Life is Life

Deepavali at KLCC

2011-10-26T05:42:00.000-07:00

After being in a tough negotiation with Zaffar, we finally set off to KLCC to look for his toys. Wifey and me finally realised that it's been almost a year that we have been in KLCC, everything seems different and all the shops have been relocated here and there. Toys r Us is not at the LG floor anymore but the 2nd floor.

As you can see wifey have a Toys r US plastic bag on her and obviously our favourite almond pretzel from Aunty Ann's. We got there in time before the big holiday crowd came. Zaffar also enjoyed riding his Bob the builder bulldozer. When asked where is he driving off to...he said "Pasar" which means market. Hahaha.

Just before leaving, Zaffar asked for french fries and we were too tired to go up to McDonalds and was trying to see if A&W is still there and eventually it's not. It's been replaced by a well know kuih muih shop selling overpriced kuih but good kuih though.

Deepavali breakfast

2011-10-26T00:35:00.000-07:00

First all Happy Deepavali to all my Hindu friends and readers and thank you for the government for making this day a public holiday thus enabling me and the family to take some time off, rest and enjoy a day without thinking about rushing to work, rushing to tumble tots or having endless meetings. Regardless how much I love working everyone deserves some time off.

So basically wifey, Zaffar and myself sets out right in the morning to our favourite breakfast and food district which is Keramat and Melawati. I guess the district have exactly that suits our craving and interest. With the connected high between Bukit Jelutong and MRR2 through PLUS highway and DUKE highway our journey took us less than 30 minutes. Our pick for this morning is Nasi Lemak and Roti Jala down in Melawati. Obviously the place was already packed by the time we arrived and after ordering all that we craved Zaffar started with his usual merengek asking for Roti canai which obviously the only food that was not available at the food stall we were at...as always. After much patience tested with endless crying and negotiation, he finally wanted to buy his favourity toy which is Thomas and friends. Even after completing the negotation, he still could not wait and urged us to leave straight away and even prohibited us to finish our drinks. Just a recommendation to everyone, the food in Melawati is fabolous, they serve roti jala, nasi lemak, soto, mee kari, mee rebus, mee soup, nasi ayam and many more.

Monkey Business

2011-10-21T17:33:00.001-07:00

Once upon a time... in a village, a man appeared and announced to the villagers that he would buy monkeys for $10 each.

The villagers, seeing that there were many monkeys around, went out to the forest and started catching them.

The man bought thousands at $10 and, as supply started to diminish, the villagers stopped their effort. He further announced that he would now buy at $20 for a monkey. This renewed the efforts of the villagers and they started catching monkeys again.

Soon the supply diminished even further and people started going back to their farms. The offer increased to $25 each, and the supply of monkeys became so small that it was an effort to even find a monkey, let alone catch it!

The man now announced that he would buy monkeys at $50! However, since he had to go to the city on some business, his assistant would now buy on behalf of him.

In the absence of the man, the assistant told the villagers. "Look at all these monkeys in the big cage that the man has collected. I will sell them to you at $35, and when the man returns from the city, you can sell them to him for $50 each."

The villagers rounded up all their savings and bought all the monkeys.
They never saw the man nor his assistant again, only monkeys everywhere!
Now you have a better understanding of how the stock market works

Peak times

2011-10-20T19:33:00.000-07:00

Sometimes it's funny how I can never anticipate my daily schedule. At times when I think i'll be free on that day, it just ends up work, calls, emails starts to pour in. The project I'm in right now, is expected to close of one of the main activities by end of today and I'm quite excited to push for the team to finish on time. The sense of achievement means so much more than just meeting a goal. Meeting a goal is merely a direction but the journey defines the satisfaction and the completeness of ones overall objective.

For the past weeks, I've been pondering on the words by Steve Jobs and a lot more words of wisdom that I've read in many articles. For me those words doesn't really reflect the true aspiration that is applicable for everyone. Malaysian are not free-spirited and we can't start a company and sell to the population of Malaysia and become rich. We have limited market for expansion, narrow mind on exploration new and innovative ideas. Bottom line is that we can't really do what we love but rather do something that we have to do to survive. It's been expected 2012 will be tough year for the economy and I'm hoping that I can be well prepared for this. Not doing the things I love is fine as long as that I have enough food to eat...

Should You Stay Late or Go Home?

2011-10-19T01:05:00.001-07:00

An article I found written by Ron Ashkenas

Let me start this post with a confession: I'm usually the last person to leave my office. I get in around 8:00am or earlier and often don't get home until after 7:00pm. But I'm not complaining. I love my work (and have an understanding family). But since there's always more to do than there is time to do it, I've gotten into the pattern of expanding my workday.
I'm not the only one. In fact, a recent study suggests that nearly two-thirds of U.S. companies report that their employees have worked more hours over the past three years. It's likely that there are similar percentages in other countries.
This growing trend is predicted to continue. An unintended consequence of our global, connected world is that customers, clients, partners, and colleagues expect immediate responses to their demands. At the same time, jobs are in short supply in many fields, so nobody wants to disappoint. As a result, more employees are putting in longer hours, and many regularly face the dilemma of whether to stay late and finish a critical task or put it aside until the next day.
But once you begin expanding your work hours on a regular basis, working "normal" hours starts to look like slacking off. In other words, if you establish a pattern of staying late, your extended hours become the new normal.
Given my own inclination to work late, I'm probably the last person who should give advice on this subject. However, if you don't enjoy working late (like me), doing so can have serious consequences. A large study last year of 6000 British civil servants showed that those who regularly worked over ten hours per day were 60% more likely to suffer from heart disease. And if you don't have an understanding partner, being away can put a strain on the relationship.
So what can you do to avoid the stay-late work pattern or at least avoid its negative consequences? Here are a few thoughts to help you prioritize:
Reflect on your goals — both professional and personal. Think through the aspirations you have for your career and your life. What do you want to achieve? What are the priorities? What gives you fulfillment? It's remarkable how many people wander through their careers without a sense of "true north" to guide their decisions. As a result they lack criteria for determining whether to invest more time in work, and at some point may wake up and realize that the accumulation of small choices has taken them to a destination that they did not intend.
Talk about it at home. Discuss your goals and priorities with the people closest to you — your spouse, partner, friends, or children (if appropriate). Find out the extent to which their expectations match yours.Without this dialogue you run the risk of constantly disappointing each other.
Open up a dialogue at work. Make it clear to your boss and your colleagues that you are indeed willing to stay late and pitch in if there are legitimate reasons (a client deadline, a customer crisis, a seasonal overload, etc.). But also emphasize that this should be the exception, and not the rule. In fact, if there are constant crises and deadline dramas, you might want to talk with your team about how to redesign the work process so that you're not held captive to it.
And don't stay late just because you want to be perceived as a hard worker. Mostly everyone sees through that ploy. Only stay late if you enjoy what you're doing (as I do) or if there is a really legitimate work requirement. Remember that if you don't take conscious control of your own work hours, the work hours can easily take control of you.

How do you manage the dilemmas of staying late?

Mean Mom

2011-10-16T18:49:00.000-07:00

Mean Mom

I had the meanest mother in the whole world. While other kids ate
candy for breakfast, I had to have cereal, eggs or toast. When others had cokes and candy for lunch, I had to eat a sandwich. As you can guess, my supper was different than the other kids' also.

But at least, I wasn't alone in my sufferings. My sister and two
brothers had the same mean mother as I did.

My mother insisted upon knowing where we were at all times. You'd think we were on a chain gang. She had to know who our friends were and where we were going. She insisted if we said we'd be gone an hour, that we be gone one hour or less--not one hour and one minute. I am nearly ashamed to admit it, but she actually struck us. Not once, but each time we had a mind of our own and did as we pleased. That poor belt was used more on our seats than it was to hold up Daddy's pants. Can you imagine someone actually hitting a child just because he disobeyed? Now you can begin to see how mean she really was.

We had to wear clean clothes and take a bath. The other kids always wore their clothes for days. We reached the height of insults because she made our clothes herself, just to save money. Why, oh why, did we have to have a mother who made us feel different from our friends?

The worst is yet to come. We had to be in bed by nine each night
and up at eight the next morning. We couldn't sleep till noon like our friends. So while they slept-my mother actually had the nerve to break the child-labor law. She made us work. We had to wash dishes, make beds, learn to cook and all sorts of cruel things. I believe she laid awake at night thinking up mean things to do to us.

She always insisted upon us telling the truth, the whole truth and
nothing but the truth, even if it killed us- and it nearly did.

By the time we were teen-agers, she was much wiser, and our life became even more unbearable. None of this tooting the horn of a car for us to come running. She embarrassed us to no end by making our dates and friends come to the door to get us. If I spent the night with a girlfriend, can you imagine she checked on me to see if I were really there. I never had the chance to elope to Mexico. That is if I'd had a boyfriend to elope with. I forgot to mention, while my friends were dating at the mature age of 12 and 13, my old fashioned mother refused to let me date until the age of 15 and 16. Fifteen, that is, if you dated only to go to a school function. And that was maybe twice a year.

Through the years, things didn't improve a bit. We could not lie
in bed, "sick" like our friends did, and miss school. If our friends
had a toe ache, a hang nail or serious ailment, they could stay home from school. Our marks in school had to be up to par. Our friends' report cards had beautiful colors on them, black for passing, red for failing. My mother being as different as she was, would settle for nothing less than ugly black marks.

As the years rolled by, first one and then the other of us was put
to shame. We were graduated from high school. With our mother behind us, talking, hitting and demanding respect, none of us was allowed the pleasure of being a drop-out.

My mother was a complete failure as a mother. Out of four
children, a couple of us attained some higher education. None of us have ever been arrested, divorced or beaten his mate. Each of my brothers served his time in the service of this country. And whom do we have to blame for the terrible way we turned out? You're right, our mean mother. Look at the things we missed. We never got to march in a protest parade, nor to take part in a riot, burn draft cards, and a million and one other things that our friends did.

She forced us to grow up into God-fearing, educated, honest adults. Using this as a background, I am trying to raise my three
children. I stand a little taller and I am filled with pride when my
children call me mean.

Because, you see, I thank God,
He gave me the meanest mother in the whole world.

Written by

Bobbie Pingaro (1967)

Getting sick and working again

2011-10-12T03:04:00.000-07:00

After so long not taking any leave, I've decided to take a break from work. 2 days seems to be a lifetime considering the schedule I have from day to day. We decided to drive down and spend some time in JB and to visit Zabir and Zaffar had a good time playing together but at times were sulking between each other. How fast they grow up. On Sunday I was hyped up to go back to KL and enjoy some rest time but end up falling sick with a bad tonsil, fever, body and headache. I braved the journey back to KL and only stopped to go to the toilet and buy wifey baby her favourite ais krim ban/bun which looked delicious but decided not to have any because of the bad sore throat. Once we've arrived in KL, I've decided to go straight to the doctor and after so many years, I got my first injection on my butt cheeks. Whenever baby use to tell me that injection for fever is a better option, I never believed her but it did cure me for a few hours. I got my appetite back and felt much better but obviously the fever came back towards late evening.

I decided to run some errands on Monday morning after sending baby and Zaffar to Tumbletots and bought some cuppies at the new mall in Ara Damansara, CITTA Mall. Baby loves the chocolove orange and royal vanilla for me. Ending the day, I've decided to rest for another day and took another day off on Tuesday and spent the morning at Tumbletots to only realize Zaffar hardly listens to his teacher...hehe. I guess born a leader not a follower.

Finally I'm back in the office today, walked my rounds and just realized a lot was surprised they didn't see me for some time because I use to bug them about work all the time. Now I'm waiting to have something presented to me and I'll be rushing back back straight after...can't wait to be home. I'm still aiming to be a lecturer so I can do things that I love....

Apple: Steve Jobs Dies

2011-10-06T01:19:00.000-07:00

Just recently my wife told me that a friend of ours lost their car at her office compound. That brought to a discussion surrounding how we as humans chase for money and wealth and to lose something is so easy. This also leads to the story of this generation's legend and icon, a true revolutionary man that changed many lifes, inspired many minds and hearts - Steve Jobs.

I have to admit that before Steve Jobs stepped down as CEO, I hardly knew anything about this man. When I saw an article about him stepping down, I started to intensively google about this man. Just like Bill Gates, he is a drop out that later succeeded to do something that he loves. He built his first computer in his parents garage and later went through ups and downs striving to make such a big impact to all of us to his inventions. Sharing some article that inspired me:

http://www.npr.org/2011/10/05/123826622/apple-visionary-steve-jobs-dies-at-56

http://news.stanford.edu/news/2005/june15/jobs-061505.html

Top 10 reasons why Darth Vader was an amazing project manager

2011-10-06T01:07:00.000-07:00

I would like to share with all of you an article that I find most creative on how perspectively to look at one character from a movie

Top 10 reasons why Darth Vader was an amazing project manager

Time is Gold

2011-10-02T19:49:00.001-07:00

For the past few months, I've been very occupied to steer the mega transformation that I'm currently heading. I'm fortunate to get the right support by the right people in the office and also support from home by my dearest baby. Time really flies and a lot has been happening and remained unrecorded here. Zaffar is at Tumble Tots or now called IOP Canopy Learning with baby and I'm in the office since early in the morning kicking off the UAT. I was in the office during the weekend to ensure the team is all ready by today.

I've received a few calls and emails for the past week with some very interesting job offers but I guess I'm not the same person before and I wish to complete first what I'm doing now but when the time comes, money comes first. Wanting to put my children in private school is not an option any more but my target in life.

We managed to attend all the function that we've been invited to nowadays. Baby have been very interested to attend all the functions. We had another ante natal checkup last Saturday and the scan was great, we decided to bring Zaffar along so that he can take a glimpse of his baby sister. Yes, it's now confirmed, the baby is gonna be a baby girl. Thanks God because we have bought bunch of baby girl clothes. Haha. We managed to also get a copy of the 3D ultrasound pic.

Back to work now...

Happy Anniversary My Dearest Marlena

2011-07-24T02:58:00.000-07:00

When a man has the spirit to live, it doesn’t make life easier but it sure makes life worth living. More over when a man has a companion worth appreciating such as you my baby, my dearest Marlena binti Mansor.

When the road was dark, you shined it with your brightness, when I was sick, you were the cure, when I was down, you were the ladder, when I was climbing to success, and you were the pillar that made it strong, when I had a bad day at work, you made me look forward to the better part of the day.

We’ve gone through many ups and downs; we have moved houses which became bigger, drove cars which are bigger, having more babies soon but most important is the love that has grown more and more over the years.

You are and always will be my better half, love of my life and the essence of my existence. Thank you so much for being with me through all the pain and hurt, through the sweetness and serenity, through all the short and long haul journey.

I know we will have more wonderful years ahead and although we know that there’ll be more tough and easy times in the future, please engrave in your thoughts that my hand, mind, body and soul is yours and only yours to hold on to forever and ever, eternity and beyond.

Love you so much baby! Happy Anniversary! 25th July forever!

Exploration

2011-07-04T12:01:00.001-07:00

One does not discover new lands without consenting to lose sight of the shore for a very long time. ~André Gide

This quote inspired me in so many ways especially how I relate this to my life. I've always been that person which wants to explore beyond what I can see and especially beyond what is expected out of me. I may not be an inventor or a founder of Facebook but I feel life has succeeded in bringing me what I need to be grateful of. At the time, everyone wanted to be an accountant, I pursued accounting qualification, at time people was racing towards being a consultant and technology, I was there and when people was racing to the peak of being a successful young executive, I was there. In my most recent interview - yes i am constantly going for interview to each new heights, I have publicly admitted that at my age, it's always about the race, it's either being first or the last. No second place as people either look up to one person and the rest is just at the back seat and the longer you are in the back seat, your value will just continue to go down with age.

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I need a holiday

2011-06-14T06:18:00.001-07:00

The last 2 overseas trip that I had was to Indonesia and also Gold Coast as the picture above. When I was little my parents use to take me everywhere and I became a holiday addict. When I was growing up as a teenager and whenever I was stressed, I would imagine myself going somewhere far and peaceful and now a I've grown older, I'm taking my family to places which I've been but never really manage to explore. I wish I could take a few weeks off just to enjoy some time away but I need to work to prove my worthiness and also keep myself needed in my current role now. Usually the outcome of holiday is either you come back fresh or feel much more stressed after coming back. I hope to find time to getaway soon and I'll write about my previous trip soon.

Tuesdays!

2011-06-14T06:01:00.001-07:00

Tuesdays is always pack rather than other days. Meetings pours in my calendar like water from dusk till dawn. As always work is work but I feel lazier to leave home since wifey is full time housewife now....or for now. I wish I had my own business so that I can control my own time. Anyway, today Zaffar didn't really felt like staying in school. He was too clingy with wifey that we just decided to take home hoping a better opportunity tomorrow. One of the lesson learnt is not send kids to school when they are sleepy. Zaffar woke up rather early this morning and was yawning all the way.

Despite having back to back meeting, I had to rush to the hospital as my medication ran out. Usually SDMC is a long line and I had to wait for hours but although I was number 13 but the nurse called me to meet the doctors even before I could finish replying my first email on my BB. One of my meeting was with SAP guys from Germany. Usually these people are bunch of sales people but this guy was a real automotive guy and he really knew what he was talking about. Respect! I spend the rest of the afternoon in other bunch of emails and finally my boss is back after 2 weeks of holiday. I don't really hold any power anymore..hehe.

I manage to reach home to catch Nora Elena since the whole house is stuck on that drama. I think its almost time that the drama is reaching its peak and will be end soon because the drama is really there. Typical Malay drama. Now we're watching Glee season finale and I just got a phone call from the president of the security committee reminding of today's meeting to discuss o the recent break in here. Although my house is guarded but the area does not have parameter fencing which is rather silly. The synonym is like protecting a flog sheep from foxes with a shepherd there but without any fence. I already expressed this in the email group but let them discuss and decide. I need to rest rather than attend another meeting.

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Success! Sukses!

2011-06-13T05:44:00.001-07:00

I'm finally sitting comfortably on the sofa at home and wrapping a productive day. Zaffar survived his first day in school but had a grand finale by crying after seeing another kid cry. Unfortunate I could not pick him up but wifey did. I was interviewing a candidate to replace someone who recently resigned from the division. The vacancy is rather a hot seat and no one internally dares to takeover that position therefore we had to take someone from outside. But one of my thoughts throughout the interview is whether this guy really know what kind of shit he's getting into and how does other interviewer perceive me when they are interviewing me. Yes it's true when they say it's all about first impression, no matter how good or bad that person is, but if he or she has that charm, that person will be getting an offer soon.

My feet has been hurting he whole day, I don't know why and I hope to ask the doctor if I have time to run to the hospital tomorrow, I have back to back meetings especially on Tuesday. I also spent my afternoon with back to back discussion today as if I haven't been in the office for ages. Here's always issues to debate and problem to scream about. Luckily I can ask everyone to jump into my room as oppose to run around to meet them.

Wifey is having bad morning sickness or all day sickness and I ran to the pharmacy on the way back to buy some medication to ease the urge to vomit. Giant Shah alam have bunch of nice food and I bought popia basah and waffles. I realized the person selling the awesome tauhu bakar and sotong was no longer there. I guess he gave up after selling there as far I can remember. Life is difficult but if life gives you lemon, make lemonade!

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Another step

2011-06-12T19:07:00.000-07:00

Today marks another day where I feel that I'm getting older or mature in life. Zaffar starts school today and the first hour of it he seems to enjoy it. While waiting for m next meeting in the office, wifey and I are just hanging around and peeking through the glass to see if Zaffar is ok. I'm proud to see that he enjoys it as I've never really enjoyed school when I was growing up. I shall not say that school is not important as it contirbutes a lot of the character which we will become when we grow up. It's aother step of growing up for the children and the parents..

Here we go

2011-06-12T08:46:00.001-07:00

I've been trying to find the time and energy to focus on writing another entry. Reading back again all the post, I'm proud to write about my present life. So much has happened, we've settled down in Bukit Jelutong in a nice and cozy house...busy with work and preparing Zaffar for his new school and kids growing up seeing Zaffar and Zabir all big and strong and waiting for the small baby to pop out next January.

Work has been hectic, but life is life, I'm always on my emails with BB keeping me attached to work at the same time keeping attached to wifey through the best technology ever which is the BBM. I was acting for my boss who went back to states for the past 2 weeks and sometimes we prefer to be where we are and to be thankful that God gave us the responsibility that id just nice for us now. But as always i enjoy having moe responsibility. Bought myself a car that I've wanted since years ago but still prefer to drive the company car since can trash it. The family car is for wifey and weekend drive.

Started reading again although I fall asleep now and then trying to finish the books. One on starting business and the other on positive thinking. Wifey is stuck with her Sophie Kinsella in between the trip to the toilet to throw up because of the bad and I mean really bad morning sickness. She's coping well though hoping it will end soon when the first trimester ends...

I pray hard for God to give me more ideas to write here. I have so much to express and so little words to ink down...

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After so long!

2009-10-18T19:46:00.000-07:00

I’m writing this post with great happiness and joy that I’m able to make time to write something for my beloved to read. Recently we’ve heard of the devastation caused by natural disaster where many people have lost their homes and lives throughout the world – typhoons, storms, tornado, floods and many more. Is this natural or is it because of our doings? Is it because of our nature to hurt others, to hurt mother earth causing imbalance to our eco system?

I am not writing this post after such a long time to write about how the world have changed or about pollution and eco system but I’m merely saying that as human we face good and bad as well. It’s a whole big cycle where night will become day and night again and the winter will turn summer and spring.

If the day that the whole big cycle doesn’t arrive, we should be thankful that we have cherished every moment that have been destined for us. Be grateful of the things that are in front of us and be ready for a future that everyone wants to be happy in. We live in this world interdependent on other things as well, when mother earth is hurt, natural disaster occurs and people gets hurt, when human are happy and do good things, we enjoy good weather and healthy environment. Let’s love like there’s no tomorrow and tomorrow better than today!

Steering through the waves

2008-02-24T18:18:00.001-08:00

I just wonder where all my ideas have disappered to? I have ideas to write but just put my fingers on the keyboard, everything just vanish. I ponder upon, my life, people's life and life itself. I feel that life is like a big boat, you have steer the boat in a direction you want but sometimes the wind just push you to God knows where. In life we have responsibility, lots of them, to ourselves, to people around us, to religion, country, race and the whole world. we try to fulfill every single thing but it's not as easy as it should be.

Steering life is like being the Captain of a big ship. We have to steer it steadily. This is a vision and objectives that I have every single day and how i lead my life. When big waves come we have to hold on stronger, we have crew helping us but they have a choice unlike the Captain. They can be there when they want and leave when they please. How we plea is not important but is more important to save the ship. With the ship still in tact we can save the crew.

The Captain have to firmly hold on to the ship, no choice, if the ship sinks, so will the Captain. The ship is the life of the Captain, it's lonely to ride the waves alone but thats what the big ocean have to provide. Just hoping one day to ride the waves with a big smile...

"If you're ain't first, you're last"

2008-01-06T05:05:00.001-08:00

I never though that time passes by this quickly, this blog use to be the place where i pour my heart to, to be as general as I can be so it won't only remind me of the lessons I can use but everyone can use. I tried doing a lot of things to keep up with my thoughts, from writing in my phone to doodling all over but i still can't find the time to put it up here.

Time passes meaning we're getting older each day. People around use grow older, wiser, mature and smarter, but it doesn't leave us from the fact that we often miss out on the things that we need to do, the responsibility and the authority that we need to uphold.

On one fine day as I was praying in the KLCC surau on the LG floor, i realised this small kid was following his dad taking abulation. This kid couldn't be more that 2 years old. He attentively followed everything that his dad did and followed every step of the prayers behind his dad. I was almost teary looking at that because I was once in the same behaviour as that kid, i had to follow my dad everywhere especially to the mosque and was so obedient that i didn't even move from my place because my dad asked me to up until i peed in my pants from holding it too long.

Looking at this and pondering on my past, i keep on thinking if i could do the same for my son. He's growing so big now and I often ask him along when i'm praing, wearing him his purple kopiah (prayer hat) and just putting him beside me. He knows that it's time to pray and he would just sit there and sometimes pressing his face on the prayer mat, smart boy.

I am in love with the responsibility that I have to do, i'm in love with the extra work i have to go through, i'm in love with the life that i have. I would not change even one bit of that and I thank God from giving me the strength to see clearly of the things that I have and not the things that i don't have.

Why hands have holes between them?

2007-10-04T19:53:00.000-07:00

Have we ever thought why our hands have space/holes between them? For me i think it's simply for another hand to fill em up. We need hands to hold, to comfort us, to guide us, to make us stronger and to keep us safe. How much we ponder the truth of security in our hearts. How we circulate our love and life between each other just like giving a wedding ring where it's a circle where there's not a beginning and there's no end. How life would be much better if all of us had that but it doesn't stop us from praying to have that... "Come in alive and go out the same way"

Riding the waves

2007-10-01T19:18:00.000-07:00

At certain point in life, it's a norm to ride waves, high waves to survive the ever demanding life. We have fear of the ability to survive or not but those fears are the elements that brings us to shore. How we are afraid to drown those are the things that will make us swim faster and harder, how we are afraid tat we'll get burned up and that is how we avoid fires. Some journey are longer than the others and some are harder that the others but is it not true that challenges given to us are something that we can handle and if not the challenges wouldn't be granted to us.

We can ride the waves with a big smile and stare it in the eye, It takes a strong person to survive but a stronger person to admit that they need help. Is it a real crime to have a shoulder to fall back to...it's up to you or in Mahat's terms..hisap toyol

Sin

2007-08-16T00:04:00.000-07:00

The things happens to childrens, issit the sin of their father's? or sin of their mother's? or the sin of the parents together or just noone's fault?

Life goes on

2007-08-15T23:36:00.000-07:00

I'm just glad that i finally found the time to write here. Just sit back and finally write something. I don't wanna really pour my heart as i think that personal things stays personal but i wanna be transparent enough that people understand and take positivity out of it.

I've moved into a phase in my life i myself never thought i'll go through. More challenges but to me it's all good. being perceived as strong it's seldom i would be seen consult people about things i go through but i do. for me i go through many things requires big decisions, some may say it's just my fault, having to look for things even beyond my reach and some understand it's a need to reach further for you to appreciate life.

I am gifted to have people that i can share everything with. I have someone being there for me and making me be myself. Making me true to myself which leads to being true to everyone surrounding and most of all being happy automatically. Making me feel appreciated and making me live what i have and struggle to reach higher point in life sincerely. Accepting things around me and the people in my life also brings more love for each other.

A terrifying thought just crossed my mind these few days. I love my son, i love that cute baby. I imagine one day he had to be away from me, without knowing what's happening he just starts waving at me. It still flashes in my mind every second...ponder...i have to

Life

2007-07-20T16:34:00.000-07:00

Through ups and downs in this life differs from individuals. Some end up with chins up and feeling proud getting through to better times and some just end up flat dead and just plain crazy. Those are the challenges in life; it’s not about reaching great heights and end up at the other end of the road but the journey in between. What makes a good literature is opening and end of the story but what makes a book is the storyline throughout the whole book. What makes a good snap shot is a nicely framed shot of a stationary moment that happened but what makes a wonderful moment is what happens in between the snapshots.