soundtrack of my life

p.s. i love you

2010-03-08T20:34:00.000-08:00

I bet you've had a hard time walking into a room full of people on your own, right? Yeah. I know that. I know what it is not to feel like your in the room until he looks at you or touches your hand or even makes a joke at your expense, just to let everyone know... you're with him. You're his.
--Patricia, P.S. I Love You

Every morning I still wake up and the first thing I want to do is to see your face.
I know what I want, because I have it in my hands right now. You.
--Gerry Kennedy, P.S. I Love You

broken down

2009-12-07T20:41:00.000-08:00

It takes time
To heal the wound I've made along the way
If I'm blind
Open my eyes 'cause I need to see again

If I can feel again
Will you tell me now
Or wait til I'm broken down again
Save me now
I'm broken

If I bleed
My lies won't fill the emptiness inside
I just need
For something real to open up my mind

Breaking down
I'm breaking down
Breaking down
I'm breaking down
It takes time

If I can feel again
Will you tell me now
Or wait til I'm broken down again
Save me now
I'm broken

If I can feel again
Will you tell me now
Or wait til I'm broken down again
Save me now
I'm broken

It takes time
Breaking down
I'm breaking down
If I can feel again

thousand mile wish

2009-09-29T20:06:00.001-07:00

Forgive me if now I wear the face of worry
This time alone could never cause any doubt
But I�ve been cold too long
Such a strange time to find myself coming down as the rain
With all the holes my love,
To fill up from the middle
This storm could stay all night

So can you stay until we close our eyes
Til your dreams hold mine
Just stay until we know we tried one more time

Cause laughing lovers can overcome their closest demons
And they�ll go on and they won�t let go
They saw something that they know
Has never come so close
Can it stay here for us, for now?

Can it stay until we know ourselves?
I�m torn as I tell
You�re the story that I know and fell from
I�m so far into your story I don�t know why
We think we�re in control
When we lie between the lines

We�ll find a line to follow
It�s got to show real soon
Or we�ll never reach this high

We climb a little further
Cause there�s nothing we can�t get around together
Further gets colder until nothing was all that I saw around

So we stay until the ground
That we can�t come down from splits us away
Maybe stars know why we fall
I just wish they were thinking out loud
Oh, I could wish all night

2009-09-08T03:18:00.000-07:00

Your face lights up the sky on the highway.
Someday, you'll share your world with me someday.
You mesmerize me with diamond eyes;
I try to fool myself to think I'll be alright.
But I am losing all control -
My mind, my heart, my body and my soul

Never in my life have I been more sure,
So come on up to me and close the door.
Nobody's made me feel this way before;
You're everything I wanted and more.

To speak or not to; where to begin.
Your great dilemmas I'm finding myself in.
For all I know you only see me as a friend.
I try to tell myself wake up fool; this fairy tale's got to end.

Never in my life have I been more sure,
So come on up to me and close the door.
Nobody's made me feel this way before;
You're everything I wanted (more)."

You're everything I wanted

i choose you

2009-08-25T02:10:00.000-07:00

Heh, you know
Someone loses someone they love everyday
And I'm fortunate to still have you in my life
'Cause I know I made some mistakes in the past but
I'm tired of making excuses
Listen

For whatever might have been
And all that it never was
Whatever I couldn't see
And all that I didn't want

There was a method to my madness girl
That wasn't clear to me
Until the day I saw your face
When I saw everything

For I saw us dancing through sunshine and rain
And I saw us laughing through joy and through pain
And I saw time passing but we did not change
And I still saw us together at the end of every day

Whenever you want it
Whenever you need it
Whatever you feel like, it's gon' be like
You better believe it
Whenever you feel like dancing
You don't have to dance alone, no
You know, you know, you know
You should already know
I choose you
I choose you
I choose you
I choose you
I choose you
I choose you
I choose you
I choose you

I felt you inside myself
Before I could even feel
I knew you like no one else
But still I couldn't tell, Oh
Girl, none of it made sense to me
Girl, none of it was real
Until the day I saw your face
And it was clear to see

Whenever you want it (Whenever you want it)
Whenever you need it (Whenever you need it, baby)
Whatever you feel like, it's gon' be like
You better believe it (You better believe it)
Whenever you feel like dancing
You don't have to dance alone, no (Oh, no)
You know, you know, you know
You should already know
I choose you (I choose you, baby)
I choose you (I choose you, girl)
I choose you
I choose you (You know that I choose you)
I choose you
I choose you
I choose you
I choose you

Throughout our times, people have searched their lives
Hoping that they might find the chance where they can make things right
Through my desire, thank God I found the fire
Oh, for everything has led me straight to you (Youuuu....)

Whenever you want it
Whenever you need it (Baby)
Whatever you feel like, it's gon' be like
You better believe it (Oh, you better believe it)
Whenever you feel like dancing
You don't have to dance alone, no
You know, you know, you know
You should already know
I choose you
I choose you
I choose you
I choose you
I choose you
I choose you
I choose you (Yeah, oh baby darling)
I choose you (Said I'm choosing you)

I choose you (Oh baby baby)
I choose you (Girl I made up my mind)
I choose you (And I choose you)
I choose you
I choose you
I choose you
I choose you
I choose you

you make it real

2009-08-03T04:45:00.000-07:00

for my pronks....

There's so much craziness surrounding me
There's so much going on it gets hard to breathe
all my faith has gone you bring it back to me
You make it real for me
well I'm not sure of my priorities
I've lost site of where I"m meant to be
And like holy water washing over me

You make it real for me
And I'm running to you baby
You are the only one who save me
That's why I've been missing you lately
Cause you make it real for me

When my head is strong but my heart is weak
I'm full of hurricanes and uncertainty
But i can find the words
You teach my heart to speak

You make it real for me
And I'm running to you baby
You are the only one who save me
That's why I've been missing you lately
Cause you make it real for me

Everybody's talking in words
I dont understand
You got to be the only one
Who knows just who I am
And you shine in the distance
I hope I can make it through
cause the only place
That i want to be
is right back home with you

I gues there's so much more
i have to learn
but if you're here with me
i know which way to turn
you always give me somewhere,
somewhere i can learn

You make it real for me
And i'm running to you baby
Cause you are the only one who save me
That's why i've been missing you lately
cause you make it real for me
You make it real fo rme

not meant to be

2009-07-26T19:06:00.000-07:00

It's never enough to say I'm sorry
It's never enough to say I care
But I'm caught between what you
Wanted from me, and knowing
If I give that to ya
I might just disappear.

Nobody wins when everyone's losing

Oh, it's like

One step forward and two steps back
No matter what I do you're always mad
And I can't change your mind,

Oh, it's like

Trying to turn around on a one way street
I can't give you what you want
And it's killing me and I, I'm starting to see
Maybe we're not meant to be

It's never enough to say I love you
No, it's never enough to say I try
It's hard to believe that's there's
No way out for you and me
And it seems to be,
The story of our life

Nobody wins when everyone's losing

It's like one step forward and two steps back
No matter what I do you're always mad
And I can't change your mind, oh

It's like trying to turn around on a
One way street. I can't give
You what you want and it's killing me
And I, I'm starting to see
That maybe we're not meant to be

There's still time to turn this around
Should we be building this up
Instead of tearing it down
But I keep thinking
Maybe it's too late.

It's like one step forward
And two steps back,
No matter what I do
You're always mad
And I, can't change your mind, oh

It's like tryin to turn around
On a one way street
I can't give you what you want
And it's killing me and I,
I finally see,
Baby we're not meant to be

It's like one step forward,
And two steps back,
No matter what I do
You're always mad,
And I, Baby I'm sorry to see,
Maybe we're not meant to be

save me from me

2009-07-23T20:16:00.000-07:00

If you only knew the pain
The pain I keep inside
THe pain that makes me "me"
Then without it who am I
IN a room with broken walls
I lay in scene and dreams
I want you to see

I'm cold and white
I'm holding on
I'll try to breathe for you
I'm crying out
I'm singing loud
You could be all I need

And I'm losing my will
Just to hold you in
I'm giving up the hope
That you could have been the one
To save me from me
And now our lips will meet
And i'll taste their defeat
I'll give in this once

I'm cold and white
I'm holding on
I'll try to breath for you
I'm crying out
I'm singing loud
You could be all I need

Still I know I'll carry on
Guide me through the life I lost
To find these faults in me
TO find these faults in me

I'm cold and white
I'm holding on
I'll try to breath for you
I'm crying out
I'm singing loud
You could be all I need

I'm cold and white
I'm holding on
I'll try to breath for you
I'm crying out
I'm singin loud
You could be all I need

To save me from me

2009-06-04T20:19:00.000-07:00

Walking alone tonight
'Cause I've only got room for two.
Me and my burdened black heart,
It's all we know how to do.

Yet I look for a bigger bang
Than the kind I continually see.
Sick of all this inertia,
Oh, won't you mend me?

Lover, can you help me?
I'm a child lost in the woods.
A black heart pollutes me
And I think...

You're a mountain that I'd like to climb,
Not to conquer, but to share in the view.

Pulled by a false inertia,
Pushed out by circumstance.
Pistol firing at my feet
That's coercing me to dance.

Yet I look for a bigger bang
Than the kind I'm sorry to know.
Here I am, first foot of the climb.
Watch me go.

Lover, can you help me?
I'm a child lost in the woods.
A lit path eludes me
And I think...

You're a mountain that I'd like to climb,
Not to conquer, but to share in the view.
You're a bonfire and I'm gathered 'round you.
Set this old black heart inertia aflame.
Send it away...

You're a mountain that I'd like to climb,
Not to conquer, but to share in the view.
You're a bonfire and I'm gathered 'round you.
Set this old black heart inertia aflame.

...

2009-05-31T23:28:00.000-07:00

In the moonlight
Your face it glows
Like a thousand diamonds
I suppose
And your hair flows like
The ocean breeze
Not a million fights
Could make me hate you
You're invincible
Yeah, It's true
It's in your eyes
Where I find peace

Is it broken?
Can we work it out?
Let's light up the town, scream out loud!
Is it broken?
Can we work it out?
I can see in your eyes
You're ready to break
Don't look away.

So here we are now
In a place where
The sun blended
With the ocean thin.
So thin, we stand
Across from each other
Together we'll wonder
If we will last these days
If I asked you to stay
Would you tell me
You would be mine?

And time
Is all I ask for
Time
I just need one more day
And time
You've been crying too long
Time
And your tears wrote this song
Stay

In the moonlight
Your face it glows

Is it broken?
Can we work it out?
Let's light up the town, scream out loud!
Is it broken?
Can we work it out?
I can see in your eyes
You're ready to break
Don't look away.