What I'm thinking about..

Love and the rest of the mushy^^

2012-01-13T13:16:00.000-08:00

So I drank a lot of coffee. I got to watch Storyline and was really moved by one particular story. Their love crossed continents. It was a love story, only with a tragic end. Then it got me thinking.. How could a magical thing, such as love could end that way? They were murdered by the way. You can check out their story here.

So anyway, love is life and life as we know it, ends. I guess that's the only way to stop it. But even death does not separate two people in love. It's called eternal love. One story had that kind of love. Her husband, who was an activist, was assassinated right before he's about to pick her up from the airport. Instead of dwelling on the heavy emotions, she focuses on life. She said if she'll share her story, it would not be about the hurt because listeners would feel that. So she chose to share about being a flutist. She said from what had happened to her husband, she learned to appreciate life and the importance of every breath.

It's just amazing. Two different stories but of the same foundation, love. I'm young but I'm not getting younger. I have not found the love of my life yet but I believe it will come if it's for me. I'm just afraid of getting hurt. People make mistakes, but I'm not sure how I'd handle a husband's mistake or a boyfriend cheating. It's kinda like, don't start it, if it would just end eventually. I'm also not the type who collects because I believe in karma and I don't like playing with people's feelings. Quite frankly, if I don't like a person, they would feel it.

When I was in first grade, I had a crush. I think he's special because I never forgot his name. Funny as it may seem but yes, as soon as I learned his name, I never forgot it. Darn. Oops!

Drinking coffee makes my heart beat fast that's why I got to write this. I do apologize. But word of advise; Cherish those people who care for you. Don't chase or look for love. It will come and bite you in the armpits. Just keep your eyes, especially your heart, open :)

[written 4/20/11]

Choose your feelings

2010-05-20T09:25:00.000-07:00

I was watching Seventh Heaven earlier before I slept. The episode was great but the Reverend said something about choosing your feelings. Now, just the thought of it, it's really hard. Especially for me because I feel what I feel. In the episode, the Reverend suggested that you can choose your feelings. If you're upset but you still have to go to work, you can set that aside. And when you come home, you can feel it and even cry about it for an hour. Let all your emotions out but limit yourself to that time. Is this possible? Can we really choose our feelings? Can we really set the time when to feel it and how long it should last? I'm not tough so this is impossible for me.

I think dealing with our feelings right there and then is what makes us human. And if dealing with it causes bad things in your life like maybe cause you your job because you lost focus on your task or had a failing mark in an exam because you forgot to study, that really sucks. Forgive me for my words, but yes, it's bad but I guess that's how God planned it.

Maybe it's suppose to give you a lesson. And maybe you needed to learn that lesson. Problems come but in time, they also disappear. It's just how you handle it as it comes. With regards to feelings, do what you think is right. Think it through, don't just rely on your heart. Watch a movie, or clean your apartment, or go outside. Whatever suits you, as long as you move on.

the most effective way to get over disappointment.

2010-05-17T12:38:00.001-07:00

disappointment. it exist. you can't do anything about it. it gets you off guard. unprepared. it just happens. you cope up and then what? you forget? but can you? especially when there are words like reminisce or remember. it's hard. so, how can you get over disappointment? for me, the most effective way to get over disappoint is "a lot" of things. a lot of things like I curse a lot, I cry a lot, I eat a lot, I think a lot, I would like to sleep a lot but I can't because I have work. amongst these "a lot" of things, I fear thinking a lot because when that happens, I begin generating decisions and realizations. and I hate it. you shouldn't decide when you're mad and it is unfair to make a realization while you're mad.

but why do disappointments occur? I'm not really sure. one thing that's going through my mind is "too much expectations". it's the best answer for me, for now. second would be, inconsiderate people. this is effin stupid but there are people like this. the best solution is to talk and listen. I'm not saying confront the person, find someone you could talk to, one who's willing to listen as well. may or may it not be the same person you're disappointed at. if you can't find anyone, talk to God. or if you still can't do that, write it. in paper or blog about it (like this one). that way, it may not have removed the hurt but it helps lighten up the weight.

being disappointed is never easy. as for me, i usually take "a lot" of time to be alone and think. i rarely talk to avoid coming into tears. yes, I know that's lame, but I easily cry. that's why I need time.

Why aren't weekends longer?

2010-01-22T13:18:00.000-08:00

Why??? why?!! I'm not complaining (so much :D) I just want to know why? Does anybody know?

No more thoughts???

2010-01-21T10:11:00.000-08:00

Wow! When was the last time I posted? It's not because I ran out of thoughts. Haha. Funny. But I just got busy with work. Wish I have Apple MacBook so that I don't have to keep updating my anti-virus program. I also would like to have a Canon P owerShot D10 , by then maybe I could find Nemo! Although I think I should learn how to swim first hehe.

Ooh! These are really great products but I don't have enough money for them yet. Even my phone is too old. Really old. I think it is it's 10th year now haha. But I'm considering buying a new one or two this year. One for me and one for my Mamu G (my mom) ☺ I'll work harder to get these stuff. But I'll make sure I'm still helping my mom and other people along the way. 'Til next post.

Reasons Why You Shouldn't Say Sorry

2009-10-13T12:03:00.000-07:00

Sorry! What does that word really mean? Google defines it as

"regretful: feeling or expressing regret or sorrow or a sense of loss over something done or undone. "

I have no problems with this definition. It’s just that, this is a feeling which needs to be expressed, not just a word said to escape reasoning. I know people who use this word all the time and not care. So, I came up with a list of reasons why you shouldn’t say sorry.

• Reason#1; we are human!

We all make mistakes. From the day we were born we were considered sinners because of Adam and Eve’s wrongdoing. It is all-natural.

• Reason#2; if you don’t mean it, it doesn’t really count.

Just saying sorry without the intention of really being sorry, doesn’t count. It just doesn’t! So why waste your time saying it.

• Reason#3; the most important one, sorry was NEVER synonymous with “I won’t do it again.”

When you say “I won’t do it again”, there is an assurance that whatever the fault was will not happen again.

Saying sorry isn’t bad. It really is a good thing if delivered with pure intentions. So, when you’ve done somebody wrong, immediately apologize and mean it.

If I were a boy..

2009-09-23T09:01:00.000-07:00

If I were a boy, my name would've been LOVELITO. Yuck!!!!! I would rather be called any other common names like Michael or Joshua. I would look decent but not too decent, since I'll grow my hair long. I wanna look like a rock star without appearing dirty or rugged. Being a guy would make me more confident. I would be active in sports, particularly in basketball, and dances. I would be an engineer. I wouldn't be too friendly or too sweet to any girl because I wouldn't want to give them the wrong impression. In relationships, I would be a man of my word. I would be married at a young age because I want to spend more time with my family especially my kids. We'll hang out when they are old enough. We could go biking, mountain climbing etc. It would always be a family activity except for boys' night or if my wife doesn't want to go. Needless to say, I would only have one wife. If our marriage doesn't work or last long, it would be the wife's fault. Either she cheated or died! ..because I would never cheat on my wife.

It's hard to be a boy. You should be dependable and responsible because people rely on you. I'm glad I'm a girl and thankful being one.

If you were God, what would you have created first?

2009-09-14T11:06:00.000-07:00

If I were God, I would make sure that everybody knows there is only one God – Me. I am humble. I wouldn’t want to take much of your time. Worship me if you must. But as long as you know me and your thankful for the life I gave you that would be fine. You don’t need to offer your life for me. After all, I am all-powerful. Just live your life to the fullest. But bear in mind there are limits to your free will. That is why if I were God I would first create light. I want to divide light from darkness. Light would still be called “day” and darkness would still be called “night”. Somehow, light represents the good. In contrary, darkness represents the bad. So while you experience your free will, you would always choose to do good things or at least that which wouldn’t harm other people. We need light to guide us.

The sun, the moon and the stars are mediums of light. Imagine your life without having to experience these things. The sun wakes you up every morning and brightens your day. The moon gives light to the dark paths during the night. And the stars which continuously shine and twinkle for you every time you look up. They also give hope to those who wish.

You can’t really plan out in the dark. If you create something, you need to see it. You can’t appreciate your creation if you don’t see it. How could I have possibly recognized the beauty of everything I have created without the light?

I choose to create light first so that all creatures can appreciate the beauty of the earth. All the colors and all the things found in it. Like the rainbows, the sky and even the buildings.

After everything was created and the first man walked the earth, I would remove the concept of religion. It only creates conflicts about their ideas and beliefs. Eventually, it would lead to war. War kills not just humans but also the earth. It would destroy my creation. I would also remove the concept of deities. That way humans could live their lives without the feeling of being watched by a greater force. It would allow them to express themselves freely.

Today, September 10, 2009, midnight. (Philippine time)

2009-09-09T08:49:00.000-07:00

Another day at work but I’m not sleepy. I don’t know why. From the time I got out of our boardinghouse, I felt light. It was like everything was okay. But it bothers me and here’s why;

° Whenever I leave our boarding house in time for work, I’m always tired. Its either I took a nap before actually going to work or I’m just so tired.
° Being in the workplace wears me out. Excluding the fact that well, the workplace is not health-friendly for having poor ventilation etc., everybody is busy-tired. So who am I to object?

Maybe I just didn’t expect this. Maybe this just isn’t for me and I know that, even before ‘this’ started, I know that. Still, I’m thankful for these guys. I’ve learned so much from them; the good and the bed. Did I just type in bed? Well, what I’m trying to say is the good and the bad. I’ve gotten to know different types of persona. At least this helps me in a theory I’ve been working on which I will post when the time is right; when it’s done. (hehe)

I am thankful for the boss. He always has a lot to say about stuff but they actually seem sensible. But if I may suggest, try not to talk down on your listener because that’s the time they establish their fear in you. You’re not always right so try to hear their side. When I say hear, wait for their say. Give them time to think about what they want to say - a time to establish their sentence because it’s not easy. Talking to you is not easy. But I appreciate the advices you’ve given to me and I do appreciate talking to you. Not just because I could practice talking to an American which really helps for the training I’m currently in, but also because I learn a lot from you. So, thank you.

I’m still not sleepy. Now, what should I be thinking about at this time? I really don’t know. But I do hope everything will turn out okay. Today.