The Fat Lazy Guy's Log

Brushing Some Dust Off

2016-08-26T00:09:00.001+12:00

Wow.

Hi folks.

It's me here. Well, not the me that used to be here, but a different me. A me that's been thinking about the past, who I was, who I am now, and who I will be.

I've come to a realisation that all of this, what The Fat Lazy Guy's Log was, is important. It may not be important to anyone else, but it's important to who I am today.

With that realisation came a desire to find my old posts and put them back up. My search (roughly 4 weeks of it) turned up nothing. I have one last ditch effort, but my hopes are slim. So, at the very least to put some part of this history to rights, I have gone through the Way Back machine and found some of my posts that remain on there, and copy and pasted them into here.

The permalinks are messed up, but I've adjusted the schedule on them to show when they were originally posted.

I reached my goal weight 6 years ago. Since that time, I have not returned to it. I've been up, I've been down, I've been maybe 10kgs (22lbs) away from it, and then everything turned to shit.

My mum was diagnosed with cancer. She passed away in October last year. This year my dad who I never had much of a relationship died also.

I'm not, so much, returning here as the person I was, or the persona of The Fat Lazy Guy, doesn't fit me anymore. While I still share his struggles, and vulnerabilities, I'm not The Fat Lazy Guy. I'm me.

That's not to say I won't post here more often if I feel the pull. Part of the pull, apart from maintaining the history of this place, is that I'm trying to focus once again on weight loss and health. And because I have reached my goal in the past, I am finding I'm inspired by my previous achievement.

But also, for those who come by here and wonder what happened? Life happened. Insecurities happened. Old coping mechanisms happened. Grief happened. Hope happened.

Catch you on the flippity-dip.

The Fat Lazy Guy

2011-12-01T12:06:00.000+13:00

The Fat Lazy Guy was a blog that existed for 4 years or so. It tracked the progress of Kepa Tairua and his weight loss journey.

Life happens, and things move on. As has this blog and author.

Live long and prosper.

Reset Button

2011-11-28T23:41:00.000+13:00

I'm pushing it.

I hit my goal back in February of 2010. I've been under, but for the majority of it I've been over. Right now, according to the scales at my doctor, I'm at 119.8 kgs, which is 264.1 lbs. The scales they have, though, are on the carpet, and there's a big sticker on them saying "subtract 2 kgs" (so the scales read 221.8 kgs). My scales at home read 117.8 kgs, or 259.6 lbs.

I'm resetting to get back to my goal weight according to my doctor's scales, so by all accounts, I'll need to be 98kgs on my home scale.

Anywho, that's all. I guess I'll start keeping track of it here again.

Off the Rails

2011-08-30T23:38:00.000+12:00

One thing I've noticed is that when I go off the rails and don't eat well or stop working out, it's never because I wanted food. It's because I felt bad about myself and food was my escape. The stress might bring me to thinking those thoughts, but it's those thoughts that are the problem.

The thing that draws me to this (probably obvious to many) conclusion is a thought I've often had while positive. "If you're going to go crazy on food, might as well keep lifting weights and gain muscle." But this NEVER happens. Never. When I start to go off the rails with food, the gym goes out the door too. Which made me realise (again, obvious) it's not about the food.

I mean, I've made this connection before, but yeah, I was mulling that thought over today.

Good Saturday

2011-07-17T23:25:00.000+12:00

Yesterday was a pretty good day as far as doing things goes.

I discovered a new Mexican place because they added me on twitter. California Burrito is located in Auckland City, in a tiny hole in the wall.

They have a similar style to Mexicali Fresh in that they make your burrito in front of you, but you have less control over what they put in. They asked me when I ordered if I wanted it extra spicy, and if I wanted guacamole, and that was it.

While we waited for our burritos, we sipped on some Mexican sodas. I got a pineapple flavoured one, and Daz got a lime one. They reminded me of the cheap sodas you can get in 24 packs at the Warehouse, but with more depth of flavour, and less carbonated (which, surprisingly, was to my liking).

Finally we got our burritos. I ordered a California burrito (as that is my favourite at Mexicali Fresh, and I wanted to compare). Rice, black beans, pico de gallo, guac, sour cream, cheese, and chicken.

Verdict?

Mexicali wins. Hands down. This was a very tasty burrito, and I definitely recommend eating there, but when you go to Mexicali and have a California Burrito there, you'll understand why.

I don't think I've done a post about Mexicali, so that's next on the cards. I don't think the boys have been there, so that's our next trip!

To wrap up the trip into town, Daz took us to a place called Hulucat Tea House for me to try my first Pearl Milk Tea. However, instead of getting the pearls in my milk tea, I got chocolate pudding (Daz recommended it). Chocolate milk tea with chocolate pudding? HOLY CRAP. That was amazing! So delicious, so chocolatey, and such a crazy experience having chunks of chocolate pudding sliding up the straw and into your mouth.

Haha. I thoroughly enjoyed it and look forward to taking Mary there :) And apparently another good place is Momo Tea.

Saturday was a good day.

Weekly Weigh-in: Celebrations All Round!

2010-03-15T23:25:00.000+13:00

I ran Round the Bays today! I did it! Cross that off my milestones list. All I need to do now is walk up Rangitoto Island which I'll definitely be able to do, and that list is completely crossed off!

I can't be bothered writing a big post about it because I am so freaking tired. Here's a short synopsis.

Woke up about 7, called Mary, got ready, ate, left.

Got there about 8:20 ish. Called Mary again 'cause I was feeling a little nervous. And I just really wanted to hear her voice again.

About 8:55 I went to find the toilets. Took me about 15 minutes waiting in line. Got back, the wheelchair athletes went first, and then we left around 9:30.

Main thing I was thinking was, "Don't go fast. Go at your pace." So I did. I saw people overtake me, who I then overtook while they were walking, who then overtook me again when they wanted to run.

I had one moment of greatness, I fake slow-motion jogged through a spray hose and acted like I won the race. People got a good chuckle out of it.

Towards the end I was on a sprint. Sprinted past everyone. I had so much energy left and I got rid of all of it right there.

Me after the race:

So what was my time? I forgot to check, so I don't have the official time, but the time on my stopwatch was 1 hour 6 minutes and 40 odd seconds. But seeing as I didn't cross the start line till about 2 minutes and 30 seconds after the gunshot, I reckon I can take myself down to 1 hour 4 minutes etc. Which is about 4 minutes faster than I did it last week! That last minute training and rest time paid off!

On the drive home, apparently they knew about me and named a road after me:

Ate a chicken kebab and chips for lunch.

Now for weight stuff!

Current weight: 95.6 kgs (210.7 lbs)
Previous weight: 96.9 kgs (213.6 lbs)
Highest weight: 229 kgs (504.8 lbs)
Weight loss this week: 1.3 kgs (2.9 lbs)
Total weight lost: 133.4 kgs (294.1 lbs)

I lost weight... dammit! Haha. I know, you hate me. I should probably just stop doing weekly weigh-ins, huh?

I seriously tried hard to stay the same weight this week.
I tried eating more than normal.
I ate more fruit, more dinner.
I ate more breakfast.
I had the birthday dinner last Sunday, and the cake.
We went out to eat at Bar Comida where I had patatas bravas, spanish meatballs (??) and tarte tatin.
I had 4 cappucinos and 1 hot chocolate.
I had a caramel slice, an afghan, a chocolate chip cookie, a lemon tart, a florentine, and part of an apple slice with cream.
I had homemade Roast Butternut Squash, Corn and Bacon soup (which I'll be posting about soon) with cheesy ciabatta, an ice cream, and a pack of gummy snakes to myself.

I TRIED to stay the same weight. It just didn't work. You all hate me. I'm sorry. And it was such a big loss! I don't want to lose weight! I need to read up on gaining muscle and try do that or something. I just can't be bothered, and I'm trying to save money so I don't want to join a gym or pay a trainer :D

Weekly Weigh-in: GOAL!!!!!!

2010-02-15T23:19:00.000+13:00

Oh my freaking goodness! It happened! I did it! I reached my goal weight!!!!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!! What the hell happens now?!?!?!?! Where's my cheque? Where's my millions of adoring fans? ;)

I actually reached goal about Wednesday. And it was just a matter of staying under. And with last night, it was kind of hard ;) Mexican food, and ice cream and coffee... and fudge, and eggs benedict ;) We went out because it was Valentine's Day! Mary should have a better post about that because I've been busy with this stuff :D

So, okay, here's the numbers!

Current weight: 99.5 kgs (219.4 lbs)
Previous weight: 101.7 kgs (224.2 lbs)
Highest weight: 229 kgs (504.8 lbs)
Weight loss this week: 2.2 kgs (4.8 lbs)
Total weight lost: 129.5 kgs (285.4 lbs)

And for good measure!

To commemorate this moment, I also made a video with all of my progress pics! I started working on it a while ago. Today Mary took some photos of me to finish it off. I finished it before I knew my official weight, but I surpassed my goal.

I suggest going to the youtube link to view it bigger/HQ.

I DID IT!!!!!!! WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!

Overweight and Medium

2010-02-10T23:11:00.000+13:00

So, as the previous post showed, according to BMI I'm no longer obese! WOO FREAKING HOO!

I figured I'd share an interesting BMI stat! At my heaviest weight, 229 kgs / 504.8 lbs, my BMI was 66.6 :D My weight was evil! But a BMI of over 60? That's almost unfathomable to most people. Hell, so is over 500 lbs and over 200 kgs.

I'm not sure of all the classifications, and they're different everywhere, but I believe the highest is super obese? Which is a BMI of 50 or above. I was definitely that. Then I was morbidly obese. Then I was severely obese. Then just regular old obese. Now I'm overweight.

I remember reading Kim's post about becoming overweight, and wanting desperately to be the same. There's something about that word, "obese." It's a rather amorphous word, at least in my mind. It's as if there are no boundaries to it. "Overweight" is very particular about what it describes. There's some safety, at least in the mind, with that.

One other thing. The other day I bought a few singlets/tank tops and boxers in size Medium... the reason I bought them in Medium? They fit! Fan-dabi-dozi! If it weren't for my body issues, I'd buy regular clothes in Medium, I think.

I'm now also only 1.7 kgs away from my goal, or 3.7 lbs! If not this week, perhaps next week I'll get there. I hope this week, though, as Mary will be here!

Weekly Weigh-in: NO LONGER OBESE!

2010-02-07T00:36:00.000+13:00

I've been bitten by the sugar demon. I've been infected by infructosenza. CARBS! AHHH!

I've learned something, though. Sugar to me is like a drug after not having heaps of it for so long. Cakes, ice creams, cookies, juice, soda. Seriously. Today Mary and I were talking about it. We both wanted chocolate or anything sweet soooo badly. It was crazy. I haven't been craving sweet stuff in so long, but it was insane how much I wanted anything sweet. My mind was going through all the things I could eat. When I finally ruled out buying anything, my mind switched to the various things I could make. Sugar destroyed my mind.

But now I'm thinking clearer. No sugar for a while, I think. But damn that caramel slice we walked past looked so good... bah!

Today we went clothes shopping. Well not so much shopping, as trying things on. It was fun :) Well I had fun.

Anyway, weigh-in!

Current weight: 101.7 kgs (224.2 lbs)

Previous weight: 102.3 kgs (225.5 lbs)

Highest weight: 229 kgs (504.8 lbs)

Weight loss this week: 0.6 kgs (1.3 lbs)

Total weight lost: 127.3 kgs (280.6 lbs)

Okay, REALLY didn't expect that. After the mega choc shake, burrito, pizza, caramel chocolate slice, ginger slice, etc. I figured I was heading for a gain.

Btw, you should totally check out Mary's new food blog. It's photos of the stuff she eats (which is pretty much stuff I'm eating too), and they're really good, so check it! It'll make you hungry!

Oh, btw, this probably should have been a milestone, but I forgot/didn't know. 280 lbs is 20 stone. I've lost 20 stone. That doesn't mean much to me, but to the Brits reading it might :)

*edit* Okay, holy crap. I just checked my BMI. 6'1" 224.2 lbs... BMI = 29.6! I'M OVERWEIGHT! HOLY CRAP!!!!! I really am just fat, now! The Fat Lazy Guy is apt! Haha. FREAKING CRAZY!

Okay, that is a milestone. I don't even care if I didn't put it down. I'm stupid for not having put it down earlier. WOO! Definitely sending this in for blogger news on Two Fit Chicks & a Microphone :D

Okay, that's all. Early post. I'm tired. School starts in a couple days. GAH! Do not want to even think about it.

Weekly Weigh-in: Two Hundie

2009-07-13T00:20:00.000+12:00

Saturday was pretty damn awesome. Met at my mate's place, gave him his present (Wanderlei Silva t-shirt :), and waited for everyone before heading to paintball. Paintball was great. I sucked in the first two games, but the last one I really got in my stride. I ended up hitting at least 4 people in the last game. It was so rainy and wet that every time you tried to start running there was no traction so you pretty much just stayed in one spot and got shot :D

Came home, had a shower, and headed back around to my mate's. Played some UFC Undisputed, beat everyone I challenged :D When everyone got there we started drinking, playing pool, talking, listening to some MJ, having a good time. Then we all gathered in the garage for speeches. Me, Aaron and Part said a few words for FTS. And then it was time to eat!

I just had one plate. A piece of steak, some potato salad, a slice of lamb pizza (so delicious), a little fried rice, a little sweet and sour pork. If this were two years ago, I would've had seconds, and then later on in the night some re-eats :D The cake was delicious as well.

Left at about 3 am or so, took Pat, Joy, Mike, Vic and Lisa home. Got home, went to sleep.

Sunday started with sore thighs. REALLY sore thighs. I guess it was from all the paintball running and diving and ducking. The weather wasn't looking the best, and I wasn't feeling it, so I txted Part to say I wasn't going to make Sunday Sports. I knew Max and them were probably gonna watch UFC, and were probably too wasted anyway, and Conrad and them definitely weren't coming. So, yeah.

UFC 100 was amazing, sick, and just... yeah. Awesome. None of my thoughts or predictions came true, but it was still crazy. Bisping getting knocked out cold. GSP doing his thing as normal (which I expected but hoped wouldn't happen), while injured. And Lesnar absolutely dominating Mir. Just crazy.

I tell ya, it's gonna take a special kind of fighter to beat Lesnar. I think Mir has the ability to do it still, but Lesnar has gotten better as well. GSP is unstoppable, it seems. I think I'm more pissed off that other fighters can't beat him than I'm pissed at GSP himself. I REALLY want to see Mike Swick vs GSP though. I'd like to see how GSP would do against Swick's definite reach advantage. So Swick needs to beat Kampmann at UFC 103 :)

Anywho, that's not why you called.

Current weight: 137.7 kgs (303.6 lbs)

Previous weight: 138.4 kgs (305.1 lbs)

Highest weight: 229 kgs (504.8 lbs)

Weight loss this week: 0.7 kgs (1.5 lbs)

Total weight lost: 91.3 kgs (201.2 lbs)

I can't freakin believe it happened this week. I guess the paintball helped, and not eating too much at the birthday helped as well.

200 lbs lost, baby! WOO! Damn. :D

Haha, I don't know what to say. It's a great milestone, but I'm always looking forward. One thing I like about this milestone, I don't have to lose another 100 lbs :D Just another 80 something to get to my final goal. That feels so much easier than the 280 some odd pounds I had to lose when I started this thing.

And, just another 3.7 lbs to lose till I move into the 200s. To no longer have a 3 at the start of my weight in lbs... that's just another step towards my normal :)

In honour of this milestone, I thought I'd chuck up and updated progress pic:

Also, another milestone of mine, I can fit my old favourite jumper again. So that's it for my clothing related milestones for now :D

Oh, a message to Simone and Mary. I'm gonna have to take another week till I'm back to 100%, but if y'all want to start earlier that's all good. But yeah, I think I'll start the C25k next Monday!