hot rats eat my brain!

crawling hero

2013-07-06T08:37:00.000-07:00

after all the toil and moil to earn a life for himself, little hero turns back into his crawling with a handful of nothing...

frawning babe...

2013-04-05T14:00:00.000-07:00

Let go your ego, drop down your crown. In my land of fellowship, there's no way to frown....

143 lbs of meat

2011-10-27T15:33:00.000-07:00

sometimes I do mistakes but don't you know I'm human? No one is perfect you know, especially a man of flesh and bones...

cry hard

2011-06-23T02:48:00.000-07:00

you were crying when you came,
and i guess if you go
you will cry again.
I've just been next to you to entertain
but all you do is to complain.
So, my baby, now i understand the fact
that no matter how hard i try
and no matter how much you cry
everything between you and me
is just in vain...

I came to you

2011-05-26T15:47:00.000-07:00

I didn't tell you not to come,
I came to you again and again.
Now i fold my sorrow
And swallow with a nice brand of whiskey
And if your tears are still wet
Keep them under blanket
So that they won't get the coldness of your heart
But ı always came to you....
Apart from national fests
With all joy of celebrations within
And you lie down reading at the moment...
And i'm still coming...

monologue

2011-01-25T14:39:00.000-08:00

my world is starting to turn around you.i mean, when it's morning, i wake up to a day full with the happiness of seeing you again.and the night comes with it's dark and deep cruelty to cut that happiness from the throat.but ı still have the hope to see you here, maybe online huh? well i remember you even if you don't care.maybe i should move my mind to another space. anyway, just forget it all!!

hurt poetry

2010-12-11T20:19:00.000-08:00

i stood outside for hours under wet weather, but my heart was able to cope with any flood until you said "no" to a happy smooth living...

i tried a lot but there was nothing to change your mind.so you created your own hell without me.and i'm living my own hell without love now.lack of communication puts an end to everything people have.i wish we had some more things to talk about rather than doing.so i'm acting like saying something to you now in my inner world. maybe that can change your image in me.

anyway, we didn't mean to hurt eachother, i think...

human ground

2010-10-31T14:58:00.000-07:00

human ground is something illusionary, something out trust.so we should take our trust over inhuman things.because the inhuman is the only steady development in all universe...

the fault

2010-10-31T14:54:00.000-07:00

it's not our fault to be seperate,
anyway, we haven't got used to yet...

better off dead

2010-10-23T12:02:00.000-07:00

here it is!
the ill fate of men!
look back who is left
before you hit the road..

mourning, grief
not any relief
no place to go
no reason to live!
tell me why are you setting ahead?
even you know you're better off dead!

tell me where is he?
your saviour, your hero!
searching everywhere for him
but the answer is the same "NO"
i said tell me why are you setting ahead?
just close your eyes all bloody red
you can see all the things to regret
but tell me why are you running away???
even you know you're better off dead!!!

old and cold

2010-06-28T14:26:00.000-07:00

hope that you still think i am the same old one, anyway, everything grow colder to me as ı grow older to you... and ı lack motive to cheer up anymore....

privacy

2010-04-04T01:54:00.000-07:00

it doesn't matter who you are, or what you do.just join me down and trust my pillow.cause it always keeps in secret.

back in beauty

2010-04-02T12:18:00.000-07:00

let there be fire, if i need to burn a little more.but never forget that beauty will win some sunny day.and we all will be able to walk along flower gardens...

theory of life...

2010-02-28T01:26:00.000-08:00

the whole past theory of your life and all conformity to the lives around you would have to be abandoned, therefore, release me now, before troubling yourself any further, let go your hands from my shoulders, put me down and depart on your way...

my human landfill

2009-11-07T04:49:00.000-08:00

all in all, my life here is nothing more than a human landfill...

and i'm just working so hard to die smart, waiting for the day to come, the clock to strike a quarter past my death...

nothing more that we all ignore...

anyway, there are rooms for all of us in god's place next to the mosh potatoes...

empty closet

2009-11-04T16:53:00.000-08:00

my birth is no near,
no reply
to any questions to hear.
some bread to offer,
ı cannot reach.
any breath to take,
out of speech.
can't stay,
can't stand alone.
can't set my poor knees on thorn.
ınto obscurity
my fate was born...

dashed and torn

2009-10-30T13:09:00.000-07:00

from all this sea of theft,
only my poor heart is left.
solitary in it's weary self,
my restless pain erects in depth.
all dashed and torn into pieces
my love's been born,
and there's nothing to give
thus you seized all that i believe

paper cut

2009-04-19T03:05:00.000-07:00

My dreams are papercut.
They all burn my heart.
My mind, like an earthquake,
Everything falls apart.
And i gradually start
To lose my conscıous part.

bed time loneliness

2008-10-29T13:46:00.000-07:00

you gave me,
the freshest of your breath,
the whitest of your bread,
and the purest wines of red;

and now you leave me,
all alone in this bed,
too young to be dead...

tenderness

2008-10-23T10:11:00.000-07:00

If you're feeling cold,
I will hold you,
I will warm you,
I will never let you feel alone.
When you're home,
I'll be at home,
to kiss you like your mom.

When you're feeling hurt,
I will hear you,
I will heal you,
And there'll always be some scars to mend.
When you're down,
I'll be your clown,
a nice smile to put on...

one night stand

2008-10-05T07:51:00.000-07:00

Don't see me, forget me,

Don't know about me!

Leave the love inside.

We can't stay friends,

After staying up all night.

so hear me and please forget it all!

don't

2008-10-05T07:35:00.000-07:00

I'm totally mad, i'm getting insane, just because of you. And i can't understand what you want from me. All i want is a smile, so i'm keen to see your teeth.

Don't let me trust, don't cheat.

Don't make me drown in your dream.

Don't wake, don't make me up.

Don't let this nice dream stop.

I'm bound to your love. Can't find my way out.Thinking about you all night leads the trouble in mind. Whenever i call for past, i cry hard, i must.

don't wake, don't make me up.

don't let this nice dream stop.

why?

2008-10-05T07:30:00.000-07:00

I just wanted to say "no", but i couldn't. Now i'm asking you: Why did you push me too into your own hell? Why did you want me to suffer?

bosom friends

2008-10-05T07:22:00.000-07:00

I need somewhere to hide,

and someone to confide.

I don't know where to ride

My dull weather night...

feeling stuck?

2008-10-05T07:15:00.000-07:00

try to get out your inner self. you're too stressed, you're too weak.everyday of week, getting some more harder,getting boring, getting long, and getting stiffling,but you can't get out. the case is just so bitter.do you have another way to go?