Daily Ramblings

Pissed off

2011-10-13T19:33:00.000-07:00

Ugh.......If I made a mistake, tell it straight to my face. Don't go behind my back and say that I'm not capable. How the fuck would I know if you did not say anything. There's something called "Constructive Criticism". Stupid idiot. I'd rather sit in the kitchen and do 10 assignments than sit infront of you, with my back facing you, and listen to you sigh and slam books and stuff all over the table. Geez. Go suck on a sock or something.

It's really frustrating when you do something, and there's no feedback. All you do is just look at it, tear it in front of me, and redo it yourself without letting me know what I did wrong. And just recently, I copied something wrongly, and you HAD to ask someone else to liquid it away, AND DID NOT TELL ME THAT I'M NOT SUPPOSE TO WRITE IT ON THE SAME PAGE! You're best at complaining kan, why don't you complain that to my face. I'd appreciate that. If you're trying to make me look stupid and inferior, then be my guest. Like I care. Stupid hoe. Makes me feel sad la, ok...........It's your problem if you have a sad and miserable life. You're always complaining about the amount of things you need to do, this and that. Um, hello??? I'm sitting there, waiting for things to do. Just because of that minor mistake and you're mentally firing me? Bitch, you ain't got no right.

I'm so going to tell you off. I wonder how my friend stand her cousin for 2 years. I'm there for 2 weeks and i'm already frustrated as hell! = o = Sigh................Hopefully my aunt is really going to set up a business...

Update....dust dust

2011-10-09T21:41:00.000-07:00

It's been a while. And yeap, I'm married. Marriage life is treating me well so far. The only downside is that I feel left out in his office. I feel stupid. I'm as free as fuck here. I only get to work once in a while. One of the employee here is so afraid that I might 'steal their bowl of rice', if you know what I mean. Ugh. Whatever. I'm here to help, if you don't want me to, then I won't. The boss asked you so many times to let me do it, teach me and you're soooo hesitant to do so. I won't steal your food, m'kay? Geez. Now, my sister-in-law is teaching me some stuff, like creditors, debtors and all those stuff.......Meh. Doing laundry and housework is way more fun, for reals....

Anyway, I migggghht, MIGHT be starting an event planning business with my aunt. MIGHT! She drafted out a business plan already but it's still not fully ready yet. They are trying to set a career for me. I don't know how it will go, but yea, it might take about 1 year to completely set it up. We need to plan and draft out every single thing that we need. She's willing to come all the way to Malaysia to help set it up. She has alot of experience and connections in Shanghai, Hongkong, and China etc. So, once the business plan and proposal are done, she will submit it to some other connections here in KK that she knows. Sigh, le sigh-eth. My parents are asking me to consider. What should I do? Help my husband or set up a 'possible' career?

My wedding videographer just messaged me and told me that our video highlight and video slideshow is done. I am so excited to see it. But, here is the photo slideshow for the tea ceremony, games and church ceremony :D

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bAoz8mALW8U

I can't help but....

2011-09-11T19:13:00.000-07:00

TO COUNT THE DAYS! AHHHHHHHHH. IT'S GETTING NEARER...AND NEARER...I CAN FEEL IT BREATHING BEHIND MY BACK....*vomits* Punya gila nervous.

OMAGATZ

2011-08-31T19:39:00.000-07:00

It's September!! Sep-tem-fucking-ber!! *Hyperventilating* :O So close, so close. Countdown.

Finally gave in

2011-08-30T00:44:00.000-07:00

Picasso - Weeping Woman

Okay. I finally lost it. I'm not very good at handling stress. Sigh. I broke down crying 2 days ago. I held my emotions for quite some time. I'm not super woman, I can't finish everything and remember everything for you. I can't please and accomodate everyone. What about me? Can't I have a say in this? It's getting closer, and I don't really give a fuck about what you people think I should do. I'll do it my way, like it or not. Don't even try to manipulate my choices. I'll bitch slap you so hard, your brain'll fly out your ears. If you want me to do it and get it done on time, let me do it my way.

All these sudden last minute changes and additions are driving me nuts. @ o @ Make up your mind!!

I don't want to be bridezilla

2011-08-24T21:22:00.000-07:00

I'm trying not to turn into bridezilla. I'm sure every bride who is going through the process feel the same way. If your not one of them, good for you. I'm so frustrated with the guest list and the song for my church processional and recessional. If I want you to play this song, you play saja laaa. I don't want your stupid traditional trumpet song!!! It's so lame, I might just drop dead on the floor, and just roll my way to the alter. Ugh!! Kau peduli apa if I want you to play Pitbull punya lagu. Suka hati la ba. Ask you to play traditional song, you bising. Ask you to play non-traditional song, you bising lagi. Ugh! I need to put my foot down. If you don't wanna play the songs we want and keep on suggesting lame stupid ugly fugly mofo songs, then I guess I don't need you. UGHGHGHGHGHHGHGG~~!!!!!! ^&%^&%$#%$* I'm not going to accommodate you. It'll just leave me pissed. It's our wedding, so just listen to what we want la. Eeeeeee~ !!~!~!~!

Counting down the days. Less than a month! Pre-Wedding jitters =

Broke...~~~~

2011-08-20T02:59:00.000-07:00

Wedding planning is leaving me broke = o = With all the sudden extra charges for this and that. Can't you make up your mind? Those extra charges don't really make sense. Sigh. So many things to do that involves money. It's ridiculous. This is why you only get married once unless you are Hugh Hefner. Over budget sudah........ Gotta start cutting back on the expenses.....

Finally....

2011-08-14T23:21:00.000-07:00

Just got my awesome Karen Millen dress! It's for the tea ceremony. Love, love, love it~ I wanted to post a picture of it, but decided to keep it till the actualy day. Now I don't have to worry about having the same dress as someone else. Lawl :P

2011-08-09T04:25:00.000-07:00

Meh. I lied. I'm pissed, angry and disappointed.

I'm not gonna waste my energy staying pissed at you people. Get your priorities straight bitches.

RANT!

2011-07-31T23:51:00.000-07:00

Ugh. You're just wasting money. Requesting for all sorts of demands. Since you don't like to come back so much, you don't deserve the big room. Kau tidak mati juga ba if you don't attend. God will not punish you for not attending it. MATI JUGA LA BA! Bah, tdk suka balik, jangan balik la. Macam taik. And you need to watch your ridiculous temper. Irritability is immaturity of character. If you are always being cross or unpleasant with others for no apparent reason, you need to come face to face with the fact that you are thinking too much of yourself.

You want this, you want that. And you want the branded ones. WTF! It's just a friggin' hobby, okay?? Yamaha is a good brand, okay? Just because your friend is using a different brand doesn't mean it's better. What has that church thought you, huh? To despise your brother? What has he ever done to you? Everyone makes mistakes, okay? And his mistakes are not life threatening or even illegal. They are just MISTAKES.

If anyone says, “I love God,” yet hates his brother, he is a liar. For anyone who does not love his brother, whom he has seen, cannot love God, whom he has not seen. (1 John 4: 20)

Read that and try to swallow it and tattoo it into your brain. How can you say you hate a fellow sibling when you say you are a follower of God? What has your bible study taught you? Try to differentiate dislike and pure hatred. I'm saying this not because I hate you. I'm saying this because you need to wake up and try to think about both sides, not only your side and what people tell you. No one is stopping you from going, but you need to set your priorities straight!

**Joanna**

2011-07-22T20:32:00.000-07:00

Everytime I want to brush his fur, he just lies down with his leg facing the sky........how am I suppose to brush him...Lol...Lazy and manja doggy....hHHAHA

2011-07-11T23:09:00.000-07:00

Sigh-eth... D:

Up-the frig-date.....................

2011-07-07T18:44:00.000-07:00

It's been a while since I logged into my blog. *Dusts* It's been a roller-coaster ride of emotions these couple of days, weeks, bah...I don't remember the days = o =;; Anyway, I'm finally done moving all my stuff into my new/bigger room. But I only get to stay there for 2 more months, more or less. Lol. I have been carrying boxes, screwing and unscrewing my bed, carrying bits and pieces of my bed up the stairs, carrying small shelves/cabinets, etc etc. At least my arm didn't hurt but my calves were killing me from all that walking up and down the stairs. Ugh, and my sister is expecting me to help unpack her stuff. All that's left now for me to unpack are the photo albums, photo frames and alot of decorative craps.

My sister finally got her dress. FINALLY! Someone needs to force her to try on dresses or else she will not get one. Eventhough it's rm300 (after discount), at least she got it. Hahaha. And she's not telling me or showing me how it looks like!! She's coming back end of this month, I hope she's bringing it back. Wait, she has to. Lol. Now, all I have to do is get my baby bro a suit, my elder bro a suit and my dad....I need to force that man as well.

Ugh, there's so many things left to do. Preparation, decisions, and...stuff! Lol. And the damn tailor is delaying my bridesmaid dresses. Damn~~ Ughhhhh. What if it turns out like donkey shit? I am going to freak out soon. I need a secretary a.k.a personal assistant. Hahahahaha~~

**Joanna**

Bachelorette party?

2011-06-13T03:57:00.001-07:00

Yes? No? I just found out that the party is usually held 1 week before the big day. Lawl.

Squidward is handsome

2011-06-10T19:58:00.000-07:00

I watched this episode last night and I couldn't stop giggling. Even after the episode finished, I still got the giggles on bed just thinking about it. I'm nuts. Hahahahaha :D

Time flies

2011-05-08T21:16:00.000-07:00

Time is flying by faster and faster. My dad and grandma used to say, "When you reach the age of 20, time will start flying by in a blink of an eye". It's true. Huhu. Gettin' old XD

On 7th May, I went to one of my bff's birthday at The Bed, Waterfront with a bunch of my girlfriends and my fiance as well. Haha. She's officially 23 years old now. Hehe. It's been a while since all of us highschool friends hung out together. It was great. I had to leave early because I need to get up early the next day.

I also just had my pre-wedding photoshoot on 5th and 6th May. Never knew it was that tiring. Hahaha. It was fun as well. Wow! I'll be going to another pre-wedding photoshoot in Taiwan, NEXT WEEK! Time really flies. I haven't looked at my photos yet, but the photographer gave me a little 'teaser'. He uploaded 2 pics only! You can see it in my Facebook page. http://www.facebook.com/#!/profile.php?id=689899441

My sister is back in Kuala Lumpur already. Sigh, no one to kacau. Hahaha. She'll only be back this August, then September for my big day. Tee hee~

**Joanna**

Thor: The God of Thunder

2011-05-03T20:10:00.000-07:00

I watched Thor last night with my dearest and sister. I am in love with THOR/Chris Hemsworth. He is so feckin' hot! :D Deep piercing blue eyes, hot body and a cute accent. I eye-raped him throughout the movie. He gained 20 pounds of muscle to play Thor. During and interview, he said, “I put on a lot of weight. It was purely eating, eating, eating, working out and working out, trying to sleep as much as you can." Besides having a hot superhero, the movie itself was awesome, too. *squeels* Thor...*drooollllssss* I'm gonna rate it 10/10 :D

THOR

Thor with his Mjolnir

Thor with Loki, his brother.

Thor about to be pronounced as King, but.....

Oh, blue eyes......

Shirtless Thor *drooolllsss*

Left: Thor trying to take the Mjolnir. He looks like a hot barbarian

Aunt Flow

2011-05-02T22:48:00.000-07:00

I finally bled. Aunt Flow finally came to visit. Yay hahahaha

Pondering....

2011-04-28T06:40:00.000-07:00

Ah, it's been a while *dusts off webs*. I'm blogging in the dark with my ear phones listening to some old school music. Feeling pretty melodramatic now. Anyhus, I'm really confused. People have been telling me "do what you love or have interest in", "do what pays alot" or even "do what is paying you good money now". And you know what? Whenever people tell me to do what pays alot, I answer them "Money is not the point. If I don't like what I'm doing, it will ruin or affect my outcome". Sure, you need money to survive but I'd rather keep my sanity, thank you very much.

I've reached my limit. I will not let those people influence my decision. I do what I like, and if I regret, I will regret because of MY decision. I have been doing what you people have been telling me to; influencing my decisions. No, not anymore. I'm the type of person that doesn't work well when asked to do something that I'm not passionate about. It will affect the outcome. Really. For the past 3 years, I have been so effin' depressed that my body just decided to mess up and organs are starting to shrink. Literally. I decided to confront my parents because I couldn't take it anymore. They finally realized and stopped pushing me. But once the others knew about it, I felt abandoned. Rumors started spreading. From then on, I could see their true colors and it all made sense. I was in a very hypocritical circle of fake friends. Sigh, why are we living in such a materialistic and hypocritical and egotistical world.

I'd rather starve and suffer doing something I enjoy or love, than doing something that just makes me sick. You're better off doing what you love. When you are in a happier, you're more likely to suceed. Going to a job that makes money, but is doing something that you rather not do, isn't gonna help you. You want a job that makes you want to leave the house and start your day off with working. Not a job that will make you wanna stay in bed because you hate your job and the people there.

The expression is actually true. You do what you love, you will start to succeed. When you start to succeed, you start to climb the corporate ladder. Once you start climbing that ladder, the money will start rolling. If you start off with some horrible job, your gonna tell yourself "whats the point" and slack off.

If what you love to do isn't very profitable, then the best thing to do is to have a job that provides you with enough income to do what you love on your off time. That way you're working for your leisure time. In the end, you have to listen to your heart and make your own decisions. Fulfill life's purpose.

**Joanna**

Photoshoot!

2011-04-11T03:45:00.000-07:00

Yay~ I went to All About Love today to try on some gowns for the photoshoot. Ong, one of my bridesmaid was there too because her friend had an interview there. Anyway, I get to choose 4 gowns for the photoshoot. Gonna go for my trial make up and hair on 5th May and the photoshoot will be on 10th May. Excited :D and also nervous at the same time :O. Wow, May 10th photoshoot. After that, May 18th-21st another photoshoot at Taiwan. @@;; Money money money money! **Joanna**

My road trip to Sandakan

2011-04-08T03:26:00.000-07:00

Lol, it's actually my second road trip. My first was when I was around 3? Heck, how would I remember how it went. So, this is my official 1st time road trip to Sandakan. Hahaha. Anyway, the purpose of the trip was to visit Jack's gramma. Only Jack and myself went to Sandakan by car. He drove the Hilux. From KK to Sandakan, the trip took about 6 and a half hours. It was bumpy as hell. I could literally feel my brain hitting against the wall of my skull. I wouldn't say it wasn't a fun trip. It was actually not that bad, aside the bumpy road and my bladder almost bursting into pieces. After passing Ranau, we missed a junction and went the wrong way! Hahaha~ After making calls, we were back on track. I was so bored in the car, I stared at all the trees surrounding the area and look at possible forms/shapes they look like. Lawl~ Upon arriving Sandakan, we had another problem - the location of the hotel! We booked a room at Tyng Garden. Took us around 45 minutes to find that place. Jack's mum gave a different direction, and my mum gave a different direction. After circling the area for too many times, Jack decided to call his aunt in Sandakan. She led us to the hotel. Thank God she lived nearby. After checking in and got all cleaned up, Jack's cousin called and asked us out for a drink. Meh, we were too tired to go out so we rejected. We visited his gramma the next day. I feel a whole lot of emotions when I saw her. Sigh~ Reminds me of my great-gramma. After visiting his gramma, we head out hunting for brekkie and also this shop called '7 Heaven'. It's an ice-cream parlor in Sandakan. We had no friggin' idea where that place is, so we used google map to lead us there. Hahaha~~ If you're an ice-cream lover, then you'll love this place. The price is reasonable and they also have other sweets like frozen yogurt and cakes. They also serve lunch and dinner. Operating hours are from 12pm-6pm and 6pm-12am. After nomming down our ice-cream, we started our ride back to KK. Started at 1.30pm and reached home at 8pm... Here are some pictures.

The thick fog.

Could hardly see a thing.

The crocodile that greeted us. I get the giggles everytime Jack passed by this statue.

Having my dinner while going online.

7 heaven.

The interior.

Green tea+Double Chocolate Rm6

Me with my frozen yogurt.

**Joanna**

The importance of details when it comes to decoration

2011-03-31T21:19:00.000-07:00

A lot of people say that marriage marks the beginning of an entirely new life for a man and a woman. It is a bond entered by two accepting parties to honor and love each other until death, in sickness and in health, for richer or for poorer. Therefore, couples who plan of getting married pay extra attention on planning details and spend a considerable sum of money to have a memorable wedding. Some would like a solemn wedding, spending it only with few selected family members and friends while others would like to share their happiness with as many people in their lives as possible. There are also some weddings that would take about six months in preparation while others about a week. No matter how long the preparation is, what truly matters is the intensity of the commitment to honor the vows. How do you go through the details of wedding preparation? For my wedding, when it comes to decoration, I don't mind going through the tiny little details. From the wordings of the wedding favors to the church decoration. Sure, there's alot of things to do when you really look into the presentation of the decoration or the arrangement of the bouquets but it's a one in a lifetime thing, and everything needs to be distinct. Even the tiniest baby's breath in a whole bouquet of roses count. Creativity is what we aim for. We want to be different. I'm sure every couple has the same idea. As for the budget, I'm sure there's alot of substitute for the expensive things. I'm gonna D.I.Y all the way. Haha. With the help of friends and family of course. It's cheaper than going out asking for professional help(Which might turn out fugly and costs a foot and leg). I need to start with the wedding favors, bridesmaid outfits, decorations, flowers etc etc etc already. Once my sister is back from K.L, I'll slap her with my report and we'll start the designing, along with my bridesmaids of course. Hahaha~(If you are reading this, be prepared! :P:P:P) So, ya. I'm gonna go continue my research now. Tee hee. Ching chong ling long ting tong. **Joanna**

PANIC ATTACK

2011-03-31T07:51:00.000-07:00

Damn flu

Can't stop sneezing, nose gonna fall off

Hung out with my besties

The Kenari is back

Jack said he wanted to fetch me, so I did not drive

Ong send me back home

Need to use the back door

Oh shit, no key. Oh wait, where is my phone? OH FUCK! In Ong's car!

Panic, ran round. Knocked on gramma's window

Gramma opened the door

Grabbed the house phone, quickly called Ong

She reached Lintas by the time I called her.

She send my HP back to me

Felt so bad :(

Gonna belanja her makan

Still feeling panicky now.............

I think he is gay......

2011-03-30T20:10:00.000-07:00

As you know, my house is under renovation right now. Stuff are bound to be missing if left unattended; like jewellery, handphone, lappy. But, thank God those were not missing because we keep it locked in our room. However, one of the worker felt the need to steal something. Ah, yes. The toilet. Who locks the toilet when it's not in use, right? One of the worker, went into the toilet without our permission, and stole my brother's hair conditioner(I'm not sure if it's his or his girlfriends' conditioner). They are not suppose to use it because the way they use the toilet is MUY disgusting. Upon returning from work, my brother realized that the conditioner was missing. The same day that the worker went it. My brother got pissed and installed a lock that you can lock from the outside. LOL. Since that door will be coming down soon, why not. Hahaha. Then our maid told us this,:

"Saya rasa itu boy ambil oh. Saya nampak dia masuk tandas pakai itu gincu. Mungkin dia ambil, lepas itu simpan dalam beg dia sebab beg dia di atas sama dia. Lepas kerja kan, sebelum dia balik, dia kasih bersih tangan dia, letak losyen, bedak dan itu lipbalm. Macam pondan oh"

Hahaha! Who knew. That boy has a frizzy, explosive afro hair and I seriously couldn't imagine him to be a queer. His dad is also one of the workers here. Maybe he doesn't want his papi to find out, that's why he's doing hard labor. Lol.

**Joanna**

Hunger~

2011-03-24T02:13:00.000-07:00

The other night (I think it was Tuesday night? Or was it Monday, I don't remember), I woke up at 12.45am and had the urge to eat. I was soooo hungry! I thought to myself, "Meh, I'll eat in the morning". BUT, my stomach could not wait till morning. I was seriously starving until the point of insomnia. So I went downstairs to the kitchen, made myself Milo and grabbed a slice of bread and nom, nom, nom my way up to my room. After gobbling down that 1 slice of plain bread and my Milo, I waited for 15-20 minutes, then went back to bed. Slept soundly will morning. Great.

Oh, and I hung out with my besties, Valerie and Ong. It's been a while since we hung out with Val. We should go out more often D:

I'm using Jack's broadband to go online now. My friggin' streamyx is being an ass. I haven't called up TMnet yet. I'll call them up tomorrow and complain their assess. I couldn't access my streamyx since MONDAY!! Ugh.

My back is cramping. I want ice cream. >:D

**Joanna**

Daily Ramblings

Pissed off

Update....*dust dust*

I can't help but....

OMAGATZ

Finally gave in

I don't want to be bridezilla

Broke...~~~~

Finally....

RANT!

Up-the frig-date.....................

Bachelorette party?

Squidward is handsome

Time flies

Thor: The God of Thunder

Aunt Flow

Pondering....

Photoshoot!

My road trip to Sandakan

The importance of details when it comes to decoration

PANIC ATTACK

I think he is gay......

Hunger~

Update....dust dust