Schwarzi's World

Life C.

2012-11-14T20:42:00.000-02:00

Life's such a fucking cunt

You almost climbed the zenith there it sends you an avalanche of shit

Dragging you down to the gutters of your failure.

It will starve you almost to death just to stuff you full like a pig so it can starve you even longer next time.

It may break a fall but only coz you would’ve landed not hard enough.

You try to make the best but it’ll only get worst.

Where is the point?

You could put a bullet through your brain and end it,

but we’re all masochists who love to suffer our lifes.

© US MMXII

Your voice

2012-06-06T23:05:00.001-03:00

It’s like an old song

This song you haven’t heard in ages

But as soon as you hear the first lines

You remember every word

Hearing your voice soothes

Seeing your beautiful face

It soothes my pain

The pain of missing you so very much

©US MMXII

Far but close

2012-05-31T23:16:00.000-03:00

It is not too long ago

You where just living ‘round the corner

So very close but you where so unreachable far

Now you’re gone and so far away

But it feels so close

And you are with me

All the time

You’re in my heart and on my mind

I cannot and I never wanna

Stop thinking about YOU

Coz

I love you so damn much

And I miss having you in my live

©US MMXII

Waking up without you

2012-05-29T23:07:00.000-03:00

Waking up without you

Can’t smell your hair

Without your beautiful body to hold, to caress

Not able to feel the warmness of your heart

To watch you sleep and slowly waking up

Not to make love to you

Makes me feel so lonely and empty

©US MMXII

So Easy

2012-05-27T23:14:00.000-03:00

I know sometimes it seems easy to say it

And you may not believe it

And we both have our ticks, our moods, our little faults

We are difficult and can be even obnoxious

But all this makes us humans

Makes us mortal

We not robots doing things we programmed to do

We are you and me

And all I know is that I love you

And that the more I miss you the more I know how much I love you

No matter what kind of monkey we are sometimes

©US MMXII

Never Broken and Always There

2011-12-07T01:15:00.002-02:00

Lucky you stole my heart so I wont have a broken one

You maybe broke the man but his heart is still beating

Beating there, with you and it always will be there for you

You may erase pictures, written words, numbers

But my memories are there to stay

Memories of this amazing time we had

I can never forget

And I hope when you feel the heart you stole it’ll remind you of these times

©US MMXI

Thief

2011-12-05T22:50:00.002-02:00

You stole my heart

But I don’t want it back

You keep it so you know

That

Wherever you are

Whenever you need it

It’ll be there for you

©US MMXI

Monster City

2011-12-02T15:48:00.000-02:00

This City is a monster

Its eats you alive

Than throws you back up

You find love

Only

To loose it again

You create live

Then you kill it

It’s a constant build up

And bringing down

It wont let you go

Till it finally digested you

All you can do is to start new

In a different City

A different monster

©US MMXI

GZ

2011-11-30T15:41:00.004-02:00

I never thought I could have a friend

A friend so close I would share

My deepest feelings

My inner fears

My desires

My secrets

There was never such a person I could tell this

But now there is YOU

It’s amazing how you unlocked me

You know the passwords to my soul

We share things we have never shared before

And it all feels so good

So liberating, so amazing, so happy

Where this will go

Only time will tell us

All I know is you’ll be my friend forever

And

I could never forget about you

©US MMXI

The Morning After

2011-11-22T15:37:00.004-02:00

There is nothing better than

After a crazy night of fun

Waking up holding a beautiful women in your arms

You watch her sleep so nice and so vulnerable

But nothing could harm her in your arms

You smell her hair

You listen to her breathing

You feel her skin

And when she wakes up you can see in those beautiful blue eyes

Tey’ll take you far away to a nice place only you both

©US MMXI

Thinking of You

2011-10-22T14:44:00.003-02:00

Never thought it’ll be like this

But I think of you all the time

When I close my eyes I can see your smile

When I wake up, before I open my eyes I can smell your hair

When I stop what I do, I think what is she doing

When I don’t hear from you I feel empty

There was a time I wanted to forget you

I even tried to hate you

But I never could hate somebody so nice

And I could never erase you from my heart

I just like you so very much

©US MMXI

Expect the Unexpected

2011-10-14T09:34:00.002-03:00

The best things in life are the unexpected joys

You never think they’ll happen

But all of a sudden

They do

Sometimes you think it’s all over

And the next thing you know you right in the middle of it

You don’t even know how it happened

You just know it is here and its fantastic, awesome

Or just

Pure and simple

UNBELIEVABLE!!!

©US MMXI

Always Something New

2011-10-12T06:40:00.002-03:00

With age comes the wisdom to have done and seen many things

But there is always something new in life

Sometimes bad,

Sometimes good

and

Sometimes just pure and simple

Unbelievable amazing

When you thought it’s all over there comes just the next big thing

Thank you, you’ll know I mean you

©US MMXI

My Inner Pain

2011-10-03T20:11:00.000-03:00

No one sees it

Only I feel it

Nobody knows

My inner pain

It kills me inside

I am too stupid to cry

To proud to admit

My inner pain

To be alone

Not be loved

To have failed

My inner pain

It scares me

Maybe one day I go to far

I cross that line

My inner pain

It makes me want to get hurt

On the outside

Scars to remind me

My inner pain

Won’t let me go

It follows me

It’s my shadow

My inner pain

I want to kill you

©US MMXI

Star

2011-10-01T12:37:00.004-03:00

Last night I felt lonely

So I sat in the garden

Watching the nice clear sky

Full of shining stars

So beautiful

Each one of them reminded me of you

So beautiful

And I felt better

You are my little shining star

©US MMXI

Your Kisses

2011-09-28T22:29:00.002-03:00

Your kisses are my drug

Only one kiss and I am hooked

Addicted

I need more

All I think about is your kisses

They get me high, I am dreaming

Daydreaming

And all I want is to kiss you again

And again and again

Kiss junkie

Maybe

But this drug is so good

So sweet so very, very addictive

I need more

©US MMXI

Fight

2011-09-28T04:13:00.002-03:00

When you with someone

Sometimes you have to fight

I don’t mean physically fighting

I mean the little fights about nothing

The disagreements, misunderstandings

Or just

Because your partner acted in a stupid way

Not cheating or lying just being stupid

These fights are important

You don’t want to be with somebody

Somebody who says yes and agrees to everything

No these fight are good

No matter how much they hurt at the time

Because

There is nothing better

Than

The kisses, hugs and sex afterwards

©US MMXI

Missing Her

2011-09-25T10:40:00.004-03:00

You think how can you miss someone after only a day or two

Or even hours

As long as I am occupied with something it’s fine

But

As soon as I stop

I think about her

Think of her picture

Think of her voice

I smell her perfume

I smell her hair

And when I feel lonely

I think of her smile

Think of the look in her beautiful blue and deep eyes

I think of her sweet kisses

Her warm hugs

And than, I just want to be with her

Hold her and kiss her

I just really, really miss you

©US MMXI

Drowning in her eyes, swept away by kisses and saved by her hugs

2011-09-21T11:09:00.001-03:00

What is wrong with me?

Never ever a women moved me so much like her

At first I barely noticed her

She was just another person I knew

And now?

Every time I look in her eyes

I am drowning in a sea of emotions

Emotions I’ve never felt before

It’s like a rollercoaster ride of my feelings

These eyes are hypnotizing and they tattooed her picture into my brain

And than

Her kisses

Which knock me off my feet and sweep me away

So sweet and so strong

They’re like a tsunami pulling me into the wide ocean

The wide ocean of her presence and beauty

And it wont let go of me

Than I hold her

Feel her warm hugs that make me feel save and secure

©US MMXI

Love Blindness

2011-09-19T19:44:00.001-03:00

Sometimes love makes you blind

So blind

You cannot see

How

You

Ignore &

Hurt

Others

Who also love and adore you but in a different way

Don’t stop loving

But always remember to keep an eye on the

Others who love you!

©US MMXI

How Priorities Change

2011-09-17T19:15:00.003-03:00

When I was younger I wanted quick no strings sex and never found it

All what the girls wanted was love

Now I am looking for that love and all I am finding is sex

Not that this is a bad thing

But

Sex without love is pretty empty

Strange how situations and priorities change when you are older

But hey why not making the best out of every situation

©US MMXI

Sexy food?

2011-09-13T17:57:00.000-03:00

For me sex is a pretty much like food.

In an ideal situation you have it at least three times a day.

And there are the little snacks in between.

There are the simple meals that are nothing special but satisfy you and make you happy.

There are also the special meals for the special occasion, with a full-blown multicourse menu.

It can be exotic food, strange food, hot and cold, sweet and sour food but it should never be disgusting or sick.

You can eat in the kitchen, bathroom, living room, bedroom, garden, restaurant, car, park, plane, at work, train ……

There is food, which looks nice but tastes bad but there is also the food, which is not looking nice at all but tastes amazing and of course there is the food, which looks and tastes fantastic.

All in all just like sex is to me

And the best thing is

You can even have sex with food

©US MMXI

Heart vs. Brain

2011-09-12T17:34:00.002-03:00

I life with the constant battle of

My heart vs. my brain

It’s really not easy sometimes

My brain tells me go slow, take your time, have some patience

Than my heart knocks my brain out and goes

WTF you waiting for idiot, go for it or you loose your chance

Mostly just in time my brain wakes up again

It’s a constant hard accelerating and heavy braking

Can’t be good for the engine

©US MMXI

I hate to say Good Bye

2011-09-11T17:19:00.000-03:00

I just can’t say it

I always had this problem

Worst case was when I lost people I knew and loved

Lost them forever

I think they’ll walk through the door any second

Or I get a call

Not willing to realize they past away

It slowly comes to light when you have to pack someone’s belongings

I know they wont come back

But I don’t want to face it

Never want to face it

Still hoping that one-day we will meet again

And I am sure we will

R.I.P. Wherever you are

©US MMXI

Loneliness is a Killer

2011-09-07T22:12:00.000-03:00

Feeling lonely is one of the worst things

You got your friends colleagues and its all fine

Until you come home

The emptiness in life

First you don’t feel it

Until

It slowly

Creeps and crawls in your bones, mind and soul

You ask yourself

Where is the one

To share your life, your feelings, your pains, your joy

But you alone

Nobody else there

Just an empty place and you

The silence is torture

Where is the one

To argue with, to snug up to, to listen to

Or just

To know is there

Loneliness is a killer

Worst than any other pain

©US MMXI