I am different. I am rogue

I am back and so my liking for John lloyd :)

2010-11-27T04:37:00.008+08:00

I am back to blogging. Why?

For several reasons:

1. We have a new connection in the office and it is screaming of POWER to the nth degree.

2. It’s THANKSGIVING today in the other part of the world so this is a nice time to start blogging again. Happy Thanksgiving- It is in giving that we truly receive. That’s my status in FB.

3. I have to kill time. I have been here in the office for almost 7 hours and I have nothing to do. No work. As in zero. How would you expect to get work when the US sales people just had a great party last night! Most of them have hangovers for sure.

4. I am still ecstatic because of the movie I watched yesterday so why not talk about it.

So what’s the movie? “My Amnesia girl” by Cathy Garcia-Molina.

Actually, I don’t have plans of watching it initially. I mean I like Toni G. and I used to like John Lloyd Cruz (used to because he’s getting bad publicity lately that’s kind of turn off for me) but them together, it’s an unlikely match.

If you take a look at it, your usual flick would have a pretty girl and a pretty boy in the cast or a not so handsome guy but a very pretty lady. But if you know Toni and John Lloyd, you know that John Lloyd is way too cute over Toni. I mean Toni is pretty but not in the “artista” kind of way. Like what I read others commented Toni is cute in a K-Pop way. A stereotyped Korean leading lady-simple looking, smart, and usually hilarious.

But then again I’ll be meeting a friend of mine and I know that she loves John Lloyd. So why not watch it? There are no other eye-catching movies at the meantime aside from Harry Potter anyway which I already watched.

So we took a long walk from Glorietta to Greenbelt 1 so we could catch the 12:00 noon screening. Just in time we hurriedly enter the cinema and OLA! on the first scene John Lloyd got me! He is uber charming, a Sales manager explaining to his sales peeps how to grab a sale and relating it to how you will find love.

It goes something like this. (I haven’t memorized it so this is just how I would retell the story my own way. LOL)

He starts that there are approximately 11million people, not sure if that is the exact number but something like that J and that one of this people is your match. So when will you find him or her?

You’ll never know. Finding love is so spontaneous that you’ll never know when you will find him or her. It just happens. It may happen while you are walking down the street or passing across the pedestrian. But what if, it is the right time for you to meet him or her, and then suddenly you look into another direction. Or you have to stoop down because you have to tie your shoe lace then you miss the chance.

There Lloydie have to reiterate that once you have that chance you should grab it and value that perfect moment. Because if you lost it and just then realized that it is your one true love then you’ll never know if you’ll have that chance again.

And that is like selling he said, if you caught the customer’s attention then make sure that you grab it and use all the powers that you have to make sure it will work for your advantage and you’ll both end up happy.

He is telling that as if he is professing his love for the saleslady and the saleslady can’t help but be swooned. And yes, if it’s me I would have said YES as well. J

FYI all the girls in the cinema would have said yes as well with their giggling sounds. Lol

NOTE 1: JOHN LLOYD is way too HOT that no girl can resist him. Lucky him! A little too bad for the girl though. Just a little. LOL
Seriously, if you are in a relationship treat it as if you will never find someone else again. Do the best that you can to make it work and feel the love. So that even though you failed in the end at least you tried and you will never regret a thing.

Then another scene, John Lloyd and his guy friends are eyeing girls in a wedding function and nothing seems to satisfy John Lloyds taste. Most girls just get a rating of 2 and 3 and they asked why. Then they remembered his past girlfriends, the overcaring teacher that can be annoying, the perfect girl which makes him imperfect, and the hot stewardess who has no time for him, and the martial artist girlfriend who makes him a punching bag during practice.

Then there is Irene. Toni G is Irene. John Lloyd fondly remembered his good times with her. All good times. Their first meet up in a speed dating event where Toni is the event organizer and photographer. This is so sweet and funny.

Apollo comes over to Irene and ask “Do you believe in love at first sight?”. Irene says “No”. Then John Lloyd leaves and comes back again asking “What about love at second sight, third sight, or fourth sight?” There Irene would end up laughing and there she can’t resists him. They would end up exchanging “corny” pick up lines that we usually receive in text. “Corny and cheesy” but admit it sometimes “sweet”.

NOTE 2: It shows that some people who had past relationships, one of it would standout. If that is their true love, they’ll never know not unless a new one comes in becoming their one true love. Or maybe they would know the moment that they will stop searching. Stop searching meaning to stop loving at all or to settle with whoever they have.
What about unplanned pregnancies? I think it may mean that they are destined to have a child and be matured. It may also mean that destiny is helping them to stop and settle for whoever they have to find out later on that this is their true love or maybe not.
Life is a continuous storybook. We have to live it and wait on how the story will end. It may have a twist that we don’t know.

Then Apollo would meet Irene in a grocery market all pumped up and excited. But there’s Irene asking who is he and who are his friends. She said she had amnesia and have no memories of who their friends are. There start the chase. Apollo still thinking if Irene really has an amnesia but he prefers to believe that she does. Apollo doing cheesy, exceptional, and remarkable things for Irene to bring back her love for him. Without telling who he is. But who is Apollo?

Apollo is the ex-boyfriend who proposed to Irene. Irene who is an orphan, who is also a very sweet, funny, and affectionate in a PDA kind of way girlfriend to Apollo. The proposal scene is a must watch by the way. Then what happened? Well, on their wedding day, as Irene is walking across the altar towards Apollo, Apollo would be a runaway groom. Irene would cry and left devastated. I would wish I will have amnesia too if that would happen to me. That is so damn cruel! Thinking that Irene has no immediate family to support him.

Irene would then purposely hurt Apollo so he would backoff and slowly goes away. But it goes the other way. Apollo still remained insistent in reviving his lost love.

Then comes the drama. Irene was told to shoot for a family only to realized that it is for a golden wedding anniversary. With Apollo on his side and with the two oldies who are wearing their wedding dress and suit, Irene can’t help but remember all the hurt and the anger. There they had a chance to talk. Irene retelling the story on what happened that fateful day of their supposed to be wedding day. She said it was told to her by his gay friend who accompanied her in the wedding.

Irene had to stay at the back of the altar even when all people had left. Even though her friend is pleading for them to leave she wanted to stay and wait for Apollo. She said she had that trust in him that he would go back and changed his mind. That he is not capable of doing that thing to her. Everything is perfect; she is the perfect bride so why would Apollo leave him.

There she blindly asked Apollo on how badly insane someone is to do such a thing. Apollo had to explain that maybe the groom is not yet sure of himself. That their relationship happened so fast. It is too good to be true. He is scared that he haven’t found himself yet at time. That Irene is too perfect that having her at that moment may end up losing her later on. He can’t take that risk.

Me and my friend can’t help but cry over this scene. Toni is not that good in dramatic scenes, but still we felt the hurt and her sorrow. It was so bad for her to have felt and experienced that kind of betrayal. No one I think deserves that.

Then Apollo would do more unimaginable things for her. Things that a girl would hope someone would do for her. If I may say again, John Lloyd is so good at it and convincing that they may have second team up in the screen. You would believe that at that moment he thinks of nothing but Irene.

Then the chase is over. The prince caught the love of the maiden. Everything goes perfect except that Apollo is still thinking that Irene is not yet aware that Apollo is the ex-BF who left him at the altar. Although Irene is also thinking that she haven’t admitted yet that she doesn’t have Amnesia at all. She’s just playing it all along.

The day comes that all secret has to be untold. Apollo brought Irene to the place of the speed dating event 3 years ago. Everything was set up like it used to be. The interiors, the guests, and all his guy friends who were with Apollo that day. They are planning to relive and retold it all to Irene. Then Irene had to tell it all about his fake amnesia. Apollo would storm out and be furious.

How it will end? I won’t tell because you have to watch it so you’ll experience all the funny and drama moments.

Although this is another scene in the movie. John Lloyd was thinking over on what happened to them while doing the Sales demo again. He was relating that you should take advantage of the time and cherish all the good and bad times when you already find your true love. Then a Salesperson would ask what if he was just saying that it is his true love because he already lost it. He said “No”, he haven’t lost it. He had his second chance. Lucky him that he had his second chance.

So after the long storytelling, this is one of the best local romantic movie that I watched. One of which is the “My only you” the movie with the “patola” joke that I recommend as well. With also of course on top of the list, everyone’s favorite, “One more chance” by John Lloyd Cruz and Bea Alonzo.

This movie is so 2010 with the cheesy lines from text messages that we are all familiar with. The story may not usually happen in real life but we know that it may happen. It will help us reflect on how we had treated our past relationships and how we should treat our current one. How we should value people who are true to us and who loved us. I aslo like the pacing which is just right. There is no hard sell drama or comedy. It just fits right at the correct scene. You won't feel that you missed some scene that should have been there or scenes that shouldn't have been there. Good storytelling. The casts are also great. All funny and natural. The usual male "barkadahans" and "inuman". The girls "kampihan" when it comes to lovelife. The cinematography is not so good but of course, it can't destroy the movie.

Actually when me and my friend went out of the theatre we were so high and overwhelmed witg the "kilig" from John Lloyd. I actually would like to walk like dancing and almost did it in greenbelt. A man caught me almost doing it and can't help smiling. The feeling is so contagious that it is best to watch it in pairs or in groups to share the feel good theme of the movie.

I am so planning to watch this again with my boyfriend this time. In the cinemas still, because we both love the big screen effect. Although I just hope that he won’t have tantrums and we’ll get to watch it. He might not like it because he knows that I already watched it. But I might have tantrums and that he won’t like. LOL

Anyways, John Lloyd in this movie is so Apollo, the god of the sun. The ideal of manly beauty. There I rest my case.

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2010-05-07T12:20:00.001+08:00

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2010-02-27T10:34:00.000+08:00

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first star

2009-03-20T06:24:00.001+08:00

I hope that when you see me shining on my best
you would realize
that i have always been
and will always be
your first star.

- The star that would make your dreams come true.

(starlight, starbright, the first star I see tonight, I wish I may, I wish I might, make my dreams come true tonight)

Unquotable quotes

2009-03-12T20:06:00.000+08:00

Pride is just a word. There will be a time that the concept will be lost and you’ll forget its meaning. If you need reviewing, please do.
Don’t underestimate love. You don’t know what it can do to you and what you can do just for love.
~~All BF/GF snatchers go to hell. (Peace!)~~ All is fair in love and war. So always be on the lookout.
To be sane and insane is at constant war. The latter is the easy way out.
Not all people deserve 100% trust. Choose wisely.
I have so much love to give. Why waste it on someone who doesn’t appreciate it!

-Mharie

Freedom - naah..ah.ah.!

2009-02-09T13:37:00.001+08:00

An excerpt from "THE ZAHIR" by Paulo Coelho:

"I remember a comment someone made during dinner: a recent divorcee said “now I have all the freedom I always dreamed of.” That’s a lie. No-one wants that kind of freedom, all of us want a commitment, a person to be at our side to see the beauties of Geneva, discuss their views of life or even just share a sandwich. Better to eat half a sandwich than a whole one without anyone to share anything with, not even a little bit of food. Better to be hungry than to be alone. Because when you are alone - and I am talking about the loneliness that we do not choose, the loneliness that we are obliged to accept - it is as if we no longer belonged to the human race.

I start walking towards the beautiful hotel on the other river bank, with its super-comfortable room, its kind staff, its top-quality service. Soon I will be asleep and tomorrow this strange sensation that for some reason or other overpowered me today will be no more than a memory, remote and odd, because I won’t have any more reason to say: I’m lonely.

On the way back I pass by other solitary people; they look either arrogant (because they prefer to pretend that they chose to be alone on such a beautiful evening) or sad (because they know that there is nothing worse in life). I consider striking up a conversation with them, but I know that they are ashamed of their own loneliness. Maybe it is better for them to reach the limit and then understand how necessary it is to dare, to talk to strangers, to discover where to meet people, to avoid going home to watch TV or read a book - because if they do that the meaning of life will be lost, loneliness will have become a vice, and from then on the long way back to human companionship will no longer be found."

- Sad to say but this is exactly what I feel right now!

Mango Camp Adventure

2008-05-08T16:00:00.033+08:00

I just came from Mango camp adventure last week and " it was the best, I met a pretty girlie na taga IS...".

"Ang Baduy ko! Pu**!"

That's the song that is playing on my mind. I guess it still came from the Videoke session that we had there. It's because Gerard had been singing Andrew E. songs while Blanky was singing Mystica and Salbakuta songs.

Here's a picture of the portion of that karaoke room.
The entertainment room is really nice this is actually the best room in the resort, for me. The red dim light is so perfect with the picturesque displays inside the room. Too bad that we were too tired on that night that’s why we don't have that much energy to take lot of pictures. Aside from the fact that we already had several Tequila shots that night.

Mango Camp adventure is a leisure farm situated in Bgy. Cadmang, Cabangan, Zambales.

This is a picture on our 2^nd day after we went to the beach.

Initially, our plan is to stay in a popular but cheap (we are in a budget!) resort in Subic.

Our requirements, for that simple yet beautiful resort would be:

An accommodation which would not exceed our P1000 budget for each person.
An air-conditioned room which would have clean and soft beds.
A room with a clean bathroom.
A beach and pool resort (I was insisting that it should have a pool).
A resort which has a restaurant since we don’t have any plans of bringing in food and drinks.
The photos available on the website should be nice.

But after browsing the web and contacting good resorts in Subic, it’s either they are fully booked or is way more than our budget. So if it’s not Subic, then nearest town would be Zambales.

Glad we came across this resort!

( A photo of their gazebo at night)

On the way to the resort, we’re with high spirits; however, after the traffic in Pampanga, the supposedly 3 hours drive became 4 ½ hour drive. What keeps us going was our “not so smart game” for kids. We just have to name a “Pinoy” actor or Actress that starts with letter A until we had reached letter H. Here are some I remembered:

A – Atong Redillas (from Blanky), Andrew E ( at ang kanyang magagandang leading ladies)

B - Boyet de Leon, Bella Flores, Bentong

C - Christopher de leon (there are no rules), Caloy (Ogag), Caridad Sanchez (cher’s favorite!), Chiquito

D - Dranreb ( That’s entertainment days ni Cher), Danica Sotto (which I heard as Danny Casoto – that’s why I asked who’s Danny?), Dang Cruz, Dagul

E – Eric Quizon, Epie Quizon (since Dolphy was mentioned in letter D), Ester Amoyo (na Aster dapat!)

F – Fernando Poe Jr., Fernando Poe Sr., Fernando Poe III (Lovie Poe! Hehe..)

G – G.toengi, Glydel Mercado (on her white castle days)

H- Henry Omaga Diaz ( artista???)

The good thing is that when we arrived at the resort, even though it rained, it was all worth the wait and agony.

We had a 4 on 4 basketball game. We played in the basketball court which is all wet and with a little mix of poo2 and mud. It was really fun! Now I understand why guys love basketball.

Then afterwards we went swimming on the Mango pool.

Then the guys went to rent ATV’s (All terrain vehicles).

Since its almost dark; Jen, Blanky, and I decided to just try it tomorrow. We just decided to take some pictures instead.

Then came dinner…The food and service is awesome!

“It’s your Pinoy food na babalikan nyo sa probinsiya nyo or mamimiss ninyo na niluluto ng nanay nyo.”

At night we then drunk the Tequila that Cher had forced us to pay. Joke!

Although we had to settle for calamansi than Lemon that Glenn had promised! Peace!

For the 2^nd day, after picture taking, we then had a 10 min drive to the beach.

The beach is not commercialized, but it is also owned by Mango camp, as I heard. It just had this roofed wooden tables, CR, and your “probinsya” water pump.

But if you are not running for water sports activities like us, then it would be enough. The water is clear and the place is clean. I like it!

When we went back to the camp, we then go wall climbing. My all time- dream!

I always wanted to wall climb back in College during school fair but I am just afraid that I won’t be able to do it. It was hard at first.

But…

I reached the top after my second try.

That’s with a little help from the Manong who is assisting us.
And ...
I only asked him twice to help pull the wire. hehe...

It’s really not easy. The first half of the climb is bearable but after that...
It was as if you are pulling your own weight ( read- got to lose weight).
You also would have to plan where to climb and make sure you stretch your hands and feet to make use of all the rocks surrounding you.

It’s not only me who tried it.

We had to use the power of “liempo” to help one of these guys. We were teasing that there is 1 kilo of “inihaw na liempo” that is waiting on top. Hahaha…

Then Jen, Blanky, and I tried ATV (all Terrain Vehicle). This is what would keep you coming you coming back to this resort. For just P250 for 15 minutes, you’ll really enjoy!

Hmmm...Too bad those 24 hours is not enough for us to try other activities…

You can also do pig hunting, paint ball, Target shooting, and try obstacle course there.

This is really the best choice for Team building!

I will sure be back!

Gatorade missing!

2008-04-27T23:49:00.012+08:00

It's the usual Sunday shift in the office tonight.

I've been here for 3 hours with less than 20 chat received, read thru several blogs, and earned more than 1000 gold for the RPG I am playing. Thus, I was able to buy a new sword for my character. My 1st accomplishment for the day! hehe... Second will be the emails that I will be completing later on.

Anyways, I just came from the pantry and I spotted a note posted on our pantry's refrigerator.

Here's the story:

Apparently, someone here in the office purchased (2) 500 ml Gatorade drink and placed it in the ref last Saturday, April 26 at exactly 7:45PM. However, when he/she checked back again yesterday evening, April 27, the grape flavored Gatorade is missing. (the person did not mention the time)

So he/she had an ultimatum for the "Gatorade snatcher" to return it within the next 2 days or the owner would have no choice to ask help from the Security office. The Security would then check the cameras inside the pantry to spot the said "thief".

My point is:

1. Kuya guard if you would be able to find the culprit please ask him/her if he/she is also the one who stole the 2 packs of my ordered Tocino that the seller placed in the freezer.
It was last December.
I forgot the exact date and time.

2. Anyone who steals food from the pantry's ref is at the bottom of our social system. In short, the poorest among the poorest.
I am not rich but I would not do such a thing. (epal lang. hehe..)
I don't get the idea why those persons would do that. I know everyone here in the office are getting their salaries every 15 days. Anyone not being paid???
I even have a friend who placed her sliced pizza (which already had bite marks) in the same ref and the next day...

3. I am too bored here at work that's why I am amuse by this office food scandal.
Maybe I would also need a Gatorade drink.

Cutie angel

2008-04-25T15:09:00.005+08:00

Here's our cute little angel Nicholai.

I even cannot believe sometimes that he's now 4 years old and is now going to school by June. But I am excited that he will now start schooling. I am even planning to have a Vacation leave on his first day of school.

It's like several Christmases before, including the Christmas when my mom was still alive. It was when me, my two sisters, my mom, and my aunt, would be too excited watching him dress up for the special day. As for the usual "mano po ninong and ninong" and "the giving of gifts", we would all watch him, outside the house, as he joins other kids doing their "bahay-bahay" visits. A usual scenario in our neighborhood during christmas.

If you'll ask him what he wanted to be when he grows up, he'll tell you that he's going to be an "artista" and a doctor.

Initially, he would like to be a "driver" he said. You see, we have a passenger jeepney and my dad will be the driver sometimes and he likes to tag along.

But when my sister, Dianne, told him that he won't be able to buy toys if he will be a driver, then he decided to be a doctor instead. Hahaha...

Kids will be kids!

He even had a stage that he would like to be soldier or a priest.

As for the idea that he wanted to be an artista. It's my "stage sister" Dianne who teaches him to act sometimes if they are playing. I together with my sisters Dianne, Monica, and cousin Gelyn really laughed our hearts out when he said this line from a TV commercial: "I got a stinky, I got dirty, but see I learned".

But our favorite was the line from "Patayin sa sindak si Barbara series"- "I hate you Daddy, pinatay mo si Mommy!". He would say the latter with so much hate from a child, as if he knows the feeling, and with a matching facial expressions. He also sometimes sings the line " Ang bulong ni mommy.." from that series.

Most of the time he makes funny comments especially when my sisters and I teases him.

Haay...I miss my baby brother...

He's actually staying with my Aunt in Lucena city for almost a month now. We visited him last weekend though. But right now he's in Marinduque for the baptismal of the newest member in our family, my cousin, Baby Gab! Who is equally adorable as my brother.

By the way, Nicholai, would say that he's no longer a baby but rather a "Kuya" now because of baby Gab.

The fox and the Little Prince

2008-04-17T08:23:00.006+08:00

The fox and the Little Prince

From the Little Prince by Antoine de Saint-Exupery ____I remembered reading this way back in fifth grade and I love it because it teaches us how we should handle relationships ( may it be for love or for friendships) and what would would make us beautiful_____

The Fox and the Little Prince

excerpt:

it was then that the fox appeared. \"good morning\" said the fox. \"good morning\" the little prince responded politely altho when he turned around he saw nothing. \"I am right here\" the voice said, \"under the apple tree.\" \"who are you?\" asked the little prince, and added, \"You are very pretty to look at.\" \"I am a fox\", the fox said. \"Come and play with me,\" proposed the little prince, \"I am so unhappy.\" \"I cannot play with you,\" the fox said, \"I am not tamed.\" \"AH please excuse me,\"said the little prince. But after some thought, he added: \"what does that mean---\'tame\'?\" \"you do not live here,\" said the fox, \"what is it you are looking for?\" \"I am looking for men,\" said the little prince. \"What does that mean---tame?\" \"Men,\"said the fox, \"they have guns, and they hunt. It is very disturbing. They also raise chickens. These are their only interests. Are you looking for chickens?\" \"No,\" said the little prince. \"I am looking for friends. What does that mean---tame?\" \"It is an act too often neglected,\" said the fox. \"It means to establish ties.\" \"To establish ties?\" \"Just that,\" said the fox. \"to me, you are still nothing more than a little boy who is just like a hundred thousand other little boys. And I have no need of you. And you, on your part, have no need of me. To you I am nothing more than a fox like a hundred thousand other foxes. But if you tame me, then we shall need each other. To me, you will be unique in all the world. To you, I shall be unique in all the world. . .\" \"I am beginning to understand,\" said the little prince. \"There is a flower. . .I think she has tamed me. . .\" \"It is possible,\" said the fox. \"On earth one sees all sorts of things.\" \"Oh but this is not on the earth!\" said the little prince. The fox seemed perplexed, and very curious. \"On another planet?\" \"Yes\" \"Are there hunters on that planet?\" \"No\" \"Ah that\'s interesting! Are there chickens?\" \"No\" \"Nothing is perfect,\" sighed the fox. But he came back to his idea. \"My life is very monotonous,\" he said. \"I hunt chickens; men hunt me. All chickens are just alike, and all the men are just alike. And in consequence, I am a little bored. But if you tame me, it will be as if the sun came to shine on my life. I shall know the sound of a step that will be different from all the others. Other steps send me hurrying back underneath the ground. Yours will call me, like music out of my burrow. And then look: you see the grain-fields down yonder? I do not eat bread. Wheat is of no use to me. The wheat fields have nothing to say to me. And that is sad. But you have hair that is the color of gold. Think how wonderful that will be when you have tamed me! The grain, which is also golden, will bring me back the thought of you. And I shall love to listen to the wind in the wheat. . .\" The fox gazed at the little prince, for a long time. \"Please---tame me!\" he said. \"I want to, very much,\" the little prince replied. \"But I have not much time. I have friends to discover, and a great many things to understand.\" \"One only understands the things that one tames,\" said the fox. \" Men have no more time to understand anything. They buy things all ready made at the shops. But there is no shop anywhere where one can buy friendship, and so men have no friends any more. If you want a friend, tame me. . .\" \"What must I do, to tame you? asked the little prince. \"You must be very patient,\" replied the fox. First you will sit down at a little distance from me -like that-in the grass. I shall look at you out of the corner of my eye, and you will say nothing. Words are the source of misunderstandings. But you will sit a little closer to me, every day...\" The next day the little prince came back. \"It would have been better to come back at the same hour,\" said the fox. \"If for example, you came at four o\'clock in the afternoon, then at three o\'clock I shall begin to be happy. I shall feel happier and happier as the hour advances. At four o\'clock, I shall be worrying and jumping about. I shall show you how happy I am! But if you come at just any time, I shall never know at what hour my heart is ready to greet you. . . One must observe the proper rites. . .\" \"What is a rite?\" asked the little prince. \"Those also are actions too often neglected,\" said the fox. \"they are what make one day different from other days, one hour different from other hours. There is a rite, for example, among my hunters. Every Thursday they danse with the village girls. So Thursday is a wonderful day for me! I can take a walk as far as the vineyards. But if the hunters danced at just any time, every day would be like every other day, and I should never have any vacation at all.\" So the little prince tamed the fox. And when the hour of his departure drew near--- \"Ah,\" said the fox, \"I shall cry.\" \"It is your own fault,\" said the little prince. \"I never wished you any sort of harm; but you wanted me to tame you. . .\" \"Yes that is so\", said the fox. \"But now you are going to cry!\" said the little prince. \"Yes that is so\" said the fox. \"Then it has done you no good at all!\" \"It has done me good,\" said the fox, \"because of the color of the wheat fields.\" And then he added: \"go and look again at the roses. You will understand now that yours is unique in all the world. Then come back to say goodbye to me, and I will make you a present of a secret.\" The little prince went away, to look again at the roses. \"You are not at all like my rose,\" he said. \"As yet you are nothing. No one has tamed you, and you have tamed no one. You are like my fox when I first knew him. He was only a fox like a hundred thousand other foxes. But I have made a friend, and now he is unique in all the world.\" And the roses were very much embarrassed. \"You are beautiful, but you are empty,\" he went on. \"One could not die for you. To be sure, an ordinary passerby would think that my rose looked just like you --the rose that belongs to me. But in herself alone she is more important than all the hundreds of you other roses: because it is she that I have watered; because it is she that I have put under the glass globe; because it is for her that I have killed the caterpillars (except the two or three we saved to become butterflies); because it is she that I have listened to, when she grumbled, or boasted, or even sometimes when she said nothing. Because she is MY rose.\" And he went back to meet the fox. \"Goodbye\" he said. \"Goodbye,\" said the fox. \"And now here is my secret, a very simple secret: It is only with the heart that one can see rightly; what is essential is invisible to the eye.\" \"What is essential is invisible to the eye,\" the little prince repeated, so that he would be sure to remember. \"It is the time you have wasted for your rose that makes your rose so important. \"It is the time I have wasted for my rose-- \"said the little prince so he would be sure to remember. \"Men have forgotten this truth,\" said the fox. \"But you must not forget it. You become responsible, forever, for what you have tamed. You are responsible for your rose. . .\" \"I am responsible for my rose,\" the little prince repeated, so that he would be sure to remember.

(image from http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Image:Littleprince.JPG)

Are you happy?

2008-04-17T07:58:00.005+08:00

Are you happy?

11-23-2006 at 03:39 PM

To be happy is a choice.

That is a shout out made by one my friends here at friendster.

Well, I realized that is absolutely correct.

Coz' sometimes we ought to think that our true measure of being happy is once we already achieve a certain desire, aim or goal. It may pertain to short or long term goals. Like for example you've decided that you'll be happy for this day once you will eat this food, or you'll buy this or that, or you will see someone, or do this activity as planned. As for long term goals, you'll be happy if you'll pass this test, if you'll get promoted, if you'll buy this big house or this nice car, or if you' ll end up with this someone.

But what if you weren't able to accomplished them? There we start to think that we are not entirely happy and then we start to feel a certain emptiness that even don't even know how to be filled. Also there come stories of people who became rich and end up with their man or girl of their dreams yet they end up not being happy. Because of simple reasons that they became bored and life became bored and life became so stagnant for them that they want to try something different. Until they search and search yet stil they can't find what they are looking for because they don't know what is really missing in the first place.

Human in nature were born dreamers, it is hard for us to be contented on what we have, financially and emotionally. We are continually striving to be good and to be better or to be the best. The best we can achieve, yes, but not for a long time. There will always be someone who will be prettier, wiser, kinder, and richer. Nothing in this world will remain constant.

Just wanted to reinstate the fact that we are not living in a perfect world. We won't be able to get all our desires and dreams no matter how hard we try.It is not bad to achieve for excellence or to still pursue something that we cannot have.

We may also not please everybody which will also affect us. But nevertheless what we have to be sure of, is that in every choice we are making we will end up being happier. It is a plus of course if in those decisions more people will be happy. But that maybe unnecessary at times.

Just remember that in the long run the choice will always be on us. No matter what happens in our life. It is us who will decide to be happy or not...

In and out of love

2008-04-17T07:38:00.005+08:00

In and out of love

10-27-2006 at 05:44 PM

Three lessons in love we should be aware

of:

1. Relationships doesn't live on love alone.
As man doesn't live in bread alone.

A relationship with love alone is like a

plant which is planted in a good soil and

was given enough carbon dioxide but without

water and sunlight to nurture it and make

it alive.
It may have all the minerals that it needs

to grow for a while but soon enough it will

wither and die. Too bad that sometimes it

results in a painful death.

Respect would be sunlight as trust would be

water.
Sunlight is needed for the plant to create

its own food by itself to survive.
Respect is needed so that partners can

achieve their individual dreams.
Water is needed for the minerals in the

soil to be transported and absorbed by the

plant.
As trust is needed to confirm each other's

love.

2. (Remember your chemistry at work: Law of

conservation of energy it also works for

love)
Love is neither created nor destroyed.

It may sounds impossible but its true. I

once read an observation like this in

peyups.com and realization sets in once I

have experienced it.

Energy is neither created nor destroyed

because it will just be transformed into

another form.

Love that is loss will just be given to

another entity. Just like what most people

experiences and like what happened to me.

Love loss for your partner will be

transformed to love for yourself.

You need to love yourself so that

relationships can grow. So that errors made

will not be wasted because you have learned

from it.

3. Relationships that did not end

successfully should be closed (Closing

cycles by Paulo Coelho)

We should not dwell on the past because its

already ended. We can no longer change it.
Painful it may seems but soon enough we can conquer it. I haven't conquer it yet but of course I will.

If thou must love me, let it be for nought

2008-04-17T06:56:00.006+08:00

This is an image of “Elizabeth Barett Browning” on the painting “Pinkie” (Thomas_Lawrence_Pinkie.jpg http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Image:Thomas_Lawrence_Pinkie.jpg
when she was young.‎ -

She was described as a young woman with “slight, delicate figure, with a shower of dark curls falling on each side of a most expressive face; large, tender eyes, richly fringed by dark eyelashes, and a smile like a sunbeam."- Mary Russell Mitford http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Elizabeth_Barrett_Browning) (

XIV. "If thou must love me, let it be for nought..."
by Elizabeth Barrett Browning (1806-1861)
09-27-2006 at 02:15 PM

If thou must love me, let it be for nought
Except for love's sake only. Do not say
'I love her for her smile---her look---her way
Of speaking gently,---for a trick of thought
That falls in well with mine, and certes brought
A sense of pleasant ease on such a day'---
For these things in themselves, Belovèd, may
Be changed, or change for thee,---and love, so wrought,
May be unwrought so. Neither love me for
Thine own dear pity's wiping my cheeks dry,---
A creature might forget to weep, who bore
Thy comfort long, and lose thy love thereby!
But love me for love's sake, that evermore
Thou mayst love on, through love's eternity.

Here is one of the sonnets written by Ms. Browning that I like aside from "How do I love Thee"

Wake me up please!

2008-04-17T06:52:00.004+08:00

Wake me up please 09-24-2006 at 01:42 AM

I hate waking up in the middle of the night 'coz my stomach suddenly get upset. It is fit for the phrase that I have butterflies in my stomach. I don't know it just always happens. But last week its kinda different.

It was Monday around 3am that I woke up and feel the uneasiness. Maybe it was brought up also by the idea that afternoon I will start training for a new account. Guess I'm tensed and stressed on the idea on how will it be like to be in that new account.It would be a different environment. Different from where I am accustomed for a year now working for IBM. I'll meet new faces. I'll have a new immediate supervisor.It's like I'm again removed from my comfort zone. Of course you have to get on with it and take new challenges, its a cycle... You need to be responsible of yourself and the decisions that you are making.

Then I remembered my mom again and I started to cry. I don't know, maybe because of this new phase that I will be in. I used to tell her about this account where I will be transferring . I mentioned that I was excited about this. I informed her about the interview that I went and how this will be a relief because I wont be able to get irate callers that I used to have on the previous account. It saddens me that I won't be able to tell her that day will be my first day. It saddens me more to think that there will be more events that will happen in my life that I won't be able to tell to her personally. Especially when I used to tell all my stories to her. She was the first one who have seen my first drawings, she's the one who taught me my first songs ("ako ay may lobo" if I remember it right) and first poem ("tutubi tutubi"). I know I still have my dad and my siblings but you know that its different.

If I can shout at that moment how I am hurt and how I miss my mom so badly that morning I would have done it!

If only shouting in the middle of the night is not against our norms...

I wish I am just dreaming and if only someone can wake me up...

First

2008-04-17T06:49:00.002+08:00

FIRST 09-15-2006 at 06:27 PM

When I was young I used to fear horror stories about multo, aswang, and the likes. There was even a time, from grade 1 until I'm grade six I guess, that I have this stuffed toy -a dog which I got from my sister. A gift that was given to her when she was still a baby. This has been my constant companion at night especially when I am staying at the province with my grannies. Way back, I was thinking that when I place it on top of my heart they (the tiktik..whatever!) won’t be able to snatch my heart like what we see in movies.

Yeah..crazy.. but that what I was thinking before :)

Now that I'm a grown up, suddenly my fears have changed. Creatures of the night would no longer make me tremble, though ghost stories will still startle me at times.

It’s because when your old, things get complicated and reality bites. Losing someone you love would be your greatest fear, especially when you know it’s unavoidable and its coming soon.

That's why I when I used to pray before my mom died I am not asking for a miracle not that I don’t believe in it but I know the fact that it doesn’t always happen the same time when you want it to happen. So what I am asking before was just an extension of her life. I was reasoning out that I am not yet ready, my siblings, my dad we are all not ready. But when it had happened last Aug 26th, I realized that I can never be ready neither do they. We would have waited after a year or 2 years but the pain will still be the same.

Sometimes I still ask why it had happened and lots of what if's are also running on my head. But then again I know that answers will come if not today. I know it will...

If there's one good thing I learned from it, is that me and my family are surrounded by good relatives, friends, and neighbors who are all willing to help and empathize.

I know the hurting is not done and I don’t know if it will end. I know that there will be days when it will hurt more. Moms are supposed to be alive forever. It’s not enough that they have taught you all the values which would be important for you to run your life. It’s different if you'll hear it from them over and over again. No assurance is better unless it would come from her.

I love you ma, happy birthday!

I am blogging

2008-04-17T06:01:00.004+08:00

I am now officially blogging! (CLap!CLap! CLap!)
I think it's official since now I am doing it here on a blogsite. I used to blog before using Friendster but God knows how "Blog friendly" friendster is and how long does "Loading" means. So guys welcome me! Love me or Hate me... PS. My first 6 posts will be coming from there.