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丑陋的马来西亚人

2011-08-29T16:56:00.001+08:00

再过几天就是国庆日了，然而今年的国庆日气氛并不如往年，有可能是与开斋节同一段时期的缘故吧。每年的八月份时期，就会有很多人开始庆祝，提倡爱国精神，说马来西亚是最好的国家（如八度空间的广告），马来西亚是由多元种族和谐相处而形成的国家，礼仪是我们的文化，等等。同时也有一些人则趁这个时候不断提醒马来西亚人的弱点和不良态度，要求人们要不断改进自己。

首先要提到的是交通文化，那就是驾驶与停车文化。不是你有没有注意到，在马路上驾驶时常会遇到有车辆不打灯就随便往左往右湾，在高速公路上更加恐怖，有些司机的技术比麦克舒马克的超车技术还要厉害。来到一些较小的马路时就会看到很多车停在不该停的地方，有些甚至阻碍了整个交通，我看过最严重的是司机们都把车停放在马路中间，整条马路就变成了停车场，我当时在想如果是有一辆赶着时间的救护车要过这条马路，岂不是要搞出人命来。

随后就是浪费食物的文化。在我进大学初期，最令我感到震惊的是浪费食物的文化。在饭店上看到有许多人偏要拿过量的食物但又吃不完，留了半盘饭再坐上就走，完全没有食物米饭粒粒皆辛苦的领悟。此外，大马人的另外一个弊处就是缺乏环境环保的意识---〉乱丢垃圾，过分浪费电源，有限或不实际的环保运动，等等。大马人每天平均制造了3万吨的垃圾，5天的垃圾可以盖完整个玻璃市州，一年的垃圾可以盖掉整个马来西亚。这些垃圾当中有大部分都是可以在循环的。二氧化碳产量更是个恐怖数据，从1990年至2004年马来西亚的二氧化碳排放量已经增加了221%，是全球增长幅度最高的国家，产量也在全球排名第26，其产量也占了全世的0.6% （而马来西亚的人口只占世界人口0.4%）。

然而这几年来马来西亚人的环保意识并未改善，许多环保运动也缺乏实际感和持续性，环保这两个字也就像挂在嘴边的甜言蜜语一样，没有实际行动。最好的例子就是八度空间的一年一度关灯运动，要求观众在某一天的夜晚关灯一个小时，以提倡环保意识，此运动受到了热烈的欢迎。难道这样就是环保意识吗？“意识”（awareness）必须要有“意”也要有“识”（knowledge），许多人就是缺乏了那个识字而对环保一知半解。一年一度一起关灯一个小时，这不是环保，而是一个无补于事但又显眼的举动。

此外，马来西亚人还有一个致命的弊处，那就是以50步笑百步（其实是以99步笑百步比较正确）。打个比方就是环保的课题，自从槟城政府实行无塑料袋运动后，受到了塑料厂商与一些知识分子的批评，说其实大马的垃圾情况还没那么严重，也拿日本的垃圾产量是大马的两倍来做证据，这岂不是名副其实的以50步笑百步的例子吗？但我看到“追踪档案”的访问对象这么说时，心里就想：日本有1.27亿人口，是马来西亚人口的4.7倍左右，但日本垃圾产量只有大马的两倍，那也就是说每一个大马人的垃圾产量是日本每人的2.35倍了！---〉这岂不是以 200步笑100步了XD。马来西亚的产品也是受到这个致命文化而难以改善，每次说到品质时，许多人都会大谈中国产品的山寨文化，批评他们的产品低品质，而每一次就是避免谈起大马的产品。。。

此外，大马人还有一个非常可笑的文化---〉认亲认戚vs划清界限。记得有一年日本足球队成功打入世界杯8强时，许多人都希望日本能够进入决赛为亚洲人争光（我认为是要借光）。虽然最后日本队输了，但是有许多人认为日本已经赢了，我们应该为日本感到骄傲，因为我们是亚洲人。我在想，日本离我国有近半个地球远，也没有任何特殊的关系，赢了的话你竟然因大马没有这个能力而可以以亚洲人的这个字眼来跟日本认亲认戚，借借光。相反的，在自己的国家，有人经常就因北马比较甘绑而把大马半岛分为北马人和南马人。也有槟城人就因其他北马地区比较落后而与其他北马区州划清界限，更严重的是，许多槟城岛上的人就因北海不如岛上繁荣而有“island”和“mainland”之分。要借光时连距离半个地球的国家也能认亲认戚，有繁荣和比较落后之微距也要与同国同区同州的同胞划清界限。=.=|||

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2011-08-20T15:10:00.002+08:00

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Another chapter in life?

2011-06-28T22:43:00.000+08:00

已经过了一个多月了，我还是呆在家里，没有工作也没事情做，继续升学的计划还是个计划。现在的我感觉上已经失去了人生目标。以前，当我还是个学生时，每天埋怨着生活坎坷，埋怨每天都要考试。但是，考试的日子终于都过去了，却觉得没有了考试就没有了目标。这意味着我人生中的这一个单元已经走到了终点，是时候打开新的单元，新的生活，新的目标，新的旅程。。。

这种新的生活阶段令我非常兴奋非常期待，同时也非常犹豫不决。接下来的路该怎么走？

跳出围墙

2011-03-29T16:45:00.001+08:00

我们的思想是被我们的经验，所见，所闻，的影响而形成的。而这被经验形成的思想就是我们的围墙。它似乎使我们更了解这个世界，更了解我们的周围，然而它就好像相框一样，使我们看见了照片里的东西但是相框以外的风景我们就看不见了。

近期不知是为什么，总是注意到别人对其他人的看法。在我朋友当中，角色各式各样，有的对这个世界非常悲观，对这个世界快要绝望了；有的就好像没死过一样，充满了乐观，所谓船到桥头自然直。对这个世界充满希望的人自然是好事，证明自己的思想没被残酷的经验所影响，依然觉得负面的事情绝对装不满这个世界，这个世界太大了。

对于悲观的人，我发现他们都有一个共同点，那就是看事物时都是以自己负面的经验来思考，判断别人时都太依赖眼睛所见以及过去的经验。这个广阔无边的世界，他们时看到一个渺小，被围墙包围着的世界，里面充满的都是负面的事物以及恶人。看日本成人片多了就觉得日本人都很色，认识了一个日本女性朋友都在怀疑她有没有拍过成人片；对中国负面产品的经验多了，一提到中国产品都觉得肯定是山寨版的。

世界之大，无边无际；时间之长，无始无终。天地生成的万物，变化无穷，绝无绝对的事物。随着时间流失，花草树木和野兽都会改变形状和生存方式；人和人心也一样，都在慢慢地改变。负面的事物也不会永远地负面下去，恶人也有良心发现的一天；负面变成正面的事物，恶人变得善良，其程度都可能超越所有人的想象。

看人看事物，我都要常常提醒自己，看事物都要跳出围墙；看人，认识人时只看到其本人就好，千万不要以派分。

今晚心情特别好。。。感动。。。平静。。。

2011-03-04T01:25:00.001+08:00

刚刚吃了碌碌才回来，开了电脑，看了别人的博客，开了面子书，听了几首音乐。。。心情突然间特别好。。。好感动。。。好久都没有这种感觉了：好平静的开心。

躺在床上，什么都没做，听着那几首音乐，没歌词只有音乐，心中突然有了一种无言，无理由的快乐，好平静的心情，就像那几首音乐一样。突然好想写起博客文章来了。

这些日子的忙碌，有时我会觉得很累。连其他人都觉得我变苍白了许多，熊猫的样子，不够睡的感觉。连续的这几个星期里，功课忙碌，又有蛮多狂欢的节目。狂欢虽是看起来很快乐，但没有了感动，再快乐也是不踏实的。我好久都没有感动地开心过了，唯有今晚。。。豪没理由地，就为了几首没歌词，连歌手也不知是哪位的音乐，心情就这样好了起来^^

望着外面的夜色，心里在祈求明天，未来，将会是更美好，更感动，更开心的。。。

《丰隆。Peter》
大学第三年 3月 4日

Happy CNY… now celebrate it in Kampar

2011-02-07T00:01:00.001+08:00

This CNY is the most boring ever and I am now have to celebrate it in Kampar, far away from my home. Today is the fourth day of CNY but I already have to come back here just because I come back to hometown earlier and the CNY dropped on Thursday. Anyway, I feels so refreshed even though can going back hometown for a short while only, and at least I am able to make myself attended one of the gathering, updates myself with the old friends and classmates.

After one week of keeping myself away from the facebook, today I finally open my facebook again. Everyone, especially those coming from northern, back to Kampar and KL, keep on complaining about the traffic jam on the highway, luckily I start my journey early in the morning so the traffic is not so terribly stuck. This is quite torture especially when you have to answer the nature calls, both small and big calls. I experienced that on the way back to Kampar this morning. However, I can imagine the CNY of my following years after I am leaving the campus and and start working…

Anyway, Happy Chinese New Year, hopefully the year of rabbit will be the year of lovely and happiness.

Review of my FYP semester

2011-01-14T16:41:00.001+08:00

My FYP lab is finally over just an hour ago after we clear all the stuff on the bench. Today is quite a kind of headache because my plasmids were yet to be extracted and I was just finishing it this morning while other people are packing and clear their bench. However, in the end everything is just fine and hurray!!!!

This semester is the one that I never experienced before in this campus, the FYP bench work, the people, as well as friends that I seldom hang up before. All this had give my life in this semester a completely different experience. Thanks you guys and girls for making my life so wonderful ^^

This semester is also another turning point for me as this semester I has plenty of time to think about myself, my future, as well as the people around me. I also has more time to hanging up with more people and see my surrounding more clearly and understand them in much different perspectives. The most important thing is, I am somehow able to see and realize my unknown self more clearly that I cannot before.

In stead of spending most of my time on the FYP thesis, I spends my time keep going on thinking about myself and the person that I really want to be … what is my purpose of living in this world … I started to become an unstable man in term of personality since then… it’s like a worm in my heart that always makes me so uncomfortable…

Whatever… although there’s part of puzzles that I haven’t solve in the end of this semester, but al least I am sure about couple of things for next semester…V

Epic failure

2010-12-17T12:52:00.001+08:00

I never expected this FYP can results in such a epic failure when I was first starting doing this project. My beginning part of the project was running smooth but somehow in the end the transformation made me stuck there for more than one month and now I haven’t get even one desired colony . I should finished my project about a month ago if the transformation run smooth but now I am worrying if I can finish this project on time before the official date for end of bench work.

I had try the transformation for N times but finally I had to start again from nearly the beginning of the project and until now I still don’t get any colony. I have no excuse to call this as my epic failure and perhaps my biggest crisis before graduate. It will affects my grade seriously and if I failed for this FYP perhaps I cannot graduate as well.

Shit! I still have a final exam and FYP workshop to go on next Monday and Tuesday.

Flooding…

2010-11-05T21:09:00.001+08:00

Recently my hometown and the rest of the northern part of Malaysia is flooding, I shared a lot about the news via Facebook since last night. At first I still not concerning about the flooding as I think it's just a small matter and the water level won't going too high. I encountered such flooding quite frequently when I was a child, lived near to the sea. However, since last night after watched the video regarding my hometown condition and receiving the latest news from my parents, it seemed that the flooding is not just the matter of flooding, it causes the electrical and water supply to be cut off. Many people in my hometown are now staying in the hotel due to this problem.

Hopefully the flooding won't reach my home there and the water level will decrease as soon as possible so that everyone can returns to their home and lives happily.

This is not my problem…

2010-09-08T17:17:00.001+08:00

This is nothing to do with me; I am not the one that doesn't understand. The lecture notes are the ones that don't let me understand them. Knowledge is something alive, and has intelligence, they can choose who can understand them and who cannot understand them… this is some theory that I already forget who told me several years ago…do you believe this?

Certainly not, this is bullshit theory!

Face to face… this is the moment that I am waiting for…

2010-08-03T20:34:00.001+08:00

Today is actually like last weekend, quite "sui" that my bicycle gets chained by the dam shit so called security guard. They should rename their department as Bicycle Chaining Department, not Safety and Security Department… bloody hell… beh song, somebody don't know which bloody fella push my bicycle to the chaining zone!

But everything is fine after I was going for my dinner, with my housemates and we finally decided to go to the new opened restaurant: Face to face. We don't know what's that, until we finally step inside the restaurant and have a look on the menu. This is actually a Sarawak franchise restaurant and selling food based on Sarawak theme. Therefore, my tonight dinner was 沙捞越传统干捞面, not bad and I will be back to the restaurant again to try many other cuisines in the list. The environment is also quite nice except there are too many people and it was noisy. The servants there are also quite 有水准, all speaking in English, may be coming from Filipina or Vietnam.

Overall rate temporary, I give it 4 star…

... "I don't know what to put as title"

2010-08-01T23:56:00.000+08:00

Long time no posting since last last month... quite busy actually plus nothing happen also, life just going on like what others said UTAR (Unimited Tests, Assignments and Reports) until the last entrepreneurship midterm test then something bad happen to me. I get diarrhea, seriously vomiting and lao sai like hell... and all this I have to tell the story starting from during the entrpreneurship test.....

Thursday afternoon I was rushing for the test after finishing the lunch, it was a little but late but when I step into the IDK the test still haven't started yet, finally I have to wait half an hour later to start the test.... what the F***... and finally the test paper reach my seat and the one standing in front keep yelling "Do not open the test paper, we want a FAIR TEST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!". Finally, when the test end, the lecturers collected the papers, I went in front to sign the attendance... all these took me about 5-10 minutes and when I was about to get out from the IDK, I saw there were still many students sitting in the hall writing non-stop on the answer paper. So, this is what the so called "FAIR TEST" ! KNS

Just bacause of some people started the test 30 minutes late, when I was about to take my bicycle, KNS raining.....
After reaching home, it was about 5 pm, stomach feel like something wrong. Fine, I drink a cup of milo, may be I was hungry. Shit, after drinking the milo, just vomit and vomit again, really sick man!
8 pm: Finally decide to see the doctor and the doctor said that my blood pressure is too low and can faint anytime, so the doctor ask me to stay back and he will fetch me home later. He gave me some anti-vomit medication but I vomit again, shit my stomach really cannot accept anything even water, that will make me vomit even harder. The doctor have no choice but have to give me injection, finally.
The next morning I vomit agin in my room, shit the whole room is so damm smelly and I have no choice but to clean my room, damm it my lecture notes all also get some stain of the vomit eeeeeeeew. But, luckily later nothing happen le, no vomit and keep going on studying for my next test, which will make me sick again....

Vandalism in toilet

2010-06-25T16:39:00.000+08:00

I still remember when I was in secondary or primary school especially the badly vandalised toilet where you can see a lot of drawings such as the shape of penis and hokkian dirty words like "lan ciao" and "cibai" can be seen everywhere in the toilet, some was cursing the principal and teachers. All those were the cummulative art work from the seniors since the very last time the toilet was renovated. I was a naughthy student that I used to be, vandalised the stuff in my class, including the tables and chairs. If you do to my old school you will see many funny things on the tables and chairs, some wrote about who love who, while some wrote some dirty words on them, part of them were my art work, but mine one were mainly the mathematical working steps...miss my old school since I left the school...However, I swear I never vandalize the toilet, just the tables and chairs.

Few days ago, when I was entering a toilet in Block D, I found something similar to the toilet in my old school...

This guy have something to say...obviously he falied last semester...

This is another guy, may be a little smarter than the failed guy...

...and here is another one...

...some candidates from SRC having the campaign in the toilet. Like those dirty politicians outside there, they are having a long list of "empty promise" to the students.

Vandalism still exists even in the university.

What is happening to my facebook

2010-06-11T21:23:00.001+08:00

Quite a long time since my last post last semester. Actually nothing special happened recently except the day before yesterday I was making myself turned out at the “La Nuit de Fantome” organized by the Biological science society. This is the first time I attend the party like this. Luckily I am not the girl that need to make up and set up the hair for several hours, and I heard it costs a lot. The party to me is well organized, congratulate to those who participate to organize the party…

That night my friends and me already talking about the facebook photo that the facebook will be stuck after that night. Actually recently I found that my facebook is getting harder and harder to connect, something happen to my computer most probably but i don’t know which part in my PC is going wrong, I am freaking out every time the firefox show me “the connection was reset” when I click “facebook” and sometime same thing happened for Youtube. That problem making me now facing some difficulty to upload the photo for that night to the facebook and tag them to my friends (actually all the pictures I took that night were all my friends)… however, the pictures that I took that night were a little bit blur may be I set a wrong mode for my handphone…

Haiz, anyone know about the facebook problem that I face right now and teach me about how to solve it, it must have something to do with my PC one, otherwise why I can connect to facebook when using other ppl punya PC (may be I have some face problem “面子问题”that’s why cannot connect to facebook)

The picture from that night I will try other ways give to you all la…

Nature and nurture perspective… this is more likely be stereotype

2010-05-01T18:00:00.001+08:00

This semester I have one subject called culture and communication that makes me learns about stereotype. In the lecture, the boring lecturer told us about stereotype between people from different races and skin colors, she said the westerners have stereotype which is most probably the bad image about our easterners, and vice verse, the Chinese and Malays also have some stereotype against each others as well.

I have a question. How about the nature and nurture perspectives? I still remember on the first or second week of lecture, I did heard about lecturer saying about nature an nurture perspectives and how she critics about the nature perspective from her nurture perspective, her argument be true but she always relates the nature perspective to the science students especially the bio-students, may be have to thank to one of my course mate that have such a big mouth: “GENETICALLY, YES!”. In the end, the biotech and biochem students always mentioned and related to the nature perspective: “I know that those in biotech and biochem students, you may think that BLA BLA BLA…female is not suitable for engineering and science and the careers like journalism is more feminist….The doctor was so shocked that he don’t know what to put in the gender column and finally he simply put boy without penis…this doctor of course is of nature perspective he cannot accept this because there are only male and female in the nature”

Flower both of you!

Let me tell you something babe, science is not something so simple that you can conclude anything just by watching and observe things happened in the nature like what had explained in the sociology text books about nature perspective, this is not your form 3 science anymore (perhaps this is your science knowledge level, then I can understand). We might have the so called nature perspective for some of us but pls do not make such a stereotype about all of us, most of the bio class the girls are in almost ratio 1:1 with the guys and our lessons are not discussing about social issues, gender division in working place, or any gender is more suitable to any careers like in your class, do not judges about us with the so called nature perspective like you really know about us! Many people have stereotype about other people that are different from themselves, you most probably the same, stereotypist!

What do you think?

2010-04-11T22:42:00.001+08:00

Assignment, reports, and tests… all this usually make me pek chek but luckily not for this time, yup, although quite busy but still ok la compared to last semester…

Ok la, actually nothing to write already this time, except complaining about the assignments and tests matter…it’s true that nothing interesting happened lately…

Just watch this video below, it’s quite horny and somehow maniac although nothing horny and maniac inside there…just watch and tell me what you think about it.

一波又一波。。。

2010-03-20T15:29:00.001+08:00

今天终于考试完了，本来以为可以轻松一下，可是下个星期还有report, presentation, assignment, moral test, genetics test。。。我快要疯了。

不过还好啦！只要时间安排得很好就没什么问题了。其实这个学期比上个学期好了很多，只要每天晚上睡得早一点，早上起得早一点，一天里头有的时间就多了几个小时，够拿来安排所要做的事情了。。。早上上课到下午，累了，不读书，休息，不然就是做assignment, report。晚上才来温习功课，3小时就够。晚上不可以做assignment, report…因为会忘记时间，迟睡。

读书要读得开心，考试不要有太大的压力，要考试了读不完也不要熬夜，书一次不要读太多，3小时就够。。。读得开心就好，考试自然没有想象中那么难过了。

只要我还是坚持下去，做好准备，相信下个星期还有下下个星期我还是一样会挨得过去的。

《谢丰隆 2007》

Busy weeks

2010-03-16T09:38:00.001+08:00

Sucks this gonna be the busy weeks for me… 2 tests for this weeks and another 2 for next weeks… yet still got reports and assignment, presentation around the corner…

For the first part of the assignment that started before the chinese new year, I still have the mood and courage to do it but this one I honestly have no idea of what to do, I can’t left my study for exam behind, I already made my study suck last semester due to the MP assignment and I won’t allow this kind of elective subject’s assignment interrupts my study anymore, may be have to sacrifice the assignment, doing it last minutes and get a relatively low marks, better than get a suck results for the core subjects…

For the pendidikan moral, I really don’t care anymore, just pass or fail, no gpa and that’s all.

For reports, I have no choice, this is my core subject and I have to try my best to get better marks.

It’s not that I am very berat sebelah while putting the efforts in the subjects, just some assignment the effort that you put did not guaranty the returns. Another thing is that I am lack of time...

Lazy

2010-03-06T22:04:00.000+08:00

F**ky shit lazy, don't have any mood to do anything after the genetic test this morning!

Perfectionist

2010-03-03T23:49:00.003+08:00

Tonight before sleeping I take a test on one website: http://discoveryhealth.queendom.com/perfectionism_abridged_access.html
This test is about the perfectionism and test whether I am a perfectionist or not and the answer that they give me is:
“Perfectionism

Your score = 53

What does your score mean?
According to this test, you have some perfectionist tendencies that may be making you unnecessarily unhappy. You sometimes set high standards that are difficult to meet; either you impose those expectations on yourself, others, or a combination of the two. You may even think that others expect you to be perfect. While a desire to do your very best and strive to reach your full potential can bring you personal fulfillment, you have to learn when good is 'good enough'. It's important that you strengthen your ability to distinguish between reasonable aspirations and unrealistic demands. When you set unattainable objectives, you are being cruel to yourself and denying yourself the rewards and self-acceptance that you deserve.”
I am somehow an average perfectionist, is it a good or bad thing ?

- Peter Hong Leong Cheah 2010 -

The Rainbow

2010-02-27T00:17:00.001+08:00

Rainbow is not beautiful if it’s not completely formed.

This is the most beautiful one I ever seen in Kampar.

But even so, it did not seemed wonderful to me anymore…

Wonderful requires the thing to be a myth and mysterious, so that you are free to imagine on your own way… That’s the fantasy…

-Rainbow: February 26, 2010. Around 7 pm in Kampar-

More pictures of rainbow…

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-Peter Hong Leong Cheah 2010-

Chinese new year gathering…

2010-02-21T20:16:00.001+08:00

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Not much gathering this chinese new year, just one group gathering but it is enough for me as many of the friends that missing so long finally turned out their face on that gathering…

That gathering was actually based on the club that we initiated during our time in form 6 study, we were the founders of the club in our old school. I still remember that time the president of the club (that time the club has not formed yet) came to me and offered the membership to me, and I just said yes even I still have no idea about what the club was about. The club is about the cleanliness of the classrooms in the school and we as the members were given the power by the school to overtake the role of monitoring the classroom for their cleanliness every morning… It was tuff for every one of us to do the job,however it was fun anyway, and that was the time our relationship started to formed… friends become even closer friends, some from other classes getting to know each other, and there were some member that come from other state (Perlis) and we get to know each other mostly through this club...

The president(left) and vice presidents(middle two) of the club at that time, me(right) was the secretary…

Another vice president is the one with white shirt, sitting in front, with big boss pose…

<For Kelab keceriaan!>

-Peter Hong Leong Cheah 2010-

Happy CNY ^ ^

2010-02-11T23:19:00.001+08:00

2010…

Chinese New Year for every year I must celebrate it happily, but things change after I going for my further study in university, especially this year. I have change a lot this year especially my emotion and my way of thinking… for some person I can no longer show merciful and I will not keep myself quite anymore if some body step on my tail. I may be tolerate, but don’t do it frequently, I will be pissed off…

I quite Support this guy

Regarding the video about CNY song that had been posted by Namwee recently, I honestly quite support his opinion although his video is full with fault language, as always it be. It’s true when talking about the CNY song in Malaysia and not only these song but the other chinese produced by local singers and local company, you can hardly see any popular singer raised by the local company. I had seen many MV produced by the local and the conclusion is just one, they hardly can produced the quality songs and MV, same like other Malaysian products that launch “Belilah barangan buatan Malaysia”, but never have the initiation to improve the quality the global standard.

Perhaps Malaysia artists are more suitable to be like the Bobby Gaga, they might be fame even faster in this way…

Happy CNY 黑龙… I saw this in the toilet…

ermm…. happy chinese new year 黑龙… I have a very smooth way of business…

Happy Chinese New Year for everyone.

- Peter Cheah Hong Leong 2010 -

Kap Siao

2010-02-03T22:54:00.000+08:00

There are some words in chinese saying that human and things are always changes. I have learnt this words since when I was young, from the Hong Kong drama and movie. At that time I was still don't know about what is that words meaning until recently when this semester started.

My last internship

Before this semester I was just finishing my internship in Sime Darby Plantation. Having a quite a hard time during the internship, I strongly believe that this have gave me a strong impact on my way of dealing with things and matters, and of course this have also changes, somehow my personality. Besides, this internship also give me some knowledge about how people doing the research and projects, although I am not going to do the project that involving biochemistry like what I was doing in internship. I wonder how my final year project will be end up...

Back to UTAR

After I was returning to UTAR, I found that some of our coursemates and housemates had already on their own ways, separated from us, and this somehow have some effects to our life here , although we might not even realise about it...

Whatever it is, this semester I am going to pay the full attention on my study and try to ignore other things...

Some people are just very kap siao

Recently I am quite busy thinking about the assignment matters regarding the culture and communication and pendidikan moral. The culture and communication's assignment initially my group have 3 persons , extra one person than most of the other groups in my tutorial class. Yesterday I was discussing about the assignment with my group members and all the jobs had already assigned and distributed but the next morning I received the news that the tutor had send the message that each group can have only 2 persons maximum...which means our group have to eliminate one of our group members =.=

Why suddenly the tutor changes his mind? I have no idea. But later we went to his office to discuss about the problems because some of the other groups had already start their assignment report, and now one of them have to eliminated from the group and have to redo the new question, that is very unfair for the person.

From the discussion we find out that actually the tutor was received some complain from our group mate that the 3 persons groups have more people so the jobs should be easier and this is very unfair to the 2 person groups. This fella complain make the tutor want us to break our group...=.= but luckily we are able to make the tutor to change the mind back and take the middle road that benefit both sides, still my heart is very beh song about the person that complaining all this thing...

To me, this person that complaining this matter should be the person that's very immature and full of kid-stuff jealousy. This fella cannot withstand other people life is better and easier than the fella-self, this fella is like the jealousy kid that cannot withstand seeing other kids have the bigger and larger candy and this fella will damage their candy, the very kiddy action that only bring emotional and psychological satisfaction, something to fulfill the jealousy dark hole inside the heart, but the action actually never bring anything beneficial to the fella...

I don't know who is this fella, but the person that did the thing know....

I am still...

2009-12-09T20:04:00.000+08:00

Long time no updating my blog, more than a month already...

This 2 months I had been getting quite busy and most of the time feeling down, my life is now just can be described with one word...suck! Nothing is on-going smoothly especially in the work place...

I just wondering what all this try to tell me, may be it try to remind me about the true self inside me...thing is just like had going back to my primary school time...may be it wanna tell me this...I am still the same boy as 10 years ago, only little change, not much...still the lousy thinking, still the closed-heart boy...all the thing inside me that I wanna degrade looks like still preserve well until now...

Recently a friend in the work place told me this: " you don't like to talk, may be due to this, many people feel want to tell you many thing because they don't think you will expose it"... yup, I have been the quite person for a long time, don't like to talk and share my problems with anyone...just never open my heart to anyone to see through...

Recently I have thinking much about myself, may be due to nothing to do, no books to study, no exam, no friends to hanging around, no anything...I think a lot of thing, sometimes just have a fantasy, a dream, reviewing the past time I had ever been, thanks to this time industrial training, I have the time to do that...checking on myself deeply, from head to leg, from outside to inside, and from past to now...I am still...