These Ripples and Waves

Just a Minute

2025-08-15T12:40:00.002-04:00

Oh, hey! It's been a minute, I suppose.

Life is busier than ever, and yet, I often still find the itch to write. I have files upon files floating around on my computer of documents consisting of nothing more than rambling words, unedited and unseen stories that maybe one day I'll share with the world.

Maybe.

The last couple years have been amongst some of the hardest of my life, which is saying something, really.

Losing my grandmother wrecked me. Nearly losing my husband destroyed me. Taking over a business exhausted me.

How I did all three at the exact same time is still mind-boggling to me. Throw in my car breaking down numerous times in the middle of winter hours from home, managing our son and his schedule when he's missing days and weeks of school, my husband's nearly year recovery, our home and animals, our employees, my grandmother's estate and funeral and just LIFE in general - yeah, mind boggling is the only way I can describe it.

BUT

I did it. I might be a little super-human, honestly. But I did it. And I did it alone.

No one showed up for me. No one. I guess that's a little eye opening, isn't it?

I will never doubt my self-worth again. I will never find myself shoved into a box that I barely fit into in order to take up less space in whatever room I may be in. I will never settle for less because I think I might not have earned it. Damnit, I earned it.

If my overall life has not been enough of a proof, the neglect, abuse and overall trauma that I have experienced: the fact that I have overcome SO MUCH in the last few years is enough alone.

I am so strong and competent and able. I am hard-working and can achieve anything I set my mind to. What I have to say and my opinions matter. Where I've been and the story I have to tell is important.

I have evolved and my life will reflect my evolution from this moment on.

Thirty-One

2018-10-23T11:23:00.000-04:00

My birthday has become a point of reflection for me. Every year I seem to find the time to spend a few minutes alone looking back at the past year and pondering the one of the future.

I appreciate this time, these precious moments where I can be lost in my own thoughts.

My thirties haven't been so bad, really. This must be the age of not giving a flying $#!@ because I find myself caring less and less about the trivial stuff every day.

I'm rediscovering and reinventing myself based on who I truly am, not who the world wants me to be, and I have loved it. I'm chasing joy, chasing home, and finding it easier to find all the time.

Will all of my thirties be this way?

I doubt it.

But I'll be damned if I don't try to make it the best it can be.

Henry's 7 Year Questionnaire

2018-07-29T11:38:00.001-04:00

What is your name?

Henry.

How old are you?

Seven!

What is your favorite color?

I'll have to think about that.

What is your favorite food?

Umm..hmm... probably chicken croissants.

What is your favorite thing to do with Mommy?

Go for a walk at Stillwater Prairie, probably.

What is your favorite thing to do with Daddy?

Either go to his work or hang out in the garage.

What is your favorite toy?

Who knows out of the THOUSANDS of them.

What do you want to be when you grow up?

Definitely a vet, but only for cats.

What is your favorite book?

Who knows, there's too many of them!

What's your favorite thing in the entire world?

Doggy blanket, or maybe my new tablet.

What is your favorite TV show or movie?

Probably The Lion in My Living Room.

Who is your best friend?

Maddy.

The Itch

2018-07-24T21:54:00.001-04:00

I cannot tell you when I fell in love with words.

Whether it be when I was a child and the familiar stories told from golden-bound books poured into my imagination, or when I was a teenager and my diaries were filled with pages of angst and anger and a longing to find love and belonging. Or now, as an adult, when words can be the place that I feel most vulnerable and powerful but also whole.

I do not know when but I do know that if ignored, that itch, that need, eventually builds and bubbles up from inside of me until it's all I can do not to find my fingers on keys or pencil on paper until the words spill like ink, spreading across the page in a sudden flow.

Is this what it means to be a writer?

Or is the internal struggle to control the tongue, to force the unspoken into existence when the mind says "QUIET!" all too loud, are these words only a form of overflow? Like lava that cannot be contained a moment more, spewing from the deep only to wreak havoc, to carve a new way. Its beauty destructive and terrifying but also necessary.

I am home here. Safe.

This is love.

Love More

2018-04-28T08:40:00.001-04:00

When I met my husband and he asked me to marry him 6 short months after meeting, I didn't think I could love anyone more.

Two months later we walked down the aisle together and said 'I Do' and began our lives together growing together, laughing and loving through the everyday mundane together, and I really didn't think I could love anyone more.

Fast forward to a tiny heartbeat filling a room as our eyes filled with tears, the tiny fluttering on the screen a miracle all on it's own - now I was SURE I couldn't love anyone more.

That tiny heartbeat developed into a rolling, kicking extension of my body and I had never loved my OWN body more - but then it was born, and I held my son in my arms and my heart burst because I had never, ever loved anyone more.

He grew and his mommy and daddy did too. There were good times and there were bad times. There were easy times and there were hard times (really, really hard times, if we are going to be honest). Now I sit and I look at my life, surrounded by my boys, and I understand why we are not given an infinite amount of time to love. Given an eternity my heart would not be able to withstand this extraordinary love that constantly grows.

I see my son develop daily into his very own person with quirks and attitude, likes and dislikes, that are unique only to him and my heart melts. Curled up on the couch with a stuffed cat tucked into his arm, a fuzzy vest that hangs to his knees his favorite piece of clothing, his hat turned inside out, and watching a YouTube video about kid hacks and inventions - I couldn't love a boy more.

I look back at the 10 years that I've spent with my husband and sit in awe at how far we have come. We have seen heartache together. We have seen the worst of each other. We have lost all humility and have fallen vulnerable at one another's feet more than once. And while there were times I wasn't sure I loved him like I did when we met, I realized over time that the love wasn't lost, but more the patience and the understanding of humanity and all that it brings to the table. The fight was worth it because a love like this is worth it. As we grow older together, raising this boy together that we couldn't love more, I realize too that I only love him more. His quirks. His books on tape. His obsession with Tesla and Jeopardy. His cheesy jokes, constant picking, and his desires in life - I couldn't love anyone more.

Everyday, it seems, I only love more.

Bark

2018-04-08T13:50:00.000-04:00

I've reflected a lot on my life over the years. Yesterday I ran my fingers over bark, comparing the texture from one tree to the next, and I thought: life is not much different. We all weather it differently, some of us with tough exteriors, rough skin and callouses, while others appear gentle and smooth and less...worn. There's always more than what meets the eye, and what we hold inside is always more precious than what's visible. Always.

I'm sitting sideline, trying my best not to interfere too much, as I watch my son grow and develop into this person all his own. Quirks, humor, motivation, and annoyances that he did not get from me or his father - they are unique to him alone, and I love exploring these parts of him, probing deeper into his individualism. I am broken as a mother that wishes to keep this perfect human to myself for all of my life with the knowledge that he is quickly gaining independence that steps further and further away from his parents.

I will always love him and he will always know that I do. Perhaps this is the one thing he needs to know as he evolves: that he is loved, and cherished, and always has a place to call home. As he stands against the storms of life, his bark will form. I have no control over that texture, it is all his own, but I hope I can influence what he holds precious inside.

Henry's 6 Year Questionnaire

2017-07-23T16:04:00.000-04:00

What is your name?
Henry
How old are you?
*holds up six fingers* Six!
What is your favorite color?
Hmm...every color.
Why every color?
I don't know, it's just too hard to choose one.
What is your favorite food?
*shakes his box of Gobstoppers* These.
But what's your favorite thing to eat, real food, not candy?
Breadsticks. Actually, no, anything that tastes like oranges. But not oranges. Can you ask me what my favorite candy is?
Sure, what is your favorite candy?
*shakes his box of Gobstoppers again* These!
What is your favorite thing to do with Mommy?
Umm...like we used to go to Stillwater Prairie a lot, so that.
So hiking and exploring?
Yeah, I love that.
What is your favorite thing to do with Daddy?
Do that blanket thing where I put his blanket in his legs and I sit in it.

What is your favorite toy?
Let me go decide. *goes upstairs for ten minutes* Okay, I've decided: ALL of my toys but some. Cause there's some toys up here that I don't really play with a lot. Like this merry-go-round, I don't really play with that because it doesn't have any horses and I don't think a merry-go-round is really a merry-go-round without any horses! What do you want to be when you grow up?
Hmm...hmm...*looks around, thinking for a few minutes* I want to be like the Wild Kratts because did you KNOW that their job is actually what they do on TV? They look around for animals AND discover new ones. Oh, and I want to be a vet. But only a cat vet, so a vet only cats can come to.
What is your favorite book?
You do not like this book and I'm already potty trained but I really like that Elmo bathroom potty train book. I love that one. If you ask me what my favorite thing in the entire world is, I can tell you that!
Okay, what's your favorite thing in the entire world?
Doggy blankie, and maybe you and daddy. Maybe.
What is your favorite TV show?
I'll have to search around on the TV to figure that out...or I'll just think. Every show, well not every show, just like kid shows.
Who is your best friend?
I already know that but I can probably never play with them and they might never be able to come over but Maddy...and Gabe.

Crayon Snowflake Gift Exchange

2016-12-21T00:00:00.000-05:00

One of the exciting things about having a school-aged child is all of the little gifts that we get to put together for his classmates. I know it sounds very Martha-Stewart but I absolutely LOVE creating little things to give away.

When I received the flyer saying that Henry's class was going to have a Christmas gift exchange in order to share in the spirit of the holiday, I was super excited. I immediately started brainstorming and together we came up with this idea: snowflake crayons!

Making snowflake crayons is really quite simple. Find a silicone mold that you really love, obviously in this case we used snowflakes.

Find some old broken crayons or buy some new - unwrap of paper completely and then put them into the mold, being sure not to overfill so it doesn't spill over. This is when you can have the most fun. Henry and I really enjoyed mixing different color combinations and seeing how they turned out. We came to find that adding a little piece of white or cream created our absolute favorite crayons because i stuck out just so much.

Bake at 250 degrees until completely melted and then remove and let them cool completely before removing them. The more intricate designs were a little harder to remove, but most of them came out pretty easily.

Paired with a small coloring page (CG, Henry's favorite of course) and a few other small trinkets and you have the perfect little gift to give away. Making 18 to share was little work at all and we had a ton of fun doing it!

Be sure to share your crayon creations if you decide to make some!

Let it Snow, Let it Snow

2016-12-19T00:00:00.000-05:00

We got our first real snow this past week and Henry and I were more than excited to get the opportunity to play.

In this house we do snow, and we do snow all. day. long.

I'm sad that the temp has been dropping so low that we haven't had any opportunity to get out lately, but I'm sure we'll have more opportunities through out the winter months. In the mean-time, enjoy these photos of my little snow-boy. Tell me, what is your favorite thing to do in the snow? Isn't it so magical and lovely?

The Easiest (last minute) Cookies Ever

2016-12-17T00:00:00.000-05:00

I spent a good portion of my Saturday making the fluffiest sour cream cookies for our work cookie exchange this week. Henry and I mixed and blended and chilled and rolled and cut and baked and iced for hours on end. They were gorgeous and delicious too, you can find the recipe here.

Someone(s), however, has been eating those cookies all week and come Thursday, I found myself looking at a small little plate of maybe eight cookies. I was in a bind with very little time and I really didn't want to be the flop of our cookie exchange.

Now typically I like to share some made-from-the-heart, fresh-baked goodies. Handmade and homemade is 100% my style. But with work and school and everything else in between, I just could not make the time.

Cue the Hershey-drop cookies and the easy-peesy savior of my cookie dilemma. Seriously the easy save-the-day cookie recipes that I could come up with:

1) Purchase your favorite break and bake sugar cookie dough and a bag of Hershey kisses.

2) Bake your cookies according to the package.

3) Unwrap and plop one of those delicious cookies right into the middle of a hot cookie and enjoy.

Couldn't get any easier, right? I plated them with a few extra Hershey kisses and now they're all ready to go. The best part? It took me less than a total of 30 minutes. You really can't beat that in the realm of cookies!!

Do you have any super simple go to cookie recipes when you're in a pinch?

Fluffy Old-Fashioned Sour Cream Cookies

2016-12-15T21:43:00.001-05:00

If there's one type of cookie that Henry likes for us to roll up our sleeves and make together, it's any kind of cut-out cookie. Real talk though: what kid doesn't like rolling out dough and picking out different fun shapes to cut cookies that they then get to decorate? I mean, what's not to love?

I recently found this recipe on Pinterest for old-fashioned sour cream cookies and we have already made it four times in the last month. It's that good. Plus side is that it's not super complicated and I swear these big, fluffy cookies are a no-fail, we haven't had ONE turn out wrong. They last a good while and they're perfect for fun personalized gifts this holiday season.

Ingredients:

5-1/2 cups flour
1 teaspoon baking soda
1/2 teaspoon salt
1 cup sour cream, room temperature
1 cup butter, softened
2 cups sugar
2 eggs
1 teaspoon vanilla

I'm going to try to simplify the recipe but if you want detailed instructions, check out the link above.

1.) Mix the dry ingredients in one bowl and the wet ingredients in another then slowly mix the two together. The dough will be super sticky and will likely have to be mixed by hand towards the end.

2) Separate dough in two parts, flatten and wrap in saran wrap and chill for 1-2 hours.

3) Roll out on a WELL floured surface to about 1/4" thick. If your dough sticks, add more flour. Flour your cutters, flour your rolling pin....just add flour. ;)

4) Bake at 350 degrees for about 8-10 minutes. If you want them to be super fluffy and soft, make sure you don't over bake them. Ours were just barely brown on the bottom and you can bake a few and decide how long you need to bake yours based on your shapes and such by how long the first batch takes.

5) Cool and then top with your favorite icing or glaze. We tend to stick to good old fashioned powdered sugar with a little milk and almond extract. It hardens up and is the perfect amount of sweetness to pair with the big, fluffy cookies.

6) Eat, share, and enjoy!!

I'd love to hear about you and your littles favorite recipe to make together!

Friday Five

2016-12-09T17:58:00.000-05:00

Five things I've loved this week:

1. Snow, home, and the sparkle of Christmas lights.

2. Purple filled with hints of red and pink. Proof that beauty can hide until you take the initiative to look deep.

3. Homemade gifts that are completely unique and carry with them a part of me.

4. Innocence in a too-fast growing boy when he sleeps. My heart skips a beat.

5. A surprise for my husband that I can't wait for him to see.

Easy Chicken Tortilla Soup

2016-12-07T20:29:00.000-05:00

Every great now and then Jeremy can catch lunch together and we typically hit up the soup and salad buffet at Big Boy. I love their veggie soup but on the days that they have tortilla soup, I typically go back for seconds because it is SO good.

It's gotten cold here in Ohio and I haven't felt very well the last few days so this soup was calling my name. I knew it would be pretty simple to come up with something similar so here is my own version.

2 chicken breasts - shredded
4 cans of black beans
1 frozen bag of corn
1 can of diced tomatoes with chiles
1 container of Swanson Mexican broth
1 package of taco/fajita seasoning

Mix all ingredients until warm.

I've made this in a half hour on the stove top or thrown all of my ingredients in the crock pot and let it simmer all day. Most of the time I just throw in a couple of frozen chicken breasts, let it cook, then remove and shred them right before we eat.

We usually have tortilla chips or strips and shredded cheese with ours but any sort of taco topping would be delicious!

Enjoy!

Autumn Fun

2016-11-12T11:54:00.001-05:00

Twenty-Nine

2016-10-23T16:53:00.001-04:00

Twenty-nine; the last year of calling myself a 'twenty-something', and one more year of experience behind me.

Am I older and wiser? Apparently not, as I'm nursing a pounding headache and queasy stomach from one-too-many drinks last night. (Water, Jennifer, water... you should know this by now!)

Consider it my last big toast to what has been a pretty routine year.

The important thing was that I had an absolute blast. I celebrated with so many wonderful friends and we talked and laughed and ate and spent hours together just being. This morning we gathered around my kitchen table and ate the huge breakfast I prepared and I felt full. Completely.

My heart is full.

The next year is already half-planned, half-filled. However, as my favorite band put it so well...

"And all I know is that I still don't know a lot. I don't know how it end, I'm in the middle of this plot."

All in God's plan, God's time.

I am so extremely blessed.

Here's to twenty-nine, getting older, and loving every minute of it.

Our Kindergartener

2016-08-24T20:04:00.001-04:00

My social media feeds have been FULL this week of those back to school pictures and I wasn't ashamed a bit to throw mine right into the mix. We now have a kindergartner, and two days in, he's loving it. I'm so proud of my little man, and so shocked that he is old enough to be in school! I was a little sad dropping him off that first day, but I didn't cry a bit because this boy has got this. I love him so much.

Henry's 5th Birthday Photos - Racing Edition

2016-08-14T09:21:00.001-04:00

I am FINALLY getting around to taking some of Henry's 5 year photos. We wandered out in the rain last night at about 10 p.m. and took these - I had been envisioning them for awhile. Now just to take some good old 'normal' day time photos (and sort through all our vacation photos) and I might just be caught up photography wise.

Just in time for school to start too...

Waning Summer

2016-08-11T20:56:00.000-04:00

Summer is almost gone.

Soon the days will grow shorter and before we know it we'll be pulling out our sweaters and scarves, talking about how much we love fall and sipping on everything pumpkin spice.

I'm right there with you; I love me some fall.

But just like the late summer heat leads into the cooler temperatures of fall, fall leads into winter and that period of time that we all wish for spring to arrive again. It's an endless cycle and one we expect but rarely take the time to learn from.

In life we often find ourselves in seasons of intense heat and pressure, followed by those cooler temps that allow us to love and enjoy everything that surrounds us.

Then there are other seasons that we feel alone and cold and barren and we long for another spring to arrive: for life to seemingly begin again.

Sometimes it's difficult to remember that seasons in our lives will come and go, that there is a cycle, that the bad times don't and won't last forever - and the good times won't either.

As the leaves change into their brilliant oranges and reds and we appreciate the beauty of nature evolving, may we appreciate the beauty of our own lives, their evolution and the fact that nothing lasts forever.

Henry's Curious George Racing Party

2016-07-26T19:09:00.000-04:00

Henry's Five Year Questionnaire

2016-07-26T18:45:00.001-04:00

What is your name?
Henry - H-E-R-Y, wait, I think I forget something.
How old are you?
Five!
What is your favorite color?
Red!
What is your favorite food?
Do you want to know what my favorite things to eat AND drink is? Bug juice and orange pop and sprite.
But what's your favorite thing to eat?
Umm...FISH AND LOBSTER! Cause I remember that I love fish and I love lobster.
What is your favorite thing to do with Mommy?
Reading and cooking and swimming.
What is your favorite thing to do with Daddy?
Play and work on cars and swim.

What is your favorite toy?
My legos... and everything else. I really love to blow bubbles cause I love bubbles. What do you want to be when you grow up?
I don't know yet. Oh! I know what I want to be when I grow up: a hotel keeper!
What is your favorite book?
Mickey book.
What is your favorite TV show?
Curious George!
Who is your best friend?
All of my friends at school, you guys here, and Izabel.

Henry's 5th Birthday Theme

2016-07-03T14:20:00.002-04:00

It's a Curious George racing party!

Boys will be Boys

2016-05-30T19:17:00.004-04:00

Boys will be boys: dirty, curious, and full of life.

End of Year Teacher Gift

2016-05-24T19:24:00.001-04:00

Henry's very last day of preschool is Thursday. I can't believer the year has gone by so fast! I wanted to make his teachers (he has five) a little something as a thank you for the end of the year, but I didn't want to spend a bunch of money either. I found these cute little 'Thanks for helping me grow' labels here and my inspiration ran from there. Here's what you need:

- A container. (I found my at Dollar Tree, five for $1.00!) - Flowers of your choice. - Pinwheel (I got these 2 for $1.00 also at Dollar Tree!) - Soil - Labels - Scrap paper - A popsicle stick or bamboo skewer. Print your labels, pretty them up by gluing them to some pretty scrap paper, and add your flowers and you're good to go! I cute down my pinwheels and skewers so they weren't so tall and taped my label to the stick. Easy, simple and each one cost less than $3.00! You can't beat that for an adorable gift for that perfect teacher!

March Books

2016-04-12T14:02:00.002-04:00

March was a busy reading month for me! Here's what I read:

I guess I liked this book. It wasn't bad so to speak, but I didn't love it. I had to force myself to finish it because I felt like there were a lot of dry 'spots' but overall, it was okay. I would recommend it if you really love mysteries.

I'm not gonna lie, totally did not expect what was coming in this one. It's a good mystery/thriller if that's your thing.

Since they are a trilogy, I'm going to group these three together. I loved The Hunger Games series. There were a few very expected parts, but overall, I loved the story. I am a little late on the bandwagon on this one because well, I always am, but if you're looking for something fun and exciting to get wrapped up in, this is definitely a good series to read. The movies were pretty good too, not gonna lie.

This is re-read for me and I actually finished it the first week of April but I'm grouping it in March because I read MOST of it in March. This it the first book in a series and the first time around I read them all at once. This time I am breaking them up a bit. I loved this book almost as much as I loved it the first time. It's very fairy-tale-ish, if that's your thing.

On the 'to-read' list this month is: Me Before You, The Nightingale, and Room. I can't wait to keep chipping away at my challenge!
What are you guys reading these days?

Easter 2016

2016-03-28T21:07:00.005-04:00