LEXI

Girlfriend

2013-08-08T10:53:00.000-07:00

"Na na na, na na na

All I need in this life of sin is me and my girlfriend

Down to ride till the happy end, is me and my girlfriend

Where would you be, be without me

We'll never find out

What would I do, do without you

We'll never know now

Talking bout the lights, the dirt, the shit, that hurts

We're not gonna turn around

We're doing this for good, for worse

The gift, the curse, we're not gonna back down

All I need in this life of sin is me and my girlfriend

Down to ride till the happy end, is me and my girlfriend

All I need in this life of sin is me and my girlfriend

Down to ride till the happy end, is me and my girlfriend

I wanna feel the sun, the waves, the wind in my face

The speed, the chase, na na na

I wanna feel the sun, the waves, just wanna cross the states, making up as we go

That's how's gon' be, young wild and free

Not gonna slow down

Up to the max, until we crush, we're not gonna stop now

All I need in this life of sin is me and my girlfriend

Down to ride till the happy end, is me and my girlfriend

Na na na, na na na

All I need in this life of sin is me and my girlfriend

Down to ride till the happy end, is me and my girlfriend"

2013-08-06T04:43:00.003-07:00

I once knew a girl who loved
things most people shun.
Every man she ever loved was
terrible to her, terrible
I tell you.
But there was something
about them that intrigued
her - she liked broken things.
broken people.
To her, if there was
nothing to fix there was
nothing to love.

-Christopher Poindexter

It's so fucking hard to be happy

2013-07-14T07:47:00.001-07:00

Falling fast

2013-07-08T10:08:00.001-07:00

you can't control attachment

2013-07-03T06:10:00.001-07:00

People will always say that you must not get so attached to someone for they will leave you sooner or later. Others say that you must leave something for yourself or you should not give everything you have. But, how could that be possible? if you're in love with someone - you will give to world to that person, everything that will make that someone happy, you'll do anything that will make that someone feel she's worthy, she's loved and she's worth every piece the world can offer. You cannot control yourself not to be attached to someone you really love, someone you care about so much. Whatever happens and whatever you do, you will be attached, you will be "one".

"Are you happy?"

2013-07-01T07:20:00.001-07:00

" Are you happy?"

God knows how i try to be happy but even though i try so hard to be, there are still things that makes my happiness hard to achieve. I know that the biggest challenge here is myself but still, it is a process and a choice. So, I chose to go through the process so i won't just have temporary happiness but maybe a lifetime of it.

2013-06-26T09:54:00.000-07:00

"When was the last time you cried? Why?"

Gahhhh, its been 3 months since i last posted here in my blog. I apologize. Its not that i have been busy or what but for that last three months i felt really lazy and i just wanna enjoy my vacation. Did not do anything or a lot this summer but we went to Cebu and Bohol - i think that's the highlight of my vacation not my OJT. I hated my On-the-job-training cause for me its just a waste of time.

Anyhow, i'll answer the 15th question which is when was the last time i cried and what was the reason. I guess, i cried last Monday. I felt really sad which led me to crying. I realized that my life is so messed up, i'm not happy and i am not contented. That night i realized how stupid i am not to appreciate the things that i have because i always wanted more but still i know that even though getting that 'more' won't make me feel happy because sadly, i still want more and more and more. I am never contented and that makes my life really hard. I know that other people specially the ones who has been with me doesn't really know that i am not contented and not happy with what i have because i cannot talk to them about it for the reason that i am afraid on how they will look at me. I don't want to be like this. I want to be happy and appreciate everything i have, i want to stop looking for more because i know that at the end of the day that things will not make me truly happy. I want to stop. I want to change.

Clarity

2013-06-26T09:20:00.000-07:00

Clarity

"Hold still right before we crash

cause we both know how this ends

Our clock ticks till it breaks your glass and i drown in you again

cause you are the piece of me

I wish I didn't need

Chasing relentlessly

still fight and I don't know why

If our love is tragedy why are you my remedy

if our love's insanity why are you my clarity"

2013-03-20T02:00:00.001-07:00

"What do you want to be in the future?"

I want to be someone that i know myself can be proud of, someone who helps a lot of people and just living the dream that i am dreaming right now.

Stay

2013-03-20T01:54:00.000-07:00

Stay by Rihanna

"Round and around and around and around we go

oh now tell me now tell me now

tell me now you know

Not really sure how to feel about it

Something in the way you move

Makes me feel like i can't live without you

it takes me all the way

I want you to STAY"

Feelings

2013-02-22T10:45:00.001-08:00

I cannot express my feelings right now. I don't know.I'm lost. I don't know what's the right thing to do. I am so hurt that i can't even stop my tears from falling from my eyes. I feel so misunderstood and ignored. I feel like i am slowly dying. I can't help but to think about the things that she said which made me really sad and mournful. I know that feelings do fade but everyday and every night i always pray that she won't reach that moment that all she has to say is goodbye. :(

Suede

2013-01-27T04:30:00.001-08:00

I just can't resist you Topshop :(

2013-01-23T09:12:00.002-08:00

"Where do you want to be right now?"

I wanna be in the place where i really belong and feel happy. The place where i know that i can be relaxed and comfortable. The place where i'll stay for the rest of my life being happy and contented.

Arrow and TS

2013-01-23T05:22:00.001-08:00

Because of my cunning skill i have forced my mom to shop some things for me.. yehey!
Last week, she bought me a brown leather bag and earlier today i asked her if she can buy me some make-ups but instead of buying make-ups i found some goodies in topshop so i decided to buy there instead.

Black Leather Bag with Studs

White studded Shoes

Arrow dark brown vintage-y Bag

Thanks mommy! i love yew!

Give me Everything

2013-01-21T08:11:00.002-08:00

I can't get enough

2013-01-18T08:16:00.000-08:00

Everybody knows that i am in love and you know that when someone is in love they can do crazy and stupid things that others might not understand why. I pity them because i know that they haven't experienced being in love at all yet, maybe,yes, but way too far from what i feel right now. I know i'm young and i haven't experienced everything yet and i am not saying that i know everything but i know what i feel and i know what i'm doing. They can't understand what in love people can do because they have never felt it, they never felt love this strong. I am also surprised about this, about what i feel. I can't control it. I can't get enough.

I don't know why i still feel the same way towards her even though a lot of bad things have happened between us already. We're still here, in love, crazy and stupid. I really don't know how to react about this, i keep on asking myself if what i'm doing is still right and if its not i don't really give a damn. All i know is she makes me really happy and sad, and happy and sad and sometimes happy and sad at the same time. I love her so dearly that i can't even control myself on falling so much more with every fight and every reconciliation.

Help

2013-01-10T07:55:00.000-08:00

I can't wait to graduate, find a good paying job and get rich...

I was on my way to school yesterday then i saw an old man having a hard time going down from the side walk. It is really obvious that he's feeling pain from walking. I pity him so much but i can't do anything and that killed me. On the other street an old and weak man caught my eyes. He was selling newspapers and his eyes looked really tired, he walks very slow and that scared me because cars are all over the place. Going home on the same day, i saw a kid begging for money, i think he's just 2 years old. He's walking without slippers. That kid don't deserve to be on the streets asking for alms. Seeing them made me cry. Yes, i cried. I just wanna help them, feed them, provide them shelter, give them what they need but i can't because i don't have a lot of money, i don't have extra to help them. I know i can still help even without money but how? that's the number one thing that people need.

That's the reason why i want to graduate and to be rich - to help needy people. When i watch documentaries about poverty and how poor people live their lives which is really hard and degrading i just can't help but to cry and promise to myself that i will help them in God's perfect time.

I want to build shelters for street children and send them to school,provide homes for poor families, job for everybody and comfortable housing for senior citizens. I want everybody to be educated which they really deserve. I promise to help everybody that my helping hand can reach. If i don't get that rich i will still help in my own little way because i also believe that money isn't the only thing that may help them.

I really hope for a better future, not only for me but also for everybody. I know and believe that every body deserves a good, comfortable life, education, food on their plates and a job that can sustain them and their families.

I will help.

Long enough

2013-01-07T09:46:00.000-08:00

Ohh my fucking God! it's been a month since i posted my last blog entry.. fuck that shit! am i that lazy? Been busy with school and Christmas vacay. So yea, Christmas break is over now, back to reality. I really have a bulk of shits to do and it brings insanity in me. I can't stop thinking about my thesis, dieting, saving money and anything under the sun, its like i am really pressured to level up right now. Fortunately, i am really diligent and persistent to do the things that i am required to do. I feel so happy about that. I hope i will stay like this forever. I also want to buy a 2013 planner to fix my shit by schedule. I feel so responsible! fuck me, right?

Revlon

2012-12-08T23:58:00.001-08:00

Went to Makati yesterday to buy presents for family, friends and workers. It is really fun buying things that you will share on Christmas day, such a good feeling specially wrapping them and putting ribbons and tags on top of every colorful boxes and bags. yiieeee, i really feel the Christmas joy already.. :))

Anyhow, went to the make-up section and found out that Revlon was on 25% sale on chosen items so i rapidly asked the saleslady on what should i buy. Unfortunately, the liquid foundation that i like is not on sale but i bought it anyway. I also bought a new mascara. Mom bought the Age defying foundation and a brow enhancer.

Revlon ColorStay

Combination/Oily Skin

This is the foundation that i bought. The shade is in Sand Beige, as you can see, the shade is lighter than my skintone and the reason behind that is i am acidic. Maybe others don't know that when you put any shade to an acidic person the shade tend to be darker after a few minutes, not just foundations even lipsticks. So be careful on choosing your shades especially when you're acidic, like me.

Revlon Grow Luscious Mascara

This is the plumping mascara that i bought in 002 black noir. I have few and short eyelashes so i decided to buy this mascara which will make my eyelashes look thick and long. Also, this mascara can lengthen my eyelashes and add volume.

2012-12-08T22:20:00.002-08:00

I will remember the kisses

our lips raw with love

and how you gave me

everything you had

and how I

offered you what was left of

me.

Charles Bukowski

2012-12-05T04:51:00.000-08:00

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pixiwoo.blogspot.com

martine.biz

fashiontoast.com

Check them out guys :)

Better in time

2012-12-01T04:50:00.001-08:00

2012-12-01T01:51:00.002-08:00

You will miss me someday

and on that day you'll regret

not chasing me

Amazing moments in Life

2012-11-19T06:17:00.001-08:00

Christmas Wishlist

2012-11-10T06:53:00.003-08:00

Since Christmas is really in the air, i decided to blog about my Christmas wishlist. The last wishlist that i blogged was my birthday wishlist and unfortunately i only bought some on my list which are: new BB phone, chocolates, and milk teassss :)

Here are my Christmas wants:

Small and thin fucking planners like these

Safron Pink Square Heel Court from Miss Selfridge

A ring designed most likely these rings from her. <3

Mac Mineralize Skin finish

Revlon ColorStay

Book "tuesday with morrie by Mitch Albom"

Wish Bone Necklace