MY LIFE

Summary Of 2011

2012-01-05T00:55:00.000-08:00

Good & Worst of 2011

Tahun lepas dimulakan dengan sesuatu yang indah iaitu perkahwinan abang aku Tahkim Amri dgn Isterinya Nor Fadilah..Syukur Alhamdulillah makin kurang org duduk rumah ni..Hu2.

Semoga mereka kekal Bahagia hingga ke akhir hayat..Amin

9 bulan kemudian mereka dikurniakan seorang cahaya mata yang comel bernama Aqif,sungguh proaktifkan..

Aqif ni memang akif,penat nak layan.dah besar nanti habislah aku dikerjakan nya.

Tahun 2011 juga merupakan saat yg amat getir bagi aku apabila aku ditamatkan kontrak kerana menegakkan hak aku untuk keluar sembahyang Jumaat ,tapi aku redha sebab aku pelajari banyak dari company bertaraf antarabangsa ini Digi Telecomunication memang memberi aku satu pengalaman baru bekerja dibarisan hadapan dan pertahankan syarikat.Namun mungkin tiada rezeki ..Alhamdulillah.

Sewaktu bekerja di branch KLCC dengan Adini terbakar..ha3

Best Thing about working with Digi ialah pihak syarikat amat pentingkan Hiburan untuk pekerja jadi setiap thaun mereka anjurkan Party untuk kami,sewonoknya masuk pub dan joget - joget , siap menari dengan tunang orang lagi. Apa - apa pon aku seronok. Janji aku tak minum air setan tu.

Lepas dah berhenti kerja , kawan aku dari Filipina nak datang lawat Malaysia

so aku bawaklah dia pergi batu caves nak sangat pergi.sekali naik rasa macam nak pitam je, waktu turun rasa nak gelongsor je kebawah.

dan sepanjang aku bekerja dengan digi aku mampu memiliki 2 buah smartphone

salah satu ialah Samsung Ace aku beli pada harga RM999 setelah sebulan menggunakannya aku Hadiahkan kepada Mamaku,kasi dia biasa dengan teknologi baru.Check miss call pon tak lepas lagi.hrmm

Selang beberapa bulan setelah aku kumpul duit secukupnya ,aku beli handphone yang aku idamkan Iaitu LG Optimus White L970.Sewonoknya beli sesuatu hasil titik peluh sendiri dan aku masih menggunakannya sehingga kini.Ia canggih.nipis dari iPhone 4 ,screen paling cerah didunia dan ia milikku ..Alhamdulillah, seminggu kemudian bosan dah..ha3

Selain itu, hasil dari bekerja aku dapat melancong ke Kuching Sarawak,akhirnya dapat jejak kaki ke Borneo..Alhamdulillah

dapat makan me Kolok dengan Mee Daging.

Kemudian jalan - jalan ke kampung Boyan naik sampan,pergi Sarikin shopping jakun je setiap masa..ha3

Tengah syok dan Nervous tunggu naik kapal terbang sorang - sorang tetibe aku jumpa Miss Kim kardashian,terkezut siot.macam da jodoh je.ha3

pak cik ni kayuh sampan seperti sulam kain je.

pergi melawat Muzium Kucing..hu2..

Hamba Allah s.w.t. yang bertanggungjawab bawa aku jalan - jalan di Kuching.

Sebelum pulang mari kita Bermeditasi dan bersyukur atas segala pemberiannya..Amin

Selang seminggu kemudian aku dan kawan - kawan terbaik aku dunia akhirat pergi bercuti di Tioman

Azmi,Diyana & Saida

aku suka hotel ni.breakfast set macam lunch and dinner jer..mati kembung perut mengketedarah semuanya

ni lah bilik kami..malam - malam da askar buat party kat belakang ,gila ke pa dorang ni..nak tidur pon susah.

hasil dari memakain sub block,kulit aku x tanned seinci pon..kekal cerah berseri.syukran.hu2

Tahun 2011 juga merupakan tahun paling banyak aku makan,terus jadi gemuk..so pada tahun ini aku berazam untuk kurus semula,kene kurus wajib.

macam gampang je leh gemuk..nyesal ,aku malu..ha3..

dalam - dalam sedih dan menyesal tu aku rasa Bahagia kerna aku telah temui seseorang yang aku sayangi dan menyangngi aku seadanya.

Ceci the don

XOXO

Aku juga mendapat kawan baru iaitu Yasser dan Adi

juga Mell Ibrahim seorang Fashionista

saat paling sedih pada tahun 2011 ialah apabila Black intan payung buah hati jantungku telah disahkan Mati sakit tua.rasa macam terhenti kejap dunia ni.

R.I.P.

2003 - 2011

mana aku nak cari ganti kucing kesayangan ni.rasa macam nak bela anjing je hidup lama sikit.

dan untuk menutup tahun yang penuh suka dan duka ini.

aku decide untuk memotong rambut tapi dengan fashion yang berbeza bukan botak dah..semak je.

2011

2012

Aku buat rambut gaya ini untuk refresh back my life.aku kene dapatkan kerja dan sambung belajar ke peringkat Ijazah agar masa depan aku terjamin.Selain itu,aku bersyukur dapat dikurniakan kemewahan ,Kekasih yang Comel serta kakak yang baik hati..Amin.

Semoga tahun 2012 hidup aku berljalan dengan lancar,cemerlang dan diredhai Allah s.w.t.

Peace

Arogant & Ego

2011-11-06T08:31:00.000-08:00

                    Sometimes i wonder , No actually i always wonder why my dad not like others?Why I'm in this unhappy family i rather have a poor family but we have a strong relationship and close to each other . What should i do to change this ego & shallow minded old man , i grew up watching this person sitting at home do nothing like a pig waiting to be fed & get angry if his belonging been touch or critic by others . And as much i don't want it to influence me on my daily life , but it does . Take a look at me now ,jobless waiting to fed by others like a pig & sometime sensitive when comes to my own space ,belongings or life .

                  I remembered once when I'm 16 i wish that god take this person life , he just didn't bring any happiness in my life and my family life . We grew up in misery and poorness , what i saw is that my mom working very hard to support our family . I promise myself , i wont let anything happen to my mom . I always think what this person life will end up with? I'm very sure that i will not be there to take care of his empty life .

               I know i sound cruel and evil , but do i ask much from someone that i call Dad ? i just hope he could be like any other dad , loyal to his religion , have a steady job and income , someone i could to look up when i need a example , matured and think wisely . I just could not live my life like this , everytime his voice rising up i just felt like running away from home , go faraway and live my life like i don't even know anyone in my family . I'm so depress when i start to think about this old man attitude , life are hard please don't make it hard Dad . You know that you should show a good example to your children , so we could grew up and be a good person and achieve success in life ...... Oh God please ... I Beg You ..Please...!!!! send some guidance to my beloved Dad that always get angry never talk nicely to me , selfish ,Ego , arrogant and shallow minded . End all this misery that I've suffer fro 20 years , it's just killing me not today but forever .

    To whoever that read this , please don't judge if you never ever been in this situation it's just ridiculous . And as u saw here while you read there is no cursing word because i write with matured and wise cause i do promise myself not to be like my dad when i grew up , because i don't want to die alone or been hate by my own family ...it's just so waste of time if life end up like that.

Something change Me..

2011-10-12T20:59:00.000-07:00

                     One week before October 2011 , my agency call and mention my contract will not be continued by my Company . I felt like my boss just trying to get rid of me just because i did not have same opinion with him , but at least i'm free now from misery and unsecured feeling working at Digi . Well of cause , most of my colleagues feel sad and cry on my last day... same as me to . I realize all this time i already build friendship among them , a lot of thing I've learn from working with Digi . I am more responsible & independent right now compare before . And i do know now life could change in just split of second , God show me that i should stop worrying about other and start focus in life .I hope i could do some changes in life ..Amin

                       On second week of October 2011 , something bad just happen Black my beloved cat that I've been taking care for ten years just past away . My heart stop beating for a second there when i got the news , but at the same time i'm relief his die at least he will not be suffering anymore by my dad .But one thing about black when his gone it give impact in my family member life , my dad just don't know to whom he wanna give the balance food ,my mom don't know to whom she wanna give sympathy ,my sister will not be bugging by black anymore and Me i will have nobody to spoil with .He will always be inside my heart ,this ten years will be kept inside me ...I Miss you Black..

                    Due to this impact of loosing Black suddenly , i just can't accept all the rejection made by other people to me . I use to think in my brain if everyone reject me , i still have Black to keep accompany me without any rejection. So i start to build up an anger and hatred to others . It's weird why i can't live without a pet . i think i should get one pet then just to let my stress out of my body . I tried jogging and it's just stressful , none is working so i hope i could find a pet right now..Please god give me something ..

                      So for now i'm not working and jobless , but i have enough money to survive and I've already send my resume to lots of company so hopefully one of that company will call me

Life after Treatment and revolution

2011-05-27T07:57:00.000-07:00

It's Already been 7 month from the day of evolution and discrimination , i do believe my life change a lot since the black out season in my life .I do get a good job plus a good salary ,but when come to relationship or commitment i do fail easily maybe i was born to be a player or just can't love one person for life . I've meet a person who introduce me to life where we shouldn't believe in love or romance because in the end we will suffer like hell , well it is true i've been through it before and i barely can do anything for few weeks and that was not good for my body and life.So thanks to Danish i learn how to survive or control my feeling when comes to relationship.

Then later in life i just got back to my old habit that is keep changing partner and it is fun and give a bit thrill but i do hurt a lot of people feeling.

One day I've meet a girl in facebook name Amenda she's pretty and polite, i do wish to get a girlfriend like her but the old feeling and nightmare just keep haunting me and some how my X girlfriend suddenly call and message me a lot and begging for my attention . So i decide to move slow with Amenda since she was faraway from me , i just don't hope anything from her but so we keep chatting on facebook for a few month.then suddenly she give me her phone number ,i was shock i never get girls phone number .Ha3..! Just joking i do get it a lot , so the next day i call her and she sound excited then we chat on yahoo messenger and web cam each other . Despite our age differences and maturity some how we kind click maybe because we both kinda understand each other . So one day i ask her if she interested to buy my Blackberry for cheaper price RM800 and she agreed but i ask her if i can post it through Pos Laju , and she reply can but she didn't have any proper address . so i ask her to bank in to my account RM 500.00 first as a deposit the rest she give to me when i've meet her and give her the phone by my self and she agreed. So i hope everything when well because i don't like to broke promises .

This few month all my friend keep saying i'm kinda fat and chubby compare to my golden era where i'm hot and good looking plus fit due to my habit going to gym daily. I't does give me impact and hurt my feeling a bit

, so i decide how about i'll bring back the golden era once again but i do know that it's gonna be so hard because to jog everyday without fail is just not me for now.i do need lots of rest due to my job which have to facing all the 'POLITE' customer .but somehow i do believe it's gonna happen and i do gonna get my dream curve. Oh Please god make my wish come true. Amin

This is me Now wait for another few month OK..

Benda Baik Dibalas Dengan kebaikan,Benda Jahat Dibalas Dengan Kejahatan Serta Kesedihan

2011-01-22T07:35:00.000-08:00

Betul kata orang tua-tua ,Setiap Kebaikkan pasti Tuhan akan balas dengan Kebaikkan yang berganda-ganda.Tapi setiap Kejahatan Tuhan pasti akan balas dengan Bala & Malapetaka ataupun kesedihan , dan itulah yang telah berlaku pada diriku.

Sepanjang aku Menjadi Syahmi,aku tidak pernah sanggup menjual diri Ku ini untuk mendapatkan sesuatu yang aku idamkan.Tapi akhirnya aku telah setuju menjual maruah diriku ini hanya untuk mendapatkan benda yang aku idam - idamkan iaitu iPhone.Sudah lama aku menanti saat untuk memiliki iPhone , selama 4 tahun aku menanti . Tiba - tiba satu hari seseorang muncul dan ingin mengenali diriku serta mahu memberi apa sahaja yang aku inginkan ,aku pula terdesak untuk memilik iPhone jadi aku memintanya iPhone .Tanpa banyak soal si dia bersetuju dengan syarat aku miliknya walaupun untuk satu hari . Aku pun setuju , setelah seminggu berlalu si dia masih tidak tunaikan janjinya untuk memberi Ku iPhone . Lalu aku mula menyoal si dia samada ingin menunaikan janjinya atau pun tidak , jika tidak aku akan berhenti menghubunginya . Akibat takut kehilangan diriku si dia setuju untuk berjumpa diri Ku pada 19/01/2011 ,penat aku menanti sehinggakan aku tidak lena untuk tidur dengan nyenyak .Namun bila tiba harinya tiada khabar berita dari si dia ,aku pasrah dan kecewa namun jauh disudut hatiku sedar yang si dia akan tunaikan janjinya.Keesokan harinya aku menelefon si dia dan meluahkan rasa tidak puas hati kerana diperlakukan sebegitu rupa sedangkan aku tidak melakukan apa - apa yang melayakkan aku menerima layanan sebegitu .Kemudian si dia meminta maaf dan berjanji akan berjumpa pada hari seterusnya ,tiba keesokkan harinya si dia tiba - tiba perlu pulang ke kampung atas alasan atuknya jatuh sakit.Sekali lagi aku kecewa dan merasa tertipu ,namun si dia berjanji akan berjumpa aku pada 22/01/2011 pada jam 5 petang .Jauh di dalam sudut hatiku ini ,aku seperti dapat merasakan yang perkara buruk akan berlaku dan seperti semua ini mimpi yang akan menghantui diriku ini.Aku tahu maruah diri lebih penting bukan iPhone yang dipandang oleh hati ku ini namun keinginan untuk memiliki sesuatu yang aku tidak pernah ada dan kecapi itu yang sebenarnya aku kejari dari dulu.

Pada 22/01/2011 ,aku mula hari Ku dengan kekecewaan apabila si dia tiba - tiba menjadi berang kerana aku tidak menjawab panggilan telefon nya pada malam sebelumnya . Aku menjadi bingung kerana si dia yang tidka menjawab panggilan aku pada awalnya , kemudian si dia tidak semena - mena menjadi amarah dan bengis serta tiada mood untuk berjumpa aku . Aku berulang kali memujuk dan mengingatkan si dia yang si dia telah janji pada diriku yang si dia akan berjumpa , aku juga telah berfikir dengan sedalam - dalamnya yang aku tidka mahu si dia membelikan iPhone itu untuk ku . Aku tidak mahu terhutang budi , namun si dia tidak mempedulikkan aku . Saat berlalu dengan pantas dan hati Ku berdegup dengan pantasnya ,Tiba saatnya jam menunjukkan pukul 5 petang sbayang si dia tidka muncul tiba. Dari saat itu aku sedar segala harapan aku telah hancur ,aku telah ditipu dna dipermainkan . Aku tidak mampu berkata apa - apa selain termenung dan meratap kesedihan diriku ini , aku bersyukur dalam saat yang begitu sedih dan getir ini tuhan berikan aku kekuatan untuk menahan emosi dan air mata dari mengalir agar aku dapat bekerja dengan tenangnya .
Kejadian ini betul - betul menyedarkan diri ku yang setiap perkara yang aku lakukan pasti ada balasannya samada cepat ataupun lambat ia pasti akan tiba .Aku redha dengan dugaanMu Ini Ya Allah Ya Tuhan Ku , Semoga ia menjadi pengajaran dan ikhtibar buat diriku yang lemah ini ...........

Disebabkan perkara ini....aku ingin berhenti berfacebook buat sementara waktu ..... aku rasa inilah tindakan yang terbaik buat diriku agar aku dapat rehatkan minda serta emosi diriKu ini yang sedang kesakitan ...

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My Heart Just stop beating & i don't feel anything anymore

2010-07-19T04:02:00.000-07:00

I know in life we should not hope on something we can't get,some would say at least you trying to get it and some would say i told you so.But the real thing is i try and try until my heart stop feeling anything.I just feel nothing,cause there to much pain in it makes me numb and clueless.

Yeah it's just sound weird ,but it's happen to me.Now i can't love someone that easier as before,there always a little voice saying think before you act make sure you don't regret.Even sadness is not the worst feeling for me right now.

There always someone trying to get to know me,some give me fake hope and some give me a chance of a lifetime.But mostly makes me sick and remind me that true love doesn't exist,should i cry and die then? well of cause not.

I do believe when the time it should happen everything would be to late,yes i admit i like someone and i hope i've got a chance to know that person better.That person give me a hope that love is on the way wait for it,with that strong hope who wouldn't believe it,i wanna be in love but when the time i should meet this person there is no words hearing from it...where the hell this person goes??

Well i try to contact and search for It,suddenly i read a memo this person leave on the wall of facebook having dinner with someone and there is someone waiting for this person for almost 3 years.......

You've got to be kidding me,so are you telling me that all of this was a joke so you could know that you are still hot and can't get attention from others easily?.

And at that moment,my heart i knew that i'm to easy to be trick and be fool like a dumb ass.

what am i to that person?a toy?a slave that wait until that person ready?a doll?

whatever it is,it's hurt and i never even got a chance to meet this person.Why this person break my heart the most,because this person promised to me that i would be love and care.And now this person makes me waiting for something that unsure going to happen,I can't believe that i need someone this bad,i was crying all night when the same thing happen to me before and i have to convince myself that hing lie this won't happen to me ever again but it keeps repeatedly happen to me.

Some how in this sadness of painful time i manage to stand and walk without doubt,but i do lost myself behind,i lost all my feeling ,my sensitive side,my sincerity ,my smile,my honesty,my ability to feel and the most important thing i lost myself.I'm just not me blame it on this tragedy where it force me to change and do thing that i never done before,it's like i have been infected by a diseases and i don't have the remedy to cure myself.

I do wish that all the people that have been fool me have a worst time in their life,but it's not their fault this is just life i have to accept the reality that when comes to Love there nothing right about it.Our body makes us believe we are capable to do anything when we in love,so that we can be the best for the one we love.

I don't wanna blame anyone anymore,especially myself that i love the most.Why wait when i can enjoy my life with all the support that i've get from my friend and family right.So to everyone that have broke my heart,i just wanna say thanks u make me more matured and better.I do have a thick skin and a bit harsh on other but it all to protect myself from tearing apart and fall.

I write all this thing inside this blog so i can share my experience with other and express my feeling so it won't burden my brain that much.I don't care what people said about me anymore,the important thing right now is myself.I need time to heal and got back on track without any distraction from others.

Hope the future will be full with happiness and joyful moment...no more tears..

A Gift from Oman...

2010-07-16T22:58:00.000-07:00

Today i've meet my frined from Oman at coffee bean Pavilion,well it will be his last day at Malaysia tomorrow he will go back to Oman and start working.

He message me at the previous night saying that he got me something special,well as usual i always though it was gadget since i was a gadget freak.

So when i'm arrive there was a beg at the chair i'm gonna sit on,so i ask him is this yours?

He answer no it was your present that i've got..so i took it ,i was kinda heavy

So i ask him what is this?he said it's not electronic it was something that i would like to get as a present from someone else .So i tell him i open it when i arrive at home.Then we talk and talk about our day and plan..we end up our meeting with a hug

When i'm arrive at home i've open the present so this is what i've got......

This is the beg ,i though it was T-shirt at first,but inside of it is a box containing a perfume

OMG............................!

I know when the bottle this big the price range is around rm199 to rm290

but the smell was so good and last longer then i've thought.

for more infomation about the perfume please visit this website

http://www.pacorabanne.com/parfums/?lang=en#/gold

How do i say thanks to this special friend from Oman...

I do think that i've known him since 2008 ,but since it was in internet i never though it's real,but today in this year he proved it all real and alive.Thank to god

to You thanks for making my weekend better and cheerful

A FRIEND IN A MILLION

The Past & Future

2010-07-14T22:14:00.000-07:00

I use to think in life when we plan something well it will go smoothly as we plan.But unfortunately it's not,life is about gambling all we do today is something that we never though or predict would happen.When i'm entering college i do believe i will get a diploma and degree,then have a suitable job with good salary.I hope after that i could buy a house and car for myself.But when it's turn out i don't get any job at all,i don't further my study .I do feel my life are suck and shameful ,i really hate and envy to other who have job and get busy day by day.

But when i look back in life,i am a strong person.i survive by my own and can solve my own problem very well.I'm still here standing and alive,as time goes by i do thing i've got more mature then before.I do think for long term in my life,never gamble anything without get and advise and knowing what would happen.

I do fail a lot,in my study,love,work,exercise & lots of thing.But some how i never give up,i keep move on.I do feel scared and clueless .But when i'm in the darkest time in my life,there always a miracle happen .It's like a light shine my way out from a dark tunnel,surviving that moment make me more alert and matured time through time i've get better and better and help other with their problem .

If i could turn my life back i don't want to change anything ,me today is because of the past.I survive the one thing most human can't survive ,loneliness i do coop with it better then anyone.When i'm alone i know i can think better,and i always know Allah s.w.t. are at beside me all the time.To God thanks for making my life as it is,there nothing better then being me me.Amin

Mimpi Yg Ngeri Tapi Tidak Menakutkan....

2010-07-07T03:44:00.000-07:00

Semalam aku mimpi pasal orang minyak...macam tengok drama je..dari mula dia jadi org minyak sampailah dia dibunuh..berserta iklan lagi..aku sempat bangun ke toilet kemudian sambung tido dan sambung bermimpi...
apakah maksud mimpi ini??
rupanya bila aku menonton TV3 petang ini drama dendam orang minyak telah hampir ke akhir episod....promote aku tengok drama tv3 ke?
apa-apa pon mimpi-mimpi ini telah lama aku alami..beberapa kali dalam setahun.sebelum ni aku mimpikan kisah pelesit,kemudian orang minyak.Adakah ia kesan kerana tidur lewat atau pon akibat dari menonton TV yang kerap??

Sebelum tido aku baca ayat qusi dan al-fatihah serta doa tido,basuh kaki lagi.Tapi mimpi jugak,maybe aku suka bermimpi kot.Atau mungkin aku tertekan oleh itu minda aku cuba mengurangkan tekanan dengan berimaginasi tentang benda lain agar aku tidak tertekan memikirkan masalah hidup ini.Aku berharap mimpi ini tidak menjadi realiti.....Amin

A Special Tribute To Everyone That have make me fall in Love in the Past & Future

2010-07-06T06:57:00.000-07:00

This Epic Film remind me that true love always exist and can't be forgotten easily ,until now i still can't forget my past love ...and i'm just not sure about the future ....but if i have the chance i would like to build a relationship with my previous Love....

The song that really catch my attention is 'Bagaikan Sakti'
So Magical and remind me the moment when i'm in love...

Cinta datang
Tanpa diundang
Seumur masa tercipta

Dia datang bagai sakti
Bagai menyaksi mekar
Kembang pagi
Ohhh..

Cinta datang
Dengan senyuman
Panasnya membakar mentari

Wajah yang tergambar
Tak akan terpudar
Dari hati insan yang fana ini
Fana ini¡

Tak mungkin mentari
Akan terus sembunyi

Tiada sempadan
Tak bisa kulewati

Jika ini hakikatnya
Aku serahkan jiwa dan ragaku
Menanti muara sengsara
Jika ini ketentuannya

Jika ini hakikatnya
Aku serahkan jiwa dan raga
Jika ini ketentuannya
Kaukan jadi milikku jua

For everyone that in love out there,protect your love so it would grow and get stronger everyday..

My New Shoes

2010-07-05T03:56:00.000-07:00

It's already 6 month i don't even buy a shoe or T-shirt for my own self,why?because i don't think it's necessary ,actually i don't have the budget to do so.But last Sunday i accompany my best friend Saida shopping for her trip to Langkawi Island.We went to Sungai Wei shopping complex and Times Square to shop her new beg and flip flop.After tired of walking from one stall to another we decide to rest and have a drink at starbucks,i try the new lemon green tea ice blended it's taste like ginger but nice.Then Saida decide to buy a skirt,so i suggest to her why not u buy a short pant because you going to the beach right.She agree and manage to find one that suit her + a shirt flowy enough so she don't get the heat from the Island.

But then i saw a shoe that i like,
i always adore street wear shoe
because it easy to wear.no need to spend lot of time to wear one it's just easy and comfort.

This are my old shoe ,i already wear it for quite sometime it's already getting lame and old.And people keep looking at me like i can't afford to buy a shoe,hate it.But i do keep a good care for all my shoe but Everlast shoe can't be wash the colour just faded away.Maybe because of the cloth type are easy breathe and wash out one.

But Everlast will always lasting in my mind it brought me a lot of joy wearing this brand product on my foot....So goodbye Everlast and welcome New shoe
Thank God i can afford one

The Boring saturday...

2010-07-05T03:28:00.000-07:00

Last Saturday ,like the same most of my weekend i was bored to death after watching my cartoon Sicnhan & Doraemon i just wanna get out from my room and hangout with my friend.But my friend all kinda busy,so my last result is spending time with F at F home in Subang .Even my heart feel like this is a bad idea ,but i just push myself to make it work.I think the reason i come and visit F is because F home have wifi,i know kinda suck what kind of person do that.But i do just to get myself out from the house for a while.At 10.30PM i arrive safely at Asia Jaya ,Putra LRT Station.Luckily F already call and mention gonna late.So i sat and wait after 20 minutes F arrive and we head back to home.

Then we arrive at F apartment in front of thr Sime Darby Properties showroom opposite Symphony company building,at that time i just realize i'm doing a big mistake for giving a fake hope to F about me coming visit.

While F busy packing up stuff from the car ,i was like what am i suppose to do?i don't even like F anymore it's all history and i can't do this to F anymore.I decide that night not to come and visit F anymore ,being cruel is important at least F know i'm don't have interest on build a relationship anymore.

That night i try not to sleep early and spend my time surfing the internet and chatting with my friend until 3 AM .I though F already in a deep sleep already,but when i try to crawl on the bed F suddenly awake and hug me.OMG! F sleep on my arms,and it's heavy then i though.I don't like you at all i wont let myself sleeping uncomfortably .So as F try to cuddle with me and i was kinda in the WTF moment i suddenly wake up and go to say to F i wanna go to the toilet.Then i step out from the room and sleep on the couch,5 minutes later F walk to me and ask me why are u sleeping on the couch?.'I can't sleep with you on me and snuggle my body all night',then F said 'Ok i wont do anything to you,just go to sleep on bed '.I was relief after F say like that.The next morning,everything kinda weird but we have to move on.We even barely talk in the car anymore,i just hope F know that this won't work out as the fairytale story and hope F could move on.I really don't wanna be the person that telling the bad news.So this is it the end ..

Should i go or not?

2010-07-04T07:36:00.000-07:00

It all start early this year...i meet someone in the internet ,this person names was A..at first i was totally think this is B.S. well whos gonna believe someone in the internet right ?.But i took the chance ,well we start to get more closer and know each other but not that well.We start viewing each other web cam and call using the YM video call,it's free right so cut off the budget a lot.A work on Yemen for those who did know where is Yemen i have provide some information about the country down below.

This is Yemen official Flag

Yemen is one of the poorest countries in the Arab World, with 40% unemployment as of 2007, dwindling natural resources, and rapid population growth. Yemen has a weak economy compared to other Arab states, mainly due to Yemen having relatively little oil, having discovered it during the 1980s.

Yemen's economy depends heavily on the oil it does produce, and its government receives the vast majority of its revenue from oil taxes. But Yemen's oil reserves are expected to be depleted by 2017, with fears of a resulting economic collapse.Yemen does have large proven reserves of natural gas.^[11] Yemen's first liquified natural gas (LNG) plant began production in October 2009.

Rampant corruption is a prime obstacle to development in the country, limiting local reinvestments and driving away regional and international capital. The government has recently taken many measures to stamp out corruption, but efforts have been met with only partial success. Foreign investments remain largely concentrated around the nation's hydrocarbon industry.

Yemen (Arabic: اليَمَن al-Yaman), officially the Republic of Yemenis a country located on the Arabian Peninsula in Southwest Asia. It has an estimated population of more than 23 million people and is bordered by Saudi Arabia to the north, the Red Sea to the west, the Arabian Sea and Gulf of Aden to the south, and Oman to the east.

Yemen is just under 530,000 km² (204,634 sq mi) in land area. Its territory includes over 200 islands, the largest of which is Socotra, about 415 km (258 mi) to the south of mainland Yemen, off the coast of Somalia. Yemen is the only state in the Arabian Peninsula to have a purely republican form of government. Its capital is Sana'a. In Yemen, about 18% of the population live below US$1.25 a day.

Ok as you guys already read the information that i have provide below with ,the country was the poorest in arab region but according to the history Arab traders have long operated in Southeast Asia, trading in spices, timber and textiles. Most of the prominent Indonesians, Malaysians and Singaporeans of Arab descent are Hadhrami people with origins in southern Yemen in the Hadramawt coastal region. As many as 4 million Indonesians are of Hadrami descent and today there are almost 10,000 Hadramis in Singapore.The Hadramis emigrated not only to Southeast Asia but also to East Africa and the Indian subcontinent. Maqil were a collection of Arab Bedouin tribes of Yemeni origin who migrated westwards via Egypt. Several groups of Yemeni Arabs turned south to Mauritania and by the end of the 17th century century, they dominated the entire country.

So the re is a lot of Singaporean and Malaysian people living there,i have heard A voice and saw A face so many time.A never not calling me everyday single day.Kinda weird and control freak person,but it's just not enough to make me feel comfort with this Love long distance thing.I never meet A in my whole life,so now A telling me that A will open a cafe and bakery shop in Yemen.I just want to ignore it,but suddenly A want me to visit A at Yemen for once to proove this is real thing .Before i forgot A was a Malaysian citizen working in Yemen,A have degree from Paris in fashion design.But i don't believe even a bit,i have already watch,read and heard about people been tricked to go oversea and force to be human slave,kill, smuggle drug and illegal stuff out from the country to across the world.

As i try to ignore A ,A suddenly want me to ask A friend myself about what A job and background for my satisfaction.But should i just believe and proceed to meeting A live in person for once to proved that all this are true and not a joke at all.Or should i just ignore A friend story about A and move on with my life?

My heart want to meet A and find out myself about this fantasy thing that have been going on for a while,i think everything gonna be ok because the ticket for flight for both way to Yemen and back to Kuala Lumpur are at my hand.But my mind keep saying remember the national geography story about the girl have been force to smuggle drug from Bangladesh and get caught then been send to prison for 4 years.I really don't know what to do or think right now.I know this is like once in a life time thingy but i must and have to think about the long effect to my life and my family.Should i go and find out the truth or just ignore it and move with my life........................To Be Continued

Like Falling From The Sky and Hit By A Bullet Train

2010-07-02T09:01:00.000-07:00

Honestly,This feeling have been in me for so long.I couldn't remember when i start to have it,i don feel lonely and empty lot of time.Thing just get worst when i'm jobless and alone,life was so boring.I love attention that i've get from other people,but most of them want something in return.I do ask my self a lot ' where should i go?' or ' when this thing feeling will be gone?'.

Sometime i even believe that i have mental illness,but it maybe because i'm depress and kinda have nobody to talk with or someone that understand me.People always make promises that they can't fulfilled it to me,like i always here ,i understand you,but do they?Maybe i kinda expect more then just word,in my life i always there to support and help my friend .I'm also a good listener ,when my friend have problem i try to give them solution and accompany them to make they feel comfort.But for once where is the person that gonna be there when i need someone to talk ,hug or listen to all my problem?

Yes i do fill frustrated with my life,but i never think of suicide because it will never solve my problem.And i admit i always try to avoid meeting other people,it's because i just can't don't want to be a good listener or problem solver anymore.I want to meet and know someone that can understand me,know what i like and don't a person who's not that selfish to always think about their self only.Well maybe it's hard to find one,but i exist so there must be other out there.Oh i wish it will come true.

So please people don't judge me and think i'm and angle that gonna help you when trouble comes.I'm a human to ,i have my own need and problem.Yes i do seek help and try to change my life to avoid madness,yes i do avoid society and avoid anything that can hurt or make me feel uncomfortable .
Only god understand me,most of the time i pray and seek guide from God.God Bless Me..

People That i've Meet

2010-07-01T06:53:00.000-07:00

This is zai meet him last year

Ben meet him at birthday party arif -2009

ni kawan ben...

This is ifsyar my friend since 2006 waktu kerja di Mcdonald

Dayang-dayangKu Miera dan Sakinah meet them when i'm studying at PTPL AMPANG College 2008

This is adam meet him 2008

My friend ikhwan and his friend -2008

Ehsan the best hangout friend already been friend for 2 years since 2008

the weird kids -2009

Ehsan friend from philippine 2009

this is fizul sakinah friend our guide to theater world

This is Fiq... 2006

Akhmar my friend from Sungai Nibong.Penang .We begin ourfriendship starting year 2006

Sufian the spoil kid,now he in melaka if not mistaken-2009

Kerol Azhar The kid with brain - 2009

Azrul the busy man we hang out a lot but now he in JB -2008

Latif the one with weird attitude -2008

Nabil now he studying in German -2006

Nard the girl gone bad soon gonna get married soon -2008
Ayie,shidee and adam..meet them at the mummy return premier -2008

Remiul ,the one with a big smile - 2008

Kem Kardashian ,my gym partner and the one that never judge other and support me a lot -2009

Hady the one that always trying to find attention but hsis good - 2010

Amirul the one that have Samantha personality -2010

This Is Faiz ,The one that would bring me to his hometown and spend time knowing the family and his place of birth Kepala Batas.Thanks Faiz -2010

Syiran the person who show me great places around Penang Island..Thanks Syiran - 2006

Paul is reed friend meet him at Langkawi Island -2009

Reed the guy that on my side when i got through my first flight experience to Langkawi -2009

Sobri Zakaria We Fight A lot always have something to argue about,-2009

Hafizul the one with laser beam mouth - 2009

Fairul i meet him at starbucks christmas party 2009

Firdaus PR in Sime Darby Property Company -2008

Movie Day

2010-06-28T09:47:00.001-07:00

Today lucky me one of my friend invite me watching movie and have dinners.I just accept the invite immediately ,kinda guys day out i guess

First movie is at 3PM ,i was late OMG so sorry he3..

Here some info about the movie we watch;Sex and the City 2 is a 2010 American romantic comedy film, the sequel to the 2008 film Sex and the City, which is based on the HBO TV series of the same name.As of June 18, 2010, the film's total domestic gross is $90 million, and $157 million outside the US as of $247 million in total worldwide.My review about the movie is ,it's great always give me something an answer or guide in having a relationship,marriage and sex.

After finish watching the movie at 5.30PM we go eat at Tony Romas,Nice place is it.The food was in American size,Kinda to much we all kinda full eat the appetiser .But he already order the main cos just eat it till we have a food coma i guess,Then come the main cos,Enjoy the food the waiter said.

This is my friend plate,kinda full with an ocean of shrimp .

And this was my plate,chicken my favourite Protein sorce,and i enjoy it then i kinda seet back and let my stomach rest so it can process the food.

At 7.30PM we enter the theater hall at watch our second movie
Here some info about it ;Knight and Day, (formerly titled Wichita and Trouble Man) is a 2010 action comedy film starring Tom Cruise and Cameron Diaz. The film, directed by James Mangold, is Cruise and Diaz's second on-screen collaboration following the 2001 film Vanilla Sky
.It's opening number 5 At $20.5 million, the total U.S. weekend box office take for Knight and Day was the worst result for an action film starring Tom Cruise in 20 years.My review about this movie,it was awsome i love watching spy and action movie remind me of best action drama series ALIAS...i've enjoy killing time with my friend,it's help me to kill my stress

Visiting Bangi & Movies Marathon

2010-06-28T09:25:00.000-07:00

Some of my friends want me to write less and show more picture,i guess well why not.So here some of the activities that i do this past few day.

i arrived at bangi around 10PM ,well at KL maybe 10PM was still busy and pack with people but at Bangi at 10PM it was like living in rural area .When i arrive at the station people was like running from tornado everyone wanna get home early i guess.

The next morning i woke up early and go for a jog,it was a nice view.My friend have a nice house,but i don't see any neighbor that morning.But still,i've enjoy the scenery.

When i'm open the gate on the outside of the home,suddenly 'Buncit' thats what they call it.He was right in front of me begging for a food,with his beautiful eyes but his not an average pets.Buncit kinda wild,u give food u get to touch me if you don't bye bye.But i kinda like Buncit he bring joys to my day because of the name....hehehe

That evening before i went back home,i took a picture right in front of the house.It's like living in country side,nice and quite .A trip that kept me thinking of joyness living far from city and from rapid life.Hope get the chance to go there again.

iSO 4 FOR iPod Touch & iPhone are available Now for download

2010-06-24T00:11:00.000-07:00

Today,i know it's kinda late but who cares .I'm so excited ,now my iPod Touch have more extra features with iSO 4.This are some of the features ;

Multitasking

I can create and custom playlists right on my iPod Touch

Now i can organise apps into one folder with drag and drop simplicity

With iBooks i can buy and read all kinda book digitally without have to go to the book shop

And there lots more other future ;
Email will be in one unified inbox
Background can be change
i can gift apps to my friend and family
bluetooth keyboard support
Faces and places in photos
Spell Checking
and i can stay connected to my wifi even when i'm sleep
and there is 100 000 apps to be downlaod

Thanks to APPLE for making my life better and excited again.

Why Is it always turn out like this?

2010-06-22T07:18:00.000-07:00

My Love Story

I never good in having a building a relationship for love or the word in malaysia is 'couple'.I have a secret admire in high school and that is my first attempt to build a relationship,but in ends when i focusing my mind on SPM.But after i enter college world it seem that life just changing,i've become this 'hot' person,well i jog for the rest 2 years after finishing high school and stick to a strict diet just to get thinner and better.The result is so awsome ,thanks to god.But people just don't want to me me sincerely.There always some other hide agenda,that obviously i can see with my own eyes.
In college i try to behave myself,i never seduce anyone or play with anyone feeling just act as a friend thats it.But in 2007 2 week before ramadhan month i meet a girl.At that time i was 19 years old and she was 25,the gap of our age kinda become a big question 'will it work?'.But somehow i kinda getting closer to her,well she have cry at my shoulder and ask me out for a date.Well what kinda guy wanna reject a girl like her,polite,have steady jobs,car,house basically a steady life.So i just ask her to be my friend first,when i'm ready we move forward to another level.Then Raya Aidilifitri Month arrive,i ask her to accompany me to visit all my friend and to my grandmother house.Everything when well,but the next day bad things happen.When she is so happy and enjoy the moment because we have meet each other family,she expecting thing will be more serious from me.I was 19 ,i'm not ready to be that serious yet.Then my mom ask me ,
are you seriously want that girl to be your girl friend?,Your grandmother says that she look older then you.'.Then my sister add on 'yeah! her age is same as me,i don't want to call her little sister just because she was your girlfriend'.I was like shock,what should i do? i never declared we are couple or boyfriend and girlfriend.And how am i suppose to tell her that my grandmother,mom and sister don't think we are fit together.Then that night i tell her that it's best if we just be friend after this .She call me and shouting and mocking me.I reply with a calm voice and strongly pointed that never declared anything.The next day i've got a message from her friend,Are u happy now?destroying other people life.I was shock,i never ever want to destroy other people life.Then later at night she call me and mention she's in hospital because she eat a bottle of pain killer,and she said that if she can walk right now she would go to the street and let cars heat her and die instantly .I try my best to advise her not to do so,i was crying listen to her words.It's like i almost dying there,i would sure that no other guy would answer a call and to entice their ex-Gf.But somehow .I manage to answer with calm and try to entice her to pray to god,dieing wont solve anything.But she still stubborn ,so i put the phone down and try to think what will happen next in my life and her life.The next day she message me,'i'm at HBKL right now.'.Then i put my brave face and told all the story to my parent,my mom ask have i promise her anything.I answer calmly ,'no mom i never - ever promise her anything'.My mom offer me that she will go and talk to her and ask her to forget me.I hardly decline it ,i said to my mom 'NO! please don't,just leave her alone and forget this '.Actually from that day until now i never find or feel any feeling that can be describe as near as falling in love again.It all just because of lust,which i already bored with.
I meet few other girl after that,but i never want to fall in love again.The tragedy makes me realize that if i want to fall in love make sure it's gonna be forever ,girl's have more hormone than guys.So their feeling are sharper than their brain,sometimes i do make mistake by treating them specially and spoil them .But i just wanna make friend,not be couple or love partner.I don't know when i'm gonna fall in love again and ready for this.Why i always decline people invitation for a date,the answer is because i'm not ready.I don't wanna waste anybody time for me that not sure about anything,they mike says ' hey! let's try to build a relationship first'.But is it worth for me to try when there so many time i broke other people hope and feeling just by not accepting their love?.I don't care if people says that i'm snobbish or arrogant ,as long i don't hurt anyone feeling and especially my own feeling then it's fine for me.What more can i ask than a peaceful life,but i admit that sometime i feel very lonely,gladly my best friend are there to accompany me.But until when?

Have i lost everything ?will i get the chance again?will i be part of this thing called love?
or i will stay single and lonely like this for long time?When should i start finding the one?or should i just let the times heal my heart and let the love come by it's self to me......Whatever happen i let go decide,the bad comes from us and the goods come from God.I never gonna give up,maybe it's just not the right time yet.

My Best Friend & My Love

2010-06-22T04:10:00.000-07:00

This is just a bit of my life story

Friendship is something that i can imagine it would be,i think i can't live without my bestfriend.They the person that always there beside me when i have problems and seek for advise or in sadness.I Have been friend with them for 13 years and that was a big numbers cause it's show how well we know each other and knows all our secret that have been kept by us deep inside our mind.There have been some tragedy happen to me like my registration day azmi whos the one accompany me ,when i'm in hospital due to my tumor at my back of neck operation they the one accompany me and calm me and when my ex girlfriend try to commit suicide well that really proof that they are my true friend.Along this all tremendous tragedy and sad story we all getting closer and know each other flaws + specialties .Thanks to god for bringing us together

I meet my best friend azmi since standard 5,but at that point of life we kinda not knowing the meaning of bestfriend.What we know is that we are a click that do stuff together and live like there is no tomorow.But through out our life lots of thing happen especially when at high shcool because we getting closer and backing up each other even sometimes we fight and argue a lot but in the end we still bestfriend.The harder it get the better and the stronger our relation become.But the most funniest moment on our life is when at form 4 & 5 .We have a friend name Noramin,well basically at that time azmi kinda have been bullied by noramin a lot even noramin was 10 times smaller then him and i was like encourage noramin to do so.Kinda bad ass right,but it all was in azmi willing i guess.Through out that 2 years there a lot of funny thing happen to noramin and we became the witnesses ,but in the end of form5 at the last day of SPM noramin break up our friendship just because we call his home phone number.Yeah i know what a jerk,are u 5 years old boy? i bet you are noramin.When everyone ask ,we just answer with pride and sincerely .Then people keep laughing when meeting him it became one of the biggest joke of that years.After SPM finish azmi and me work together at burger king,but then he got an offer studying at UiTM Melaka for diploma in buisness and i study at PTPL Shah Alam in diploma medical laboratory.But that not stopping our friendship,we do meet and sometime i go and visit azmi at melaka that what true friend do.

Her name was Saida Putri,we start become friend when we at form 4.Firstly she was kinda quite person,but after finish high school we start to get closer i introduce her to a better job and guide her with all of her girls problem and protect her from stranger.Kinda couple but that what we are.Well saida and azmi knows most of my secret and the detail on what ever happen in my life,because they the one i call if i have problem.

This is My love,wanna why?.Here the story goes,Firstly his name was black because most of his body hair is black an easy name to be call right.He starting to became my pets since i'm at form 4
on years 2003 so approximately Black has became my pet for about 9 years .They day he came at my house ,at that time he was hungry and kinda wild.With his eyes and voice i attract to him.Then decide to kept him,but not in home just a pet outside the house.Because my sister have asthma ,and i don't want he to pee inside my house.So starting that day until now every time i open the door in morning Black will be the one who at the front and kissing my legs,and i can't never live without him.He is legend for me,the one and only cat that i ever manage to kept alive for 9 years even he broke his leg,have injuries,scratch my finger,bite my legs,bite my sister leg and pee at my dad cars.My life would not be perfect without seeing him everyday.

And here some of the memories me and my best friend have done .Saida always hang out with me most of the time.We are the outgoing person,enjoy movies and hangout at starbucks

Azmi and me enjoying our time with saida at genting theme park,miss it very much.Hope there a lots more things we will been through together.Wish all the best to you guys that have support and being my friend all this time our journey will never end.

Tired & Bored

2010-06-22T03:36:00.000-07:00

For once in my life,i wish that i don't have to meet anybody i knew in this world and answer the question that hurt me the most 'Have you got a job?' .I think i've already answer it more then thousand time,sometimes i just wanna scream to everyone 'shut up ,just please shut up!'.It's very depressing and making me outta of my mind,maybe it seem like a minor problem for others.I have try my best,i search and ask .Not being choosy but have to if u gonna work for long time ,i want it to be suitable.If i just grab anything i know in the end i will be crazy,better i work for something that i like and willing to.There even some of my friend keep pushing me do something that i don't want to,like working as telemarketing and customer service.Well at first i declined generously ,because it's not worth it.The workplace far from home,whos gonna send me to work?there no public transport and the salary wont enough to support the taxi charge.I've been working since i have finish high shcool,i start by mopping floor and taking out the garbage at burger king at KLCC .It was an embarrassing moment for me,everyone see me take out the dustbin out from burger king to the lower level.Then i try working at 7-Eleven,there i learn how to work on shift schedule & to be take care myself from robbers.So please to all my friend ,don't easily judging me if i declined all the rough labor work offer . Why because i have experienced it,i realize that it's not worth it for me right now to work my ass out for RM400 per month salary.Now i have diploma in Medical Laboratory Technology,it's can help me find a better job.Maybe it will take a longer time but i rather wait and suffer better then working again at burger king or 7-Eleven not because it's embarrassing but because it's just not relevant for me to work there anymore.And telemarketing,come on i don't want to answer a call if someone wanna sell me something & believe me i'm not good in selling stuff better then selling myself.But in the end i realize and have to accepted that not everyone knows what i feel and what i'm going through right now.So i have to answer that painful question,even it's really making me tension,mad and depressed .I just wish that everyone kinda forgot to ask me the question and talk about others thing,it will help my blood pressure back to normal level.So to whoever read this Please,i beg u guys don't ask me that question.Honestly it's kinda begin to be personal,and if i've got a job i would gladly told everybody without avoiding or try to change the subject.I pray to god i will get a suitable and good job for better future.

Back To Nature

2010-06-19T09:17:00.000-07:00

It all start on one night,after i got back from wedding event and dating someone that reject me . I feel very frustrated,exhausted,sleepy & misery.But suddenly my friend call that night and ask me if i would like to come and visit him the next day.Even i was like no mood to talk or to meet anyone ,i just put my smile face and ask him the direction. The next day,i woke up at 8 am and get ready to go somewhere i never been to .But before that must have my breakfast first after taking shower,breakfast is important it give our body a kick start in the morning and boost our metabolism

.Then i take a train to KL and change train that go to my friend place,at first i'm kinda skeptical about the train .Well i never been there & i'm afraid if i take the wrong train,suddenly there a guy walk to me and ask me for direction.I answer with confident and smile,even my mind kinda not sure where am i going.After waiting for 15 minutes the train arrived ,suddenly my heart pumping plus due to the adrenaline rush.I sit nearby the windows ,so i can see at what station the train stop.

I admit that actually i'm trying to run from all my problem , i just can't stand it people treating me like garbage sometimes & it's hurting me + now i'm jobless,can continue my study,got no where to go,my friend kinda busy all the time.So this is kinda a break for me,go somewhere that nature is still fresh and available because even that i'm born in the city but my heart and mind prefer living in the rural area where nature grows wild and rapidly .So that's why i say yes to my friend when he ask me to visit him ,i need this more then anything.

Then the operator mention the train gonna start moving and enjoy the ride.After the train move out from KL i feel like i'm on a journey to find calm and peacefull in my heart and mind.A long the journey i found nature ,the green grass and tree no road .Even the journey take a long time ,but i'm glad because i know i will enjoy the view a long the trail.

After 20 minutes i have pass Putrajaya and few other town,my mind start to thing what should i do with my life right now?what is the best solution?.I'm not ready to make a commitment but i'm lonely,i'm ready to start working but i still didn't get a suitable job,i wanna be healthy and strong again like before but i'm to lazy to workout.Why there always an answer or reason that i give for all this question in my mind.Sometime i feel like dying because i don't know what to do,i was an active person before suddenly i have nothing to do and became lazy like bears .Even i hate it so much and can't accept it ,in the end it leave me no choice.

Then i realize i have to start from the base like before,i must accepted that i was fat lazy person within this period and i must change little by little so my mind would not get shock with the result and force i put to myself to change this bored and worthless life.

Then i heard sound of the operator talking ,we are now arriving at ....... please disembark now.Firstly i kinda not sure about it,am i at the right station?suddenly the station name board appear right in front of me nearby the window where i sit at.I urgently get out from the train and find my exit.

Right in front the train station,my friend already waiting in his car.The journey took me 30 minutes to arrive but then i enjoy it because the cozyness and great view.Feel so excited ,i'm out of KL ,then my friend took me around the place and show his house.He just move in so there no other then just a bed and news paper + his laptop.Yes it's very bored there,then i ask him lets go out and eat i'm hungry.Before going out for lunch he show me the easiest way to come to his place if i wanna visit next time.I was like yes,yes,yes but in my mind i don't even remember anything,but he talk like he really hope i will come visit again.Then i said why not if i just take the train it's much more easier and faster + cheaper ,and he said yeah correct then we laugh to each other that conversation was going no where .

After 30 minutes drive we arrive at the restaurant and next to it was a movie theater.We both agreed to watch movie after lunch.So we split,i go buy the movie ticket and he reserve a place in the restaurant.After 10 minutes lining up in front the movie theater to buy the ticket,at last i got it.Then i walk inside the restaurant to find my friend,we sit nearby the windows the scenery was lovely.We eat nachos with sour sauce and ice lemon tea (My Favourite drink) for our appetizer.

My stomach already kinda full,so i take a break first then i continue eating my main cost a special cook chicken with potatoes chip and honey cream.It taste sweet and sour and the chip just make it more delicious ,after eat we talk about future and gadget as always.After a while body give signal to go pee because of to much drinking ice lemon tea.We pay the bill and go to the movie theater ,go to the toilet then prepare to watch the movie ,title A-Team.The movie was awsome packed with action,humor and romance.I give 3 star for it,after done watching movie.It's time for me to get back,even i have to change train and took bus back to my home.I think it's worth it,that day i feel like i'm free from any problem and distraction.Nobody know me and feels like i was a brand new person.Even my problem still not solve but it help a lot in solving my misery and tension in this short period.Lastly i shake my friend hand and say thanks for inviting me here.So happy and gladly i come here visiting u,my mood have change .I don't feel so moody anymore and willing to accept my life as it is and keep trying for the best in what i think the best for me.

When i arrived at home,i get ready to go to bed.Before i sleep i make a wish,i hope this is the beginning of my long journey from small to bigger journey.Then i fall a sleep with a smile on my face.It may kinda bored for some of u that have read my blog,but this is me one of the kind person.

My Dream Gadget

2010-06-15T10:03:00.000-07:00

Aku mula jatuh cinta terhadap benda yang digelar 'Gadget' ini semenjak aku berusia 13 tahun apabila aku mula mempunyai radio sendiri di biliku.Aku sukakan muzik dari barat hinggalah ke timur,kemudian apabila aku mula memasuki usia belasan tahun dan melalui zaman remaja .Aku giat aktif melakukan aktiviti luar seperti bermain badminton,pergi tuisyen dan melepak dirumah kawan-kawan.Pada zaman itu MP3 belum lagi wujud dan yang paling terbaru dan canggih ialah cakera padat(CD) ,namun aku tidak berkemampuan untuk memilikinya lagipun waktu itu minda aku lebih ke permainan komputer kerana ia satu kegilaan bagi remaja sewaktu itu.Tapi dah takdir,satu hari aku ke KLCC bersama keluarga aku ,kemudian mama singgah di Watson sebuah kedai serbaneka.Aku tidak berminat memasukinya namun aku tertarik dengan satu benda didalam nya ,kelihatan sebuah pemain kaset iaitu 'WalkMan' berjenaman AIWA .Aku mula meratapinya dan melihat segala inci alat itu.Dalam hatiku berkata canggih,kemudian aku melihat harganya......wow rm58 sahaja....!walaupun aku masih tidak pandai dalam segi kewangan namun aku tahu jumlah itu tidak begitu tinggi.Kemudian tiba sahaja dirumah aku mula mencari alternatif untuk mengumpul duit dan mencari idea untuk mendapatkan alat yang menjadi impian aku ketika itu.Namun aku gagal ,biasalah remaja asyik enjoy duit dgn beli komiks dan permainan video serta makanan.Aku pun mula lupa dengan 'WalkMan' itu ,tiba-tiba suatu hari aku mendapat berita gembira apabila mama dengan sukacitanya ingin membelikan aku 'WalkMan' itu untuk aku dengan alasan mama ada duit lebih.Aku begitu bersyukur dengan rezeki yang dilimpahkan kepada diriku ini oleh Allah S.W.T.,apabila dapat sahaja 'WalkMan'itu dintangan aku.Terus aku mencapai kaset untuk dimainkan,itulah pertama kali aku menyumbatkan earphone kedalam telinga aku.Sedapnya lagu ini,kemudian aku mula mengumpul pelbagai kaset dari pelbagai artis.Dari situ aku mula bijak menggunakan alatan yang digelar 'Gadget' ,dari situ juga aku mula mengenali yang radio ada pelbagai frekuensi dan stesen.selang beberapa tahun kemudian aku membeli 'WalkMan' baru jenama aiwa.Pada tahun 2002 aku dapat hadiah 'WalkMan' Sony ,canggih dan smart walaupun zaman 'DiscMan' dah bermula.Aku tidak pedulikannya kerana aku hanya mampu membeli kaset berbanding CD yang begitu mahal sewaktu itu.Namun zaman berubah dan juga begitu 'Gadget' ,tahun 2003 kebanyakan rakan-rakan sekolah mempunyai telefon bimbit semuanya jenama NOKIA.Aku tidak mampu membelinya namun aku bersyukur kakak aku mampu jadi aku tidka begitu ketinggalan dalam dunia serba canggih ini kerana aku reti menggunakan telefon bimbit.Selepas SPM aku bekerja dan membeli telefon bimbit sendiri,zaman itu telefon bimbit berkamera baru muncul.aku hanya mampu beli yang tiada camera dan tiada warna 2100.Apabila memasuki kolej aku menukar telefon bimbit kepada NOKIA 3100 ,kualiti gambar dan bunyinya 5 bintang.Puas hati membelinya,namun jodoh tak panjang sewaktu aku jogging ak tinggalkan dibawah tempat duduk motor kawan aku .Bila balik dari jogging ada minachi datang katanya ada orang mencuri barangan dibawah tempat duduk motor kawan.Aku redha je,kawan aku dah separuh gila.Jauh disudut hati aku mencaci minachi itu,kalau dah nampak takkan tengok je kot telefonlah polis atau jerit meminta tolong.Tapi aku paham perempuan lemah sedikit dan mudah panik,aku pun pulanglah dengan muka sedih tapi hati aku tak sedih seperti aku tahu yang aku akan dapat penggantinya.Hampir 2bulan aku tidak memiliki telefon bimbit,semua orang tidak dapat menghubungi aku seronok hidup .Aku lebih ceria tiada panggilan dan message dari individu-individu asing yang cuba mengenali aku.(Budget Hot sekejap) Hehehehe.

Namun pada tahun 2007 ada ura-ura mengatakan APPLE sebuah company yang berjaya mengjenamakan semula companynya dengan teknologi baru dari Amerika Syarikat,ingin mengeluarkan telefon bimbit dan mendapat kritikan hebat dari pelbagai pihak serta pujian.Pada penghujung 2007 lahirlah sebuah telefon yang dinamakan iPhone 2G(Second Generation) mulanya aku tidak tertarik kerana prepaid tidak boleh digunakan bersama iPhone ini ,jadi aku kekalkan minat terhadap NOKIA sebuah jenama yang tidak asing dimalaysia.Namun pada suatu hari aku ke cybercafe .Rumah ada komputer tapi internet tidak mampu dilanggan,lagipun zaman tu internet bukanlah satu keperluan sangat.Aku melawati laman web APPLE,memang canggih websitenya teratur berserta video cara mengguna.Tapi aku tidak mampu jadi lupakan sahaja,penghujung 2008 iPhone 3G mula dijual.
Pada masa itu minat aku mula timbul,kerana ia bukan sekadar telefon bimbit tapi ia mempunyai pelbagai aplikasi lain berbading jenama NOKIA,SAMSUNG,SONY ERICSSON.Dan yang penting internetnya laju dan mudah dilayari kerana teknologi sentuhnya yang canggih.

Pada bulan July 2009 ,iPhone 3Gs dilancarkan kelebihannya dari segi camera dan OS3.0 (software),minat aku bertambah seribu kali ganda,walaupun aku sudha memiliki telefon bimbit yang mempunyai camera dan boleh memainkan MP3 dengan baik tapi aku tetap menaruh minatterhadap iPhone seperti cinta pandang pertama.Tiba-tiba satu hari aku terlihat iPod Touch 1G(generasi Pertama) milik rakanku,Canggih sama seperti iPhone cuma tidak boleh Call,SMS dan mengambil gambar.Harganya pun murah rm994 sahaja berbanding iPhone rm2490,jadi aku pun tekad membeli iPod bersama sahabat baik aku Saida Putri

Cantikkan?
Aku bersyukur kepada Allah s.w.t. kerana akhirnya aku dapat membeli iPod Touch 2G(Generasi Kedua)kelebihannya ada bluetooth,pembesar suara dan kelajuan pemprosesan maklumat kerana dibina dari mikrocip baru.Semenjak itu ,aku mula pakar mengenai iTunes dan aplikasi-aplikasi yang dijual didalam iTunes serta koleksi MP3 aku lebih teratur dan menarik.Bagi aku sehari tanpa iPod amat membosankan jika keluar rumah pasti iPod menjadi teman untuk bermain games,mendengar lagu ,menonton movie ataupun melayari internet(Facebook).Dan kini setelah aku mendapat diploma aku boleh mula bekerja dan mengumpul duit untuk membeli 'Gadget' yang aku idamkan iaitu iPhone.Ia seperti suatu obsessi,namun pada aku ia ialah suatu impian kerana bukan semua orang yang membelinya tahu cara menggunakannya dan secara logiknya dunia semakin canggih jika kita tidak mahu mempelajari teknologi baru maka ketinggalanlah negara dan diri sendiri dari arus teknologi yang senantiasa berkembang setiap masa.Dengan lahirnya pelbagai alatan yang membantu kehidupan serta memudahkan kehidupan manusia,kehidupan kita bertambah teratur dan jurang antara manusia dari satu tempat ke tempat lain dapat dikurangkan.Sememangnya ada kebaikkan dan keburukkan dari teknologi ini namun ia semua ditentukan oleh individu intu sendiri untuk menggunakannya mengikut kehendak hati masing-masing.Semoga cita-citaku tercapai.......

Seperti Hidup Tanpa Harapan

2010-06-14T08:14:00.001-07:00

Pada 19/2/2010 aku tiba-tiba demam,pada mulanya aku sangka demam biasa.Tapi apabila aku sudah sampai ke singapura dan berjumpa sahabatku disana.badan aku mula lemah dan tidak bermaya seperti tubuhku dipenuhi batu-bata menyebabkan aku tidak boleh bangun dan terbaring di katil seperti menunggu maut.Pada keesokan paginya aku pulang ke Kuala Lumpur dan terus ke hospital untuk mendapatkan rawatan.Hari pertama dihospital aku langsung tidak mampu untuk makan dan minum hanya baring keletihan.Hari kedua bacaan platelet aku menurun ke paras 90mikroliter,kemudian hari ketiga turun lagi ke paras 50 mikroliter. Doktor mula menasihatkan agar aku mengambil pelbagai buah-buahan untuk menaikkan jumlah platelet aku.Pada hari keempat ,rakan sekerja mama datang dan memberi cadangan agar aku diberi sup daun betik dan sup belut.Kemudian ibuku mendengar cadangan rakannya dan mula memberi aku sup daun betik yang sungguh pahit itu(Tuhan aje yang tahu)aku dipaksa telan sup daun betik dan makan sup belut.Kemudian sakit perut cirit-birit,terus hilang selera dan tidak bermaya.Hasil dari amalan minum sup daun betik itu jumlah platelet aku berjaya naik ke paras 45mikroliter selepas jatuh pada paras 40mikroliter.Keesokkan harinya pada hari selepas diambil darah ,keputusan menunjukkan platelet aku jatuh ke paras 20mikroliter ( jumlah platelet pada paras 80-100 harus dirawat segera dalam unit rawatan rapi untuk mengelakkan pendarahan organ dalaman) doktor mula mencadangkan aku menjalani tranfusi darah dalam bentuk Fresh Frozen Plasma yang dicairkan pada suhu badan kemudian ditransfusi ke dalam tubuh pesakit.Syukur transfusi darah tu tidak menyakitkan,namun aku mula mendapat reaksi transfusi badan aku mula gatal-gatal dan hati aku mula membengkak.Aku sukar untuk tidur dan bernafas ,pada malam itu doktor mula memberi aku tranfusi vitamin untuk menggalakkan penghasilan platelet dalam tubuh aku.Mulanya aku tidak rasa sakit sewaktu tranfusi vitamin itu,namun setelah lama sedikit rasa seperti paku dimasukkan dalam salur darah aku ini.Aku hanya mampu menggenggam erat selimut dan bantal untuk menahan kesakitan.Hari keenam platelet aku jatuh bawah paras 10 mikroliter dan hidung aku mula berdarah,doktor memberi amaran jika paras paltelet tidak naik maka aku akan dibawa ke unit rawatan rapi dimana peluang aku hanya tinggal 50/50 sahaja kemudian malam itu kakak aku menelefon aku.Dia memberitahu yang mama menangis bimbangkan nyawa aku diambang maut dan berharap aku sembuh secepat mungkin.Malam itu aku berdoa agar tuhan panjangkan nyawaku dan sembuhkan aku dari penyakit ini.

Pada hari ke
tujuh hari terakhir aku dihospital,doktor menyampaikan berita gembira yang platelet aku mula meningkat(Alhamdulillah)dan aku boleh pulang kerumah.Dengan gembiranya aku mula mengemas pakaian dan barangan dan berangkat pulang.Dalam sejarah hidup aku ini adalah kali kedua aku berhadapan dengan maut,aku amat bersyukur aku berjaya melawan virus denggi ini walaupun selang beberapa minggu kemudian salah seorang artis tanah air meninggal dunia akibat denggi berdarah.Apa akan berlaku jika aku lewat mendapatkan rawatan dan tidak berada di hospital.Segala dugaan yang diberi dariMu aku redha menghadapinya Ya Allah Ya TuhanKu.

2009-04-01T11:02:00.000-07:00

31 march 2009 .the day my result been release at college.As usual my target is 3.50 and above,but my CPGA is dropping to 2.93.At that time my heart is beating faster than ever,i can't believe that it happen.But then i'm glad that i'm not failling and already finish my study,hournestly i can't accept it untill now.My plan is to continue my degree if i've got 3.00 and above,but now it seem like i can't do anything.It's like the world falling on me and everything i've build have been destroy and dissapear.I lost everything ,then i meet my mother to show her my result,and she was shock .She said that this was humilate and awfull,my heart stop and feels like this was my last day of happyness.I don't know what to do,or where to go.I have to start over back again,and stop playing around.'Oh tuhanku aku minta pertolongan dan petunjukmu agar aku berjaya didunia dan akhiratmu' Amin.