I Need Your Help

2013-02-23T08:40:00.000-06:00

So some of you might remember when I first opened my shop Loved and why I opened it.

If you don't, read my story about suicide and how it has affected my life.

Do you remember the day you received your engagement ring? Every girl does, right? It is supposed to be a very memorable day in any girl's life.

November 15th, 2008 was that day for me.

The day started off with work. Afterwards, a co-worker and I went out to grab a bite to eat. I can remember the exact restaurant we were at and where we were sitting. She was telling me the story of how her boyfriend committed suicide. Not knowing anyone who committed suicide before, I sat and listened to her story. I was completely sadden how someone so young would take their life and how many lives that one person affected. My aunt called when she was telling me about her boyfriend. I didn't want to be rude since she was telling me such a sensitive story. I can always call her later.

I remember going home and taking a nap. I remember my husband came home and woke me up right away with excitement. He had the most beautiful ring.

My first reaction was to send my family a picture. I knew they wouldn't see the picture until the next day since they were three hours behind.

The next day, I woke to a message on my cell phone from my mother. I was waiting to hear a message of excitement from her. Instead, the message wasn't excitement at all.

Photo Credit: Carolyn McNee Photography

Here is my story.

I remember calling my mom and no answer. So I called my grandma because I was a little worried about the message my mom had sent me. Not to mention, I also sent the picture to my grandma. My grandma picked up the phone crying.

Then she told me the news.. my aunt was dead. All she told me was that her heart had stopped. I couldn't believe it. I dropped to the floor in horror. She just called me yesterday! I remember crying to my husband that my aunt was dead.

I ran into our room and locked myself in there.
I didn't want to talk to anyone.
Completely helpless and 2,000 miles away from my family.

I called my cousin. I knew I had nothing to say about her mother's death. I was just hoping she would tell me that it was all a lie. Instead all she said to me was: "She killed herself, Kimmy, she killed herself". Wait.. what?! All grandma told me was the her heart stopped. We sat there in silence. So many questions to ask, but no one is answering. There were no answers.

How could this be so? She just called me yesterday! But I ignored her call, because I thought I could just call her tomorrow. Talk about taking things for granted.. because I never thought that tomorrow would never come. I didn't even check the message she left me because I could call her tomorrow.

She left me a message to say goodbye.

I didn't even listen to the message until after I knew she was already gone.

It was her goodbye. It wasn't fair. I never got to say goodbye. All I did was ignore her phone call. And she was calling to say goodbye. Goodbye forever.

I'm posting this again because I'm doing the Overnight Walk in DC in June.

I need your help to raise money for an awesome cause.

To help me, please visit here to donate.

I really hope you consider it friends even if it's a $1.00. It would be very appreciated.

Thanks for reading.

Lazy Saturday

2013-01-19T13:19:00.000-06:00

A tiny glimpse into our bedroom.

Hope you have a happy lazy Saturday, friends.

Hello Again

2013-01-13T16:06:00.002-06:00

Sigh.. it's been a long time. I hope all is well with you all. I have missed you all and blogging.

We have been super busy to say the least. For those who don't know, we moved from Texas to Washington state. So now we are in the lovely Pacific Northwest.

With all that moving and such, I had no time for blogging :(

But we finally moved into this cozy old house.

I thought I would get you all updated and show you some pictures of our new place. Let's take a trip back to the 1960's, my friends.

Hopefully you will stick around for a little bit while we turn this place into a home.

Here are some sneak peeks on what's to come.

Hope you'll stick around.

The Sasse Life

I Need Your Help

Lazy Saturday

Hello Again