can transform signals in the time domain to frequency domain.
It's a known fact that a signal which have infinite existence in time domain will have only a momentarily exist in the frequency domain.And vice versa.so if we consider a man or consider the living beings in the earth.If we apply a transformation like similar to Fourier transform,if it had infinite existence,after transformation we 'll get it as,it only exists as a single frequency.that is the fundamental frequency.And hence the sine wave.so,we can say the soul do exist in the space even after our death as a sine wave.:).It's just a mathematical proof.according to your perspective on this,you can believe this or not.
Neways, I don't believe that soul exists after death like some ghost or a rebirth or existence of god in different forms.According to me there is only a single power,the ultimate one.It can be anything,sun,moon or the mother earth.i do believe in some power for some reasons...
But what really happens is ,
the mankind just exploits it to the core.he made an umpteen god and goddesses.witches,wizards and ghosts and..and.. the most powerful tool to destroy the mankind-RELIGION.

My first poem

2010-08-18T06:25:00.000-07:00

The mind was brewing,
with a plethora of piled-up things.
Which made me a querist of myself.
I waited for the limelight...
but the soul showed blissful ignorance.

insane by the querulous response,
At the top of my voice,
I screamed Abaddon! and hosannas!
duh! it faded out.

The space was left void.
The time made me an alien.
And, I was lost in the
musings of my shredded life.

Hooked to the labyrinth of life,
I felt a lump in the throat.
I pursued for a redeem;
and then a redemption.

By the time, I was-
In the twilight of my life!

Twilight

2010-08-18T06:20:00.000-07:00

she brought her two hands together,entwined them and,dipped it slowly into he pool.In the pale white light, she saw her face in that pool.Beside that, there she saw the whitish thing.her cheeks went red,her lips widened .she smiled.now one could see her clearly - ordered teeth,glittering . The light from that whitish thing covered her pink face.she looked gorgeous in it. Her eyes sparkled like two gems. But it was drifting away slowly.she tried her best to hold it in her hands. But it was in motion. After sometime,she successfully caught it in her hands. Her smile widened. She felt like she was flying like a cloud. Suddenly she felt someone's touch over her shoulderr. She turned back. Her eyes didn't lie. It revealed that her mind messed up with ambiguity and distress.it was her friend.paying no attention to him,she looked for the thing. It was moving askew. She stretched her hands and tried hard to catch it. At last,she won!it brought her to triumph. Euphorically, she pursued to bring it closer and closer...but her hands were not that much tightly clamped to hold the fluid.it went draining...and the image disappeared completely within minutes. Tears rolled down from her sparkling eyes. She felt the insanity caused by that thing. someone was drying her tears by the time. It was none other than him..her head rested on his shoulders. She closed her eyes and tried to console herself that it was a dream.:)

wot makes her so reckless???

2010-05-01T23:24:00.000-07:00

time is passing by…and i’m still starring at this page thinking what all things should i blog about coz i can’t throw all kinda crap here .i haven’t been in the best of my moods since last week. utter less!the problems are getting dumped like a heap and i’m trying hard to solve one by one with the help of my osume buddies.even when we revive back to our life with lotta positive energy,some persons can get u a link towards some retrospective moments and not oly me ,but also every person who is experiencing a same plight as that of mine willn’t be wishing for certain unsound things to get happen.time will heal the wounds and mistakes.but it also have the power for a back shot.and…the lady is now in such a plight.she is helpless,but she isn’t alone.she has her best buddies with her.we all can hope for her resplendent revival.the lady realizes that there is no good and evil people in this world.there are only people who understands us and not.and all u can do is to love all.:).though its late to realize the fact.she accepts this.she doesn’t have any frustration with those people who prompted her to do mistakes. only the fear,the guilty-consciousness that keeps her away.she won’t bother em again but they also have to do the same.she don’t want her best buddy to lose…it hurts..it hurts…trust me!she can’t go ahead without u.you ,the best buddy have to understand this.you din do anything wrong.all that did was her.and she accepts this and trying not to get tangle with em again.my lord,at the moment she is a hopeless creature.pardon for the reason she is trying to rectify the mistakes she did with out knowingly.i recommend her to believe in some power..the ultimate one,so that she can clear her paths with out hamper.once u lose belief in some power.you are completely free.the probability to do mistakes increases.
The lady is going through such a hard time but as always,her best buddy is always with her.she din reveal the past to him.she din give him a clue at least.coz she was afraid.but there he console her that even if she did mistakes,he wont leave her alone. she then realizes the complete meaning of best buddy.his words gave her the complete shade to rest on.the words were rushing right from his heart.she was worried about he being desp!:(.hmm...there both of u should have some fence between em.and she is putting a boundary there...dear,all that she can put as a break line is death and death only.she can tackle down each and every problem if and only if u,her best buddy are there.if there is a life after death.i want you there also,as my best friend.the meaning is clear now.thanx to a certain pep talker,my friend who tries hard to counter balance my negative energy.and thanx again to u my best old buddy.:).
just a few days left for my university exams.and i have just started the preparations.tc ciao

another university result is out!

2010-04-17T06:52:00.000-07:00

new world:

caution! this may not be an osume one.a 5mnts post to open up things which had piled up in my head!to get a relief from all the hell and mess.:P

feeling quite special to write a new post in my new blog..yes!i have changed the platform,considering blogging as something serious..:)(chumma).here is the link of my new blog:)http://sruthi5jc.wordpress.com/ spent the whole day in this crape...importing my older posts from blogger,editing my profile and so on...And,my condition is somewhat terrific for the reason that hopefully, my s3 results 'll be out in a day .so,here I don't have any specific topic to spit...but yes,i have a Lotta to open up...its all messed up...lemme arrange those things in a neat way.:)

: buddies

I'm supposed to have my study leave..as u ppl know,for a student,study leaves aint meant for studying..its just for "enjaayment".yupe! the weekend was fantastically osume...weekends were always osume since feb.:P.hats off to u,my best dude,darsha,jk,rahul,navin...for giving me some osume weekends.
the later para was written by me some days back.and it was safe in my word press draft box for a week or so.and now,i'm back with this in the same platform.:).last week was a full of depressions which haunt me every now and then.@ this tym,it was coz of ma s3 university results.
i experienced the real failure of a B.TECH student.it was a failure which i never ever expected to be happen.still aint able to believe this s****.neways,its time to leave it at that and study hard for my s4 univ.

old is gold:

:P

"Don't be dismayed at goodbyes. A farewell is before you can meet again. And meeting again after a moment or a lifetime is certain for those who are friends."

as the time heals the wound,as it strengthen the bonds ,as it gives u new meaning for friendship,it also made the above quoted lines to be happen.my long lost friend,my first crush..and he is back with lots of care ,love and friendship to make me happy.:).i had a handful of things in my mind to be written on my first post in my new blog.but something is pulling me away...so,i'm stopping my bragging for time being.ciao

chum chum.

2010-03-08T08:53:00.000-08:00

i hear the ticking of the clock and nothing else at this late night.huh! wait! not the ticking alone,there is my heart beating lub-dub..its an abnormal beating i think.why can't i find some synchronised musical elements in it? eh?its not the matter of scrub.but something really happened these days...something was scrubbing my head,mind,and everything.is it possible for just a phone call to make our mind get distracted.yes,it can..if they are persons important to u.it puts u and ur mind in a melancholy.it makes u look like haggard and woebegone!sh***.i don't have much reason for my run down.but the desp..the depression u call,can affect anyone.so beware!

i was getting ready to start with probability.by then, i felt like blogging.why did i keep on searching for my notepad? my fountain pen? for spitting those craps in my blog?i would rather fancy it in a way like this..may be in some more time ,it would have been over flown with certain peculiar emotions.why is this friendship so dear to us?why we cry for it when we are dashed by someone? why do we weep silently in our heart sitting in a corner of our wonderful room,thinking of the beautiful memories he/she left with us.why we recall those unforgettable chit chats with out omitting a single word and how come we regain the guts to say "hey dude,that chick is mine?".i thought of my friends..my school and the 12 years which i'm like a bouncing ball..thinking of it again and

again that..when'll i reach at the peak point from

bouncing back and fallin into the great ditches.

i had spend there..persons who influenced me in my path..the obstacles..potions that helped me towards success,that succored me to swallow the blurred images and the rest of the craps..what was the link towards those lamed pictures that got framed in my mind?i wanna spit it right here..@ the moment..for my sake.:).

but before that,i have to thank the ultimate power for giving some osume friends when i'm out in some hell and mess.yes!! thanking you my lord..i dedicate this to all friends especially nitin,darsha,vishak,krate,malu,mathews,and vicky.:).

here is the entire roll...

darsha- refered as my best friend.17 yrs we spend together,we slept together,ate together,late night studies we had(actually we were gossiping),we were in the same class,we sat in the same bench and took the very next seat except when u went to vaithi's sanskrit class and i was left with other mallu students.even in troubles too we were one!!! we know how much we hated those history classes..how hard we studied the geography lessons plunging our legs into cold water for hours and hours...how much studious we were for jayalekshmi teacher's bio class..and how we hated those fucking maths hws,:P.from 7th onwards aathira and lechu were also there in our bench.na?i still miss our ground(not the school ground).we played together with 4 or 5 other kids too.we had our own gang,prakash,ambi,sowmya,vishwesh,vishak.we played red letter,syrup,dinner,kallan and police,cricket,marathil thotal pidichuda,sat,cards..more and more..and i can't forget our cycle race and athapookalam..:P.i dunno what i would have been if u weren't there.thanx for being my best friend. how ever we managed to patch up those small small dust ups.about 95% of my secrets are revealed to you.na?

krate:the atheist.my best pal from some of the

social networking sites.he was there with me with a hanky full of love and care to dry my tears.he was there with me when ever i felt lonely and so on..hats off to ya.

vishak,ashwathy and lekshmi priya: studied in the same school,we dint kno each other till they shuffled us and put us into E div.10th was an osume year with lots of fun.these ppl where my best friends from 10th onwards.bt sorry achu and lp..i couldn't keep in touch.i remember those combine study hours in our home and JD's sleeping ent classes..laaif.:P.and vishak..u are the person who is responsible for this outcome...:)

anand: aka kannan.my sweet brother.elder or younger??? :P.you say.the musician,the violinist.voice o'ivano.and here goes the list.you will be my brother for the rest of my life too dear.u along with nitish made me ROFL!!!.that grape juice..:P.many more stories are there in my head..i still cherish my 10th remembering u both.:).our school day and all..it was osume!!!

vidya: my cousin .nakinu oru licence-um illa.:P

nitin: i just know him since one or two months.but we both managed to meet every weekends except some saturdays and sundays.you are also there in my best friend's list bro.:). loyolite,the draw well,who enjoys partying with friends..hangout freak..if i go on with this there are about hundred labels for him.a perfect human who has experienced both the bitterness and sweetness of the love life.:) who is ready to help his friends any time."allelum avashyam varumbo evanoke kanu".:P
jayakrishnan::P my first crush..can i name this as a crush???
sreekanth,finny,arun:my close friends i will say.sreekanth-the cs freak,the mast**** of robotics,the singer.finny-the studious,who has certain panomial reasons for each and every thing..each time when i seek his advice,i take it to my heart and say "ok..sure..i'll trty my level best to keep away from the lap".but its of no use...:).sorry dear.::(
mathews:again comes another loyolite..my best buddy..my fighting friend..:)

prolok: yes,iitian,my good friend..
prathik:the person who is responsible for the creation of this blog directly or indirectly.the atheist.the stephanian.

ajai,sujith,abish,sarath,abish,sankaran,shifas,vishak,binup,deepu,anoop chetn: chetnmar of sct!!!

deepal,anan,sanku,suraj,kichu,asif chetan,nikhil,rahul..: cetians!!! most o'em are from royal Mex.:P

nidhin,sarath,aneesh,vishwajith,nandu,ajay mohan,fazil,jothish,ashok,pappan,karthick,shameer,jithin,and the entire A div.......actually i'm asking u dudes,are you my friends or are we enemies?:P.they made me laugh quite a num of tyms and made me close to tears also.bt still i like em.school life was great..:)

amritha,saranya,prabha,remya,venkatalekshmi,greeshma,rugma,revathy,chethana,sruthy,vidya,varsha,parvathy,lekshmi,sneha,maya,gopi krishna,arunya,nisha,dhanya,ananya,veena: i do remember u girls..we had a lotta fun together and some ego clashes and our group song..i can't forget.:P

vibhu,ajay,harish kamal,sachin,aswin vijay,arif,mandan vishak,chandu,arun.s.k,deepu krishna,karthick,anand,...i recall mathew sir's class..ajai,chandu,vishnu,hari..where always the late comers.office time!!!missing u so much.still i'm waiting for aug 15th to have a get together! :P
TBC...

juxtaposition-part II

2010-02-24T07:16:00.000-08:00

right back @ ya,after a looong gap.:P. Hmm... needed a Lotta time to fill in all the craps and i spend too much time for equalizing those personal stuffs by counterpoising something which i thought as a positive.And at last it left me in a semi stable condition which requires some more symmetry for a perfect matching.this month came up with some nice friends,meetings,hangout,some twists, some fucking series exams..there results,some dust up,inter collegiate fest and bla bla bla.and an important event.."my 19th b'day".
i never ever categorized my friends into such and such groups like chat friends,orkut friends and all.i regarded all o'em as my good friends.but it hurts when u realize that they din't do the same. duh!..hows it possible for u people?you might have some convincing answers with you.but i'm still obscure about it.:(.may be my pride and prejudice that's not allowing my mind to accept the fact.

how is my sauce writing skills?

at 11am we 5 were chit chatting around some table at ambrosia.we were on the trot for ordering the eatable things...chicken wings,fruit cups,pizza,burger,coke,milk shake,red bull,sandwich and more and more items..one thing which i still hate about amb is the time we have to spend after ordering those kinda fried stuffs..but,this time we managed to utilize it by sauce writing.:P.and had to stop it suddenly when we saw the bearer rolling his two bull's eyes over me.:(.laaf.but,it was an osume treat:).we just enjoyed it.we had fun around 3pm.
and by then,it was time for us to leave.we scrolled outta amb and went to the parking area to see gb's car.and some interesting funny things happened there...(i'm not revealing it now) till now i was explaining this to every one a handful o'times.ah...my fate!! i believe all the things that happens around me..its my fault..i know that.. no more chance of making me a laughing stock.but this one was really !@#%^&p;;.:P.:D

it was a cool Feb morning.after some chota chota wrangling, we 4 met up in amb.the party was just OK and not an osume thing for me coz of the reason that we haven't prepared for a nice treat after the dust up.
after that we directed to our college.the programs were so nicely boring. but our game stall was scoring a decent amount o'money from poor guys.err..those money goes directly to the magazine fund and not into our pocket.duh!
wtf!!! a girl and a boy can't be best friends???they don't have the right to take the near seats and have a nice talk? i'm not getting u people.screw the college.!!screw the society,screw the people.i busted out with anger and frustration and was close to tears,when some college mates were prying into my personal matters.i do have the heart for telling anyone the fact that i'm committed, if i am in a relationship.i don't find any indecency in falling in love with someone.but..what the heck i should say if i'm not??out in the hell and mess,i thought of throwing s*** on em.ah..my mind was totally disturbed..even now also,i haven't able to bring it back to the normal plight.go people..go gossiping.what is the need of convincing u jackasses? withal the feminine love, i feel shame on you snoopy girls for creating such stupid pejorative scenes!!!

THE KITE RUNNER

2010-02-08T20:32:00.000-08:00

"when you kill a man,you steal a life.you steal his wife's right to a husband,rob his children of a father,when you tell a lie,you steal someone's right to the truth.when you cheat,you steal the right to fairness.there is no act more than stealing.a man who takes what's not to take,be it a life.i spit on such a man.and if i ever cross paths with him,god help him."

i was flipping the pages o'"the kite runners" in a hurry to find those sentences which pulled me aside to read this book. someday before,it gave a big bang on ma head, when i was accessing some social networking sites.it was posted by GB,one o'my friend in the FB wall.at that moment,i dint even know it was from a book.i googled the quote to find out what it was.and the result i got was "the kite runner" by khaled hosseini.i can't explain u people,what is more in that.but its just amazing.a quote which depicts the truism of one's life.i searched the book in the entire library..but i couldn't find it.i was in an agog to read that book.i thought of buying that book.but thanx to the superpower which i believe.it was with ma friend vikky.at the day i got the book,i skipped the pages again and again. from the front, back and from the middle too.laaf..u call such a situation in which u aint able to find something u want so badly..so i dropped my intension and continued with my reading thinking o'the time i wasted in searching the quote.i turned the next page o'the KR.ran my eyes over the entire page and got struck somewhere.i yelled u know? i was flushing with pleasure. at last,i got it!!! i was on the trot coz i couldn't resist showing the quote to everyone.here i should stop my bragging i think.i have a lot to blog..but right now,i'm not in the mood to blog anymore.ciao Tc.

juxtaposition

2009-12-29T08:00:00.000-08:00

"even this late it happens

the coming of love,the coming of light.

you wake and the candles are lit as if by themselves,

stars gather,dreams pour into your pillows,

sending up warm bonquets of air.

even this late the bones of the body shine

and tomorrow's dust flares into breath."

this is something, which strike my mind when I had a glance through this month's RD.i just wanted to copy paste these lines here in ma blog coz it depicts my plight. I am fucked up. I am here to give a snappy come back to all the buddies who asked me why am i single?yday night too one o’ma chat friends asked me the same que...i dint have anything to say. Was just keeping mum. For the whole night I searched for an answer. Before getting into this I want to ask you people, whether being single is such a nerdy thing?.Recently,someone or the other figured out that I’m nerdy. and u know the reason y I’m addressed like that?the reason is that I’m doing my prof course in a women’s college.well..You can call me anything a nerd, slapstick, goofy, or any thing you want.i don't care. I believe my self that I’m not that much single minded and indifferent. I want to reveal here something. I have been in love with someone. I have experienced the bitterness and sweetness of love. I know falling in love with someone is such a great thing, that is beyond, the words can explain. But think of a situation in which one is in serious love and the other person doing for time pass. and another situation in which you are in love with someone madly and the other one is in love with someone else.WTH!!It is very vexing! Break up is always painful. I have enjoyed the breeze of love and the flavor of being single.and now,bcoz of the reason that I’m single and not yet involved in any relationship, I would rather fancy that ,I love being single. I have no other choice other than this one. Again, may be coz of, feminism was over ruling my head ,and may be because o’I had convent education or I dint have enough time. As far as I am concerned, there are three things one should have if you are searching for a new relation. First and fore most things is that, you should be good looking. Moreover, the character is only the second thing. then you should find enough time to spend with your gf/bf.neways...sadly, may be thing that,I can’t satisfy these all the 3 criterias enlisted above.true love happens only once in a life. Even when I was fucked by the loneliness and when tears blinked at my eyes, there were someone who gave me helping hand... Than x for the social networking sites for giving such awesome friends.ETARK was oneo’the best buddy I got from the social networking sites. Hats off to ya... :).

This will be a year-end post I think. wishing you people a happy and prosperous new year.ciao:).

HAVING A BLAST ON THE Xmas EVE.

2009-12-25T07:16:00.000-08:00

I was enjoying a busman’s holiday week. No tution, no college,and I was totally free to go anywhere. I love to express this week as a filmy week. Saw quite a number o’hindi, eng & mallu movies. Most o’em was pirated one. :( .Then, hang out with friends were really interesting and funny. I felt like, it was nice to be busy over the trifles. we were having a blast and noooo studying. Which I love. :P.i had a great hankering to watch AVATAR. and luckily we got the tickets and went for the matinee on Tuesday. Reaching there was really tough for me coz the auto rickshaws were on strike and I had to depend on the KSRTC and my own legsL.reaching over there, some seniors asked me to get tickets for em and I had to. then went to amb yday.”cake mela” was going on there. delivered pizza from the pizza corner, then to chowara beach with family. thus the days went. but sadly, I couldn’t pass the Xmas message to any o’ma frnds coz of the fucking mob!gosh!it isn’t working..:(.

Neways, merry Xmas to all once again. ciao.

DECEMBER ENDS…and I’m in an agog to see the new sun rise.

2009-12-21T00:39:00.000-08:00

The days are gone. It was an unlucky day for me coz we had a plan to watch “AVATAR”. but luckily/unluckily we dint get the tickets. some thing like a sign board was hung in front of the SREE PADMANABHA like “house full”.ah…desp L.so we returned. reaching ma home sitting back in the couch, I felt like I should blog now searched for a topic in ma mind. then came the idea of college tour.bt actually wat should I post about that kodai trip? Just a monkey story? Or the “DJ nite” with out any DJ?ah..something flashed through ma mind. the name of ma blog.”CYNOSURE” seems to be a weird name. it doesn’t match with ma blog..i should change it to some thing like “my scribbling pad” I thought..yes..i’m gonna change the name…

So, the December is gonna end. there are only a few countable days for the new sunrise. its time to take new resolutions,wishes,promises,bla..bla..bla.newyas,the 2009 was an important year 4 me.it gave some awesome friends,memories,etc.withal the ups,there were some downs too.but..except my academics, all went fine I think. its the time I should realize the fact that life is all about fun plus some wailing incidents as worse as a homicide.09 prepared me to face the world and not the hoipolloi.i learnt something from each and every person met, it changed my style,thoughts,attitude,taste and every thing..insight,I realize I have changed a lot. I wanna say “hats off to someone” that I can’t reveal here. I’m hog tied to that ‘someone’s’ philosophy.

I reckon I can do ma best in the coming year. I wish a great peaceful new year and xmas to every one.

college tour

2009-12-20T23:11:00.000-08:00

college life..

2009-12-11T08:03:00.000-08:00

new sem starts....many hopes to come true..

2009-12-08T21:10:00.000-08:00

fourth sem starts....i'm quite ok with it..xpt the AIC hour and humanities..its jst boring..bought some texts and a new bag...(nannakan theerumanichu):P.the very first day we bunked the afternoon session and went ECAP to do lab.now there is an xtra person in ma bench-ANAVUHB.nw we are 5! as asual we enjoyed the day by passing comments and our rotten chalus...nothing much to blog.cya soon.

hoping for a revert

2009-12-07T23:23:00.000-08:00

ye,i'm back to blogging after a long tym...the day wasn't nt at all a gud one 4 me..nt this single day alone..from the day i took engg as ma prof course,the days were'nt colourful as i thought...before getting into the post,i like to inform u guys,it wont be a nice post..i'm fuming.i have lotta reasons..and the maj one is..i had internal lab xm 2day and i dint get the o/p...crying for these silly stuffs may b pathetic 4 u guys..bt..i really did...it may b pathetic..i kno..bt at the moment,i felt like crying and cried.days wer quite stagnant..i'm losinng self confidence,my potential....and every thing..i had.i'm asking to myself" am i studying or fooling around?".i kno,i may be fooling my parents for my enjoyment.right nw i'm searsing 4 a purgatory...my mind is that much messed up with things.wtf!.heavy hearted...in a brew...in an eddy!!:(

"wat did ya got from chatting and social networking sites?"one o'ma frnd asked me...i replied..some gud frndz and nothing else..

bt they cant fetch u marks.isnt it?

yeah..dat may b rite.

so here i can blame the social networking sites for a revamp...oly for a renovation..bt i'm aware o' the fact that,it is me who misused it....wat shld i do for a revertion??lemme think..think..and think.:P

Loveletter

2009-07-27T07:57:00.000-07:00

In our college, the authorities won’t allow us to expatiate outta class during class hours, rather I will say, they won’t allow us to bunk classes. He he. So we (me,sthuthi,deepthi and anju) sat grudgingly inside the s3 ece during the after noon session. The after noon session was quite interesting. first hour we had NA(network analysis).i somehow managed not to fall asleep. Then the next hour we had ssd.we call it “sure supply device” coz its too tough. Even though we work flinty hard, it’s impossible to pass that paper .U should accept the plain truth that I couldn’t resist falling asleep. My eyes were drooling…I wished I had a couple o’ match sticks…for my eyes to rest. The next hour we had NA. We were really getting bored. So we decided to play trick on one o’our classmate AHCRA.she a funny girl with a lot of attitude.so, we stealthily decided to play some hanky panky on her. she liked a guy. We call him “paili”for fun. So I said to my frnds വെ can play some trick on her using him. So വെ( decided to write a chit, a small cute love letter.
“To dear archa,
I L U dear kurangi
From paili”

We wrote it in a small piece o’paper and asked AKIHTRAK who was sitting in a bench next to ours surreptitiously and we started giggling. She passed the chit to archa and said” I dunno the source o’this chit. It came somewhere from the back bench”. Actually I couldn’t resist laughing out loud. I dropped myself down to the bench and started laughing.rofl!!! AHCRA started reading the chit loudly. She was paused at the end.. But we dint expected a reply from her. She wrote in the chit
“Ennale rathri entha varathe cheta”And passed the chit to the back bench. We got it and read. we dint know what to do!

i am in an ectstasy..over powering emotions!!!!

2009-07-26T08:46:00.000-07:00

I tried flinty not to go there with my mom and dad. But she wasn’t supposed to leave me alone.gosh! I wasn’t shoving. But I was thinking whether why she wanted me to go there. I was not at all interested. To be alone in a huge crowd of people, to smile at the unknown face and to wave hands against them. it was really vexing me. At last coz of the pressure over my head I grudgingly agreed.that evening my mom was having a get together.” Milan 2009” the tvm medicos students 1984 batch were celebrating there 25th anniversary.hmm…neways in a lack luster. I put on my new pink frock which I purchased before a month from parthas...And with in 15mnts, I was ready for the party. it was supposed to be held at hotel”udaya samudra”near kovalam.we reached there by 6pm.i thought my father will gimme a chance to drive the car but my mom was quite afraid about me even though he was ready to.hmm…we reached there, when we stepped into the reception, we saw two mallu film actors.”Saikumar” and bindhu panicker”.they were about to shove off I think. Being a lame duck, I strolled through the marble floor with em. It was a 5 star resort. It had almost all the facilities swimming pool filled with blue colored clear water,

clutch,accelaration,break........

2009-07-23T06:35:00.000-07:00

The morning session was quite ok.sitting inside the s3 ECE,hearing what teachers teach ,taking down lecture notes,sleeping,passing comments, joking,….the day went off. In the evening, I had driving class. Some one should gimme Nobel Prize for peace for listening to venu uncle’s rotten chalus.huh! Rather; its better to say “ikkili akiyal polum chiri varilla”.he he.i usually love the driving class. But today what happened is, uncle taught how to apply brake, acceleration and clutch.see...i had great raring towards driving till yesterday. but today when he taught us how to apply all these crap, my mind was like”* %^&!@#@#%(&*)”.errrr.”When we start the engine, we have to apply the clutch fully…then the acc, then slowly release the clutch…bla bla bla”.at the very first moment when I heard this, I thought I wont go with this. I was very much confused and my hankering for driving changed to something we call “hate”. I was striving a lot for the first 5mnts.later on I managed to drive easily. I was rasping. Uncle was lol seeing my facial expressions and gestures….but my mind was murmuring that I can do this. But I dunno what would be my condition when he teaches me how to change the gear!!!Damn! Not any more to write...Adios! Amigos!

back to college!!

2009-07-22T09:21:00.000-07:00

The day was quite boring. I was not at all interested to get entangled inside the 4 walls o'my s3 EC after the wonderful 5 day vacation. A tight schedule…lotta home works, rough records...Bla bla...ahh...i thought o’ running outta the class. Our maths mam was like a super fast xpress.i felt pissed about her teaching.errrr…then for a relief, I got a call from one o’my close friend who is studying NIT calicut.we had a conversation for abt 15mnts which was really funny. Through out the day I was giving publicity to my blog.hehe.hmm…neways…I am not getting enough time to blog.sryy…adios! Amigos!

its time to enjoy!!!!

2009-07-21T08:32:00.000-07:00

From Friday onwards I have been enjoying my life…coz we only have to go to college on wed. I saw a couple o’movies.harry potter and the order of phoenix and another eng movie, a family entertainer. Studies were not getting done.bt we were enjoying ourselves. I and one o’my best friend darsha went ambrozia.it was the first time I went there. We both ate one sandwich and came back. I liked that place a lot. It’s a small shop with a lot of eatables. Both veg and non veg.i wanted to buy hot dog.bt coz o’ma friend is a veg I ordered for veg sandwich. it wasn’t that much good as I thought.bt I’ll say it was just ok. I couldn’t get a snap of my ambrosia visit coz we hadn’t had a cam.damn! Last week I got a book to read “the sittaford mystery” by Agatha Christie. It’s the first time I am reading one o’her book. It took 3 days to finish the first 6 chapters. I liked the way o’narration.as the name implies, it has a lotta suspense. I dint have patience so I went through the last chapter quickly to know who the actual murderer was!!

I am ready for blogging.......

2009-07-20T01:49:00.000-07:00

I am ready for blogging….
Hey friends….I am only a beginner in the blogging world and the birth o’this blog is after getting inspiration from one o’ma chat friend prathik aka prejudic3 aka pjc.i am very much thankful to him coz…o’a lotta reasons that I cant compress it in one or 2 sentences.pls excuse if there are any mistakes coz as I said earlier I am just a beginner and my language wont be that much awesome.neways…I am glad to give a try on this.
The days were quite stagnant for me. I mean...I was off these days. I dunno what happened to me actually. Rather I would say something was brewing inside my mind that I cant reveal in this blog.its somewhat confidential…hey...Don’t get confused.u’ll be more clear what was actually inside my mind when u go through this blog.i think soo..
My friends say that I have changed a lot in a month. Yeah, May be… I know, I have changed a lot.coz…recently I switched to western music from the melodious eastern styles and become a lil bit philosopher. My philosophy was vexing almost all o’my friends.neways I was quite happy with that.u know something?? A few days before, I thought o’being an atheist.damn! But none o’ma friends supported this even though my parents weren’t bothered about it. I mean, they were least bothered about these stuffs and later on I realized I won’t go with this. So I dropped it with a lil bit frown. Then... coming back to western music, I just started hearing these stuffs. I mean it has been only one month I got hooked to these songs. I liked it much more than the eastern. I was crazy about westlife, BSB and linkin park. The first song I heard was “my love”. It was such a haunting song. I’ll say it’s awesome. Before going through this blog I expect every one to hear this.
“Where the skies are blue see u once again….my love”
“Where the fields are green see u once again my love”
It is soo touhing.it is haunting me every now and then
The last Sunday after “shikku” sir’s tuition we (I mean me and my friends) went to archies.it is a nice place to have chit chat. He he. It is in the heart o’the TVM city. A small ice-cream parlour.it was my 2nd visit to archies.i went last year there with my college friends. We hadn’t had enough money.but...Thinking o’having fun there we all set out. We took 2 autorikshaws and By 1pm we reached there. We were really hungry. We started reading the menu and ordered 3 nutty chaos, one cold duck, one faluda, one butter scotch. I liked to have nutty chaos. After some time, the bearer bought the ice-cream in front o’us.we all had a lotta fun there. We were giggling and passing comments, lol hearing the rotten jokes from the other friends and all. As I said we dint have enough budjet, we dint buy much costlier things. Our intention was only to fill our tummy. Then we had photo session with our wonderful ice-creams…it was quite funny. I finished mine within minutes and looked around thinking I’ll get a chance to eat someother's.he he. Then…rohini,one o'my college mate. She actually doesn’t like icecreams.so she asked me whether I can give a hand on that. I and jisha agreed and finished the huge cold duck within seconds.rofl! it was a nice one than mine.ahh...My tummy was really overstuffed. I dint thought what should I say when I reach home. I was sure that my parents wont scold me.coz they new me well. It was 2’oclock.we galloped.coz we were late by 1:30 hrs.u can imagine what would be the situation in our home.na?hm....

Our hang out pictures!!!!

Nutty chaos, butter scotch, faluda and cold duck….yummy!!!!
all o' u should try this at least once.Adiaos.amigos!!(Copycat…he he)