Celestial Cloud

2012-06-28T12:40:00.000+08:00

I never had that recipe of philosophy for a lifetime, i never formulated a fine one. Just that, only now have i realised how a happy smile can lift me up.

Thinking a lot.

2012-06-18T01:51:00.002+08:00

(I have been in deep thought these days. Matters seem to lay their selves in front of me, stimulating my judgement and my frontal lobe. As i browse through the unpublished posts in my blogger dashboard, I read these unfinished lines of my poem. I don't know how it made mevery lonely. I thought so that it was because of the abuse of neglect i did, and the supposed theme of the piece isn't as whole as my mindset before my momentum stopped.)

I might decide to publish this in its unfinished state, So to remind my self that no matter how I started with full enthusiasm , I still struggle on how to finish my work.

'we stare at endless height
though darkness dominates the skies
and the moon stands the only light
to draw the glistening orbs in your eyes

your words sing music to my ears
your touch is warm, dilating my pores
and then breeze began to offer tears
to the grasses of earthly floors

the wind blows to kiss your darling
as i whistle to keep them blowing
how long will you have me waiting
to kiss your lips as they stood watching

dont cover your face with your delicate hair
i wish to see your smile and the lines up there.
But the happy sounds i hear seem to fade away
stay will you and never part by day

tears are flowing from your face
while dew drops fill in little pace
you were lonely, i never knew
tired of love you doubted to be true.

I cuddle, hugged and braced you
in my arms i offer comfort
and counter

Papa's Day

2012-06-17T17:19:00.000+08:00

My father. The Man of the House.

in here my Papa dances, i think he's listening to an old song,or some Avril Lavigne single. Taken when I was 16. My brothers were small, they had transformed quite immense.

My father is a history fanatic. I can still remember the days where he used to tell stories about cradles of civilization. I must admit, I have taken a liking on them. They contributed greatly to my interests. With the easy access to internet in our house, my papa makes a time of his life researching for nuggets of information for his lectures and reconnect new trends in history than skimming on obsolete and dusty old-fashion books in the library.

I think I'm having a flashback... *ripples*

Back when I was a dog, ^*&#@* I mean a child, our parents quarrel all the time. I don't remember why, i think its given that I can't recall them at all. Yet for some reason I thought that they're breaking apart, and my mama jokingly asks me if to whom shall I go with if it happens. I chose my papa. I'm happy it never happened. It turns out my parents were attached to strings of a normal married life. I was young then, and I never figured it out that way. My mama's weakness is a notorious amount of cuddles and kisses from my papa, and I don't know what goes beyond that.

I love my parents! and my siblings! And this cheesy family.

Diana by Princess feat. Nene

2012-06-17T01:11:00.000+08:00

These videos were taken long time ago just before I entered college. The time when we were so obsessed with the gadgets our mom brought from Taiwan. My sister Princess Guenever is a fan of Diana by Paul Anka, and my fourth brother Mark Frederick "Nene" couldn't get the spotlight though knowing the lyrics of the song, so he settled being the back-up dancer. I love my siblings.

My sister Guenever is an aspiring singer and we leave her to her business. In here she sings Two Voices One Song from Barbie & the Diamong Castle. Having no choice because she dominates the television quite often , I am forced to watch the film. Incidently, I like it, the songs especially.

As a matter of fact.

Guenever Isoude Celestial, those names are from royalties in English history and literature, just like her names suggest, she actually acts like one at home. Not doing any household chores and all.

Accent it.

2012-06-08T01:47:00.002+08:00

This is well awesum. knoo what. because, ever since i've sin every 'arry potta film in weege the actors practically spek in british accent, I became well interested in mimicken 'oo they phonate their words. noo this terrific geezer in the video does his chops in 24 accents. woah! it also buggles me why the'er am raspy ones an' sum am fluently delivered with tones revolten frum upper class loike the teachers an' officials. the varitoys in british accents moy yav happened fer the same reason as 'oo filipinos developed different intonations in speaken english an' nativ' tagalog language. the'er am sorts frum upperclass, the ones liven in the farm, the sae side, west, eus, suthe, etc! it fascinates me. accentology. the'er should be a that field of science:) oh! the'er is. I googled it!

Translation Below. . . .

This is very awesome. Know what. Because, ever since I saw Harry Potter films in which the actors practically speak in British accent, i became very interested in mimicking how they phonate their words. Now this terrific man in the video does his thing in 24 accents. Woah!
It also buggles me why there are raspy ones and some are fluently delivered with tones revolting from upper class like the teachers and officials.
The varities in British accents may have happened for the same reason as how Filipinos developed different intonations in speaking English and native Tagalog language. There are sorts from upperclass, the ones living in the farm, the sea side, west, east, south, etc!
It fascinates me. Accentology. There should be a that field of science:) oh! there is. I Googled it!
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Accentology

Try British Accent Translator, Here, Enjoy! http://www.whoohoo.co.uk/

A Poem for the Aging

2012-05-24T02:33:00.002+08:00

(Its funny that my brother pronounced it as a-ging! )

Morning was it when sleepy heads stand on both feet.

And Mother birds come from an all night seek.

The sun spreading light above the mountain peak.

To signal the morning life beat.

I face the mirror bewildered in crooked brows.

Seeing my reflection marked with little roads.

18 years have passed and more years to blame.

How they stole away the fresh porcelain.

The Fountain they say was never true,

Nor the falls that flow as mountain dew.

To bring back the youth that once was mine.

Slowly it fades, with the sands of time.

The smile, the eyes, the lips the moist of skin.

Outnumbered by the dryness of the cells within.

The Heart, it pumps seem an endless task.

My hungry Brain, a lot questions have asked.

We grew tall, lanky and

tired.

Jobless, old and beauty

denied.

Rotten, hag with gauzy

hair.

Trapped, and swimming

in depths of despair.

The little roads are lines of many smiles expressed.

In 18 years to counter moments of depress.

In everyday we lived, and are called mature.

The world breathes, as we become the sweetest manure.

I had myself as inspiration for this poem, for I noticed the gradual aging process in my body, my soul and mind. I thought about Mother Gothel from Tangled, where she can adamantly restore her youthful appearance through Rapunzel's crowning glory, which is blonde. Although enough verbal evidence told me already that I look younger for a college student, I still long to go back to the times where I play in the neighborhood and climb trees (all sorts of trees). *sigh

One Boring Night in the Hospital

2012-05-21T17:07:00.000+08:00

I seriously admit, we hadn't been feeling very well because of the combined desperation to gain scores in the hospital plus the-day-before's lost battle (failure), that means we practically allowed the 400 Php + float away.

Nevertheless.

I'm loving Disney. Its a magnanimous part of my childhood. In tapes and cds we watched Disney films, we virtually aren't deprived of entertainment appropriate our age. A Whole New World is my favorite, and among the duet songs i am very esteemed to sing. haha. I find it very viral. It never misses a repetition once i sing it during class/duty hours.

And I forgot to tell you. We completed our scores already.

Bits of Information

2012-05-21T03:01:00.001+08:00

Now here is something you don't see and read everyday unless your search for it, or if an awesome Facebook page shares it on your homepage:p

According to Givens, there are four major signs that someone is attracted to you -- if you see one, it's a good sign, but if you see all four, it's "compelling evidence" that someone's into you.

1. Lifted shoulders: Biologists call this involuntary movement the "cute response." It reveals a softer, almost child-like side to a person that's meant to let the other person know that you're open to them.

Now that is scary!

2. Pigeon toes: Turning the toes inward is a sign that someone is both attracted and somewhat intimidated by you. They're unconsciously shrinking their body so as to appear less threatening.

3. Palms up: A person who's interested will typically have their palms face up when gesturing or at rest. This act displays openness and vulnerability -- both signs that the person is friendly and approachable.

wala ko di piso.

Now that's SCAAARIER!!!

4. The forehead bow: If a person tips their head slightly forward and looks up at you from under their brow, they're inviting you to come closer. i WILL NOT APPROACH BIEBER!

But there are other major signs too.

5. Dilated pupils: If someone is looking at something or someone they like, their pupils dilate (or get bigger), according to University of Chicago studies. It's a completely involuntary response, one that, says Dr. Eckhard Hess of the university, has nothing to do with the amount of light in a room or even the same part of the nervous system that normally controls this.

6. Feet pointing toward you: "The key to a man's heart isn't his stomach. It's his feet," says Lisa Daily, author of Stop Getting Dumped! All You Need to Know to Make Men Fall Madly in Love With You and Marry 'The One' in 3 Years or Less. "Watch the feet of the person you're attracted to. People who are attracted to each other subconsciously try to 'line up' with the other person. Where the toes point, the heart follows."

Source: http://www.sixwise.com/newsletters/05/06/29/the-top-six-signs-that-someone-is-physically-attracted-to-you.htm

Jessica Sanchez: Pinoy Pride!

2012-05-21T01:33:00.002+08:00

This woman is incredible. She can sing songs in any genre!
Mapa-oldies, RnB, Soul, Rock, Pop, Slow Music, Dance! Lahat! She's a half-blood Pinay. My family has been monitoring her progress in American Idol, glued to the television! We are wishing she'll win the competition!

She had good choices to her songs in AI and made out better renditions. This is one's i liked best:D
Blimey, she's one of the few singers to give justice to the Late Whitney songs:

12 Elements to a Healthy Halo-Halo

2012-05-20T03:55:00.000+08:00

Yeah. Im not a nutritionist or a food expert to post this in my blog, but I did. Might be because of quite overwhelming views I get everyday from some readers who may happen to click on some random feed in Google. I'm not trashing the idea that i belong in results of search engines like Google and Yahoo, obviously in cases that your keys could relate to any contents of my blog. hehe!

I actually made a feature article for our school magazine about our native pampalaming, the halo-halo.
It underwent edits, so some contents won't be published, so I decided to put the other parts here. In my "nurse researcher" mindset, the bulk of information I banged in here were definitely copy-pasted from resource websites. So i don't have intentions for copyright infringement (that's dogmatising) or plagiarism:D

Mixed with Love

Halo-halo(from the Tagalog, literally meaning “mix-mix”)is aconcoction of shaved ice, milk and sweetened fruits. It is a common Filipino delicacy in-demand and craved by anybody who wants to cool their guts and freshen up during the summer season. It is basically composed of sweet preserved beans(red beans, chick peas), coconut meat (macapuno), jackfruit (langka), pounded dried rice (pinipig), sweet yam (ube), cream flan (leche flan), shreds of sweetened plantain (saba), filled with crushed ice, milk and topped with ice cream. If you’re happy finding one cheaper stall beside Lapaz Market, you’ll get delighted with tropical fruits such as mango, species of melon, pineapple with matching tapioca(sago) and jelly (gulaman)and barquillos sitting pretty on top. The dessert is usually served in a tall, clear glass to show off the colorful layers.

Halo-halo maybe likened to Filipino culture. The ice cream in the surface carries its western blend. A composite of eastern culture isunderneath, liesAsian tropical fruits and ingredients that form the bulk of the mixture in rich diversity of colours and flavours. When ice cream coats the rest below as it melts, the whole treat pictures the Filipino culture, embraced, welcoming, creating the sweetest combination and native feeling of home.

Health and Home

Halo-halo is branded as king of Filipino desserts. With its easy preparation in principle, that means you can pile up any fruits as long as they’re edible and you can spoon them each to your mouth before sipping the sweet soup of milk, sugar and melted ice and if lucky, ice cream, that one last passionate act of savouring the dessert. It is homemade easy. Take it as a family bonding time making one whatever the occasion maybe. Explore your likes and imagination, enjoy and make fun by inventing your halo-halo layers with your siblings or parents. Its ingredients are pretty available in your local market, you can even dig up some sweet potato in your backyard. Voila! You can now start your own little halo-halo business. For commoners’ price of 10-15 peso, you can take part with the pleasure. Healthy home plus entrepreneurship equals awesome summer!

A typical Halo-halo already contains ingredients having tantamount of benefits.

1. Watermelon:

This fruit has extremely high water content, approximately 92% making it a choice to quench the inner thirst brought about by the summer heat. The Healing Daily website says that watermelon is highly effective in flushing the colon of toxins by quickly moving through the stomach and taking associated waste with it. Watermelon is also a very concentrated source of the lycopene which is found to be protective against a growing list of cancers. These cancers now include prostate cancer, breast cancer, endometrial cancer, lung cancer and colorectal cancers. Men who enjoyed savouring lycopene-rich foods are 82% less likely to have prostate cancer compared to those consuming the least lycopene-rich foods according to research published by Asia Pacific Journal of Clinical Nutrition (Jian L, Lee AH, et al.).Additionally, the World’s Healthiest Foods website promotes the consumption of watermelon as an anti-inflammatory remedy for better colon health. Watermelon is highly concentrated with powerful antioxidants that attack free radicals, which accumulate in the colon’s lining. Research suggests that fruits fully ripen, almost to the point of spoilage, their antioxidant levels actually increase. Three or more servings of this fruit per day may lower your risk of age-related macular degeneration (ARMD), high blood pressure and erectile dysfunction. Your quiet desperation to juice up your parched life and mitigate your worries of dying from dehydration is now answered.

2. Boiled Sweet Potato:

It is an excellent source of manganese and beta carotene. Consumption of boiled and mashed sweet potatoes has been shown to raise blood levels of vitamin A in children. Boiling sweet potatoes have a more favourable impact on blood sugar regulation and to provide sweet potatoes with a lower glycemic index (GI) value. Scientists conclude that this tuber has anti-inflammatory properties. Being a good source of vitamin C, copper, vitamin B6, and dietary fiber, this healthy root crop can also be a source of iron and potassium. It surely gives us the antioxidant protection that protects our bodies from the ill effects of the scourging heat. Aside from this, the vitamin B6 content of this food helps us have lesser risks for cardiovascular diseases. Who would ever thought that the kamote that we used to know, the one that gets buried below ground and comes out scarred and bruised, could have such immense benefits to the human body?

3. Jackfruit:

It is considered as the largest tree-borne fruit in the world. Aside from the calcium you get from the milk you add to your “halo-halo,” this fruit is also a good source of calcium. Jackfruit is also known to contain anti-ulcer properties which help cure ulcers and digestive disorders. In addition, the presence of high fiber in the jackfruit prevents constipation and helps in smooth bowel movements. It is also a potential source of vitamin C and is rich in phytonutrients such as lignans, isoflavones and saponins which have anti-cancer and anti-aging properties that slow down the degeneration of cells and make the skin look young and supple. For you who is on the trend of losing weight, jackfruit contains few calories and very small amount of fats to prop your ideal waistline.

4. Yam (Ube):

One-fourth cup of this food can give us: 1.5gm fiber, 41 IU of vitamin A, 4mg of vitamin C, 6mcg of folate, 5mg of choline, 5mg of calcium, 6mg of magnesium, and 227mg of potassium. If your emotions ever get too high because of losing a soccer game, the potassium content of yam aids in controlling blood pressure. Yam is a good source of energy, mainly composed of complex carbohydrates and soluble dietary fiber. In addition, dietary fiber helps reduce constipation, decrease bad or "LDL" cholesterol levels by binding to it in the intestines and prevent colon cancer risks by preventing toxic compounds in the food from adhering to colon mucosa. Yum! Yum!

5. Cantaloupe:

The sweetest of all the melons, this juicy and meaty fruit can be part of our halo-halo. Its colour and aroma are very refreshing, summery, tropical and perfect for all seasons treat. Taken alone, it gives you the appetite to eat more of it. The character of melon can relieve heartburn in the stomach, eliminates the acidity of the body and it has healing properties against constipation. Honeydew melon is an excellent source of vitamin A and C, while also being a good source of potassium. Aside from being a brilliant diuretic, honeydew melon contains an anticoagulant called adenosine, which could stop the clotting of blood cells that can lead to stroke or heart disease. Meanwhile, the carotenoid content in this fruit combats the risk of having lung cancer. Other than these, it can contribute vitamin B6, folate, dietary fiber, and vitamin B3 or niacin.

6. Corn:

It takes form of a kernel separated from its cob in halo-halo, you can scoop them one by one so there’s no need to be conscious about the How-You-Eat-Corn Personality Test and just relish in the chewing satisfaction corn can provide. Raw, the corn is an already nutritious food; but once cooked, it unleashes a phenolic compound called ferulic acid, which provides health benefits, such as battling cancer. Corn has been directly mentioned as a food that was important in overall antioxidant protection and a contributing factor in the decreased risk of cardiovascular problems.

7. Coconut:

This robust fruit is rich in dietary fiber which could be an alternative treatment for constipation. Emaciated individuals can find their selves buffed by coconut fruit if they choose to consume it since it is good for building up muscles like coconuters do have. 100 g kernel consists of 354 calories. Much of this comes from the fats and protein. An average size nut weighing 400 g edible meat and water provides almost all the daily-required essential minerals, vitamins, and energy for a medium sized person. The important saturated fatty acid in the coconut is lauric acid. Lauric acid help rise HDL cholesterol levels in the blood which has beneficial effects on the coronary arteries by preventing vessel blockade (atherosclerosis). Its juice can also be a part of halo-halo . The juice is packed with simple sugar, electrolytes, minerals, and enzymes that altogether aid in digestion and metabolism.

8. Mango:

Research has shown antioxidant compounds in mango fruit have been found to protect against colon, breast, leukemia and prostate cancers. The high levels of fiber, pectin and vitamin C help to lower serum cholesterol levels, specifically Low-Density Lipoprotein (the bad stuff) One cup of sliced mangoes supplies 25 percent of the needed daily value of vitamin A, which promotes good eyesight and prevents night blindness and dry eyes. Mangos are a great source of vitamin E and boost immune system by having vitamin A and C plus 25 different carotenoids.

9. Milk:

A common use in preparing halo-halo is evaporated milk. A process called vacuum evaporation removes 60% of water from fresh milk turning it concentrated and packed with nutrients and calories. The denser product is fortified with vitamin A and D. Milk provides calcium, phosphorous, magnesium and protein which are all essential for healthy bone growth and development. Research has shown that people who consume milk are likely to be slimmer than those who do not.

10. Banana:

What we thought could merely stand 5 feet tall when we we’re young could exceedingly reach 26 ft and bear one of the best sources of potassium, an essential mineral for maintaining normal blood pressure and heart function. Since the average banana contains a whopping 467 mg of potassium and only 1 mg of sodium, a banana a day may help to prevent high blood pressure and protect against atherosclerosis, a disease in which fatty plaques form in walls of our arteries. Do not envy the fruit for how long it is, and the tree for how tall it had been, both could offer you a helping hand in your own crisis. Researches have shown that enjoying banana frequently as part of your eating habit can subsequently help your body improve its ability to absorb calcium. So start building better bones with bananas.

11. Ice

Ice in its shaved or crushed form primarily initiates halo-halo’s aim of cooling your nerves and stimulating your thermoreceptors for cold. You can easily lose a little weight by simply drinking cold water according to Douglas Silver Porter who executed the cold water diet. The theory behind it is that when cold water is ingested, the body burns extra calories to heat the water up to a body temperature of 98.6 degrees F. The colder the water, the harder the body works to warm up the water. Say you sip halo-halo’s ice cold mixture, more calories would be burned and more weight would potentially be lost. Plus it doesn’t limit food consumption, so the edible solids are just fitting.

12. 1. Tapioca Pearls:

This colourful ingredient also contributes to the good nutritional profile of halo-halo. The health benefits of tapioca pearls are mainly in the carbohydrates it provides. These small edible marbles add an array of colours to halo-halo that makes it a common symbol presenting the vibrancy of Philippine occasions and fiestas. It is prepared by mixing water with tapioca flour formed in small balls. One cup of dry tapioca pearls contains about 544 calories, 134.8 g of total carbohydrates, 0.3 g of protein and small amounts of two of the B complex vitamins B5 and B9 . There is virtually no fat or cholesterol content in the pearl.

Sources:

http://www.livestrong.com

http://www.vegrecipes4u.com

http://www.nutrition-and-you.com

http://whfoods.org

Happy Mother's Day Mama ko!

2012-05-13T01:20:00.000+08:00

Connie Celestial. My most wonderful mother.

My Mama is worth everything to me and my siblings. I shall never allow that lowly idea to tarnish me again.

I (We) bought Mama two cakes for Mother's Day. Its not that much Mama, We will buy you a big cake with your face on it, and a bouquet of flowers too when we get a job. What matters most is what we feel inside our hearts. That you are our WonderMom! We love you Mama!

My sister's letter to Mama. Haha :D

My Own Sorting

2012-05-12T02:31:00.003+08:00

I found this cute
sorting hat toy in
Booksale and got it for 35 Php.
This once, I took Sorting all by my self,
but I tried it on with Hagrid first. The mini Sorting hat places Hagrid in Griffindor just like
whats in the book, but it keeps telling me I belong in Hufflepuff. Literally, no matter how many times I tried. I keep getting the "H" from the floating dice inside the it.

I used it with the Sorting Hat's voice. Echoing and telling Harry,

"Not Slytherin? Well, if you're sure, better be Griffindor!"

I wish to bring it to school and try it on my classmates!

Concepcion: a Summer Flavor

2012-04-24T03:15:00.001+08:00

Maybe I should start by explaining why Concepcion is worth the go for a summer getaway. But because its past the witching hour, i'd conclude, i ran out of words, or really out of words to describe Concepcion's gifts. I thought, its beyond Superlative!

So, I'd like to post photos of my summer vacacion. The once-upon-my-3years-in-college time where I got no summer class. That means, no shocking midterms and final exams in the next 2 weeks. yeahay!

This the summary of hot, splendid hometown summah! I never got to appreciate them before, certainly I am now.

These photos were taken using my tita's SLR which I admit, I had taken a liking on, forming some sort of emotional attachment because I propel its way to see nature, events, and things very productive and purposely worth.

Yellow Bells along the streets going to Iyang beach resort

Lola.Tita. Tito. Cousins

Lola Suping, some cousins, my brother and a hybrid curly prototype.

Mateo-Josefina siblings and their spouses.

Tita Laar, Nancy and Gracia

The sea is part of me. We sail through it, heading to Sand Bar Island where shifting sand line is found. Never my first time,but the excitement seem new to me.

Toto the sailor man, Ramon the chick boy and Inday Ave RN.

So dare of me to wear sun glasses, mind you, its fashionably cheap. I believe.

The sea is crystalline. Tall man in CON shirt with crafted smile on his face just happy for his singlehood. This is going to be a fun vacacion on your own hometown.

I'm from Concepcion, and I don't even know what island that is in the background! Just get your eyes to see that strand of white sand.

LEVITATION. The act of hovering in air most practiced by wizards.

Friends from Mindoro and Cavite. These Tagalog speaking buddies are very fascinated with Concepcion, experienced a lot of first times and together shared happy memories of friendship.

My cousin Mahal, who I prefer to call Maharot. You see how her eye glimmers with peacock feather hairband to match..

My sister Princess, one of the two ladies in my life. I love her even if she annoys me sometimes. :D

CHOCOLATE CAKE. The brightest thing that ever happened to my family is their ability to make food like this. My titas know how to bake! Mucho Gusto!

Danie and Rejard- My classmates in high school. Me in my huggable shirt, or was it my the shirt? I got to give Danie a single flower from our karo and Rejard displays that smile for an SLR shot.

With Jelle- the conceited, perfectionist and vainest creature I've ever known but amidst all that, she stays TRUE. And yeah! I got hurt when they mention my imperfections. Never mind!

FALLEN STARS. The earth make home to seeds from the evening skies, and there! The Star Gazers are born, budding and blooming.

African Daisy or otherwise known as Gerbera. It comes in different attractive colors. We never take for granted the how sensitive they are, so we cover their stems in straws to keep them sturdy and strong enough to resist the breakage. The church people had tendency of pulling them out from our karo when the blessing is up. I took this picture.

BEAUTY IN BLACK. Not totally black. My cousin Cynara is pretty. Look at those eyes.

Others may complain on the lifeless things I capture whenever I get hold of a camera. But that is photography i think. To seize the moment and capture the beauty in simple things and find their meaning.

PRINCESS. A true princess is truly recognisable in whatever she wears.

Athena, Nina, Akina, Allison and Averil.
Those were Gerbera daisies and other flowers we collect from other karos.

Cher, Jane Ann and my sister Guenever.
The smiles are testaments of a happy childhood.

BEAUTIFUL. A Stargazer illuminates with red Carnations.

BREATH. A flimsy speck of belief to cling on.

SALVATION. He who died in the cross for our sins now rests and watches
us create new ones.

NATURE. An array of beauty and blessing to the people of Concepcion.

She Sells Seashells by the Seashore. Loads of marine life in Sandbar shore, but please let them alone.

in a mini kubo. All smiles for an unlimited soda vacation.

EDITED. increasing the gamma effect. Well. Stunning? I don't regret altering it. The original is below though.

Its nearly 6 o'clock and we left sandbar with a promise. -That we will surely be back again.

Halo-Halo at Aling Nida's No Longer the same without YOU!

2012-04-17T04:22:00.000+08:00

Not really that of Aling Nilda in one of the stalls at Lapaz Market, Iloilo.
(got this from Google). all the same, a perfect Filipino delicacy for the Summer Season.

Last Thursday, or was it? i forgot. No matter. I was walking down Lapaz Market, with second thoughts of going to Booksale for a bit of light reading or JD Restaurant for a hot Lomi snack size, I momentarily paused and stared at the next side of the road, Then I saw Aling Nilda's Halo-Halo stall, and i knew what i wanted.
My mind swam.

I can still remember her smile, her lips inches from her spoon. We had one special order which had barquillos in it, mango tidbits, and macapuno strips. She was smiling. Teasing me because she finds it unusual and a rare occasion for me to spend more than a hundred for a day. She's wrong. If spending meant for food, it goes all the way.

I crossed the road, careful not tripping over the swampy sidewalk. The woman, im not sure if she's Aling Nida was crushing a big ice cube and spoon by spoon, her assistant places their colorful ingredients on bowls lining up. The stall was packed today. I can barely ease my way in, and an old aged woman attempted to share the table with me, but maybe the strange angle of my legs suggested an unwelcoming mood, so she went to the other table. I did really want to feel solitary that moment, just so I can think clearly, and well, concentrate on my eating. These days, I have been starving my self, intentionally, yeah, for every student, or at least for me- its normal especially if you wake up past noon and missed breakfast and lunch, and you feel just great because you wont be spending money for two meals, this time, just one. Yet you compensate by buying a special halo-halo. But its worth 35 Php only. That would be enough to satisfy my need to clean my gut. And successfully, I did after going home, that one was explosive.

This time, i was teasing her.

We shared one bowl, since i cannot afford buying two special servings, and she understands it. That's what I like about her. Very understanding, considerate, gentle and laughter loving. She insisted in having all the mango strips. She took it all away each time i get to scoop them. She really liked seeing me close to annoyance, or when my eye brows meet, and my wrinkles show. But I love her, that's all there ever be even when the last sweetest mango strip melts out of her tongue.

Yeah. i was thinking very deep. My mind was swimming, along with the crushing i did in the impacted ice of my halo-halo. I ate my leche flan first, and realised how lousily made it is. Never mind. Every spoonful i get was like a memory to me. A memory i can easily reminisce everytime i taste camote, mango, ube, langka, corn kernel and milk.

It has been two months since i broke up with her. I never saw her face again. I summed up all the courage to talk to her, but she drew the words out of my mouth for insisting that i had to tell her this instance, thru a text message. There had been no chance for us to talk, we ended in goodbyes, without personal conversations, without any formality. I begin to wonder if the results i see before my eyes could really justify the courage that i thought i was having in the first place. My fear of confronting my problems didnt make any difference at all, to my assumption-that I'm a coward, that I cannot call myself a man.

at the moment when I hear the people beside me chattering and laughing, and i see in their eyes the happiness brought by the sweetness of aling Nida's halo-halo, maybe the crushing i did with my eyes is effective in channeling my emotions down to what i will digest later on, instead of bursting to tears, a sentimental thing that only triggers when no one is watching. And when i get home, i will surely bury myself elsewhere and never move as if I finally met my gravestone.

Here i am, solitary. Focusing on my studies, staying out of anyone's attention. Covert. Family-oriented. Loveless, but never regretted everyday that I had with dada.

Well, maybe, in the future, I will be stepping in Aling Nida's stall again, no longer alone. Who knows.

Missing someone

2012-03-29T00:07:00.000+08:00

"I love it when you cuddle with someone who is

cute and smells good, and then later after you've

said goodbye you can still smell them on your

clothes."

you shall not care

2012-03-25T02:04:00.002+08:00

i am actually wondering if what I'm doing to my life right now.

Trio

2012-03-22T13:02:00.003+08:00

This picture simply explains the trio..

I for my myself, think i have the three of them in me. When it comes to lectures and examinations.

I'm Hermione in history and English (some in BioScience). Too honest knowing everything.

I'm Ron in social sciences and Nursing. Funny, not remembering something.

Im Harry in statistics, algebra, economics. Brave enough to ask for the answers.

Pottermore.com sorted me to Hufflepuff..

This is JK's official online reading site, and i never regretted running out from my biostatistics class just to get the clue, answer it and catch the magic quill. If you want to know more about my experience during the pottemore fever, which basically prompted every potterhead to stay up late,early and face all odds (including the time difference and struggle) just to get included in the lucky 1 million, i'll be posting it real soon. it isnt something to look forward to.

Goodnight Potterheads!

* * *

Having been sorted to Hufflepuff by Pottermore, and as i imagined Minerva McGonagall or JK Rowling placing the sorting hat on top of my head, its a differently one way ticket to self determination. I know that JK describes hufflepuff as kind, honest and where the rest that doesn't fit in Gryffindor, Slytherin and Ravenclaw would undoubtedly belong to.

"You might belong in Hufflepuff,
Where they are just and loyal,
Those patient Hufflepuffs are true,
And unafraid of toil" -The Sorting Hat

eh, kung mahal ko siya?

2012-03-21T23:34:00.002+08:00

indi kami tamad

2012-03-21T01:23:00.004+08:00

Pia May (the Gardener's wife), Grelyn (the Grayscale), Garrett (the Chest tube sensation),
Adrian (the Reposition man), me (the Wizard) and Sheena (the Goddess kuno).

I really don't know how these people ended up together neither to how am i going to spend my entire research experience with them (since we will be conducting our study at our town). Right now, i shouldn't really dwell much about my feelings, but surely, life with these feces, um, i mean faces is fun? okay! No joke!!!

They are my research teammates who happened also to be my group mates in clinical exposures.

These days I have been psychologically and physically occupied by research works! i have been cursing the idea that I haven't had any background about research. We're not taught in high school. I'm tired of condemnation, so i chose to blame myself.

After all it will be a learning experience with all the pressure and panicky vibes in the batch, and the hours of rummaging the published theses in the library, its quite overwhelming and challenging. So,I hope the effort we spent on our work could bring us all to approval of the study. Best of luck.

Im also overwhelmed with my parents support.With all the statistical gathering they conducted at our local health unit, just to complete the background of our study. I never had the chance to get back to Concepcion since January because all the clinical rotations, paper works and additional minor subject requirements are obviously queuing, piling my day and thinning my body . Surprisingly, Im down to one last- Research.

And I really hope that i am on my way to Level 4.

****

I am honestly in love with these people, regardless of their height, color, attitude, preference, race, knowledge and economic status.

Tonight I'm starving

2012-03-18T03:26:00.000+08:00

Your tons of dreams cannot feed you this instance. Staying late, with hyperactive bowel sounds and parasympathetic craving for food. This, is my own hunger game. I am Hungry!

I might be the kind of ordinary-usual-common (in short pathetic) student you ever get crossed the campus, but believe me, the hell I've been messing in the past 2 years, you never gonna let your self trapped in the same position, just because you haven't recollected your reasons to refuse what faith has prepared for you, or your parents-or relatives.

2012-03-16T20:23:00.000+08:00

Okay.. I got bored and was having a runny nose.. and what does a Potterhead do when he's bored.?

Personality Disorder Test

2012-03-05T03:51:00.004+08:00

Personality Disorder Test Results

Paranoid	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	62%
Schizoid	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	74%
Schizotypal	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	66%
Antisocial	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	58%
Borderline	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	58%
Histrionic	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	42%
Narcissistic	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	58%
Avoidant	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	42%
Dependent	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	62%
Obsessive-Compulsive	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	70%

Take Free Personality Disorder Test
Personality Test by SimilarMinds.com

*scores in gray are the average web score

Test Note: Read the descriptions below to avoid misinterpreting test results (for example, the Antisocial classification does not mean you are a loner, it means you tend to be insensitive towards others).

General Note: the validity and reliability of personality disorders are still lacking in strong statistical evidence and clear agreement in the scientific and medical community.

Author Note:I don't think Schizoid personality is a valid disorder (read), some of the smartest people in history were schizoid because they occupied a remote end of the intelligence bell curve. Schizotypal personality can encompass highly original thinkers as well as totally insane people so I think it's a flawed type. I think the remaining eight disorders are generally valid.

Disorder Info

Eccentric Personality Disorders: Paranoid, Schizoid, Schizotypal

Individuals with these disorders often appear odd or peculiar.

Paranoid Personality Disorder - individual generally tends to interpret the actions of others as threatening.

Schizoid Personality Disorder - individual generally detached from social relationships, and shows a narrow range of emotional expression in various social settings.

Schizotypal Personality Disorder - individual is uncomfortable in close relationships, has thought or perceptual distortions, and peculiarities of behavior.

Dramatic Personality Disorders: Antisocial, Borderline, Histrionic, and Narcissistic

Individuals with these disorders have intense, unstable emotions, distorted self-perception, and/or behavioral impulsiveness.

Antisocial Personality Disorder - individual shows a pervasive disregard for, and violation of, the rights of others.

Borderline Personality Disorder - individual shows a generalized pattern of instability in interpersonal relationships, self-image, and observable emotions, and significant impulsiveness.

Histrionic Personality Disorder - individual often displays excessive emotionality and attention seeking in various contexts. They tend to overreact to other people, and are often perceived as shallow and self-centered.

Narcissistic Personality Disorder - individual has a grandiose view of themselves, a need for admiration, and a lack of empathy that begins by early adulthood and is present in various situations. These individuals are very demanding in their relationships.

Anxious Personality Disorders: Avoidant, Dependent, Obsessive-Compulsive

Individuals with these disorders often appear anxious or fearful.

Avoidant Personality Disorder - individual is socially inhibited, feels inadequate, and is oversensitive to criticism

Dependent Personality Disorder - individual shows an extreme need to be taken care of that leads to fears of separation, and passive and clinging behavior.

Obsessive-Compulsive Personality Disorder - individual is preoccupied with orderliness, perfectionism, and control at the expense of flexibility, openness, and efficiency.

***

This is fairly an absolute confirmation to my assumptions..

But i believe this is not totally accurate. You will be very aware of my desperate actions on knowing myself. Undertaking online psychology test and evaluations, is already a big contributing factor to self determination.

I admit i act weird sometimes. You can find me speaking to you in some foreign accent, or put some non suitable ideas in a conversation (esp magic) . But that is who i am, and I never regret being recognised thru that.

I think i will be putting all my self-digested ideas here, for a matter of self awareness and memory keeping.

2012-02-17T23:58:00.003+08:00

ako si Balunggay

Mga toto kag mga inday.
Sa init indi mag sulay-sulay
Kay mga dahon ko nga gahapay-hapay,
Pirdi pa ang inyo nga kasulhay.

Kabalo bala kamo kung sino ako?
Sa kahanginan ako naga disco.
Ako wala gapang tunto
Kag wala bili maskin singko.

Uyon ako sang imo lawas
Sa tiyan indi gid makaluwas
Tungod sa kanamiton sining mga dahon,
Daw matulolo inyu sip-on.

Intsakto ang hambal ni nanay,
nga magkaon sang utan nga balunggay
Ginahanda sa lamesa nga may petchay.
Nagapasadya sa atun panimalay.

Indi kamu magkabalaka.
Kay ako may ara man sang sustansya.
Tungod sg akon nga pagkaberde,
mga sakit inyo mapirde.

Nagapabaskog sang kalawason,
Maskin inyo mga tagipuso-on.
sa sakit indi na maulimpon,
sugod sg nagkapanit sg daw habon.

Ako si Balunggay,
manamit kag puro bitamina.
Gani kamu dali na,
Agud maagum ang kabuhi nga matawhay.

***

--last night i was eating Malunggay (balunggay in hiligaynon), because my conscience tells me to eat healthy, and i remembered something.
--I hurriedly searched my notes.
--I was in junior highschool when i made this..
and its kind of rush and rash.
My classmates pushed me on a contest where i got to characterise a healthy food.
--They used a "malong" and malunggay leaves to dress me up. I was expecting myself to look like a tree, but i turned to be leafy hamper with clothes to dry.Nevertheless, that had been a perfect bonding moment for us, FRIENDS. i remember we won a lot of awards, beating the seniors.

-- i was happy for winning and looking somehow delicious.

Harry Potter Pick Up Lines

2012-02-12T05:50:00.003+08:00

my blog SUCKS!!

'tried Reblogging..(do we call it reblogging if what you did is to Copy then Paste?)

Top 20 HP Pick Up Lines

If you were a Dementor, I’d become a criminal just to get your kiss.

My name may not be Luna, but I sure know how to Lovegood!

I know we’re not in Professor Flitwick’s class, but you still are charming.

My love for you burns like a dying phoenix.

Being without you is like being afflicted with the Cruciatus Curse.

Hagrid’s not the only giant on campus, if you know what I mean.

Your name must be Severus Severus, because you’re making my prince full blood.

Interested in making some magic together? My wand is at the ready.

I must have had some Felix Felicis, because I think I’m about to get lucky.

Without you I feel like I’m in Azkaban and dementors are sucking away my soul.

If I were to look into the Mirror of Erised, I’d see the two of us together.

You are like a bottle of Skele-Gro: You’re growing me a bone.

You must be magical, because I’ve fallen under your spell.

I’m not wearing an invisibility cloak, but do you think I could still visit your restricted section tonight?

I’d like to get my basilisk into your chamber of secrets.

You don’t even have to say “Luminos Maxima” to turn me on!

Have you been using the Petrificus Totalus spell? Because you’ve made me stiff.

Do you want to head to the Shrieking Shack? We could do some shrieking of our own.

Are you using the Confundus charm or are you just naturally mind blowing?

Is that a wand in your pocket, or are you just happy to see me?

***

I used some of the lines on Mayee.. I sort of owl-posted it on her timeline.. She started throwing pick up lines on my wall. That woman challenges me, Im not picking on her, i know its all just for fun, nothing else and less. . . We're friends, and the recent break up with dada (an emotional baggage i haven't expressed here,yet) is simply not the perfect event to get me making out an aftermath love sequel. . with somebody else..

Right now, I will be on an engagement with my family and studies.. Surely, will be long running.

Web Source

Kate Nicole and Guenever Isoude

2012-02-11T02:23:00.018+08:00

When we were younger (sigh), we heard stories about castles, dragons, evil queens, deranged stepsisters, ogres and trolls having no match to love's first kiss. . . .

"lips as red as blood
skin as white as snow
hair as black as ebony"

My PRINCESSES, gentle and innocent..

"Pinay na Pinay lang sila,
walang bahid fiction"

haha!