2 things

I don't understand a lot of things and I will probably never will

2013-01-24T01:04:00.000+08:00

Forgiveness is like setting a prisoner free and realize this whole time the prisoner was you
btw I had no idea why is it the star is there..

and God surely showed me

He sees me inside, everything, every single thought, the deepest scarred hearts,

He knows, the way he sees me is not completely perfect, but unconditional

and I'm loved by people and even those who I admired

I was dumbfounded how it all happened I tweeted this

An Indian dude called out"leng lui" I just looked at his way,he said "you pretty meh" I replied " everyone is beautiful on the inside"

THEN HE RESPECTED ME AND SAID IM PRETTY AND POKED HIS CHEEKS TO SHOW HE LIKES MY DIMPLES HELL YEEAHHH

then 3 people which I'm fond of favorite it, well well well

I cannot expressed my happiness in that one moment

I felt infinite

Jellybean, Ben Chong and Stephen Loh favorited your Tweet

55m:

THEN HE RESPECTED ME AND SAID IM PRETTY AND POKED HIS CHEEKS TO SHOW HE LIKES MY DIMPLES HELL YEEAHHH

"THIS IS GOING TO MY BLOG ." I thought to myself.

can someone stay up with me till 2am and tell me everything

they have ever been to scared to say

School: be yourself!
School: but don't get any piercings or dye your hair or stand out from the rest or act how you usually would or choose to be different from other people.

I want to be skinny.

I want to be skinny to the point where when I sit down my stomach doesn’t make a roll. To the point where my thighs are just close enough to the perfect size. To the point where my collar bones stick out. To the point where I don’t feel uncomfortable and have to question myself whether I should wear something or not. A body that suits me, satisfies me and everyone else around me.

source: http://saygoodbyeandgo.tumblr.com/

Imagine Dragons - It's Time Lyrics

2013-01-24T00:03:00.001+08:00

Now don't you understandI'm never changing who I am

stuffs

2013-01-15T23:16:00.000+08:00

i want to buy a book, a book that i’ve never heard of, never read. look at the cover, read the back, flip through the pages. bring it home. grab a highlighter, and begin to read the book. every time there is a sentence, a word, a phrase that i can relate to, i will highlight it. then, once i am done the book, i will be able to flip through it and see exactly how i was feeling each day that i was reading. it would be like a diary, but written in someone else’s words

i dont get how people don’t like music

like when i ask people what music they listen to and they’re like “i dont really like music” i get really confused

because my entire life has been more or less about music and it’s really weird to think other people don’t get it

school: please get a full night of sleep
school: but don't forget to do 876543 hours of homework
school: and study for tests
school: be a well rounded student by joining clubs
school: and participating in sports so you don't come home till 6pm
school: don't be late for school
school: but make sure you eat a full meal in the morning
school: kids need a balanced diet
school: here eat cardboard with red paint, it's called "pizza"
school: if you don't type and double space your paper i'm not counting it
school: but don't use the internet while doing homework

Let’s play a game called ‘Stay up late and hate myself in the morning’
‘on a school night’ edition
volume ‘i should be studying’

next volume called “i failed the test”

Life just isn't

2012-06-05T22:38:00.000+08:00

I've learned a thing or two during the holidays . It's funny that you worry a lot each day and do nothing about it. So I decided to re-read my journal the things I said, the things I promise myself and I start to feel better  about myself. I stop worrying so much about everything.

 I said to myself, I don't want a relationship, I just want someone beside me, to comfort me, to make me feel better, like a better person, to correct me if I'm wrong, to laugh with me, to be the reason someone is alive because of me, someone to love, someone to hold me when worries came rushing,, to tell me I can be better, to see all my flaws and still love me.

Life isn't about keeping score.  It's not about how

many people call you and it's not about who you've

dated, are dating or haven't dated at all.  It isn't

about who you've kissed, what sport you play, or which

guy or girl likes you.  It's not about your shoes or

your hair or the color of your skin or where you live

or go to school.  In fact, it's not about grades,

money, clothes, or colleges that accept you or not.

Life isn't about if you have lots of friends, or if

you are alone, and it's not about how accepted or

unaccepted you are.  Life just isn't about that.

But life is about who you love and who you hurt.  It's

about how you feel about yourself.  It's about trust,

happiness and compassion.  It's about sticking up for

your friends and replacing inner hate with love.  Life

is about avoiding jealousy, overcoming ignorance and

building confidence.  It's about what you say and what

you mean.  It's about seeing people for who they are

and not what they have.  Most of all, it is about

choosing to use your life to touch someone else's in a

way that could never have been achieved otherwise.

These choices are what life's about.



A very short lesson in Psychology:



When a person laughs too much, even on stupid things, that person is sad deep inside

When a person sleeps a lot, that person is lonely

When a person talks less and if he talks fast, that person is keeping a secret

When a person can’t cry, that person is weak

When a person eats in an abnormal way, that person is in tension

When a person cries on little things, that person is softhearted

When someone asks about you although that someone is busy, he/she really loves you



I feel sorry for my parents.



They’re getting older & weaker, day by day. Yet they still manage to stay strong. Here they are going to work just so I can have food to eat, clothes to wear, a roof over my head, even just to buy me unnecessary things. Then comes me; talking back, not being thankful for everything they’ve done for me, yelling at them, being impolite, etc. I admit, I do feel bad but sometimes I cant help it. I just wish there was a way I could be more “respectful” to them.

You don't need not to care

2012-05-28T18:58:00.000+08:00

Hello people, I bet not more than 10 will read this anyway sorry I've been away for quite a long time, I have not been busy, but lazy/ It's school holidays ahahahaha yes! so, I've been great
about to post some amazing pictures and You need not to care what people think and just do what you love.

Traci Wise:

“I found my son sitting having a moment with his daddy (SFC Benjamin Wise) the other day. We lost him January 15 in Afghanistan… we cannot forget about the incredible loss these children must undertake.”

I do not own any of this pictures, I owe it all to tumblr.

the worst thing

2012-05-17T23:32:00.002+08:00

First I would like to thank you to this wonderful guy who knew I like him and never do anything about it, and leaves me hanging around, holding on to nothing but still talks to me and teases me and annoy me all the time with his whistling . Thank you for miss understanding me, and thank you for hating me cause I can never do the same thing to you as I'm suppose to love everyone.

so If you wouldn't say those words and make me realize how not interested you were, how stupid I thought you would actually like me. Thank you for making feel like I have a chance, when I don't .

and the worst thing also you can do to a girl is ignore her while she's loving you with all her heart.

There is a reason

2012-05-15T00:35:00.000+08:00

After years, I've been losing people who are close to me and not so close, that's probably normal, but now I know why, I tell people, I write songs about them. Example like Taylor Swift, did she kept it all inside when Someone hurts her, or betrayed her , or lie to her or even love her . No. She tells the whole world through her song. It's not wrong, and You can't expect her to keep it all inside. What can you do , It's not hurt them if you want them to write a good song about you , treat them well.

So my crush hates me now, wait no. Nevermind I'll find someone better than you.

I made a mistake probably a huge one? I told someone dear to my crush I like him
It's that wrong, I don't think so. So he thought I wanted someone dear to stay away from him. No, that's not what I meant. I didn't even thought about that. I just wanted you to know. AND YOU KNEW it a long time ago, DUDE at least tell me you don't like me or you don't have feelings for me. NOT DO NOTHING.
Do YOU know what it's like to leave someone hanging around waiting and holding on to nothing.

but instead you blame it all one me. Good then. cause here's a song about you
I don't love you. Never did. click here to listen
There's a day I wanna tell you..
There's a time when my heart beats fast
There's one day I told your best friend I like you, yes I like you.

but then she goes saying things
and you believed her , well of course

Thank God I didn't love you
My heart would break if I do and you wouldn't care
It was a stupid mistake for telling her .
But I don't love you baby, I never did.

Today you tell me you don't love me
You think I didn't know that?
you think that she's better
you think that you're greater
Well you're no better

It's not my fault you can't blame everything on me
so these are the words I wanna tell you.

2012-05-05T21:02:00.000+08:00

That moment when you finish a book, look around, and realize that everyone is just carrying on with their lives as though you didn’t just experience emotional trauma at the hands of a paperback.

Do what you like to do :)

2012-05-01T17:56:00.002+08:00

Doing things you like make out the most of your days, that's what life should be about, doing things you like, that makes you smile and happy.

Something about me

2012-04-22T22:15:00.000+08:00

Suffer in early age, true.. I've been beaten a lot! Getting slap over and over again .. but it's over/
Macho type? not really I'm actually very sensitive and fragile but I can take it. I can take those hurtful but it's the truth words. I'm a hypocrite I tell people they're beautiful but I think I'm ugly. I tell people you can but I myself I can't. And I hate myself for that. But I'm gonna become a better person. I hate engineering or banking jobs that's what my dad wants me to do. Me patient? not at all, I need people to remind that I musst be patient. I'm not a role model :/ but the suffered in early childhood was true and it touched me it hit me.

Who I am.

2012-04-14T23:41:00.000+08:00

Yes and No. I hate and love myself. Why? Because in this world, in this generation appearance really matters,

IF you're good looking you have nothing to worry about but if you're not, you DON'T matter.

Why was I born in this era, in this world , this society that kills us, but actually we are the society,

We are the ones who judged and wronged so many people.

I'm trying to find the right words to say to make you understand what I mean,

I'm trying to accept myself as I am

Bad Day

2012-04-10T23:08:00.003+08:00

If you had a bad day, then you have come to the right place, and p/s you're not alone.

God wants you to know that the great advantage of having nothing is that everything becomes a gain.

Losing everything is at the same time the scariest, as well as the most liberating experience you can have. When you have something, - anything, you've got to protect it from disappearing. And so worry becomes a resident in your heart. When you've got nothing, your heart overflows with gratitude for every offering you receive

why not take a few steps back and try to look at your life more objectively? Regardless of what you might be thinking at the moment, you do have a terrific life. Stop and count your blessings. Make a list and keep it in your wallet to refer to at low moments. Force yourself to be festive tonight. It will do you good to get out."

Disappointments are just God's way of saying: "I've got something better"' Be patient, live life, have faith.

2012-04-07T21:19:00.000+08:00

it is okay to come to me and just vent your heart out, cry to me, yell to me, or just chat with me. We are all in need of somebody to talk to.

Holding hands may seem like an innocent gesture, but they show more than a simple interlocking of fingers. Your hands are one of the most essential parts of your body: you build with them, feed with them, hold with them, touch with them, fight with them; they are the tools of the human body. To take a hold of another’s hand is to break from living individually. It is to link yourself to another being, to momentarily entwine your life with another’s, to promise, for a moment, that you need not face the world alone. More simple, more aesthetically naive than other forms of affection, i.e kissing, hugging, sexing.., the act of holding hands is often trivialized in its true implications.

but

I’m a lesbian so i must have a crush on every girl i see.

I have alot of guy friends so i must be fucking every single one of them.

I smile alot, so i must have the perfect life.

I listen to reggae, so I must be a stoner.

My opinion matters, so I must be a bitch.

I’m comfortable with my body, so I get around?

I’m friends with a lot of guys, so I’ve must have hooked up with all of them.

I like to help out, so I must be a suck up.

I’m black, so I must be ghetto.

I’m black, so I must be stupid.

I’m Mexican, so I must be low class.

I’m bisexual, so I must get around.

I’m straight up blunt, so I must be a bitch.

I like to drink, so I must be an alcoholic.

I don’t hang out with guys, so I must be a lesbian.

I cut myself so I must be emo.

I’m bisexual, so none of my girl friends can feel safe.

I laugh and smile, so I cannot be depressed.

I like spending my day at home, so I don’t have any friends

I am gay, so i must be bullied

Most of my friends are dudes, so I must be a tomboy.

I’m on Tumblr, so I must have zero friends in real life

I’m a Muslim, so I must be a terrorist

I make alot of mistakes so I must be stupid/retarded.

I strongly defend LGBT so I must be gay.

I’m from a broken family, so I must be a rebel.

I like rasta colors, so I must smoke weed.

I’ve had sex, so I must be a slut.

I’ve made mistakes, so I must be untrustworthy.

I really love him, so I must hold on.

I’m a Filipino, so I must be a maid.

I really love him, so I must be taken for granted.

I’m a Politician, so I must be corrupt.

I’m Blonde, so I must be really stupid.

I’m wearing a black shirt, so I must be emo.

I wear make up, so I must be a flirt.

I make alot of mistakes, so I must be hated.

I am a teenager, so I must be misunderstood.

I’m fat, so you must hate me.

Alone.

2012-04-01T15:16:00.000+08:00

You know those songs, those songs where you sang about someone, all those songs where it's always about that someone. Those songs makes me wished I had someone, just somebody. Someone who makes life worth while.

Someone to fall in love with and to be loved back, someone is the reason for your smile, someone to listen, someone to share your life with. I want that someone.

you can live without money, but love? is all you’ll ever need

There is hope. always.

2012-03-25T11:49:00.000+08:00

Yesterday I went to my grandma's sister funeral, although I don't really know her well but we sure talked before, given me things but her voice and her face will linger around us forever. My dad said that people were born to live, to get diseases and die. Sounded so hopeless, but people are born to experience life, live it healthy and happy and give the world something to remember before you have to leave the world.

Hey, I hate to spoil the ending to you but everything will be okay :)

Keep in mind.

2012-03-16T00:57:00.000+08:00

I know I am..

Deep down, I'm a mess :)

2012-03-13T23:34:00.000+08:00

Right now, at this moment, I wish someone is here.

I wish I had that one friend who cares, who will be there, who will totally drop everything for me.

But no, they all ditch me, and yea maybe they had some things to do but for once in your life, sacrifice ?

You can't, am I right? You can't stay with me when things get tough, you just leave, you just walk away.

because currently I'm not attached to anyone, you know? everyone got that someone they tell everything too, and you get to text them day and night, you're super close to that person, when something happened they are the first ones you want them to know about it. I don't have that person.

Proverbs 26:4

Felt alone ?

2012-03-10T01:33:00.001+08:00

Things I find strangely pretty: dust swimming in the afternoon sun.

I'm gonna tell you this, It's not that no one cares, It's not that no one is there,

I mean I got friends, good ones.

But why do I feel so empty inside, though I'm sitting alone and I hate being alone

It's just feels like the silence is so loud, so awkward, so insecure like you're feeling that people are constantly staring you, have you ever felt that before?

but I have to, I have to play it cool, act like I'm doing my own business when I'm screaming inside.

Oh and that guy I like, my friends are telling me I should just move on.
Stop thinking about him.
but I don't want to.

Is your turn now.

2012-03-01T23:30:00.002+08:00

Okay, If you had

One shot

One opportunity

To seize everything you ever wanted

One moment

would you capture it or

Just let is slip away?

From all this picture and words, I fallen in love, *great*

This month maybe just maybe I'll grab that chance to tell someone

" I'm in love with you"

haha it's insane..but God knows.

Today, we believe God is telling you ...

March 1, 2012

I love you.

Breathe & let go ~

2012-02-29T00:22:00.000+08:00

I felt like drifting far far away from everyone, either I push them away or they left me. My day, my feelings, my thoughts, my problems, tell me who should I tell it to? Can anyone here me or I'm just talking to myself.

I need someone beside me like I used to have but she walked out of my life. Someone who understands, someone who is always, always here and will stay not walk away. Though, my friends said " I'm here" or " You've got me". The truth is you're not here when I need you and I don't have you because there isn't time for us to talk to hang out.

I think you could fall in love with anyone if you saw the parts of them no one else gets to see. Like if you followed them around invisibly for a day and saw them crying in their bed at night or singing in the shower or humming quietly to themselves as they make a sandwich or even just walking along the street. And even if they were really weird and had no friends at school, I think, after seeing them at their most vulnerable, you wouldn’t be able to help falling in love with them.

Safe and Sound - Taylor Swift ft. The Civil Wars (cover)

2012-02-26T01:49:00.003+08:00

I'm absolutely in love with this song and The Hunger Games too!
Please tell me what ya think about this cover thank you very much, love.

Lyrics :) Hear it with earphones and thank you

I remember tears streaming down your face
When I said, I'll never let you go
When all those shadows almost killed your light
I remember you said, Don't leave me here alone
But all that's dead and gone and passed tonight

Just close your eyes
The sun is going down
You'll be alright
No one can hurt you now
Come morning light
You and I'll be safe and sound

Don't you dare look out your window

Darling, everything's on fire
The war outside our door keeps raging on
Hold onto this lullaby
Even when the music's gone
Gone

Just close your eyes
The sun is going down
You'll be alright
No one can hurt you now
Come morning light
You and I'll be safe and sound

Just close your eyes
You'll be alright
Come morning light,
You and I'll be safe and sound...

50 things God promises you as you step into the world today :

He will go with you, sustain you, and strengthen you. (Psalm 89:21, 22)
You are His beloved, He believes in you. (Rom. 1:7)
He will be your confidence. (Prov. 3:21, 26)
He has set you apart from the world. (Psalm 4:3)
He will deliver you—no matter what. (Psalm 18:19)
He will increase you mightily. (Deut. 6:3)
He will hear you if you ask for help today. (Prov. 3:21)
Even if chaos abounds, you will experience perfect peace. (Isaiah 26:3)
The waters may rise; but they won’t overtake you. (Isaiah 43:2)
You do not labor in vain. (Isaiah 65:23)
He will reward you. (Psalm 18:20)
If you are called to wait on Him, you’re gonna be okay there. (Isaiah 30:18)
He will fill you when you need it—just like He always has. (Psalm 81:10)
Your barn is going to bust open with blessing. (Prov. 3:9-10)
You can’t imagine the mercy ahead. (Psalm 18:25)
You will have the things you need. (Psalm 34:9)
God will restore your soul. (Psalm 23:3)
You will keep going and not grow weary. (Isaiah 40:13)
Your words will extinguish anger. (Prov. 15:1)
You will find happiness as you share. (Prov. 14:21)
Your reward beyond today is heaven—wow! (Psalm 23:6)
If you mess up, He will abundantly pardon. (Isaiah 55:7)
If you are wise, you will win souls. (Prov. 11:30)
You’ve got blessings waiting around the corner. (Psalm 24:4-5)
He’ll guide you through the rough spots and help you do the right thing. (Psalm 25:9)
Your soul will be at ease amid the storm. (Psalm 25:12-13)
You’re stronger than you think—because He will strengthen your heart. (Psalm 27:14)
Angels are encamped around you. (Psalm 34:7)
The troubles of this day can’t stand up to His power. (Psalm 34:17)
You will experience supernatural peace. (Psalm 37:11)
He will be the order that covers your disorder. (Psalms 37:23-24)
He will deliver you from wicked, conspiring people around you. (Psalm 37:40)
His Spirit will teach you and fill your gaps. (John 14:26)
He will bless those who declare His name. (Psalm 89:15)
He will hold all the pieces of your life together. (Psalm 46:1)
He will keep you safe under His mighty wings. (Psalm 91:1)
Nothing needs to offend you today. His Spirit in you is bigger than all of that. (Psalm 119:165)
Carry on through sadness. He will replace your tears with joy. (Psalm 126:5)
He’s going to tame your doubt and fulfill that dream in your heart. (Psalm 37:4)
He will provide everything—He’s your need-filler. (Psalm 23:1)
Have confidence. He will make His words known to you. (Prov. 1:23)
Surrender your view of things and people—He will give you spiritual eyes. (Psalm 146:8)
If you seek Him, you will find Him. (2 Chronicles 15:2)
With each day, you are growing stronger and stronger. (Job 17:9)
He will pour out His Spirit on you. (Prov. 1:23
God will put a new song in your mouth—and many will put their trust in Him. (Psalm 40:3)
He’s got wisdom ready for you to use. (Prov. 2:7)
You will lay down tonight and have sweet sleep. (Prov. 3:21)
He loves you to eternity and back. (Psalm 146:8)
His covenant of Love to you will never, ever fail. (Psalm 89:28)

Let me give your heart a break :)

2012-02-23T21:15:00.003+08:00

If i like you, I like you,

Im not saying i like you because
you’re hot
sexy
fine
you got body
perfect,
I like you because
You can be yourself around me
make me smile
your personality
do the weirdest things and i find it cute

The day I first met you
You told me you'd never fall in love

Now here we are
So close yet so far

When will you realise
Baby, I'm not like the rest

Don't wanna break your heart
Wanna give your heart a break
I know you're scared it's wrong
Like you might make a mistake
There's just one life to live
And there's no time to waste,

'Cause you've been hurt before
I can see it in your eyes
You try to smile it away,

some things you can't disguise
Don't wanna break your heart
Maybe, I can ease the ache

People got me me questioning where is the LOVE?

2012-02-19T11:30:00.000+08:00

Take a tip from the birds in the trees. They aren't always questioning why, or wondering what to do next. They simply live their lives, all the while singing beautiful songs.

I was exhausted last night so I tucked in bed early, but then someone called. My best friend did.. she should have came to school on Friday but she didn't . And I did told her on last Wednesday to come to school on Saturday for the road run, she nodded her head

and in the phone conversation she said " you could have told me"

I did I replied but I was too tired and I really don't want to talk about it and it will lead to an argument.

Since we're in a different class now, things get harder for us to see each other, or to actually talk.

And after that stupid call I got so angry and punched the wall a few times cause I couldn't take it and cried.

It's just that She never listens

Sometimes it may seem like you can't figure it out by yourself. Sometimes will and strength and courage are not enough. Sometimes in your life you will need to call out for help. Call on God. God will be there.

Life doesn't give you a break

2012-02-14T22:21:00.000+08:00

Thought It was going to get better or at least better, but I was wrong, things just harder and harder, more and more work to be done, I'm getting more and more tired, very alone too. not lonely but I'm going through this without a friend. going insane here

and for the people think Malaysia isn't a nice place or you want to live in London, New York, Paris so much

have a look of this beautiful picture of Malaysia

It really sucks liking someone when you know you're too young and you're not allowed and you're never going to have a chance with them. But when they smiled, you know it's worth it even though it hurts to see them with someone else, It's worth to kept on replying their beautiful laught

Just in case you forgot

EVERYONE IS BEAUTIFUL

Give me a break.

2012-02-10T23:45:00.001+08:00

Do you know what it's like to have a lot of things in your mind and you're going insane?

And you have tons of things to do and you don't have that time to do it. And you go crazy and get so annoyed easily and I turned into a monster just because of emotional stress.

I found out that my crush like someone else, which hit me straight in the heart mostly everything in that picture above(worst feelings). Then again you just stood there holding in everything, falling apart yet people around you don't notice it at all..

I felt like crying all the time but my tears just won't come out.

felt like breaking down and no one is around to pull me up..

now I can't stop falling down.

but then it came today, I finally cried out my heart, It felt damn good.

It's been a while since I've cried, call me crazy but It's like your taking out all the bad feelings and making room for smiles :)

Appreciate what you have.