A 40 year old Medical Student

Oh how have I've grown...

2017-04-23T18:16:00.000-05:00

It's been almost one year post graduation...And life is GREAT...A lot of hard work, long hours...but, OH, How I've grown...
It was worth every tear shed, every prayer prayed, every moment of greatness, every moment of perceived defeat. When you have a burning passion that cannot be extinguished with no amount of adversity...you know you are on the right path...keep going...don't stop...never give up...

Not, trying to make you believe this was an easy task...it was far from that but is was well worth the struggle. I was just sharing that struggle is a part of life, of success...and do not discount the process, because in that struggle builds character, integrity, strength, and a solid foundation on what you are really made of...My foundation is not made of sand. I refuse to let excuses, circumstances hinder me for achieving that which I believed deep down inside was my destiny, my desire, my hopes, and one of my greatest dreams and achievements...

NOW, this is not the end of this story of triumph...but, ONLY THE BEGINING..THE SKY is THE LIMIT..THE WORLD IS MINE!

NOW, YOU GO LIVE YOUR DREAMS...

Graduation Pictures.....

2016-04-09T10:57:00.000-05:00

Doctor of Medicine...

2016-03-23T13:29:00.000-05:00

It has been a wonderful last couple of weeks...The excitement that brewed about finding out the results Match 2016 was so AWESOME...
I was so glad to have my youngest son here with me to see Match week live...He was here for Spring Break...He opened my messages...especially the one telling us where we were going to live for the next 3 years. The funny part of opening the message on Friday, March 18th is my email was down...OMG...that made the anticipation grow...then finally, I thought let me check the NRMP website...
My son read...we are going to University of Arkansas SW...Family Medicine Resident...A sigh of relief...

So, there you have it...I will earn my Doctor of Medicine degree as of April 30th...and my specialty is Family Medicine!
Selah..

Now, go live your dreams!

#Match2016 #IdidIT #ItisPossible #MDStatus #PUSH

Match 2016...Results are in...

2016-03-15T23:08:00.000-05:00

As thousands of applicants try to sleep the night before the email notification of Match 2016,I'm sure minds are racing, fears are soaring and mixed emotions are apparent. I was somewhat indifferent. Not sure why, but I just wasn't on an emotional roller coaster like I was for Step 1 and Step 2 exams results. I think maybe because those exams were the true stepping stones to getting a residency. I had several dreams that I had matched...and I look to my dreams a lot of times for direction.

So, when the results came in I was on the phone with my good friend and fellow classmate, talking about stuff...she checked her email, and said, "I matched." At that time I was logged on to the NRMP website and didn't see any results posted. Hmmmm....so, I quickly signed into my email...there was an email...the subject line read: Did I Match?...Now, my blood was flowing...I asked her what did her subject line read...lol...it was the same...and I opened it...it said, "Congratulations, you have matched!" I had rehearsed this so many times in my head. I meditated on it...and was pleased to see it manifest. I screamed, jumped around...but, really didn't feel the huge emotions I thought I would feel...

Later that day, I'm out shopping with my youngest son...and it HIT ME...I MATCHED! OMG...I MATCHED! Tears began to roll down my face as I walked through the mall. I couldn't help myself. I was trying to wipe them because I didn't want people to think something was wrong. I just was overcome with emotions. I had such a huge sense of GRATITUDE, THANKFULNESS, and HAPPINESS. For the past 7 1/2 years, I've experienced real life changing situations. However, my determination to complete this had paid off. I made it through. This July I will be a RESIDENT PHYSICIAN. What an amazing journey! ONLY BY THE GRACE OF GOD!

No matter where you are in pursuing your dreams, remember the 40 year old medical student that beat all the odds, that persevered through loss of her husband, legal battles, and doubt of others. Although falling down several times, I never STOPPED BELIEVING. I NEVER DOUBTED that I COULD DO THIS. I BELIEVED IN ME. I BELIEVED IN THE POWER THAT IS WITHIN ME. I am just so thankful that someone gave me the opportunity. And So can you accomplish your dreams...You can do whatever is in your heart to do. Just don't give up...even when you cannot see a way...Ask GOD to show you the way...and He will reveal it step by step...This is a FAITH WALK...Keep walking!

I matched! #Match2016 #WithGodAllThingsArePossible
Now, go live your dreams!

A REAL JOURNEY....

2016-02-29T10:02:00.000-06:00

Good morning Beautiful People...This morning I am reflecting on Family and Friends...

For the past 8 years, I've been on a REAL journey...I haven't been able to make it to a lot of family functions...With taking care of my terminally ill husband (Doctor appointments 5 days/week. I remember one Christmas day he had chemo and we still hosted friends that evening), then losing him to cancer, 7 legal battles intervening in my adoption, raising 2 young men, and in the midst all of this, I was completing my prerequisites for medical school...and now I am on the verge of completing medical school...(‪#‎60moredays‬)...

Can you IMAGINE the AMAZEMENT I FEEL right now?...THIS IS SO HUGE....IT'S BIGGER THAN ME! GOD gave me the strength to continue to move forward at each step...Although it was no easy feat, I never wanted to give up... I just want strength and help to keep going...I had to do this...Put everything on the line...I gave up everything...I only focused on finishing...

Moreover, My Family and Friends have been understanding and have supported me with prayers and encouragement through it all...I haven't been able to make it home for Thanksgiving at my Aunt's house in California in years....I was out of country at school when 2 dear aunts passed away...I missed my cousin's homegoing service, too...I have missed a lot of births, too...I have cousins I need to meet...I missed weddings, too...Medical school does not give time off...It keeps going and going...There's no way you can miss a week...You would be too far behind...

BUT, although I've been absent, consumed medical school...My Family and Friends are coming to my Medical School Graduation...and for that I am forever GRATEFUL...God strategically placed me in the right family...LOVE YOU GUYS!
‪#‎FamilyFirst‬ ‪#‎RealLove‬ ‪#‎RealSupport‬ ‪#‎RealFriends‬ ‪#‎Understanding‬ ‪#‎a40yearoldmedicalstudent‬ ‪#‎WithGodAllThingsarepossible‬ ‪#‎LivingTheDream‬ ‪#‎Itispossible‬ ‪#‎YouCanDoItToo‬ #62moredays ‪#‎MDstatus‬

No matter how challenging your tasks are before you, remember those that truly love and support you will understand the sacrifices you NEED to make in order to accomplish your DREAMS...

Now, go live your DREAMS!

A GREAT PHYSICIAN....

2016-02-11T18:10:00.000-06:00

A very emotional and remarkable day today...I'm into my second week of Neurology clinical rotation...

Today we saw a lot of children with neurological issues, but the one that brought me to tears was a young mother of 5 and her 3 year old son that has been labeled with behavioral problems, developmental and learning disabilities, delayed speech, etc. The child was acting out, screaming, hitting, crying, etc. The mother was so emotional. Her frustration was apparent. With tears rolling down her face, she is now yelling asking for help, asking for answers. It was overwhelming. In her frustration, she said, "forget, I'm leaving. I'll go somewhere else." I begged her to stay. She stated she had been to many doctors, behavioral specialist etc. And no one could help her, no one could tell her what is wrong with her son. She said, "I know something is wrong with him, because none of my other children act like this." Well, today she came to the right office. A neurologist that does not believe in labeling, but treating the patient...

He quotes throughout the day William Osler, "A good physician takes care of the disease. A GREAT physician takes care of the patient with the disease." I'm overjoyed to see he lives up to this. He was able to gain control of the child within 5 minutes and the child sat quietly and followed directions, in which the mother said he has never done before. WOW! But, now she has found a GREAT Physician...I salute Dr. David B. Ross, MD...After the patient left, he turns to me and says, "I'm old school." I LOVE IT!

As you walk your path, you have to make a conscious decision to be there to help, to assist, or hinder. No matter what you decide to do in life, make sure you are there to help, to assist, and/or help resolve issues that are within your realm of expertise. My deepest desire, motivation is to be a GREAT Physician.....I can't wait...77 more days....

No matter what life brings, do not let it steal your GREATNESS!
Now, go live your dreams!

80 days and counting....

2016-02-08T13:15:00.000-06:00

Right now I'm so excited...I received in the mail my cap and gown...I ordered it early...I want to have everything in place for my BIG DAY...Graduation 2016!
I have 80 more days of medical school left and I am on one of my most enjoyable rotations, Neurology. I was very nervous about Neurology
because it was very challenging subject for me during my didactics. So, before the rotation began, I pulled out Step up to Medicine and Step Up to CK to study up.
Not to mention, my preceptor is a Ivy league scholar. He graduated from John Hopkins School of Medicine and finished his residency in Neurology at Harvard University...and a fellowship at University of Miami. So, this guy is super smart right? Well, to my surprise he is one of the most down to earth preceptor I ever had.
I love his approach to teaching and instruction. He's very thought provoking and engaging. I find I excel in environments that foster positive learning
over humiliation and ridicule. I'm at ease and feel more engaged. I am glad I didn't let me hesitation of Neurology stop me from signing up for this
rotation...I always say things will work out...and to this date they have...GLORY TO GOD for that.

I'm approaching my last days of medical school and it is totally AWESOME...Many may not understand or comprehend the magnitude of this great accomplishment is for me. I'm a girl that grew up in South Central Los Angeles, first in family to graduate from college and NOW, I'm 80 days from becoming a Doctor of Medicine. I joke about how a spent a few semesters at Compton Community College, but, that goes to show you that it's not about where you are from it's about how far your dreams can take you... SO, DREAM BIG!

My Timeline:
In 35 days I will be getting an email from Match 2016 notifying me that I have matched into a residency program.
In 39 days, I will find out the name of the residency program I matched into...
In 80 days I will have completed all my requirements for earning my Doctor of Medicine degree, Graduation date of April 30, 2016!
In 103 days is my commencement ceremony...

The next 103 days are what I've been working so hard for the past 8 years...The initial dream of becoming a practicing doctor began June 2008...
and now I'm just days away...

No matter how long it takes, do not give up on your dream. Take one step at a time and before you know it, you will get there.
Now, go live your dreams!

It's A NEW YEAR...I'm making HISTORY!

2016-01-03T12:41:00.000-06:00

It's a new year that will be filled with a lot of wonderful accomplishments. FINALLY, after 8 years (the time it took for completing my prerequisites and med school), I will be graduating from medical school...PRAISE GOD...It was a very exciting and emotional journey. If I had to do it all over again, I would do it in a heartbeat... I remember when I first began my research on pursuing my medical degree, I came across a few blogs that totally disagreed with my feelings...I remember one 40 something man said he would not have pursued it if he knew all the hard work he had to go through to complete medical school...that's unfortunate...I feel the complete opposite. I am overjoyed that I finally made it to the finish line. I accomplished such a momentous feat...Something that will ring in my history for generations to come...THE FIRST DOCTOR IN MY FAMILY...That's real live legacy in the making...

If many of you remember, at the beginning of this journey, I had a lot of opposition from medical school advisors at my local community college (said I was too old), my husband became terminally ill, I had several legal battles from people trying to intervene in my adoption of my sons, I had to complete my volunteer hours, complete my prerequisites and also maintain a "new" normal within my home....It was all very challenging and very rewarding at the same time....I remember my initial fears of organic chemistry...My new found love for cell biology...my bewilderment of microbiology and most of all taking the hardest exams of my life...lol...AND I MADE IT THROUGH THEM ALL SUCCESSFULLY...

Sometimes in life, pursuing a dream can seem insurmountably impossible if you look at all that is needed in order for it to happen...but, if you take one step at a time you will get there...You must seriously look all that is needed to get the dream accomplished, but don't get overwhelmed with the details. Break them down into steps and as you accomplish one step, move on to the next and then you will look back and see the trail of accomplishments you've left behind. You will make it to the finish line...

It's a new year...full of unlocked, untapped potential...go pursue it...unlock your dreams...believe you can do it and go after it, step by step...

Now, go live your dreams.

Residency Interview Trails...Match 2016

2015-12-15T11:28:00.000-06:00

It has been a very exciting Match 2016 interview season...I am so grateful for the opportunity to visit so many
amazing programs. Although we have 45 more days until most programs complete their interviews, I am looking so forward to Match 2016 results in March...
The excitement I'm feeling is so AWESOME. I am at the door of crossing over into my life long dream full of purpose and fulfillment. I am just 135 days away from completing medical school...CAN YOU BELIEVE THAT! I am interviewing for my first job as a practicing physician...How cool is that?

Although this season seems so long, it has gone by so fast...All the early morning flights, rental cars, hotel stays, interview dinners, luncheons, etc have been incredible. If I had this to do all over again, I wouldn't change a thing...Well, maybe some things...but, they are all now water under the bridge. I have to take my end results and make it all work for my good. I have to now be confident in the fact that I did something that most thought would have been impossible at my age, through all the tedious and trying circumstances I overcame. AND I am here. Glory to GOD in the Highest. I found my strength from God Almighty in my weakest times. I found solace in my family and friends. I found refuge in my peers, a bond that can not be broken. Now I'm embarking on the next level of becoming the physician I've dreamed of being..

At this next level, Residency, the unfamiliar is filled with new expectations and greater responsibility, excitement coupled with anxiety, but, most of all ACCOMPLISHMENT and SUCCESS! I did it! AND with all of that I will conquer, I will achieve, I will perform, I will grow into the BEST DOCTOR I was DESTINED to be!

So, as you continue on your journey towards fulfilling your dreams...NOW, that if you continue on that road you will accomplish your goals...
Now, go live your dreams!

Soaring above the CLOUDS...

2015-11-07T18:39:00.001-06:00

As my plane prepared to leave the gate, it started raining. But, we pushed back from the gate and proceeded to taxi to the runway. It began to rain heavier...soon we were on our way....all I could hear was the plane's engine getting louder and louder...the force of the speed building up...then we were off..we ascended...there were some turbulence and the rain continued to fall...We were now in the fog of the clouds...The turbulence increased......it seemed as though we were in the clouds longer than usual...

I wondered how could the pilots see?....how could they navigate? I had to relax and trust that they were trained for these kinds of situations...then soon enough, we broke through the clouds...on the other side of the darkness, rain, turbulence was pure ECSTASY...The Sun was shining bright, the rain had stopped, no more turbulence...just smooth sailing above the clouds...

When life seems dark, rocky or even unbearable, force yourself to relax in knowing that GOD is in control. HE knew your days before there were none. HE KNEW your ending before your beginning...and He promised your latter days shall be GREATER...

SOAR WITH ME ABOVE THE CLOUDS...
Now go live your dreams!

Doctors are Educators

2015-10-06T21:25:00.000-05:00

Today I started my elective in Hematology Oncology, which I have a personal interest. I think this field of medicine is extra delicate. When most patients go see their primary care physician, it's considered preventative care or managing chronic illnesses. However, if you have an appointment with a Heme/Onc it's may be because a diagnostic test was abnormal and further investigation is needed.

What's really concerning me about the doctor patient interaction is the lack of successful communication. Communication is successful when the message intended is received and understood by the receiver. I noticed in some cases of the underserved communities, some patients have no idea why they were referred to a specialist. The were just told that their labs were abnormal and they need to see a specialist. Just imagine the anxiety that could build from this form of communication. The patient has very limited information.

Today, I was interviewing a 62 year old Caribbean Afro male patient and he was under the impression that he was referred to this office because of the lingering pain from a object falling on his foot. I thought to myself, "hmmm, I did not know this was a pain management office, too." However, the truth of his situation was he had an increase in platelets which is called thrombocytosis; also, his hemoglobin and hematocrit were significantly elevated. After the doctor explained this to him, he said he had never heard this before.

I love the way the doctor handle this. He explained to him the results and reassured him that he will received treatment for it. But, first more specific test were needed. You should have seen the look on the patient's face, a sigh of relief, but confusion as well. He was told that a "bone marrow aspiration" was needed. The doctor excused himself from the exam room for a minute. Then I asked the patient did he understand what he was talking about. He said, "I have no idea. I guess this is why I have the pain?" The doctor returned to the room and began to wrap up the visit and asked if there were any questions. The patient said, "no."

I'm learning that I have to, not only listen to what the patient says but, I must look at their body language, facial expression, etc. This is all part of effective communication. It was obvious that he did not understand one word the doctor was saying. So, I interjected and said, "Actually, doctor Mr. X expressed to me that he was not sure of what a bone marrow aspiration was or why he needed it."

Communication is a huge part of effective patient care. I am learning that I cannot only diagnosis and treat; but, I have to make sure those under my care understand and agree with the treatment. After all, it is affecting them.

As you go through your day, interacting with others, pay attention to the nonverbal signs. A lot of misunderstandings can be avoided by slowing down and really making sure the message intended was received and understood.

At the completion of this patient encounter, Mr. X thanked me and said, "we need more doctors like you." Now, that's what this is all about...making a difference one patient at a time! Doctors are Educators....

Now, go live your dreams!

Will your DREAM BLOSSOM or will it die unfulfilled?

2015-10-04T08:17:00.000-05:00

I received a message from one of my blog followers expressing her appreciation of this blog.

"You are very inspiring and I know you will make a great doctor. also want to deposit a small token because you have helped me restore confidence and faith in pursuing my vision of becoming a medical doctor. Thank you so much. I know God will finish what he started in you. Once you receive your medical degree and residency placement don't stop. This is just the beginning of the ministry and purpose God has planned for you. God bless and keep writing :) " I.U.

I really appreciate those kind words. When I first began this journey, I came up against a lot of opposition from the so called "experts", that were suppose to be advising me on the possible path (s) I could take. But, instead they tried to kill my dream. So, out of angry and frustration, I began to write about my journey. I knew if I could encourage, inspire and help people realize that the only walls left standing in your life are those that you chose not to tear down or break through.

Yes, opposition will come, a lot of nay sayers will raise their head. But, you as the carrier of the dream MUST know that the dream can either die unfilled or blossom with full manifestation. I chose the later. I chose to believe in me, my GOD, my support system and I did whatever needed to be done to make it happen. During the early stages, my husband became terminally ill. I chose to reorganize, restructure my plan verses giving up on my plan. I switch to taking prerequisites at night so, that I was able to take him to every doctors appointment during the day. While maintaining a loving and peaceful environment for my children at home. I didn't have time to worry or even consider the walls that were before me. I had to devise a plan to break through them and knock them down.

We live in a big world with endless opportunities...I know the US is one of the most desired countries to live in...But, when I felt the doors were not opening up fast enough for me here...I branched out to see my options outside of US...and it was worth the venture. Ross University School of Medicine on the Island of Dominica gave me my opportunity to manifest my dream. After only 2 short years there, I returned to US to complete my clinical rotations. Sometimes, you have to get outside your comfort zone. Don't let the unknown hinder your pursuit.

My thoughts on this beautiful Sunday morning is, we as a people need each other. We need to share our story, our triumphs, so those coming up behind us will know that they can make it, too. No matter how big the dream, how far off it may seem...If you continue to go after that which is deeply rooted in your heart...a door...a way...a path WILL open up...if you do NOT give up!

I totally believe, "iron sharpens iron, as one man sharpens another." Proverbs 27:17...

Now, Go live your dreams!

My First Residency Interview...BOOKED....

2015-09-17T00:11:00.001-05:00

OMG...WHAT A WONDERFUL FEELING...I got my first interview request just one day after submitting my applications. I am overjoyed....I know this is just a small part in this long process, but it feels good knowing a residency program deemed me worthy enough to request an interview.

Stay Tune....more will unfold....
Thank you Father!

Match 2016 opens tomorrow....

2015-09-14T23:16:00.001-05:00

Will I be able to sleep tonight? Have I dotted my i's and crossed my t's? Have I put together the BEST residency package? Is there anything else I need to do?

I have spent many hours on my residency application and researching each program that I am apply for. I have selected 165 programs. Those that I feel I will fit in perfectly...lol...the truth of the matter..I can fit in any where...The challenge is getting the committee to see that. I can work with old, young, happy, or sad people...but, most importantly, I would like to be in a thriving environment that foster respect and team work. So that I can gain the knowledge I need to be a successful practicing physician and contribute in a meaningful and productive way.

So, wish me luck...think positive thoughts for me...pray that the right door opens and I am able to walk through and obtain a solid foundation which will allow me to grow deep roots and grow branches that will touch and change lives for the good.

Residency 2016...I'm ready to receive that email in March that says, "Congratulations, You've Matched."

After you have done all the necessary preparation, the only thing left is for you to do is BELIEVE. Believe that it ALL is working in your favor...the right door (s) will open and you will live out/in your DESTINY!

Now, go live your dreams!

I'm Here!

2015-09-12T08:59:00.000-05:00

It's September 12, 2015...On Tuesday, Match 2016 opens...I am ready...I have perfected my application, revised my personal statement, I have 8 letters of recommendation, and NOW, I'm READY....

Match season (Residency application time) is the time that 4th year medical students apply for their first job as medical doctors. Although this sounds very exciting and glamorous, it is far from the truth. Well, it is definitely exciting, but not glamorous. This is the time that you demonstrate to prospective employers that you are ready to learn even more and will be a contributing factor to their programs. The time to roll up your sleeves and dig deep, to use all your critical thinking skills, medical knowledge and be able to continue to build on those...You ARE A DOCTOR NOW!

I am currently working in Internal Medicine ICU, which I absolutely LOVE. Every time I'm in this environment no matter how tired I am I am keen and open to learn. Like last night, Friday night, we are dealing with several complicated cases and the Fellow (a fellow is someone that has complete residency and is now specializing is a particular field...ie she is a Pulmonary and Critical Care Specialist) kept saying, "We are saving lives here." ...I replied, "I LOVE IT."

My excitement is that fact that I am able to understand what is going on is SO SWEET. I see my growth.   Last November, I was assigned to the ICU, which was a privilege as a 3 year med student and back then I felt I knew absolutely nothing...But, as I have completed other clerkships, I see how my clinical knowledge has grown. So, now as a 4th year, back in ICU...I am pretty much understanding a lot of what is going on. Working with good fellows/residents that want to teach you is awesome....

The amazing part of all of this is I am a person that always dreamed of becoming a DOCTOR, as a little girl.  I didn't really know how to get here...I didn't have any doctors in my family or even college graduates. I was the first person in my family to graduate from college. And now, at 40+ I will graduate from medical school and begin practicing medicine is ABSOLUTELY AWESOME....

With hard work, dedication and the willingness to step outside your comfort zone the WORLD is YOURS...The journey will not be a piece of cake, but at times it can taste just as SWEET! With tough times comes good times..and if you know this...You can DO THIS!

Now, go live your dreams!

FInalizing Match Application

2015-09-08T11:48:00.001-05:00

It's September already. Match 2016 opens, Sept 15th...This is perhaps the most exciting time for a medical student...For the past 3years, the hard work, the tears cried, the prayers made were not in vain. Match 2016 is the day that I match into MY residency program.

After 4 years of medical school and graduating with a Doctor of Medicine, aka MD, this is the time for our first job as medical doctors. A residency program can last any where from 3 year to 6 years, depending of your specialty. This is the time a novice doctor will be tested, tried and perfected, before they go out into the world alone. So, this is perhaps the most important part of this journey.

I am perfecting my personal statement, tightening up my CV (resume), and obtain all the letter of recommendation from my attending physicians and the most important thing is getting the financing for the application and interviewing process....

With great excitement, I asked myself, "where will I be this time next year? Where is my new home?" I know it's going to be absolutely fabulous. My destiny will lead me to open doors that no man can shut. I will not be denied. It's my time to WALK into DESTINY...I have walked in determination, persistence, dedication, resilience, etc, etc, etc. Those qualities I will always possess...But, to know that 8 years I started on this journey and now...I'm HERE! I can just imagine the feeling I will have when DESTINY speaks...

The amazing thing about it all is that this is just the beginning, a new chapter to be written...Isn't LIFE WONDERFUL...

Always go into new adventures with great expectations...greatness will manifest...higher spiritual awakenings are there...provision is there...infinite power is there...RISE TO THE Occasion...You were made for this time...this season...this hour...Arise...and Walk in Your DESTINY...it is IN US ALL....Arise!

Surgery DONE!

2015-08-20T10:43:00.000-05:00

The past 8 weeks of surgery clerkship has been a topsy-turvy experience...It wasn't because of the material needed to be learned, but the interaction with the surgeons. OMG...I have not been in such a hostile environment since Air Force basic training days....I am glad to say all that is behind me...

The up side of surgery was when I had the opportunity to round with a general surgeon. He was a great guy. I loved to watch his interaction with the patients and surgical staff...Great personality. It goes to show you that you can draw more with honey than with fear and intimidation. Also, it fosters a great work environment and a positive atmosphere for learning. He made every patient feel important even if they were overly EXTRA...He knew how to handle the situation without direct confrontation...WISDOM at work....

So, now I step into the world of exploration...my year of electives....Should be fun, but intense...
I start an elective in community medicine on Monday...Then I begin my Sub-internship in Internal Medicine....Now, this will be heaven for me....I have the pleasure of rounding 6 weeks with Sub-I's in the ICU during my 3rd year core clerkship and learned so much..So, Now, I will be the Sub-I and pray that I can achieve exponential growth. in care for critically ill patients....

This med school life is starting to ROCK for REAL!
#MD2016
#a40yearoldmedicalstudent
#WithGodAllThingsArePossible
#Push
#StayFocused
#DreamsDoComeTrue

As you push through the tough parts of the road on your journey to GREATNESS and DESTINY, know that you shall reap, if you faint not. Don't quit mid stream! The storms that are raging are temporary. The sun will shine again...You MUST see it! You MUST feel it!

Now, go live your dreams!

Passed STEP 2 CS....DONE!

2015-08-12T10:15:00.001-05:00

This morning I received more great news...after waiting 2 months for results...I received the word....I PASSED STEP 2 Clinical Skills exam....

Now, that all the particulars are completed...I can focus on which direction I am going on this path through medical school....

How am I going to SAVE the WORLD? Where am I going to make my mark? Where can I make the most impact? As this journey unfolds, nothing but excitement, joy and great expectations are blooming within me.

As you take a look at what is unfolding before you, know that your future is brighter than your past. Your course in life can be what you desire it to be, when you put in the necessary WORK! Anything worth having is worth going after with your whole heart...

LIVE BIG...DREAM BIG...DO THE WORK........

Now, go live your dreams...
This is a40yearoldmedicalstudent talking directly to you...it can be DONE!
No matter what obstacles are before you!

Another Day of Celebrating...STEP 2 CK Results are IN!

2015-07-29T13:09:00.000-05:00

This wonderful journey to and through medical school as been very eventful. It has been the most challenging, yet rewarding task I have set out to accomplish thus far. I just feel deep down inside that this the beginning of something HUGE, a path that will unfold unlimited possibilities...

This past month has been the most challenging I've experienced in my clerkship experience...but, through perseverance and determination...I made it to the other side of USMLE STEP 2 CK...Sometimes distraction arise, but you have to know that they are just distractions and don't let them stop you...You must be determined to complete what you started.

Now, back to studying...in surgery clerkship...YAY!

USMLE Step 2 K - DONE!

2015-07-11T09:09:00.002-05:00

Yesterday was my day to SMASH Step 2CK...I was ready to get it over with...prior to taking it I was an emotional wreck...but, not really realizing the depth of my inner fears, until after I finished the exam...The week prior to the exam I felt stressed, I had a headache every day....my stomach was in knots...and I have never had such bodily manifestations that were overwhelmingly affecting me like this...I've had many challenging days in my life, which I was able to manage well...

On top of all of this, I put my workout regime on hold until after the exam and that was not a good idea...6 weeks of a sedentary lifestyle allowed the stress to build up and to manifest in my body...the last two days before the exam I had the worst thoracic back pain ever...I was in so much distress and just did not have the time to go see a doctor...to get up out of a chair, my bed felt like someone was stabbing me with a knife...the back spasms emerged out of no where, I don't recall any trauma; but, it felt like someone had hit me across my back with a bat. I did not have a fever. I could take deep breaths without pain...So, I assumed I just slept in the wrong position...but, the odd thing is the back pain began in the middle of the day...when I woke up on Wednesday morning, I did not have them...I took some anti-inflammatory meds but that did not help...I took acetaminophen with little relief...well, it did help my headache...Well, I pushed through all these manifestations and continued to study...The morning of the exam I noticed that I was able to get out of bed without my calculated positioning of my legs and carefully rotation my upper torso. However, I still felt some pain, but on a lower intensity. It was Friday, July 10th, 5 am and I was ready to CONQUER this day! Pain or no pain!

Going into CK, I was more relaxed than on Step 1....I was praying and believing that I did the proper preparation and I would feel good about my performance. So, after 8 hours and 393 questions, I was done....I even had 9 minutes on the clock for a break...As I sat down with the test proctor to sign out...I noticed my back pain was completely gone...I had no limited range of motion, no limited movement at all...I was quite amazed at how I allowed the stress from this exam to affect my body...

As I look back, I was in a panic mode these past 2 weeks...I started my surgery rotation in a very specialize field that I felt was not giving me the diversity I needed to complete my surgery shelf exam...and on top of that I did not have the down time to study for CK...or my surgery shelf exam that I have to do on August 24th...SO, with all this pressure my body was screaming out for help...

Yesterday evening, I was in the spirit of praises to GOD for seeing me through...I could not believe the pressure I was under and now it was gone...I felt FREE..I felt as if a 10 ton weight was lifted off my back...

So, the learning point for this blog is, though trials may come and go...you have to make sure you take care of yourself emotionally, spiritually and physically...never again will I neglect my body....to be a sound Being we must care for our WHOLE BEING and when one part is in deficit the Being does not function as it should...

Now, Go LIVE your Dreams!

3 John 1:2-4
²Beloved, I pray that you may prosper in all things and be in health, just as your soul prospers. ³For I rejoiced greatly when brethren came and testified of the truth that is in you, just as you walk in the truth. ⁴I have no greater joy than to hear that my children walk in truth.

Life altering exam...USMLE Step 2CK

2015-07-09T21:33:00.000-05:00

I am finally here...the night before CK...I really don't know what to think or feel...I've reviewed 3 years worth of material...I've answered over 3300 practice questions...Watched videos from two different sources...and have taken hundreds of pages of notes, not to mention all the note cards made...Praying that I formed the proper synaptic connections that has stored the information in my long term memory and I am able to recall it when needed. It will be a long day...8 am to 5pm....350 questions...Not sure if a café is in the building, I just finished packing my lunch....Chicken breast, baby carrots and a protein drink. I'm trying to decided should I drink water...I know that sounds very strange...but, I can't afford to leave the exam to go to the bathroom...lol...Although, I will get 45 minute break to divide how I see fit...I guess can afford to drink a Gatorade....Normally, when I take my shelf exams which are 4 hrs long and no allotment for breaks...I make sure I do not drink anything that morning going into the exam...

I must say, I am much calmer than I was taking Step 1. I was a real wreck for that one. Perhaps, I've grown. I would hope so and like to think I have. These past years have been trying...challenging...and difficult; to be at the cuff of finishing medical school in approximately 10 months in mind blowing...I am so thankful to GOD and all of YOU that have followed my journey and sent me words of encouragement and well wishes. So, please tomorrow as you go about your day, doing and taking the necessary actions to manifest your dreams....say a PRAY FOR ME...I will need the Divine direction! USMLE Step 2 CK, I'm ready for you....

Job 23:10Amplified Bible (AMP)

¹⁰But He knows the way that I take [He has concern for it, appreciates, and pays attention to it]. When He has tried me, I shall come forth as refined gold [pure and luminous].

Surgery in the midst of Step 2 CK....UGH!

2015-07-05T10:43:00.001-05:00

I know you all are wondering...Hey, where is she? what is she up to? Well, I'm on course to finishing my final year with the same amount of enthusiasm as when I first began this journey...perhaps, I am harboring a great deal of excitement and anticipation, too....I cannot believe how fast time is flying by.

I'm in my last core rotation, surgery, and still prepping for CK...I feel like these two things are my last hurdles I need to jump before Match 2016 opens in September. And they are the BIGGEST, yet....I had planned on being finished with Step 2 by now...but, just wasn't ready...so, I rescheduled my exam until this Friday...I don't think you can every feel ready for these kind of life changing exams...The many hours invested in studying seems like it's never enough...but, the longer you put it off the more likely you will forget the stuff you reviewed in the beginning...So, I'm praying, believing and hoping for a successful experience with CK...

I started surgery at the end of last month and it has been non stop...OMG...I'm working with an orthopedic surgeon that specializes from the elbow down...very specialized. So, most of the day we are examining hand and wrist injuries. I never knew so many people had issues with their hands...from young to not so young...

I chose two fields for surgery: orthopedics and plastics...I didn't get the plastics; but, I was really curious about the new craze of butt injections and wanted to see how it was done by real professionals...Some years ago my sister had a friend that was a plastic surgeon in Laguna Nigel, Ca and when I met him he said, "I can fix your nose." He began to tell me what he would do to improve it...Then I said, "Who said there was something wrong with my nose?" LOL...

My second have of surgery is general surgery....I could just imagine what I will experience there...It will be all fine because I will have finished all major exams and can focus completely on it....

I've always had an interest in orthopedics, especially hip and knee replacement. Knowing several people that have had them, I wanted to see how it's all done...I think I could easily work in orthopedics...I know how to use a screwdriver, mallets and hammers...It's a lot like construction and I use to own a remodeling business. I know how to cut wood, lay tile, etc. So, far hand surgery seems pretty routine...lot of the same injuries: pins and plates needed.

I know one thing, this hand surgery rotation has made me more conscious of my hands and wrists while I'm roller skating...I really need to get some wrist guards...Although I have not fallen in years, but accidents are accidents...

So, looking back over this tedious journey...I'm so glad to share this with you...I decided to share my experience in order to show you that with determination, perseverance, commitment, a never give up attitude, you can accomplish what ever you desire to do. Will you have obstacles? Absolutely! Will there be days of asking, "Lord which way do I go?" Absolutely! But, what most of all you must possess is knowing with your whole heart, every part of your being that this is what and where you are suppose to be and you will let nothing stop you from getting THERE....

Now, go live your dreams!

James 1:5-10New King James Version (NKJV)
⁵If any of you lacks wisdom, let him ask of God, who gives to all liberally and without reproach, and it will be given to him. ⁶But let him ask in faith, with no doubting, for he who doubts is like a wave of the sea driven and tossed by the wind. ⁷For let not that man suppose that he will receive anything from the Lord; ⁸he is a double-minded man, unstable in all his ways.

USMLE Step 2 Prep...

2015-05-26T09:43:00.000-05:00

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In the US, there are three steps in order to become a licensed practicing physician. For the past two weeks, I have started my prep for Step 2. This is usually done at the end of your 3rd year of medical school, after all your core clerkships have been completed. The importance of completing the exam before the fall clerkships is residency season opens in September and you need your scores in order to have a complete application and offers for interviews. The score weigh heavily on if you are offered an interview.

The good part is I feel I've gotten better at taking exams. After every clerkship there is a NBME shelf exam that must be passed. So, this has allowed me to deflate some my anxiety, I suffered from Step 1. I still have yet to get over the hype of all these exams we have to take. They are the most difficult, challenging and nerve racking part of this whole journey. All that you have done leads you to this point. The point of no return. It's a make or break situation...You have to do well...The interesting part of it all is, the exams literally covers every aspect of the past 3 years. Going all the way back to your first day of medical school.

Step 2 is composed of two exam over a two day period. The first part is Clinical Science: applying all you have learned in 12 mocked patient encounters. A 8 hour day, you have no idea what the encounters are. They can be anything from knee pain, back pain, pancreatic cancer, psychosis, pregnancy, domestic violence, pneumonia, etc. You have 15 minutes to conduct the patient interview, to figure out what's wrong and to do a focused physical exam pertaining to what you think the problem is. Then you have 10 minutes to type a flawless patient note. In the patient note, you must at least 3 differential diagnosis in the order of most likely diagnosis, history findings and physical findings. This takes a lot of practice...in the beginning of this journey, it would take me over an hours just to write the patient note...So, you have to be quick on our feet.

Part 2 of the Step is Clinical Knowledge: a 350 question exam that is 8hrs. This is the part that makes you want to cry. The challenging part is decoding each question...I am so amazed at the question writers...they have to be geniuses...How do you ask a question without mentioning the topic while droping the most vague hints? And we are suppose to figure it out. LORD HELP ME...

But, I'm ready....I have waited a life time for this...I will be ready..I will conquer...

So, as you prepare for what you have desired for a life time...go hard...and don't give up.
You will reap if you faint not...Persistence...Diligence...and FAITH!

Now, Go live your dreams!

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Residency 2016...Fund Raising has officially begun..Donate NOW!

2015-05-13T09:15:00.000-05:00

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I am on the verge of making history....as a practicing Physician (first in my family)....I always had the desire to practice medicine in my youth; But, I went a different direction...After graduating from high school at age 16...I joined the US Air Force...and life went on...However, in 2008, the urge to become a doctor came up again. But, this time, I did not ignore it. I decided it was time to live out my dream and actually go for it. I had to complete several classes (15), before I could apply to medical school...which took time....In the midst of this, unfortunately, my husband became gravely ill and passed away, 5 years ago.  It was a real stressful time. But, I was determined to finish what I had started. I had to schedule every aspect of my life, from taking him to chemo and radiation appointments, managing his care, to the managing of the boys, to my volunteering, I was determined. After his passing, I promised him that I would adopted and raise his two sons...Now, some years later, I am in medical school, my oldest is in college and my youngest is in middle school...A very hetic life....

Now, I'm at the door. I can see the end of the tunnel...It's so exciting...I am entering my 4th year of medical school.

In order to practice medicine as a skilled physician, I must complete a residency program. This is a wonderful adventure of 3 to 4 years of pure torture (some say)...however, by the end of the residency, I will be considered an expert in my field of training...

Residency seasons for Match 2016 opens officially September 15, 2015 and ends Februray 2016.    During this time, I am looking to apply to many programs around the US. However, applying for these programs comes with a hefty cost. The approximate price for 275 programs application fees will run approximately $5500. Why so many programs? I will be applying to several different specialities and within those specialities I need to apply to a minimum of 50 programs...Then after I have applied, and the programs that would like a closer look at me, will offer me an in person interview at my expence. A medical student can get up to 20 interviews...however, the average is about 11 interviews... So, that means I would have to fund the trip: travel, housing and transportation.

As with any job interview, each invitation is an honor with such stiff competition and a must to attend in order to be considered. Match 2015 had approx. 25,000 opening with 37,000 applicants...So, the more programs applied the better the chances of matching. Come March 2016, it will be music to my ears to hear, "Congratulations, You've Matched!"

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Birthing A DREAM...Can be so emotional

2015-05-08T09:05:00.002-05:00

Sunday evening I had a 4 hr talk therapy session with my with my dearest friend Lady E, businesswoman, great woman of Faith and Wisdom....She shared with me and I with her our journeys...as tears flowed from the path we took to walk in our destinies...I'm overjoyed to hear and witness how she came from 0...divorced with a DREAM in her heart that was bigger than her reality, with 3 mouths to feed, feeding her 3 children bologna sandwiches everydays, a bucket of a car that her children were so embarrassed of that they would ask her to drop the down the street from school...to starting her first group home....then 1 went 2, 2 to 3, etc...No one around her believed in her but herself...she was now in position to buy her and her children a home, then another, and another, etc...then she went from the bucket to a Maxima...then to a Benz...and then paying CASH for her BENTLEY...She was able to give her children the best education..her daughter was accepted to 3 Ivy leagues: Harvard, Princeton and Yale; graduated from Harvard...As tears flowed, she said, "Joyce, I worked hard, all had was bologna to feed my children...We were on welfare...foodstamps...People would criticized me, but I kept believing I could do it. I provide for my children with no help from their father. The man that told me for years I could never do what I AM doing."

Everyone has a story..some may judge her harshly for driving her big beautiful car around on Sundays on her way to church, taking her luxurious cruises (at time all by herself), but if they only Knew her story...if they only knew the struggles and pain she endured...

I know what it takes to birth a DREAM...even in the midst of lost and bewilderment...Having to take care of my dying husband, a man 6' 4" that went from 210 to 137lbs...Having to take him to EVERY doctors appointment, 10 months of chemo (I remember he even had chemo on Christmas Day during the time we took this picture..see picture below), 59 radiation treatments and dealt with all the side effects the treatment entailed...at the same time in school finishing my prerequisites for med school, having to schedule every aspect of my life, volunteering at Healthcare for the homeless, making sure the boys were straight, 5 years ago he succumbed to cancer on my 40th Birthday. I was left to care for two children ...I was in school full time trying to get accepted medical school...had to fight 7 lawsuits that was trying to intervene on my adoption...all the lies theses "saved" folks told in court was unbelievable...All I had by my side was my mother, the prayers of my family and The Most High God...God stepped in and His Divine Will prevailed.....

Don't judge me for my Bright Smile... My Eternally Optimistic Attitude about LIFE, especially MY LIFE...My LIFE IS FABULOUS ...and it's not about the material things I possess...My Happy, Healthy and Whole sons...because WE went through in Faith believing for brighter days were coming ...Victory Was and IS MINE, OURS...Selah...people comment all the time that, "You look so HAPPY...You HAVE A BRIGHT SMILE"...It's BECAUSE I AM HAPPY...I have The Peace of God...I Have the FAVOR of GOD and man...

R.I.P Mr. D.B...You chose the right ONE...I GOT THIS...‪#‎IGOTTHIS‬ ‪#‎IMDOINGTHIS‬ ‪#‎WithGodAllThingsarepossible‬ ‪#‎WalkbyFaith‬ ‪#‎GREATISHISMERCYTOWARDSME‬ ‪#‎A40YEAROLDMEDICALSTUDENT‬ ‪#‎ImSoEmotional‬