Born on a plant

2009-07-07T08:37:00.000-07:00

That is the place i am uploading new songs. Come over and listen if you like Indian music, World music -mostly western arrangement - pads, drums, bass, vocals. A lot of gibberish too!
If you are really crazy checkout www.shyammonk.com. That is where i put down a lot of garbage as words.

Constant reference by 2 to 4 db

2008-10-04T00:52:00.001-07:00

"It is better to have a reference, a constant, so that you can see what is changing while you have a non changing part to hold on to. This gives clarity about the nature of the solution we are trying for. Most of the time the questions for which we try to find answers during counseling, are understood as not really necessary questions, that they are not really close to your heart, but are just asked while you are worried about some other core things, but can't really see clearly and/or is afraid to touch! That is why i said, breathing or chanting is a more profitable investment, activity wise if your intention is to live a more satisfying life."

Ok. He did not really like that, and of course he raised his voice by 2 to 4 db to convince me how i am all wrong and how the questions are obviously real questions. And of course unsolvable questions. Who wants to be such a light sort of person, who asks easily solvable questions, that too in the philosophical and life realm. Most people think that they are stupid, and then try not to look stupid by doing silly things! Well that is autobiographical, so i know. As it progressed to a smirk and started venturing into correction of my personal life, myself spake thus:

"Dear friend, from the way you are making the points, the fervour, rather than the points themselves, i would think that you long to be understood, to be told that you are alright, that you are not all wrong and stupid, that it is alright to live ones own life and have ones own reasons, though there maybe imaginary and real people and theories questioning you why you have that reason to base your living on! Oh friend, i just stayed the constant here. You can have the constant in you always, and that is where we started the conversation. Who does not want to be loved for just what they are! Would you like to have some Papdi chat?"

Complex Problem Solving

2008-09-18T19:46:00.000-07:00

maybe like shepherding. the sheep keep moving and you constantly converge having some sort of a direction. it is not a single point focused direction, but you do get places you want. one who wishes the behaviour of the sheep to be perfect will have to kill them. but then you are in a different business and the sheep have no life!

Muted Window Plant

2008-09-10T19:11:00.000-07:00

Can't really hear you, plant. It's a muting window.

on the verge of getting up

2008-07-23T10:43:00.000-07:00

"What plans for the day?"
"I too thought about it. What about you?"
"Umm. Still thinking."

Hou Have Got Assisted

2008-07-23T08:53:00.000-07:00

i don't know russian.

Call back home

2008-07-22T07:39:00.001-07:00

The taxi driver came to Dubai since he had too many debts to pay back at home. Vyom does not know if the driver really hoped to earn more money in Dubai, but looks like the driver's financial situation was pretty bad. He had not called home- his wife and children -for four months. Before he used to call once in a month, but now he is not able to do that. The cab reached where Vyom had to. Vyom asked for the driver's home number. Vyom dialled the number in his phone and the driver talked to his family for the first time after all these months. As he finished the conversation and returned the phone, Vyom says the driver was crying, repeatedly saying 'No one else would have done this for him... he never thought anyone would do something like this for him...' Pretty moved, of course he would have been, but he never said "that too an Indian." I don't think from his house in Pakistan he could see the so called line that separates him from India, or the kids in Pakistan from those in India. Anyway he did not draw that line. Vyom didn't, for sure. This is a true story, in case you wanted to know.

2008-07-21T06:47:00.000-07:00

"crayons are better than bullets though they may look similar. with crayons you can paint more than just red." - nenooni

Pieces of sky that got stuck on my hair

2008-07-08T22:08:00.001-07:00

When the sky falls, some pieces do get stuck on my hair.

There fore as usual, i hung a half an hour on the hook, to melt.
And till the whole time melted away, i jumped around shaking my head and doing head and hand stands.
To get the pieces of sky out of my hair. You need it though you may be very watchful.

erodica

2008-06-25T08:39:00.001-07:00

erodic trapeziums

is it written from left to right or top to the other side!

Nenooni, Sparrow Cemetery, Here.

2008-06-21T18:30:00.001-07:00

Nenooni died when she was 82 years old.
She sang Norah Jones songs till the day before she died.
She watched Tom and Jerry till the day she died, the occasional baby mouse being her favourite.
She used to hug and kiss coconut trees. Once i heard Nenooni say that coconuts falling on someone's head is a way the coconut tree showed affection, the way kids play by bumping their heads on each others'. Some parents do that too, i have heard.
She massaged her servant maid's leg when the maid complained of long, standing and walking hours.
Nenooni was a person who knew children better than their parents or grandparents.
One night when i stayed with Nenooni, i saw the fiercest dog in the locality, Zenny by name, lie down and sleep the way dogs do, with her chin on the back of Nenooni's hand, though Nenooni was not her master.
Nenooni could have died sleeping, but she chose to sit down as she passed away.
God love them sparrows; the bird ones, i mean. There is a cemetery here, where they bury sparrows, when they are dead. When Nenooni died, i buried her in the self same cemetery, along with other sparrows.

how i built a house with luck

2008-06-11T06:19:00.000-07:00

nothing big story.

my parents were happy to spend money for my house. i just bought all the materials, cement and stuff. i kept them where i wanted the house to be built and did not even go to the site daily. after 10 or so months, aaha, the house was built. everyone admired my house, and many wanted to make it clear that they knew it was built because of luck.

thank you.

Being Alright

2008-06-08T07:47:00.000-07:00

“Feel the deepest shit of yourself” getting up slow; its routine!

“Not as bad as I…!”

“What is it?”

“Curving down my lower belly… It is a fu…”

“What is there on the other end of the fFulcrum?”

“Ambition. Me and the Great doubt on...”

“Faith up…”

“...by two notches. But who is this!”

“Is he there all the time?

“Yes. Whiner, frowner, complainer. Bent like a di…”

“May I suggest, Dinosaur? What on his/their back(s)?”

“Err… On their spines : you are never alright. Huh… Humm.”

“Smells of…?”

“Imposter, manipulator. Living on my allowance.”

“Ahem. :) My fees.”

I smiled, breathed deep.

“Much thanks. Let us have a cup of tea.” Said he.

6 photos from kerala

2008-06-07T23:19:00.000-07:00

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404 and the universal hammock

2008-06-06T08:25:00.001-07:00

I saw a batch of eggs with packaging date given as yesterday and thought of how the hen would feel : she thought she laid the egg, but when she turned around trying to get a view of the white one, "404 Egg Not Found".

This egg thing also reminded a friend hen of mine, who had a slightly above average version of the egg equivalent of constipation.(let us call it prostipation, after all it produces a desired result) I mean, there are many hens in this world, who have felt this at least as a short phase in life, and is often seen as a rite of passage signifying one change or transition, or the other. She was also about to write it of as the rite, but then... Usually 2 or maximum three days. But the reluctance to produce, associated with this particular incident, lasted for 5 days, 16 hours, 57 minutes and then things were moving. As soon as she laid the EGG, it fell to a side and on her left leg and it was sheer luck that she escaped with a broken back toe. She still relates this as a proof that, though zen masters may say 'random no-random games of mind', there exists the big plan and that her life is indeed a part of the big string that some people say, sways as one like Rama's hammock. Rama is a 7 year old girl in the house hold... I won't write about Rama. I am jobless, but not Ramawritingly jobless. You see... gonnane n athe lestangurglanras hihinazq.

The flying tortoise

2008-05-17T19:20:00.001-07:00

My friend, when cutting some Phd papers, caught this guy...

It is pretty hot inside the cave. I came up to the roof to sleep there, and that is when i noticed it.
The wires stretched to hang wet clothes to dry had sprouted, flowered and was now laden with numerous plastic garment clips. Such a nice sight to see for the farmer in me, in this arid and hard columned land.The moon was shining too bright, to not sway me too hard from sleeping. Guess He had given the option and did not really turn the light off.
Still wide eyed at the clip fruits, i groped for the switch. I could not find it. So i asked the Dark One and she said "Its in your head!" I found the switch and lied down. Later, half asleep, i noticed that i was thinking/dreaming of how to export the Moon-Clip interbeing in .slab format. Too much of business and software. I groped for the next switch and do not know when i slept.

Missing.

2008-05-13T18:38:00.001-07:00

Peanuts and Advaita or Aneka

2008-05-07T22:23:00.000-07:00

We read about advaita, how One appears as two, and once you crack it, the oneness (being not two) is seen. My recent experience shows that shelled peanuts are an exception to Advaita. On the outer, there is One shell. Once you crack it, there are two nuts! Duality. Two appears as One (being not one) Anekam.

what a relief in summer!

2008-05-02T09:35:00.000-07:00

Summer. Cool lime juice feels good.

Make it
Keep it inside the refrigerator
Give enough time to cool
Get inside the refrigerator*
Drink it
Come out

*for ones in Chennai

Dew kissed the Elephant

2008-04-11T20:22:00.000-07:00

High up on a tree.
Dew on a leaf. Elephant on another.
Dew told elephant about
Task Master vs Loving Mother &
The Myth of the pushy Rules of Perfection.
On Following taste Each Moment, Here Now!

The real uses...

2008-04-09T09:09:00.000-07:00

As the Mridangam Vidwan was playing inside the sound proofed chamber, the Violinist sitting outside followed it from the way the fingers moved. That is when the sweeper lady came in. She gestured to the mridangam player inside and told her apprentice, something to this effect: "Do you know what he is doing? If you do that, you get very nice callous on your fingers." The violinist smiled with compassion and kept on watching the player.

Eden Trash

2008-04-04T00:47:00.000-07:00

Try not look silly!
Left it in Eden times... Trash.

life to life...

2008-04-01T04:15:00.000-07:00

ME.If i were to be judged by myself, i could be condemned for 3 life imprisonments one after another, for crimes committed against myself.

But, Now when i see it... WOW! A whole human life all for me to live... The control panel of all resources and the channels that come, wholly for me to choose... :)

Isn't 't deemed a state divine!

the edirol pcr 300; my midi keyboard

mood for culture

2008-03-31T19:16:00.001-07:00

Prof at 11 o clock meanders through his teaching on india "theeyyyy... we.... preserve unity in diversity."

"Yo. summa iri ya. yare pathu?
unity diversity.
kathikkitte iruppan!
Inkeyyy...
i am trying to preserve my unity in spite of eccentricity.
Theriyuma unakku?"

[Yo = not very respectful tamil addressing style. Hip it is!
summa iri ya = sit down doing nothing (literal)
Kathikkitte iruppan! = keeps on shouting!
yare pathu? = to whom (are you?)
inke = here
theriyuma unakku? (do you know? (non respectful version)]

Flora and Ford

2008-03-31T18:24:00.000-07:00