Life In Thirty Days

Sept Day 3: Art Supplies Doodle.

2015-09-04T20:37:00.001-07:00

Day 3: Art Supplies Doodle

I've just made a quick doodle here. My creative juices still aren't really flowing yet. So I doodled a brain, though bubble, pencil, hand, and a notebook.

I feel it's important for me to do this. I'm trying to ignore how bad I am at it and just try to have a good time, and take this 30 days one day at a time. :)

Sept Day 2: You Got This!

2015-09-04T20:35:00.000-07:00

Day 2: You Got This (lettering)

Day 2 is a lettering challenge and the phrase is "You Got This". So, please bear with me. I must have written this a thousand times and I'm still not in love with it.

It's a little sideways. Like I told you at the beginning, bear with me. I hope to get better with time. :)

September - 30 More Days/Day 1

2015-09-01T20:44:00.001-07:00

30 New Days - Sept. Day 1: Teacups

Yay! It's September and that means that (even though some posts were late) I made it through 30 days! So we're shooting for another 30. This particular one comes from Dawn Nicole and is a 30 day lettering and doodle challenge. I lay no claim to being an artist of any sort, but I have always enjoyed playing around with letters and I'm always doodling, though they are no where near even ok in my book.

It seems like a fun challenge, so why not? Please please bear with me. As I say, I'm NO artist and I'm sure some of these will look like they were done by a 3rd grader (and that's probably an insult to the 3rd grader). In 30 days though, it will be over, and we can act like it never happened. :)

The rules for this challenge are that you doodle on the odd days, and letter on the even. Since this is day one, it's gonna be a doodle.

Day 1: Teacups

So, there are my teacups. Show me your doodles!

Day 31: Whatever you'd like

2015-09-01T18:30:00.000-07:00

Day 31: Whatever you like

I just want to post about body confidence today. I do not understand people who have a certain body type that want to promote it into acceptance by putting others down. I try my best to make sure I never shame someone about their body type. They don't seem to return the courtesy. Every day, I see posts on facebook putting my particular body type down by people I consider my friends. This makes me look at them different and hurts my feelings.

Now, allow me to inform you as to my body type. I am about 5'5" and I weigh less than 100 lbs. There is nothing medically wrong with me, I do not have an eating disorder, and yes I eat. Yes I have a thigh gap. Yes, you can see my ribs and my collar bones. But there is still a difference in the look of someone who is naturally skinny and someone who has an eating disorder or a medical condition.

I do not understand how people expect me to not be offended when you grab my wrist and remark on how I need a cheeseburger simply because you can fit your hand around my wrist. I don't appreciate you poking and prodding me to see if you can feel my bones. I'm not allowed to try and fit my hand around your wrist or poke and prod you and tell you that you need to lose weight and lay off the cheeseburgers.

Someone please enlighten me as to why people think that this is an ok way to act? Shouldn't you think that as long as someone is healthy that that is all that matters?

Day 24: 7 Things That Cross Your Mind Alot

2015-08-29T08:30:00.000-07:00

Day 24: 7 Things That Cross Your Mind A Lot

getting my house ready to move into.
My parent's health
my boyfriend
getting a better job
random quotes and song lyrics
wishing I had time to do more of the things I love
all my uncompleted projects

Day 29: A picture of yourself.

2015-08-29T06:45:00.000-07:00

Day 29: A picture of yourself.

For a while, I wasn't sure how personal I wanted to make this blog, and I would have avoided posting things like pictures of me, my name, and other personal details like that. Then, I decided, people aren't going to follow a blog if they don't connect with the person writing it. So here it is, a picture of me. I started to post one of me and my boyfriend but I haven't asked him how he'd feel about that, so this one is just me.

This is me from about this time last year. The boyfriend and I were scouring costume shops for items for his Rorschach cosplay and my female cosplay of the Comedian.

Day 28: What do you wish for at 11:11?

2015-08-29T06:34:00.001-07:00

Day 28: Do You Wish For Anything At 11:11? If so, what?

I can't say that I specifically wait around watching a clock for 11:11, but if I happen to pass by one and notice that's the time, I might wish for something.

Sometimes I wish for a long and happy life with my boyfriend, sometimes I wish for a better job. Sometimes I wish for better health and less stress for my parents. For my dad to get a new kidney, or a new pancreas, or just for his eyes to get better and not get any worse.

What do you wish for at 11:11?

Day 27: A Picture of Your Handwriting.

2015-08-29T06:32:00.000-07:00

Day 27: A picture of your handwriting

I wrote down one of two simple quotes in my normal every day handwriting. I've written in both print and cursive. I'm not a fan of my print, so please excuse it. I've been using cursive predominately since 2nd grade.

And in case you find my handwriting impossible to read, the top quote is from A Death Cab for Cutie Song. "So brown eyes I'll hold you near, 'cause you're the only sound I want to hear. A melody softly soaring though my atmosphere." The second quote I found on tumblr and it says, "Don't ever think you're alone here. We've just been trapped in different hells. And people aren't against you dear, they're just all for themselves." - e.h.

Now show me your handwriting!

Day 26: What are some little things that make you feel warm and fuzzy?

2015-08-29T06:18:00.001-07:00

Day 26: What are some little things that make you feel warm and fuzzy?

I'm an odd bird but you asked so here you go. I love rain. Gentle rain and full on storms. I like candle lit rooms. I like a good book, a warm blanket, and a cup of hot chocolate. I love wild flowers. I like the smell of fresh cut grass. I like walking though the woods, especially in the fall. I like camping and that time of morning where it's still cool and foggy and the fire is smoldering, ready to be built back up. It's peaceful and quiet and I never feel more at home than I do there. I like big giant lazy rivers. I like laying in hammocks. I love laughing with close friends. I love driving though curvy mountain roads in the fall, with all the leaves changing colors.

These are things that make me feel warm and fuzzy. What about you?

Day 25: Who Would You Rather Date?

2015-08-28T20:59:00.000-07:00

Day 25: Would you rather date someone with plain looks and an amazing personality or someone with beautiful looks but a plain personality?

Give me the plain looks and awesome personality any day of the week. Looks are nice, and physical attraction is strong. But what good is that if the person attached to them is as dull as a sign post? Not to mention, looks fade. And then you're left with ok looks and a plain personality.

The guy with plain looks is gonna keep that awesome personality even after the beautiful person's looks are gone. I'll talk the amazing personality any day because I like to listen and to make small little references they have to know to say anything to.

What's your choice?

Day 23: A Letter to Someone. Anyone.

2015-08-28T19:15:00.001-07:00

Day 23: A Letter To Someone. Anyone.

Please allow me to start this letter by saying that I know you love your kid. I get it, I really do. But you have to understand something. You can't shelter them forever. At some point, you have to start letting them do things on their own. Those milestones have marked their success in this life since the first one of their first breath.

You let them learn to hold their head up, crawl, make sounds, walk, talk, use the potty, feed themselves, tie their shoes, ect. Why is it any different to let them go to their first day of school, join their first sports team, drive by their selves, go on their first date, get their first job, graduate, and move off to college? I get that for most single parents, it's an empty nest sort of thing. You've become over-protective because they are your world and then you don't want to let them go because you will be alone.

But you have to let them go. And more importantly, you have to let them make their own mistakes. You must allow them to learn their own lessons. You should be there to support them, to help stand them back up and dust them off when they fall, just as you always have. You have to let them learn and grown and change in all the ways that they must in order to shape the person they will ultimately become.

This also means that you must accept their decisions for their life. When they are young adults (18+) you will have to understand that they are going to go where they want, do what they want, and date who they want. You don't have to be overjoyed with their decisions, but you do have to accept them. If you don't, you're only going to wind up pushing them further away.

Please remember that the soul reason of you raising them was so that they would make responsible and respectable decisions. Trust the lessons you taught them when they were young and let them out into the world. All creatures on this planet do it, after a fashion. Why can't you?

Day 22: What You Wore.

2015-08-28T19:02:00.001-07:00

Day 22: A Picture of What You Wore Today

Thanks to my job, that's no longer my decision on week days. I wear dark blue uniform pants from redkap that are too big ( I have a 22" waist and normally wear a size 0, the smallest they have is a size 2), a light blue work shirt, and a pair of keens that are pretty worn out. Here it is reflected in a yellow truck. Because we don't have mirrors at the shop. Lol

Day 21: Turn Ons & Turn Offs

2015-08-28T08:30:00.000-07:00

Day 21: Turn Ons & Turn Offs

I don't like doing these for some reason. I've never really sat down and written a list. And no judging, remember, to each their own.

Turn ons:

A nice smile, kind eyes, tattoos, mohawks, confidence (not cockiness), good sense of humor, not afraid to have fun, has life together (or at least a job and a plan), willing to compromise.

Turn offs:

lying, no manners, no sense of when or where something is appropriate, bad temper or attitude all the time, constantly negative, cocky, constantly puts down or degrades others, judgmental, close-minded.

That's all I can think of for now. What are your turn ons or turn offs?

Day 20: Concerts you have attended.

2015-08-27T21:20:00.001-07:00

Day 20: Concerts you have attended

I'm going to try to just stick to the major ones. I've been to many many many small local concerts and I couldn't begin to name all of the bands I've seen even if I wanted to. Half of them don't even exist any more.

The first concert I went to was the Summer Slaughter Tour in 2009. It's an all day thing but unfortunately my ex boyfriend (current at the time) decided to try and overdose on skittles so we had to leave. Once you leave, that venue will not let you back in. Stupid rule, I know. Thanks to him, I only got to see about 5 of the 25 bands that were going to be playing.

My next concert was ICP's Bang! Pow! Boom! tour. It was AWESOME. It was December and it was about 20 degrees out. We stood in line for hours even though we already had tickets. Once we got inside, it was great. A local group, the Certified Public Assassins started the show, followed by hed p.e., and then ICP. If you know anything about ICP, you know they are notorious for showering their crowd in Faygo. That's no lie. I got hit by a bottle cap straight from Shaggy 2 Dope. The Faygo was cold and felt awesome after all the body heat of so many people crammed together. However, it was terrible going back out into the 20 degrees weather.

Potluck

The next concert I saw was Potluck, Kung Fu Vampire, and Twizted for the Slaughterhouse Tour. It was great. I got to meet Underrated and One Ton from Potluck, as well as Savzilla and Kung Fu Vampire himself. They are super nice guys and always thankful to sign things for their fans.

Motionless In White

Six Feet Under

After that, it was mostly local groups. My friends had a local band and opened for Cattle Decapitation and Six Feet Under. Unfortunately there was some sort of disagreement with the groups so we only got to see Six Feet Under. The Masquerade here in ATL has 3 stages (Heaven upstairs, Hell downstairs, and Purgatory, downstairs to the left of Hell) and Motionless In White was playing in hell that night, so we got to catch their show as well.

After that, my next show was a birthday gift from my boyfriend. I got to see Roger Waters preform the Wall. This has been on my bucket list, as I was not born lucky enough to be able to see all the members of Pink Floyd preform it together. There are no words for how awesome this was.

Psycho Devilles

Koffin Kats

Next, was some rockabilly groups. Our friends in Atomic Boogie and the McPhereson Struts shared the stage with Hotrod Walt and the Psycho DeVilles and the Koffin Kats. It was a car show and concert in a small bar so we actually got to talk to many of the band members, especially Hot Rod Walt, who is a super nice guy. He is humble and so thankful that people come to see them play. If you ever get the chance, I recommend it.

Last but not least, I got to see Kung Fu Vampire and Twiztid again! I missed Potluck not being here this time, but they brought Kissing Candice, the Damn Dirty Apes, and Davey Suicide who all put on one hell of a show.

Day 19: Where You've Lived

2015-08-27T20:45:00.001-07:00

Day 18: A List Of All The Places You've Lived.

Well, this will be a short list. My family was never really one for moving I suppose. Also, because this is the internet, I am not going to be super specific. I will give you generalized ideas. Sorry for being paranoid. :-/

I was born and lived in a three story log cabin until I was six. It sat on a hill behind the gas station that my parents owned and operated. It is in Ranger, Ga. They sold the store and we moved.

Number two was a one bedroom apartment above my aunt and uncle's workshop. We lived here for roughly one year. It's across the county, in Plainville.

Next, we moved back across the county to help my grandfather with his farm. We lived in a three bedroom brick house with plenty of yard for my brother and I to play in. We lived here for about 8 years. During this time, my brother graduated high school and moved into a college dorm. We left here because the recession hit and my parents lost everything, including the house.

Timing was ok I suppose because we moved into the city with my grandmother. It turned out to be a dual purpose move. We had a place to go (she had a 3 bedroom house) and we were also able to care for her, as she was developing Alzheimer's and dementia very badly.

I am currently still at this address but I will be leaving soon. My parents will still be here, but my boyfriend and I have purchased a house. I will be moving as soon as we get everything finished in the house.

Day 18: TV Show Addiction

2015-08-18T19:16:00.001-07:00

Day 18: T.V. Show You've Recently Become Addicted To

I've most recently become addicted to Clipped, thanks to my boyfriend. Even as I type this, we are watching the series finale. It's a terrible but funny show with semi dark edgy humor that we enjoy, all centered around a barber shop full of employees who went to school together.

Day 17: When You Grow Older

2015-08-18T19:06:00.000-07:00

Day 17: What do you want to do when you grow older?

This is an odd one for me. I'm actually doing the job I have right now because I couldn't decide what I actually wanted to go to college for. I still don't know. I just want to make enough money to pay my bills, have a little left over, and just be happy. What the job is doesn't really matter.

Day 16: The End of The World

2015-08-18T19:02:00.000-07:00

Day 16: If the world ends tomorrow, what would you do with your remaining time?

That's an easy one I guess. I would gather all my friends and family and hug them. Love them. Reminisce about old times. Get into heated discussions about how the world is going to end, since we only know when, not how. I would be glad that none of us would have to suffer the loss of one of us, that we were all going at the same time.

I wouldn't have gone to work today if we found out this morning. Otherwise, we would only have a few hours left but family is what matters. I'm sure they would find something to fight about for the remaining time, just as they always do, but it would be good just to be around them. What would you do?

Day 15: Someone you Fancy

2015-08-18T18:57:00.000-07:00

Day 15: A Photo of Someone You Fancy At The Moment

Well, that's an easy one. I've fancied him for the last five years. Ok, ok... I'll admit, some days he really gets on my nerves, but that doesn't mean I don't fancy my boyfriend.

Who do you fancy right now?

Day 14: Celebrity Crushes

2015-08-16T21:06:00.000-07:00

Day 14: Pictures of Five Celebrity Crushes

This is an odd one for me. I've never really had "celebrity crushes" in that OMG fan girl sort of way. There are celebrities I've found sort of attractive, so I guess I'll list those here.

Johnny Depp. From Crybaby and Captain Jack Sparrow, from Edward Scissorhands to Rango, and from the Mad Hatter to Sweeny Todd, he is one hell of an actor with one hell of a resume. And he's not to bad on the eyes either.
Tom Hardy: If you don't know Tom Hardy, You need to watch Warrior, The Dark Knight Rises (Bane), and Mad Max: Fury Road (Mad Max). How could you not love someone who plays both a KICK ASS Bane and the first Mad Max in nearly thirty years? He is the first celebrity I might admit to having a crush on.
Jason Momoa: I first found out he who was via Game of Thrones (Kahl Drogo) and Conan The Barbarian (Conan). He is not a little dude and has a smirk like a cheshire cat.
Channing Tatum: Yeah yeah, bite me. He's funny and he can dance like no body's business. He also has one hell of a jawline.
Josh from Moonshiners: Just a funny down south guy with a hell of a jaw line.

So that's my list. Who are your celebrity crushes?

Day 13: Three Confessions

2015-08-14T21:19:00.000-07:00

Day 13: Three Confessions of Your Choice

Well, this is an interesting one for me... I actually put this post off trying to decide just what to write about. So, bear with me if it's a little rough. Here goes:

Confession 1: I'm scared of losing my dad.

My dad has some pretty serious health issues. He's diabetic, he's had cataracts and a detached retina (all in the last 5 years) and is on dialysis for kidney failure. It's really hard on him (he just turned 58) and I'm afraid he's going to get tired and decide he doesn't want to do dialysis anymore. He started the long, long process of seeing if he is eligible for and to get put on the transplant list for a kidney and a pancreas. This is a huge step because he wouldn't even consider it when he first started dialysis. He still adamantly refuses to even consider a living donor. He says he would feel bad if he took their kidney but then it didn't last, or they got sick and then needed a kidney. I'm only 24. I'd love for my dad to walk me down the aisle and dance with me if I ever get married. I'd love for my dad to be there when I turn 30. I'm afraid it won't happen.

Confession 2: I don't know what I'm doing with my career.

I spent two years (a little less actually) getting a degree as an automotive collision repair specialist. Part of this is because as a full time honors student, I was tired of sitting behind a desk and pushing a pencil around. The other part is because I couldn't/can't decide what I'd really rather do. I was/am afraid of picking something, paying for the four years (which I really can't afford) and then getting through it only to discover I hate it. I didn't want to be one of those people who spends 6-8 years in college, just to get a 4 year degree, because I kept changing my major. I know I can'd do what I'm doing forever because it is already starting to take it's toll on my body, but I don't know where to go from here.

Confession 3: I constantly worry about being good enough for those around me.

Call me once bitten, twice shy, but I'm afraid that those around me only tolerate me. They don't actually like me but they either pity me or just put up with me to be around my family or my boyfriend because they know it's a package deal. It's happened before and ever since then I always question people's motives and what they truly think about me, and I'm afraid it's stopping me from forming real, lasting friendships.

What are your confessions?

Day 12: Screenshot of your desktop

2015-08-12T20:48:00.001-07:00

Day 12: Screenshot of your desktop

Well, this makes me glad I keep my desktop nice and clean, otherwise this could be really embarrassing. I work solely from my laptop but even when I didn't, I have always preferred a clean and simple desktop. If it's too busy, I feel like I can't find what I'm looking for. The only part of it that ever really changes is the background. Right now, the background is a picture I found on pinterest. It's a tattoo of "How I wish you were here" which I'm assuming to be from Pink Floyd's Wish you were here.

As you can tell here, not much going on. I'm in the middle of a disk defrag but that's about it. How about you? What does your desktop look like right now? Do you prefer more or less?

Day 11: Favorite Quote

2015-08-11T19:23:00.001-07:00

Day 11: Your Favorite Quote

This one is really, really hard for me. Quotes are my weakness. I have, literally, entire notebooks FILLED with quotes, tons of files on my computer, and a pinterest board full of them. There are a few that I keep repeating though, and I will post a few of those here. I'd love to hear your favorite quote as well.

"We all carry things inside us, no one else can see, they weigh us down like anchors, they drown us out at sea." - Chelsea Smile Bring me the horizion
"A desert blessing, an ocean curse." - The Fault In Our Stars John Green
"My thoughts are stars I cannot fathom into constellations." - The Fault In Our Stars John Green
"Life is a grindstone, and whether it grinds a man down or polishes him up depends on the stuff he's made of." - J. Billings
"You can always find something beautiful in something destructive and now I finally understand why I've always been so fond of you."
"I think, if he was a book he'd be the one you throw across the room, then hours later, pick up again and leaf through its pages."
"How can you look for miracles when you deny belief? How can a person formed of sin and bone trust his weight to wings?"
"Love when you are ready, not when you are lonely."
"Someone I loved once gave me a box of darkness. It took me years to understand that this too was a gift."
"where there is anger, their is always pain underneath."
"I don't ask you to love me always like this, but I ask you to remember. Somewhere inside me there will always be the person I am tonight."

Day 10: One Food and One Beverage

2015-08-10T19:13:00.000-07:00

Day 10: If you could live off one food and one beverage for the rest of your days, what would it be?

Hmm... This is a hard one. My one food would be fruit, probably. Apples, if I had to pick one. Either honeycrisp or granny smith. I have loved apples since I was a child and could eat them all the time if they were in season.

The beverage is harder. I like tea. As long as I didn't have to pick one type of tea, that'd be great. Other than that, it would probably be water. I like soft drinks as much as anyone, but I get tired of them.

What would your choices be?

Day 9: Pet Peeves

2015-08-09T15:13:00.001-07:00

Day 9: Pet Peeves

Pet Peeves. Everyone has them. These are a few of mine.

Young people who decide to have sex, have a kid, and then leave said kid with their parents (the kid's grandparents) so that they can continue being young, going wherever they please whenever they please, leaving someone else to raise their child.
Pinterest links that lead nowhere or lead to the front page of a blog, leaving me to try and dig through 300 pages of a blog just to find the one thing I wanted. Direct links, people. They are a thing.
Facebook stories that are false but people keep sharing them because they are too lazy to actually read the article attached to them.
People who walk around with a sense of entitlement.
People who only listen to respond, not to communicate.
People who are late, and make no attempt to call, text, or even apologize.
People who make plans with you and then "forget" about them and "forget" to call you to let you know they can't make it.

This is a short list of my pet peeves. What just gets under your skin?