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Bangkok 2012 : What's is Like to Travel Solo? #3

2012-01-28T00:19:00.000+08:00

Bangkok : Where Taxis are colorful. Put it all together = is Rainbow on the streets!

I never seen so many colors of taxis in my whole life, until Bangkok. They have all kind of colors, you just name it. It's all new cars (Toyota Vios, mostly) and colorful. And it became so beautiful because they didn't assigned specific colors for specific district, or location. They just colored it as a part of streets decoration. That's how Thailand or Bangkok Tourism do their thing. They paid attention to every little details in making their city looks lively in day time. Not just depending on neon lights

I still have little hard skin on my right palm when Im writing this. It is from the blister I got while dragging my luggage up and down Bangkok city. That's the most meaningful souvenir I got for myself from this trip. I proved to myself that Im not all Barbie. I can drag my heavy luggage under sunny day on busy streets of a stranger's land, with my hair all messed up and sweaty armpit. I can.

After checking my room and freshen up, I can't wait to see Bangkok up above the air plane view (no more bird's view) Because birds cant fly this high :)

Or, maybe SuperBird.

Thailand's first and only challenging open- air, 360 degrees revolving view point, located on the highest floor of the building

I present to you, Beyond Metropolis -

Tak lah... tak gayat pun.. hehe

What I tell you about rainbow on the streets?

Im gonna tell that cowboy, this pair of legs were made to walk on this planet earth. Not riding horsie!

Looking at this picture, it makes me remember a story of a conversation between the two;

Random girl: What does the weather have to do with laundry?

Me: I have to walk to the laundromat, I don't have a car

Random girl: That makes no sense.

Me: What?

Random girl: You can't get to class without a car.

Me: Um, yeah I can. I do it every day

Random girl: That's stupid, how are you supposed to get anywhere without a car?

Me: Well, I have these amazing devices that are attached to my lower body which when engaged, create movement which enables mobility.

Random girl: (stares at me confused, obviously not catchin my sarcasm) Do you buy those at, like, the Apple store?

That's it, any hope that I previously had in mankind is now officially gone.

So, I started my 2nd day Bangkok exploration. heh.

Shopping malls! Obviously, Siam Centre made for females :)

I reckoned that setting a stall around shopping mall is prohibited. So they do the garden picnic style.

This t-shirts costs around THB 200 - 300. Come to my surprise, the material quality is good! So, I did some shopping, and I love the garden picnic style! Haha.

I was so hungry, then I remember I didn't had any meals for that day yet! And it was already 2pm. So I walk to MBK hoping to get Japanese as my lunch. MBK just located just opposite Siam Centre. How to describe these two malls? HHmmm to me, It seems like MBK is the Kuala Lumpur's Mid Valley shopping Mall and Siam Centre is The Garden Shopping Mall.

So I came to this Japanese restaurant, called Kobune. The shop has a weird smell though. Very weird. Like a dead rat smell :(

But I was too hungry and thirsty, so I sit down and continue with my orders. This strawberry smooties wasn't bad at all. But after 10 minutes, my order still didnt arrive my table. I was getting angry as if I can eat these people alive as my sashimi of the day. I called them to check my order. Still, another 10 minutes passed by. Nothing. I went to the counter and paid the smooties. Walked out with bitter face. No wonder it smells bad. That must be few customers died of starvation - while waiting for their food order!

Walk off and crossed back to Siam Center. I need to eat!

and Suddenly I hear "gitchi gitchi yaya dada.. gitchi gitchi yaya here...." in a VERY SEXY flow, a Mary Nelson Version!!! . I drawn to the sound of it..

Creole Lady Marmalade....

It's all Femme Fatale. Heavy colored furniture, velvet chaise longue, black mannequin, tall wine glass, complete with grandeur food presentation. I was expecting the waitress are all in Burlesque costume, complete with leather whip. WTF. Im having seductive lunch moment all for myself!

They have this, um, lunch set which is finish at 3pm. And I was 10 minutes late. I asked them whether I still can get the set.. they smiled to me and replied "of course, ma'am" Ah! I knew it! I am destined to have my lunch here!

The set costs me THB500++.

So! I had my experience at Skydining in Siam Centre. Will you next?

So, I continue with walked around the mall, up and down, north to south, east to west. Then I saw this!

I don't know that Amway is a big thing in Bangkok!

I was lost inside this very big mall.. and I forget that I have more destination to go. Damn you shopping malls!

I went back to the hotel, missing a lot of other important site of Bangkok. I can't believe that I spent the whole day inside shopping malls!

Back at the hotel lobby, they already started with live shows, music and weird costume to warm up the new year evening.

I had a hard time to figure out this show. Was is about Napoleon Bonaparte becoming centaur, Centaur dressing like a Napoleon Bonaparte, or Napoleon Bonaparte is Centaur? Help!

Sunset from my bedroom. I know this is not the greatest sunset ever captured, but this is the sunset I had when I was in Bangkok. I always love sunset, I always spent a few minutes in silent, just sat and watch the golden hues turned into dark skies with my mind totally blank. It is some kind of meditation to me. I never able to vacant my mind from thinking and wondering or remembering something, somewhat, even in the middle of Yoga session. But with sunset, my brain went idle just like that.

Im a Sunset person, maybe just because Im not a morning person. I hardly see sunrise. Haha. But I am very lucky so far - able to watch and capture many hues of sunset in my life. I called it 'my special sunset'. Each of my special sunset I spent with special someone - My best friend, girlfriend of 15 years, BFF of 20 years , and myself alone. Some of the most memorable one...

And now, I present to you - Bangkok night skyline.. from Baiyoke Sky Suite Tower.

I dont think that I need to describe how magnificent Bangkok SuperBird view at night. I can dance to the "Empire State of Mind" with this background.

It's a concrete jungle on fire!

whoops, I know, I was lucky because the guard of this revolving deck suddenly came to me and asked if I wanted his help to take the picture.. I guess the whole Baiyoke Sky Suite hotel noticed that

I'm all alone by now and "oh poor that girl, no one can take picture of her with the view" :( So, Thank you Mr Revolving Roof Deck guard!

They have pretty ladyboys to meet and greet the hotel guests at the lobby, just for the special night - New Year Eve.

S/he's prettier than pretty girl :)

Well, I was walking around back and forth, don't know what to do. I saw people around me gathered, ready for new year countdown and big fireworks. Family, friends, lovers are all hand in hands. As they screaming to the final countdown, I feel something warm dripping down my chin..

...and I wish I'd never felt this way again. Ever.

This is the reason why I don't have Bangkok big fireworks pictures taken! FML.

..but then I remember.. unbeknownst to us, we already had our 1st fireworks together at the beginning of when we met, a celebration of the east meeting the west.

"It's my dream for a year to be near you, I'm not going to crush my own dream. Maybe it will have all been worth it just to spend that one Sunday with you. I never wanted to hold a girl's hand or kiss her lips as much as I wanted to that day with you. Maybe you think it's too fast, but I was still too scared to try. Standing in the city of lights watching fireworks is THE most romantic moment that I will ever accidentally step into and all I could do was stare at you from behind"

... to be continued..

Bangsatnya Lelaki Melayu yang satu ini.

2012-01-20T11:40:00.002+08:00

Im running late to office. I must admit, tedious job wear me out completely, lately. But it's ok, I love doing what I do, and yet I got paid while doing it. No, this is nothing about my work.

Im running late, but I texted office informing them that I'll be late. Yes, be responsible. Always let your office know what's going on with you within your working hours 9 - 6. They replied 'OK'.

Im running late, and just when I reached office, I saw an orange Gen-2 with registration number "Putrajaya 7318" in the middle of the streets, flashing out signal to right. So I wait. 2 minutes passby.. I beamed it. Nothing.

3 minutes passed by, I honked it. Nothing.

I was thinking.. is anyone inside that fucking car? If NO, the driver must be drinking ass juice in his/her whole life to leave the car in the middle of the street instead of double parking somewhere. Other cars starting to queue up behind me.

Im running late, 5 minutes passed by. I got out from my car and REALLY want to check out what's fucking on. It was drizzling. Surprise, surprise! Well, Im not really surprise. Actually I was expecting a faint guy on the driver seat with his penis out from his pant. Masturbating in the middle of the road and faint right after he finish jerking.

There is a young Malay guy waiting ~~patiently~~ blindly stupid as his brain was vacuumed out through his filthy asshole. I knocked his window. He rolled down with "whassup bitch?" kinda face.

I asked him "What are you waiting for?"
He replied me "You asked him what is he waiting for?" - pointing at the black Satria in the parking lot.

I WAS SHOCKED. he waited that long and let the other cars queuing behind him for that?

"Why don't you go further up? There are more parking lot over there!"
"My office is here"

FUCK YOU!

I can't stand looking at his fuckfaced. Samseng Face. That face is deserve to be used as whore ass wiper. Whore with herpes. So I walked to that black Satria, inside, I saw a young Chinese guy texting on his Blackberry. I knocked his window.

"Excuse me, are you coming out or not? because there is a moron waiting for this parking spot for more than 5 minutes and blocking everybody"

"oh! Im sorry.. yes.. Im coming out now.. sorry.."

I know that young Chinese guy has the RIGHT to feel that way (surprised) not because Im knocking his window.. but there is a MORON WILLING TO WASTE HIS FUCKING FREE TIME & OTHER PEOPLE PRECIOUS TIME JUST TO GET A PARKING LOT 5 STEPS AWAY FROM HIS OFFICE?

At least he said "sorry". When he has the right to sit inside his car in parking lot as long as he wanted playing with his Blackberry or watching few movies on his Playbook until tomorrow. There is no rules saying that - once you got into your car in any parking lot, you MUST immediately drive out from it. But, it take no rules to be drafted out to tell you, "Der, if the car in that parking lot didn't move in 1 minute, just move to the next la der.."

While I walked back to my car, I said "Fuck You" when I passed by his car. I wish he come out from his car and start talking to me and I'll tell him where he should place his balls right. Or maybe he don't have any at that moment because he left it at home in his momma's freezer. He deserves that. I pity any girl who marry to him or take him as a boyfriend because he don't carry around his balls and not to mention brainless. Even a DONKEY will move away from the street when there is a car behind it, honking.

5 Minutes later I got down from my office to buy my milk, I don't see his car anymore. He has left the building. Apparently he waited longer than he parked. That's a Malay guy that I know today, on Friday morning. I don't know what type of Malay guy I might know in the next 24 hours, or 24 days. Don't blame me if my opinion didn't favor you. But I hope this will change soon once the right Malay gentleman appear in front of me and prove me all wrong. Bring it ON!.

Tapi mamat Melayu tadi.. memang Bangsat la bagi aku.

Bangkok 2012 : What's it like to travel solo ? #2

2012-01-15T20:24:00.000+08:00

"Bangkok : where Parti PAS & BN are one. Heh."

Traveling alone gives you more time (and privacy) to observe things around you since you have no one to talk to. You tend to gain more on streets knowledge, too, because you need to ask A LOT. Yes I've googled, read and asked some information regarding some interesting places in Bangkok, but well, when you are busy dragging your heavy luggage up and down public transportation, made you forget it all.

Travelling alone save you from embarrassing / disgusting / inappropriate candid shot by your travel buddy too.

Exhibit A: Stupid

Exhibit B: Disgusting & embarrassing up skirt. And she uploaded this on Facebook (without the X)

Not to mention you can wake up and sleep whenever you want to, you can miss hotel breakfast, continue to sleep in bliss without hearing voices waking you up. You can eat whatever you want without worry that your travel buddy actually wanted to eat other things and again (on time). Ok. Stop about how good is to travel alone already. It just some of my points to make me feel good about it :(

Bangkok Day 2:

My decision to stay at Bhiman Inn on my 1st day arrival wasn't bad at all. The hotel just 2 minutes walk from River Taxi pier "Phra Arthit". I need to move to my next hotel and stay there until the end of this lonely trip :(

I read about Chao Phraya River a lot during school. So now I want to 'cruise' along something that I read for almost 20 years ago. 'Cruise' - sounds very grand. But actually, it is the cheapest public transportation in Bangkok. Dirt cheap.

THB30 for a view of Bangkok City for 20 minutes, complete with tour guide. Opps, my Xmas nail color still on. Fugly.

This is me with Mr Timer taking my picture. I can rely on Mr Timer every time when I'm alone. I love you Mr. Timer.

On Board. She explains and gave information on every big and little buildings that built along Chao Phraya River stream, left & right.

Well, the water is scary. Friend said to me that I will fall sick if I accidentally swallow the water splash. Uh.

But the view is quite amazing. I didnt come back here at night, which, I should. I bet the skyline view along this river would be so much more amazing than day time.

I present to you, day view of Chao Phraya River.

I was lucky one of the tourist willing to help me with the picture on the boat!

The Kapitan is so happy, finally someone care to snap his picture. He even smile for my camera :)

At Sathorn Pier.

After dragging my luggage up and down, No! I didnt lie! look at the staircase!

and I found that they have lift after both of my hands are all blistered :( Im so stupid, why I never thought of it.

My next hotel is in Pratunam Area (and again, public transportation which is, Train) so that's why I choose to take train from Sathorn. it's not that the tuktuk is that expensive, I just want to take a look at Bangkok city from many type of views.. river view, high city trail view, ground level view.. bird's view.. in 4 days time.

So it cost me THB45 to go nearest train station to my hotel, Rajchathewi, with one stop at Siam Centre from Sathorn. They have a day pass train, priced at THB120 and you can use it from morning till midnight. Hop in & out every stop, or anywhere you want to. All rail except train to International Airport.

Im quite sure of where Im heading to, but then I still wanted to feel like a lost traveler. I don't know why. I became addicted to ask around. Or, maybe Im too lonely and I find that, asking around is the only way for me to chat with someone. WTF. So this girl, Im not sure what she is, she looks like Korean/Japanese/Vietnamese, not Thai's, but my point is, she's Asian but yea she did sound like an English speaking Japanese, explained to me to change my train at Siam Center station. She even offered to give me her map. I knew she isn't Thai! No local girls walking around Bangkok holding city map, but white men's hand!

Well, I looked around me, be it on the streets or train, I saw many white guys with Thai girls, walking hand in hand. I bet that is not his wife or girlfriend, and I strongly believe that he is not purely STUPID to read / ask direction where he wanted to go to either. But from my observations, these guys automatically became retarded & lost their back bones (but their balls still attached somewhere) once they stepped into Asia. Suddenly they need someone to help them to cross the street? During day time? I still forgive them if it's a night time, well, maybe these guys has poor night vision due to cataracts or astigmatism or BLIND. AND these guys are either TOO UGLY, TOO OLD or TOO FAT. I mean, seriously? They are willing to travel that far just to get PAID service of 'helping hand - crossing the busy road'? If yes, I PITY YOU.

Arrived at Rajchathewi. People told me that it took only 5 minutes walk to the hotel I booked for my whole stay from here. I can see the tip of the hotel tower from everywhere I stand. It looks so close and I think I can hit it with a slingshot. Yea.. after 5 minutes trying to get there with so called - slingshot - distance, I gave up. So it's time for a Tuktuk. I'll post up my video on Tuktuk on my next post (tak tau bila la tuuu)

For THB60 (after some bargaining) he agreed to bring me to the Hotel. You see, the type of hotel or hotel area you stay can give you some kind of trouble too. They sometimes quoted you the ride charge according to the type of hotel you stay. If I really know Bangkok city area very well next time, I just ask them to drop me at wet fish market & tell them I sleep there. They might send me for FREE!

Streets in Bangkok is all about shopping spree. Ladies' favorite mostly. But then it will be men's favorite too after seeing their lady putting on something they get from the streets. But if you are not careful enough, you will end up looking like a street girl and your man looks like paying a street girl to help him to cross the streets!

Hey, looks like tuktuk that im riding now has the same color with the other one. Were they separated at birth?

And here I am. The other reason why Im in Bangkok.

"The Baiyoke sky Hotel, rising 88-storeys above Bangkok's skyline, is Thailand's tallest and Bangkok most scenic hotel. The hotel is strategically located in the largest fashion square of downtown Bangkok, surrounded by various shopping centers and entertainment attractions. While enjoying the spectacular view of the colorful city from the artistically built hotel or haggling around the famous Pratunam area, there is also easy access to many shopping paradises. The Central Wold Plaza, Platinum Fashion Mall, Pantip Plaza, peninsular Plaza, Gayson Plaza, Sogo Department Store, Siam Center, Siam Discovery, Siam Paragon and Siam Square are only within a few walking minutes from the hotel. Cuma kau nak kena bawak banyak duit jer. Shopping la sampai keluar buih ikut mulut kau"

Source~ Baiyoke Sky Hotel website.

er, the last statement is mine. Not theirs.

Um, the more you pay, the sweeter the treatment is. Bellboy came running to help me with my luggage soon I stepped down from a cheap Tuktuk. Ah, I don't need to drag my luggage for few days now. #bliss.

Hotel reception is at 18th floor. I arrived earlier than check in time. But they still let me in. Yeah, I bet they saw the amendment record I sent them online - double bed - twin bed - double bed - then twin bed. I mean.. what kind of person who pay attention to the of type of bed when they are sleeping ALONE, anyway? Well, I CARE.

48th Floor is all I can afford.

and for extra precaution, since Im travelling alone, I took a ~~lesbian's~~ lady's floor. No male on this floor, they can enter this floor but only up to elevator's lobby. Male still need the magnetic card to pass through the glass door. Ladies, you can walk naked on this floor. Just like ladies changing room at spa recreation.

I know, the bed and the carpet isnt that impressive. But they are not selling the bed or how the carpet looks like & feel. But they are selling the View.

Ok la.. the bottle of complimentary mineral water is kinda cute. It's the shape of the tower itself.

OMG, Im so tired. I want to rest. I mean, not after I drink that mineral water.. but I mean now. I'll continue about Bangkok View and all on my next post.

Tata~

Bangkok 2012 : What's it like to travel solo ? #1

2012-01-08T12:45:00.000+08:00

Flood what? I know I shouldn't read the news on the internet. I stop watching news on TV and read news paper for almost 5 years now and it is some kind of therapy for those who worries a lot, like me. I know world is going to end somehow, there are always be wars somewhere, some part of the world, because hatred, greedy and all kind of non senses are always inside human and it is bigger than love and compassion. So why worry? But I can't help to read the headlines on MSN or Yahoo page, every time I wanted to log into my email. It was all about "sinking Bangkok" news for the past 2 months next to the Kim Kardashian's divorce headlines. And that fucking false news made me wait and wait (wait until flood receded), ended it up getting myself expensive flight ticket to Bangkok. It was two hours flash flood! It happens to KL too, and it is not the end of the world, duh. Next time I will still fly to South Korea even the news said the North is about to press that missile button in the next 5 hours. I don't care anymore.

This supposed to be a sweet trip with someone. You know, welcoming new year with a new phase in life, lips locking under giant fireworks, be in each other's arms and seal the deal. But you don't always get things as you planned. There always something more important in life besides kissing under the fireworks. So here I am, instead of getting kissed on the new year eve, I learned something else.

"For half a second, I wondered if I was dreaming. I saw something flickering, and I knew I was not dreaming."

I never imagined that I'd be able exploring stranger's land on my own. I keep on telling people that, "if I was a guy, I'd be travelling this planet earth alone with no fear, I wait for no body to go with me, I can sleep on the streets and talks to anyone I'd liked to, I can carry a big heavy bag on my back and feast my sight and soul with everything strange around me - just because, I am a man".

Well, I was wrong. I undermines myself too much. I was too comfortable being in my own compartment - familiar roads and faces, being around friends who took me few years to trust them. "Nothing like home" is such a killer phrase. It is an excuse made for those who are too afraid to take the chances and to leave what's used to them. The food, the language, the weather or friends. I admitted that I was too worry and afraid to be all alone in Bangkok. I've heard many versions of stories about Bangkok. I begged everyone that I know to go with me. But it seems I was fated to go through this trip alone and learn from it.

For the 1st night, I choose to stay somewhere nearby the Chao Phraya River. Because I still don't have any idea how am I going to move from city center to this area in cheaper way. Bangkok have a lot of temple and most of it located along the river. There is also famous spot/streets called Khao Sarn road. It was such a relieved to get an email on my last minute booking from this budget hotel called Bhima Inn, that I booked for 01 night, giving me some information of how much the taxi charge supposed to be from airport to their hotel and how long it will takes - like they know that I am all alone!

I was lucky because the taxi driver is a Thai guy who happened to stay in US for more than 10 years. His English is perfect so I don't have difficulties in getting a lot tips and information to get around Bangkok.

This is how 'single' room looks like. Never booked a 'single' room before and it wasn't bad for THB900. Clean, quiet, I dont care about the small TV because I don't have time to stay in. The room has big mirror both in the room and toilet, so that is what most important to me! At the reception, is a guy who really helped me with a lot of information too. Free wifi at the lobby area & restaurant, and the guard was so nice to me, he came with mosquito's repellent coil and put it underneath my table when I was busy facebooking on my iPad. Everybody was so helpful, welcoming, and filled my heart with warmth feelings after few hours I've been here.

Tomyum is my favorite dish. I would never missed to eat tomyum if I go to any part of Thailand.

It was okay, not as what I expected. Maybe I need to go to the streets rather than having one in Hotel. My 1st night dinner was kind of expensive! THB 370! Im still learning!

So I put on my pink shoes and started to explore around after dinner. From Phra Sumen Road to Rambuttri Road then to Khao San Road (see red dot). I hadn't take a long walk for a long time, I almost break my back that night!

I don't know where I was heading to, I just followed the direction given by the guy at the hotel reception. Go straight, turn right, go straight again and will see the place with stalls and bars. Right. I wanted to go to Khao San night market, but ended up with Ranbuttri road.

Well, I always use a 'moth to a flame' method when I got lost in direction of where Im heading to. Without map in hand, I just find colorful flickering lights, and I know, that must be a fun place to go :)

Just strolling the streets without worries in my heart. People enjoying their drinks and the locals smiles welcoming you to their bar and restaurant.. and to take a look the stuff they are selling and always at ready to hear your bargain price.

It's nothing like Petaling streets, they never forced you to buy, not after you bargain with them 100 times. You are free to touch and take the pictures of it. I bet you will get your head chopped off if you do that in Petaling Streets. In fact, they are happy just to get attention from tourists, they are chatty, asking where I came from and alone? The most common replies I got from them was "oh! I thought you are Thai!" and they started to ask about Kuala Lumpur...

But I still want to go to Khao San road, so I keep on asking the directions along the road. They gave me short cut, through not so dark but quiet alley.. it was the back of some people's house.. or shop.. and I saw a gym complete with small boxing ring in it, it must be Muay Thai training studio or something like that. Not all locals fluent in English, but if you pronounce the road or destination right, they surely pointed you to the right direction, with a smile.

I was at the end of the alley, no way to go but this stairs. I feel like I was in some kind of Alice in Wonderland.. or Narnia : The Lion, The Witch and The Wardrobe. So this shabby stairs will lead me to the place I wanted to go?

So I climbed the stairs and found myself a nice bar, restaurant behind that doors with shabby staircase..

in Bangkok, a stranger can feel like home. You are free to sit at the corner by yourself, do whatever you wanted to do and no one bothering you.

So I asked the restaurant's staff where is the Khao San Road;

The flickering lights distracted me for a while. I was a bit astray from the direction given and keep playing with my camera. I found myself at the main road. I just wanted to cross this busy road, to be where the lights are. But Im too tired to figure out how to climb the fence and be on the other side of the road, so I gave up and back to find Khao San.

Finally here I am. It is a one busy road! Puppet show was on Bruno Mars song greets me on my 1st time in Khao San Road.

It lifted my spirits, I feel I am no stranger here. Streets were filled up by NON THAI'S. Some of them speaks the language I never heard before. I believed there must be alien or martian among these people, I just couldn't catch one.

It sting me a bit when I saw everybody walking hand in hand, smiling and laughing, just happy, or to something funny along the streets, or from the drinks they had in their hands. I passed by a white girl crying on other girl's shoulder in the middle of the streets. Her friend just stood there rubbing her back and whispering something to her.. to calm her down. I looked back at myself, just me and my camera.

This appear to be my 1st photo since I arrived in Bangkok, 7 hours after landed. It so unusual, I supposed to have 150 pictures of 'ME' taken in 7 hours time if I have my travel buddy with me :( Yea, travelling solo can be sucks too. Haha. Thanks to the stall guy, who helped me with this. I wanted to buy that straw hat, but I didn't bring much money in my pocket at that moment. I left it all in the room. I didn't plan to shop. He offered me THB 320 for that straw hat. And all I have is THB 180. Ha!

It is a shopping heaven for the cheap skate (sorry!) T-shirt is THB100, accessories, dresses, everything is below THB300. But I don't feel the need to have them. I still favor discount sale in MNG and Zara, or Bershka, or Forever 21 back in KL. But I did bought few T-shirts here as a souvenir, for my girlfriends and special someone :) But I already told them it is a stupid t-shirt. So, they should expected how stupid it is. Ha!

I am a sweet Mango lover. I dont miss the chance to get one on Khao San Streets. THB25 complete with sticky rice soaking in sweet salty coconut milk.

I did have a lot of chats with the people on the streets, the guys who sell the t-shirts. All I did was looking at their shirts and stuff on display, they came to me speaking Thai, and I replied "oh, Im not Thai.. I can't understand and don't speak Thai" So the conversation went on and on and on.. until I have to excuse myself. That's how friendly people in Bangkok are.

The night is always young in here. There is no sign of calling it a day. People just keep on pouring in, and my back hurts.. it seems like, I was the 1st person who went to sleep at 1am at this part of old Bangkok..

Few more snaps while I was heading back to my hotel room..

I came across this stall and saw this. I stopped by and asked the guy what is it. Apparently he don't understand English and he just smile with shy and continue cooking. :( What a non responsive chef!

I didn't see any ladyboys or prostitutes on this streets. Or maybe I didn't pay close attention enough, or maybe people just exaggerate things about prostitution in Bangkok. I bet they are not that cheap, just be everywhere just like a flea, they do have decent spot or station to operate the business.

But I do notice pretty, smooth flawless skin girls on the streets. Long legged with Victoria Secret's supermodel hairs, with girlfriends or alone texting on mobile. If those are prostitute.. well, don't blame the guys.. I also want to BUY ONE!

Back to the hotel with smile, and I know this going to be one sweet lonely trip. I know everything is going to be alright. 1st day - it's already addictive. I can't wait to wake up to tomorrow. I can be a citizen of the world, dah-ling..

...to be continued.

Dear 2012.

2012-01-01T02:45:00.001+08:00

I have a lot of wishes, and i wish a lot. Some of my wishes do come true, and the rest, unfulfilled. I lose nothing from unfulfilled wishes... It,s just the thoughts that failed, dream that just can't come true. Effortless.

I plan things, and i planned for weeks, months, years in advance. It is easy to plan things on your own, because you know exactly what you want, where you will be. But when planning involve person other than yourself, it seems a little bit uncertain. It involves compromise, promises and hope that it's going to happen. And what i know is, Plan isn't like a wish, at all. It is kind of frustrating when efforts you put in your plan, went into the drain.

I didnt wish to be alone, not just tonight - but for the rest of my life. But that's just a wish, and wish might be unfulfilled because, that's how it is.

I didnt plan to sit, watching the fireworks alone either. In stranger's land - no friends or familiar voices wishing me happy new year. No familiar faces around me to welcome this very new year... I'm all alone as far as i can remember...and i can't believe i am able to arrive into this phase - beyond lonesome, beyond emptiness, tonight, welcoming the new beginning of 2012.

Dear 2012, i welcome you with tears and loneliness, not because i'm leaving 2011 and its memories...but i just come to realize that i'm watching beautiful fireworks tonight just to celebrate the cracks within me is about to shatter.

....and as when the glitters in the skies subsides, i look upon dark, hollow skies and i wish.... I wish i will never felt this way again, ever.

'there are those among us who are blessed with the power to save what is loved by another. But powerless to use this blessing for love themselves'

Yea, Merry Christmas to You!

2011-12-25T01:05:00.000+08:00

I have this wishes in my inbox, which is, kinda funny. I’ve got a Christmas wishes and serious question at the same time! I can’t help it, I must share it. Wasn’t Christmas is about sharing? So let’s share some laughter. Apparently, I received a lot of Christmas wishes just as much as ‘Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri’. Well, thanks but seriously, I didn’t celebrate Christmas. I enjoyed the public holiday and the long weekend though.

Holiday outing with a friend with my good hair day.

Oh, you should try this Cempedak Ice Cream at Seed’s café (RM5.80) at Mid Valley, next to Chilli’s. It’s a home made ice cream. They have DURIAN too! I felt like I was somewhere in Dusun somehow when I had this. Haha. Switch to something local once in a while and the price is cheaper than Baskin Robins and any other gelato’s stall but the taste is tripleicious! It has chunks of real Cempedak inside.

Dropped by to see my Godmom’s singing for Agong 36th wedding Anniversary at Shangri-La Kuala Lumpur.

and end up having a good supper at the end of holiday :) . Thanks Ma!

Anyways, I love year end. It means the time to reap the rewards for all your hard work and contribution since January 1st is about to ripen. Be it bonus from office, ASB and many other type of investments you are into, yea, year end what you’ve been waiting for. And as for me, I invested a LOT in shopping. WTF.

Yea, that’s only a part of what I just claimed from my shopping activities in year 2011. Credit cards points, Bonuslink points, and Clarins’ Club Beaute membership points (those are normal size, worth more than RM200 and I swear on that Instant Smooth Line Correcting Concentrate. I can see the result immediately! I Heart Clarins)
Not to mentioned vouchers from Metrojaya from Metrojaya’s membership card that I received twice a year, Vouchers on the spot when you spent above RM350 and, I just banked in Nuffnang’s payout :) It’s not that much, but it’s still money.
So, who says shopping can’t be rewarding? Be Shop Right. Guys, if your wife/ girlfriend wanted to spend their money on shopping, let them be! It’s not your money anyway.

Ah, I have so much thing to do for 2012, I can’t wait, so I started it now. I don’t do new year’s resolution. That’s for the losers. If you wanna do it, just do it. No need to wait January 1st to execute it.

Knowing that another year passes by, another year older I am. Next year Im going to be XX years old (Hell no, Im not giving you any clue of what my age is, in your dream) But I decided to be 27 forever. Why 27? I still remember I was that ‘Hot Babe on the top of Her Game’ when I was 27. I like everything when I was 27 more than 17. That’s why.

So I bought a kettlebell.

Started with 4kgs, (RM65.00) it really shows you the result in a week.
and what a cliché, people keeps on telling me I’m already skinny to be skinny. They probably think I’m mocking their size 8 and so on. WHO SAYS I WANTED TO BE SKINNY?. God knows how I want to be curvy, Kim Kardashian’s Curve. I want that booty, I want that chest! Er, No, this kettlebell won’t give you that, though. But it helps to tone that jiggly flab under your arms, waist and thigh. That’s all. It’s about toned, firmed body. Not skinny. I believed Kim Kardashian do something to keep her butt stick out like that, or else, it will wipe the floors as she walks on the red carpet when she hit XX years old.

Look at this Kettlebell Video workout. YOU CAN”T BE SKINNY BUT BETTER THAN SKINNY with this.

So when the result is out, of course, Im gonna show it off. Haters gonna hate. Eh? haha.

Merry Christmas for those celebrating it. Hope you enjoy your cookies =)

Nasi Lemak Buah Bidara....

2011-12-19T17:24:00.002+08:00

Sayang Selasih Hamba Lurutkan...
Buang Emak, Buang ~~Saudara~~ Agama..
Kerana Kekasih Hamba Turutkan..

That's the only "pantun" (Malay four line poem) that came flashing into my mind when I came across the news of Ariff Alfian Rosli jumping off the broom in Dublin where he supposed to finish his study instead :(

Love is blind, Freedom to love.. border less - just like music. Love doesn't recognize colors, distance, age, religion and um.. cupid would be insane by now, seems like they shooting those love arrow with their eyes closed.

Who is the groom, which one is the bride.. groom and groom, bride and bride.. top, bottom, top & bottom.. with this ring, I thee wed.

and ladies, we lose 1 more male to another male. One less lonely man is another lonely woman added into this mad..mad world.

South Island, New Zealand : Wishes Do Come True

2011-12-18T16:26:00.000+08:00

Before that, I just found out today that, there is one particular guy deleted me from his Facebook buddy! I don't know when he did that, I don't care, because I don't ever realized when and why we became buddy at the 1st place, oh, he read my blog.. yeah. Ummm.. Was it because I ignored his request to meet me for a movie or something? I'm sorry if I didn't interact well with ALL of my buddies in Facebook. But, is that how people deal with it? " Say YES to all my requests and you'll stay." Fuck that. It seems like people put too much hope on Facebook and treated it as online catalog for finding girlfriend to be wifey or 2nd wife. Catalog my ass. Why not you catalog yourself as "desperado looking for a wife" together with the list of properties, sickness as well as skills that can generate money. Loser.

Back to NZ, South Island trip. The main reason why I wanted to visit South Island wasn't for their rolling hills and fluffy sheep. It's for the blue snow capped mountains and milkyway. Yes, I never seen snow capped mountains in my entire life, except pictures and a lots of it. And I only saw milkyway on TV. So, when I googled about star gazing in South Island, this was the 1st image caught my eyes..

This picture made me to know and read more about Lake Tekapo. I want to be at the exact location, under that exact skies!

It was so dark when we arrived at Lake Tekapo area. It seems like people here sleep early. It was quiet and not much street lights. We parked nowhere in the dark and all I can hear was strong wind, so strong until it shakes. I imagined that, I'd probably float into the air if I step outside.

Next morning, I stepped out and I couldn't believe my eyes...

We parked and sleep underneath that exact skies! #wishesdocometrue.

So, Lake Tekapo was the 1st official milky icy cold lake I saw in my life. It was so beautiful to me and I was busy taking hundreds pictures of it.

.. and then I remember I still have stars and milkyway left to see. Im here at the Lake, the problem is, it's early morning!

Went to Earth and Sky office to find about their stargazing program.

So, yea.. good luck with the price! And you can watch the stars if the skies, I mean weather permits! Don't fret, here, I have another contact if you really wanted to experience the stargazing tour at Tekapo Starlight as low as NZD20 and hope for clear skies!

We proceed our journey to Mount Cook/ Aoraki as planned, and planning to cook our lunch there!

I was busy taking pictures of snow capped mountains along the drive until I saw bluish - turquoise - milky field on the right of the road. It made me screamed!

It is The GREAT LAKE PUKAKI!

Look at astronauts image from up above, how big is the lake is. With the size of 1,413km2, the size is almost 6 times of Kuala Lumpur city.

No wonder my office mate back in my office kept telling me about the lake before Mount Cook. We don't have tailored itinerary in our hands, and we drove by ourselves. Of course it is overwhelming when you see something like this along the journey. Anyway, we must keep on going because sun light will be out by 6pm. We continue to our destination and promised that we will stop by here again on our way back from Queenstown to Christchurch.

Half of our journey to Mount Cook/Aoraki was with the sight of Lake Pukaki.

It looks like a giant cookie dough covered with sugar powder, as we get closer to the mountain.

So close, yet so far..

Yes. Finally we are here.

and no, we didnt do the jungle trekking or mount climbing. We just cook there and basically clean our lung with serious breath in and out breathing technique :) The air is crispy fresh!

Seriously, I dont know which one is the point of Aoraki Mount Cook! Is that the one behind me? No! I DON'T KNOW!

That one? NO! I DON'T KNOW!

So, after hundreds photos were taken (urgghhh), obviously we were behind schedule until I have to forget my plan going back to Lake Tekapo for a stargazing tour. :(

We need to reach to our next destination - Queenstown before day gets really dark..

Opps, too late, it was dark before we able to reach Queenstown! But what I tell you, about #wishesdocometrue ?

When I was so upset thinking about the stars and milkyway that I was about to miss. "Im here already.. underneath South Island skies.. and yet.. no stars for me.." I looked outside up to the sky from the caravan window .. I saw diamonds.. million of it up in the sky! We made a stop at streets of nowhere, in the dark.. there I was..standing with no binoculars or telescope.. watching the greatest creation of God.. for free.. it was all 3D.. I can see the stars hanging down like.. I almost can touch it!

I SAW THE STARS AND MILKYWAY WITH MY OWN EYES! *cries*

Waiting

2011-12-10T17:37:00.001+08:00

“I’ve learned that waiting is the most difficult bit, and I want to get used to the feeling, knowing that you’re with me, even when you’re not by my side.”
― Paulo Coelho, Eleven Minutes

No one likes waiting, people hates waiting. But to me waiting is better than letting go. You will not lose anything while doing it. Time? Time always passes by. Waiting or not, one minute now will be history in the next minute after. Waiting gives you hope, that something or someone will re appear in front of you. Waiting keeps you going, to live your day and forever. So that you are able to see something or someone you’ve been waiting for – when the wait is finally ended. While letting go is making you losing something or someone. Disappear. And you will never know whether it will come back to you, again.

I am good at waiting. I’ve been waiting for most of my life. That’s how it keeps me going. I know hope can be false one, but I still need it, so that I have the reason to keep me going. Knowing that I have something to do and someone to see at the end of my waiting.

For the 1st time, I bring Kiska the Husky up to my bed, to sleep with me because I feel so alone. Before this she only sit in my car and follow me, wherever I go.

My days are started to feel so empty. But I still got to live my life the way I did before I have you by my side. I clean the house, buy some groceries and do the laundry. I picked up my sweater to wash it, but then I smell of you all over it. My tears started to flow. I put on that dress today, the dress I wore on the 1st day I met you. I curled my hair, like it is the day to pick you up from the airport.. I drove around and found myself eating my late lunch – alone. But I know, I still have the “individualist” in me, so I can do this, because this is who I am when I am without you.

It’s raining now, but I hope the skies would be clear somehow, tonight. I need to see that moon. The red moon we supposed to watch it together. I hope you will too, from up above the skies and remember me. That eclipse moon is me, for now, until we will be together again..

Day 1 - I miss you so so much already…

“It's hard being left behind. (...) It's hard to be the one who stays.”― Audrey Niffenegger, The Time Traveler's Wife

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Don’t Baby Me!

2011-12-08T21:37:00.001+08:00

~~Stupidity~~, I mean love is becoming more and more cheap nowadays. In 2 days? Come on..

Or, maybe I am the one is the real stupid, maybe that was just some kind of robot, spyware which just reply the replies with the same paragraph to every girls’ inbox. And I wasted my time educating him.

I think he misspelled his name. It should be Douche. Douchebag.

Internet can be super sucked, most of the time. Urgghh.

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Im trying to finish all my trip posts – South Island, NZ (Pt. 1)

2011-12-02T11:25:00.004+08:00

So, I know you don’t care whether I able finish all of my posts on my almost forgotten South Island, New Zealand trip, some of you already seen it all 600 photos on my facebook’s album & wall with admiration, or jealousy. But I still want to put up on here because it’s 3a.m - I can’t sleep, and I don’t know what else to do at this hour.
Ah, before that I was busy surfing Victoria Secret’s body lotion on the net. I always love anything from Victoria Secret, including their models. Well, who doesn’t?
My boss is leaving to London today so, instead of giving her trouble figuring what to buy all for of us in her every trip, so I told her what I want. I want Victoria Secret’s body cream.

This one. It’s been in my wish list forever. Candy Baby Shimmer Swirl Cream – with the smell of sugar & warm Vanilla. Just imagine how mouthwatering I can be with it! So I texted her then found out that Victoria Secret flagship store only coming to New Bond Street’s London on 2012. Sad. So, this body cream can go back to my wish list and sit there, forever.

So, back to my almost forgotten trip post. South Island, New Zealand – where no Victoria Secret’s outlet can be found. That is me, enjoying my 1st pale breakfast in Christchurch, with no smell of Victoria Secret’s body cream.

In an attempt to stick to the lowest cost trip, my girlfriend and I chose the cheapest accommodation in Christchurch, called PointBreak, Backpackers located at New Brighton Central.

Well, when it says “cheap”, means it is so far away from city centre and city glam. But it’s ok, there was not much glam in the city centre at that point of time anyway, not after the earth quake, not when they still didn’t fix the road & buildings. It was totally closed!

The background supposed to be a Flea Market. But it was Free & Easy MYOB trip for both of us, we woke up late, continue with curling our hair - so nothing left for us anymore. Except the sight of them repacking their stuff back into the boxes.

New Brighton Pier. It was so windy cold. I don’t know how the girl behind me can walk with shorts. I only able to smile for a few seconds, just for my camera. That’s it.

This remind me of beaches along Great Ocean Drive, Melbourne :( . Blue, icy cold, un-swimmable.

1st time I saw big Husky and felt ok with it. Although the dog is on leash instead of pulling sledge on the snow, but at least, this place cold enough for it. I hate how Malaysian and other tropical countries’ dog lovers took this dog as a pet. They are not pet. They are strong working dog. You are torturing it with your stupid apartment’s ac at 16 degree Celcius, all year round.

Nothing much you can do in New Brighton. No big malls or awesome sightseeing or fancy architecture. One day stay at this place, will do.

Uh, they have Roxy & Quicksilver factory outlet though. So, I bought one hoodie sweater to warm me up the next day.

We took the bus to get around the place. We need to find shopping mall to keep us alive during this trip, any trip.

It was September, early spring in New Zealand. The flowers started to bloom everywhere. Not as great as autumn still. Freaking cold. So that’s why the flight tickets was cheap

Waiting to embark the journey to a happy place!

Happy place – Westfield Riccarton shopping mall. It was a short happiness though! It was Sunday and they closed at 6pm! What kind of shopping mall closed at 6pm? On Sunday? Do they really know how to run a big business? All the sweet cafes in that building closed at the same time too! No muffins! No doughnuts! Urggh!

So we took the bus back to our motel. We were very afraid that the bus service end at very hours too!

We tried to spicy up our experience in Christchurch though by checking out the night life around. There are a few bars in New Brighton and people were busy watching Rugby’s match. It was All Blacks Vs Tonga, I think. Yawn.

But then we met a friend who willing to join us on our South Island trip. Yippee~!

Day 2: So left the town (town?) at 10am. All excited.

Apparently in South Island NZ, you’ve gotta leave the town to see awesome view.

The rolling hills and the sheep along the way for the first 2 hours of our trip, and few days later

We made a stop at Ashburton, for a quick grocery shopping. We cooked our own meal for the rest of the trip! Can you believe that?! Real cooking experience in South Island, NZ!

You need good muffins along your self drive trip. What to do, Im a muffin person!

Look at that yellow bushes. It come to my surprise that those bushes/ plant or what so ever it called (seriously, I don’t know the name of it) are the unwanted plant. They been trying hard to remove it from the hills or else the sheep have no place to run & play!

It was almost dark, so we made a quick stop at – I – already – forgot – where – it – is to enjoy the sunset across the field.. it was so beautiful..

Basking under South Island sunset. Moment like this makes me happy, no matter how tired I am.

Approaching Fairlie, at last! Oh, Didn’t I tell you that we are heading to Lake Tekapo for a night? And to visit Mount Cook the next day.

It was almost dark & cold. We were hungry & tired. And now, Im starting to feel sleepy too. 4:44 am. It’s time to hit my good bed. I will continue with day 3, whenever I can’t sleep, again!

20.11.2011

2011-11-21T02:28:00.002+08:00

But, look what I found the day before that;

Honey Nasty Breakfast cereal :)

I do not need to plan memorable things to do, so that this awesome date will be the most memorable day forever. People got engaged & tied the knot, or maybe choose this day to lose their virginity. Because this date, is mine. whether I choose to ignore it or to do something with it.

Yes. It’s my birthday.

Don’t ever ask. I lost count. But it is definitely more than the number of candles on that birthday cake. Whatever it is, counting or not, that day will come. Botox, fillers, knife or cement (?? cementing your face?) – you still will grow old.

Well, it’s not the wrinkles & saggy fat Im worried about (um, Im half lying), but it is the events & wishes that I able to complete so that I can bring it with me as fond memories when Im old.

Hold up, about the wrinkles – I am grateful that I was born as Asian, because we ladies have 5 fatty pockets on our face, and the size is larger than non Asian, so it slows down the process of wrinkles. Go ahead. Hate Asian ladies - because we are blessed with so much more. Not to mention cuteness at the age of 40.

I always wanted to spend my special day in a meaningful way, with people that brings meaning to my life – friendship, loyalty, understanding, trust, love & respect. You can stop reading this for a while, and start counting, how many people that surrounds you holding all 6 qualities and have a good look at the same time, as mine?

It is good to be with familiar faces on this date, that laughs, stares, mean jokes

…and similar sickness where, all of you equally addicted to camera lens.
Bottom line – Comfortability. To be around each other. No matter how stressful the day is or how unfair certain things are, I always know, these faces never stood me up. They are always there, waiting, looking gorgeous at me. #iloveugirlfriends

Oh, talking about comfortable, I knew I am 100% right when I choose Hummingbirds Coffee Bar, Jalan Telawi Bangsar, for my hi tea party.

I was busy finding the right place after I changed my initial plan to do it at Carcosa Seri Negara for English Hi Tea Party. I mean, what is the next best place after such a grand venue such as Carcosa Seri Negara? Well, I didn't say that this Coffee Bar is at par with Carcosa, but if you looking for a quiet, private but decent place (decent, because it is bright, not for scandalous meeting with your "kekasih gelap") to sit down for a cuppa, with your close friends and having some conversation that everybody can clearly hear & understand you instead of loud music and smoke, this is the place.

So, I was here, 3 weeks before my birthday with my officemate, we had tea & a slice of red velvet cake. I totally fell in love with their big velvet armchairs and chic interior. So after writing to them back and forth, I was so happy that I had no problem to book that place on such awesome date - 20.11.2011.

They have Christmas decoration going on when I had my Birthday celebration, it makes everything even more, cute & warm :)

Delicious finger foods,

It makes beautiful crowd, looks undeniably beautiful :)

Since I got a few inquiries through emails about some of the clothes that Im wearing. So from now on, I will share with the girl readers of what are those.

Top : MNG/ Tutu Skirts : Zara/ Pump Shoes: Bershka / Belt: Zara

Opening birthday pressies. Girlfriends knew that I love earrings. So, I got a lot of earrings on this year's birthday! I dont need to buy earrings for a couple of months now! #happyearringspeople.

So everything went as super smooth as the cream cheese on my birthday cake & that red velvet cupcake's . Just like I imagined, just like I wanted.

Beautiful.

..just like what I wished before I blow those candles off : Always looks good with my new age, feels good with every little things that happen around me - so it may add up the value of who I am. And love, always love.

I've been that age. I've done that age. It is fun.

P/S: To everyone who wishes me, including belated: Thank You. On my Facebook's wall, mobile messages, inbox and in the morning when I just opened my eyes.

XXOO.
Lady Scorpio signing off, for now!

Suddenly November.

2011-11-09T00:42:00.000+08:00

Everything is so sweet and it turn me into a girl with a sweet tooth. Sweet Cupcakes, doughnuts, saying and hearing sweet things too.

The world is spinning so fast or it was just me who refused to move with it. Im basically halting. Im ok with it. As IF my AGE can be halted too. Delay. I love to delay things now, hoping that everything went delay, including my age. This is one of the reason why I keep on delaying to update blog post. Excuse me.

My girlfriends and I love to take pictures, hundreds of it, in a week, or month. But one of us really took time to upload & share it with all of us on Facebook. She hadn’t upload pictures taken 5 months ago, or last year. We started to complain and she replied us – “I keep it as our Forever Young Time Capsule, I will upload it and tag all of you in 10 years time and makes everybody think those were taken like yesterday. Still Hip and gorgeous”. Brilliant.

I know. Halloween is over. Like almost 2 weeks over. I saw everybody uploaded their Halloween’s make over & costume on Facebook. Some are freaking ugly and some, well, you know, fucking slutty. Aw, come on people. Can you at least be someone different than whoever you are? LOL.

Halloween Eve. So, I don’t have ugly costume. Slutty, um.. maybe

I turned up nude. I don’t know, I don’t celebrate Halloween. I don’t even know the history of it and why. But collecting candy sound fun to me. But, there was no free candy around KL city and it never will. We here have trouble to get extra packs of sugar to bake cookies for any big celebration and anything involve sugar becoming more and more expensive. So, let’s just stick to ugly & slutty costume.

Oh, I have thousand pictures from my New Zealand trip last September. I know! September. I’ll wait it become a little bit moldy so that I can forget about what and where the pictures are all about, so that I can end up with sweet & short post with lotsa pictures.

Basically this is our route trip.

Okay, that’s too small. Um, here it is.

So yea, we started with Christchurch on Day 1, start our journey to Lake Tekapo on Day 2, visit Mount Cook and proceed to Queenstown on Day 3, laid back at Arrowtown on Day 4, on the road for the whole on Day 5 back to Christchurch and did our last minute shopping at Christchurch Airport on Day 6. Yea, nothing much you can do for 6 days/5 nights South Island Trip. But with the limited budget and limited leave approval, I finally see white & pink cherry blossom with my own eyes.

Priceless. It was early spring in South Island, so some of the cherry blossom trees bloomed early and I believed it bloomed for ME. I didn’t expect to see it in South Island NZ, because I was busy Googling and taking notes on the Lakes, Mountains and Star gazing program. I wish I could see a milky way across South Island sky, or a shooting star. In fact, I was so stupid blonde, thought that Cherry Blossom only exist in Japan, Korea and Washington DC. God knows how limited my knowledge is, so He pity me, let few trees bloomed earlier so that I can be happy till I pee. Alhamdulillah.

It is so pretty till doesn’t need a nice smell. Maybe to the locals, this is nothing, just like ‘Bunga Kertas’, maybe. But this is the reason why I wanted to go to Japan and Korea. Not some cute Hentai or Kimchi soup. So I can cross out this from my list and busy to do something else on my next year’s Osaka & Tokyo. Yipee!

And oh, apparently South Island NZ isn’t a place for shopping. Not for me. Not when a bottle of mineral water costs me MYR4. But I did buy a couple of jackets and a pair of new boots, because clothes that I brought not enough to save me from cold windy 9 degrees during the night. Im Asian. Hot blooded Asian and I hate Air Cond.

Among of all things, I find this cute and funny. So I bought this as a souvenir and gave it to someone cute and funny too

New Zealand : “Where men are men and the sheep are scared”

Apart of green rolling hills and blue snow capped mountains and glassy crystal lake, this is the sight you have to bear along the trip. 1st day, you go “awww.. look at them, so cute and fluffy…” 2nd day you only paid attention to the little ones running. Because the big ones aren’t cute anymore. 3rd day you fell asleep counting it. 4th day started to hate it. 5th day, wish there will be something else to replace those white spots, and last day, I wish to not see it for a very long time.

And the sight of blue snow capped mountains painted along the horizon line just like the paintings I saw when I was little.

and the lakes too..

Everything is magical. No paintings can ever translate or tell the story of what South Island have along the road, except um, dslr camera. Now I made you wanna go there and see it with your own eyes, do ya?

I have bunch of extremely nice photos & stories to tell. Or, maybe I’ll just post up the photos alone and let it tell. But, now, Im going to hit my pillow and continue this some other time.

xoxo.

Get out there and leave some footprints of your own~

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It made me smile, somehow.

2011-10-24T14:02:00.001+08:00

Man: Well, you still make me nervous somehow...

Lady: a 32 year old man with countless women? nervous?

Man: countless! not that many! but, yes, you make me nervous. nobody else in the world, just you

Lady: seriously?

Man: yes.
you're very pretty, and when I look at you, or smell your nice smell, I forget a lot of things
I lose track of what I'm talking about
and what I'm supposed to be doing.

Friend for the Soul

2011-09-23T23:47:00.001+08:00

“This is my wish for you: Comfort on difficult days, smiles when sadness intrudes, rainbows to follow the clouds, laughter to kiss your lips, sunsets to warm your heart, hugs when spirits sag, beauty for your eyes to see, friendships to brighten your being, faith so that you can believe, confidence for when you doubt, courage to know yourself, patience to accept the truth, Love to complete your life.”

When looking at your two paws, as soon as you have decided which of them is the right one, then you can be sure the other one is the left.

Poetry and Hums aren't things which you get, they're things which get you. And all you can do is to go where they can find you.

It is more fun to talk with someone who doesn't use long, difficult words but rather short, easy words like "What about lunch?"

"I don't see much sense in that," said Rabbit. "No," said Pooh humbly, "there isn't. But there was going to be when I began it. It's just that something happened to it along the way."

If the person you are talking to doesn't appear to be listening, be patient. It may simply be that he has a small piece of fluff in his ear.

If there ever comes a day when we can't be together, keep me in your heart, I'll stay there forever.

They're funny things, Accidents. You never have them till you're having them.

**She afraid of dogs. So I play with any dogs on the streets, so to make it stay near my foot, until she cross the streets

You can't stay in your corner of the Forest waiting for others to come to you. You have to go to them sometimes.

Just because an animal is large, it doesn't mean he doesn't want kindness; however big Tigger seems to be, remember that he wants as much kindness as Roo.

It's so much more friendly with two.

"Pooh, promise me you won't forget about me, ever. Not even when I am a hundred."
Pooh thought for a little.
"How old shall I be then?"
"Ninety-nine."
Pooh nodded. "I promise," he said.

To find someone who is almost everything to you is harder than finding a good man. After too many heartbroken, finally I am blessed to find her at my loneliest. The feeling is like.. winning the 10 million dollars from the slot machine.

She is special because she’s loved by me!

………………………………………………………………………………………

Have you found your own friend for the soul?

P/S: all quotes are from Pooh's Little Instruction Book, inspired by A. A. Milne

Taiwan – the post that has no end

2011-09-13T01:15:00.001+08:00

I know this is not going to be the 1st travel post that I am unable to finish it up although I got 3 months gap before I am packing for my next trip. There will be more. I just let every story of my experience & journey hanging with no end. NO, Im not planning to host “Finish this story contest”. It just the details of my travel itinerary has vapors into the thin air. Told you before, that my skull not as thick as normal humans do, it can’t contain much, sometimes it leaked. So I tend to forget things very quick. (wtf.. why I rhyme so much..)

Before I continue with boring writes up about my moldy story of Taiwan trip, boring because – you wont get much information out of those pictures posted after this paragraph anymore. Because I forget where it was taken and why. So I would like to get sentimental with new attractive findings and obsession lately.

Yea, beautiful girls. These two are not ordinary beautiful girls. NO they don’t have Phd from Harvard or can do fly kick. But these two really made me keep on flipping their photos and stares at it for long hours. Is that how a guy feels when they see a beautiful girl? I think I can understand now. Neelofa & Izahara Aishah were constants of beauty contest on one of Malaysian Magazine, which I don’t bother to read. And I came to know that these two also starred in many of Malay dramas & movies, which I don’t give a damn to watch. But when I came across their pictures in my Facebook’s wall of recent updates, hell, now I can’t stop.

..and I never knew that Malaysian’s Malay girls.. are truly beautiful, until I saw these two. Look at those hair, it made me ran to Bukit Bintang Plaza last Saturday to find hair extensions so that I can have the same length as theirs, since it is impossible for me to have the face & the body like them And I started to think over & over again, it must be lucky to have what ever they are having now, without plastic surgery & photoshop software, all they got to do is beaming their smile, rainbows appear above their head, unicorns come flying next to them, prince charming wannabes kneeling upon them with 1001 beautiful will to make these girls’ dream come true..and their life would never be lonely. I believed that none of their requests and wishes left unfulfilled.

My new findings has taught me 1 new fact. Some girls were born to be loved, and some, is to love. There is no way a girl has both side of qualities. Unfortunately I was born to love. I love a lot and I never understand when my love is being ignored. or the one that came to me was not the one that I wished for. So I love secretly in order not to feel unlucky. I fulfilled my own wishes and fantasies so that I feel as good as other beauties. I brag a lot so that people notice me. Ok. emotional heartboxxing.

Where were we? Ah, Sun Moon Lake.

Sun & Moon Lake districts are so big & beautiful, it makes everything around it became part of sightseeing attractions too. Few minutes drive from Sun Moon Lake pier (which I don’t know which pier it is), we arrived at WenWu Temple.

detail information about Wunwu temple can be read HERE. Thank you.

So, try to find me in that picture, where I was about to do “year of steps” in 2 minutes time. It’s called year of steps because it has 366 steps symbolizing 366 days in a year (including leap year). This is easy peasy. I done even steeper than this. It was like 10 years of steps at Batu Caves, Selangor, and it made me almost roll down to the day 1. Urggh.

..and so the architecture made me feels like.. ancient opera soap setting…

everything is in gold & red..

When I said ‘everything’ is in gold & red…

Johan Van der Smut a.k.a GoldMember would be very happy to see this.

..at the God of War hall, stands bronze Blue Dragon Falchion. This reminds me of The Storm Riders, Fung Wan, Pedang Setiawan, Wind & Clouds. I watched the movie and I read ALL the comics when I was 18! Uh, no wonder I became even more fierce after I came back from Taiwan. I guess the wrath sprit has transferred into me! Why oh why.. among of all many things in that temple, I touched this sword?

wishes & prayers. This one appears that something to do with the property. I saw a few wishing cards with the sign of hearts & wedding ring too. Ah, if you are as gorgeous as those 2 girls above, you no need to visit any temple, hanging wishes and doing prayers – the guys doing all the pray that one day he can take photos with you, or say hi to you, at least!

So thank you GOD! *see? he don’t even bother to stand & smile properly, maybe he don’t mind became permanently retarded after having Neelofa elbow touches his back*

…and last but not least, a handsome terracota man standing at the entrance of shrine hall, of the First Ancestor Kaiji and the God of Literature.

So, we finished with the temple, and waste our time and dropped by to see some chickens.

At Peacock Garden.

The website says 200 kinds of birds & chickens. But I only see 5. Um…never mind.

obviously he wasn’t waiting for me. He, as a bird, don’t even bother to turn his head & look at me. Not to mention open up his pretty colorful tail. It is so obvious I wasn’t that hot chick for him to woo me

ok. enough about chickens & birds. I saw these a lot in the back of my grandmother’s house when I was a little. All they do is eat & shit.

So, finally I arrived at the most anticipated place where good foods, cute toys and cheap stuffs at. Feng Chia Night Market. My office colleague gave me listing of night market in Taiwan. Taiwan is about night market, night market, night market.

It is so clean, well arranged and has no spunky smell except for that stinky tofu. Night markets in Malaysia are nothing like Taiwan’s. Ours is DIRTY! When I arrived, I saw a lot of huge plastic mobile rubbish bin placed in the middle of the night market’s lane, like there is one huge rubbish bin every 10 steps. Few hours later, it full with all kind of trash & food wrappers, none on the streets! I was surprise how civilized everybody is! So since I was there, then, myself included

My nose has the ability to catch the smell of yummeh. This was the 1st caught by my good nostrils. Charcoal grilled prawn!

It sprinkled with white pepper & nicely salted. Me like it!

The size of the prawns is not bad. But.. I can’t get enough of it. But then my friend told me to save some space for other good food. So I listened to him.

to be filled with this heavenly delicious balls!!

People were queuing for this! The taste is out of this world! I LOVE BALLS, TAKO BALLS!

nyam, nyam. There goes my glamorous table manners when it comes to good food. FUGLY!

Give you peek what’s inside. a cube of crunchy octopus leg with good cheeeeeseeeeee..

I didn’t try this bloody cake! I want but then my friend wrongly gave me the info telling me that this cake made with pig blood. YEA, pig blood his head. It made from red beans! Urrgghhh. It seems like this cake is very super famous. See the news paper cut? I hate you Leo!

You see the giant octopus? That is where the tako balls restaurant is.

So I strolled inside.. and end up with these;

1 dress, 1 jumper, 1 harem pants, 1 sporty pants, 1 t-back pink singlet dress, 1 girlie shoulder bag, 2 scarves (1 of it to match my girlie shoulder bag), 2.. uh 3 actually, girlie umbrellas... And it's below RM300. I can buy & wear cheap stuffs!

and Leo bought me this hamsap pillow at the same market to compliment my pink bedroom. Thanks LEO!

Hari Hari Gembira? Everyday Happy?

While the boys are trying their luck at Gachapon heaven..

the girls are trying to find one pair of shoes which, maybe, can change their life!

Cute dog sit prettily at the nail paint booth. No leash. She’s a good good girl!

I love Taiwan night market. I don’t see anything ugly within the market. Be it cheap stuffs, girls, boys or dogs, they are appear very cute to me.

“Life is like dancing, If we have a big floor..many people will dance. Some will get angry when the rhythm changes. But life is changing all the time” ~ Don Miguel Ruiz.

…and with that quote, I end this post, abruptly.

tata~

P/S: I wanna get lost next week, in a stranger land. It might be a self discovery, read the signs and arrows and make it sure I reach my destination. But it is okay to stray a little while because, If you don’t get lost, there’s a chance you may never be found

Loving life – even if it’s a bitch one.

xxoo.

Cheap,dirt whore.

2011-09-02T06:46:00.007+08:00

Being on social network is seriously fun. It is not something serious, but it is fun. But there are some people took it very seriously and forget the fun part of it. Especially when they think they could possibly find their soul mate in social network website. AND there are some part of people use social network website as a portal to gain followers, like they are some kind of leader, celebrity or something. Hoping to get as many as “like” button clicked on every status updated. In the hope of becoming the most favorite person on the planet with their words & deep thoughts. Pathetic. Ok, skip that.

and as for me, the fun part is always there. But I happened to encounter some interesting opinion & belief on certain issue in my inbox. So, yea. Besides being single and busy contemplating life as well as figuring that world is going to end next year December 20th, 2012, I do have secret time to spare, observe and smile about. I also agree that being a female on social network website has its own perks & joy compare to a male? If it wasn’t, why there are so many fake account with female hotties floating around? I guess being a female is always easy to get accepted. And once accepted, they starting to ask some hot steamy questions like what kind of men I fantasize and how do I prefer in bed. I mean, come on…I never been a lesbian or intended to be one. But I think I know, those questions are certainly not from them (lesbians).

There are few guys do came up with decent query about how I think about men in general. I love the topic so I elaborate. It was so happened that the one who asked is a Malay guy. So, I gave him my 2 cents and this is what he replied;

I cant comment much since it was came from ‘unspoiled’ mind like him. But then I told him whatever he wrote about men and alcohol plus taking Asian woman as cheap as dirt, it does happened in Asia, Malaysia, among Malays and Muslims too. It’s not about the skin color or map, it is about human attitude & behavior as general, not genetically. How bad or good a human is, it is not depending on what religion they are in. Religion is just a religion, a label, if you believe in it but didn’t practice it. That’s it. It’s like you believe that you can fly. But if you didn’t do something or work on how to fly, will you fly once you jump off the cliff? And the skin – God created different color of skin because colors are beautiful. He didn’t create colors so that we can judge. People wont come out with beautiful poem & songs about rainbow if it is only 1 color.
So, he replied again;

I rest my case. My brain unable to digest the whole thing because I started to get confuse with his opinion and/or self boasting on his capabilities of million dollars investments while spelling text instead of TAX. Money & Tax are inseparable. You can spell TAX even while you are asleep. Money always comes with tax and Tax is always about money. If he is dealing with millions of it, how could he misspelled it?

Next, I brought the same discussion with a Non Malay guy. I strongly believe that he’s a Non Malay because he apologized beforehand when he starting to talk about Malay. It happened that we had nothing much to argue about but this is what he wrote in his last reply;

I never said that I agreed with him or not. But embarrassed, yes for sure.
I got various reply on this issue, but most of it were in Malay language and NEGATIVE. Im too lazy to translate plus, I don’t want to put the level of my embarrassment down to the level of…no level I able to label.

I also happened to highlight this issue and talks about it with a white guy. I’m just trying to be fair and trying to listen from both or many sides of story. Well, I love to listen to a lot of stories as much as I write

in addition to that, he also wrote to me something which I think I can conclude it all

“They don't seem to realize that people have a whole life away from them. I still don't get where the Asian escort thing comes from. I've never thought of Asian girls like that. I've seen some Asian girls do that, but I've also seen white girls and black girls do that, too. That does not make me think every girl does that.”

I know that my investigation is not totally complete. I still haven’t ask the same question to the black guys, middle eastern and those people who lives in north pole and south pole. But, what I can say to cynical peoples outside there (regardless what is their skin color and religion) for now is;

“YOU, YOURSELF ARE A CHEAP, DIRT WHORE EVERYTIME YOU THINK OTHER PEOPLE IS A CHEAP, DIRT WHORE.”

…and I will come up with another investigation in near future. Hehe.

as per Sherry Vine: It takes one to know another whore. Ha!

Now you can earn rewards by sharing through facebook and twitter with #ChurpChurp! How cool is that?

2011-08-27T14:19:00.000+08:00

Now you can earn rewards by sharing through facebook and twitter with #ChurpChurp! How cool is that?

Low.

2011-08-10T00:13:00.003+08:00

Yea, it’s Ramadhan again and I don’t want to talk about all the good deeds Im doing or about to do during this holy month like most blogger do. I rather stick to my everyday story so that it continues to give a good example of bad behavior to them decent girls who happened to come across this page. Don’t behave like me girls, or else, will be end up like me – just fabulous.

August kinda harsh to me. Monday 1^st - It started with a bee stung on my right arm, 2 inches from the elbow early in the morning! I don’t know where the hell the bee came from. All I feel the next few second was a numb pain stinging while I brushing my teeth. I took a look, there it is, a small bad bee just refused to let go my arm. I screamed at my loudest and it still there. I forgot it only works on four legged animal! Not to insect! I had to use hand soap bottle to knock it off my arm. The bee is dead, leave its stinger as a souvenir and I went back to sleep 5 minutes later.

I reached office late as usual, I opened up the God forsaken files cabinet and – boom. One fat file dropped on my head and one my foot. Thank you! That’s how my office work missed me. They are too happy to see my face right at the moment I open up the cabinet door and couldn’t help it but jumped on me - ecstatically.

Not to mention cough, sore throat, fever and all. Next day the girl who is renting my apartment’s middle room texted me, telling that she only stay up to the end of August after she just moved in last month. Thanks to her psychotic boyfriend, (or ex?) who keep on knocking my apartment’s grill and leave various notes including on my car windscreen, asking me to get his girl to accept his call. Fuck him. Your girlfriend renting with me doesn’t mean Im her best friend that can coax her to pick up your call. You made a wrong move punk – in fact, I gave her a whole new different ideas on how good to be an individualist with a total control of own time, money and point of view so please discard such fucked up boyfriend like you. One day you will thanked me, because of me, you are able to change girlfriend. It is obvious you had enough of her, or else why she kept on catching you red handed with other girls, every year? Show some balls and admit it.

So, I had to come up with online ‘room to rent’ advertisement. Put up the location, availability, rates & requirements – Working Female Only, without any photos what so ever. 8 Hours later, 9pm. While I was busy scoring my Zuma Blitz in my Facebook as usual, I received a text;

“Hi There”

So I replied by asking who is it.

“You stay in Shah Alam?”

Without answering it, I asked where did this person get my number from and what he wants.

“I am former Uitm student. Now working already”

Wow.. it seemed like he really had a hard time to relate his answer to my questions

So I repeat my earlier question, again.

“I am Lutfi. How about you”

I smacked him that my number is published for a room advertisement so it is meant for a room to rent and it’s for girls only. I think it was clearly stated and I don’t understand how could he read it as “female for rent – location, availability, rates & requirement – anonymous with mystery dick size”

“Can we be friends?” - He added.

Awh come on! Don’t tell me that Facebook, Twitter, Linkedln, MySpace, Tagged, Friendster and all those social networking sites complete with profile pictures, location, background and albums still not enough until he had to go to “Room to Rent” database on website and pick up random numbers under female section??!!!??? What happen to the world, I mean, men nowadays???? They willing to get females’ phone number without considering what type of person who posses that number and hope to be friends? A divorcee grandmom? A hardcore lesbian? A voodoo practitioner? Or maybe crazy fat, ugly, smelly bitch who cut men’s balls for fun!

Okay, he might just trying his luck or trying to PROVE that looks doesn’t matter when it comes to friendship (friendship my ass!). So, if these 2 peoples been texting – let say, 1 months without knowing each other’s general picture and finally meet up. If both of them are good looking – God bless you! BUT NO! GOOD LOOKING PEOPLE DON’T PICK RANDOM NUMBERS FROM ROOM TO RENT DATABASE FOR FRIENDSHIP! PLEASE ACCEPT THIS TRUE FACT. No matter how ugly you are, you still need to submit at least your decent passport size photo to a FREE ONLINE DATING website OKAY???!!! It’s not about look. Yes, I clearly understand the meaning of it. I dated an ugly guy before. He’s uglier than his ass, but I still dated him. But he didn’t get my number from ROOM TO RENT website! He walked up to my face and be all man - I respect his gesture and I rewarded him with my number. That’s how sincerity and willingness is measured. If you starting to puke on your car dashboard the moment you saw him/her waiting on the other side of the road, on your 1^st meet up attempt after 1 month sweet nothings texting, what are you gonna do? Change your phone number? Tell me what kind of person willing to eat things they grab with their eyes closed? This is not FEAR FACTOR reality show. This is human feelings, hope and expectation we are talking about!

Man, Im not lying about scoring Zuma Blitz. But this guy really interrupted me during my best moment in my best game. I was intended to score to 2 million and because of his stupid attempt, I only manage to score 1.7million. Im not lying okay! Here’s the prove;

And August still left 3 weeks to go. Kill me please.

July, july..

2011-07-24T23:28:00.001+08:00

Yeap, obviously July always has something sweet to ponder for as long as I can remember. It always happened that July is the one month I spent the time out (a lot) with another human being.

July – is where I come to meet up with my posse every weekend of the month.

in the club or over some coffee table for never ending hot, steamy, mind disturbing issues behind each other’s shell. “Luncheon with the best” according to Linda. Best friends & best food, followed with the best shopping spree with these lovelies is THE BEST moment I ever had in 2011. I swear that I am willing to give up multiple orgasm for this moment. That’s the best way to describe this, I guess.

Yummeh in July 2011

Experiencing Malaysia on big sale with girlfriends.

A week before that I was at BlackCat Tatto Studio, Sunway to watch a young friend to get his 1st ever ink. It was my 1st experience to watch the process from shaving his chest until he put back on his shirt. I still can’t believe that he got his chest stained with colors even though he told me about it 4 months ago, even before his birthday. I never knew it was the day. Luckily I always bring my Big Boi around, so I manage to capture t(his) memorable day. I don’t know why I was a bit sad about it (this explain why his old man will strangle him back in Seoul, someday), but since it was very meaningful to him. So I just sat there and watch it done.

I never knew someone so up close in making decision for something permanent looks so easy. Or, maybe because he’s still young. It is normal for me to be surrounded with people who is gambling or always on “try & error” before they reach the decision of doing something for themselves, mine included. In fact, I was so believed that deciding on something permanent is never a big deal and zero regrets. Because it always something to do with what you want, straight from your heart and of course, meaningful thus, makes you happy. I thought I did it once, decided on something that I thought it’s going to be permanent, but turned out that it only lasted for a year. Pathetic.

Or, to some people - it is worth the pain & agony to have a mark, any marks in their life. I dont have tattoo, that tells story about me, but I do have few irremovable “scars” in me. It is not something that I want but I guess that is how universe has arranged it for me, and it makes me, me - the one that I am now.

“Welcome to my life, tattoo
We've a long time together, me and you
I expect I'll regret you
But the skin graft man won't get you
You'll be there when I die
Tattoo” ~ The Who.

I scheduled my life that I got to leave this country for a few days, thrice in a year and tried to make vacation part of me. You know being adult is a stressful job but never used it as an excuse. People keep telling me that my life is easy just because I am “single”- less responsibility, more time, extra space. Man, that is the most prejudice accusation that I always get. What defines “single” and “coupled” or “married” or “partnered” ? Peoples keep whining to me that they have to send their kids to school & extra class all year round, bearing certain household expenses alone and no time to enjoy the tv-couch moment with their loved ones – that sounds pretty much single to me. I don’t know why these peoples unable to tell the difference between life sharing and being a door mat. Holding hands, sharing that king size bed & blanket, making babies and all other stuff is not a life sharing until you share all the stuff that makes you whine! And if you really SHARE with your partner, other half, bf, what ever you want to define him/her, then other people who is not sharing life with you won’t be able to hear your whine at the 1st place. Geddit? SO – WHOEVER WHINE THE MOST IS SINGLE TO ME. ..and this is what single people do;

We left the house for few days and sleep somewhere else in the city with our favorite person. (if you have kids, leave them to your partner/bf/husband)

We do the cupcakes toast on the bed after coming back from stressful work. We eat all sinful food and gained few kilos along the stay but still feel great about it. (If your partner/bf/husband complaints, just slap him on his mouth)

We spent ridiculous amount of money on frappucino with the girlfriends over the weekends and talk about clothes, skincare, shoes, penis and how easy our single life is. (Your partner/bf/husband do this all the time it just they have quite different topics – soccer, boobs and alcohol)

…and we camwhore a lot because we feel good about our face & hair.

Oh, anyway, I wanna thank my girlfriend who invited me to a vacation in the city from Wednesday till Saturday on 3rd week of July. I owe you much love.

I sent my resignation letter on 15th July and heading to a place that I finally able to do something that I love. July~ I got to know that my dream guy is finally coming - it makes my heart sing..

July… July… I lived my teenage dream in this July too. I never imagined that I ever experience teenage dream come to live at this age where I can hardly see dreams in my sleep. It was the sweetest and I am more than ready to move forward to the next phase of life and embrace to whatever may come. Never looked back. Thanks boo.

Today, it has been a year since I lost you…and now I am smiling.. how I wish you knew.

July 2011- I am all healed.

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Another Taiwan post on lazy weekend

2011-06-18T23:25:00.001+08:00

Im drifting away from this blog and not really feels good about it. I managed to write somewhere else on daily basis to someone, but not in here. Too bad, I have more personal issues to write about compare to general one :) Blog is nothing like Facebook. It’s so easy to do ridiculous amount of update on Facebook. 1 album with full of edited pictures can tell thousand stories, single line of update already enough to tell people what’s your day gonna be or has been and a paste of Youtube’s link on any particular song tells people that your heart is singing.

So here I am, on lazy weekend and I swear, I manage to get on here because I really didn’t do anything today. No laundry, no floor sweeping, no shower (!!!!!). Just like Bruno Mars’s “The Lazy Song” but minus the line “Turn on the TV and throw my hand in my pants”.

Last week I went back to my hometown to meet the cutest thing in the family.

Meet my grand nephew, Syabil Lokman, 8 months old. He is huge, he is chubby, he is a new generation of cam whore item. And thank you for the sore on my both arms and back pain. You are forgiven.

Yeap. My grand nephew is cuter than yours.

and another non related update to the title of the post, I feel the need to put up this picture taken yesterday during my office’s makan-makan. This picture made me looks like 6 feet tall and I loves it.

Back to Taiwan trip update. Damn, I totally forgot which is what already. I dont really remember which was the exact place we went and what day. Terrible! Oh ok.. after looking back at albums uploaded on Facebook, now I remember~! We left Taoyuan and headed to Nantou to visit Sun Moon Lake, then Visit WenWu Temple, Peacock Garden and the most awesome and the largest night market in Taiwan : Feng Chia Night Market. And I remember the greatest part of the whole trip is this.. night market. I can stay in that night market forever!

So, this is basically the route we took on our 2nd day trip;

We crossed 5 districts in 1 day! Not bad!! First time visit Taiwan and I visited (or passed by) few districts can be considered awesome compared to those who stay for few days in Taipei alone and do nothing but eating stinky, smelly Tofu! You and your trip, stink big time! Haha! What is so good about stinky tofu anyway? I think I can do it at home, here in my apartment. Just take the tofu, marinate it inside my toilet bowl with my stool for couple of days, and walla~! It’s ready for you to enjoy.

Day 2: Morning. We woke up kinda late and no appetite for breakfast. Not with lousy plain rice porridge. Eeeuuww. I rather eat that garlic bread I bought the night before. And again, it was a rainy day.

..and lucky me I had a box full of favorite types of cookies that I bought from Milk Houses.

So we passed by mountains and forests..and mountains again… The journey took around 3 hours so I fell asleep few times due to the boredom. I forgot to bring my iPod and the only latest song I have inside my mobile is;

sigh..

We made a few stop for public toilet and some shop which were listed inside our tour itinerary (boring!!!!) and finally arrived at Nantou by afternoon.

and had my vegetarian lunch.

Yuck! I can never be a vegetarian! This is weird.. I can eat raw veggies or even grass. But not this. Hhmmmm..

I tell you, that plain white rice taste even better :( *grunts*

That is expensive banana. Even my hair band which I got at Ximen Ting is cheaper than that.. well.. touristy spot..

Spot anything cute?

Finally we at the pier and ready for our Sun Moon Lake tour.

Sun Moon Lake, situated in Nantou County’s Yuchih Township, in the center of Taiwan, and is the island’s largest lake. The eastern part of the lake is round like the sun and the western side is shaped like a crescent moon, hence the name “Sun Moon Lake”.

I dont understand a word. It seems like we only went to the moon part.

The Pier.

It was so foggy (again) and I couldnt capture the beauty of the lake. It suppose to look like this if you come during autumn;

**Picture courtesy of rivercam.wordpress.com

Too frustrated with the rainy, foggy day, so I decided to camwhore along the way. It’s the only thing that my camera able to capture. My face.

We arrived at the small island and climb up to see Syuenguang and Syuentzang Temples. The pathway to the temple is so beautiful.. I swear I took hundreds of photos of it. Here are some of them;

It is a small and the most beautiful temple I ever been to. It feels like Im above the clouds just like the old ancient Chinese Goddess story.

Syuenguang and Syuentzang Temples worship (enshrine) the relics of the great monk Syuan-zang. He was born in Tang Dynasty about 1600 years ago. His great achievement was that he went to India to study Buddhism and brought back a lot of books about Buddhism. Moreover, he translated those books written in Sanskrit (梵文) to Chinese language. He indeed made a great contribution to the development of Buddhism in China and other Asian countries. (Source)

View from the temple. Just imagine if it’s without the fog..

Wishes and prayers..

Oh I wish that the sign to heaven as this easy. “Heaven, this way miss”

In Taiwan, cute dog go to temple too! God Bless cute animals.

You can straight go for hiking after the prayer. If you fall down and die during the hiking, you die as a holy man.

Landscape behind the temple.

Wait a minute! How on earth those cars could get until this point? *scratch my head* Im not above the clouds like old ancient Chinese Goddess story after all! Urrgghh. *dream crashed down*

Im too frustrated with the fact that those cars manage to come up to this hill! Why not our tour guide drove us up here with the van then!!!! Why I must pay for that ferry ticket???? Cheater!

This post end abruptly here. I hate this trip. Continue some other time with Wenwu Temple, Peacock garden and night market.

Tata.

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Cold, wet Taipei – Day 1

2011-05-21T21:29:00.001+08:00

Yep. I just came back from Taiwan with a flu. That’s the evidence how cold & wet Taiwan is.

I never got the chance to see the sun light during the whole stay, except the last day I was transferred to the airport. Dang, Taiwan hate my presence!

Speaking about hate & presence, I came to know that young girls at their 20’s really hate me, for real! Along this time I was the one who envy how smooth is their skin and perky butt, somehow, smooth skin & perky butt are not enough to make them feel great about their age. Mature girls with 1001 issues are still their biggest threat!

A 22 years old boy sent me a friend request in my facebook, which I thought he’s already in my buddy list. “my girl deleted you”. That’s his explanation. I was like “WTF?” because I remembered that I never had any public or private contact with this boy – I never commented any of his pictures or activities because they are too boring. Somehow his girlfriend manage to track and delete me off from her boyfriend buddy list. How funny is that? And she did the same thing again, few days after we re-buddy.

Young girl, let me tell you something – Im flattered with your act. Really. Knowing that your young ass unable to handle the presence of a mature girl like me, makes me feel grateful that I am always at the right age & phase. I am so right until you unable to digest the truth projected in front of you. It is a threat for you when your boyfriend having me in his circle of friends. You are afraid that, in your boyfriend’s mind - Im becoming a new standard of how a girl supposed to be. Well, finish your study, get your degree and earn your own money before you wanted to talk about standard. One thing is that, invading your boyfriend’s right & privacy is not sexy. It’s your lost to disconnect us because, maybe, I can let him know a secret or two of how to please a girl or you - is another thing. And boy, I wish you good luck with that.

And yes, I know what’s annoyed you. I can switch my character and presence from a mature woman

to a young girl like you (even cuter than you), back and forth without trying hard. HAHAHA.

So, back to my trip. This is my 1st ever package trip. I hate package trip because it made me clueless of where and what road I was at. Yes it was written inside the tour itinerary, but our tour guide keep swapped it up and down to accommodate the time with the program and the route taken. Just sat inside the van like a doll and let them bring me to the place where I can take a lot of pictures with limited time frame. Not cool!

Touched down at Taoyuan Airport at around 3pm and heading straight to Ying Zhen Hotel at Taoying Road. We checked in, checked whatever stuff we might need during the trip which is UMBRELLA and right back on the street by foot. We had our free & easy on the 1st day so the best to discover new place is by foot.

Nothing interesting about this hotel except for their huge bed and located right in front of Watson. Their room kind of having a moldy smelly and they should improve on breakfast menu.

It was almost 7pm when we had Japanese for dinner. It’s cheap here because I can get a cup of steamed egg at Rm1.80

You definitely need to travel with someone who can read & converse in Mandarin here, or else you’ll end up with pork leg in your dinner plate. Look at the price. It was 10.75 when I exchange MYR to NTD.

News on typhoon attack in Taipei recently.

So.. as usual, I opt for fish, egg, salad and clear soup. Go Japanese! Easy choice when you are not so sure about anything.

So we strolled down the Taoying road until nowhere.. and we had to take a cab to go back to our hotel. Haha.

So, it happened that I saw some Malay translation in some hair saloon along of street of nowhere. I was so excited and I had an urged that to pose in front of it.

So I believed this streets are infested with immigrants. I was confused for a while and reminded myself that Im not in Vietnam.

School kids displaying their raw talent in the subway.

Night market in the streets of nowhere.

I was so attracted to this super round guava and I know how crispy it is by looking at it. So my friend and I stopped by to check it out and what you know! 5 minutes later I left with free guava! There was a local Taiwanese guy busy checking me out and my medium size chest, up and down, left to right and left again. He kept asking my friend where were we came from and all. He insisted to pay for the guava even he looks like can’t afford to buy for himself! So, thank you Mr. smelly guy!

Even fruit seller in Taiwan wearing a fake lashes! I hardly see any girls in here without fake lashes!

We walked further up for an hour until I had to get myself a rubber slippers. I was so tired and asked my friend to go back to our hotel and rest.. because we had to get up at 7am next morning for our next destination. I told you! I hate packaged tours!

My cheesy sweet findings on my 1st night in Taiwan. This is from Milk Houses bakery nearby Taipei railway station. Photograph is not allowed at the shop so I can’t take any pictures to show you how fancy the shop is! It’s painted in black, with silver bird cage and grape vines hanging in every corner of the shop. The bread rack displayed like it’s Halloween and the breads looks superlicious! So I grabbed a piece of cheesecake, cheese tart, box of cookies and garlic bread. I need a serious energy for tour tomorrow!

-end of day 1. Will continue with day two, if I have a time. hehe.

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Wrong.

2011-05-13T00:49:00.000+08:00

Lately, I discovered that I do have a dream guy. Real one, not the typical tall-dark-handsome with bank full of money. I have been writing to him back and forth for almost a year and slowly I came to realize he’s the one I’ve been dreaming of.

Last night I had an emotional confession to a young man about a girl like me in the hope that he will be the first one who open up into a different way of thinking and perception. I told him the secret of a women’s heart and now it has no longer stay a secret for him anymore. So that he will do his thing right by making one less lonely girl in this planet when his time finally come. I think I did it fine because I can see in his eyes the way he looked at me in a different way before he left. I feel respected.

Today, I came to know today that my dream guy slept with his best friend of 15 years after a birthday party, few weeks ago. I appreciate the honesty but I guess he’s no longer in my dream. This is not my first time though, and I didn’t blame him for what has happened. I was being mistaken as a good friend (most of the time), because I am so good creating a comfortable, safe and clean zone of platonic friendship. So, I should feel proud of myself, here. Because it really saved me from a heartbroken for falling into a wrong guy.

Few hours ago I was told by a guy that, I look like a girl with high maintenance plus a girl that wouldn’t fit for a wife. He got that conclusion just by flipping through my photos just in 1 day and I believed it goes the same with other guys too. Yes, pictures do tell stories and I wasn’t lucky enough to get my portrait right to every people’s minds. I am so tired with the assumptions, so I think I want to quit explaining.

Im blessed with few things that other girls or men could ever wished for. But I would like to remind you that.. be careful with what you wished for.. because you might just get it and stuck with it. Still, it is my fault in getting things wrongly interpreted. I made hard things seems so easy, ugly sight became so pretty and normal geeky girl didn’t fit for a wife material. I really have no clue that I have the ability to magnify unnecessary things and its killing me. All I wanted to be is to be an inspiration and inspire people who has inspired me.

…and still, people came to me and said “be yourself, be genuine and keep it real” ah..

Despite of all, I will still keep on dreaming, even with my eyes open.

If you cannot be a poet, be the poem. ~David Carradine

I dream.

2011-04-30T21:04:00.007+08:00

Dear William, thank you for letting me keep the crown, anyway its too slippery for your almost baldy head. Yes I lost to Kate now but I know we are destiny to be like your daddy Charles & step mother Camilla in 15 years time. I will get you back here on my lap. Love u. xoxo.

I know. It’s a fairytale come true for Kate Middleton, but while the girls and I were watching the live telecast of the Royal wedding of the century, we were screaming! NO! not because there goes our dreamy smile dream prince. It’s his bald patch! Why can’t he just;

1) Plant some hairs
2) Shave that head bald
3) Wear a royal wig !

It’s your big day and the whole world is watching! How could Kate didn’t do anything about it? If she managed to get William to get her on the throne, don’t tell me she unable to talk William out about what to do with that patch on their big day! Gosh. Don’t tell me she has a fetish towards patchy skull! How could she make love to it?! Arrgghh… save me & my imagination from picturing their love making session. Arrgghhh! How could you William? I mean.. How could you Kate??

So, I was at Rain Bi’s F1 Sepang concert. Not to say his solo concert la. I had to stand and torture myself to watch Ford’s (Malaysia) Supermodel’s search finale. Who cares about those long legged girls strutting in their skinny jeans, wiggling their boobs and hair at the temperature of 28 degree Celsius? Sorry Ford’s girls, forgive me to break the truth to you. It wasn’t you who make the temperature hot on 10th April. It was the heat from the racing circuit. I’m not jealous. What the heck for? I paid RM250.00 to watch my 1st ever concert and my dream Korean guy! But I had to go in 2 hours before he start his performance because I was too short to stand behind! Screw you. How does it make us feel down here, sweating like a pig, smell like a gutter, and watching you strutting your thin ass on the stage and Rain look at super ugly with sticky armpit us right after that?

So, that was the moment, I’ve been waiting for. I never been to any concert in my entire life. I can’t stand standing too long, cramping with smelly sweating peoples (or was it me?) and got my foot stepped by inconsiderate jumping bastards plus whacking my head with their elbows! IT’S NOT COOL BEING 4’ 9’’ okay! I repeat - Not COOL!

and why he has that camel toe in his crotch? I want to see big bulging crotch with what I have paid! Not the camel toe! You didn’t tear your shirt off, you made us watching skinny ass Ford’s supermodel finalist 1 hour before you start, you seldom come to stage section where I stand and I can’t take a closer picture of you! And now Camel Toe? How could you?!!!

and oh, thank you for a 3 second of your famous hip grinding.

But no thanks. It was too short to turn me on! Urggh.

But then, you really bring back my teenage dream alive at the age like this (um, secret). It has been so long I never screamed over a guy, especially a stranger like you. So, I was very curious.. how it is look like if you are mine..

It looks perfect.… haha.

Was at my girlfriend's office, somewhere at Menara TM (heheh). We've been friends for 15 years and I never had a chance to drop by at her working place at all until last Friday. Her office is so cool - they had a big freezer with wall's free ice creams and big ass tv! They welcome me like they knew me for ages. Gosh, it explains why she able to stay up late and so committed to her work - she has a happy working environment and awesome workmates! I never imagined that able to watch live telecast tv program in someone's office - during working hour with their boss around! How cool is that? In addition to the coolness of her office, it happened that one of her friend was there, with mountains of Coach, Burberry and Aigner handbags for sale! she just came back from her UK trip and she got it cheap and she do have a website selling authentic branded items at cheaper price! Whoa! Icy cool! Ladies, gotta drop by at her website once your bonus in :) Gotta reward yourself once or twice in a year!

By looking at the stuffs she sell, I asked her - "So, tell me. What about your own collection? You must have a room full of Prada, Gucci, Louis Vuitton and all back at your place? "She just giggled back at me. I knew it! She one hell of a lucky lady! she must be the happiest woman on earth! Arggh.

"I don't dream at night, I dream all day; I dream for a living." Steven Spielberg

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Nothing.

2011-04-20T02:27:00.001+08:00

Just imagine the look of a little girl’s face when you flashes her a pink cotton candy or colorful swirled lollypop. Her face suddenly brightens with smile, because she thinks it’s for her. That is the most basic natural impulse between the two. You hand it out to her and she took it in a speed of light until she forgot to thank you because she is so happy. The next minute you realized you’ve made a mistake. It wasn’t for her. You go back, apologize and took it away from her hand in a very nice way (because you know it’s your fault). She is sad, but she has to accept that it wasn’t for her. People made mistake and her mom always taught her well that, she must not take whatever which is not belong to her. Just imagine how it feels when you thought you got to hold on something you like but it wasn’t for you at the 1st place. Just because, the one who gave it to you – had no clue what he was doing.

Have you ever experience the situation where, someone said something sweet and nice to you till it made your heart flutters but the next hour , the next day he took it back complete with apologize and explanation that the sweet line he poured it out actually wasn’t meant for you? In fact, you should not to hear it at the 1st place. It was a total mistake and he convinced you not once, but many times that it was said out of a wrong thoughts – some kind like out from middle of crisis’s thoughts.

I was so foolish thinking that those sweet, good words were always came out straight from the heart, and the bad one came out when you were in anger, misunderstood or in sober. And now I just realized I got it all – in a wrong way. It happened to me every time, and I still have trouble to learn about this one. I tried a little, like – to ignore those sweet sayings, assumed it was a part of a joke and now, I finally learned that, it wasn’t true anymore.

It made my heart aching so bad every time I heard all the sweet sayings from any men – because I know that they just don’t know what they were doing at that point of time. I always right, the next day they came apologized for such beautiful, sweet lines they said to me. It was a total mistake. And I am the object that always have to accept such mistakes and try to, had to let go some beautiful words which came out from their fuzzy thoughts. How cheap is that? It even wasn’t came out from a clear thought and I still had to forgive them.

And now I asked myself, what is truly left for me to hear and to believe?
“nothing”

I like it how the wind works. You don’t really need to hear it just to prove its true existence and the reason why it blows. You know it’s there and you can always feel it.

Or maybe I still prefer to listen to couple of love songs, with its beautiful lyrics and melody. I don’t mind about that – because no matter how beautiful it sounds, I knew it wasn’t written for me. But it is for the record selling.

….and now I know, love letter isn’t a part of my list to get before I die, anymore.

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